#kind of feeling bad that it's with a topic like this

[holyjongs]

forgive me, father

priest!wonwoo headcanons

topics/warnings: blasphemy, light dacryphilia, worship, bondage, spanking, finger fucking, name calling, dumbification

a/n: this is totally not proofread so i apologize for any errors.... trying something a little different this time! enjoy you freaks

wc: 550

• wonwoo who would wait for your presence at mass every sunday. for you to sit in the front pew in a dress far too short for church standards. for you to smile at him with your beautiful eyes when he handed you your communion. your slightly parted lips speaking "amen" after he blesses you.

no matter how hard he prayed to the lord in his small quarters in the church every night, he couldnt shake the thought of pleasuring you. he had an innate and almost primal desire to throw you around and make sure you knew who you belonged to.

• wonwoo who, every time you kneeled during service, was flooded with thoughts of you kneeling before him. praying to him.

• wonwoo who would make you call him father as he mercilessly pounds you with his fingers

• wonwoo who would make you hold onto his rosary as he fucks every prayer out of you until you're nothing but a mumbling fool

"however many you can pray is how long im gonna fuck you for tonight baby."

• wonwoo whos dark and ominous aura always kind of scared you, but it nonetheless made you that much more needy for him

• wonwoo who would wear his collar while he pounded you because he knew you found it attractive

• wonwoo who knows he has you wrapped around his finger so he makes you beg and plead for him

• wonwoo who would call you his good girl, baby, doll one second and then immediately switch to filthy slut, whore, etc

• wonwoo who wanted you to worship him just as he had worshipped god his whole life

he wanted to be your god. who you came to when you had doubts, worries, or even a bad day. he wanted to give solutions to any problem you may have. he wanted you to see him in a light of glory and adoration as if he was the perpetual force in your life.

• wonwoo who wanted to watch as tears fell down your cheeks. for whatever reason you were crying, he didnt care. he would slowly rub your cheek with his soft palm and wipe away your tears tenderly, trying to ignore his bulge growing by the second.

if you happen to start crying when he's fucking the life out of you; he'll flip you over where your faces are barely grazing each other and take the sight in. he loved to watch how good he made you feel.

• wonwoo who grew to never find your relationship as blasphemous. although he had made a pact to devote his life to god, his need for you grew stronger than that every day. was that so bad?

• wonwoo who made sure you couldn't do anything without him. saying things like "you're such a good slut. not knowing what to do without your heavenly father."

"thats right princess you wouldn't know anything if it werent for me"

"fuck yourself dumb on my cock baby i want to hear nothing but you praying to me"

• wonwoo who found anything and everything leather to use on you. whips, gags, the whole deal.

• wonwoo who would spank you as punishment. bent over his knee, sometimes making sure to go slow so you could count. other times going too fast to invoke tears from you.

#wonwoo #jeon wonwoo #wonwoo smut #seventeen smut #svt smut #wonwoo headcanons #wonwoo hard hours #wonwoo hard thoughts #jeon wonwoo smut #seventeen imagines #seventeen headcanons #svt hard thoughts #svt imagines

[sepiamestus]

Ruby's super cool and awesome shopping masterlist

Palestinian art/fashion masterlist

Clothing

Morningwitch - really really neat nature themed patterns, and all kinds of clothing.

Nooworks - super colorful, super bright, insane patterns

Witchvamp/@shopwitchvamp on tumblr - really neat patterns. Mostly darker colors- all kinds of clothing. Specifically adore their skirts, they come in all styles and sizes.

SugarPlum - super super super cute everything. Feels like a Claire's and Hot Topic crossover. More awesome skirts.

Sabor a Libertad - funky queer fashion. Specifically a big fan of their pride flag button ups.

Bagels Crafts - really really neat crochet sweaters/shirts/decor/etc.

Holley Tea Time/@holleyteatime on tumblr - really cute and colorful fairy kei/jfashion inspired shop. Clothes and jewelry!

