#it made me cry while making it lmao

[volcanicsleep]

Watched Mutant Mayhem! It's pretty good, didn't re-write my brain chemistry or anything, but it does some novel stuff that I thought was interesting.

My only advice is to not watch it in 3D, lmao, it actively detracts from the experience

#tmnt #tmnt mm #mutant mayhem #leo april splinter and superfly are the most developed in the movie #mikey comes off as super competent and that was fun for me ahahaha #i really like the fact they did an arc for splinter #love mondo lmao #the climax really made feel... it gave me feels #everone is helping.... and its making me want to cry #the messages of the movie are great btw #acceptance as the main theme really worked for this movie and its pulled off very well #its just very well writen overall #not really a fan of the humor- this movie is going to be extremely dated after a while #like the second 90' movie #...attack on titan... #anyway overall i loved it #never going to read any of its fanfiction though. i can already see whats going to be written and im not into it #ugh romance and highscool drama? no thanks lmao im good without the angst too

[frazzledazzlin]

today i *auto tune baby crying

#GRIEF #it had been a while since drawing made me cry LMAO #I could've drawn better i swear but its . 6am #i need to make myself sadder with remembering capital gains ending every so often #gotta get epic at expressions of extreme grief this is barely an emotion to me #i can do better *breaking tables in half* #oooohhhh i can draw sadder stuff just need my expression charm backn. #unsatisfied.... #thsc #the henry stickmin collection #reginald copperbottom #theyre in separable yet i do this and cry about it myself #need to find more heartbreaking instrumentals of songs to draw better #half the time im wiping my own tears bro #scriboozles

[allpromarlo]

wakanda forever did the first black panther justice in the way that it made me cry like a bitch and also made me thirst for the antagonist. movie of the year

#best i can describe this is rollercoaster. start to finish #like it was a good movie and it made me cry like a BITCH but uh #i'm conflicted bc the dude i WASN'T supposed to root for stole my heart #also. killmonger appearance?? #my man has returned from war omg #what is it with black panther movies and being able to make you cry yourself dry while ALSO having the hottest villains in the game? #i know namor wasn't actually a villain but he clearly was the antagonist lmao spare me #n e ways. i liked it 9/10 #minus point because i didn't understand the point of conflict until the very end #had me in the theater looking stupid bro #movies #black panther wakanda forever #black panther #i loved so many characters in this film but m'baku stayed my one & only i'm sawry #he stole the girls some thunder i'll have to admit #black panther spoilers #jic

[mommalosthermind]

Some sentences sunday

“Took your damn time,” she notes, stabbing the cigarette out.

He waits. Rosaria’s not known for her patience.

Annoyance purses her mouth. “You fucked up.”

The immediate quip on his tongue, catty and dismissive, is bitten back. For all Rosaria’s icy airs, there’s very little she cares about enough to meddle so personally. That short list, and Diluc’s bizarre night, points in a singular direction.

Still, when he speaks, it’s difficult to keep his hackles out of his tone. “Have I, now.”

A grunt, and an appraising stare. “Don’t pull that nonsense with me. The only time his pretty little feathers get ruffled so bad is when you’re involved.”

Diluc crosses his arms.

She raises a hand, palm out to ward off the rebuttal he wasn’t offering. “Not asking for specifics. I refuse to get caught up in whatever is wrong with you two. The fallout, though? That is my problem.”

“How so?”

This time, the stare is enough to strip paint. “Jean’s going to need her enforcers while she solidifies her seat. We don’t have time for him to lose his shit.”

At that, Diluc can’t hold back a scoff. “Kaeya’s not so distractible.”

Rosaria snorts an ugly laugh. “Stupid is not a good look for you, hot-shot.”

