#it just... fuckin happens a lot

[thesnacken]

I really feel like people don't take my sensory limitations and sensitivities seriously.

I'm not just being picky, actually! Strong scents cause my respiratory system to flare up!

I actually CAN'T tune out stimuli. Its just A Thing. I've never been able to do it in my whole life because my brain Just Isn't Wired Like That

So when I say "Can you not smoke here?" or "Please only get unscented trash bags" or "I really need you to be using headphones, please" I am expressing a Very Real Need and if you're just going to ignore that I have to resign myself to the fact that I just can't trust you.

#it just... fuckin happens a lot #hey Autistic Bitches website y'all get me right? #but like #essential oils of basically every variety make me wheezy like I'm being forced to breathe cotton balls #menthol is TOO STRONG it makes my nose run and my lungs itch #cigarette smoke even in very small doses makes my lungs flare up #that's before even getting to the stuff that makes me just 'a pussy' #get accused of being lazy or a wuss or whatever when I say “No its below 0°F I physically cannot haul cargo outside or shovel or w/e” #and like I can handle people thinking I'm a huge pussy that's fine everyone has always thought that about me #but frankly nobody takes me seriously and then they get all butthurt about me taking the necessary steps to protect myself #sorry I got born with a Catastrophically Defective Body #believe me if it could help I'd peel this motherfucker apart with my bare hands #Catch me with robotic parts just ripping shit out without disconnecting a damn thing #so I can spot solder things back together or shave a gear or whatever #I'd do it with the meat suit too but it doesn't work like that

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Does

Does Barnaby

Does Barnaby tell the others to get off his lawn when he's angry

psh, who do you think he is, an old man? he'd Bark, like any lively young dog

#serves them right for (playfully) arguing right outside of his house smh #hes got sensitive ears yall... probably... i wouldnt know... #i bet ya could hear that woof everywhere in the neighborhood #and feel it. its gotta be deep as hell. bass boosted boof #legend has it that a Single Can fell in howdy's store #scribble salad #welcome home #welcome home puppet show #many thoughts about barnaby and barking #id imagine that if asked if he can bark hed be like 'yeah but its a waste of effort / who has the time for That' #i doubt he ever really does it... #cause that would take effort and really when would he be in the mood to be able to do it #its like. i dont get how some people can just let out a real good yell/scream on command #if im not angry enough i Physically Cannot raise my voice in that way. just dont have it in me #and id also think that barnaby has a thick skin. takes a lot to make him That Peeved yk yk #but when he does bark. oof. thats gotta be the loudest shit ever #everyone runs out of their homes like 'what happened??? is there a thunderstorm??? did a fuckin Bomb go off??' #meanwhile barnaby is slamming his door behind him and frank & julie are speedwalking away from his house with ringing ears #thoughts thoughts thoughts Musings

[daftpatience]

one thing I have learned about being poor is that you cannot for a moment stop thinking about it

#theres no peace #every little thing reminds me we are poor #seeing friends having electricity wifi heat food gas. it all costs money. and bills and fees and charges happen all the damn time #im constantly worried that i am measing up somehow or im not keeping track of my finances properly #the person handling our disability assistance application keeps coming back with question after question about my job #and i have so much doubt and fear that ive made some mistake in my answers that will disqualify us from support #and theres this sick backwards stupid thing where applying for and being on disability support is discouraging me from trying to make money #because the more i make the less likely we'll get support but i need to make money to live #its just fucked. and once we're on support i have to make monthly reports of my income so ill feel like im explaining myself all the fuckin #time #cus the system isnt built in a way that makes sense for self employed ppl who have business expenses to account for #sorry for the ranting i cant sleep #truly truly i think poverty is making me a worse persin #more anxious more resentful more jealous more miserable more spiteful #i have so little and there is so little i can do to help it #i want things in a more desparate and even childish way than i used to eant things #spend a lot more time fantasizing about magically having expendable income #not to mention the constant exponential guilt that comes from asking for help or recieving help. its guilt i need to unlearn but i feel it

[hi-there-buddies]

People: Dragon Ball focuses too much on Goku. He’s so strong, so nobody else has to do anything.

