#im still internally screaming !!!!!!

[buticanfixhim]

Called my bestie for the ref book and she went... there's a 69 paged pdf that we have to study on valentine's night.....that's the only 69 we're getting 💀

#im still internally screaming

[aroaceleovaldez]

Nico and Percy's dynamic through the series is eternally funny to me, because it's just. like.

Percy's having a constant mental struggle between his fatal flaw of loyalty with a promise he made to Bianca to protect Nico, versus his Big 3 kid desire to maim other Big 3 kids / Poseidon descendant urge to totally maim Nico specifically. He hates Nico so so much. He thinks Nico's annoying and weird at best, and creepy/sketchy when he's older. The only positive thoughts Percy has towards Nico are "He's Bianca's brother and Bianca was my friend and I owe her/He's Hazel's brother and Hazel is my friend and would kill me if I was mean to him," "He's a powerful asset and useful ally (if questionable)," and "He's kinda pathetic and I feel maybe a little bad about it." Percy has multiple occasions throughout the series where he strongly considers - and on one occasionally actually goes through with - throttling Nico.

Meanwhile, Nico is following around Percy like a lost puppy. He explicitly can never bring himself to even dislike anything about Percy no matter how hard he tries. He has a whole bit in BoO where he's mentally going "UGH he's so stupid BUT IT'S ENDEARING HOW DARE HE." He's totally smitten. He's making deals with his dad for Percy. He's making convoluted plans to help Percy stand a chance against Kronos. During the entirety of BoTL it's like he's playing tsundere - "I'm helping NOT PERCY SPECIFICALLY with this quest! Me helping Percy would be SILLY because I DEFINITELY HATE HIM." Then he proceeds to show up to Percy's birthday party to basically ask him on a weird date and spend the entire next book scrambling around trying to help him or protect him or impress him. And Percy could not give less of a shit.

Just. That dynamic is so funny to me. Percy is the founder of the Nico Protection Club in that he's the one they're all protecting Nico from and meanwhile Nico is throwing himself at Percy to the point where the literal god of gay love calls him out on it.

#pjo #percy jackson #nico di angelo #Percy shows up at CJ and squints at Nico like ''hm. why do i feel like i hate you? like i just wanna punch you in the face?'' #and Nico just immediately goes ''huh no idea anyways i have to go-'' and jumps into Tartarus #but not before he gives Hazel essentially a detailed explanation of ''this is Percy i cant say much but please dont let him die <3'' #and Nico's whole Tartarus trip was basically a whole ''im doing this so no one else has to'' #only for Percy and Annabeth to fall in like one book later and Nico proceeds to spend the next book internally screaming about it #and then Cupid calls him out on it and the next book #Nico's just like ''at this point im hoping i keel over within the next week just so i can force this dumb crush to chill the fuck out'' #Nico staring pointedly at Will: ''For my own sake i need to form another crush RIGHT NOW so i can finally get over Percy.'' #''this has been so bad for my health'' #Nico's crush on Percy is just too funny to me. horrible pick my guy. terrible job. love that for you. he could not be less interested. #Percy LITERALLY TRIES TO KILL NICO and ditch him in the underworld and Nico is somehow STILL like ''but i love him'' #Percy basically chokes him. beats up his dad. tells him ''go get smited by your dad for me.'' and ditches him. #and Nico's opinions/crush on him DO NOT CHANGE #though also Nico's reaction to Percy beating up his dad + skeletons is SO funny. his jaw is on the floor. he's flustered about it. #he just witnessed Percy be incredibly hot and proceeded to go ''yea i'll do anything for this man. collect reinforcements of 3 gods? sure'' #nico you absolute DISASTER with HORRIBLE TASTE. you can do better. raise your standards. #which tbh is funnier when you factor in sun and the star. Nico just wont stop crushing on guys who dislike him and everything he stands for

[casdeans-pie]

This man. he is lovely.

