#just writing this made me big sad

[yellowocaballero]

Been a fan of your fics for YEARS. I was just telling my friend how despite how much I read fics I never actually love them, with some of your fics (especially TMA) as the exception. Felt the need to reread some of them and saw you reblogged some ISAT fanart. So. Any thoughts on ISAT you'd like to share?

Hope you have a wonderful day!! So happy I found your fics again!!

I avoided answering this for a while because I was trying to think of a way to cohesively and coherently vocalize my thoughts on In Stars and Time. I have given up because I don't want to hold everybody here all day and I have accepted that my thoughts are just pterodactyl screeching.

I love it so much. I have so much to say on it. It drove me bonkers for like a week straight. I have AUs. It's absolute Megbait. They're just a little Snufkin and they're having the worst experience of anybody's life. Ludonarratives my fucking beloved.

I am going to talk about the prologue.

The prologue is such a fascinating experience. You crack open the game and immediately begin checking off all of the little genre boxes: mage, warrior, researcher, you're the rogue...some little kid who's there for some reason...alright, you know the score. You're in yet another indie Earthbound RPG, these are your generic characters, let's get the ball rolling.

Except then you realize that these characters are people. You feel instantly how you've entered the game at its last dungeon, at the end of the adventure. They have their own in-jokes, histories, backgrounds, adventures. They get along well and they're obviously close, but not in a twee or unrealistic way. They have so much chemistry and spirit and life. I fell in love with them so quickly.

But Sif doesn't. Sif kind of hates them, because they will not stop saying the same damn thing. They walk the same paths, do the same things, make the same jokes, expect Sif to say the same lines. They keep referencing a Sif we do not see, with jokes we never see him make and heroic personality he never shows - they reference a Sif who is dead - and Sif can't handle that, so he kills them too.

They become only an exercise in tedious frustration. Sif button mashes through their dialogue, Sif mindlessly clicks the same dialogue options, Sif skips through the tutorial, Sif blows through the puzzles. Sif turns their world into a video game. Sif is playing a generic RPG. Sif forgets their names. They are no longer people with in-jokes, histories, backgrounds, adventures. They're the mage, the warrior, the researcher, and...some random kid.

I did not understand the Kid's presence at first. I had no idea what they contributed to the game. They didn't do anything. As a party member in a video game, they're a bit useless. Why is the Kid there?

Because Sif's life isn't a video game. Because the kid isn't 'the kid'. They're Bonnie. Bonnie, who the party loves. Why is Bonnie there? Because they love them. There is no room for Bonnie in the boring RPG that Sif is playing. And then you realize that Sif is wrong, and that they've lost something extremely important, and that they'll never escape without it.

Watching the prologue before watching ISAT gave ISAT the most unique air of dread and horror, because you crack open ISAT and you see the person Sif used to be. You realize that Sif used to be a person. Sif used to be the person who made jokes, who gave real smiles, who interacted with the world as if they are a part of it. And you know you are sitting down to watch Sif lose everything that made them a person, to lose everything that made them a member of this world, and turn them into a character in a video game who doesn't understand the point of Bonnie at all.

At the climax of the game, when the others realize that something is deeply wrong and that Sif physically cannot tell them, they realize that there is nothing they can do. So Bonnie declares snacktime. And for the first time they have snacktime.

What is snacktime? Classic JRPGs don't have snacktime. There's literally no point to a snacktime - not in a video game, and not in Sif's terrible life. It's not fixing this, because nothing can fix this. But Bonnie gives Sif a cookie and Sif eats it.

It's meaningless. It's a cutscene. It didn't save Sif and it didn't change a thing. It will make no difference in the end.

But it did make the difference. It made all of the difference in the world. Bonnie is a character who you really don't understand the point of before you realize that Bonnie was the entire point.

ISAT is about comfort media. Why do we play the same video games over and over again? Why do we avoid watching the finale of our favorite shows? What is truly comforting: a story with no conflict, or a story where you always know what is about to happen? Do you want to live in a scary, uncontrollable world, or do you want to play Stardew Valley? Do you want a person or a character?

