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thelostandforgottenangel · 4 years

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Good Morning everyone! I'm back!

I am happy to say that it is over, any reported harassment's against me were investigated; I had to send so much crap in and was told to wait; I was not guaranteed anything but it is luckily over and I can move past that and enjoy my followers and dear Tumblr family once again

Thank you for the few who gave me the support; I did get the messages whoever you are, I really would like to put a face to them but will not post them publicly to keep everyone safe.

Now I want to take this time to apologize to everyone for whatever I did because for the two people I had contact with talked me out of a very permanent plan to officially leave here if I lost my page after many years of being able to confide in people who cared and built me up because this is my safe zone; my safe haven away from my reality which I do need my escape to forget for just a second.

Returning to Tumblr after a forced hiatus, I was just happy to be back and check on my loved ones; getting my new phone in and finally having access to the internet again had me so happy until I got a message I did not fully understand

Now I had just returned; I had no clue what was going on when this happened and, yes, it upset me deeply to be delighted to talk to somebody I considered a friend and instead while replying to ask how they were doing wanting to be sure they were okay ((Understanding the person had been having troubles before I vanished I was looking in on a friend)) before the chat showed they had blocked me right after

Like everyone on here except one person; there is no way to contact me if I go missing. If I am not here due to I either: 1.) not having internet thanks to the person in control of it or 2.) functioning with a broken phone meaning - I did not get updates unless it was somebody who knew who to contact

I had no other way of reaching out since the friend is no longer active here after leaving months ago.

I had no clue what was transpiring and, Lexi, who anyone who has followed me since the beginning, is my lovely Anonymous penpal who sends me writing ideas for stories and the only real reason I left anonymous asks active because she, like me, suffers from extreme anxiety was trying to boost positivity for me because she understood my situation and the place I am in

I understand now she contacted a lot of people looking for me because; my anon messaging was finally turned off weeks before I left right after I stood up to my bully – I am sorry for that I did not get to say goodbye to anyone because it happened without warning and to those who knew what was going on I knew you would understand, and I know I worried a few people, it was never my plan to be such an inconvenience

Now at some point in the last few days, I had a dear friend send me some things in a submission that I never saw and wish I never had, thankfully; I know now, and for the sake of their sanity and to keep from adding any more drama or toxic actions to our wonderful fandom, they will remain unnamed because I do not want them catching any hate

Nobody here deserves hate.

So I will not be posting the original nor will I release the creator's name; this was a problem between us it stays between us because I do not wish ill on you; I hope you are successful and are having no more issues, I know returning to my page and not seeing any anon hate in my box after ten days is very refreshing for a change

I have seen everything said about me in three possibly four separate posts since it was all sent to me as one with little separations in-between, and I’m okay with it; I guess I have to accept this is how you feel I have nothing else to say on the matter

What you are saying is fine; I’m not going to let it get me, that is your opinion, and as human's, we are all allowed to have an opinion

Now, I don't know if you will see this, but I don’t think you are crazy in any way; I think you are intelligent and you have a huge heart; in our IM's you told me about your disorder also about you mental problem and like I said there I still understand; it runs in my family and, thankfully it bypassed me; but I still have compassion for those battling mental illnesses since I do have a few myself

I didn’t know about the ask you got until you mentioned it before I returned, and since mentioned by my best friend that she got one too earlier in the day I already knew who you were talking about

I had just seen it when I got blocked, and I didn’t fully get to read it until this morning when I was finally able to log on, and yes, I privately told you who that anon was because I had told her what a sweet person you were encouraging her to friend you, I have no idea how I lied but it is okay too

I was not here for those hate messages nor was I involved in anything I get too much hate daily when I am here to even dream of sending it but, nobody will believe me except anyone who has ever interacted with me

In your post, you warned people about three of those five people (Again; the ones I know about will not be named)

I only tried to interact once with your Raph; the response was enough to discourage me from ever trying again; you were stressed I got that because of everything going on I can only imagine you felt like it was an attack, I did not want an RP I just needed somebody to talk to that night, and, for once I didn't go directly to private messages as I do with everyone, that was my fault so I deserved the blow up even if I did not know about that RP until you explained. I apologized, profusely because I felt bad for bringing up – it was to talk, something many know I am not good at, I didn’t know the subject would hurt you; we had never interacted but you had offered to interact with me at one time if I needed you and trying to heal I attempted to reach out on the only thing I had seen on your page a long time ago

I don't get to RP for me haven't for a long while now, but I try to make others happy

But I am sorry I made an effort to reach out; you didn't need that

So if you are in the TMNT fandom, please be cautious because I only seem cause problems for the people I care for

You blocked me, you have your reasons, and yes, I do respect them and, after this post, it is in the past; I hope you are doing and getting along well

And guys, I can’t and will not give the name of this person or do it privately because I don’t want them catching any hate, but please, by all means, if you ever find their blog follow them; they are so talented and deserve so much love from this fandom

Lastly, while I will be staying on Tumblr because I do not want to leave any of you, I will be making several changes to my several pages soon to make sure this never happens again and to all my followers; I love you guys, and for that, I will no longer be posting struggles on here anymore even though I only gave you guys a penny in a 10-gallon bucket because I needed comfort that was too much; my problems are my burden, not yours; and I can not say how sorry I am that I ever put that on any of you

Nobody needs to know what their friends are dealing with when we come here to be happy because it is too much to put on anyone not personally dealing with it, so you will only see the sadness in my stories and only see the struggle in my art

My ask box will be open; anon will alternate day to day but, any hate I hope not to see will be deleted immediately; if your face is on the lovely message; you will be blocked right there just like the last 12 people since quarantine started for me in February

Also, while I am still here *this is a scheduled post it is 4 a.m. my time will post, hopefully after I am asleep cause my sleep schedule is grossly off* I do not want ANY hate streaming from this post, I know my followers will not do that to anyone; this is just me getting it out of my system

We are breaking the chain of toxicity right here! We were not meant to be friends in this lifetime but maybe the next

Tumblr, at one point, was always a beautiful, safe place for many of us who needed a way out of our situations; and when I joined in 2014 as a supernatural blog I was run off, then I came back again in 2016 for TMNT and found my family some of us just wanted a place to be us; to not be judged for who we were, it needs to go back to that for all of its members soon.

