#it won't be linear

[pippindot]

I took a half day for my birthday today and took Pip to the beach. It is our little ritual. Basically since she's been sick, she's only had the energy to MAYBE do one big joyful zoom and then spends the rest of the time at my heel. But today, after a week on her new food, she was like a whole new dog. zoom after zoom after zoom just for the hell of running. Playing with other dogs, striking off without me to sniff and investigate, wading in the water, chasing birds...it's like she was a puppy again. I couldn't believe it. So much hope came rushing back. The perfect gift. I'm so, so happy.

#sorry if u see us on other platforms but im so happy im bein happy everywhere #i feel like i got my hope back #it won't be linear #but holy shit #a week on the right food got us here??? #maybe my girl will be alright after all #pip #4 years #at the beach

[ao3commentoftheday]

Last summer, I wrote a crack fic and that crack fic had a tiny snippet of worldbuilding that was more about the gag than it was about the actual idea itself, but I reread the fic today and now I can't stop thinking about that tiny little speck of thought that I wrote for the lols, and now I want to write a whole book based on the premise.

#I won't though #because time is a linear construct #and I am its bitch

[hel7l7]

I just want to make stupid choices

#not really #healing is not linear #sometimes i just wanna fuck shit up #healing goes so slow sometimes #but fucking shut up won't make any of that go faster #so i won't make stupid choices #but i just think about it every once in a whil

[khaopybara]

Don't judge a book by its cover. An essay by Mew Pt. 2

Mew in his revenge era went shopping and thought, "you know what screams I'm gonna fuck you up, maybe you'll like it, maybe you won't? Floral/patterned shirts," and proceeded to buy a bunch of those.

BOOK KASIDET as MEW WITSARUT ( ONLY FRIENDS EPS. 7-12 )

Correction: I missed one outfit in ep. 6 and instead of remaking that set, I'll just post it below because it's actually the hottest Mew has looked, so I'm not even upset.

#only friends the series #ofts #only friends #mew witsarut #book kasidet #thai drama #thai bl #gmmtv series #gmmtv bl #th: only friends #:: fashionbaby #:: mygifs! #:: onlyfriendsoutfits #man ep 8 is truly traumatizing when you rewatch raymew's scenes #and i mean this with love but ep 8 was something else #anyway i think it's obvious that mew's style is the one that changed the most throughout the show (at least until now let's see nick) #from cute colorful stripes to very busy and right in your face shirts that we usually associate with ray but i'll say after doing this mew' #new style doesn't feel like ray. it feels like he's trying to mimic him and it's not quite there bc it still is mew. idk how to phrase it #but it's much more like if I change my style and wear the busiest shirts #maybe people won't read me as plain and won't cheat on me for being considered boring #something something #mew trying to mimic ray and ray channeling sand in ep 9 will forever be my favorite piece of storytelling #btw this gifset looking way less chaotic than the others and more linear? totally by accident

[yuckydraws]

(Click for better quality)

Healing & Growth

(gif made by my friend @robanilla-arts is below - slight warning for flashing! Thanks again, Rob!)

#if you feel like reading it - I'm gonna ramble in the tags. #Don't really feel like having it attached to the post for forever... cause what if i just wanna reblog some fairysona art?? #anyways #this year sucked a lot. in a lot of ways. but im grateful for it. #healing is stupidly hard and annoyingly enough? not linear in the slightest. Yet infuriatingly - it is worth it. #I am far from done with healing. I've barely scratched the surface. #but im learning and connecting with myself along the way. #The biggest step I've taken this year is working on my people pleasing ways. it's a bad habit birthed from a lot of different traumas. #but it no longer rules my life. #I am not passive anymore - and surprise! that doesn't make me a horrible or evil person. #my kindness is no longer a weakness. its still a part of me and always will be. i won't let go of it. #but it is no longer to a fault #there are people undeserving of my kindness... i realize that now. I know what i will and will not put up with in every kind of relationshi #im still learning and exploring - and i've said a lot of goodbyes this year. I'm sure i will say more. #but that's okay. #some relationships are forever - some serve you for a while and teach you a lesson when they end. #and some relationships stick around and don't *have* to have a deeper connection #and that's also okay. #I didn't think I'd make it through this year in all honesty. I was very close to ending it all on multiple occasions. #But. for what it's worth - as of now im glad im here. #i will continue to struggle and have my hard times. im not naive enough to think depression just goes away. #but im okay for now and im moving forward. #there will be pauses and abrupt stops and likely some good ol' rotting involved. but when i can - ill be moving forward. #i will not speak a word of 2024 because no matter what it will have it's ups and downs. #but i will continue to keep working on myself. and that's all anyone can do in this weird life. #if you made it through all of that... uhhhh wow you got a crush on me or smth? /j/j/j/j #but fr - if you read this far... thank you. i hope you're faring well and that you have a happy celebration tonight. #sleep well and dream well when it comes to you #yucky draws #my art

