#it's not actually that complex a story tbh

[throttlegainwell]

Okay, I just can't with this story. I think I actually need to break out index cards and physically have it all laid out in front of me, where I can see it all at once. I've reached that level of complexity.

#writing tag #memorized your smile lines pdwm #it's not actually that complex a story tbh #there's just more going on than i normally need to keep track of and a lot of ground to cover #lots of themes lots of stuff shifting lots of characters #and because i started it in like august i just know i've forgotten stuff #i'm bad with long-term projects you grind away at #it's just a lot for MY brain atm #i can't keep it straight going back and forth in this doc even scrivener can't save me here i need to see it all at once #perhaps you've noticed but i'm an incredibly lazy writer (hobby-wise) so this is not how i normally roll #unfortunately i actually care a lot about this story lol #(i care about everything i write but i care enough about this one to make it personally worth it to actually outline)

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

obligatory rock murder mention

#i think someone said earlier that they had kind of a lot of mind control stories 'back in those days' #dont remember where #but now im trying to think if we have a lot of them in new who #and if theres something to that in terms of like societal preoccupations #but i guess im just gonna have to...........continue my classic who watch for that and make notes #what do we have in new who? satan comes to mind #midnight but i feel like thats..........a very particular kind it's not like the hypnosis thing you see here #or with the master #or i think sarah jane in the hand of fear? #maybe its JUST because they had the master around who kept hypnotising people tbh like that seems possible #the unquiet dead but thats ghosts more than mind control #i feel like we've got more bodies being taken over than minds in new who? #like the gas mask thing. midnight like i said. 42 with martha and 10? #love and monsters. idiots lantern. the vashta nerada. that guy who got turned into an ood. the masters thing in end of time #11 and the flesh. the god complex perhaps could be mind control? but feels different to me too #but i also havent watched really a lot of classic who so i dont know the vibe of their supposedly frequent mind control #town called mercy. asylum of the daleks. crimson horror. journey to the centre of the tardis? cybermen #it all feels more about the hijacking of the body than the mind or will or whatever #would be intersting to actually look into #if i continue my classic who watch #biggest mind control in new who might have been those mummy monks in pyramid/lie of the land?

[scorpiusmalfoylovesoscarwilde]

only hot girls get emotional about the relationship between jesus and judas every night

#my roman empire actually #very apt talking about the romans lmaoo #no but fr #me picking which bible story to never leave my mind: #the entire book of job? the amount of slaves that god just allowed to die whilst moses was growing up? abraham and issac? no #(i mean yes but) #these two mfs and their complex intricate realtionship that makes me want to set myself on fire #im not a christain anymore but thats only in the last couple of years #i was raised by very religious parents and partook in everything until i was about 18 and started deconstructing everything #but lemme tell you #a lifetime of religious teachings stays in your head #and theres smin special about these two okay #(and the fact i identified most with judas over everyone else in the bible should really have been something i paid better attention to tbh) #i dont know how to tag this #i dont want angry christains coming after me #are there angry christians on tumblr because honestly thats hilarious #jesus x judas #judas iscariot my guy #anyway gonna go add to my judas pinterest board goodbye #queued post

[proudfreakmetarusonniku]

something that’s so funny about Evangelion is that it literally Says in the TV ending (which is like. still canon. like it’s an exploration of the emotional state of shinji instead of what literally happens but that’s still like very important) that sometimes if you focus too much on finding a deeper meaning you lose sight of what’s important and then people literally go “eva is so complex what is it saying” when it’s primary message is literally fucking spelled out to you multiple times.

#Evangelion is not a complex story lol. Is it deep? Yeah #But like. The actual What’s Going On isn’t that complicated #There’s a lot to analyse but the actual story isn’t that confusing I just think people weren’t paying attention tbh

[desultory-novice]

SORRY! ONE MORE! Then I'll return this spinoff to @driftwoodmfb to play with! (...But I had to sketch AU AU Noir in color + if he and Adeleine swap, it'd be him and Ribbon who bond, right?)