Goku: Loses first 2 tournaments in og. Dies twice. Only kills one major villain in all of Dragon Ball Z, and it’s the villain that everyone wanted Gohan to kill.

Also are we just gonna ignore how the Namek/Frieza saga was mostly Krillin, Gohan, Piccolo, and Vegeta just doin shit? They did so much in that entire arc

#also he spent the first two arcs of dragon ball literally just training and running to get to the battle mostly #he barely even fights in the android and cell saga #almost character besides Goku in DBZ’s first 4 arcs have a LOT more screen time #honestly #I’d say Gohan is on par with Goku as the main character #also the entire Namek saga and most of the frieza saga were just the side characters fighting with brief stints of Goku #I can understand how it seems like it’s the Goku show #but it’s really not #original dragon ball is #and honestly it’s not even worse for it #og dragon ball is fuckin awesome #but you can tell that dragon ball z is a show about ALL the characters #because in og we always follow Goku and his adventures #in dbz we follow everyone else too #even when they aren’t with Goku #which is basically something that never happened in the non filler episodes of og #ok thanks #dbz #dragon ball #dragon ball z #db #this is only about og and dbz btw #not super #yes super is more of the Goku show lol #Goku #son goku

[justablah56]

look at my silly polycule guys

I love them dearly

#my art #dndads #terry looks like an exasperated old woman and honestly slay #theyre all just so silly #excitedly showing my silly little polycule to any random tumblr user willing to hear me out #just look at them ok #maybe this isnt the cutest and most domestic art of them that i could have made but cmon #theyre just silly #they fight over stupid shit and then they make out about it #to me what happens after this scene is terry just fuckin . scoops sparrow up and toes off his shoes like there problem solved #meanwhile sparrow and nicky are just 😳 #listen i love them a lot ok #terrickrow #dndaddies #dungeons and daddies #sparrow oak garcia #nicky close foster #nick close #nicholas foster #terry jr #terry stampler #terry jr stampler #undescribed

[cookinguptales]

Something I always think about a lot during disability/chronic illness/rare illness pride months is like... It is wild how often people will come up to me and want me to listen to some guilty secret they have re: disability and expect me to tell them it's okay.

Like... once I was waiting for my dad to bring the car up at the airport, and this guy approaches me and starts telling me why he'd never want to date a disabled woman. (I'm gay and completely uninterested in men, which made this whole interaction even more awkward.) And after talking about all the reasons why people like me would not make a good partner he turns those sad eyes on me like, "But that doesn't make me a bad person, does it? I'm not doing anything wrong. Like, you get it, don't you?"

You get it, don't you?

I hear that one a lot.

Like when the grad student teaching one of my classes at my university was chatting to me after class and told me that once she and her friends went to Disney World and pretended to be disabled to get onto the rides faster. I recognized the nervous laughter, the entreating look. The you get it, don't you?

I understand what these people are asking me for. They want absolution. They want this disabled person, maybe the first real disabled person they've ever talked to, to listen to their guilty secret and tell them they're okay. They're not a bad person. I don't mind. I don't judge them. I get it.

But frankly... I don't get it. These people often tell me that they've done things that make disabled people's lives actively worse. Disney has changed their policies re: disability because so many able-bodied people were abusing them. Companies and organizations walk back accommodation policies all the time because they're being abused. That grad student who pretended to be disabled actively made disabled people's lives harder.

And I don't really give a shit if one asshole dude doesn't want to date disabled women (probably better for those women, tbh) but I know how bad it feels to be ghosted on a dating app when you talk about accessibility, even when your profile is explicit about your disability. I know that I felt like I was not worth loving in spite of my disability for years because I knew that people like that guy would only see all the ways I'd slow them down.

Guys like that actively make us hate ourselves.

But like... it's wild how these people don't see how the only thing crueler than harboring these feelings and doing these things is making some random disabled person listen to their stories. My day was going great before some guy practically gave me a powerpoint about why I should never expect to have a relationship. I really enjoyed that class before I found out that my teacher had participated in the exact kind of ableist theft of accommodations that was currently making it difficult for me to get accommodations at that school.

