#its been months but i still think abt it

[chronicschmonic]

2 anyone whos complimented my band shirts i hope u know that ive been giggling kicking my legs rolling on the floor twirling my hair thinking abt it for months afterwards

#chronic.txt #once i passed this emo person on an escalator at a shopping centre #i was going up and they were going down #i was wearing a scene fit that included an mcr shirt and they gave me like a smile and nod of approval #the way i BLUSHED #i havent forgotten #its been months but i still think abt it #they were lowkey kinda cute #scene + emo solidarity :DD #scene #emo #alternative #2000s emo #2000s scene #lgbtq #pansexual #nonbinary #lmao my first post is me gushing over some stranger who ive not spoken a word to

[suntails]

tfw octavinelle students get to wear a suit but ur dorm uniform needs an instruction manual

#been thinking abt this for months. i will not draw this nicer u get what u get. their uniform is insane #octavinelle and heartslabyul students like woopsie woke up late! ill just rush to get ready!! #diasomnia waking up with 30 entire minutes dedicated to their outfit. like oh my GOD its so complicated #i spent more time than id care to admit searching refs and information to make sure i didnt miss any deets #and i STILL think i prob took liberties in simplifying this somehow. but yea here u go #this was inspired by a DR post by lordofdorknessgundam from like a million years ago. good food #twst #twisted wonderland #twst silver #silver vanrouge #sebek zigvolt #suntails

[daydreamycrustacean]

end of the world thingy i made weeks ago to procrastinate on college work. i wanted to post it along with other drawings of Nine and Rose but I have art burnout bc of college. plus I'm just feeling really Emo about them rn so 🧡🧡🧡

#dcr art #doctor who #ninth doctor #rose tyler #i wish i could join everyone on the specials hype alas. Im still here. crying so hard every time I think abt 9. #its only been a month to me...

[hazelcallahan]

#battle gfs

#tanthamore #willow #willowedit #kit x jade #kit tanthalos #jade claymore #** #its been a full month and a half and i am still thinking abt. Them.

[rbtlvr]

'Is this like an Alice in Wonderland thing?' Leo called out, paddling towards Sensei and trying not to swallow water as he moved. 'Did you cry all these tears?' 'The mindscape does love a good metaphor.' Sensei called back, and he sounded fucking wrecked.

old dead bones that don't get theirs (death wish sidefic by @remedyturtles) was written to kill me, specifically, personally, actually. i still think about it Constantly

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rise of the tmnt #tmnt #teenage mutant ninja turtles #future leo #little kid with a big death wish #death wish #tries to get back into the groove of doing art. Does This #i will say i did take some artistic liberties ajfkldsjfkldj #NOT sure how well it comes across bc this shit is Hard to draw but. points. at all the leaves fallen off the tree. teehee #i missed drawing that fucking tree btw. god #i missed doing the mindscape effects!!!!!!!! #ohh hh i just had a thought . cleaned up version of this as a tarot card #probably will not actually get around to doing that but. smth smth the tower maybe. or the hanged man idk #id have to look up the Exact meanings of each of them but #anyway. yes its been like six months yes ii still think abt it. mindscape shit my fucking beloved #i think abt the mindscape shit in firefight DAILY as well its .awuauwguaguahghgh #ok god enough ramblign. what other tags #uhhhh . uh #sibling death cw #<- implied if you know the context but just to be safe #my art #i almost. forgor thatone i cannot BELIEVE lmao #anyway. posts this at almost fuckginh midnight its ok <3

[entropyvoid]

Golden Hour (+ lineart below cut)

I took a picture of the lines for once and did some basic crappy photo editing on my phone, so you could probably print this out and use it as a coloring page or something if you so wish lol. Do with it what you will.

#honkai star rail #dr ratio #veritas ratio #aventurine #aventurine hsr #cherallart #as you can see i forgor i wanted to draw his glasses til like. last second #i can’t believe it’s been like 2 whole months since I last did a whole like. watercolor illustration #part of that’s been bc I’ve been having a bit of a rough semester bc adhd med issues (which are resolved now) #but I really wanted to draw aventurine and ratio. my boys #i’ve been LOVING penacony so far so I needed to get something nice out #anyway I did this while my s/o and I alternated between reading a 500 pg long history book out lout to each other #it’s called ‘the inheritance of rome’ and kinda covers what happened after the collapse of the western roman empire #and tries to identify and explain all the cultural echoes and reverberations and transformations that rose from its ashes #throughout europe north africa and the middle east. anyway it’s super interesting and I highly recommend it #the late antique period is not something often covered/talked abt in public ed hist classes. at least not when I was goin through em #or the transitory period between it and the early medieval period at least #i still got 150 pages left and a final paper due on it in like 4 days but it’s only a 5 pg minimum and I’m a wordy bitch so #i think i can make it #anyway back to that I go