#Apologies AU AU #Apologies AU #Dess Sketch Post #Ribbon Kirby #Noir (Human-form DMS) #As fun as it would be #to explore his relationships with Kirby et al #I need to get back to the ACTUAL story! #TBH Noir's too tall for Dream Land #Have to shrink him down a bit to make #his interactions with the characters reasonable XD #Something I've realized about myself is that #after posting a big comic or complex piece #my emotions go all BWAAAH and my shields go down #Thus why I draw/ramble more in the aftermath ^^

[gothamcityneedsme]

i would say jacobs loyalty quest is a good mission. Its a tense and terrible story, a somewhat predictable premise for an adventure story conflict, but like. Thats the problem. Its a good *sidequest*, not a good loyalty quest. We dont learn much that is unique about Jacob here. He already had problems with his father, and already wasnt speaking to him. It is terrible and Jacob reacts correctly, but there isnt really conflict or change in him here, to me? The other loyalty missions have much more changing moments and are more personal. They tell us new things or elaborate on what we know. Maybe the mission is more intense if you kill his father? I dont know.

The closest it gets to intriguing is the scene with TIM and the Miranda reveal at the end. But the game refuses to actually go into depth with Miranda and Jacobs relationship. Which sucks. Imo

#Shitpost #the mass effect novel i want is their story #How they met #their mission. Their connection. Etc. #its so weird to establish two characters in a close relationship and then just so rarely actually use it or develop it #Me2 is a great expierence but peripheries and me3 dont expand enough on a lot of what is here #esp the characters like samara miranda jacob grunt etc #they get later cameos but arent given the focus or development they deserve #jack i feel is done well and is the example of how to best handle a non companion i think #idk im just havin thoughts #shame jacobs mission is good but just doesnt give us more of what loyalty missions are meant for. You know. Him. #tbh grunts isnt that good either but grunt just isnt quite complex enough #its not his fault he was grown in a tank #also he gets enough on tuchanka where its okay. Also his quest is about spectacle #and. Again. This mission is GOOD it just. I wish we got more info about jacob actually as a man. #How he acts in this mission is how anyone including shepard acts. So he just doesn't shine

[sundial-bee-scribbles]

3, 6, 14, 15, and 20

uhhhhh i'll just do these 3 b/c i've been thinking abt them lately

3. have they died before? as it currently stands, spencer's dead dead yeah and not coming back, lucian is also dead (stuck as undead in his main timeline and while he might've suffered a less terrible death in other ones he still is probably dead in those). in aurelio's case they tried to execute him but it didn't work so i don't know if that counts as a death technically? don't know if he's completely immortal either but he survived the execution so that's gotta count for something lmaoo?

6. what's their greatest fear? aurelio's is loneliness and i think lucian's would be death; at the moment i can't think of one for spencer but? i suppose fearing consequences would be very fitting for him.

14&15. are they trans? / are they neurodivergent? up to interpretation.

20. will they recover from their trauma or will it consume them? i actually think, given enough time after the main story events, aurelio might, eventually. but the whole point of spencer & lucian's storylines is that, no they dont lol: i'd say their stories focus on the effects of not allowing yourself to move on from your trauma and fixating on it to the dangerous point of destroying everything around you and yourself (ESPECIALLY in lucian's). there is the small chance that maybe in one alternate timeline lucian does actually somewhat recover in some part, but for his main timeline nah

#ask #my ocs #aurelio #spencer #lucian #lol i wasnt actually expecting to get one of these?? i wouldve done all the main protagonists but we are NOT ready to unpack all that yet #aurelio and lucians fears are kinda funny given how they ended up ahjkskh. and spencer's def would be too given his circumstances #but tbh he's kind of a shit person so like. lol. SORRY HKJSHK he becomes less sympathetic the more i think about his story 😭😭 #see for 14&15 i have other ocs where its more explicitly implied/stated but for these guys im hesitant on officially saying anything b/c #like. keep in mind they kill people so 😭. i dont want people to jump to the conclusion that im demonizing trans and/or nd people #i do welcome alternate readings of my stuff and if u wanna make ur own personal hcs but my og intent is never to be demeaning/hateful :( #im always just scared of people taking things the wrong way in my stories oof. theres a lot of complexities/nuance yknow #i do know there's certain details in aurelio & lucian's stories that you could piece together and interpret them as trans possibly? #which wasnt the og intent but they are there so again up to personal interpretation; spencer i feel is most likely cis tho lmfao 😭 #funnily enough tho some other charas in his story sorta got their genders transed during development?? #again ALL of this though is under major development so a lot of stuff definitely isnt final. lots of story things in my head #i spilled tea all over myself and my computer in the process of answering this 😭😭😭

[ialwaysknewyouwerepunk]