We have already lost way too many wonderful creators from here let's not lose any more

And if you have noticed a difference in the last three months, mostly pertaining to my writing; I downloaded Grammarly and started taking classes with my old English teacher on ZOOM who, bless her heart, had to deal with my dumbass in school because I suck at punctuality.

I was very self-conscious about admitting that, but somebody reminded me there is no shame in learning something again and I have been working hard

#scheduled #mun will be on later #been up all night with sick kids

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bunnyblooms · 4 years

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OKAY FUCKER ALL THE QUESTIONS FROM THAT ASK MEME THE LGBT ONE

1. Identity and pronouns.

I'm agenderfluid and they/them pronouns. My sexuality is aroflux and asexual.

2. How did you discover your sexuality?

Pretty much at 14 was like "idk i don't relate to everyone else i don't find celebrities hot or sex remotely something i want. If i could reproduce without sex i would. Oh. I'll just call myself asexual, like a sponge!" (Which asexual is incidentally what the creators of Spongebob were going for, fun facts. Spongebob is ace rights.)

3. Have you experienced being misgendered? How do you overcome it?

Mmmm I am constantly misgendered bc I'm nonbinary and live in a binary society and the way I compartmentalize it is basically just dressing how I want and not making an attempt to pass as anything tbh. The only time I feel misgendered is when someone knows my pronouns and doesn't use them anymore tbh. So basically. Letting go of how I want to be perceived helped. I will say tho, I refuse to come out to my dad bc he won't respect it and it'll be more painful hearing him misgender me knowing how I identify, but. That's certainly a privilege I have since I'm not transitioning. (ATM at least.)

4. Who was the first person you told? How did they react?

I technically didn't come out as ace. My ex-best friend knew bc I talked about it, but neither of us knew it was an identity. So the transition upon finding the label was virtually nonexistent and all of my friends were LGBTQ as well so it wasn't stressful or shocking. It helps that around the time I discovered the label I'd met two friends who were ace and felt the same way I did. My experience with my asexuality is definitely the model that should be the norm with the community and what we as a society should aim for.

As for my gender I'd made comments in the past that I wished I could just be genderless and it really kind of sat with me when my ex-best friend came out as trans bc I was like "Oh? You don't have to be the gender you are at birth?" Belial from Angel Sanctuary was a character that resonated with me at the time, and this was right around the time I made my ace friends. It wasn't until a year later that I discovered the nb community and one friend who was genderfluid that I decided to start trying different pronouns. And basically I came out as questioning and transitioned to nb without a formal declaration, which I also feel should be the goal for society.

I was at a con with my best friend at the time who was trans and he'd come out with my now ex-best friend while they were dating. And I was really anxious bc I felt like ppl would assume I was a transtrender and shit, and my friend said something about gender and I kind of awkwadly implied I might not identify as female and he was really great about it! He was like "If you wanna talk about it or try different pronouns you can." :D

5. Describe what it was like coming out.

I pretty much did this im question 4 hehehe.

6. If you're out, how did ppl react?

I'm not out to family, that I know of. They found my facebook which has my identity listed in my about, so I'm in limbo with them where none of us talk about it so idk if they register it as an LGBTQ thing or not.

My friends were all supportive! It helps that I have like no cishet friends lmao.

I also came out to my class on TDOV two years ago for a project where we step outside our comfort zone. I'm luckily in the social work program which has social justive built into the tenants of the profession so it was pretty positive! People still misgendered me after and were more concerned with "but i'm scared of ppl getting angry at me what should i do to talk about this with them" which. 9__9 Not surprising. But there was a mom whose kid and her kid's partner are both genderfluid and bigender so it was a good experience and I had an ally which made me comfortable in sharing it in the first place.

7. What is one question you hate ppl asking about your sexuality?

Inevitably when I say I'm ace, non-aces assume I have no interest in dating which. Way to conflate being aroace with ace and ignore that there are aros and aces who want relationships. That's my biggest pet peeve.

8. Describe the style of clothing you often wear.

I wear flannels and ripped jeans or shorts mainly. I basically dress like a butch lesbian. I'll wear dresses and stuff but I do not like dressing femme and prefer to offset softer things with hard things. Like. When I wear dresses I have to wear clunky combat boots with them or have short hair or something.

9. Who are your favorite LGBTQ+ ships?

Hmmm. Depends if you mean canon or not. Canon, it's probably FigAyda from D20 and Catradora from She-ra. Shion/Nezumi from No.6 is also one of my faves. There's also Chie and Ai from Virgin's Empire. Blupjeans from The Adventure Zone and JonMartin from The Magnus Archives.

As for Not Confirmed ships, I like Flick/CJ from Animal Crossing, Tsuna/Enma from Katekyo Hitman Reborn, uhhh. Reigisa from Free!, Kanji/Naoto from Persona and Chihiro/whatever the fuck his name is Mondo? Or the other guy I forget, from Danganronpa. Also RenLaw, RenStrade, and VinceLaw+VinceFarz from BTD.

(I am including straight relationships involving trans ppl obv.)

10. What does makeup mean to you? Do you wear any?

I hate how I look with make up it makes me dysphoric. But to me makeup is a good expressive outlet and bomb as hell, so when I do wanna wear makeup, I prefer wearing eyeliner and lipstick (esp in black or blue or green or purple) and glitter.

11. Do you experience dysphoria? How does it affect you?

I experience what I refer to as Silhouette Dysphoria a lot. I experience chest dysphoria but a lot of times it's less about me having them at all and me not liking how I look with them. The same goes for my hips and overall shape. Hence silhouette. I also experience genital dysphoria to a lesser degree, and when I do it's less hating my genitals bc they should be different but more just having any at all. Luckily I was born with internal genitalia so I don't have to think about it as much. Social dysphoria I also experience, but I've talked about that already.

How I deal with it is binding and stuff.

12. What is the stupidest thing you've heard said about the LGBTQ+ community?

Hmm. The ppl who genuinely argue that accepting the community means you'll be forced to accept pedophilia or beastiality. Like. Lmao no?

