I'll be back to normal soon my lovely doodles. Things just have not been good on the home front and I need to take care of them first so I can relax enough to be here. I love & miss you all.
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"STOP LOOKING UP PUZZLE SOLUTIONS STOP SPOILING YOURSELF YOU'RE RUINING GAMES FOR YOURSELF YOU'RE DOING IT WR-" if i hadn't already known hollow knight's story i never would have played it and if i hadn't googled how to do some of the puzzles i wouldn't be as far in it as i am now. some of us prefer the enjoyment of coming into community more than the satisfaction of solving a puzzle and some of you guys need to learn to cope with that
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been sick as fuck and i dont get lunch im so tired i dont have energy to do anythingg
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man....sometimes i wish i could quit my job and go back to freelancing but i literally cannot make enough off of freelancing to make ends meet. i pay rent, buy my own groceries, and pay my bills. plus my medicine. like i do Not get commissions and stuff when i charge what i actually think my art is worth...so im stuck working at my very taxing job that exhausts me to the point of not being able to partake in my passions because i am just so fucking. tired.
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Thankfully the only injury I got was the leg bruise.. but that wasn't even from the shipment lmao. I was trying to find smth from our storage room to prop the hallway doorway open with & there is this like.... idk, INCREDIBLY heavy box of like. Linoleum tiles I think?? It's only like a foot squared by like six inches high. Not very big but oh LORD it's heavy. Perfect for propping a door open!
Or so I thought. Got down in a crouch, gave it a hefty lift... but that thing Has to be like close to a hundred pounds bc I can lift 50 pounds with ease. I lifted it, but it was still Way Too Much. So I fumbled it, & it hit my leg as I dropped it to the ground.
I went and found a smaller box of coconut milk that was MUCH lighter & used that to prop the door open instead lol
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It's been over 3 weeks now that I've been feeling sick and exhausted with a fluctuating temperature thats been over 99 most evenings.
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I've been remembering my nightmares a lot lately and they're starting to get to me a little bit. (CW for brief descriptions of violence/assault/unreality and venting)
Last night's was a weird one. It was the first time in my nightmares where me saying "no" was even remotely respected. I'm so used to having my begging be ignored and ending up experiencing something I do not want to think about. I don't know how to feel about it. It's a really weird mix, having something like that happen and also moments later watching people get their skulls drilled open while they are awake and screaming ._.
The other day, my nightmare included a rotting man in a moldy and disgusting bunny costume, where he would stand perfectly still until I got close and then he would lunge out and grab me. I think he's gonna be burned into my brain for awhile.
Ever since one nightmare, I've been getting the occasional hallucination of everything tasting like lighter fluid. It's disgusting. A different nightmare has caused me to feel sick at the sight of meat.
I feel like I've tried everything when it comes to dealing with nightmares. Therapy hasn't had any impact and medications made things worse. With the way my dreams work, "changing the channel" (or similar strategies) is not possible. I've tried changing my environment, my diet, my schedule, and nothing works. I feel like I will never be rid of the nightmares.
It's so hard when I never know if I'm dreaming or not. My nightmares and memories are all mixed up and I can't always tell them apart. Everything I experience in my dreams feels so real, and it stays with me when I wake up. It's so awful.
I hope tonight isn't so bad, but it's not like there's anything I'd be able to do about it ._.
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