#kagrenac/bthemetz

[kagrena]

August 12th: Free Day

for @tes-summer-fest. Consider this a combination of Beloved, Mortal, & Profane prompts.

At the very end of time, two dwarves reunite. Follows the events of A Thesis: On Twelve Tones.

Thanks to @ervona for all her help with this.

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6E 2521, Sun's Dawn

Bthemetz, formerly, Esteemed Dwemer Architect, since turned Dashing Exile and Roguish Renegade – or at least, that was how she told it, when she was in a good mood – was enjoying the cloud-top view on the upper decks of her very own steam-powered airship – en route somewhere between the Sunk Halls of Colossus and the Anequinan Archipelago, she would have estimated – when she received the letter that turned her circuits inside out.

It arrived, magnificently, via bird. One who announced its triumphant arrival by pecking at her cranial plates.

Fine, the absurdity of it aside – it was an old-fashioned yet not entirely obsolete means of delivery, still common enough amongst the islanders north of the Niben Sea. Really though, what would they want with her, though? She stayed well clear of anything close to New Dwemereth. And why not a courier, or a tonal telegraph, or a direct apparition using the teleportation matrix, for that matter? This was before the painfully detailed instructions on what exactly to do in case the letter was not delivered to its intended recipient – which was herself, it turned out, someone had written this for her – were addressed. This crow whisperer and sendee had outlined no less than nine sub-divided steps on how the letter might be returned to Ghourrock Isle (which Bthemetz presumed was some far-flung Orcish settlement known for their overly familiar corvid population), or, if not possible, how to dispose of the letter (quite vigorously – this person presumed the recipient had some highly concentrated acid to hand) and what precisely to do with the bird that had been entrusted to deliver it (which had some quite peculiar care requirements, it turned out).

The first warning sign was that these same instructions were repeated on the reverse in four different dialects of Aldmeris, ranging from antiquated to simply baffling. Who on Tamriel was still writing in High Chimeris of all things?

(A Dwemer)

Bthemetz didn't particularly want to think about that – because if this message hadn’t slipped out from a scamp at the back-end of Oblivion (which Bthemetz wasn’t entirely discounting, she still kept a few contacts with troublemakers in the forbidden regions), it was almost definitely from another Dwemer.

(A very old Dwemer)

One who had refused to reckon with the changing state of reality since The Reappearance. One, whom, from the choice of and number of languages, was likely both a powerful and exceedingly well-educated individual, most likely from Western Morrowind or Vvardenfell – Bzanthzel or even Vvardenfell-Khoram, knowing her luck – appeared well-versed in both local politics and international affairs during the height of the First Council –

(A very old, very powerful Dwemer, yet to reappear–)

Her stomach was sinking already.

(But why would they send a bird?)

She unsealed the letter.

Fourteen pages. Careful Dwemeris, double-sided, black ink. Encoded three times over. She almost shut down, seeing it all. The exact set of ciphers she had difficulty recalling, it had been so long since she sat on the Architects Committee, but the codes themselves – unmistakable.

And oh! Oh so personal – it came flooding back, they’d used this set exclusively in their own correspondence, hadn't they? Bthemetz had all but inscribed these old codes over her stilled, dead heart and then burned them in there, burned them, along with the broken tea sets and the stolen bedsheets and the careful hands braiding her hair and the casual blasphemy and the principles of Anuic Disruption they had co-authored and their careful hands, again –

She couldn’t finish that thought. It would bury her.

She went back to the delivery instructions. Chose a language both of them had contempt for. That would be safe. Bthemetz couldn't even read High Nordic – she did not share the sender's gift for languages, and had torn their tongue out merely learning to speak Dwemeris improperly, let alone anything as useless as High Nordic, which was three millennia dead. She lurched forward, which made the bird – who she discovered was a crow named Gnorgi, could not eat carrots, and had since decided the piping of her external combustion engine was a very comfortable perch – very upset with her. Had their handwriting always been this meticulous? So carefully spaced? She remembered it being messier. She tried to picture it messier.

She tore open the letter.

Bthemetz, I scarcely know how to begin.

She tore herself away.

