#im about to have a quarter life crisis

[dandelions-fly-in-summer-skies]

FUCK

#im about to have a quarter life crisis #bye tumblr #just dandy thoughts

[apathyfairy]

age 0-18 is like i need to be older than i am now. i need to grow up so i can finally live my life. and age 19-21 is like ok i’m finally an adult but i don’t feel like it at all lol so..what am i supposed to do with my life ? and 22 and beyond is just feeling so old like you wasted your entire life and can’t relate to anyone and there’s nothing you can do about it at all

#i know im straight up wasting my life whatever that means and i literally cant remember the last 7 years because i did nothing #everything feels too late to start and i just feel like an idiot i feel like a literal baby whos never done anything ever before in the body #of like a 40 year old mother i have absolutely no concept of who i am or what is going on and i literally feel so old i want to kill myself #literally i see people my age and by see people i mean watch youtubers and im like ok theyre still young and then i think about myself and #im like lmao u are so old and u have no idea what is going on like i cant take much more of this. i think it's mostly because i spent my #whole life trying to be older because i was just never the right age for anything i always needed to be older for everything #and now i am and i missed my opportunities for everything i wanted to do and now im realizing i never took advantage of being young #and whatever midlife crisis i know but i just feel so out of it lately like im not even here and i just wasted my whole life and that's that #and yes midlife crisis not quarter life crisis because im not living much longer bc if i feel this way in my 20s i wont make it to #my late 30s #i just ! feel like i missed the part of my life where i do something good and can feel stable and like ok. ive lived some life and done this #and this and this and it's like no i havent. ive just been waiting for something to happen that's never going to happen and i dont even know #what the something i would be waiting for is but ive been waiting and nothing happens unless you do it yourself and i just waited too #long to figure that out and now im just a failure through and through #literally just dead weight floating around the universe

[allbeendonebefore]

so they are discussing how long the official mourning period is going to be (full time half time whatever time) and whether our memorial service will happen and if it does whether it happens on the same date as the uk etc and here i am like. upset because the new season of my favourite british comedy of course falls in that two week period and I’m Mad.

#no we dont need to reprint any money and no we dont have an obligation to put charlie on it #and luckily we got rid of all the stuff about shutting down the country in the 80s #awkward time for citizenship ceremonies right now though lol #im going to go back to finishing my inappropriately timed art #hapo rambles #anyway thats as much as i am gonna comment on THAT #we are back to your regularly scheduled quarter life crisis

[kafkaesqueer]

24 is actually the last year of your 20s at 25 you're basically 30 and who knows what happens after that

#im having a quarter life crisis #gonna be 25 in march #not very thrilled about it #i still feel like a teenager

[selamat-linting]

not to be a cunt but i do have a slight superiority complex because i've been through things that would make the average people kill themselves. if someone comes up to me, and say they've given up or they dont think of having a future, chances are i would mock them behind their backs. like, when i was a kid even my extended family and some of my neighbors THINK i wouldn't be able to finish elementary school because my mom and dad is a poor fuck up and i was a freak autistic little kid who cant afford a textbook. like, talk to me about hopelessness when even your own relatives see you as a baby and think you cant do the bare minimum. like, i do think im better than some of my friends.

#this is generalizing of course #and only applies to my irl peers who is mostly an ablebodied and neurotypical middle class kid who is having their quarter life crisis #like seriously. some of them have their college tuition PAID for by their parents #and they still feel like they'll never have a future #or they'd bitch about surviving a toxic relationship as if its as horrifying as witness domestic abuse as a kid #please stop venting to me i literally have no sympathy to your problems #YOU have the power to break this pattern yet you sit in complacency and simmer in depression until it almost killed you #i'll try my best to be a decent person to you but i have no sympathy #posts about my life #disclaimer : i know this is a problematic thing to say. i know im being an asshole. i know i should have more compassion #but rn. i dont have it

[lexa-griffins]