When I beat Earthbound for the first time (and if you don't know, the prologue/ISAT battle system is just Mother) and watched the ending cutscene where the characters part ways and say goodbye...I felt a little bit sad. I wanted them to be together forever. But that's something only characters could ever be.

#these aren't deep or unique thoughts they're just the specific aspect of ISAT that made it one of the most interesting gaming experiences #i actually like the prologue much more than ISAT for just this reason #its honestly a video game art piece that's created to give the player a very specific experience #that makes them an aspect of the narrative that is told #it's. incredible. #in stars and time #start again start again start again #start again: a prologue #isat #god and there is so so so so much more to say here #what a rich and complex and fascinating game that made me cry like a baby #i dont even kin sif. we arent similar at all. #i cant imagine how devastating this game would have been if i did #but I do have a deep relationship with escapsim #and i write about it a lot #and video games about being video games are wonderful #as are stories about being stories #and why we consume stories. how we use them. how they save us and hurt us. #never played a video game that used its medium so well #i bet undertales also pretty good at that but this is more so i think #stories about stories have to be about why we love stories #and im not an artsy person and i roll my eyes a bit when people talk about the spiritual neccesity of art #i think people need stories because the world is sad and hard and boring and we want to think about something else for a while. #some people need to be anywhere but here #and sometimes if you're Lil Depressed-Ass Snufkin that looks like being here forever #baby cringe-ass snufkin big hat idiot

[kyngsnake]

Do you have any hcs for any fallout characters :p

Oh fuck I have a lot. Let me think of a few. I’m just gonna choose random ones across any of the games.

Paladin Danse is more squeamish than most would take him for. His self-control extends to control over visceral reactions, so in the field this doesn’t really come up, ergo he can see someone sustain a lethal injury in combat and appear unphased. However, Danse is the kind of person who can’t look at a needle going in while receiving an injection. When there isn’t the obligation of duty keeping him together, blood and viscera really bother him.

Raul Tejada is excellent with animals and has a special fondness for horses, as his family had them on their ranch where he grew up. I like to think Raul at some point had a mule sleipnir. Maybe he still does and they were separated when Raul got stuck on Black Mountain.

The Stealth Suit Mk. II is capable of full sentience, however had restraints written into their code to bar them from full awareness. The suit is aware they’re being held back from independent thought. Most of the things they say are automated, but they are capable of limited problem solving and critical thinking. The suit asking do you like me? Is an example of this.

Butch DeLoria has a manageable but noticeable fear of the dark. He insists that he didn’t develop that fear until after leaving the vault.

#obligatory ‘these are just My headcanons if you don’t agree that’s okay’ #the Danse one also means he will not help Avery with t injections #or rather he Will if asked but Avery probably watched his face get all 🤢 over a needle and went #you know what big guy why don’t you go sit over there. drink some water #I made the stealth suit very sad adjdnkddk; #Cole is proficient with writing code and he has a whole thing about trying to help the stealth suit attain full sentience #don’t look at me I’m normal about AI #fallout #Paladin Danse #raul tejada #butch deloria #fallout new vegas #fallout 3 #fallout 4

[novadorks]

finally finished orv after two years . . . what do i do with my life now

#started in junior year hs dropped it for a while then started reading again at the start of this semester and now im finally done ! #dont know whether to cheer or just crumple up and start crying bc wow that was a ride #i thought the ending was tragic but then i moved on to the epilogue and oh my godd #the way kdj was crying and miserable bc he missed his companions and he wanted to be with them so Badly #but when kimcom finally Finally chase him down and come back to him theyre too late and hes already disspitated into other world lines #and after that like. whenever kdj pulls some shit and dies the next chapter always starts with an ‘i’ #and hes back and alive and kicking and Thinking but after that epilogue chapter there isnt a chapter in his pov theres no more ‘i’s and. #it just made me incredibly sad bc we dont get to see his pov ever again bc hes truly gone unless we as a reader can imagine him alive again #anyways sad things aside it is Incredibly funny that lee hyunsung just became a wanted man in the 1865th round lmaoo #+ uriel sun wukong and black flame dragon forming a band together ??? truly the most randomest thing in the epilogue #++ yoohankim need to stop beating the shit out of e/o and learn to talk their feelings out Please #+++ sooyoung’s love for dokja has me miserable o-|-< she would wait for him an eternity write for him an eternity im so sad #three times she endlessly wrote a novel for him to read three times she waited to see him for so long <//3 #you bet im imagining the happiest conclusion i can for them #they WILL live happily ever after in that big house together as long as i have something to say about it! #orv