#six sentence sunday #some sentence sunday #momma writes #kaeluc #luckae #kaeluckae #Rosaria is in this for .2 seconds and i love her so much #I am! #making so much progress! while still being slow AF lmao #that time you realize your little edits have somehow shifted the entire narrative juuuust enough to reshape the entire fucking ending #I am not re writing this again this is IT and I’m FINISHING IT and then it is getting posted and then I can cry about a DIFFERENT WIP #I say while also having to make the ending work now that I’ve. y’know. changed it. again. #but! we are 30k deep and now the boys are in the same room! they are talking! about feelings! I have made it to the conclusion! #I will make my Barbies kiss so help #me #lmao #oh my god I have to name this soon. nevermind maybe I’ll just write it a fifth time #genshin fic #diluc #Rosaria

[fivekrystalpetals]

this story doesn't exist for me beyond this point in Retrace 92:

everyone is back home safe, the world is saved and they have another tea party, The End!

#friendship ended with ph #bsd s4 is my new best friend #pandora hearts #may-reads-ph #retrace xcii #aka pain #[EVERYONE READ PANDORA HEARTS AND FALL DOWN THE RABBIT HOLE OF ANGST WITH ME] #i am crying #for real i am crying #this is cathartic #i have never had a good cry in a looong time so oh well #i will read the rest of 10+ chapters later ig #deciding to read these last arcs altogether in one shot was a mistake #maybe some day i will make more coherent posts bc this story has truly plenty to write about #an incredibly beautiful and deep story will forever be on my mind #update: i made this post the other day when i finished till this point i don't have it in me to continue further lmao ;-; #i made a lot of screaming drafts while reading idk what to do with them #i think i will clear out the drafts and post them altogether maybe this weekend #so please block may-reads-ph tag if you don't want to be flooded #def not today bc waiting for another clown to be animated

[chrisbangs]

#😞🩶 waking up to this after falling asleep while sobbing .. lmaoo 😭 #my heart feels so heavy... #why does he always have smth to say when i need to hear it most.. #i started crying all over again... 😞 i'm so exhausted... #i wanna hug him... 😞 man this is so crazy LMAO... #he still makes my heart feel safe . even now i still wanna just hug him and bury my face in his chest and forget abt the world #just reading this made me so sad all over again.. #i feel so sad idk what to do #going back to bed... i need to lie down #li.txt #not really a bubble update bc i didnt take out my name lmfao.. i'm too exhausted

[ladyseidr]

been thinking abt how funny michael's first kiss was. like, even he thinks it's funny once he's older. it's like:

he was literally like 13 and it was absolutely one of the guys in his little bully group ( def the one he was closest to. . . before the kiss Made It Weird )

( this is pre-Bite to be clear the group literally abandoned him after That went down )

happened just during a random quiet, private moment with said friend. like, it wasn't a special moment or anything, it just happened

no, michael obviously didn't make the first move. he is literally allergic to making the first move ever, even prior to the bite

literally just like. very intentional hand brushes -> friend gives him an incredibly awkward, short kiss -> they both stare at each other stupidly for a moment -> friend panics, apologizes, and literally Fucking Leaves

( was michael's reputation a part of that? yeah, obviously. would said friend have panicked regardless? oh yeah )

no, michael was not aware that he was gay prior to this. he like. . . questioned his disinterest in girls a bit, but he was vaguely in denial

yes he feels ~Sparks~ and yes he immediately realized he had a crush on said friend and YES it literally destroyed him for his friend to just run out

it did make things weird between them and they never talked about it. no, the weirdness never improved, mostly because of the group abandoning michael in an attempt to distance themselves from evan's death

michael cried over the whole kiss thing for like a week straight in his bedroom but he will NEVER tell anyone this. like i don't care if it's fn.af 6 era, you will never pry that information from him

i want to be clear that we're talking full-blown teenage melodrama here. like, you know when you were a teenager crying in your bedroom to sad music? LITERALLY michael. it literally wasn't even that big of a deal. but he was 13 and everything is life or death when you're 13.