Crowlines/@crowlines on tumblr - really really cute patterned clothing as well as stickers/keychains/etc.

Maya Kern/@mayakern on tumblr - really cute size inclusive clothes, especially the skirts. Adore all the patterns.

Accessories

Studio Nena - cutest earrings ever. I need the sweetheart guillotine ones sooo bad

SugarPopParty/@sugarpopparty on tumblr- Kandi / funky jewelry paradise. Eye meltingly colorful. So, basically, my brand

Bibipins - really really cute and pastel. Mostly pins, but there's clothing too, as well as queer and disability resources like binders and compression items. Also plushies!!!!

Planet Magica/@planetmagica on tumblr- magical girl themed jewelry. Super cute and colorful

StrawberrySoft/@miroyuuu on tumblr - super cute and colorful accessories

96rainb0ws/@kaiiat0ybaby on tumblr - really really cute kandi accessories and stickers

Misc Art

Gummygunk/@gummygunk on tumblr - possibly my favorite fiber artist of all time. The most gorgeous needle felted/crochet stuff with pony beads and coils everywhere and insanely colorful. Not a lot of their fiber art is on sale right now, but they have cool stationary/stickers/etc too!

FruitPunk/@fruit-punk-art on tumblr- another cool fiber artist, plus nostalgia themed art and accessories.

#This list is a work in progress- ill add more as i think of them/find them #If anyone i tagged wants to be removed just lmk #Anyways <3 resources for myself and friends #ruby speaks #Fashion #small business #Shopping #Idk what to tag lol #Wardrobe #Ig

[hazelfoureyes]

Could you write a short story about a trans FTM Y/N coming out to alastor?

If not I don't mind!

I'm just starting to come out to some people and want to feel validated by alastor lolll

Mon Cher

You had to start somewhere. But the issue with these kinds of conversations is there’s never a natural point in talking to bring it up…. And sitting people down can be so stressful for everyone.

But you had an opportunity. 

Alastor was known for his pet names, often throwing out a dear or sweetheart.

So when he leaned against your side and asked, “Pass me that, will you ma chère?” You froze. Finally. The frustratingly gendered nature of languages was coming to your aid.

“Alastor, I’m not comfortable with being called ma chère. Can you call me mon cher?”

His face stilled, a moment of confusion. “That’s the word for males, dear.”

“Yeah. I know.” A nervous shift in your seat, “Actually, with all things. I prefer he or him and other male coded words. Those are the right words for me.”

Humans have been changing the way they were identified since humans invented ways to identify each other. Not a moment in time has there existed a point where every human language fully represented its people. Nor that every body was reflective of the soul it inherited. 

So Alastor didn’t need long to adjust. He knew quite a few dapper lads in his day who had made the same request.

“Of course mon cher. May I have that pen now?”

After you handed it over he let the tip hover over his paper for a second, without looking up, “Did you want to talk anymore about things?”

After thinking for a moment, “Do you think I’ll struggle with telling the others?”

He replied as he began his work, slowly, mostly for show, “Do you want to tell them?”

“Yeah.”

“Well, you won’t have an ounce of trouble. I guarantee it.” He looked up now, typically disheartening smile looking soft and gentle, “I’ll make sure of it, mon chéri*.”

Before the silence went on too long and he knew the topic would be changed he added, “Did you know Rosie makes custom suits? Quite the skilled seamstress. Perhaps we could stop by sometime. If you’d like.”

Not only had he truly meant the offer, you found telling him had brought a different kind of help. Sometimes you didn’t have to tell people at all once someone was there to set the new standard. 

A day soon after came when Alastor addressed you appropriately in public, “Well that’s too bad Charlie, I need his help with some studio work.”

And the crew looked at you, and you smiled, and they smiled and the conversation would carry on as normal. The only change being a few words replaced a few others and you got a small pat on the back as Husk left the group to tend bar.

Sometimes the first steps are the hardest but get us the furthest. 

Happy pride babies! made this very first steps for many people and I hope it was something you enjoyed. Apologies for the delay, i actually didn’t see this until about four days ago.