[pizza-feverdream]

i do love me some experimenting with colors and shading techniques while also playing dress up with your oc's with funny poses and outfits you found on pinterest

(refs i used) (plus the color palette)(if the colors look different it's because when i upload my art to google photos it wildly messes them up)(and i do my best to correct them but they still may be different)

#feverdream.scribbles #i THINK that's my art tag #its been a while since i posted any art and tumblr is being not helpful by not showing me my recently used tags #everybody say thank you tumblr! #side note apparently you can edit tags on desktop?? #can't tell u how many times i've type out a big ol rambler on mobile just to see i've critically misspelled an important word and had to #start all over #just on that one tag #the big one #i made like 8 spelling mistake #oh before i forget i should prolly tag #my ocs #arthur's place #arthur's house #that's such a sad title AGHSF #but it's what i got #i officially started writing it tho #hopefully a better title will come to me #also btw if anyone's interested in reading it (eyes emoji) #i don't know where to post it lol #cause it's not a fanfiction #also i've never posted writing anywhere before so idk how it works #i could very easily look it up but eh #meh #i don't feel like it #alright if you made it this far i truly love you you're a real one honest

[famewolf]

actually used r*ddit for the first time in a thousand years just to comfort a self proclaimed 'grown ass man' regarding his feelings about feeling lost and grieving over the death of RT.

I usually stay away from commenting on public forums and the like, but he was clearly confused and didn't understand why he was hurting and it was frustrating him. it genuinely makes me so sad that a lot of cis men deeply struggle with allowing themselves to feel sadness if it doesn't directly relate to someone close to them dying.

and so I kind of said as much. told him that just because RT wasn't a real human doesn't mean that the decades of comfort it brought him didn't matter. that the brain doesn't differentiate between the loss of a person vs. the loss of something intangible that was still incredibly important.

told him to give himself the grace to grieve and be sad that something he loved was ending and that he wasn't the only one feeling that way. and surprisingly he replied and said he really needed to hear that, as did a couple of other dudes. which made me glad I said something. it sucks that they feel like they need permission or a reason to feel hurt/grief tho

there's definitely a strangeness to feeling grief over the end of media. but if it impacted your life for the better, then of course you're going to feel sad and lost. especially from folks you've been watching the better part of two decades.

#[static] #putting it under a read more because im being long-winded about it #RT was a big part of my life in the 2010s and i met a lot of great people because of it #i stopped watching around 2019-2020 due to life stuff and the controversies going on #but then f**ckface showed up and it's been one of the few podcasts that i genuinely enjoy and make me feel safe and comfortable #the content they made became too much for me to keep up with so i stopped for the most part #but f**ckface was the best of it all and brought me back to the good old days :) its hard to describe but it just felt magical #anyways i think ppl should be allowed to grieve even if there was 'writing on the walls' or whatever #RT is not without its issues for sure but a lot of them grew as people in to genuine good folks and that's awesome #and even though i only partake in a very small part of RT nowadays i too will be very sad to see it go #im going to watch the livestream in an hour and keep an ear out for if folks end up working on new projects

[the-kipsabian]

tbh ever since i saw a someone say that its awful to read when writers clearly arent comfortable writing smut and it show, ive been so self conscious about even trying to make anything spicier anymore