13. Favorite thing about the community?

I just love how great it feels to be in it tbh. It can be so positive and loving and just genuinely make you feel good about yourself.

14. Least favorite thing about the community?

Exclusionists.

15. Have you ever been to your city's pride event?

No, but I went to Pride in Des Moines!!! IT WAS GREAT!

16. Favorite LGBTQ+ celebrity?

I don't really follow celebrities, but probably Ian McEllen and Tim Gunn.

17. Have you been in a relationship and how did you meet?

I was in a relationship for a while with a friend of mine and it was wonderful tbh. We met in a server and started talkng more, and started out as qpps then became partners and like we broke up, but I still enjoyed the experience and wouldn't go back in time and stop it from happening. My other qpp tho. That's something I would do lmao.

I also have a bf but that's a secret~

18. Favorite LGBTQ+ book.

I haven't read a lot of books, so I guess I have to say The Raven Cycle bc that's the only one I remember reading.

19. Have you ever faced discrimination?

Mmmm the only time I have experienced direct discrimination I was giving a friend valentines chocolate in high school and some kid called me a d*ke when i walked past him.

The other stuff is like. My therapist telling me to check for a hormone imbalance when I said I was asexual.

20. Favorite LGBTQ+ movie/show?

She-ra, "To Wong Foo, Thanks For Everything", The Runaways (the movie not the show), No. 6.

21. Favorite LGBTQ+ bloggers?

I don't have any lmao.

22. Which slur do you want to reclaim?

Queer, bc it's already been reclaimed and it fits me.

23. Have you ever gone to a gay bar or drag show? How was it?

Nope. Never, but it'd be fun!!

24. How do you idrntify your gender?

Already answered this lol.

25. Interested in having kids?

Nope. I'd be too scared of screwing them up.

26. What identity service would you give your younger self?

I wish I'd known there was an ace community before I was older tbh. So that, probably.

27. What do you think of gender roles in relationships?

I personally like playing a feminine role, but I also think gender roles are unecessary, so like. As long as I'm an equal I don't care what role I play lmao. If you wanna treat me like the handmaiden, as long as you're not doing it bc you see me as a woman I don't care.

28. Anything else you wanna share about your gender?

Nah. Just. I don't bother trying to pin it down anymore bc the more I analyze it the less I understand it.

29. Something you wish ppl knew about being LGBTQ+?

Hmmmm not really. It's fun outside of the systemic oppression?

30. Why are you proud to be LGBTQ+?

For me it's less about pride in being LGBTQ+ and more being proud to express myself authentically. 🤷

#lemonadelyric #lgbtq ask meme #long post

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inky-anemone · 6 years

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BASIC: >This is a Semi-Selective and Mutuals only/Private RP blog. I will answer any followers ask but I will only carry threads with those I follow; I will however actively reach out to people who don’t yet follow me if I am interested in writing with them. If you would like to have a thread with me and I don’t follow you, just leave me an ask or send me an IM. I am not that scary. **In regards to my side blogs this rule applies. If I follow you on my main blog and you follow one or more of my listed side blogs then interactions are a go** >I am a very anxious and socially awkward person. I can take a little long to trust people sometimes due to past experiences over the years, and I am nervous at first in getting involved with larger groups. This is nothing against new people who approach me to add me to a group; this is just me being once bitten twice shy about everything. Please understand this. >Please read my About page so you understand the Mun here behind the blog. I appreciate people understanding a bit of how I work. >OOC statements from me will be within [[ ]] ’s. >My instant messenger (IM) chats are completely OOC. I will not RP in the IM chats. I prefer to use it as a source of communication mun to mun while doing a thread with someone.

>I WILL NOT by any means RP with a blog whose MUSE is a REAL PERSON. [ex. Arin (Egoraptor), Jon (Jontron), Mark (Markiplier), etc.] I just personally find it to be in the realm of bad taste. I mean no offense to anyone with this. It’s just that pretending to be a real person you are not as compared to a fictional character are two different things. (And many of these people request that you don’t RP with them as a muse anyways!)

>I WILL NOT RP EXPLICIT NSFW CONTENT WITH UNDERAGE WRITERS. Sorry kids, but if you’re under the age of 18 I am not going to write anything with you when it comes to anything related to unsafe explicit content. The NSFW content that will never be brought around under age writers is anything of a sexual nature. Content however of horror, gore, and anything else NSFW that falls under the non-sexual nature is fair game. Remember Kids, I’ll respect you as long as you show you have the maturity and give at least a portion of that respect back. >The Mun =/= The Muse **Though you may notice parallels between myself and my character do not skew this line. I am not my character and my character is not me. Just the same this means a judgment on your character should not be taken as a judgment on you personally.** >I come off as incredibly blunt with my statements. My brand of honesty isn’t easy to handle and I do what I can to lessen the blow of it. You have been warned. >In correlation with the above rule COMMUNICATION is a must if you wish to interact with my character or myself. This means tell me if I am doing something wrong and don’t take offense when I mention criticism for you from my end. My statements can be blunt but I do try to be kind with them.

>This is a guilt tripping free zone. I will not be harassed nor will I dole out that sort of treatment to people. **Just the same I will not tolerate that term being thrown as a label on anyone willy nilly when it is clear the term is not understood by the person pointing the finger.** >This is also a bullying free zone. I will not stand for being bullied or seeing someone else I know being bullied by individual(s). I have seen enough and been on the receiving end enough of this treatment to know the damages it can cause. **Please remember that Tumblr has options in place to report for this sort of stuff.** >In regards to Anon asks. If you make an opinion on how to tell me to run my blog on anon you will get an equally impersonal response. You want to have a personal response you talk to me on IM. Repeat offending anons will be IP BLOCKED.

>I am obviously OC friendly for any OC’s. Just as I have have made a clear bio page though, I will check to see if you have a backstory posted in easy access for your character as well before I consider interactions. As always, I NEED SUBSTANCE to work. (It should be noted that I don’t follow self insert OC’s if the mun denies them being a self insert. I prefer the knowing honesty from the mun about their creation over the withheld information) >I RP for fun here folks. Though I prefer some longer threads I can enjoy short ones given there is an enjoyable interaction to be had. Just keep the sass down and the friendliness up and we will get along fine. ROLEPLAYING: >ABSOLUTELY NO GOD MODDING! Examples of God modding include:

Controlling another persons character or the outcome of events within a thread. This is the fastest way to lose any partner.