How the fuck do i turn 25 yo tomorrow, i dont wanna, it's stupid, the passage of time must stop

#been feeling so anxious about it for the past week #this is not a 'i dont want to grow up' #this is a 'i am a failure of a 25 yo' and id rather not think about it #perhaps im already having a quarter life crisis who knows dhsjsjznzoznzoz #ignoreme.jpg

[rose-of-the-valley]

hey diavolo now would be a great time to whisk me into the devildom for the exchange program chop chop get on it

#having a quarter life crisis about deciding on a career #i keep ending up in teaching adjacent jobs and im starting to wonder if i should just commit #biggest hurdle is really picking a subject and taking the CSET #in the meantime im reteaching myself calculus so i can tutor at my friend's business #rose speaks

[xxcherrycherixx]

ok time for crazy person rambles right now

so like in why do ghouls fall in love i noticed something "all i remember is looking into his puppy dog eyes and never wanting to look away" and with the framing of the next shot it seems to imply that the spell causes her to be naturally drawn to clawds eyes.

but wait? doesn't she bring up another guys eyes all the time?

CUPID'S OBSESSION WITH DEXTER IS CAUSED BY A LOVE SPELL.

ok so there is so much to go over here:

cupid's crush on dexter comes out of nowhere based only on seeing a picture where dexter ISN'T wearing glasses

dexter is canonically able to charm people with his pretty eyes, normally the glasses negate the effect but further evidence makes me believe it still works under certain circumstances, specifically if the person is looking for his eyes.

the first time we see cupid fantasise about dexter, his eyes are the focus of the shot. in fact later in thronecoming we see her idealized version of him has none of his actual personality so im pretty sure even if her crush isn't caused by a spell then its at least just really superficial lmao

she becomes really obsessive in a way that isn't normal for her to behave, monster high cupid loved to help others find true love and didnt let her feelings get in the way of that, but that completely changes with dexter. she knows he doesn't love her and that his crush on raven is mutual, but she still tries to get with him again and again. and then there's the stalker-ish pictures, the pages full of nothing but doodles of him, the subtle manipulation to endear herself to him. all of it screams wrong, raven literally notices this change and gets worried but cupid brushes it off saying she just has a crush, but does that really work as an explanation when its gone this far?

So what is my conclusion? I believe something happened that night in the attic, i don’t know what, but thats when this all started.

But i also have another possibility: while she was in fact charmed by his eyes, the fact that she was having a identity crisis at the same time caused her to latch onto her crush to prove she’s right, this is why its so obsessive. She’s desperate to fit in to some sort of happily ever after that she latched onto the first prince she showed any signs of interest in, magically induced or not. Now i can go on a long tangent on how i think Cupid is trying to force her way into being a fairytale, which includes her possibly tampering with the large storybook of legends (why was she chilling on top of it? Why did it show a story for her when she has none?)

but its 10 in the morning and i just woke up so we are not doing that.

Anyway no matter how i split it, i think she’s love spelled. Most likely not in the exact way her arrows work but a lesser version either entirely caused by dexters charming power or another sinister force ( lets be honest its either the evil queen again or fucking milton grimm like always.)

Or of course cupid is just going through like a midlife crisis, could be that tbh wouldn’t be surprised 🫠 (wait can you call it a midlife crisis if its unknown if its even the middle of your lifespan? Like this chick has no idea how long she has this could be like a quarter life crisis or a 0.2% life crisis- hmm)

#ever after high #c.a cupid #im respouting the same shit everyoneelse has #idk i started writing this at 4am then went to sleep and then immediately continued it the moment i woke up im still have asleep #im seeing double so if theres thpos you know why #goidnight

[thehopelessexception]

how can a person know everything at 18 but nothing at 22 (almost 24)

warning: im writing this while im on my period and eating ice cream.