#which is extra sad when my two big wips are centered around more spicy topics #like it doesnt make me uncomfortable when its my ships really. im just bad at it #which just feels even worse i guess. idk #it wasnt even directed at me it was a general statement but idk it just made me feel very shitty and i havent been writing since #just sucks to suck i guess. but what can you do really #i was just. really excited for these wips too. and now im all defeated even trying to think about continuing them #im just sad cause writing is so fucking hard but lmao what else is new or whatever #night is an absolute mess on main #i was gonna schedule this but knowing its still in my drafts makes me more anxious so im just gonna post it and try to sleep

[hecksupremechips]

Girl like. The reason he said "this is how it should be" and faced death with a smile....is cuz he wanted to die. For 2 years he sat there thinking he was worthless and deserved to die. If he hadn’t be shot, his death would’ve been suicide, he was fully planning to die in a gutter somewhere undetected. When saying "this is how it should be" hes literally saying "don’t cry because I’m dying, my death is a good thing actually because I fucking suck and you are better off without me". I don’t think that’s badass even slightly, it’s actually really sad and really shitty. Shinjiro is so convinced that he deserves to die and hates the idea of anyone giving a shit about him because he literally can’t wrap his mind around the idea that he will be missed when he’s gone, that his death is a bad thing actually. And his last words were meant to be comforting because he fully did not intend for anyone to be there when he died, he intended to die alone, so he says them as a reminder that he’s not worth crying over

Personally, if it were me, if I was holding my dying best friend in my arms who was deeply depressed and suicidal and he said "this is how it should be" uh. I wouldn’t admire him for it??? Like am I losing my mind when I say the way this game handles Shinji is bad or is anyone else seeing this too 😰

#its like okay listen i understand the basic math of any persona game they say things and everything they say is actually #very bad when you think about it for more than 3 seconds #like what theyre intending to do with the death of this character is be like oh no your sad friend dies tragically thats so saddddd #but that doesnt mean you cant live a wonderful life full of meaning you cant let grief consume you life is beautiful awagga #and i guess shinji is a specific character whos used cuz i guess its more tragic that he never realized he was worthy of life and shit #and i guess its also like ‘dont be like this guy who let grief consume him and then died you gotta Be Different’ #which i dont. love. that last part cuz if you think about shinji and what led him down this road #its like. of course hes depressed! he accidentally killed a woman with a child when he was 16! #he himself is an orphan and he just made some other kid an orphan as well and it happened cuz his persona went out of control #which very much can translate to ‘this must mean im dangerous and can hurt everyone if im not kept under control’ #so of course he isolated himself and believed he was evil and became suicidal like who wouldnt feel that way #like am i supposed to be mad he left sees and took drugs cuz uh while i dont think isolation or Evil Drug is good for his mental health #i dont think him continuing to fight in sees is something he can just easily do again given how he killed someone like he shouldnt have to #be a part of this thing anymore like how would he even safely get castor to not do that??? he cant kill more people on accident! #so yeah like using shinji as an example of bad coping mechanisms is already just. a big fucking oof to me like it just feels like the game #is saying he shouldve gotten over it and simply not be suicidal and stayed on the team. idk if thats the intent but uh it wouldnt faze me #cuz persona games are notoriously awful at writing characters who are traumatized and abused #but what makes everything even worse is how the game kinda like. acts like shinjis death is a stepping stone #like we’re supposed to use it as a wake up call and understand the stakes but keep going on anyways #and akihiko and Ken get. ‘great character development’ according to the game telling you they have now developed #but damn all akihiko is is just repressed he cries for 3 seconds and then is like I SHOULD MAN UP and then neglects a depressed child #shinjis dying words are words to live by now even though they piss me the fuck off like girl am i crazy HES FUCKING #HES TELLING ME NOT TO CRY OVER HIM BECAUSE HE SHOULD BE DEAD ACTUALLY AND THIS IS A GOOD THING ACTUALLY #like if the game wants us to still find meaning in life despite losing someone it just really hurts that shinji has to die for that to work #apparently. cuz the character i see myself in is shinji. not some perfect prettyboy who does everything perfectly and has 4 gfs #his death seems like a punishment for bad behavior. the bad behavior being of course depression and drug use. and im simply supposed to be #better than that if i want to live. and we dont get to form a connection with him cuz thats gayyyyy #and his death is like a NOBLE HEROIC SACRIFICE idk its just such bullshit to me i hate it so bad #how is killing a suicidal guy and then treating it as admirable that he said ‘this is how it should be’ supposed to make me feel #makes me feel sick personally and it ruins the entire game’s theme to me because its fucking shallow and the story is bad and im tired