They took this weight they were holding on their shoulders and then forced it onto mine -- and then expected me to comfort them. To tell them it was okay. To throw my fellow disabled folks under the bus.

And -- both of these times in particular, I was in situations where I was not really free to speak my mind. Alone with a big guy in a parking garage? Alone with the woman who would ultimately decide my grade for the class? The power differential there was huge. And whether they were consciously doing it or not, they were leveraging that power differential to try and force me to give them absolution.

I made noncommittal noises. Really, what else was I supposed to do? And even then, I could see the spark of disappointment and anger in their eyes. I was supposed to tell them it was okay that they'd hurt me and people like me. I was supposed to tell them they were still good.

But I didn't want to offer them absolution, and I was angry that they'd asked for it in the first place. I can't offer you forgiveness for something you know is wrong -- and that you've done nothing to fix. Moreover, I won't. You should feel bad that you hurt us. You should feel guilty. It's a shitty thing to do.

If you want to feel better about yourself, stop doing shitty things!

And I knew these people were still doing shitty things because dumping all this on me when I was just minding my own business was in and of itself a shitty thing. Trying to transfer their burden to me. Reminding me about the discrimination I have to face every day just so they could feel better. Expecting me to do emotional labor on command for strangers because it doesn't matter if I hurt so long as they feel good.

That's shitty! Don't do it! I already have to use physical crutches, don't try to turn me into an emotional one!

#I'm sure this happens a lot with other marginalized groups too #though I'll admit it rarely happens to me with queer issues #even though I often choose to mark myself as visibly queer #I can't actually make that choice re: disability #I really need my assistive devices #but damn they see the woman sitting there in a wheelchair and it's like they see a sitting duck #they know it'll be harder for me to get away from them sometimes I think #and they'll just start unloading #fuckin hate that #ableism #disability

[front-facing-pokemon]

#skuntank #team skull's theme blasting in the background. i think just like everyone‚ i still have a bit of a grudge against this fucking dude #but also chatot for way overreacting when they totally fuckin lied to him?? like there's a lot of bullshit happening here but if this guy #wasn't at the forefront of it then none of it would've had to happen. these kids were trying to save the whole entire world and this fucker #had to make himself a nuisance with his other little nuisances just to make it that much harder to save the world. and for what?? #to make partner cry?? why do you want that‚ skuntank?? who do you think you are??? #i don't like this guy

[everymeloneveryday]

chapter 162 page 18

#beastars #melon beastars #beastars melon #melon #chapter 162 #what always gets me is that she lets him do this #she lets her son kill her #like there is absolutely no doubt that she abused him #she loved his papa so much something broke in her when he left and instead of learning to cope like a normal person she... #i have sympathy for a woman who clearly needed a lot of help and in the absence of that ended up abusing her child #but thats about where it ends #she deserved to die for what she did as much as she deserved to be helped #anyway unrelated to melomama sometimes i think about what happened to him after this #like chances are they wouldve tried to find the next of kin to dump him on #but considering how hybrids are viewed by society and how isolated melomama is AND how hard he was to track down by the police #chances are he just got lost in the foster system #having a fully fledged PhD by 23/24 is fuckin INSANE btw he wouldve had to skip grades n get into college courses by 12 at the latest #which means btw on pretty much all his legal documentation hes probably JUST marked as a gazelle #lol. melon. i think about him every day

[ilguna]

THIS GIRLIE HIT A CURB SO HARD THAT IT POPPED A FUCKING WHEEL.

#ilguna #i looked away for literally HALF of a second and this is what happened #sigh #i’m doing catering for work so this is a nightmare #well kinda #i mean i made it to the catering place so i just fuckin delivered but now i’m in their back parking lot #this is embarrassing

[polygondotcomvideoproducer]

thats not leaking blood the colours are just a little stylized 😭 i cant be the only person who genuinely likes that portrait

I said if u squint it looks that way, I understand that it's not the intention bud. And ur probably not the only one but it's certainly a niche opinion. Like I've been racking my brain to think of reasons the artist might want to make it look like he was painting on a meat canvas and none of them are particularly flattering to ol king chuck. The artist wanted the military uniform to fade into the background to bring the man himself into better focus and humanise him. Which. yeah trying to cover over their violent history by humanising themselves is certainly what the royal family are going for these days so shoutout to the artist for getting the assignment ig lmao. And the one fucking incongruous butterfly that was apparently Charles' idea really gets me