i've been dissociating for what now? half a year maybe more. i dont recognize reality. i feel im floating in this sea we call society and i've been feeling the wilson of the story here. i assume everything that's happening around me is real, ofc. but that doesnt make it any less a convenient arrangement i build for myself to try to act like a real person and not freak out. i am feeling out of reality. like the part of the game where you let the sim on auto-mode. i am the sim on auto-mode. and i don't know how to stop this stage of oblivion.

to make a vague introduction, the thing with me is that im a living paradox of a full time contradiction. i am flamboyant but i hate being perceived. i like to speak up for myself but i hate people thinking about me because of it. i have my own process of how i understand things. i trust logic and i question everything. im quite skeptical over things when there's no empirical evidence. i seek for knowledge. critical thinking, data analysis and the whole stuff. i know myself. i sometimes look like i am too obnoxious, frivolous, morally corrupted (people have told me that), when i obsess over something —because i sometimes treat people like they are stupid (not my intention really)—; but probably the only thing im completely sure of is myself. i tend to be a confident person, to have an ego, to not let the guard down, to calculate every single move. and lately i am noticing myself being impulsive, insecure, nervous, weird, saying stupid shit, nonsenses, feeling small. and i don't know how to make it stop. the thing is i put my whole self-esteem backed up by my intelligence, however im not sure of anything anymore. i don't know if the reason behind not recognising myself lately is the fact i have somehow a new crush —or a new hyperfixation for that matter— or just the natural act of growing, also known as the quarter life crisis.

i have this thing where i hyperfix on random stuff, i've been like this my whole life. one of my friends even made a powerpoint of all the things i've been obsessed with over the years. and the issue here is that this things never last that much, or maybe they do? i actually never though about it. the most random ones i remember are probably me buying ice-cream cakes of this specific brand every week for two months. i also got obsessed with eating too many scrambled eggs all day every day for a very long time. then it was that turkish telenovela on an airing channel. then ofc succession, and it grew into watching every single movie kieran culkin was part of. the world cup. mbti —im intj by the way—. red white and royal blue (i watched it five times in a day), then nicholas galitzine —did yk he has a lineage that comes all the way from the romanovs?— and his entire filmography. and also politics, i got way into politics; election campaigns, follow up candidates, history, economy, the law, etc (my candidate lost tho) (we're succumbing to disgrace) (like literally we collectively, as a country, haven't had any kind of good news since then) (please help me). and etc etc. but the thing is, i also hyperfix on random people, or not so random i guess. it doesnt happen very often tho, im quite picky, but the procedure is this: i meet someone, they draw somehow my attention, i want to know everything about this person, i talk to this person a lot (medium to long term) (week to months), and then this person becomes my friend or i get bored and completely ignore them for the rest of my life and move on.

but this time is different, or im feeling it different. i find myself questioning everything i know and i was convinced of. i dont know if it has something to do with the fact that i met someone, probably the first person wise enough to make me question if i was ever correct about anything. maybe i am hyperfixating on this person, idealizing them. but it's truly amazing how much more data this person has about everything i know of. and right now i feel way too insecure, because even if this person told me they find me smart and they enjoy talking to me, i am always thinking that if i say something not completely fact-checked they'll think im stupid. it's absurd. it's a boohoo situation, i know. and it's a process im having about who am i, or what am i supposed to be. some months ago the whole context around my life changed or i think it changed? i dont know how to explain it, —i mean i know how but i would have to talk about other things not related to this (politics stuff, things happening in my country, etc). i'll probably will make a new post about it someday—. but the whole issue is, i dont know myself anymore. and everything is crumbling.

im afraid the person i build for myself it's a fraud. or doesnt exist anymore.

i remember myself at 18, and i was this marvellous whole person. independent, smart, focused, driven. that girl spent their whole days outside her house. did everything she wanted to. wasnt scared of anything. and i look at myself now and think how? the pandemic has a lot to do with it i guess, but when i first heard taylor saying that in nothing new i thought "that wont happen to me". guess what, i was wrong.

for my fellow girlies being 23 —in my experience— is exactly how they say it will be. the worst age of your life.