*“Mon cher” means “my dear”, said to a male person. “Ma chère” means the same, said to a female. “Mon chéri”, resp. “ma chérie”, means “my darling” or “my dearest”.

🏳️‍🌈Hazbin Masterlist🏳️‍🌈

#Alastor #hazbin hotel #hazbin alastor #hazbin hotel alastor #hazbin hotel x reader #alastor x reader

[nerdygaymormon]

My 10 year Tumblr anniversary

June 2024 marks 10 years since I started this blog!

I originally began this blog as a way for me to follow discussions taking place on Tumblr about important topics in the LDS community, like racism or Ordain Women, which couldn't be discussed in mainstream LDS spaces. 

I soon found the LGBTQ+ LDS community which called themselves queerstake. I would message them and make comments on their posts, and they gently encouraged me to write my own blog posts to share my thoughts with others. I resisted, thinking I had nothing of value to add to the conversation and no one would be interested in what I had to say. I finally wrote my first blog post in June 2016 and it was about meeting the Sistas in Zion and sharing that I'm gay and the kindness of their reaction. That post got exactly zero likes or comments, reaffirming my belief that I didn't have anything of interest to share. I didn't write another post until August and it got a few likes and that was enough, I wrote several more posts that month and haven't stopped.

Blogging used to be a more popular online activity and I used to go to blogging sites to find blogs by queer Latter-day Saints. Their stories resonated with me and felt important. Usually they began with someone coming home from their mission, which they hoped would be rewarded by God removing their gayness, and being disappointed or surprised this didn't happen. They expressed a commitment to staying in the church, but as the months went by they more and more wrote about the hurt they experienced, the pain of church policies aimed at them, insensitive encounters with church members and leaders, and anger at things said in General Conference. Typically there would be entries for a few months and then the blog goes silent, no more entries. 

I would think of not just how important these blogs were to me, but in some distant future they would be of interest to historians wanting to better understand what it was like to be a queer Mormon at a time of big changes in society and the LDS Church. 

Most of those blogs were written by folks in their 20's and lasted just a few months to maybe up to 2 years. I thought perhaps writing as someone in their 40's would add to these voices, and for it to matter I needed to be authentic in sharing my thoughts, feelings and experiences, showing the good, bad, and ugly. I honestly was surprised and thrilled if I had a post reach 40 or 50 likes, and was unprepared for having a post in 2017 get clicked on more than a half-million times.

Since my viral post, I had a number of younger queer people following me, I still wanted to be honest and authentic and vulnerable, but I also wanted it to be a queer-positive space. I reblogged things from others, I posted lots of rainbow-themed posts so that visually it's clear this is a blog of a queer person. 

I started getting many messages with questions, often anonymously which meant the only way I could respond was by posting my answer to my blog. I soon felt like I was the Dear Ann Landers of Queerstake and have posted about 2000 responses since 2017, which averages to about 150 such responses per year. 

Because queer people usually don't grow up being taught about queer history and culture, I will occasionally make posts about such things, including about LDS queer history because as a queer Mormon, I can be proud of the LDS pioneer and pioqueer legacies. 

The person who started this blog 10 years ago could never have imagined I would be out to everyone in my life, and once I was out that I would still be a member of the LDS Church and get to meet General Authorities, that I would have my words published in books, be a guest on podcasts, or serve in the leadership of an organization (Affirmation) for queer people. It's been a wild ride.

#david gets personal

[bluemoonhoon]

secret proposals

lee heeseung x fem reader smau series

previous - masterlist - next

THIRTEEN my boy only breaks his favorite toys wc: 3.0k

content warning: misogyny, xenophobia, anxiety, jeongin makes an appearance and he is a bit of an asshole (sorry :/)

21 : 15

even though you had been getting used to attending events created by and for the elite people in Seoul, the weird feeling of being there couldn't leave your body. it felt like going uninvited to a party or meeting your ex in a get-together.

except, this time both of these things were happening in a single night.

this party was what you´ve been supposedly preparing since your acquaintance with lee heeseung. and even though you were incredibly scared to be there; the fact that during this time you´ve been able to not completely dislike the presence of heeseung and his friends made you feel a little more comfortable in spending time in this ginormous event that was making headlines in society.