Breaking the forth wall with a character having knowledge they should not have from any source. This can be done humorously with commentary like Deadpool and his awareness of an audience or being a character. Know the difference between it being used as humor compared to plot convenience.

Having your character have god-like or straight out God abilities. Some characters are gods but often the root issue of this sort of character done wrong is them having “Convenient Omnipotence” (Links to Breaking the Forth Wall for plot convenience). This also includes the character referencing information from another characters backstory that has not been directly shared with them. Don’t do this; it can make people behind the writing uncomfortable.

Having your character be completely untouchable. Some characters are known to be adept at dodging but they can’t dodge everything. When you control a character like this you force people to have to match their level. You have no right to complain about them ‘God Modding". Be fair.

Starting a fight in OOC until the IC interactions are forced in the direction you want for your character. Though this sounds indirect this is another example of God Modding as it involves manipulating events and other peoples characters to your whims. Do not go making someone feel intimidated with threatening actions to get what you want. Just don’t do this.

Over-writing what is seen or available in a setting provided to you. Unless you wrote the starter/setting for the interaction do not add things that were not described or attempt to change the setting entirely. This is more of a writing issue but it is still an insult if someone went through of the trouble of making a setting for you only to have you try and change it.

>I am NSFW friendly. If you want to do something NSFW you need to be a mutual, or someone I am interacting with and over 18. NO EXCEPTIONS! Anything sensitive to this nature will be under a read more in writing. Any images however will be on a separate side-blog. >If you find I have an RP post with a TRIGGER THAT NEEDS A SPECIAL TAG for you to know to IGNORE IT, just let me know.

>I am comfortable doing PG-13 RP’s, but I am also fine with more M rated topics, I however will put anything just outside of PG-13 under a read more if the scene is too violent.

>I am comfortable with RPing but not limited to:

Gore/Violence

Battle/Action

Horror

Mystery/Suspense

Slice of life

Romance

Cross-over

Post-Apocalypse/Fallout

Sci-fi

Action/Adventure

Fantasy

PTSD inducing backstory adventures

Plots referencing sexual abuse and Rape **WITH PROPER CONSENT**

Bondage/BDSM **WITH PROPER CONSENT**

>I reserve the right like anyone else to drop a thread I feel uncomfortable in continuing. Be it due to a lack of inspiration or something that just rubs both me and my muse the wrong way. I will communicate the reason with you regardless. >REBLOGGING THREADS YOU ARE NOT INVOLVED IN WILL RESULT IN ONE WARNING FOR RP BLOGS AND INSTANT BLOCK FOR PERSONALS. Just please, don’t reblog a thread you aren’t part of. It mucks up my activity log and ruins my reply tracking something awful. >I have a personal rule when it comes to replies. If you haven’t let me know ahead of time about anything preventing your reply I will remind you within 10-20 days time with a link to the last response post I made on a thread. If it has been 10-20 days since I have replied to your response you are free to let me know in an IM.**If you read this and don’t like being reminded and have proven to have read my rules; PLEASE TELL ME BEFORE WE START A THREAD. I do not enjoy offending or upsetting people**

SHIPPING: >DO NOT FORCE A SHIP. I do not force ships on anyone and I expect that others return this respect. I ship based on character chemistry. >I DON’T JUST SHIP ROMANTICALLY. I don’t mind having ships that link to simple friendships, adoptive family ties, and even enemies in some special cases. I’m not after having my character romantically involved with everyone. Any ship is fun as long as there is a type of enjoyable character chemistry going on in the interactions. >I am MULTI-VERSE AND MULTI-SHIP. This means unless otherwise specified on my Verses & Relations page every ship happens in it’s own verse separate from the others. This means she is not cheating on your character and doesn’t view your other ships as cheating on her. >Every interaction, unless specified, from my character is in a verse where she is single/alone. If you have a similar set up for your character I would appreciate the same respect to do such. I don’t enjoy going into a first interaction with another multiverse/ship blog to have them force me into one of their existing verses with a known ship. **Shipping takes interactions, time and character chemistry. I go into every new interaction unless otherwise specified with my character being single as she is multiverse; if you are multiverse as well I expect that same sort of respect. Don’t force a scenario that prevents even an attempt at character chemistry in a romantic sense down the road. Communicate things first please.** >Anemone is Demi-Romantic and Demi-sexual. This information is stated on her bio. She is open to SOME polyamorous relationships but anyone wishing to do this will need to put forward a great deal of effort in communication for it to work. >If you are singleverse but multiship and want to ship with me I am willing to make it work where we can within reason. However we will need to regularly communicate OOC. Shipping any sort of relationship, especially if multiple connections are involved, needs a lot of communication. A ship that my character does have with a Singleverse character will be, by default, Open Poly-amorous and will not in any way bind the characters to being exclusive to one another. TRIGGERS: >I have a few mild triggers. These triggers are fairly simple and straight forward.