She sat down. Stood up. Walked in a circle three times. Her legs did not fold beneath her and her body did not break and the motor engine where her heart should have been did not begin to roar and scream and hiss. The crow, Gnorgi, looked at her curiously. She went back to the letter. Rifled through the pages. Tore through them, at random, because she definitely wasn't trying to find something, anything, any kind of sign or direct confirmation, telling her this wasn’t exactly what it felt like –

—and I find myself so overwhelmed. The world has moved on without me. So many people I treasured are long dead. I could not begin to list what I mourn, who I mourn. My life's work and purpose, stolen, defaced, ridiculed. I am a parable for children, Bthemetz. 'Beware, the Dwemer, defeated by their own hubris! Hoisted by their own cutting bells!' And yet, for all their mockery, I am struck by the way we loom in those tales like giants while calling us ‘dwarves’. Menacing, unfathomable, foreign ‘dwarves’. How much we frightened them, Bthemetz! They coveted everything we had as much as they wanted to burn it. They built empires out of our ashes as soon as they turned our names into a curse. They sought to comprehend our ‘magics’ as distant ancients, yet none of them would dare imagine what it was like to be alive at that time, after war and occupation and constant patrols around our city borders, surrounded by god-fearing men and mer who all wanted to slit our throats. Did they realise that we raced towards discovery for fear that it would be seized from us again? I cannot think too long on this, for the thought burns inside of me like dragonfire, and I become torn with anger.  I would think of you often, then, as I read these ‘Tales’ the local witch lent me. About what you lost. What you endured and what you still, now, endure. I don't think I grasped it then - how could I possibly have? I understand something of loss, but you returned to Tamriel thousands of years after your death, to broken poems and pottery shards and a world that had moved on. And you looked at us, at our world, and decided immediately that it would be yours. That you were going to live again, live anew. How did you even manage it? How could you bear it? How on earth could you decide to live, so easily? I loved you for your courage, amongst your many other admirable qualities, but knowing what I do now, I don't think I loved you enough for it. I would be lucky to have even half as much—

Bthemetz folded the page crisply in half. She clutched her right wrist. Her right wrist contained a device that could incinerate paper and parchment in a matter of seconds. The page was folded crisply in half, and was not crumpled on the floor. She clutched her right wrist.

(She was back)

Years. Years of hopeless searching – from Morrowind to Elsweyr, from Tamriel to Akavir to beyond, to the darkest corners of Oblivion and the Void beyond it, before she had to give up, give up and move on, or else consume herself utterly in the maddening glimpses of what she had held so dear. Years. And Bthemetz had never once entertained the thought that Kagrenac would be the one to find her.

She did not know what to do with herself. She clutched her right wrist.

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6E 2521, Rain's Hand

They meet again, after so long, on the last island before Atmora. They wander out to northernmost cliffs, Kagrenac and Bthemetz, two old dwarves near the end of time, for a short walk before the rains come.

The world they know has vanished: gods have come and gone, cities have sunken beneath new oceans, and magic has almost vanished – now the sole purview of White-Gold tower, squabbled over by Imperial wizards and witch-pirates who traded in rare spells. Wrothgar is not an ancient mountain range that houses a great history of Orcish-Dwemeri relations, but a string of storm-swept isles where wreck-divers and scrap-riggers cobble together something skyworthy from whatever washes up from the Sea of Ghosts.

Kagrenac tells Bthemetz of this. Of Clan Marog and the Isle of Ghourrock. Of Grasha, a teenage crab-catcher who found her washed up dead in a cave while looking for lichens, and Witch-Wife Rikka, a former Weather-Witch who stitched her wounds and tended to her after she woke up, alive again, without explanation. Spin-Sister Shufti, who spins tales as much as she did Echatere yarn and brings fresh gossip with over-salted clam stew. Chief Moraga, a rugged old Ship-Rigger from the pirate clans, now settled down and more than happy to help Kagrenac string together an instrument from salvage, who finds it greatly amusing that they enjoy bawdy old Wrothgaran love songs quite so much. The rest, who herd goats and spin wool and while they wait for the clan-ships to return from the hunt. Of how life was both tedious and tightly-woven.

Bthemetz asks more on that than anything else. Was it a home? Was it a coffin, slowly rotting? Both, replied Kagrenac. Are you content out here? Yes. Oh, very much yes. Surprisingly, yes. Perhaps in another life, the winds would have kept her here. Bthemetz does not say much, after this, for a long time.  