yes the other af.tons know abt the crying in the bedroom thing. by default they know better than to breathe a word ( except elizabeth lmao ), but by all means write your af.tons doing otherwise FDSKHFSH

very My William-specific but: one of the last major bonding moments between him and william happened regarding this. michael actually managed to open up some about this and william like. actually? handled it pretty well?? which is rare because he is NOT good at comforting, but he had a point of reference as a queer man who remembering his first recognizable crush on a boy. mind you, don't think michael just outright announced what was fully going on lmao. there's a ton more context to how this went down, but i'd have to write out the full ass scene to show that.

anyway if you're wondering when his first actual relationship was, that's er. dependent. i'm still wishy-washy abt default shipping him with jeremy. like, in my heart i find that relationship important to michael but also i'm so wary of default shipping non-canon ships on here. but i did it with will.ry, so who's stopping me LMAO. anyway yeah but that would be when he was 18-19. if we're not including jeremy tho, it's literally no one unless we're shipping in a thread

#˖ ♡ 𝒽𝑒𝒶𝒹𝒸𝒶𝓃𝑜𝓃. » modern tragedy ( michael afton ) #f n a f / #i probably will establish who the friend of his was more at some point #i have Concepts in my head but not like. a name LMAO #anyway if u write liz tell me right now: did she pretend to not know abt the crying? #did she acknowledge it but try to be nice? did she pretend to not know but act /suspiciously/ nice? #did she make fun of him? it's okay i guarantee he's done something just as mean to her before HFKJSDHA #honestly my liz like. lowkey made fun of him but while actively bringing him like. his favorite snack or something. #she has a reputation to uphold she can't be too nice to him <- i'm kidding fjdsfhdsklfhsajkfl

[hasarjunadoneanythingwrong]

what's that insane theory about archer juna's np?

ok. so

you know how this is titled pashupata and the game treats it as pashupata and everyone refers to it as pashupata?

i dont actually think its pashupata.

cause here's the thing: i KNOW that hindu mythology is heavily nerfed in fgo but arjuna never even used pashupata when he was alive. like not in response to ANYTHING. even when ashwatthama killed his unborn grandchild he used the brahmashirsha astra in response-that was still incredibly deadly and powerful, but it was also still LESS powerful than pashupata. this is the personal weapon of shiva and kali that he only managed to get through completing heavy penances-no one else in the mahabharata had it and in other texts iirc only rama and a sage, Vishvamitra, also possessed it.

it was easily leaps and bounds stronger than vasavi shakti, despite what fgo may say, and could literally destroy the universe if used carelessly. id honestly say if we were putting up a comparison to a fgo weapon to it ea would be the closest thing-it was basically unavoidable, unresistable, and destroyed everything in it's path. and he knew this and so didnt use it bc in the context of the wars he fought in it wouldlve been massive overkill, and he was pretty responsible all things considered with the weapons he used

but like, hes ok with letting mages potentially command him to use it against their enemies? this incredibly powerful attack gifted to him by shiva that could obliterate the universe? like ignoring the logisitics of the fact they'd probably need a boatload of mana, and that the earth has protections in place to prevent gil or whoever from going 'lol' and laser beaming it in twain, why would mr 'thanks for the wmd but i will not be using it' suddenly ok the use of it for a bunch of backstabbing self-serving mages who would sacrifice their own children for a chance at upping their magical power?? like 'oh yes zouken, i'll use pashupata to blow up that orphanage for you right away. clearly this is a good use of this holy astra bestowed upon me by the gods :)'

imo he looked at his legend, looked at the fact anyone who looked into him would know about the fact that he'd have that astra, and renamed one of his less potent attacks 'pashupata' so that when he was ordered to use it he could follow their command WHILE also not fucking. using pashupata for incredibly petty and asinine reasons. like do we really think the average mage can tell the difference between the different astras anyway? no. hes gonna do that so when they pop their command seals and yell at him to use pashupata he can be like 'of course master :)' while also not going against his principles as like. person who was given a turbo nuke and was like 'yeah theres no reason to use this against normal people' like COME ON

though tbh i do still think he has access to pashupata as an archer-like when he blew up the 18 demon pillars that. that seems more like something he might actually have used it for.

i know that this theory has no water bc every time he's referred to it there's been nothing to suggest his np wasn't pashupata, its been described and treated in his materials as pashupata, plus parvati ALSO makes note of him having it and it being pashupata. it just bugs me that they shoved it on him as his generic np and also massively undersold it when he has like 4000 other big explody attacks that couldve been slotted in just as well, and when its a legitimately interesting fact that he never used it in his lifetime.