[skrrtscree]

Akishinji to me feels like being in love with your best friend in middle school, finally admitting those feelings in your first year at highschool, never feeling so right before everything is wrong again. He disappears afterwards and doesn't even say goodbye, or say your over. Even when you find him, he's distant. Of course he would be, he believes he's a murderer, that he'll hurt anyone that comes too close. You wish he'd come back home with you and ask for your help but he doesn't.

You're stubborn so you keep coming back but he's equally stubborn so he continues you push you away. You're both stuck in this cycle, neither of you want to give in to what the other says so there's not much you can do. You both don't mention what you ha(d)ve, it never comes up. You both stay like this, no new teammate enticing him back until him.

He's still plagued with gulit, he knows this won't help him but the least he can do is protect the kid he unintentionally orphaned. And all of a sudden, you have him back. And it's like he never left. Sure, there is some awkwardness, some things left unsaid between you, he still has problems problems you don't even know about at first and he refuses to elaborate on them but you don't care too much for now. You have him back and you won't lose him again. You can't lose him again.

But the universe isn't kind, you've known this for a long time yet you keep standing strong, you can't falter because then everyone else will.

But he slips away, and you crumble.

#persona #persona 3 #p3 #akishinji #akihiko sanada #shinjiro aragaki #me again hi #sorry for dropping off the face of the earth for most of the month ive been on the art grind #ryomina week is next week and ive actually like half way done i think with my pieces for them #its been a month since i posted anything art related hopefully i can get back soon😭 #but anyways i basically had thoughts abt akishinji and decided to write them down #uh note: im not an akishinji/akihiko expert or anything thats mirus ballpark #im also not obessed with akishinji unlike other ppl in the p3 fandom theyre kinda in the same space as akeshu for me #but i do like the idea of akishinji being ex boyfriends who mever relaly broke up still want eachother but circumstances never let them #like ooh doomed yaoi.. maybe somedayill make one of these posts for every p3 ship who knows😭 #i do have quite a few thoughts on souyos dynamic along with my werid feelings toward the ship itself #anyway byyeee see ya in like 7 dayss #minnitalks

[b4kuch1n]

langa special

#sk8 the infinity #hasegawa langa #kyan reki #renga #sure. every shrimp is a prawn etc #man. listen. langa is my core ''freaks make the world go round'' baby rn #I have like. a Thesis in my brain abt skateboarding and how its viewed in sk8 and like. deviancy and social norms and #the intrinsic relation between being cool and being a weirdo. gods I did Not shut up at mim abt it last night #or two nights ago. time is fake #fuckign brought up adam in relation to warfred bartosz too that was embarrassing #(for the record my opinion on adam is ''he is too rich and being less rich would literally cure him'') #but yeah I'm laying a bit of ''purposefully thick'' on langa here. its not that the boy doesnt know its that he doesnt care #guy who deals with anxiety by simply not thinking #every day in langas brain he walks into a room full of smashed cups and vases and he like. picks up a few pieces at a time #and puts em on the counter. hes been doing this for months #bet kid has set fire to something in a steel barrel at least once. langa youre a real one to me #anyways! the ''tastes like ant'' thing is real I just experienced it. idk why but I think? oolong caramel? #can smell Really close to the ant smell. it is Very weird #(I did finish that piece of cake anyway. paid for that shit) #last night has been full of events! that I am still digesting. theater very good. hangin out with friends very good too #heres to freaks. makin the world go round. gotta be weird to be cool! #have a good night! I pass the fuck out now. goobaba. tilt ur stage a little bit it makes a world of difference

[welcometogrouchland]