In the days leading to this event, you were getting used to the company of lee heeseung in your day-to-day. from picking up food to driving you home after work. the fact that you've developed the ability to share more than a sentence in a conversation with a man like him made pretty obvious that this acquaintance had the opportunity to create a friendship.

so maybe tonight will not be that bad.

it was the first time in this type of event you went without Jiwoo. but even though she was not attending she made sure to give you a two-hour lecture on what to expect, the fact that her almost fiancé is the one that is celebrating his engagement with the oldest daughter from the Shen family who were famous all around the continent for their jaw-dropping events that matched their visuals made her the most knowledgeable in this topic and also was capable on stopping your mind from overthinking how commonly arranged marriages were between this social circle.

and finally arriving at this event left you mesmerized by how outlandish the event looked even from the entrance. you didn't know if you were in a daze thanks to the decoration or if it was because there was an incredibly large amount of people taking flash photos of whoever walked through.

you quickly made your way next to heeseung with his hand in yours to where the park brothers were sitting near the bar with jaeyun coming right behind you. and with this, the plan to "act like a perfectly happy couple" officially started.

even though you were more than comfortable spending the whole night next to the people who actually liked your company. the fact that you were personally invited by the brother of the future groom made obvious the necessity of going with him to say hi to every. single. person. inside the venue. the typical kind smile and being introduced by him to an insane amount of people who probably had an insane quantity of money since they were born talking in an oddly posh accent of small talk that was incredibly tone deaf made your social battery run out faster than expected.

finally returning to your seat next to the boys who you would now call your friends made you feel better. and the fact that this is the first time you haven't heard condescending comments directly at your face (or at all just yet) made you think that maybe the name lee heeseung had more weight than you expected in the minds of these people.

everything was going great, the ambiance was nice, and you were starting to have a good time. the occurrences of sunghoon and his comments catching you up on the recent gossip ending in jay shutting him up before people got to hear what he was saying was something you were enjoying. this was the first time you got to experience hanging out with heeseung´s friends without your own and they were kind enough to make you feel comfortable in an unknown place.

it wasn't until tipsy sunghoon started to get quiet that you realized heeseung was no longer next to you and was standing near the bar with a group of people you hadn't been introduced to. even though he was politely smiling while receiving a glass you could see his bored eyes waiting for his way to escape. you turned to jake and whispered

"should I go get him?" you said, pointing your head in that direction.

"can you? I can go with him if you want" he answered you quietly. "he just looks uncomfortable" you told him making jake sigh "he is always uncomfortable when he's with them"

"who are they?" you asked him curiously "they are seunghans friends, they are a real gem," he said sarcastically.

"don't worry I'll go" he finished while getting up.

as you saw jake walk away in their direction you realized it could look weird for you to not be spending any time with heeseung, sure, you spent a good time greeting people and sitting at the same table. but since the moment you arrived, you had not talked with him directly it was always in a group setting. making your mind up, you excused yourself and made your way to them.

only to be stopped right in the middle by the one and only. yang jeongin. you expected to see him here. however, you did not expect that man to make an act of presence in front of you ever (well, knowing him you did) but not today. just seeing him made you upset and even if you wanted to act like he didn't exist and continue your route, the fact that he was literally in front of you and addressing you made obvious the fact that you could not escape this just yet.

"yn, nice to see you here," he said as if you were an old friend.

you just wanted to laugh

"hi jeongin," you said dryly

he sensed your tense and awkward vibe (not like you were hiding your unhappiness in his company) and just ignored it maybe wanting to bother you, he continued.

"I didn't expect you to be invited to an event like this," he said in a condescending voice "Is your business doing well nationally? I haven't heard a lot from it?"