[fluffs-n-stuffs]

/my god y'all this is gonna be one of the most inconsistently drawn updates yet with how my meds' sedation affected me between panels (the left being from last week's attempts skjdfnsds 🚶‍♀️🚶‍♀️🚶‍♀️)

I'll still need a bit more time, but I think we're Slowly getting back there in terms of my art's momentum huhuu 🙏✨

#fluff speaks !!! #wip #the right one I just got done today and I'm honestly happy with considering how awful I've been feeling the past few days :'} #definitely won't get these in time for pokemon day like I hoped buuut I wanna prioritize my physical/mental health of course #so I'll take this slowly and steadily as I can (even with how wildly inconsistent it is currently skdjfsndfs trust me y'all will See it) #I've honestly been........ feeling really down recently - not just with my art- but as a whole since- yknow the whole mental condition thin #it's still a lot for me to grapple with and it's---hard- knowing how non-linear this healing process is #one moment I'm riding on a manic high and the other I'm crashing down #but I'm still standing at the end of the day- I think that's what matters #I just hope it gets easer someday #anyways akjsdnasnd my sad rambles aside have some Mortys because he is the comfort character Ever #forgive me love you're gonna be insanely inconsistent this next update #Destiny Bond comicverse #gym leader morty #morty pokemon #pokemon #pokemon gsc

[not-poignant]

Daily excerpt from chapter 35 of The Nascent Diplomat:

'You are resisting me early,' Temsen said, unhappy. 'Will you allow Augus to use his compulsions today?'  No, Gwyn thought.  Temsen looked at Augus, then back down at Gwyn. Today, his brown hair with its white streak was styled with a complicated braid around his head that let much of his hair free and left the white streak alone completely.  'You trust us less today.' Gwyn stared down at his feet. Temsen knew about Oxcillian now, Gwyn couldn't stop thinking about that either. Temsen knew. It was taking all of Gwyn's energy not to get up and leave. Having two people this close to him? He never would have allowed it before coming to Aethelwaters. Having two people who knew about Oxcillian this close to him? Well, that had never happened in his life.  'Help me with this,' Temsen said to Augus, the words soft but still commanding.  'I think you'll find I'm no magician,' Augus said. 'You are the one who wants to pursue this method of healing. It's challenging and might I remind you that the last time it happened, he was left alone during a very intense aftermath. You know that.'

(Chapter 35 goes up on Patreon in two days, and chapter 34 arrives on AO3 at the same time :) )

#daily excerpt #the nascent diplomat #fae tales #fae tales au #gwyn ap nudd #augus each uisge #ohlo ohlo temsen #the raven prince #original work #original fantasy #temsen like 'i don't get why it's suddenly hard' #temsen 'this process won't be linear but i still want it to be more linear than this' #temsen 'god i'm tired today' #ohlo ohlo 'i want a hug' temsen

[thatscarletflycatcher]

I have been trying for days to find a topic for the "paper" I need to turn in for this Philosophy of History course on Friday, and I got nothing.

I so intensely dislike this subject you cannot imagine.

#This is the main reason I didn't take it the first time around #because they told me back then it wasn't required #and I had no interest in it #unlike most other branches of philosophy #it's constituted mostly by Prussian Philosophers #writing theories about history where of course Prussia is the pinnacle of humankind #theories that have the randomness of Tumblr shitposts without any of the fun #You open JSTOR and won't be able to find more than a couple dozen papers on the subject itself #and how could you #It's a discipline that has like 2-3 possible questions tops #is history linear or cyclical or something else #Does History have a purpose (so is there a providence) or not? #And that's pretty much it #By the point you are asking the question about the subjectivity of historical narratives you are talking about hermeneutics #and therefore philosophy of language and the mind #My frustration is not helped by the fact that the professor herself has taught very little #most of the classes have been presentations by freshmen classmates whose interpretations are understandably very basic and tentative #so the fact that she's asking for this without specific guidances is adding insult to injury #but wait there's more! #she intends the papers to be read collectively and peer discussed and evaluated #grrrr #Anyways if you need me I'll be on the pit of despair

[m4g0rtz]

Today's polish was mostly a miss for me. I bought this one cause of the polish description. I was so curious to see what a silver magnetic linear holo crackle polish looked like in person. But the reality did not live up to the hype. You can BARELY see the linear holo if you zoom WAY in on the middle picture and the magnetic effect didn't show up at ALL. So it's just a silver crackle, which is kinda pretty I guess but it's not what I thought I was ordering and the formula was tricky to work with. These pictures are the second time I did this manicure. The first time I applied it too thickly and it didn't look great. lol So a miss. This is Winter Solstice from P.O.P over Void from Bee's Knees Lacquer.