[ID: a sketch page of various drawings of Willow Park from the owl house. From left to right the drawings are: timeskip willow playing flyer derby, Willow in her season 1 casual outfit next to her in her season 3 Halloween costume, Willow as Anne in an amphibia au, young willow doing pottery with her dad Gilbert, young willow and amity holding hands/hugging and smiling, and willow looking at clover, who's perched on her finger and wearing a dress and wig made of yarn so as to resemble Willow. Willow is trying to hold back laughter while clover looks unamused. In the center is a drawing of Willow drawing a large spell circle with her staff, and the title of the sketch page reads "willow week 2023", with each drawing labeled as a specific day/prompt, such as day 3: flyer derby/fav on-screen outfit, day 1: crossover, day 2: childhood/father-daughter, or day 1: palismen bonding. Drawings 2, 6, and 7 are coloured while the rest are uncoloured. The background is a scribbly green. End ID]

hi I’m only a month or so late to it BUT! Nearly out of the mines (finals) and that means i can post the sketch page i worked on for Willow Week! Hosted by @agrebel18

#the owl house #toh #willow park #willow week 2023 #gilbert park #amity blight #eh yeah. They’re there too #anyway i had. So many issues regarding the quality of this drawing man #I MADE THE CANVAS TOO GOTDANG BIG!!! #im gonna draft this first and then do a quality review #anyway i wanted to do willow week back when it was actually running but like i said. Ihave been in the mines #almost out though! Just gotta get through Wednesday #still kinda going insane in my enclosure though. Idk if its a period mood swing or if imjust drinking internet pond water #and thats why I’m starting to think evil thoughts #ive just been watching jerma play simpsons hit and run #fr though I’m being digitally waterboarded i need to go to a social excursion so bad #god. I missed posting art just to vent in the tags. Exhilarating. This is my therapy #anyway hope you enjoy this aggie and all other willow enjoyers #also i missed posting abt the 2 month anniversary of the finale #im not coping <3

[shuruzy]

dawg i forgor how to draw seadall. well here's him eating some of his favorite foods.

#fire emblem #fire emblem engage #fire emblem seadall #i talked abt wanting to draw seadall eating a bunch of stuff a while ago & a month or so ago i saw a reply from someone hoping i still woul #WHOEVER YOU WERE... thanks for bringing this drawing idea back up higher on my priority list. #yes im thinking abt members of the team in my current run. funny thing is that i forgot to account for seadall so we have 15 members now #so 1 character's gonna have to sit out the final battle and its not looking good for amber in that department #his hit rate has been on life support. doing what i can with what we got there

[skitskatdacat63]

2009 Chinese Grand Prix - Parc Fermé - Sebastian Vettel & Mark Webber

#MY FAVORITE RACE IVE WATCHED!!! IT IS SO VERY IMPORTANT TO ME OKAY???? #the way theyre in sync serveral times! the way mark helps seb down by tugging him a bit! #(i did in fact write a post abt why this race is crucial to me but i dont think itll ever see the light of day LOL) #okay sry in advance theres gonna be so many tags: #i didnt rly wanna gif any other ssn before finishing 2005 but this is the first older race i watched and its still stuck in my brain #so im obligated to myself from several months ago to at least do a bit #and heres the thing w seb races: id love to contain them to one post like i do w fernandos but I CANT AAHHHHH #theres so much content!(tbf this is less bcs personal seb bias and more bcs theyve def made improvements in production quality since 2005) #i was drafting a post for this race a bit ago and realized 'oops yeah i dont think i can keep this in one post' so ye ill prob post more! #like bro i could make a full post of before they even get to the podium #but this sebmark section in parc ferme has been haunting me since the beginning of this yr #(i was looking thru my insta cf story archive and saw the vids i took of this moment while freaking out and im like okay fine ill do it) #sebastian vettel #mark webber #sv5 #sebmark #martian #we do a little bit of f1 #f1 #formula 1 #2009 chinese gp #(2009: 1/17 races watched) #(out of order but who cares lol i think 2009 is what ill watch after 2005 anyways!)