“Ah. I see,” says Kagrenac. There is a slither of a smile, but not unkind. “You're envious.”

Bthemetz almost baulks.

“Of what, precisely? Grey cliffs and 90% chance of rain?” She pauses. “The shipwreck engineers are quite resourceful – I do admit that much–”

“Oh, you'd be bored beyond your greatest imagination, Bthemetz. Bouncing off the walls.”

Bthemetz scoffs. It is strange for Kagrenac to see her, a mess of wires and melted-down brass, ill-fitting parts cobbled together, make the exact same expressive gestures as she did as the Brass Architect, a living work of art.

“And yet, the fine company of Chief Moraga gra-Marug does not bore you, does it Kagrenac?”

Kagrenac offers a hint of a smile. It is a sad one. Not once has Bthemetz called them 'Rena', 'Renya', 'Kagrena', or anything but their full name since they began speaking.

“I am quite well acquainted,” Kagrenac adds. “With her witch and wife, Rikka, as well.”

Bthemetz throws her head back and laughs.

“Oh, you have been busy. What a productive fifteen months.”

“I was too ill to leave my bed for a great number of them, frankly,” Kagrenac says. “I didn't know how to send a message off the island before the lunar new year.”

Bthemetz halts.

“Is that an apology, Kagrenac?”

“An explanation.” She almost knits her hands together, as a girl might, before stopping herself. They rest awkwardly at her sides. “I was also... quite upset.”

Bthemetz looks out to the horizon. The sun is lingering at its edge.

“Are you still, in your own words, quite upset?”

Kagrenac shakes her head. “Dwemereth, as we knew it, is gone. It seems senseless to still seethe over a betrayal to what doesn't exist.”

“I asked how you feel. Not how you ought to feel.”

Kagrenac crumples her brow.

“I – I don’t know if I follow.”

“It has been a year. You cannot so easily bat away sheer rage with a puff of logic.” Bthemetz says. “Surely you know this. You spent almost your whole life fueled by it. You are perhaps the most resentful person I know. I almost wonder how you can even stand to speak to me.”

Kagrenac closes their eyes. Their hands still. Their takes a step forward. Their voice lowers.

“Would you feel better, Bthemetz, if I openly despised you?”

“It would feel more familiar.”

They step away.

“For that, I am sorry.”

Something clenches.

“I hurt you.” said Bthemetz. “Terribly.”

“I want to move past that.”

“I betrayed our people. Our home. I took our dearest secret and delivered it straight in to the hands of our worst enemies. I started the damned war–”

“I know,” they say, gravely. “Bthemetz, I have always known. I stand by my previous statement.”

Bthemetz stops. She flings her arms outwards.

“You tried to kill me!”

“I know.”

It is soft and it is tense and it is mournful. The way she says it. Almost a whisper.

“How.” There's rattling. Bthemetz's arms begin to shake. “I don't understand – I simply do not understand how you can–”

She seizes up. The lights flicker off and on.

“Bthemetz?”

There's a moment where nothing is said, and all that is heard is the rumbling of the ocean, the crashing of the waves. A bird cries in the distance. A light switches on suddenly.

The next words are cut with gritted teeth.

“I – I apologise,” says Bthemetz. “This iteration,” she gestures to her brass form, “it has its limitations. As you can very well see.”

“Would you rather I visit your realm?”

“No. No, I would rather you not.” She sighs. “I mean, not to be discourteous–”

“It is fine. No explanation is required.” Kagrenac says. “And we do not need to have all of this conversation now.”

Bthemetz looks at her carefully.

“You're sincere about this, aren't you?”

Kagrenac nods.

They continue walking as the cliffs give way to the coast. They climb their way down to the shore, rough rock and crashing waves, and here, at the edge of a world neither of them really understand, Bthemetz speaks again.

“You asked me how I could bear it.”

Kagrenac turns. The wind pulls sharply at the winter shawl they have borrowed from Shufti, at the braids Rikka had re-beaded only four nights before. Something in them wants to come loose.

“How I could bear...” Bthemetz pauses. “Living in a world that has left me behind, I believe you said. Broken poetry, something to that dramatic effect. I think, well—” and there's her laugh that twinkles and sounds like the smile Kagrenac could not touch, devastating to the ears, “—you still idealise her, a bit, don’t you? The Radical Rabble-Rouser that I was. The little priest who tried to set herself and The Priesthood ablaze in the fires of Revolution.”