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#given a chance is a story based on my real childhood friendship #so i wanna rewrite it and make it into a proper novel #but i warped the real story to make the fic make more sense for h and l #while obvs the real story is so fucking complex and i also gave a bunch of gaps in my memory bc i was a literal child #And it goes super deep bc i made some painful mistakes #as a kid and teen #but i seriously deeply cared about this person and i'm so sad with how the real story went #so i am rewriting it still to have a happy ending #but fucking hell i need to dig DEEP to get this story right #and i really want to get it right #so i'm basically having to go and erase made-up scenes i invented for the fic #and remember the actual events #but i still kept it gay so i added that aspect bc i do think my own behavior back then was a result of me not understanding myself #not understanding my gender #and how i liked this boy but i didn't like it when he treated me like a girl even though he did like me and and and anddddd #so yeah #WHEW #big deep intense story #i need to time when i write tbh bc it's like i descend into the recesses of my brain when i do #and i need to crawl back out every time in order to be a normal person again #aaaaahhhhhhhhwel #let's hope i can make this into what i know it could be #my posts

[darlenicy]

already as a kid i never got why musa thinks they have a party when they all just sit in a café  😅

why? did you think stella would lie to you for fun? that’s not her type. she is the one who gossips at the first chance but she'd never lie to make you feel bad. she simply doesn’t watch her words. so why so surprised?

why does musa pretend as if this was an impossible thing? ever looked at darcy? she’s gorgeous

#i think it's very obvious that musa has complexes towards darcy #i mean she's the cute tomboy #cute. yes but on the other hand we have darcy #with silky long hair and tbh one of the most beautiful designed characters in this show #kinda funny that musa later on gets long straight her too wonder why >:) #so her story with riven is notn only being overlooked - they barely interacted #but also maybe feeling not pretty and feminine enough especially at s2 #where she mentions she doubts riven liked wild girls like her #actually rivusa could have been good #but it wasn't #it was just unlogical written #just forced i will say it ever and ever again #while driven is something that's just kinda natural #i wrote a #lot of pages in my journal about them these days #and i will make a post about the pros of driven soon #winx club #winx musa #winx rive #winx darcy #trix darcy #driven #winx club season 1 #1x9

[itspileofgoodthings]

nothing more beautiful or powerful to see onscreen than when the writers’ vision of a character doesn’t quite match the actor’s interpretation but the contrast doesn’t create contradiction but instant layers and humanity.

#this is about a) Ben Solo b) Steve Harrington #you can tell the writers wrote Steve as a much flatter character—a one note bully. The guy who sleeps with Nancy #The school jock with the 80’s hair #And you can tell Joe Keery was like ‘what if he really liked her what if he was really trying’ #but it’s his eyes vs the writers’ words and that creates such an instant complexity #because human beings DO work like that. they say the thing (most of the time) that context demands #and sometimes there isn’t anything else going on but sometimes there is #Steve is a very thinly drawn character tbh in terms of writing #he has no backstory he doesn’t have a context. He began the story very lazily written but then those pieces start to make sense #In the light of how Keery plays it #Yeah where ARE his parents. Why does he actually have such few friends. Why is that the ‘bully’ keeps getting beat up #and that sets him up for the journey that he goes on. A kid who wants better than the role he’s in in high school and in life #he really is like ‘no I want better I want better than this’ #and his privilege is so precarious you know he will fall and he does and his mistakes are so clear they will cost him almost everything #and that is so compelling #Anyway ben solo is pretty much all Adam. You know JJ and co. Were just like #‘What if …. We had a villain …… whose name was KYLO REN’ #nerd high fives #They did nothing #Adam’s eyes stature face voice MOVEMENT??? Everything #He literally took it away from them and made his own story #the limitations of the writers only adding to the truth of it all

[vitiateoriginator]

I'm finally taking a fucking vacation from my job next week

#I've never gotten the chance to use my vacation time at work before quitting #but Im not currently able to leave where I work and I'll lose my PTO on my anniversary date (sept 13th) #so I decided to say fuck it an use ut the first week of September #wish I could have saved it for the second week since my birthday is September 15th but again my PTO gets reset the 13th #so this will have to do #I'm not going on an actual vacation this year. just planning various enjoyable activities and day trips throughout the week #Im hoping on the first day to attend a local flea market #and the next day or two to go swimming before the pool in my apartment complex closes for the year #I also plan to visit a historical town thats about a half hour away from where I live #and I'm definitely going to sleep in a lot of these days cause I need to catch up on some sleep finally #I'll probably draw on my less busy days #and maybe I can knock out a chapter or 2 of the story I've been writing #tbh luck is never with me so the chances of me actually getting to do half of this stuff is slim #but at least I can say I have plans #I'm gonna try n do this stuff even if I have to go alone #I hate waiting around for others so I can go out and have a good time #like yeah some of these activities are better with other people #but people often find excuses to get out of hanging out or going places. or they're busy with work #and I don't want to waste the 7 days Im gonna have off so Im gonna try n do something meaningful during them #the weather also will effect how my plans turn out. I bet it'll rain the entire week lol. that'd be my luck #but Im still gonna try and have a decent time off #at the absolute least I am going to relax and unwind. thats the bare minimum I can doo #sam's rants about life

[angelamontoo]

Oh BTW I was rewatching was an adventuress earlier and I'm starting to realise how underrated I find aunt Cecil and the way she hates everything and everyone except Polo.