#both of my photos with Misha from CR7 ❤️ #im still internally screaming !!!!!! #crossroads 7 #cr7 #misha collins #he is the sweetest - i was shaking so badly for both of these but he has such a kind and calming presence it really put me at ease #hence the huuuuge smiles #this girl was fully beaming #thats the last of my cr7 photos i think! #cr7 adventures #pie says stuff

[ythmir-writes]

needy desperate Rio, oh we're being fed 🐶

#ikemen prince #rio ortiz #im screaming so loudly internally while reading this #my self control is at the limit #and the fact that he still checks on her #gods i am so so so normal

[deer-with-a-stick]

if netflix makes Luo Ji non-chinese I'm going to throw myself off a fucking cliff

#*incoherent screaming* #if i have to see another “but netflix has to make the characters appeal to the bigger audience” comment im going to fucking lose it #i have a bar of deviation for adaptations. examples: #lotr: its all fine and dandy i love it #the hobbit: getting a little close to dangerous territory but i'll take it #dune: perfection #foundation: no wtf #rop: DO NOT FUCKING SPEAK TO ME OF THIS SHOW #i will still watch 3bd when it comes out #but I will be fucking PISSED if what i'm seeing about the characters is real #“give them personalities” ok yeah sure im fine with that #“the plot affects the entire population of the earth” ok sure but why are 75% of the cast non asian now. #“we need diversity! plus you need the audience to appeal to the audience” im going to fucking bite you. fuck off. #no hate to the actors i'm sure they did a great job its not their fault anyway #but seriously if they made luo ji non-chinese im actually going to fucking lose it #3 body problem #three body problem #remembrance of earth's past #netflix #actually if they made zhang beihai non-chinese as well then i'm just going to- *internal screaming*

[her-midas-touch]

forever obsessed with the slow deadly sapphic dance ok you can rip scary (useless) lesbians with weapons and powers and sexual tension out of my cold dead hands

#this is about women with weapons btw #the jasmine throne (spoiler ahead kinda?) #im internally screaming and crying every time I read it aghhhh #(almost killed each other and duties and loyalties happened but still loving each other despite that oh I can’t—) #brutal brutal brutal (wlw enemies to lovers has my soul) #ari says things #the burning kingdoms #wlw

[moeblob]

i've been getting a lot of fomo of seeing all my friends and mutuals playing baldurs gate 3 and was tempted to buy it. then seeing you drawing fanart and seeing it on my dash made me look inside myself and acknowledge my true self and desires... so i bought pioneers of olive town. its in the mail, but im excited for it to arrive. :)

YEAH ITS SUPER CUTE IMO !!! I don't even have a console/PC capable of BG3 so I totally get the thought of 'oh im missing out' but I really enjoy the relaxing farming games... I'm super flattered to hear my love of these games influences people to try em out - that my love shows enough to make people curious. Thank you anon for sending this (I immediately screamed at three people on discord after seeing this bc holy moly truly high honors here).

#moe talks a lot #sos pioneers of olive town #listen its immensely flattering to have someone decide to skip a super popular and current game #to just go farming ... #like im always stunned when my art MADE WITH LOVE FOR THESE GAMES makes people curious #then i get anxiety cause what if people dont like the games and i scream internally for different reasons #ive somehow gotten people to buy potion permit and sdv (or returning to sdv after a while) #ive somehow convinced people to get dark deity and tales of arise and im like #h...how..... but thank.... for telling me..... #i really love the games i draw for and that it shows is always a huge confidence boost in my art #cheers anon i hope you enjoy it! i really want to draw more for this game now to have the characters talk #about what dnd or rpg classes theyd be so i might cave and do that at some point while still posting for #a different game as well since im really trying to draw for a different game every day this month #but this is just .... immense to hear and inspired me to think about classes for the cast lmao

[sandorara]

A Royal Wedding in Sanbreque ・ Part 2

Dion and Terence, recreated in FF14

#ffxvi #teredio #dion x terence #flareknight #ff16 #my gpose #my teredio gpose #im still so happy with many of these aaaaa #yes dion's hair clips through his collar i dont care #their forehead leans #am so proud #even the kiss looks more convincing than the canon one :B #but also it didnt need to be animated #woes of 3d models #unrelatedly i scream internally every time someone tries to claim the zoom-out if homophobic #u try to smush two 3d model faces together up close and then talk again #also please go look at clive and jill kissing again #(u see even less)

[godlesslostsoul]

status due to my adhd brain: screaming and crying in frustration

#godless is being weird don’t worry about it #godless is having neurodivergent thoughts #adhd #executive dysfunction #id like my prescription to be filled please #SO I CAN FUNCTION IN SOCIETY #its fine #ITS FINE #IM FINE #screaming crying throwing up #understimulated but also overstimulated #all of these are internal feelings too #because somehow im still masking

[iwoulddieforienzo]

Something that makes reading TOA so devastating is how fucking much Apollo feels about Everything. There’s so MUCH. Like I don’t even know how to describe it to you if you haven’t read the books yourself. He has so many complicated thoughts and emotions about just about everything and he cares about everything so much and there is just SO MUCH going on in his head. And yet none of it ever reaches his mouth!!