next month is my birthday and im pushing 24. and i have to say my life is a mess. but i dont know if i can call it a mess because it is truly a mess or because i am a complete drama queen. because people probably have worse problems than mine, and i am what you call a white girl, only poorer —and a third world country citizen—. the issue is, i am almost 24, almost 25. almost 27. ALMOST 30. and i did nothing with my life. absolutely nothing. my mom had me at 29 for god's sake.

and by nothing i mean everything i do is not enough to feel it worthy of a life well-lived. should i look for a job and work while studying just to say i am extremely occupied because i have somehow a life? just to feel something? even if that makes my stress situation and anxiety even worse? should i somehow save enough money so i can move from my parents house? even if for my whole generation it's close to impossible? is studying something i (kinda) like enough to not feel like shit about myself? i've never had a boyfriend, nor girlfriend. shoud i look for one? get myself one? even if i dont think any of that would make me happy? i dont think i know happiness as a state of mind, nor the concept of it.

i dont feel like i have many anecdotes to tell in my future. should i measure the life-worth by anecdotes? my friends feel the same way i do, but they have a more organized life. jobs, boyfriends, careers, plans for the future, one of my closest friends move to the other side of the world with her boyfriend (!) in the blink of an eye. but they aren't much happy nor they have many anecdotes either. and i dont have the money or the guts or the available friends to create any.

every day i understand fleabag a bit more.

my favourite anecdotes about my life are from when i was about 13 and 15 years, also known as the worst time of my life. i didnt appreciated it back then, probably none of us did. but when we were teens everything was possible and we didnt have a care on anything other than mundane stuff or rebellious stuff but nothing more than yelling at people, drinking and smoking weird shit (i never had weed tho). not a real responsibility. being careless, free, avoiding consequences that mattered. i think that girl hates me right now. and i am not sure if that's the feeling i should have or if it's just utterly pathetic.

#girlblogging #girlblogger #girl blogger #girl interrupted #girly things #gaslight gatekeep girlblog #this is a girlblog #girl problems #girly stuff #girl blogging #girlcore #girl boss gaslight gatekeep #girl interupted syndrome #girl rotting #girlhood #girlblog aesthetic #girlblog #femcel #girlrotting #hell is a teenage girl #i’m just a girl #just girly thoughts #just girlboss things #taylor swift #nothing new #this is what makes us girls #fleabag #20s #life in your 20s #20 something

[angstics]

its so devastating that the 2000s cultural stars did not align for more people to do mcr torchwood aus. RIP frank iero you would have loved the weevils

Stop making me think about thissss hahaha im starting to imagine how it’d be if like gerard in 2001 decided his quarter life crisis should take him to the uk. And he travels around the isles, working odd jobs, til he stumbles on rift activity in cardiff while like delivering ink to a crazy welsh artist he works for. And he stumbles on torchwood and gwens his way in through his boyish bisexual charms. This was all an excuse to imagine 2002 gerard macking on jack harkness. the others are introduced when they get to america for miracle day (gerard survives all that but not miracle day). the emerging band is a side plot -- the macabre becomes very popular. they have something to do with jack's blood thing i dont remember the plot of miracle day. wait omfg the camps. well. idk how they die but they die together saving the day

#ask #this is still rpf cuz torchwood happened in real life #their manager is that gay italian dude

[sgtmickeyslaughter]

WEEKLY TAG WEDNESDAY

The self care edition

thank you for tagging me @creepkinginc @jrooc @lingy910y and @energievie

Name: gigi

Age: 24

What kind of day is it? i wish everyone reading this could have sat in my last design presentation this evening. it was such a bizarre combination of frustrating and horrible and absurdly hilarious we were all laughing hysterically once we saw those clients were on the elevator - pouring a big girl glass of wine as i type this

When was the last time you ate? like 10 hours ago, but I never eat lunch and dinner is in the oven at the moment

About how many hours of sleep did you get? 5 💀

Name one thing you could do to make your day better right now: text bomb all my friends in my field about my horrible meeting