I remember back when I watched it with my friend, he assumed she was Tanya's aunt and made a joke about her not finding it strange that she had a nephew who she never met or heard of and while I'm pretty sure we're meant to assume that she and everyone else at the party are Paul Verneys relatives, I do kinda like the idea that she is Tanya's aunt and loves Polo so much she doesn't even notice or care that she has no recollection of ever knowing him before that party

Also people talk about Polo reciting the wedding vows to Andre at the end of this film, but the real diversity win is the fact that they have the same sleeping set up as Tanya and Paul if you ask me(I'm never gonna not be bamboozled by the fact that a married couple sharing a bed in media was considered controversial as late as the 60s)

#honestly one of my favourite things about this film is how much everyone other than andre seems to adore and dote on polo #ik i give paul verney a hard time but tbh i kinda wanted to hate him off the bat so much that i was blind to how nice even he is to polo #i somehow just straight up did not notice till this rewatch that hes smiling fondly while polos telling stories to the guests #polo #i was an adventuress #yknow its easy to compare louie and polo #and while i would've said i prefer louie for a long time now i think i actually prefer polo #idk polo seems a little bit more complex and has more agency throughout the events of his film

[meovelous]

Malear's va is really bringing the 'waiter at olive garden coming up to take an order only to get dragged into a family argument of 1000 yrs worth of self esteem and resentment to be a neutral 3rd party/therapist' energy

#'the somniel fell but didn’t know the bracelet loose. must be frustrating' was so fucking flat #he is so funny #fell xenologue spoilers #the storys kinda flat tbh #makes sense since its pretty short and they decided to focus the plot on 2 new chara instead of our evil friends #but the weird obsession on cramming a twist towards the end makes it so much more convoluted for no reason #like they're all dead twist was pretty good and evil nil was pretty obvi but the crammed in nil is actually rafal who took real nils place #and the mind control thing was just uneeded #like does the whole nil rafal rlly matter? especially if all the writers wanted was to have an inferiority complex plotline #real nil and nel are twins but rafal whos another non twin brother who just rlly looks like nil who had his own twin #like tell me that's not unnecessarily complicated #the mind manipulation is also not needed since again #the inferiority complex would've done the conflict on its own #nel also doesn’t need to know everything #like her knowing the everyone's corrupted twist is understandable but her knowing it was rafal all along just lessens the drama #and you cannot convince me mr 'i cant be expected to know the names of all my kids' sombron knew about the rafal switch #nel knowing mightve been unnecessary but understandable #but SOMBRON knowing?? #sorry for the long ass essay in the tags but i have a lot of thoughts #it wasn't rlly bad but i def liked the main story better esp when the best parts were about our evil friends giving hints on what their #world was like in a only a few lines in the chap they appeared in and special battle dialogue #honestly if the xenologue was gonna be that length it prob would've been better to have the new char as supporting ones #and not be the main plot #or just cut down on the twists have the nil/rafal or the mind manipulation not both #fire emblem engage spoilers #fire emblem engage art #my art #fe alear #fe nil #fe rafal

[sammydem0n64]

Constantly thinking about a conversation me and a buddy had about how people in the modern era always end up making or Headcanoning villains as homophobic or just general bigots...