"It's actually doing pretty well, thank you for asking" you answered politely while not making eye contact and looking for a place to run to. you were relating to heeseung from moments ago.

if someone saw this conversation and the excruciating dislike between the both of you; they would realize how neither of you enjoyed sharing a space with the other.

you wondered how you might have been in a relationship with him before.

"well, I haven't been in seoul a lot you know?" he continued not letting you go. "worldwide fashion week is really a hassle. there are a lot of suppliers and stores that want to work with me. I was recently reached out by vogue france, amazing right?" he bragged in a quite innocent tone that you recognized thanks to all the time you spent together.

you didn't know what he was looking for in all of this conversation, hurting you? making you miss him? reminisce about your past? think about the dreams he achieved and created while you were a part of him? remember the support you gave him that was probably what gave him a kick-start and also the main reason he left you?

"that's great, congratu-" you tried to say empty words just to be interrupted.

"innie!" lee heeseung made an act of appearance. greeting jeongin with a smile. "when did you get here?" he asked

"it's nice seeing you hee. I got here last week" jeongin answered while hugging heeseung.

after they let go of their reencounter, sensing your antsy expression heeseung held your hand softly while standing in front of you lightly enough for his shoulder to hide you from the other man's front view. jeongin looks at your intertwined hands and then at both of you with a mischievous little smile.

"right" he started "you are dating, I saw the news, congratulations" he continued in a friendly tone while heeseung thanked him and you were only nodding with a kind smile still not looking at him. your mind counting the seconds until this encounter finished.

"are you getting along well? she is quite a convenient company right hee?" jeongin asked him directly with a condescending tone.

"what do you mean?" heeseung asked not understanding the reason for this comment.

"oh you know" he started. "she is quite a catch right?" he laughed. "even though people in seoul don't really care, she is rather well-connected in europe, I expect to see you making deals and start manufacturing in one of those countries soon, am I right?"

incredible, that man was not cynical enough, firstly he was admitting that he only had you in his life to gain something, and somehow he is proud of it?? did he truly never appreciate everything you did for him out of the goodness of your heart, but expects everyone to treat you like he did?

your mind could not comprehend his words; who did he talk to about you? how was it possible for a person to acknowledge he did not start his project on his own and took full advantage of your love for him just to achieve it without being reprimanded for being a scum of a person. was it because you had no one to defend you? or because this is the type of behavior they tend to use constantly?

"I don't understand," heeseung said while looking between the both of you. you refused to look at him trying to act indifferent to the comments of the man in front of you but failing in it ending with the beginning of a helpless look on your face.

jeongin ignored him seeing as he finally got a reaction out of you and kept going. "or is it that you are now the one getting something out of him? are jiwoo and your influencer friend not enough?"

heeseung got quiet and kept looking at you when he felt your hand hold his tighter. and before even thinking of what to say he saw jake approaching.

"mr. yang-" you started with the intention of shutting his mouth only for jake to come to save you both from this shitty interaction with even more awful news.

"heeseung. your dad is looking for the both of you," he said while sensing the tension and only acknowledging jeongin with a nod. "like, right now" he said before directing to the man in front of you three "excuse us".

jake saves the day again. finally being away from your ex-boyfriend the air you've been holding comes out in a sigh. both of the men walking next to you are aware of your troubled eyes; heeseung can feel you shaking slightly and even though he wanted to get you out of there. there was a bigger fish to catch today.

the table where heeseungs parents were was on the other side of your current location. the short walk there was incredibly excruciating and even though you started this agreement knowing his parents would disapprove of you being near them in a ´meet my partner´ setting was making your stomach hurt.

At the table, there were both of his parents with his mother's sister and his older cousin who clearly did not know who you were. (lies you were aware they, in fact, did a background check on you)

heeseung introduced you to them and after sharing your greetings you let them talk first.

"it is nice meeting you yn" heeseungs mother started. "how did you two meet?" she asked.

heeseung answered first while holding one of your hands in both of his "sunghoon introduced us at an event" he said simply with a small smile.