Why are you not doing that thing? believe me yall, I am

What are you going to do tonight to relax? hanging out on tumblr right now, after dinner I usually write but im having a little writers block atm, so ill patiently work on my comic project and watch tele until it passes

What comfort food do you not eat often enough? Poke

What’s stopping you? its so far away :'(

Have you ever had a professional massage? no but I've really been thinking about it, but i dont like the dentist or hairdressers so I dont think i would like it, luckily my partner gives very good massages

Have you eaten fruits and vegetables today? you know it! I had lychee and bananas with breakfast and im having a salad with dinner

How much water have you had today? many glasses, im always sippin

Is there a self-care gadget you really want to buy? nothing comes to mind but ill put all of you onto something - buy an ergonomic mouse if you spend a lot of time on the computer, my hand was going numb by the end of thesis and this thing changed my life

this is the one i got, its a little pricey and im sure theres cheaper ones but seriously, changed my life

What is your favourite healthy snack?

stovetop popcorn poped in sesame oil and finished with furikake - thank me later

What is your favourite unhealthy snack? jalapeño chips

What is one thing you are going to start doing RIGHT NOW to take better care of yourself? quit my job and move to another city for my quarter life crisis idk yoga?

And to close, I want you to say one NICE thing to yourself that you really need to hear right now: i absolutely adore you! youre amazing! incredible! keep up the good work! fuck that lady with the ugly hair who shit all over your work *eye twitch*

how do you self care? @sweetbee78 @ian-galagher @mybrainismelted @mmmichyyy @iansw0rld @juliakayyy @howlinchickhowl @bawlbrayker @mickeysgaymom @stocious

#tag game #sgt says

[linos-luna]

TW: Depression , ED

So I’m like super depressed and I feel like I’m having a quarter life crisis. Nothing I do seems to make me happy.

I don’t wanna be a lawyer like a family wants and I don’t care about being a paralegal. I have no passion for either of them

I’ve trained myself in dancing and have auditioned for companies online many times but nothing. I think they believe I’m considered too old now. Plus i really don’t fit the KBS. Even if I am half Asian, all they see is me being a tan skinned latina. I’ve always been super insecure about my looks and it sucks

I had a dream that’s been bugging me wear I was auditioning in person for a company and they said I was good but may need some surgery to look younger. I asked how old they thought I was and this guy said 28… I’m 24 🙁

I’ve had issues with an ED for years and I still feel like I’m not thin enough. I look at dance covers I film then instantly delete because I hate my body. I feel like no matter what I do, I never look thin enough on camera and it’s frustrating.

Im really just not having a good time right now. I’m going to an anime convention this Saturday with my friend and I should be excited but I’m not… like at all….

This depression is hitting hard and all I wanna do is cry all day

#vivi rants

[lateraniansweets]

I mean if you want to write on the pregnancy I’m interested in hearing your thoughts, I guess I went a little too dramatic in trying to come up with an idea lol

HELP (totally understandable)

i think the way amuro would react to the news mainly depends on two things. how long the two of you have been together and if we're talking about zeta or cca amuro just because of the state he's in mentally in both iterations.

for cca amuro we have the non-canon (?) beltorchika's children novels that i love and hate as a good benchmark on his reaction tbh. wether or not you guys have been in a long term relationship doesn't matter because he'll take responsibility so he won't walk out on you (but axis will make him buy milk). in terms of like the relationship between the two of you having an already established relationship matters. he'd take responsibility which in this case can be child support to full-on marrying you (the things id do to marry amuro ray tbh) even if he doesn't really want to because to quote BC novel amuro 'it's not like i have a choice' which makes me lean on the idea that he'll marry you for the baby as that's his idea of taking responsibility.

for zeta amuro i just have one question. how?????????????? like in between joining karaba and his house arrest schtick did he have the chance to get laid and have a baby.