Anyway no royal portrait was gonna work for me, in the same way that I'd be pissed if my landlord was like "hey look what I spent ur rent money on" and it was a fuckin statue of themselves, yk? Royal portraits in general are flimsy fuckin propaganda that waste our damn money, and this one is no different to me, it's just a more self-serving version

#apologies for the shinigami eyes link. it's a guardian article #like the look of the painting is kind of neither here nor there to me. like it's a weird choice but I'd hate it either way #looking at ur tags I can't disagree that it's an accurate representation of the man #it was also queen camilla's impression of the portrait apparently. like yea that's definitely him #like yea there's a lot of technical skill on display. obviously. they're royalty. they can afford the best in the business #it's just high quality art in service of a useless subject #and like I said there are some real negative ways that an anti-monarchist like myself can read the artistic choices made #I'm not convinced that he's not on our side lmao #and who's paying for this portrait? the taxpayers? during a cost of living crisis? or is it cash from the duchy he inherited #or is it leftover money from his fuckin tax dodge #like my main opinion on the portrait is: stop trying to make king charles happen. it's not gonna happen #the way the media has desperately tried to get charles the same affection as the queen is pathetic #british monarchy abolished in my lifetime let's make it happen

[variksel]

if i had a nickel every time i hyperfixated on a fiction podcast where the main characters started an apocalypse rife with insanity and fear and eldrich horrors described in the most disgusting interesting way id have two nickels which isnt a lot but its weird that its happened twice

#the magnus archives #dungeons and daddies #two shows. two vibes. two eldrich horror fear apocalypses #the doodler is what wouldve happened if the spirals fear apocalypse had happened #youll never change my mind on thar #or the end perhaps. maychance #gonna start kinassigning the dndads s2 kids as tma characters #normal is martin kin and open about it #taylor just thinks tim is cool #links favourite character is basira but he doesnt kin anyone really #scary says she doesnt kin anyone cause haha lame #she says daisy would be her favourite if she wasnt a dirty fuckin cop #she says if she had to pick shed relate most to melanie #which isnt untrue she does relate a lot to mel #but secretly she relates like a looot to martin too #this is getting out of control #dndads #dungeondads #taylor swift #normal oak #scary marlow #scary marlowe #lincoln wilson #jon sims #jonmartin #martin blackwood #dungeons and daddies spoilers #dndads spoilers #dungeons and daddies s2

[drewsaturday]

actually i do think it's funny how few lesbian films i've seen as someone who's been out for over a decade.

like. these are the only Classics TM i can remember watching:

but i'm a cheerleader

blue is the warmest color

loving annabelle

chloe 2009

carol

obvs i did get a TON of rep through tv shows and Certain Webseries and music videos instead but i feel so uncultured. i need to put a list together of the ones i particularly need to see so any recs are welcome lol.

#txt #the uncultured-ness is again bc i didn't have much time after realizing i was gay and wanting to get into these kinds of films #before tumblr purity culture made it problematic to watch the old ones and being poor/ill made it impossible to go to #movie theatres to watch the new ones or have access to streaming sites with the sooooorta current ones #i also didn't get a ton out of most of them since... i couldn't relate to the non age gap ones lol so that's another reason it's such a #short list. easier to get that in fanfic. #though i guess i am lucky for the thing lots of other lesbians seem to hate re: how many of the films we DID have proportionally at #a certain point were so geared for age gaps ;jlkskdfj #it's nice to have but it does kinda get balanced out when there's so much backlash from fellow lesbians who fuckin hate you #anyway recs don't need to be age gap centric but it does help esp if it does not revolve around teenagers generally #i think my issue rly was that instead of watching lesbian films #i'd be lesbian for an actress and just watch all of their stuff instead #and then just stumble onto a lesbian tv show episode they were in in like 1998 #as happened with alex kingston in like 3 different ways