"woah, park sunghoon playing matchmaker" his cousin added quietly.

all the small talk that needed to happen between the table was going smoothly. even though your words were at a minimum and heeseungs father had not said a single thing.

while sensing the conversation was coming to an end, heeseung made subtle movements that stated he was getting ready to leave until his father finally talked.

"where did you say you worked, miss?" he asked looking at you.

nervous by hearing his voice for the first time directly talking to you. shyly you answered. "I run the seoul division for an art conservatorship company, sir"

and he just nodded.

what did a nod mean? was it a good sign? was he planning on how to kidnap heeseung so he could marry a more appropriate match? you avoided eye contact with everyone. your spirits were on the floor and your social battery was expiring. but at least this conversation was decent enough.

"miss kang where are you from?" heeseungs aunt asked and you got a little confused.

"I was born here," you said while not fully understanding what was going on.

"really?" she asked again

"well, I grew up in france, but my childhood was spent here in seoul" you explained, and she brightly continued.

"that is it, it's just that you don't really act like you're from here" she finished her comment.

everyone laughed awkwardly except for the both of you, and his father who was ignoring everything. you truly found her words out of place. lee seunghan, leiras oldest son was marrying a foreign girl. they arranged the couple. how was that not a problem but you growing up outside your home country was? did seunghans fiancee experience the same thing as you are right now? how did she handle it? was seunghan defending her? or did he stay quiet just like his younger brother is doing right now.

you really wanted to go home now. you expected things to not be perfect, but this is so bad. you were back to the feelings you had before sitting at this table. and finally, since this whole night heeseung decided to act and get you out of this conversation.

"it was nice getting to introduce you to each other but we have to return to our table," he said getting up and waiting for you to follow. "it was a pleasure meeting you all," you said trying to not sound choked up.

finally walking away your pulse increased and your breathing became shallower. before heeseung had a chance to react you stopped in your tracks and excused yourself to the bathroom without waiting for his answer.

getting into the lonely bathroom you clutched your chest while gasping for air. you wanted to cry and throw yourself on the ground. you´ve never felt worse in this type of events. you wanted to call someone and vent but your shaking hands did not allow you to grab your phone. you still had an obligation and if you went out of this venue alone or way too early the comments of you would be even more ruthless and not even being associated with the lee family could save you. maybe the influence heeseung talked about did not include a safety blanket for you.

you tried to calm down holding onto the cold metal of the door handle to ground yourself. your blurry vision thanks to the tears had to disappear because you would not allow people to see you like this. you tapped water on the back of your neck to not ruin your hair or makeup and with a deep breath and quiet self-encouraging words you walked out.

looking for heeseung you saw him with the same group of seunghan friends from earlier. and while none of them would´ve been able to see you directly you approached them thinking he would be as uncomfortable as he was before.

and while getting closer you finally heard what they were saying.

"if I'm being honest hee, I thought you would be dating jo yuri. I didn't expect you to be with kang yn, someone like her doesn't look like your type. but you know what they say, love makes you blind" a girl you didn't know said and the others laughed making your anxious feelings return with a ring in your ears. you could only identify heeseung reaction after those people near him kept talking.

he laughed, he fucking laughed. do friends laugh at people talking shit about their supposed friend? you didn't even listen to what else they said after your name kept being mentioned while walking away from there.

the moment he saw you from afar, he bid goodbye and calmly got next to you seeing the stage in the center of the venue where the future couple were present.

did he not care about what people said about you? was he just using you to get out of getting constant marriage proposals? you weren't really doing your job right because even though in the peoples' eyes he was taken, people still tried to set him up.

were you not good enough at helping him? did he think your acting was not good enough so you weren't worthy of getting defended by him?

you were tired of this.

as much as you wanted to get mad at him and maybe scream a little bit. you knew how this worked. you didn´t need the attention of the people here who clearly didn't like you and were waiting for a minimum slip-up to make critiques heard. you were great at acting like you didn´t care about people's opinions. and whether the rest of the night and the ride home were going to be uncomfortable was no longer on you.