He almost never says what he’s feeling. What little comes out of his mouth about his thoughts barely even scratches the surface of what he actually means. Like he’ll be having a long ass monologue about how incredible someone is, showing a deep understanding of them as a person and empathizing with them so hard you’d almost think it’s projection but it’s not he’s legitimately just mind melding with this random person he met like a week ago and he’s thinking the softest, kindest thoughts about them like he knows they’re fucking incredible - and what comes out of his mouth is just like, “you’re a wonderful friend :)” AND ITS LIKE. THERES SO MUCH MORE UNDER THE SURFACE. the sheer admiration and adoration he has for everyone around him……… UGHHH!!! But he never VOICES ANY OF IT!!!!!! He never tells anyone about what Zeus did to him……. He never tells anyone except the reader about his realization that Zeus is abusive…. He never even tells commodus about how much he adored him, not then and not now… he refuses to tell anyone when he’s in pain or tries to justify the things he does when he actually had Decent Reasons for why he did something… I’m. I’M. AUGH. AHHHHH

HE DOESN’T EVEN TELL US ALL OF HIS THOUGHTS IS THE THING. THERES EVEN MORE THAT HE IS NOT TELLING US!!!!! THE FUCKING OCEAN OF FEELINGS AND THOUGHTS HE HAS ABOUT EVERYTHING IS THE CLIFF NOTES VERSION. I AM IN DISTRESS.

And YET…. Even what slips out of his mouth is so fucking devastating it is SO devastating. He’s so fucking kind and gentle with Harley and Meg and and other younger Demis and his kids… he’ll act like an obstinate idiot and then turn around say something that drags the core of the person he’s talking to into the light like nail on the fucking HEAD like he reached into their soul and gave them the words to express something that they were struggling to say aloud or that they didn’t even realize about themself. Around the 2nd book he starts putting voice to some of his feelings and thoughts about others and even that tiny fucking sliver is overwhelming to the people he’s talking to bc he’s SO. AUGHHHH

#this is why ‘reading the TOA books’ fics fucking slap btw. because as embarrassing as his thoughts can be #so many of them are just incoherent screaming about how he loves everyone around him. devastating #like imagine helping out ur loser deadbeat dad who you don’t really know much about bc he’s flighty and hard to read #and finding out ‘wow he cares about us a lot more than I thought’ #bc he literally almost dies to save you/your siblings and keeps following you all around everywhere #but he’s still like. your weirdo absentee dad. u don’t know hardly anything new about him other than an apparent suicidal streak #and then u find out that the whole time he was whining about chicken nuggets or whatever he was internally sobbing abt how much he loves u #and every time u were nearby he was going ‘MY BEAUTIFUL PERFECT BABY… JUST AS INCREDIBLE AS THEIR MORTAL PARENT!!!! BEAUTIFUL LIKE THE SUN! #HOW DID I EVEN MAKE SUCH A BEAUTIFUL PERFECT BABY. UNREAL. THEY CANT BE MINE!? BUT THEY ARE!!! LOOK AT THEMMM!!?!!! IM SO PROUD…… #my beautiful perfect angels… all of their parents best traits and none of our worst…. I am Barely restraining myself from sobbing #i would give u the WORLD if my father wouldn’t kill me for it :(‘ #and it’s like. wow. okay dad. um. would have been nice to know that when we were all dying in The War #Please Hug Me Though. #imagine being a Random Ass Demigod who didn’t go on a big special quest or something like you are literally just Some Guy #and finding out that this weirdo loser god u gave a sandwhich to or something thinks you are so fucking cool #your own parent doesn’t know ur name but Apollo knows u on sight and read ur soul within the 2 seconds yall talked and he thinks you rock #how are you supposed to respond to that. #snack time #toa #longpost

[stnova]

MAJOR TWST UPDATE SPOILER ALERT!!!

WHAT DO YOU MEAN WE'RE GETTING AN SSR OF THE ONE AND ONLY GREATEST MAGNANIMOUS MR. DIRE CROWLEY!!!???