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Fellow Psych enjoyer!! Im watchin psych at this very moment lol, i know its a tough question bc i dont even have a definitive answer but like, what's your favorite episode?

hmmm well i did very much enjoy the episode where Lassiter & Henry bond over fishing... i also like the episode where Shawn gets kidnapped & ends up on top of a moving car <3

#ive seen some episodes out of order #since my friend used choice ones to get me interested lol (it very much worked!) #but i only started watching it all the way through yesterday #so im only on season 2 :/ #i also loved the one i just watched - the counterfeiting episode! twas funny #but really since im binging the show they're all kinda blending together lmao #And its mostly on as background so there are some where i have no idea what happened or what it was about #rambles from the bog #tbh a lot of the time watching it #i find myself sitting here and going: man. if it was made pretty much the exact same way just with today's climate #it wouldve been even fucking funnier #bc obviously the humor in the show is kinda Dated! there's a lot of times where im sitting here going 'oh that was bad taste' #or 'oh that would Not fly today' #but it is a really good show #easier to enjoy when you understand the era it was made in & accept that there's gonna be unsavory bits #honestly its interesting! im on s.2 which was released in 2007 i think #and i believe i was like... around five years old? i dont really remember Living the time period! #so its interesting to see! its a whole different range of slang and american culture & tech! #all i really remember is the phones... i remember the awe when someone at school turned up with a touchscreen #they were pretty fuckin new so they were expensive & my parents could afford one #so my first phone was your average flip phone. it served its purpose! i loved listening to the ringtones! that was my spotify <3 #anyway wait fuck what were we talking about #OH RIGHT PSYCH. um. yes🤝 #i dont like shawn's dad! lassiter is probably my favorite! i may have a crush on juliet! shawn is the most bishrekxual man i have ever seen #gus deserves better & more screen time! the whole show is just really good #*old man voice* they just dont make em like they used to.... #said both positively and negatively. some aspects are good they're gone. other aspects... sigh

[imabiscuitinthousandworlds]

I LOVE going everywhere by bike. Don't need to wait for a bus. Don't need to cram myself into a bus with (urgh) people. Or even worse, what feels like every single student in town. I still get home in about the same amount of time. I'm so so flexible including with places. Like yeah sure, let's go there! I don't care if the next bus station is far away. Doesn't matter to me.

Stayed out late with friends recently. Two of em had to get their family to come pick them up because that's too far to walk and it was too late for buses. A different friend lives like 30 minutes away but always walks and their way goes through a small park where literally no one is at with few lanterns so it's pitch black and I could literally just walk them home and then take the bike which is faster and has its own light and feels and probably is safer than walking those dark ass streets at night alone.

Like. I can just do all that. And yeah, sometimes when I'm not doing too well I feel like collapsing afterwards and yeah, maybe my fingers feel like falling off a lot at this time of year but that's like. SO worth it. I have no idea how people can live and NOT go everywhere by bike. Like if it's more than 20-30 minutes maybe but even with hills.... I fucking love my bike.

#a biscuit's rambles #also i just love going out with friends til late?? #with the lockdown and shit that is such an entirely new experience and its great #also i like feeling useful i think. i like walking a friend home knowing ill definitely get home safe #idk #i also like my bike. a lot #been taking it literally every single day for years now and i have no regrets #EXCEPT FOR THOSE FUCKING PEDESTRIANS THAT HEAR MY BELL AND DO NOT FUCKING MOVE #AND THE OTHER BIKES THAT JUST DONT RING THEIR BELLS OR NOT EVEN HAVE ANY #LIKE THEN YOU GOTTA AT LEAST YELL AT PEOPLE TO MOVE OVER YOU NUMBNUT #A BIKE IS QUIET THEY DO NOT HEAR YOU THEY WILL NOT MOVE OVER MAGICALLY #AND IM STUCK BEHIND YOU #ALSO ITS JUST ASSHOLE BEHAVIOUR LIKE SOMEITMES WARNING SOMEONE SO THEY KEEP TO THE BLOODY SIDE IS GOOD!!! #and dont even get me STARTED ON SOME OF THE CARS #MUCH LESS THE STUPID ASS FUCKING INFRASTRUCTURE OF MY TOWN #ITS LIKE THEY WANT BIKES TO BE RUN OVER #fun fact i have been run over before #just fuckin collided with a car #nobody would listen to me try to pick apart the details of how it felt #which was probably my way of trying to cope with that experience lol #though nothing serious happened. bUT STILL #also oh god that one stupid fucking street with those stupid ass cars NOBODY NEEDS A CAR THERE JUST BAND HTEM ALREADY #AND THE. THE FUCKIGN ROADWORKS #I CAN NOT REACH MY SCHOOL WITHOUT ALMOST BEING EITHER HIT IN THE HEAD WITH A HUGE SHOVEL OR RUN OVER BY A TRUCK #AND IF THATS NOT THE CASE THEN THERES SO MANY FCKING PEOPLE THAT EVEN IF I YELL AT THEM LIKE MAD I CANT GET PAST WITHOUT RUNNING SOMEONE #THROUGH MYSELF #im very passionate about all things bike. but thinking abt it is a huge part of my life so im allowed to be