It is such a Bthemetzian twist of rhetoric. A glib reference to her hated past, an unspoken accusation, and a gesture that circled entirely around the point, and yet Kagrenac can only respond as they always have:

“How could I not? I grew up on tales of you.”

Bthemetz, who has heard this a thousand times before, laughs.

“I think the dishonest answer would be that I moved on because I hated that life. It's half-true, but...”

She trails off. She's rattling in the wind. Kagrenac has to ask her, before it blows either of them away.

“What of the honest answer?”

Bthemetz does not and cannot smile. There's a metal mask bolted on in place of where a face sits. Kagrenac does not see the knowing smile in the breath where an answer should be, that quick uptick of her lips that liked to say things such as: there is so much pain in the world you don't even know. Kagrenac does not see anything in Bthemetz before she gives her answer.

“I had you, of course.”

It shouldn't have felt like a knife to the heart. To hear her say that.

“And when you disappeared,” continues Bthemetz. “When all of you disappeared. And I was alone. That was when I couldn't bear it. I... I couldn't bear it.”

The wind begins to roar. The seas surge inwards. The cold is sharp in the air. Kagrenac realises, despite themselves, that they would move the mountains to the stars to close the distance between them at that moment. That they would remake time and the world itself to lessen her pain, if they had such a power. The unspeakable things they would do, yet again, for Bthemetz! Those very same things that had torn them and the world apart. And where does that leave them, now? Here at the end of the world, apart and away from their people? They are only mortal. They cannot do anything. It is bitter, it is such a bitter thing, to reckon with.

“I am sorry,” they say softly.

It is all they can offer.

#tesfest 23 #kagrenac #dwemer #morrowind #the elder scrolls #bthemetz #dwemereth #kagrenac/bthemetz #in some ways I am sad because this is the companion piece to the half finished 'kagrenac wakes up in a fishing village' AU #but also this is my favourite attempt at a final epilogue ive ever done quite frankly #tesfest23

[profanetools]

honestly there's something both deeply principled and unfettered about the way kagrenac is, on some level, beneath all the very careful appearances, constantly seething, that just hits straight home.

#bthemetz is actually the same in this regard #her airs and appearances are simply different #(also kagrenac knows fully well she's angry whereas bthemetz is just on another level of emotional denial)

[arcturite]

dweebmer that I love <3 (Radac for @idiotsyncratic0 Bthemetz for @profanetools Kagrenac for Me :) )

#The Elder Scrolls #tes #Dwemer #Kagrenac #Radac Stungnthumz

[danse--macabre]

20 questions for writers

thank you for @jiubilant for the tag! :)

tagging anyone who'd like to do this.

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

Across all accounts, 33 works.

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

203,958. damn!

3. What fandoms do you write for?

currently, just BG3. in the past I've written pieces relating to elder scrolls (mostly Morrowind), star wars, and avatar: the last airbender though.

4. What are your top five fics by kudos?

The Eyeliner Incident

seeds of darkness planted within you

To pull a heart apart strand by strand

Flowers for Zuko

Considering the Weekend

I've bolded and linked the ones here worth reading; the other two are ancient star wars ficlets that I'm not particularly fussed by.

5. Do you respond to comments?

Where possible I do! If people leave comments on older works or fandoms I've moved on from, I sometimes don't always get around to it.

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Probably Considering the Weekend. Which makes sense given it's a Disco Elysium fic about mostly-closeted gay/bi cops in love, who will not be able to break their chains until they realise the police is a violent force of capital.

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

A lot of my ATLA pieces have lighter endings given the source material is a lot lighter. The Eyeliner Incident and Follow the Rhinestones are both fics which I think could have had worse endings - but didn't. I wanted to be optimistic in both circumstances.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Luckily, no.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

Not really?

I wrote exactly one piece of smut for Elder Scrolls (The Sword that Lies Between Them), which was a fairly chaste piece of lesbian smut all about two rival queens/political leaders in the 1st era circling around each other while one is about to be married off, politically, to a man she has complex, not entirely romantic feelings for. It was my first attempt at it and I think it shows.