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#its sort of funny. i think my medication is working pretty well. i feel stable in a way i never really have before #is it the dopamine stablizer or is it my ion channels? whos to say. it doesn't matter. but it also doesnt change some things #the ways i think and react negativly to change. but it makes it easier to deal with. i still experience this strange dispaire on the #weekends or anytime im not working. i think the oddest thing is thst i dont think ive ever been this consistenly sad #not in a depressed sort of way. just a passing thoughts make me tear up sort of way. it doesnt feel out of control. it just feels like a #prelude to grief i guess. bc my mum is still in the hospital and its so hard to kno what that means from halfway across the country #my sisters are both home right now. they both live within 3hrs of where we grew up. one sister lives in the city my mom goes to for #treatment. so they have the opportunity to see her more than me. i dunno if they do tho. we dont really talk. i dont kno if they're as sad #as i am. if im overreacting bc i cant physically see what's happening. what the feeling is in the room. not that she would probably complain #shes the suffer in silence type. my dad keeps texting us pics of our shitty lil sunroom that hes redoing #to make my mum a lil sanctuary. he must be sad too. its his wife. hes staying with her in the hospital rn. i dunno its so weird #when i talk to my counselor she assumes i find out info thru calls or talk to my sisters abt it and i gotta b like nah we dont really talk #i get my info thru text. i havent talked to my parents on the phone in like a month. i dunno we just dont talk. so i dont kno how to reach #out and be like yo so whats up? shoulf i plan on coming home this summer for a bit?? like??? #this is the disadvantage of leaving thr place where you grew up. probably when i finish my phd i should move closer to home #somewhere in the Appalachian mountains maybe. somewere in the eastern deciduous forrest. somewhere with thunderstorms. #but thats years from now. who knows what ill b doing. for now im just sad and tired and i dont quite kno what to do in the short or long #term bc im feeling the weight of my mental limitations rather intensely. but maybe im just being self limiting #whatever. i dont have a dead mum yet. shes not even on hospice care. things are just uncertain and dont look so hot #i just dont see how it can get better from here when chemo gave her secondary blood cancer and shes still full of tumors #i dont think im being that dramatic. it just objectively seems not great for survival #unrelated

[coldvampire]

anyway as soon as i pry myself off this couch im gonna share some screenshots of bg3 protags on my sideblog. just gotta like. reach the desk first.

#all i can think about is the shelves im gonna get installed here over the next little bit fdghj #yall dont understand its so hard to keep things clean and brain friendly when you just dont have anywhere to put stuff. #hellish #& then i get overwhelmed and turn into a massive bitch when i try to get it under control fdgh #instead its been like. 2 straight days of dopamine i fucking swear?? my body probably definitely wouldnt let me do this for a living #(my hip is screamingggg dfghgjj) but actually if i could & if i could work in a team then yeah. ykw i enjoy it. #organization go brrrrrrr #i dont think she was expecting me to work that fast either but ive been like a feral animal. skittering over clutter. #finding Spots for Things #okay i lied the flood was actually beneficial in one way to me specifically. #estranged father just forgot a Bunch of tool sets here & ive claimed them now fdghjk #that nail gun is MINE #she suggested i look out for an actual tool chest/bench thing (ykw the ones with wheels and stuff) for everything and i havent been that #excited for anything in months fdgh tools are expensive alright. too bad he took the table saw. #i dont talk much abt my Masc Hobbies as i call them lmao no real reason to but hoooboy i love to Build Things #give me that ikea desk ill have it done in an hour or less every time #maybe trade school is still on the horizon for me gfhj always wanted to Weld Stuff i think id be good at it #as much as i fuckin loathe yard maintenance i was a real garage sooooo bad its not even funny #shame i wasnt just inherently expected to know car stuff tm i feel like i would have loved it too #scarrier to learn on your own later in life especially with a lease vehicle but ill get there eventually #anyway yeah bg3! new mods. new ocs #have not done much with them yet but they Exist and theyre pretty

[toxooz]

ALSOOOOOOO i Finally got to ride a skateboard at the skatepark with bf n friends for the first time ever yesterday and i feel so 👀👀👌👌👌💯💯💯 i managed to be able to balance and push around and stop without falling and it was fun tbh!! i can see getting muscle memory and improvement by doing it consistently 😤 i just hope this aint too short of a phase for everyone so i can hopefully get me own board soon 🙏

#i kno i said i had to take it easy but it was the 4th i had to go out n live a little shhhhh #i think i skate goofy but it might be bc im left handed so its just How Its Gunna Be lmfao hopefully i'll see #theyve been starting to go there recently and a few ppl are thinking abt getting more boards and skates and ofc i Gotta get one #its practically required of me to get one AHA #being able to use my book smarts research abt footing and pushing with the right foot/ stopping without a tragedy was rlly cool #i havent fell yet but im dreading it bc that shit will be inevitable lolol its just a matter of when #it definitely takes confidence and intent and Brother i am but a teacup chihuahua #BUT that is the beauty of progress and improvement and courage #even if its just a couple months fad thing for them it would still be nice to at least get the experience #and get a better idea of what the hell my Entire story is about lmfao #i hate that it took me this long but its what i gotta do better late than never #i think i aint got crippling anxiety for everything and then i realize i cant do like 85% of things #i want to do in life AHAaa #its just one of them things i Gotta have someone do it with me so this opportunity fell into my lap and im ESTATIC #edit looked it up again and i DO NOT skate goofy i skate regualr HELL YEAH