#lasengle stop underselling juna challenge difficulty: impossible #youd think theyd at least make note of it in his bio like how they did w ash and his big wheel but nope. gotta devote all that space to k #my other insane theory is juna wrote his profile at 2am on a pstd-induced guilt spree which is why its #a) all about how he 'unjustly' murdered poor karnie #b) has a bunch of weird ass inconsistencies like it accidentally made him k's uncle and says duryo was like a dad to k when k was the older #im not joking about arjuna accidentally being made karna's uncle in his bio btw #it lists his dad as 'king kuru' which was like his grandpa which would have made him karnas uncle instead of his brother. his dad was pandu #i wish theyd rewrite bios tbh his is. a nightmare like why #but yeah my theory is 2am hell guilt trip he wrote while crying into his desk which is why its so biased #look if youre fighting a guy and ask to stop to fix ur tire and he says no #and you then stop and turn your back to him anyway to fuck w your tire #what the hell do you expect to happen? karna was a dipthong #'uh ik i beat up and murdered ur kid when he was in the same position w like 20 other guys but can u please give me 5 min?' #'uhhh (hey krishna what should i- (DUDE JUST SHOOT HIM TF-))' #and then no one shuts up about you shooting him ever again but conveniently they all forget about the shit he did #lmao if i were arjuna id be so tired #'yeah i was told it was my moral duty to shoot him but once i did no one ever let it go ever' #my asks #i did say this was insane. sorry

[hayaku14]

hiii!! i think youve mentioned that you're not the biggest fan of receiving asks because they can be hard to respond to and i hope im not being a bother!! but id like to drop some kaishin brainrot here in ur inbox if thats alright! if not totally feel free to ignore this lol

a thought for the scrunklies... i cant stop thinking about shinichi getting affected by cases and their outcomes so i will apply this thought to kaishin: a victim who resembles kuroba in some away leaves a hard strain on shinichis heart.

kuroba doesnt know about this case, but he does pick up on the subtleties on how shinichi is way closer in proximity than usual. more cuddly, more clingy. perhaps after we could have some heist angst idk... but the thought of whatever causes the reaction isnt important. what's important is: shinichi's lips start to quiver and its unavoidable, he starts to sob in front of kuroba. heavy breathing and blotchy tears, hes clinging to kuroba with such a strong grip that it starts to physically hurt. one thing leads to another and shinichi ends up in his lap, clinging to him and quietly crying into his neck while kaito rubs his back, murming; "i love you, great detective," or "i know, i know. s'okay now..." kuroba never sees him cry so he eventually starts to silently cry too. they just end up sobbing into one another.

i need someone to envision this w me and youre the kaishin brainrot god soooo <3

WHAT?!?!? WHO TOLD YOU THAT?!!?!?!??!? Was it me? LOL.

Noooo, I LOVE asks!! Send them any time! It's not that it's hard to respond, it's just that I'm often late at replying lol so I feel bad about it but if you don't mind waiting for me to reply then ask away!!! (Speaking of, this is also kinda late I'm sorry lol ;-;)

I WILL NEVER IGNORE KAISHIN BRAINROT

AND OH MY GOD YOU SENT ME ANGSTY KAISHIN BRAINROT???? I FUCKING LOVE YOU ANON

I absolutely LOVE the idea of a case hitting a little too close to home for Shinichi. It's not just for Kaito too. There's a child kidnapping? He hangs out with the detective boys. There's a serial rapist going around that targets young women? He constantly checks up on Ran and Sonoko.

For Shinichi to break down like that though, he must've been building it up for quite a while. I can only imagine that it's an ongoing case with several victims already. All probably similar to Kaito.