[tankgotstuckinthecircusgate]

i could draw anything but i decided to draw this. carlo and rocco in 1932 aka my headache

#^ this isnt real ofc but its what happening inside their heads (well in carlo's at least) #mfs when their old friend doesn't break under manipulation #“Lift up the receiver I'll make you a believer” punching the wall with fist #rocco was the underboss not eddie can u hear me!!!!!!!!!!! HELLO!!!!!!!!! (capo henry situation in terms of complexity) #no m2 did smth to my brain and now im incapable of writing normal relationship between people #anyway. things that makes sense only to me rn unfortunately: #“AND YET ALAS I WELCOME YOU KNOWING ABOUT YOU” its carlo @ rocco but works both ways i think. RAHHHHHHHHH #YET YOU THINK WE'RE THE SAME RAHHHHHHHHH #youre not who u are to anyone these days im not who i am to anyone no not me at all these days not at all RAHHHHHHHHH #carlo who was afraid of rocco (for a reason) when he started to run the family rahhhhhhhhh #“That son of a bitch!.. I fuckin’ knew it!” <-watch me put a lot more meaning into a phrase that shouldn't make so much sense #2kczech need to pay me for developing rocco's character btw if u even care . and for writing this fucking falcone family backstory #“Холодный и острый осколок гранита; Смерть Голиафа в руке Давида” #<- “A cold and sharp shard of granite; Goliath's death in David's hand” #i've listened to this song too much it became certifed rocco song to me #let's say rocco helped carlo a lot w preparing moretti family for a new don. just bc i don't think it was this simple #“your capo killed your don lets all pretend that its cool and normal and it doesn't matter that he ran the family for 23 years😋😘” #avart #m2 #i wont tag this w fandom tags dear god this shit is so delusional #dear god rocco been a gap and a blank spot in this story for so long but now i genuinely like him #tho i'm still not done with his character yet but there's enough for me to like him #sorry. not normal bout them. not at all . #rocco & carlo

[memorys-skyscraper]

devouring hades 2 like my life depends on it, got the last boss to like 70% with a setup that had absolutely no business getting that far so i'd say things are going pretty good

figure i could probably get a clear tomorrow but im debating whether i should bc the game DEFINITELY doesnt want me to lmao

#rambles #hades 2 #im still getting the 'woah slow down partner' enemy damage buff- by the time i got to the last boss it was +50% lol #but! that doesnt mean a clear is impossible- i beat a zone with that buff active by spamming hephaestus' sprint nuke #(absolutely cracked ability it fuckin rules pls supergiant do not nerf) #still the story beats that are currently happening would get undercut *hard* if i just went ahead and beat the game so #i figure ill probably do some resource runs where i go for upgrade mats/resources whenever possible instead of boons #and if those runs somehow dont die due to lack of boons ill just throw somewhere in the last zone #to give those story beats time to play out #anyway very excited to go through the early access period again- hades 1 changed a LOT over early access #tbh they shouldve made shirts that said 'i beat the bone hydra in early access and all i got was this stupid tshirt' bc jesus christ #that fight was absolutely fucked when it was first added