[petrichorium]

Happy anniversary of the time I wrote 20k words in a week and got ghosted by the artist who was supposed to make art for the fic lol

#it’s been a year I can be bitter now right #for a SINGLE DAD BAKUGO FIC r u kidding I should have had artists lining up to make the art and instead I get shafted #I don’t fully blame the Big Bang staff. I think it could’ve been handled better but it’s mostly on the artist #but wow that rlly happened huh LMFAOOOOOO #shoutout to Shay for being the most supportive friend through all that truly #I got to live vicariously through her assigned artist who was amazing && also she drew me some stuff that was adorable 🥺 #if anyone wants to know why sleeping is taking so long to write it’s bc I was fueled by spite and a deadline for the first chapter and now #I am just. kinda bitter and sad abt the rest #which sucks bc I love the fic I rlly do #hopefully I can get over it bc it’s silly to let something like that ruin the fic entirely #SO insane tho. the way I was the only one who made the cut and didn’t get art too #not even bc I didn’t get picked but bc my artist was a sham. nice. love that truly #the staff was okay. I’m not gonna pretend I felt supported but I get that it’s a complicated and stressful event #and it was a difficult situation bc my artist insisted they were working on stuff. never got an official ‘sorry I’m dropping out’ message #so I get it. but I’m also still pissed :) abt the whole situation not. at any singular member or staff or anything #mostly at the artist #but again could have been handled better fr

[mooodyblue]

tags again. ignore me 🥸

#hello venting again #i have not been doing very well #and i am very sad that i can't ever fully regress n have to just put it all into my writing #and i want a cg !!! i want to ramble abt my interests to someone n show off my pretty little pictures !!!! #and it also sucks because a few weeks ago i lost everything i used for my regression forever and starting over sucks so bad #all my plushies r gone and i only have a few now and i don't have many coloring books anymore which is the worst part of it #n i've been like ... considering joining that side of tumblr too but i rly can't be bothered to make another blog :( #i am just #vvvvvv sad #i always have to be big cuz i have to check on ppl or someone might need me for something i can never be fully tiny n i hate itttttt #n i know i need this badly right now cause my brain has not been treating me very well recently and i'm trying to not Do Bad Things #but i'm grateful for this blog cuz i can ramble abt elvie n my love for him without feeling like i'm annoying anyone but #i still feel so aloneeeee #nobody is gonna read this but if u do that's my bad #ty for listening to my vent #sometimes i have to wonder if being here is a curse or a blessing bc writing is what made me feel more comfy abt my regression but #now im sad bc i can't even be little majority of the time #ok i will stop talking now #lily.txt

[whysamwhy123]

Ain't done this in a while but it's sorely needed because I have had A Week. So, if anyone has any spare serotonin lying around and would like to share, through the form of asks, it would be greatly appreciated.