#twisted wonderland #dire crowley #disney twst #im in class lmao #oops cant spoil in the tags lmao #but do read this at your own risk #brb im gonna scream internally since im still in class ASDSFHSSGNK

[atalana]

me watching sab season 2, just mentally repeating to myself: it's not an adaptation it's high budget fanfiction, it's not an adaptation it's high budget fanfiction

#YOU CAN'T JUST PUT THE BATHROOM SCENE THERE #AND THEN TRY AND CRAM EVERY GOOD KANEJ LINE INTO IT BC YOU HAVEN'T GIVEN THE SPACE FOR THEM ALL TO COME OUT NATURALLY #YOU WERE GIVEN MORE TIME THAN YOU NEEDED TO TELL A STORY AND YOU'VE *COMPACTED* IT #like don't get me wrong i love a lot of what they've done here! #but like. s1 was mirroring the soc plot. so i assumed s2 would mirror crooked kingdom #but like. s1 was MUCH lower stakes than soc and gave room for it to build from there #it was a believable prequel even with the changes made #but s2 just feels like they've tried to fit every good ck moment in here #except they've allowed no buildup whatsoever #so every good moment from the books just feels cheap as hell #and i can't imagine how they could ever try to do the book plots in a future season when they've already sucked them dry #like im only on episode 3 maybe it'll change and im still for the most part enjoying watching it #but. [internal screaming] #like what is the point of this scene if kaz isn't running on 3 days no sleep and planning to walk to his death #what is especially the point of this scene if INEJ HAS YET TO SEE HIS TRAUMA AFFECT HIM #sab spoilers #six of crows #shadow and bone s2

[qui-qui-quee]

Well. Sh*t.

#qooky rambles #don't mind me if you know the context to this #just need to express #the absolute bajeezers situation I am now in #that's not even a real word but still #<internal screaming> #im ok #God gives me strength #He always has

[warrior-cats-junk]

We had to write stories and mine was a tad bit gay but not mentioned and WHILE I WAS ABSENT THE WHOLE FUCKING CLASS READ IT

I can’t even make this shit up IN THE TWO DAYS I was absent he printed and put stories out even though NONE OF US HAD THE OPTION TO STAY ANONYMOUS AND IM CRYING???

it was so fruity…and had a Free Birds reference…end me…

#not wc #IM CRYING #REAL TEARS #IM CRINGING INTERNALLY #NONONO #IT WAS SO FRUITY #LIKE REALLY FRUITY #I CANT #HELP ME #DEAR GOD THE PAIN IM IN #IM ABOUT TO TEAR MY RIBS IN HALF #WHY WOULD MY TEACHER NOT LET OUR STORIES SAY ANONYMOUS #IM SOBBING #WTH #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #sounds of me having a mental breakdown #also like half the class wasn’t done from what I’ve heard??? #still #THE FUCKING FREE BIRDS REFERENCE AS THE ENDING #NO AHAHAGABAHAHAHAH #SO FRUITY #I CANT IM THROWING MYSELF OFF A BRIDGE #SCREAMING AND CRYING #THE MOST BLOOD CURDLING MOTHER GRIEVING LOST SON EAGLE SOUNDING FORK AGAINST KNIFE AGAINST PLATE SOUND EFFECT FROM ME RIGHT NOW #ACTUALL PLEASE I CANT

[ocarinaofpride]

Man this merch buying shit gets serious The shipping for my seph amiibo was 24 DOLLARS. humbled me really fast

#itll be worth it… itll be worrh it… #i say as i internally scream #Can you tell im still jobless man this wouldnt be an issue if i had DOUGH!

[i-will-physically-fight-you]

Going to therapy is great because you can rant to your therapist about the untapped potential of Star Wars Sequel Characters for ten minutes and they are a captive audience forced to hear your very reasonable valid points and you can do this instead of talking about your issues hope this helps <3

#kat talks #no one irl will ever listen to me that rey poe and finn were decent characters that had POTENTIAL #kylo ren is a bit of a lost cause im afraid #(by that i mean the sequel trio had more personality and plot motives in the first movie than he did so he'd need a lot more rework) #I still cry and scream internally that they were still cowards about hayden christensen and wouldnt let him show up to tell kylo ren off #i still think that was a major thing about kylo ren's character that WOULDVE BEEN INTERESTING #like imagine worshipping your grandfathers literal worst sins only for his force ghost to show up and tell you off #SUBLIME #anyways the way I watch sw is I stop at Force Awakens #and im like 'wow what a fun what-if story after rotj its so sad they never made more movies after it :)' #and THATS HOW IT SHOULD BE WATCHED #thank you for listening to my ted talk #(and also rogue one was great definitely included in the sw movie rewatch between rots and anh)