Since then, I've tried to write smut for BG3, but it hasn't really ever materialised.

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

I don't write these, but I do frequently think about the Elder Scrolls/BG3 crossover where my weird dwarven Elder Scrolls OC Bthemetz gets yeeted out of her universe by the nautiloid -- which, tbh, doesn't feel that out there, Mindflayers are Aberrations that originate from Far Away in at least one iteration of D&D lore.

She'd get on with them swimmingly. She's a highly traumatised 3,000 year old ex-priest + ex-revolutionary who got turned into an automaton after dying in a revolution who is 1. technically undead, 2. had her heart literally stolen for lore/plot reasons, so she is shaking hands very firmly with astarion and karlach for various reasons. She'd have the funniest rivalry with gale given she hides much of her bullshit under the appearance of being an eccentric professor, but also she hates wizards on principle.

It would be a hoot. Nobody would read it. I am not writing something no one would read <3

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

No, luckily enough.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

I've had a request for this once on a popular ATLA oneshot I made - but I don't think this was ever realised. I also had one ATLA oneshot turned into a podfic for charity.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic?

I've attempted this, but it never materialised into anything.

14. What's your all-time favorite ship?

f!Kagrenac/Bthemetz from my Morrowind dwemer fanfiction. First loves whose codependent 500 year old lesbian relationship turns toxic after the discovery of a deity's remains. Breaks down with an academic feud, treason, attempts at apotheosis, and the revelation they killed each other in a past life. Despite the fact that one sends assassins after the other to kill them, they're still utterly obsessed with each other. Literally nobody else is doing it like them.

15. What's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

The Tragedy of Lady Noriko. This was an Ursa-centric ATLA fic that explored her familial relationships & relationship with the Avatar, and wanted to provide an 'alternate universe' Ursa who would not abandon her children - for better or worse. A Covid-19 project that ran out of steam once work picked up.

16. What are your writing strengths?

I think I have a few! My current favourite thing about my writing is that I think I have a very strong sense of narrative voice. I'm able to capture how different characters sound very well. I have historically (though less nowadays) been very good at poetic prose too.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

Plots! Particularly mysteries, or plots that require lots of pieces. My writing is mostly embellished character pieces and I would like to tackle something where more happens one of these days. I also think I have issues pacing and knowing when to start/finish scenes.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language?

I think it depends on the audience, the language, the length of dialogue, and the intent. It can sometimes be very meaningful, especially if one is trying to make a point about the importance of languages, languages as a means of bridging divides, and lack of language as something alienating, potentially, or isolating.

However I will say in a large number of circumstances I find it deeply pretentious. I was reading... a well-loved literary fiction classic by a well-loved London novellist recently, and the fact that the French dialogue was not translated drove me up the fucking wall. There is no reason not to provide translation unless you want to show off how clever you are.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

When I was nine years old I wrote a diary from the perspective of Jack Spicer from Xiaolin Showdown. I definitely didn't know what fanfiction was at that age, I just had an urge to create things using fictional characters. I didn't even use the internet back then, I remember this was back on 'the family computer' in 2003 or whatever.

If we're talking about published pieces, I put some (sigh) Eragon fanfiction up on ff.net back in 2010. I was a teenager, obviously.

20. Favorite fic you've written?

it's the Eyeliner Incident. It's a combination of interesting worldbuilding + fun characterisation + formally interesting without being overly wanky. I also wrote it in about five days, in time for my birthday (<3), and because I wrote it in such a short time, I didn't have time to resent it.

A Thesis: On Twelve Tones is close to my heart as well but I have a MUCH more mixed relationship with that in terms of pure writing quality even if I think it's one of the most significant pieces I've written in terms of developing as a writer.

#not bg3

[keeninghearts]

12 perspectives

Kagrenac (Architect)

Dumac (King/Fool)

Bthemetz (Traitor)

Vyra (Self-Imposed Exile)

Yagrum (Missing) ?

Nchulem (Loyal Assistant)

Mzuchel (Elder)

GARDENER - Childhood acquaintence of Kagrenac's, joined the Skaal

FREE - Mzel, who was enslaved, fled capture,

New - Warrior

New - Train Driver

New - Farmer/Spider wrangler

New - Youth - a teenager

New - Rourken

New - War factory

New - Vampire - not taken

Those are my key ideas so far. May need refining/changing.