okay but seriously giving zeta amuro the weight of incoming fatherhood will make things worse for him. he was miserable and dealing with sm trauma from the OYW and adding a child into the mix is just terrible. i don't think you or him would be happy in this situation with amuro's inner turmoil and the constant stress/danger that he/both of you would be in during the gryps conflict.

overall i dont think amuro's the type of actively want a child and dreads the idea of being a father. personally i think parenthood would just make him more of an internal mess even if its the better adjusted cca amuro so yeah.

i like to think that in the surprise baby situation because im a sucker for sweet moments its in a timeline/au where amuro is actually given the time and support system during zeta where he isn't constantly getting called a coward for not wanting to fight or go to space because of magic newtype PTSD.

in this timeline i think he'd still have a certain degree of apprehension to the situation but would cope with it better and wouldn't straight up ghost you for 4-5 business days to let the whole thing settle in like i think cca and zeta would. like i said in cca he'd take responsibility but there wouldn't be any sort of driving force where marriage (if you guys aren't already) becomes the go-to ie char saw a dinosaur documentary during his quarter life crisis and decided to replicate it. or literally just his life during zeta. i think without that rush or push for marriage would do him good and help settle him for fatherhood.

anyways tldr; amuro has a lot going on in his life becoming a soon to be dad has a good chance of making things worse for him even if he doesn't realise it.

#gundam x reader #amuro ray x reader #amuro ray #i kinda wanna write smthn about this tbh #imagine crip shopping with this man #I NEED TO BE SEDATED WHEN IT OEMS TO HIM AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #amuro is like a turduken of isssues #but i wouldn't have him in any other way #gundam #^asks #sorry main gundam tag im losing it

[tigersorange]

me after unintentionally skipping my online class bc im having a quarter life crisis about my body of work

[chiccherrysblog]

Day 16? Of making life more interesting-

I read somewhere that writing five hundred or more words it can really benefit you if you want a career in writing. So far it really hasn't been that bad. I mean I know im not so good with actually posting on here but im trying and I've still been writing but there is just something more satisfying about writing on paper. The way it feels with the pen on it you know? It just satisfies my brain in ways I no longer understand. Anyway, I just watched the proposal with Sandra bullock and Ryan Reynolds. Since watching it I have noticed the fact that it is just a common theme for editors to fall in love with their assistants. I mean look at mirandy. It's basically a straight version of them. Also watching Sandra bullock climb down a ladder in stilettos has given me a higher respect for her. I mean I already respected her for participating in the masterpiece that is oceans eight, but now it has dramatically increased.

Also, I've just realised how much I actually have to save in order to even have enough money for a plane ticket to view apartments in New york, including the possibility of having roomates. I say plural due to the amount of time I've spent in an evening watching friends and reading the devil wears prada. Honestly would not complain with either option. After sharing a room with my sister for quite a few years now, I'm guessing I could survive living with random strangers who could either be the nicest people on the planet or make me want to tear my own hair out. It shouldn't be that hard. Right? Maybe? I dont know. As long as I can invest in some good headphones and WiFi it should mean I can still work my way to the top without seriously considering living in a random hotel somewhere. If miranda could do it, so can I. I hope. I mean I know i can do all the academic stuff but I seriously need to work on my people skills. And being able to tolerate random small noises. And certain people. And coffee being made differently to how i make it. It shouldn't be that hard. I mean I should get to the bit where I can just sort of zone out all of the potentially irritating and distracting and not completely necessary noises. I can still get my pulitzer prize after becoming a US citizen which is harder than I thought it was and oh my god if I keep writing about this I'm pretty sure I may have yet another not even at quarter life crisis. So um...today was okay other than the crisis and migraine that doesn't seem to want to leave no matter how many of those stupid painkillers I take. My new years resolution doesn't seem to have worked as I find myself drinking more coffee than when the year started.

#blog #blogger #making life interesting #day in the life #sandra bullock #the proposal #ryan reynolds #friends #the devil wears prada #new york #editor in chief #pulitzer prize #roomates