>Suicide - I will not define this properly as people should already understand it’s meaning. A character fighting off suicidal tendencies is fine; it shows growth. A character trying to commit suicide for the sake of getting attention is not fine; threatening to or trying to kill ones self to get everyone to look at you is not okay. If you understand what it is to be suicidal truly you don’t declare you’re going to kill yourself to everyone; you simply commit the act in silence in your own suffering. **Please understand the difference between attention seeking and actual suicidal tendencies. There are a few exceptions to this but the vast majority of people who commit suicide do not announce the thought or threat of it regularly to have people talk them down from it. The ones who do that are looking for people to validate them; they aren’t looking for an escape from a depression/stress in their life.** >Incest - Sibling on Sibling action is not something I like seeing. I can let a few instances of it pass by but if it’s a frequent thing in someones reblog feed I will likely unfollow. It’s something that makes me sick to my stomach. Two family members getting involved in a romantic situation when they are siblings, even adopted, rubs me the wrong way. When you view someone as a brother or sister I find it is not right to fantasize or act on sexual/romantic advances with that individual. Be it by blood or by a family bond through adoption, incest is something that I personally find very disgusting; so please tag it appropriately. **NOTE: Incest that involves Sexual relations with purpose to produce a child is actually under the term of Inbreeding. Just the same I personally find the talk of the practice upsetting to my stomach** >Underage drinking - I don’t like seeing it, don’t like hearing about it don’t like reading about it. It’s a topic that leaves me uncomfortable and annoyed because I find it to be a personally unacceptable thing to encourage. I don’t care if it is in fiction, the act of underage drinking is not something I support encouraging, even if there is an ‘adult’ present to monitor the child. Alcohol has negative effects on a young developing mind and body and isn’t something that should be encouraged for consumption for a child before that development is complete. I apologize if these main rules seem at all harsh or pressing. I’m fairly easy-going, if not a little awkward, and I have my standards laid out here. These rules are here for other muns to understand my bottom line about things; whether or not your character agrees is not my concern. The only thing that matters to me is if the writer understands what I have here, just as much as I work to accept and respect theirs.

**If you have read my rules please send in the password “Can I get a Booyah?!” ** **If you’re not the sort to send in passwords then you can just like THIS POST instead.** Thank you for reading my rules.

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darklydescended · 6 years

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behind the mirror mask

Hi. my name is _____ but you may call me SIA . I have been writing for over eighteen years of my life and roleplaying on tumblr for over six now . I am currently twenty five, have eight tattoos, no piercings, and try to be as cool of a person as i can be. I don't write on skype//kik//aim//discord or any of those fancy cellular platforms anymore unless i really get to know a writer and we click. this is my first attempt at running a multi-muse blog on here but if you have any questions please never,ever be afraid to shoot me an IM or message on here. I promise that I am literally a sweet potato. i do,however, reserve the right to refuse to roleplay with anybody i wish. if you post racial,sexually abusive material such as rape and incest, or other things like that i will unfollow you. They aren't triggers but they are skeevy to me.

NO GOD MODING // MARY SUE // GARY STU

This goes without saying most days yet sadly i always find myself having to make this an actual rule. You control your character and i will control mine. Simple as that.

NO HATE

This is an ABSOLUTELY HATE FREE ZONE. I will not tolerate anon hate or gossipping among my blog viewers or people i roleplay with. I find it salty as hell and I hate seeing people degrade others. PLEASE if you see me WRITING with somebody that you find toxic or upsetting then simply blacklist their url, as i tag every one of my threads with the person i am writing with's url. DO NOT make every other post on your blog about hate or how you find other people toxic or just generally wish to complain or smear somebody into the ground. I will not warn you. I will unfollow you without explanation. Simple as that.

EXCLUSIVES

While i have been against this idea in the past i feel like this is something to bring up on here . If I TRULY feel like our characters click and you are open to it then I will definitely be cool with being exclusive with you. What does this mean? I still multi ship my characters but if you would like to have me as your exclusive pietro maximoff, barnabas collins, etc; and we click well writing then i'm totally cool with that!

18+ // MATURE CONTENT AHEAD

if you have ANY idea who the majority of my characters are - which i really hope you do - then I will consider this my warning to you. THIS BLOG WILL CONTAIN MATURE AND NSFW MATERIAL. Sexual writing will only be conducted with those that are over the age of 18. no exceptions .This includes but is not limited to sex, cursing, blood, violence, assault, discrimation against mutants, and others of the like. I will tag ANYTHING you ask me to as "tw tag" so that way it WILL be picked up via a tag blocker for you. I am here to write freely but also wish for my viewers to feel comfortable when enjoying my blog.

MEMES

Memes are open to be sent in by anybody whether we are mutuals or not. all that i ask is that you please SPECIFY which muse you wish for me to reply to the meme as. The memes are always open to ALL of my characters for answers and i honestly LOVE receiving memes and questions for my characters no matter how prying they may be!! send.them.to.me.

ALTERNATE FACE CLAIMS / FACE CLAIMS IN GENERAL

some of my muses are extremely difficult to find pictures of . yes i could go through the movies / comics / shows / etc piece by piece and screenshot and i do at some points in time but for characters such as dylan piper, gregory sackville bagg, marnie piper, michael emerson, hadley dellahoussaye, and others you will often see a different face claim then what they had in the show or movie . i try to be faithful to my characters but please understand my choice in choosing the face claims that i do .

REPLY TIME

as a general rule of thumb i tend to be pretty slow with writing starters. i am much faster at replying to things i am tagged in as well as memes. i try to be fast at replying but if i have taken well over the amount of time you feel is reasonable in replying then please feel free to nudge me on the im with a reminder. Stuff does get lost on tumblr and while i will try to keep a thread tracker on this blog i do not claim to be perfect. This rule also goes to say if you ever wish to drop a thread with me i completely understand. No harsh feelings. Just let me know. Periodically if a thread has been unreplied to for over two months but your blog is still active i will remind you of our thread via an IM. If you wish to discontinue it i will completely understand.

WRITING / ICON FORMATTING STYLE

I enjoy writing at the very least para roleplays. This is not to say i won't post an ocassional one line opener. I enjoy writing threads with a little more meat to the bone instead of constantly writing 'she looked towards the man and smiled. "hello darling, how are you doing?" she asked coyly". that is very flat and boring to me. I am ALWAYS open to plotting out thread ideas and prefer to do so via IM or messages.

TRIMMING POSTS / LARGER ICONS & GIFS

I am sorry but to keep my dash clean if you write out replies to people and do not trim your posts then i will likely unfollow you. This also goes for if you use HUGE gifs via tumblr's gif option in replies. I would prefer size 100x100 icons or smaller as well as gifs but as long as you are not using the above mentioned methods then i am completely fine. If you are replying via mobile just understand i will trim our thread when i go to reply.

SHIPPING

Never ever ever assume our muses are in a relationship together even if they are in canon. I ship chemistry and highly dislike writing out romantic plots right off the bat without some bit of writing between our characters. please, if you ever wish to ship with one of my muses discuss it with me first. I will respect you and do the very same. Also never force ship my characters. just because you have gaga eyes for one of my playbys does not mean i am your personal sex toy. just no.