Particularly attached to teenager/elder/warrior as three missing perspectives. Need more working class roles than named characters.

[eteroutsider]

ko-fi doodle of Kagrenac and Bthemetz for @profanetools ! thank you so much for your support! my ko-fi doodles are open, see the pinned post

#Kagrenac #bthemetz #dwemer #tes #i haven't drawn Kagrenac in so long and I lost all my Kagrenac-drawing skills #thank you again! #arter

[the-hero-unknown]

I drew this after reading @profanetools post

#bthemetz #morrowind #tes #tes 3 morrowind #dwemer #eso #meme #someone else's oc #I lowkey wanted to add Kagrenac and Nerevar but decided against it.

[ansu-gurleht]

yeah i’m just gonna start shipping kagrenac and voryn now bc why the hell not

#we all know kagrenac and bthemetz are the otp #but perhaps......in a less canon timeline..........

[kagrenacs]

Birthday present for @profanetools of the girls, have a wonderful birthday! ❤️

#kagrenac #bthemetz

[boethiah]

i hope a kagrenac & bthemetz headcanon is acceptable but basically kagrenac wasn't actually that sentimental about spiders (mecha or real) and didn't get why half the dwemer kept them like cats until she met bthem, who just ADORED this one mechanical spider who couldn't walk in an even rhythm and kept calling it dumb pet names and ended up keeping it at home and using it as the most useless drinks tray in the world and anyway. kagrenac loves ("is somewhat fond of" in her words) spiders now.

headcanons about these two are ALWAYS welcome i love them so much

whereas almalexia doesn’t really like pets and is uncomfortable around them (more from lack of experience than genuine dislike), she absolutely babies her plants. she’ll talk to them when she’s gardening, coo over them if they get eaten by pests or if the weather’s turned nasty, and god forbid you accidentally snap off a branch or step on a flower

early on in their marriage nerevar tried to impress her by picking a bouquet of flowers from her garden and it damn near ruined the alliance

[morihaus]

“bride of kagrenac” you mean bthemetz???

#hashtag read twelve tones #*I* should read twelve tones again fuck #im just awful about reading cause i always want to do it in the morning #and then i wake up at 11

[kagrena]

@libertineangel

1E659. Leftunch

There had been no resentment shown on his part, Rtheldren could say that much.

He had welcomed her on arrival. Had offered her tea – knowing she'd laugh and refuse, making that same old crack about 'her secret supply'. Had even offered her a tour of the facility - which she'd also refused, she'd seen it at least a dozen times, she'd seen all the research facilities a dozen times, as he knew well – and he had smiled – even laughed – while they reminisced about the 'good old years', all those fond tales of her madcap workshops where he and the rest of her apprentices would toss around earth-shattering ideas like they were weightless – the world still a puzzlebox to be cracked, the brassprints to rework the entire architectural academy something they'd hash out over supper. Halycon days. Before they knew what a storm really tasted like.

"Do you really still enjoy it out here, Rtheldren?" Bthemetez had asked him, with a particular stress on really.

It was a pointed question. Rather than questioning the logic behind it - a younger Rtheldren, more easily rattled, would have asked her: what did she mean, really? That out here, out in the Velothi mountains, in a small but uneventful research facility whose only claim to fame was that it had simply been ignored by the Nords, that could have been left to rust, was beneath him? - he instead had laughed gently - she had not changed one bit, had she?

He had said: "Yes, I do. Really."

It was an honest answer. His old mentor may not understand - she had never lost so much at the Grand Debate - but what he had here, his fellow engineers and him had managed to construct out of very little, by their own hands. He had come to value it. He had come to see meaning in the rhythm of a quieter life, away from the raucous debates, where he mostly fixed things of minor importance. What other Dwemer Architects would call utter tedium.

And so when Bthemetz, 'The Brass Architect', his old and still, despite everything, beloved mentor, then asked him for his support at the next Grand Debate, he had answered thus:

"No, I cannot."

It did not seem as if Bthemetz had anticipated this answer.

"Respectfully, why?"