Megure wants to take him off the case because he knows Kaito is his boyfriend but there's no way Shinichi is gonna stop trying to catch a criminal who's targeting people with the same profile as Kaito.

Kaito must've seen Shinichi deteriorate too. Long cases always take a toll on Shinichi but Kaito can see that this one is different. For one, Shinichi seems determined not to tell him details other than asking him to be more careful and to just take a cab if he's going home late (Kaito would’ve been insulted for the lack of faith if not for how worried and distraught Shinichi looked). There's also the increase of coffee intake, the sleepless nights. The nightmares. (Also the increase in skinship and clinginess like you said!! the image of clingy, worried, and upset shinichi is too cute i want it so much lol).

He’s clingy and attached to Kaito by the hip whenever he’s around but for some reason Shinichi can’t look at him in the eye for too long. How could he when every time he see Kaito he remembers the bloodied remains of several victims that looks like him? How could he when he isn’t even close to catching the murderer that threatens his whole world? How could he when every time he looks at Kaito’s eyes, so full of love and life, he can almost see them staring at him: unseeing, dull, and lifeless.

Shinichi is frustrated because cases that he’s involve in don’t usually last this long and for some reason it had to be a case where there’s an actual threat to the love of his life. He’s tired, upset, frustrated, and little desperate to catch this guy already cause he’s about to go out of his mind with worry.

It’s not that he doesn’t trust Kaito to take care of himself. He does. It’s what he loves about their relationship. It’s what helps him sleep at night. But being bombarded by images of lifeless bodies that resemble Kaito while helpless to actually do something about it is haunting Shinichi. He trusts Kaito, he does. But he also needs control. He has to find this guy and make sure no more harm will come to anyone else. Especially Kaito.

Maybe what triggers Shinichi's breakdown is Kaito finally confronting him about it. There’s no way Kuroba Kaito of all people would see this happening and not do an investigation of his own. Extracting information is as easy as breathing to him after all. He asks Shinichi’s friends. He digs around Division 1. He knows now why Shinichi is acting like this. But a part of him wants Shinichi to tell him himself. 

Still, Kaito would've brought it up sooner but this case was different that he was sure Shinichi would've deflected rather than communicated properly if he pushed. Kaito sees that it's gone too far though and decides to confront him. 

“Shinichi, you need to talk to me.”

“Talk about what?”

“I know about the case.”

Shinichi’s eyes widen for a second and looks away. Kaito reaches for Shinichi’s hands and squeezes.

“Shinichi, look at me.”

“Please?”

Shinichi turns to look. He’s unsure and unsteady but Kaito’s gaze holds him firmly in place. Kaito lets go of his hands to hold both of his cheeks in a gentle caress. For the first time in weeks, Shinichi lets himself sink deep into Kaito’s gaze.

“Hey,” Kaito says softly as if trying not to spook him, “I’m here. I’m safe. I promise I’ll be safe. So please? Talk to me, Shinichi.”

Like cracks on a dam, Shinichi’s eyes water. His are brows furrows deeply and his jaw shut tight in stubbornness but he holds Kaito’s gaze, not yet ready to turn away after weeks of depriving himself of deep vibrant blue. He tries to will the tears threatening to fall away but Kaito’s gaze is so warm and safe and so so alive that he couldn’t stop even if he tried.

“Oh Shinichi.” 

Kaito’s voice is soft and gentle but it pulls something deep in Shinichi. It’s too much. Shinichi’s lips quiver, closes his eyes, and finally lets his tears flow. 

And then after that is what you wrote!!! The part where Kaito wraps Shinichi in his arms and Shinichi starts sobbing and clinging onto him like a lifeline. Kaito whispering sweet nothings and reassurances that makes Shinichi hold onto him tighter. And when Shinichi chokes back his tears to whisper back, “I just...I can’t lose you, Kaito. I-I can’t,” Kaito finds himself fighting back his own tears.