[dorkicon]

bitching abt my job again

tags contain frank mentions of transphobia and homophobia

#this happened like. i dont know. a month ago or something but i still keep playing it in my mind #for those unawares: theres been a fucking community outrage over the pride display at the library i work at #and have been working/volunteering at for 5 years #only it never went up. it never went up. bc the mayor came in as a quote unquote private citizen and demanded it taken down #despite the fact that patrons are required to fill out complaint sheets and even then it isnt ensured a display will be taken down #so obviously its a misuse of power that hes spinning into him being a concerned citizen #and i made a whole post bitching abt it and im doing so again (hi) bc i didnt like how our director responded to it #and yeah. so there was a board meeting after that right. well i set up for them as i usually do and let me tell you. that was the first #--time more than like 6 people came to spectate. it was insane. #and i guarantee that this months meeting wont have half as many people that fucking crammed themselves in there to complain abt gay ppl #bc of course they dont give a shit about the library #they just care about how scary the queers are #and yeah it was a shit show. i learned we have a far right organization in our town #and i was sat right in front of her husband the whole time #(standing actually. i was standing between him and my moms chair and he was sighing and grumbling the whole time bc he couldnt muster the #--balls to ask the 5 foot 2 fag in front of him to please move lol. small victories right) #when i say her i mean the leader of the freaks. idk. chairman? anyway she had a whole speech about how like queers are bad and cutting #the penises off little babies or whatever and she pulled up this passage from a book that was part of the display #its some book by the youtuber rowan ellis-- here and queer i think was the title. it was cataloged in our ya section and contained passages #talking about like having safe sex and what dildoes are and all that kind of shit. just really clinical descriptions imo. im not familiar w #--the youtuber really but im assuming they wrote it as informational bc shocker: teens be having sex. unsafe sex. especially queer teens #sourse: i was one of tgose #and...think for a moment. remember when you were a teen. youd rather fucking DIE than listen to your parents give you the sex talk #and chances are if youre gay your parents arent even going to know WHAT gay sex is (hugging without shirts on) so youre going to look #--elsewhere #bc if youre a hormonal fucking teen youre going to figure it out one way or another! especially if youre from (cough) a podunk shitwater #--town like mine that ran on abstinence by way of sex education #i think teens deserve to have access to that sort of information through trusted means. and i do mean het teens too #but no these fucking morons put on airs like everyones waiting till marriage--no! not my becky sue! as if they werent fucking around in #--holy shit i reached taglimit. i didnt ecen know there was one. hold on

[rosykims]

IVE NEVER GOT THIS HOWE DIALOGUE. THROWING UPPPPPPPPPPPP

#GOD. THIS GAME. RENDON HOWE DIE HORRIBLY CHALLENGE (EASY) #tay plays dao #A FOOL HUSK OF A DAUGHTER LIKELY TO END HER DAYS UNDER A ROCK IN THE DEEP ROADS???????? #'bryce couslands little spitfire all dressed up and still playing the man' has always been one of my favorite lines Ever. AND NOW THIS ??? #BRO....................................................................................... #oc: elspeth #for her this is taking place like. a bit less than 2 months after the deep roads supertrauma i was talking abt yesterday lol #her being at her weakest psychologically and. dsfkjhjfsdfd #hearing THAT?????????? and being like ok. some points have been made #but also after the deep roads shes simultaneously stuck in this ''nothing is real and nothing matters'' mindse so it doesnt hurt as much #since shes already been telling herself all that for months anyway. #like yeah ok and what of it. i might be nothing but im abt to cut YOU into nothing and that will make me feel better <3 #GJKGFJKFG #i also think its so funny going from the deep roads to howe's estate quest. like going frm the closest thing in lore to hell itself #to the mansion of some fucking scrawny prissy loser who hasnt picked up a sword in 20 years w guards who dont know shit abt shit #the whole party just. cutting thru them like a wave sjdksjk #ANYWAY NOT TO TIE EVERYTHING BACK TO THE DEEP ROADS BUT IT IS LITERALLY ALL ABT THE DEEP ROADS BTW <3 ALL OF IT <3