MULTIPLE THREADS

I whole heartedly welcome you to have threads with multiple characters I write.

CONTINUING THREADS FROM MEMES

Absolutely go for it! All I ask is that you start it in another post linking the original answer in the new post. If you cannot and you choose to reblog my ask reply, i understand. just understand i will create a new post so i can track the new thread much easier when i reply.

MEMES / M!A / ASKS

Memes are open to be sent in by absolutely anybody. Whether we are mutuals or not. I do not, however, accept M!A's that are sent in. My ask box outside of that is always open to everybody!

REAL LIFE BLOGS / NON RP BLOGS

Real life blogs PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE do not reblog any of my posts. I like a clean dash and it fucks up my thread trackers when everybody and their brother believes they can reblog my threads. Only my roleplay partners involved in that thread may do that.

#rules

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lpfreakification · 5 years

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*clears throat* ladies + gentlemen, it's that time of the night again

No, not counting the remaining slices left to sell XD its another round of "wtf am i doing w/ my life?"

Art Wise:

Inconsistent. All over the place. Structureless. I have so many, if not, too many ideas + barely any energy. I keep complaining about so many unfinished wips. Atm, poses. Pages + pages full of poses + flour sacks in the doodle notebook. No matter how many i've made, i still feel unsatisfied. Dont get me wrong, they look good BUT the approaches dont give me that sense of fulfillment. Flour sacks, skeletons, basic shapes. Just... f***. Maybe this all depends on my mood too :(

Animation Wise:

A standstill :( i never did finish my "Nap 2 Hype" lip sync animation. I had other ideas as animating my OC, Trance to dance in place to study animating w/ proportions. Ceased bcuz of details (despite completing the hardest part: hair). I had an idea last weekend about animated Instagram Stories. Nope. Attempted but never came out the way i wanted :(

Job Hunting Wise:

... *sighs* i have completed + finalized thy resume... yet im hesistant. Not bcuz of future rejection. It's bcuz of leaving my comfort zone. I do have bursts or days that i wanna get my life sorted out. It worked but for a short period of time b4 i lose that spark + it all crumbles back down again X( i'm also afraid that wherever im sending my resume to, theyll be positions that doesn't match my interests or doesnt feel fulfilling. Im really scared of that last part.

Pizza Job Wise:

Now the notso-friendly coworker's gone, i'm working with people i like working w/ over the weekend. My fear @ work: becoming what i hated the most (the notso-friendly coworker). I'm trying so hard not to be like her + work w/ my weekend coworkers to establish a good team dynamic. I got Tuesdays down >:) need to work on Thursday's. Im not counting that stupid Bears game last Thursday. It'll be a fresher start. I'm nervous bcuz i dont wanna f*** this up that theyll hate me for being strict/mean or do nothing like the notso-friendly coworker did. I wouldnt call this a promotion or becoming"head honcho" as these two Tuesday regulars called it. I'll just think of it as more character development :P

House Wise:

Alone, lonely at times. I am often home alone throughout the day, whether its work or days off. Talking to siblings is scary bcuz i try so hard to either agree w/ them or say something w/o sounding dumb +/or often get ignored. Siblings have their own path + me tagging along apparently holds them back in some way. What i hate the most rn is talking down on each other. *gets choked up* at work, we're all positive bcuz we work so well together. Here at home... its a competition on who'll succeed the most. "Get a job! Get a job!" *tears up* throughout my college years i've been told that. Even after college + 2 years of serving pizzas, i'm still being told that. They never let me go on my own pace. I did so when i got the pizza job.

Parents Wise:

Eh... meh for mom + highly concerned for dad. Mom's been out + about to "church" almost every day. She believes the more she prays, the more good will become of us. I say its a little like the opposite. No mom = no food = starving, especially on work days. It's a little our fault too since idk how to cook that well. My excuses: too time consuming, laziness, saving strength + energy for work. Then again, i'm taking full advantage of Mom while i still live in this house. The dad, however, not in the best shape :( he was involved in a nearby collision that bruised up his right arm pretty good. Though he's okay + he'll settle this in court, i'm worried about his overall physical health *head aches* i have all these ideas of what he can do + when but doesnt act upon it... i feel guilty of this too. If he doesnt +/or we dont do something by his birthday in November, the thoughts of worse things will increase. It's a rough year for him...

Kickboxing Wise:

Really good! I always think that i'm my own superhero + training to become one. I've been going more in the mornings to help eat breakfast, which i struggle w/. I've established a routine to eat a bowl full of yogurt w/ sliced almonds, dark chocolate granola, + caramel drizzle. I eat that between 8 AM to 9:15 AM, leave the house at 10 AM, arrive at around 10:30 AM, + stretch b4 class at 11 AM. Monday was fun bcuz i punched quite hard during freestyle. It was something i never knew i needed that day but it worked! There are days that i cant give it my all bcuz of lack of energy, the music selection is meh, +/or everything's fine in my life atm. What i like about the morning class is the instructor's number one thing to work on: technique. Do i have fun? Yes! Is it easy? No! As long as i feel good at the end, that'll satisfy me well!

Wrapping Up:

Ok its 1:30 AM rn. I left my medicine in the kitchen. I need to get that. The headache's killing me rn. I did drink 2 strawberry coladas watching IT Chapter 2. Welp, let's do this. In the meantime, Nite Y'all!

#life

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sophieoliviab-blog · 5 years

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Wednesday Lecture - Mike Pratt & Q&A

Mike Pratt was born in 1987 in Seaham, North East England. He graduated from Northumbria University in 2009 where he was awarded the Paul Mason Sculpture Prize, in 2014 he completed a two-year postgraduate programme at De Ateliers in Amsterdam, Netherlands. Solo exhibitions include Deep Pond, Galerie Juliette Jongma, Amsterdam, Rubberhead/Rubbernecking B.M.W. Edinburgh, Good Mourning Bell Workplace Gateshead, Cumberland Sausage Extraspazio, Rome, and HUBBA HUBBA, Satellite, Newcastle.

lecture - Pratt talks about each painting he created, he suggests he uses expressionistic approaches such as splats and the strokes he makes on his large canvas’s. Mike said he Never left comfortable leaving the painting as it is like its missing something so he said he added text in his work which is shown on the paintings above. in his work he finds theres many problems and having it in his studio as an activity and taking it out of the studio to finish the piece makes it like two different worlds.