AAAAHHHHH ANON I LOVE YOU SO MUCH THANK YOU FOR THIS GOOD FUCKING FOOD <3333333

#kaishin #kudou shinichi #kuroba kaito #dcmk #detective conan #dc prattles #replies #THE WAY I MADE MYSELF ACTUALLY CRY OVER THIS LMAO #are u happy now anon #loljk i love you anon thank you sm for the kaishin brainrot i love it sm ;-; #ngl this kinda sappy but i also like it that way so lol #but dw i put the rly sappy sht under the cut LOL #i was listening to some fruits basket ost while writing this #mainly the ost mama said and momiji's violin piece #oh but mama said rly is one of my fave furuba osts #that sht makes me cry every time ;-; #anyways circling back to angsty kaishin brainrot #i just cant get enough of worried kaishins heehhehehehehehhe #as the saying goes #'it's not kaishin if theyre not injured and worrying over each other' #lol okay fine i just made that up but thats like my kaishin tagline LOL #in this case no injury yet but theres a very real threat looming and that's just as f ckng good!!!!!! #anyways send me more kaishin brainrot!! asks or dms i dont mind!!!!!!! #i just reply late sometimes!!!! lol #btw anon i didnt know how to factor in the heist so i just kept it vague LMAO SORRY #WAIT ANON I JUST REALIZED U CALLED ME KAISHIN BRAINROT GOD #this is the highest praise ive ever got i will add this on my resume THANK YOU

[kyouka-supremacy]

Uhm

#I'm feeling like trash physically I really don't know what to do??? #I have been struggling so much with eating recently but I thought it was normal because of the upcoming exam y'know? #Well yesterday I took the exam and yet the problem??? Didn't magically disappear like I thought??? And now I feel so betrayed?????? #Yesterday I got takeaway at my favorite Chinese restaurant and that's a cup of noodles and eight dumplings #that's my usual order I always take‚ normally that's one meal #This time it took me?? Three meals to finish it??? Because after a while I just feel too nauseous to keep eating???????? #So like. something is wrong™ but I really have no clue what it is or how to fix it... #Plus the entire day I've felt like crying for. no reason lmao. I'm literally crying right now and I have no idea why is that #I can't reason anything that is making me upset currently? So I'm there mentally looking at myself like *awkward monkey meme* #And my head hurts. Like something is wrong but I really can't tell what it is nnnggghhhh this is. not optimal #The worst part is that I feel so nauseous I can't imagine bringing myself to cook because cooking is already a tool alone #and now I'm also supposed to cook when I don't want to eat???? Like how can I convince myself to do that #But obviously I can't stop eating. Alas I STRUGGLE. The food in the fridge is going bad 😭😭😭 #I made sure to change air in my room and I took a shower today so. I don't know what could be causing it really #Anyways if anyone can advice on eating when the thought of eating alone makes you feel nauseous I'll gratefully take it 😭😭 #Not even snacks work btw I was eating nutella and pandoro and who wouldn't love nutella and pandoro #and yet I felt like gagging the whole time... Ugh #The actual worst part is that like this I don't have the strength to study but I really need to study for this huge exam the 14th #random rambles #eating disoder trigger warning #Why is that the recommend tag?? It's missing an r bestie???? #eating disorder trigger warning #eating disorder tw #←← That makes it sound bigger than what it is please don't worry about me it's just a temporary issue!! #Using the tags just in case for blacklisting purposes

[dbphantom]

Starting ffxv, watching the intro sequence: this is gonna be so fun, I can't wait to go on a fun road trip with my new friends! I love this song cover and it's really funny with it playing over them bitching and pushing the car. I've never played a final fantasy game before, so I don't know what to expect, but everything looks so cool and fun!