Why? There were a dozen reasons. The fact that despite whatever old sentiment the Choir had towards either Bthemetz the Martyr, the old folk tales, or "The Brass Architect", the respected Tonal Architect, the debate that she was planning to stage – at the eleventh hour, while they were on the brink of a war, against Kagrenac, against her Numidium, concerning ethics – was academic suicide. The fact that it had only been twelve years since he last supported someone on such a venture. The fact that Bthemetz, an mer-construct of polished brass who wore violet plumes of flame around an engraved face-mask, who had arrived from Vvardenfell's Core via airship, such was her urgency, to a minor research facility in the Velothi mountains where nothing of interest had happened in a hundred years, and seemed to be unaware of the disparity of her presence in this place. Who still seemed to think she was an exiled scholar in rags, marching through the desert. Who seemed to think Rtheldren would make excellent primary support – who had previously rejected her, that she was now sincerely turning to him for help?

He did not say a word of this, though.

Instead, he said:

"Rzarak."

He stared at Bthemetz. In the two hundred years since he had made her acquaintence, he had seen the flames that adorned her brass-face blaze in almost all the tones and subtones the ear could catch: brass-gold, violet, sharp turquoise, steady rose, rust, viridian. But he had never seen all those bright flames tipped with gold, bold and brash, completely vanish before.

They returned, a not a beat later, brighter, stronger.

"She goes by Vyra now," said Bthemetz. There was still the same mirth in her voice as before, though it has lost its warmth.

"She – you're still in contact?"

"Not precisely, no."

He tried to look at Bthemetz, to catch anything in between her features. It had always been difficult, in his experience, to read much emotion in that implacable brass-face, with its permanent half-smirk engraved in, at the head of her brass chassis. He had to imagine there was a piece missing. Something he couldn't quite unpick. Rzarak – Vyra – had been only half his age when he had offered his support, when he had watched Kagrenac tear her assidiously into tiny pieces of scrapnel.

"Bthemetz... do you regret what happened to her? To... Vyra?"

There was a short pause.

"No, I don't."

He did not have a moment to catch his breath before she continued:

"I suspect you may disagree with me – that is your prerogative, after all – but I do still hold that the architectural basis for Numidium is theoretically sound. I do acknowledge the debate Vyra spearheaded raised some extremely pressing concerns – which have since been addressed, quite thoroughly, I should add – but the architectural design of Numidium is not—"

"That's not my point."

She halted.

"The consequences Rz- Vyra faced for speaking out against Numidium were severe," said Rtheldren. "Stripping her of her chief status. Barring her from several roles near-permanently. Let alone the social ostracisation."

Bthemetz cocked her head to the side.

"You and I both recall that my former apprentice took a project made under oath of secrecy and made it a public affair. Do you simply not expect her to face any kind of consequence?"

"The Choir concurred that the matter had been kept secret amongst Kagrenac and the other Senior Architects for far too long. The exemptions for truth-ringers exist for that reason — that does not justify the severity of the punishment."

A valve released a slow, steady hiss of steam.

"The loss of her chief status was a decision her clan made independently of us. You know I – you know Kagrenac, even – had no say in that. Every decision made about what projects she could or could not work on was made by the respective Lead Architects in question – again, out of our hands. This was not a punishment, as you say, concocted in a backroom, we do not punish dissent—"

Rtheldren tried not to frown.

"I know you considered her a truth-ringer, Rtheldren," she continued. "Confronting a hostile Choir, with all those Architects' glares like daggers at her back. A lone voice in the din, trying to stop the slow march towards our self-inflicted end. At a young age, even. I understand that. I see the romance in it, even! But you, equally, must understand, to the Architects that have spent years, if not decades on projects that must – given the war on our heels, given the continuing hostility shown to our kind outside of Resdayn – must remain an absolute secret, trust is paramount. Many felt what Vyra did was a fundamental breach of trust. A breach of faith, even. That she would cast out details of the Numidium project – arguably the most dangerous and yet most vital project we have ever pursued, one that shall truly define what it means to be a dwemer – for all to see, it was, to them, heartbreaking."

Rtheldren shook his head.

"Why is it when you speak of her, I hear your voice and yet Kagrenac's words? Next you'll be telling me about her 'squandered talent' and 'waste of potential'."

A second valve released steam - a sharp hiss, this time.