After he graduated he did a show in Rome which he had alot of paintings in his studio which were unfinished and his intention was to always cover it with text and he wanted to push it further by sending out doodle paintings. Mike said he felt more like he let go and worked more freely instead of the system he created. During the lecture he commented he likes repitition and going back repeating himself and by doing this it gave him the freedom to work around. His work is mainly in a series about 4or 5 paintings on the go at once. He worked around the idea of taking one of the paintings and blowing it up in scale and screen printing it. Pratt reads books such as pop art and abstract which have influenced his work today.

I absolutely loved Mike Pratt lecture I felt so inspired by his work and see the relations between both our artworks and how we work. Mike suggested how creating works on a bigger scale really pushed him out of his comfort zone and since on my second semester the work I have produced this term is so different from what I normally do but for the better. In the Q&A later he said just have fun with what you are doing and what is exactly what I am doing. I'm trying not to to think too much in it what I want to say or express but seeing the work produced everything links as a whole. I was worried about my work because a lot of tutors said its better to have a concept around the work your creating but some of my paintings just happened in the moment by repeating the same painting and adding or just simply the fact I'm enjoying what I'm doing and I was worried if that makes me less important or not doing my best I can but its exactly what mike said If your enjoying what your producing the work will speak for itself and link as a journey.

Although what I didn't like about Mike Pratt work is some paintings where too busy and if he took a step back and had a moment he would find the painting looked finished before the text was added but thats just my opinion. I prefer work that doesn't involve text because its like knowing the story before you even attempt it. I like paintings that are unknown and a puzzle. I feel like he didn't really know when to stop and carried on until he couldn't do anymore over the text.

Q&A

Do you have an idea in your head soon as you start painting or how do you actually start the idea?

“I would get a really big canvas and get a big sheet of paper and I just make a start and not worry what its about, just enjoy it and then I would get my canvas I just like canvas haha I just love priming canvas’.”

“sometimes ill have an idea like a sculptor of an ear and ill attempt it but a lot of the time Im along the way of the journey or get cut in half. so my best intentions rarley stay.

Did you just come up with the ear just now or ?

“no I've done this before I did a painting of an ear and it changed for the sake of the exhibition.”

while I've been here at uni I've had quite a lot of pressure from my tutors and stuff to find a message or a meaning in my work and sometimes I struggle with that do you think art only has value if you say something and not what you make?

“ I felt the exactly the same thing while I was at uni then I remembered someone telling me the subject was just a red herring. It doesn't matter what its about as long as you get something from it and someone else does.”

I struggle with working on such a large scale and I never know when to stop. how do you know when to be like okay thats enough now?

“ill carry on with a painting until I think its great and by the next day I would of ruined it. its just a guess you have to take.”

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hi, could I please get positivity for a hanayo koizumi who is dealing with serious bullying? I only get support from my boyfriend and some of my friends.

Hey there Hanayo. I hope things have gotten better for you over the past week, but if not, your positivity is under the keep reading. ^^

–> Mod Pocci♡

I can’t imagine the world of pain you must be in, and I’m sorry I didn’t respond sooner. I wanted to think out my response and take in as many circumstances as I can. And before I continue I would like to let you know, everything I say is only suggestion in an attempt to help; you don’t need to feel obligated to listen to me at all, I wouldn’t want you wondering out of your comfort zone, ok? I just wish to help, because bullying is truly a horrid and vile thing that shouldn’t exist...

I’m sorry you don’t get much support on the matter as well, It’s a difficult thing to deal with for everyone involved, but especially the victim of the abuse. I assume you’ve already tried to take action, so I guess talking to a trusted adult (whether it be a teacher, guardian, cousin, sibling or therapist/counselor) is out of the question? (Even if you express how desperate you are for the intell to remain anonymous?) But I don’t know the adults that surround you, so it’s your call to make. And while asking for help seems like it’ll only make things worse, sometimes getting help for someone with more power is the answer to avoid further and potentially harsher abuse. And I would hate the bullying become so intensely unbearable that you start to consider the unimaginable. Please Hanayo, I know things may not seem the most amazing now, but you don’t know how happy you can be in your future when you take control. Things will get better, they always do eventually.And may I propose, if you do seek help from a person with authority and things don’t improve or even become worse, take screenshots and recordings of any abuse you can and take it to the authorities/police. I don’t think will get to that extent, I’m just offering methods to keep you safe in any scenario...

But on a lighter note, You’re doing exceptionally well doing your best to get through this, for putting up with this sort of treatment is exhausting. You’re being incredibly strong! It’s a challenge putting up with the stuff bullies can dish out, so I’m very proud of you! ^^ And while it’s not a very nice scenario, it proves just how strong and capable you are! And no body can take that away from you!

I’m unsure of how bad the bullying must be but as of now, but have you tried staying in crowds of people? i highly doubt anyone would hurt you in a crowd of bystanders, but maybe even just staying with your friends could help. Or try staying near someone with power in the situation (like a teacher or security guard). And while hiding isn’t the most ideal thing, if you want to avoid the bullies badly have you tried hiding in the restrooms or a library?

If it gets any worse or puts your health in danger please talk to someone and seek help. Bullying (including cyber) is against the law so someone must rise up to help you. You’re not alone in this battle, you have help around you, I’m sorry if you’re scared and I know it won’t be easy but as long as it’s to keep you safe I think it’s the best option.

You don’t deserve to be treated this way Hanayo and you have the right to speak up about it. It’ll be okay. You’ll be alright. I highly doubt these bullies are crazy enough to harm you to the point of serious danger, but if they get angry and throw any death threats at you, tell someone immediately and seek protection. I’m sure your carers and friends also wish to keep you safe.