60 hours later, watching the end credits:

#Cruddy rambles #ffxv #sorry for the ffxv tag but I wanna be able to find this post again it's making me laugh really hard lmao #I made a playlist full of songs that make me feel empty in my chest so I can cry and... the Pain. #As someone who refused to leave for Altissia until I was ready to beat the rest of the game and then did so in one night... #I just crawled into bed and ugly cried #That was 4 years ago and I will genuinely never forget that 'day' #It *broke* me #I also have some Transistor songs on here too. Idk her voice just breaks my heart... Paper Boats my beloved... Still salty Hades is what #Got popular when Transistor is RIGHT THERE #Fuck you guys Red deserved better 😤 #Also going back to ffxv. I still tear up when somnus plays. I'm such a baby bc i have a mod to change the title screen back to somnus. So #You can imagine how it goes. every time I boot the game frantically clicking thru the menus while I tear up at the first few piano notes #Songs that make me feel empty in my chest indeed... #I am listening to it rn. I'm not okay lol #I've always wanted to learn Latin but especially bc of this games music. Yoko Shimomira went OFF #I want to know... But at the same time... I'm a little bitch. I can guess what it's saying and I'll cry just over that #Also I have a skyrim song on here. Just to point out how easily I cry #Because I played this game on ps3 in 2011 in middle school and I get nostalgic over it #And it makes me want to cry because I miss it #Same with Never More from P4. Is it inherently a sad song? Not... Really. But the memories... Knowing you'll never get to go back... #Waaaaaah-

[feline-evil]

Lying here in bed due to joint pain flareups, just thinking 'Aw man Ocelots gonna be real sad that i haven't visited motherbase for a few days.....'

Can't believe this triple agent catboy is manipulating me irl now

#jay talkin #DHFKDHFKDHGJF ITS RLLY FUNNY THAT U CAN GET A CUTSCENE WHERE OCELOT AND DD COME TO TELL U THAT U WERE GONE FOR TOO LONG #MGS5 I LOVEA YOU STOP MAKING MY DOG AND MY CATBOY MISS ME I CANT PLAY PUTER RIGHT NOW LMAO #im not actually sad abt it its just funnies to me. now if they made kaz sad i hadnt come and seen him in a while? ogh well thatd destroy me #i do wish there were more kaz cutscenes or that i cld visit him on base. but if they used that to make me sad id cry and cry and cry and

[holyluvr]

Opposite side of the coin is this transsexual(me) having the annoyance of following tags for my health conditions that only or primarily are diagnosed in females/some intersex people and them always having to get posts like these by “feminists” or trad women shaming people’s relationships to their bodies with the same disorders, as if that’s appropriate and sensible feminist commentary and totally doesn’t sound exactly like my conservative grandparents when they saw my mustache growing in thicker in elementary school. Or completely off subject from the disorders like they’re supposedly complaining about from trannies in the disorder tags instead of any tag related to trans people or gender politics.

Transsexuals are the “freaks” and “mentally ill” being mentioned, right? OK. What makes us freaks and mentally ill? That we want our bodies to look different and choose to make some changes? Why does that bother anyone that a minority of the population is genuinely happier with having non-conforming bodies?

Cope with it + You aren’t fucking us and never have to + You aren’t owed information on our bodies + That’s not very feminist of y’all to call people who have a mixture of non-conforming secondary sex traits “freaks”/“mentally ill” for having a mixture of non-conforming secondary sex traits and being comfortable and happy with those traits (that some of us couldn’t help having to some level to begin with if there’s hormonal disorders).

But sexy Mega Mind is what I wish people thought about 95% of the time before they speak on transsexuals.