#nail polish 412 #manicure #P.O.P. #winter solstice #silver #magnetic #linear holo #crackle #bees knees #void #black #also ive picked up a cold that is kicking my butt #so i probably won't have a post for tomorrow #hopefully wednesday ill be feeling better 🤞

[painted-bees]

I am writing....a hypothetical first episode for the cortes trio...and it's really cute.

#i mean like....it's literally a meetcute. #between Magritte and Raf #and the initial framing is that one of the two(it is unclear which) was told to write a book about their life as a musician #so it starts with a word doc and the first draft of an opening paragraph being typed out #they decide in text that the story of their life...as a musician...began at a trainstation in downtown Vancouver. #each episode then forth would just be a chapter from the first draft of this book they are writing. #non-linear undramatized #disjointed little events that meant something to the author #written in the order that they are recalling it #intended to be organized and edited down at a later date #MAYBE WE WILL MAKE IT #maybe we won't...I am not committing lmao #but it is fun to think about

[furyxiv]

It took me ten years to figure out how to be good in this game

Most of those ten years were spent shearing sheep and chasing spiders

EDIT: checked the age of my main, it's actually more like 12 years 🥲

#mabinogi #i'm back on the mmorpg train and won't ahut uo about it #edit: time is linear and i don't like it

[angorwhosebabyisthis]

[cws: non-detailed discussion of both fictional and irl SA/CSA/abuse dynamics, apologia for the previous, homophobia, fetishization of wlw, and anti rhetoric.]

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having a lot of thoughts about the wider fandom's treatment of the various abuse dynamics present in sdmi--supposedly in the name of being anti-abuse--and how instead it's propagated deeply anti-survivor/abuse apologist sentiment and behavior through where they choose to apply that rhetoric, and where they choose to look the other way.

(first off, if you're someone who does not and has not done this, thank you from the bottom of my heart. second, this is not at all exhaustive of my feelings on the subject and there will probably be more posts about these dynamics and people's behavior toward them in future. as you can imagine by the length of this post that is saying something lmao)

one of the reasons i feel as strongly as i do about the way both canon and fandom have historically been about pericles, pericky, and shitting on anyone who likes them because it Normalizes Abuse(tm), is that their fans are pretty open and emphatic about the fact that it's Fucked Up. it's why we find it compelling. it is vanishingly rare that we don't.

meanwhile, velma is the UwU Cute Sassy Lesbian Icon whose relationship with shaggy was Cringy and Immature (and mutually so 🙃) at worst, when it directly mirrored such visceral aspects of my experience with CSA that i almost threw up rewatching the second episode.

and that's not even getting into how normalized it is for women to abuse men in a relationship, in broad fucking daylight in front of other people, and how men are supposed to Always Want It and it's an insult if they don't, and how the vast majority of CSA--which it overtly is in shaggy's case, he is implied not to be an adult yet--is perpetrated by other kids.

and it's also not getting into the fact that the ~cute lesbian relationship~ is almost certainly going to end up with the other queer girl in the show also being abused, because abusers are not Magically Cured by True Queer Love's Kiss. how it is incredibly difficult for survivors of abuse in a wlw relationship to be acknowledged or get support because then they'd be a Traitor, or people would rather maintain the feel-good fuzzy feelings wlw exist to give them, or they're closeted and it's not safe to let people know they're in a relationship with a woman. how queer relationships, especially between women, are fetishized as cute pure healthy fairytale romances and not dynamics involving real people who might harm each other or be harmed and need help.

and that's not even getting into the fact that mlm are seen as inherently predatory to an extent that the majority of other queer identities are not. how older queer men grooming boys is a classic homophobic stereotype used to justify violence toward them, up to and including lynchings, and how that is the abuse dynamic everyone in the show and fandom latched onto to revile as the Disgusting Evil Predatory One while giving everything else a pass. how mlm have a long history of forced institutionalization and psychiatric torture and abuse, and the Predatory Gay Man is subjected to decades of--you guessed it!--forced institutionalization and psychiatric torture and abuse, which is framed as what he deserved and where he belonged. how he's supposed to be unattractive (and the majority of the people who do this shit lean hard on that), while people are way more likely to give Charming Attractive Aesthetically Pleasing abusers a pass.

this is just..... normal, to the fandom. it's treated as completely normal. and i think that's a whole lot more fucking harmful than finding emotional catharsis in exploring an abusive dynamic that would not fly in broad daylight irl in a million years.