#Distract me from everything please? #I'll take whatever you got - questions headcanons good news something that made you happy today - anything #Because it's Sad Bitch O'Clock in this household and booooooooooy do I feel completely and utterly alone #And I don't have my usual coping mechanism of writing and silly AU ideas because my motivation has gone all *explosion noise* #Since I'm not into anything AEW's putting out right now so I've got no inspiration #And I can't make myself write any of my OrangeHook ideas since no one cares about them anymore #And my ol' standby copium of that self-indulgent Chricky AU I was writing isn't going anywhere I have made no progress as of late #Because it looks like it's gone from ''Maybe two people will read this but we'll have fun with it at least!'' #To ''Nobody is going to read this and I'd just be embarrassing myself so what's the fucking point?'' #And of course there's soooooo much non-fic related stuff going wrong currently but I don't feel like boring y'all with any of that shit #...honestly I probably shouldn't have gone a big ol' rant here because come on Sam #If you read all these tags...jeez I'm sorry 😬 But yeah if you wanna help distract me for a brief moment it'd be much appreciated <3 #In the meantime I'll just be over here listening to Interpol and questioning all life choices that lead me to this sorry state

[boltgunkiller-archive]

graduation and the glee kids futures makes me so emotional

#juno speaks #santana had options this isnt a diss im really proud of her and i’m serious about that too #i see her happy and married to brittany and going back to college to get a degree #and i feel so proud like. thats my girl she made it #but finn didn’t even get any of that like it’s not fair to me #whyd they make him the shows loser for no reason when he tried just as hard as everyone else #i’m not even like a huge finn shooter. i just think he deserved so much more #i’m a santana shooter. majority of the time. Big santana fan. her future makes me so happy it was so bright she was given love and #happiness when she thought that was impossible for herself. she never thought she’d get to graduate and live a life she was proud to live #with someone she was proud to be with #especially during her junior year #she figured she’d be with a guy and just feel awful forever but no!! she got the girl she loved she went to new york and realized #hey. she doesn’t want what everyone else does and that’s okay (realization took a bit but britt was there) #and she realized. she wants to go to college and get a job and be happy and not try and blend in w everyone else! #Now finn. i rlly wish he got to go to college to be a teacher and had it work out #why didn’t it #i’m so sad he really deserved to be a teacher #he would be a good teacher #you know??… #i mean.. i have my complaints about his writing but at his core (without RIB’s awful character writing) hes so deserving #and even full of love.. or hope maybe.. it’s not fair to me Like #Ugh ii am just thinking of finn. And santana. And finn. And graduation #And.? #gleeposting

[darkandstormyranger]

do you ever post a fic and quietly think "this would have done numbers a few years ago"

#like i know I KNOW i write for myself and the ship i enjoy #and a fanfiction's worth isn't measured in kudos or hits #but it is pretty sad to look at the 20 kudos and 0 comments and realize that if you'd just posted it when the fandom was young and active #or posted it when the shippers hadn't yet made the ship so unlikable the best creators already abandoned it #the numbers would be 10x higher #and it's nobody's fault and you tell yourself you write bc you enjoy it not bc you get rewarded for it #but you still feel illogically disappointed #anyway being in a big fandom spoiled me i need to relearn writing and drawing with 0 expectations and having fun

[bambino1294]

#literally opened tumblr and was like *gasp* I have POLLS! #bam writes #i’m knee deep in the big sad and want some attention #so here I am #nobody ask me about the zukkue ship name #I literally don’t know if those three have one or not #so I made one on the spot as best I could 😭 #polls #zukka #zukkue #the way most of these have Sokka as the pov character #he’s my little guy #I love him #atla fic #me just testing the waters of interest basically #I can and will answer anybody’s asks about plot if there are any <3

[mercymaker]

not to be getting old on tumblr dot com but yesterday i was just chilling on the couch and got hit by the strongest emotions ever as i watched the sun roll down behind the trees. i was overcome by this realization that the world i've experienced, the memories (especially the really early ones) are slipping from my grasp and often times are lost to the flow of time without even being noticed. without being honored. without being mourned. i remembered how when i was a kid, i'd spend so much time at my grandma's house in the middle of nowhere. how we'd sit outside on late summer evenings, listen to the animals, the wind. grab an apple from the tree. or enjoy a mug of fresh warm milk. i realized that even if i went back there (and i did last year), it's just not the same. even if the house is still standing, the breathing is gone. the moment only existing in the confines of my mind. the mind that's grown unreliable and i no longer have anyone to check it with. my grandma is gone. my family is more focused on the present and the future. the house still stands and so does the apple and the plum trees, and i could sit outside on the very same bench and yet... instead of the warmth of the memories tied to those objects, i'd be overwhelmed by all the things that have changed. the absence of the fence that circled the house. by the unfamiliar layout of the new garden. by the lack of soul in the old house.