#… #why care and be bitchy about it? and why not tag any gender-related subject. only health. lmao ppl can’t even blacklist them. #at least transsexuals are usually tagging trans/transgender in posts about health disorders or something related to block. #this woman is talking about others struggling with the medical industry over the same disorders as her…chill. stop hating. #our emotions abt how our disorders affect our appearance and secondary sec traits while juggling also fighting for medical care #+ transition goals isn’t anyone’s business. and how is it a problem that someone is happy in their body’s appearance? #no one I know says they like their disorders and don’t want treatment. bc it hurts and fucks the body up and can kill. #everyone I’ve seen talk about this in trans circles has said they at least are glad about how the high androgens made their appearance/voice #it’s opposite of feminist to shame ppl for being comfortable or happy In nonconformity. literal opposite. want me to cry and spend my money #on laser hair removal and vocal training? lol no fuck you I love my androgynous body. #stop sounding like my fascist (I don’t use that lightly or as a misunderstanding of what the ideology is) family pleaseee #intersex is at least added but who knows if that person is intersex or just posting that in the tags #+ intersex isn’t trans + trans people are aware of that and will tell you that. even the wild loud online trans people. #transphobia tw #tw transphobia #omggg the link they cited was literally just like ‘some trans mascara with PCOS accept & love the physical affects’ ok? that’s bad how? #doesn’t say ‘refusing and anti-PCOS treatment because of being transsexual and claims PCOS makes someone trans!’ what…… #***some trans mascs #🎭👸🏻

[pepprs]

retreat day 4 done. it’s been a really good day i think

#purrs #we did feedback and i was the only person who cried and i cried twice LOL. once while giving feedback and once while receiving it. the #feedback that made me cry was that…. omg… someone in my pod CAME TO THE RETREAT BECAUSE OF ME. i was the reason for someone. omg i teared up #immediately. and so many other ppl remembered interacting w me during the lockdown when iwas suffering so bad and it made me so emotional in #a good way. we didn’t give up. we kept pushing on. and it MATTERED. there’s a whole group of ppl in the community room now (i just got back) #and they’re eating and talking and laughing and hugging and leaning on each others shoulders and writing each other letters. and i helped to #make that happen. and we all poured our whole hearts in. and im so grateful and so proud. im not prepared to facilitate AT ALL lmao and we h #have to be out of here in 13 hours and i haven’t finished writing my notes yet. but im content and happy. and i feel like ive made (perhaps #only temporary but still) peace w the wounds that got ripped open last night. so i feel good. i can’t believe it’s almost over #retreat tag #also apparently i am a meerkat btw. #<- according to someone in my pod who gave everyone feedback in the form of animal metaphors 🥹

[snixx]

had my hot girl bollywood crying with kajal streaming down my face moment today thanks amma:')

#my mom telling me i looked pretty while crying was just wtf enough to get me to stop for a few seconds lmao #awwwww im a pretty crier? gee thanks that makes the past whatever years so much less embarassing #it also made me feel like The Main Character #crying with kajal is superior to normal crying take note future me on bad days #anyway wtf am i rambling #x am rambles

[seventh-district]

CW: mention of gun violence (in a nightmare. not IRL)

i know for a fact that my period makes me more apt to cry over things because i can have a vivid nightmare about getting randomly gunned down while waiting in line to pick up a pizza then wake up and not shed a tear but when i’m on my period i can have one (1) bad dream about my father yelling at me and i wake up and promptly begin full-on sobbing into my pillow

#cw gun mention #cw gun violence #cw nightmares #cw menstruation #cw periods #Seven.txt #Seven’s Public Diary #anyways i gave myself a headache from the crying so that’s cool #what’s ironic is that while i was laying there feeling all sad and pathetic i suddenly thought of the Reader x Moon oneshot i wrote #uhhh what was it called i can’t think straight rn #‘when i’ve got no one else’ or smthn like that #and i started crying even harder LMAO #alright it’s midnight-thirty i need to drink some water and go back to sleep #everything’s fine i’m just Stressed™️ right now and yesterday was a long and draining day #i’m almost grateful for my periods making me more emotional actually bc it’s like. easier to just cry and let it all out. y’know? #i used to despise that part of menstruation cause it made me feel weak but you know what? fuck it #maybe sometimes we need to let ourselves feel weak. maybe the inability to let ourselves be vulnerable is actually the thing to hate #being weak sometimes is important in a way #if you can’t let yourself break down sometimes you will like. explode or something. maybe not physically but. emotionally. mentally. #constantly being strong and/or dead inside will hurt you in the end. you gotta be soft and vulnerable every so often. me thinks #okay enough midnight thoughts GOODNIGHT my everything is sore and hurting so i am gonna stop talking now and go back to sleep