#sdmi #scooby doo: mystery incorporated #professor pericles #velma dinkley #shaggy rogers #SDMItag #cws in post #like. everything about shaggy and velma's dynamic in and related to the first half of S1 is *gutwrenching* #it took me up until this rewatch to realize why every time i try to rewatch the show in linear order i can never seem to watch past E02 #and end up just skipping around #and time and personal experience have *really* made the 'fairytale queer romance that is a missing stair right into a bottomless pit' #thing hit harder #whereas exploring pericky when i was younger *made me realize things about their relationship were abuse that i hadn't understood before* #'okay so if i go back and fix *this* part that'll make it not abusive anymore and they can be happ--oh. oh geez. this goes deep doesn't it' #and the people who don't like pericky will do the opposite and *actively claim the abuse dynamics that are there do not exist* #because Then It Would Be Shipping and That's Just Gross UwU #because 'this can't have been [X kind of abuse] because [X abuse] is Gross and its potential existence near me makes me uncomfortable' #'you're the one who's gross for seeing it and pointing it out; ew how dare you ruin people's day by making them think about that' #'thank goodness it didn't happen and we can all move on with our lives (and you won't like what happens if you dare bring it up again)' #isn't. you know. famously a thing that happens all the time to gaslight and silence survivors irl and take our words away from us lol #anyway as you can maybe imagine i am bitter about this lmao #but also i just generally think it's worth talking about; especially if even one person understands their own experiences better for it #the crit files #the salt files #SDMIcrit tag #pericky #dyn: when i die i want you to die too

[mishkakagehishka]

Give it up for regression everyone🫶

#honestly i'm hoping it won't be fake-out bc that seems kinda cheap and i'm leaning on akira to not use such tropes #but who knows anymore #enstars lb #btw i'm saying regression bc he seems to be falling backwards into the ''dolls are the superior beings'' #which i thought... we were working past #and i think that's interesting! that's why i want it to be real this time that his grandfather is gone #bc i think tearing open another wound in his heart would serve his narrative and arc really well #it would make sense to have his path to being better not be linear and that in times of stress he regresses #so he can make further progress after

[torchickentacos]

So. I had been listening to a song and thought, 'Huh. This is going on for a while, isn't it?" So I checked, and.... hm.

#I DIDN'T KNOW YOU COULD HAVE A 37 MINUTE SONG #WHAT THE FUCK DEFTONES????????????? also long tags i start rambling about random stuff. as I do. #listening to their sophomore album. not as much a fan of it as some of their other stuff but it's still fun #i've really enjoyed exploring their discography more #even though I don't pay much attention to the lyrics #some music is mostly about lyrics to me but others it's just vibes #this is vibes to me #it is good noise!!!! #rather than something I'd take time to really listen to on a lyrical level. no meaning I really care to pick apart as of right now #Their lyrics seem somewhat sparse and like separate trains of thought anyways rather than cohesive stories within a song #not a bad thing at all!!!!! I like it. just an observation #but again I am saying this after liking a few main songs and only just now diving deeper into the discography #so maybe i'm entirely wrong!!!! #but it is somewhat shattered and meandering rather than start to finish like your bluegrass. not the linear storytelling aspect to it #not at all to say they're meaningless though because they aren't #just a bit more vague or winding and fractured about how they deliver that meaning I guess. #but again I can vibe with that #i do think a lot of rock songs tend to put more emphasis on emotion and sensation over story but that's a whole thing i won't get into #partially because it's past 1 am #but also partially because I don't have the actual intelligence on the topic to back myself up. it's purely anecdotal #just something I noticed #which could very easily be skewed by the type of music I gravitate towards within the genre for all I know #but again. 1 am. not the time to dissect the theoretical... uh.. methodology i guess? of how I would go about measuring that. #it's soooo interesting but I am not well versed enough to really discuss it BUT I WANT TO BE #goddamn it I wish I had been more. uh. well in high school. I would have loved the analysis stuff #shakespeare actually is very fun to read!!!!! but that gets into a whole other thing i have about how schools tend to teach stuff like that #they suck the fun and theatrics out of it #and it's the fun and fascination that drives kids to want to pick it apart and think about it. #but again. whole other topic. goodnight i am cutting this off here before i keep going about random shit

[mindfulwrath]

it’s not foreshadowing, it’s a callback to something that hasn’t happened yet

#writing non-linear stories gives you brainworms #but also i've damn near nanowrimo'd this fic and i'm only about a third of the way done with it #and like it's FINE that i won't be able to finish chapter 11 until the entire rest of the fucking fic is done #THAT'S FINE

[goth--moths]

Boy, I can't believe I'm turning 18 for the fourth year in a row! I'm an adult now (x4)!

#since 2020 all my birthdays have been my 18th birthday 🎉 #my brain won't process that the pandemic was linear time