"I am simply trying to explain their point of view. I suppose you think I abdicated all responsibility, don't you? Vyra can make her own decisions – and no, I would never chain her here if she felt it was not home, I don't care if others think her departure is regrettable – I am simply trying to explain– by the twelve–"

There was a sudden crack in her voice. She spat out a curse in an old, defunct dialect of Aldmeris he couldn't understand.

"She should have known the consequences. I do not even know what she was thinking. She could have spoken to me – before, before the Debate, before it was too late—"

There was a long, heavy silence.

"She trusted you," said Rtheldren. "She trusted you, perhaps more than anyone in the world."

Bthemetz stared at him.

"Tell me then. Tell me, what would you have had me do? What could I have possibly done?"

Rtheldren could think of a few things. She could have rallied behind her cause. Or she could have refused to denounce her. Or she could have stood up, in front of the Choir, regardless of her perspective, and decried the way they whispered of Vyra as a traitor and a threat, instead of a dissident unafraid of the truth, unafraid of what personal consequence it might bring, part of a long and proud Dwemeri tradition.

"You could have said no to Kagrenac," said Rtheldren.

At first, Bthemetz said nothing. Then she laughed. She laughed so bitterly, it almost sounded like sobbing.

"I pleaded with her for weeks. Don't do this. Don't destroy her. Let another speak, let another stand–" She shook her head. "Kagrenac turned around and nearly bit my head off for trying. 'She is like a daughter to me as well' I was told. 'Do you not think this is beyond difficult for me?' I was told. I didn't care. I did everything short of getting on my knees. I begged her to be merciful." She snorted. "Foolish. What value does mercy have for a Dwemer? Vyra herself would have had me hung if she'd known I'd tried to get Kagrenac to be gentle with her for even a moment in the Debate chamber. Do you know, when she realised I would be adding my voice to the Choir, she told me not to hold anything back." Bthemetz shook her head. "The pride that girl had. With that attitude, she could have almost been Kagrenac's own. Not that it would have made a whit of difference in the end, really."

She closed her eyes.

"We shall all be humbled by the Debate," said Rtheldren softly, quoting the old proverb. "Only ever humbled in its hall."

A piece of old religious scripture, part-forgotten, part-discarded.

"By its ears, by its lips, by its hands," finished Bthemetz.

It had become no less weighty over time.

#bthemetz #kagrenac #rtheldren #vyra demnevanni #dwemer #dwemereth

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i'd do a fuck/marry/kill with bthemetz/kagrenac/dumac but quite frankly my heart couldn't take it to see my special girl trounced in a poll. she is more than an OC to me. do you understand. do you get it--

#also thinking about how kagrenac looked at this and just chose 'all of the above' for bthemetz. lol. #lmao even a little bit.

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basically, tl;dr

kagrenac: 🤨😑😌 (internally raging against the enduring injustice of this world)

bthemetz: 😜😘🤗 (internally raging against the enduring injustice of this world)

#kagrenac as a hypoexpressive autist vs. bthemetz as a hyperexpressive autist #it is just genuinely funny how much they are just. outwardly grumpy (rage) vs. iutwardly sunny (rage). #they ARE the same despite the differences

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lads I have been constantly thinking about bthemetz willfully trapping herself in a time travel groundhog day loop on the final eve of the battle of red mountain with the absolutely foolish notion that she can 'stop it all' and really at that happens is that she wakes up every morning to her ex-wife kagrenac tearing her into verbal and sometimes literal pieces while ignoring literally any and every thing bthemetz ever says.... when will your faves have a divorce quite like it

#love healthy break-ups <3 #kagrenac: if i lash out enough times i will be better #bthemetz: if i get torn apart enough times it'll be better #narrator: they got worse actually

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I think following the one-two combo of Vyra AND Bthemetz both:

1. opposing Numidium (thus, in Kagrenac's mind, opposing Kagrenac) 2. making that opposition public 3. refusing to stay after Kagrenac defeats them (humiliating them, arguably) *despite* concessions made to them (which Kagrenac somehow thinks will make them stay) Kagrenac absolutely has some degree of 'Why does everyone I love betray me and then abandon me'. And it absolutely does not help with any pre-existing issues with paranoia/mistrust.

#like this already was the case before I invented Vyra as a character. but having her AND bthemetz do this? in the span of 20 years? #absolutely does a number on Kagrenac I'm sorry. #dwemereth