Just do your best to keep going for now, in a few years this won’t be a problem to you and the chances of seeing these bullies again are pretty slim. But like I said, I know it can be difficult but if you’re in any danger at all, please inform someone, start small with a trusted friend, if you’re really scared, open up to a relative you trust and know cares for you. I’m sure they’ll be able to support you further by helping you take the following necessary steps.

I’m sorry Hanayo I really don’t know what to say, things like this are beyond our control and I’m sorry these knuckleheads have chosen you as their prey…

If it helps, try learning some self defense techniques if things ever get too serious. And they don’t have to be used to fight, the idea is that you stun your attacker long enough for you to get to safety. This site I found seems pretty helpful. (And don’t mind the assumption of males being less victimized then female, guys can get attacked by females and males alike, and females can attack females as well etc etc = abuse doesn’t have a gender. It’s all still bullying and abuse and wrong) I just hope it doesn’t have to come down to violence, but if things do get physical try one of these techniques if you’re unable to make an escape or persuade them not to do anything rash with your words first.

I know this is hard Hanayo, and I’m sure it’s been an awful experience thus far. But you’re doing absolutely amazing dealing with everything. Just be careful and do your best, it’s all anyone can ever ask for.

Stay strong sweetie, I know you’re going to get out of this. You got this!

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kryptnclnd · 5 years

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RULES.EXE

DISCLAIMER

I am not Rome Flynn, nor am I affiliated or involved with dc comics or Young Justice. This is a roleplay account and is strictly non-profit and used for entertainment purposes only. Any icons, edits or screencaps were capped and edited by myself however special shout out to @destroyalist whose psd border’s I’m currently using for my icons :)

NOTES

This account is Young Justice compliant with heavy influences from both Earth One, New Earth and my own personal headcanons and interpretations of the show and the comics that I have read. I have not read many volumes of DC due to lack of access and difficulty following arcs and am not at all caught up on what is happening but if I come across your muse and I am unfamiliar with them I will do my own research before attempting to plot or interact just so that I’m not totally in the dark.

This is a OC friendly account. Some of my favourite muses of my friends and of my own are OC’s. If you don’t have a stats, about or bio page I will generally try to message you to find out more about your muse so I can figure out how our muses can interact better.

MUN

I’m Chey. I’m 21+, a woman of colour and I’m queer. I will be starting University this year so my activity will be even more shoddy and unreliable as it has been in the past so if you wish to have a roleplay partner who is active regularly and consistently then you may want to look elsewhere. I can be very fickle and I do have real life responsibilities and other roleplay accounts that will take up my time. Due to these factors I’ve made this blog somewhat private and is highly selective and I will be slow to respond so please be patient with me.

OOC CONDUCT: Racism, queerphobia ( this includes all anti LGBTQA+ behavior ) and any antisemitic behavior will not be tolerated and will result in a hard block. I believe that call out culture should be reserved for those individuals or groups whom are a direct threat to another person’s physical, emotional or psychological health. I refuse to give bullies a free pass.

I HAVE NO TRIGGERS: However I will not write or discuss anything to do with pregnancy or eating disorders as both make me uncomfortable. I will do my best to tag triggers as I see them but some things WILL slip past me. The dominant triggers you may find on this blog is violence, gore, weapons / guns, sexually explicit content, mental health disorders / behavior, abuse and profanity.

RULES

MUTUAL’S ONLY: like I’ve said, this blog is low activity and private so this blog will be mutuals only. Meaning that I will only interact with blogs that I am following and who are following me back. This is as much for myself as it is for my partners, since this account is low activity I would hate to overwhelm myself with too many threads or interactions at once and would hate for my partners to wait too long for their replies / responses. Meme’s however are open for non-mutuals and I will occasionally post open starters or starter calls that non-mutuals can like but I will be selective with these.

PATIENCE: as I mentioned above, I have real life commitments and other roleplay accounts so I ask that my partners be patient. If you think I may have missed a starter or a reply or if tumblr has eaten an ask, send me an IM and I’ll get back to you asap on whether I have it drafted or not.

PRE-ESTABLISHED RELATIONSHIPS: I prefer to discuss possible muse dynamics with my roleplay partners as I find it a lot easier and more interesting and engaging than writing generic introduction threads. Nine times out of ten, greeters on this account will be written under the assumption that our muses already know or know of each other unless otherwise discussed but I love pre-established relationships so don’t be surprised if I just hop into your IM’s.

FOLLOWERS: if we’re mutuals then I’m going to assume that means that I can IM you, write you starters and send you multiple memes on a whim without needing to plot or discuss it before hand. However, YOU DO NOT HAVE TO REPLY OR RESPOND TO THESE!! Nor do you have to tell me if you’re going to reply or not, this is a no stress zone and you’re under no obligations to do anything that you don’t want to or aren’t inspired to do.

SHIPPING: this is a multi-ship account, I love to build and develop relationships with my partners whether they’re platonic, romantic or antagonistic but sometimes muses and writing styles lack the chemistry to do so. I will never force any kind of relationship with my partners muse and I only expect the same in return.

AGE RESTRICTIONS: Given that I’m in my mid twenties now, I can get a little uncomfortable if I’m interacting with anyone under 18 and I know that there are many people under 18 who aren’t comfortable interacting with anyone older than 21. I try to be very aware of my roleplay partners ages so that I can establish clear boundaries when it comes to OOC talk and IC interactions. I will never write or discuss sexually explicit content with anyone 18 or under.

SMUT: While Kon was rapidly aged during his time in the Cadmus pod and has technically only been alive for eight years, physically he is at his peak of physical health with the body and physique of a healthy twenty four year old man and has the emotional and psychological maturity of a adult man. I myself am 25 and turning 26 in February so smut is entirely plausible on this account as long as my roleplay partners are over 18 and are also comfortable with that kind of content. I will typically tag any smut interactions or sexually explicit content with erotica or ‘n/sfw’ but will not put threads under read mores unless requested by my roleplay partner. Smut continues to be the most challenging genre for me to write however so don’t be surprised if I choose to skip ahead, fade to black or continue from the morning after if I run out of inspiration or ideas for how to write the encounter.

#rules.#pages.

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