#life #nostalgia hours idk man #it made me so incredibly sad #BUT also made me remember a lot of things #and i should maybe write them down somewhere #idk why but after the big covid years the nostalgia is spreading in my bones #and i keep coming back to the times i'd spent with my grandma #just living in the middle of nowhere surrounded by forests #maybe because i'm lowkey getting sick of the society we live in and just want to go back #to like... growing rows and rows of potatoes for winter and keeping chicken or whatever #PICKING BERRIES AND MUSHROOMS IN A FOREST my beloved

[m1d-45]

Truth to be told, I was not a huge fan of the SAGAU. I just thought it was a bit of a wasted potential, the themes just being played around in my opinion (everyone can like whatever) BUT then I came across your writing? Yes, I think I've grown rather fond toward it now. It was like finding gold in a mine... Words put together intricately, so beautifully, the symbolism subtle if not one squints to recognize, and just... *chef's kiss*

Very in love with your work ❤ have a great day/night, ty for bringing new light on the SAGAU for me!

thank you so much <33 i’m glad to know i’ve interested you in the genre, and though i can’t point you in any directions, i do reccomend you poke around a bit more online! there are a lot of great writers around, and i’m grateful you think i’m one of them!

enjoy your stay!

#m1d : [chats] #love you anon big kiss <3 /p #i got into writing sagau because all the stuff i saw online never really scritched at my brain right #so i’m very very glad somebody else noticed the… is it weird to call it a gap in the market-?? i just like people being sad lmao #there wasn’t enough character->you interactions going on that i could see so i just. made my own. #there’s an analogy here; something about how the destiny of man is to find beauty in what others discard perhaps #but that’s a lot of symbolism for GENSHIN IMPACT FANFICTION #anyway. have a good one. hope you enjoy the lore dump that’ll be posted within… like 3-5 min? idk i haven’t finished editing it yet #at time of writing i’m gonna queue this then port over and edit that so. idk. this post will be close to that one on the timeline #and i’ll ask for the sake of it: was the gold comment because of my name #fuckin- king midas was a greek king that got cursed to turn everything he touched into gold and you know what call me narcissistic- #-because this ask is my pool. don’t touch it you’ll ripple the reflection #(similarly to king midas i am a overly hubristic silly boy that frequently bites off more than he can chew)

[crybaby-bkg]

I love you poetry I love you wide expanse ocean water imagery I love you tying in the moon and it’s strength and devotion to its water I love you big ball of fire that can hold so many metaphors within its sphere I love you otherworldly imagery I love you space analogies I love you pretty pictures made with soft words and gentle meanings I love you simple phrases that convey so much I love

#I’m writing enough poetry to write another book lmfao #it’s just so soothing and I always feel so seen and expressive #I have a hard time talking about how I feel without getting extremely overwhelmed and poetry has helped that so much #I’ve only written one ocean poem and it still slaps and I’ve never written another one bc how can I top that LOL #poetry is so beautiful I love it so much #I made one about the hero society a couple weeks ago and I wanna use it in a fic #about reader being a poet or something and frequently speaking about the problems within hero society #and as they’re breaking down the system to better fit people and stop the idealization of heroes #you’re asked to speak at this big gala and perform a poem #it’s so like……personal to me bc I’ve done this a few times for poetry performances LOL #but I wanna write it!!!!! #okay rambling over sorry I just really love poetry #I also do not write enough about my sexuality and I’m so sad about it #I was so ashamed and confused for so long that I wouldn’t dare put those pieces of myself in my writing in fear of people ‘finding out’ #but fuck that #okay done seriously this time lmfao #—in store chit chat! 🍫