#No bc I think it’s a very interesting phenomenon #our conversation came down to how people are honestly unable to comprehend a person is horrible unless they’re a bigot #the example we were talking about is how so many ppl headcanon William Afton furnaff was homophobic to make him like. worse #when like. he’s already a kiddy murderer. I don’t think he can get any worse than that? he kills kids and is an abusive father #no need for him to also be a bigot but yet it’s a popular headcanon #and my pal said it’s bc a lot of ppl are unable to comprehend villains who are complex and have complex opinions/world views #and tbh YEAH!!! I think it’s really common for us to see villains or just people we don’t like as. unable to be like us #if a person sucks then we cannot have anything in common with them. when that isn’t the case #not everyone person who’s a piece of shit is a bigot. it’s common sure but not every villain is gonna be openly racist or transphobic #if anything a villain who has the same world views as the heroes/protags/audience makes them more complex!! #because it can show that anyone who is considered ‘a good person’ can actually be a pos despite their views or show how a person can fall to #-the dark side lol #and yeah obviously in certain cases a villain being a bigot makes sense and works story wise #I know I have quite a few antagonists who are bigots #but it’s a super common pitfall to just assign an antagonist ‘oh they suck so they also hate autistic people!’ or smth instead of like #just letting their horrible actions show how they’re a horrible person #I promise if a serial killer is a serial killer then like. yeah THEYRE horrible. and if you can only see them as horrible if they’re a bigot #then uh. I don’t know what to say to that!!!!!! #also going back to the complex point I know it’s common for people to not comprehend when a character does something bad and is considered b #-ad in the story unless it is EXPLICITLY spelled out! and I think the bigot stuff ties into that #ppl refuse to be like ‘ohhh this is a villain!’ unless the guy drops a bunch of slurs lol #once again depending on the story a bigoted villain makes sense and I have several bigot Ocs #but sometimes. bad people are progressive. or just aren’t homophobic. sometimes they have the same views as us #and sometimes... that makes them scarier and better written. #IDFK why I shared this rant here I just thought it was interesting and also this is a site where ppl make every villain in media #-homophobic soooo-

[astrxealis]

i was about to rb this really pretty shb art and then remembered i'm trying to avoid rbing spoilers <//3 anyways i love shb sm. love that it's an mmorpg but shb is literally one of the best jrpg experiences i (and many others) have had

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #⋯ ꒰ა ffxiv ໒꒱ *·˚ #i love ffxiv. it is perfect and imperfect to me and in such a beautiful final fantasy realistic fantasy way #all expansions are great imo !! even if you don't like say. stb. you have to admit it has the best content (maybe not anymore w enw) #and if you don't like arr you can't deny it is incredibly successful actually following the disastrous 1.0 #and it builds up a lot of stuff for ffxiv! yk! base game!! #hw i admittedly have a few negative feelings towards bcs a lot of people who like hw most are annoying to me #if they're the kinds that don't like arr or stb ......... or don't see any fault w hw as well #that one character deserved WAY better. still angry abt that. also other criticism i'm willing to talk abt if anyone asks #i like looking at ffxiv critically and yeah my enjoyment of expacs are if from most to least. it's in order from newest to oldest #which means i overall prefer stb to hw and i have reasons for that but i look at both critically and it annoys me that. w hw. yeah #ANYWAYS RIGHT. enw has some problems w pacing (?) tbh i enjoyed enw so much as a whole #i don't really have any problems w it but i understand pacing problems! but imo shb is kind of. just perfect #IDK the only bit i had yk w was rak'tika. mostly bcs it dragged on a bit for me but w the story in mind it was also just very good #i can't really rmbr anything else... i find shb to just be perfect to me. barely any pacing problems #the story isn't as complex as the other expacs but i think that makes it so good (tho i too like the complexity of the others! but ya it #makes pacing more of a problem fr) <3 i forgot what i was typing in the last tag so ending this there #hmm...... yeah that's about it (at least rn) #i really love shb. as much as i love enw i think the themes and vibes of shb just still appeal to me more so yeah #shb. wow. yeah.

[mazojo]

Why Miki

#after like ten years of my friends telling me to watch devilman crybaby finally watching it #WHY WOULD THEY DO THAT TO MIKI I AM ACTUALLY KINDA DEVASTATED ABOUT IT NOW #I don’t know how to feel about the series as a whole I have a lot of thoughts about it but MIKKIII NOO #Just when she and kuroda had confessed their love damn kinda homophobic #damn when the knife went through I was like 😃 what the fuxk #you know what if akira goes insane this last episode I condone it tbh he should be allowed to say fuck #anime #Miki #devilman crybaby spoilers #devilman crybaby #update: just finished it and hey um what the fuck #i liked the ending a lot actually how it went full circle although left me a bit spooked sksksk #overall tho like I feel this is an okay series but it’s just not for me #same as with Sonny boy and chainsaw man I am too dumb for this shiz SKSKSK #i like pieces of media where I don’t have to metaphorically dissect the themes and messages it makes me confused and lost rip me ig sorry #for the dumbasery #ig that’s why I like media like tokyo rev because it’s a complex situation and angsty story but it’s just so brain numbing SKSKKS #Like why does he time travels? no idea we don’t care just roll with it and I like that if they try to overexplain shit to me I get lost lol