"after tonight don't call me again," you said while not looking at him now that no one was close to you.  

"you don't need someone like me in your life and I don't want someone who allows people to make such comments about me". you finished while staying by his side and smiling softly at the couple doing a toast in front of you.

you didn't know lee heeseung before this fiasco and you would not know him after today.

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[skepsiss]

For the @steddiesummerexchange to @stevesjockstrap!

Batter Up: Chapter 1 of 5

Rated: Explicit

Summary: This fluffy story is about Baseball Player Steve Harrington, meeting Rock Star Eddie Munson and the whirlwind 1-week romance turned committed relationship. They're instantly obsessed with one another, but neither knows how to take things to the next level. Enjoy Steve being a love-sick idiot! (The story turns explicit in Chapter 4, other chapters are all fluff).

Read Chapter 1 below, or [read it on Ao3]

Big thank you to @thefreakandthehair for beta reading for me and helping me with my NBA terms!

Graphic made by me!

“I think I’m in love,” Steve said wistfully as he cradled his chin in his hands. “In love?” Robin asked incredulously, sipping her cocktail as she lounged on Steve’s patio furniture. She was visiting for the weekend, and Steve was happy to have his best friend around for even a short while. It had been a minute since the studio had released Robin from her filming schedule, and Steve had been keen to take up as much of her time as possible. 

Despite his excitement, Robin seemed unimpressed by Steve’s confession. “I don’t know, Robbie. It feels like it. Like it really feels like it,” Steve sighed, leaning back and tipping his head over the backrest. “How long have you known this guy?” She asked, stretching her legs across Steve’s lap. “A week…”

Steve cringed at his own reply, knowing that stating he was in love and that he had known Eddie Munson for one week was a ridiculous thing. “I think you’re infatuated, Steve,” Robin chastised, finishing her cocktail and taking the olive out of the bottom of her glass. “You always get it bad. But you should go for it— you sure he’s into you?” “Oh yeah…” Steve breathed, closing his eyes and smiling as he recalled the memory. 

He met Eddie a little over a week ago, and they had been occupying each other’s lives relentlessly ever since. They had met up at least four times in the last seven days, and Steve was planning to see him again tomorrow. 

It had only taken until the second or third meeting for them to catch on to the fact that they were both obviously flirting with one another. Knowing who was and who wasn’t queer wasn’t always easy, and Steve had zero experience in that department. Actually, it was a bit scary, but he couldn’t shake the fact that Eddie made him want to try. He could tell that they were attracted to one another, so there wasn’t a risk there. The only risk was if they were found out. Steve was trying to will his mind away from that topic, though. He was just happy to be in love— infatuated— with Eddie. Really, his nerves were the only things that were stopping him from taking that last step toward more forward flirtation. 

“He’s sort of a shit-stirrer, you know,” Robin offered. She looked amused as she spoke, as if she thought Steve’s current obsession was quaint, before popping her olive into her mouth. 

“Well, he’s a rock star, isn’t he? Kind of hand in hand, right?” Steve asked, his stomach lurching just a bit. Logically, he knew all this, but he also knew he was being ignorant on purpose to help foster his crush. “He got out of rehab kind of recently, you sure you want this one?” Robin questioned, her tone not lacking judgment. Robin had never understood his taste in men, but it sounded like her comment was coming more from a place of concern rather than a true effort to dissuade him. “He’s actually really sweet, Rob. Like… he’s a giant fucking nerd. Like giant,” Steve replied, smiling at her. “You should have seen how excited he was to talk to me about Barbarella when I told him I had seen it.” “You’re welcome,” Robin nodded, and Steve gave her leg a little pinch in retaliation. Truly, the only reason he knew any oddball movies was because of Robin. She yelped in response and flicked the toothpick that had been holding her olive at Steve in retaliation. “Okay, just… be careful, yeah? Protection and—” “Robin,” Steve said sharply, cutting her off as if she was being ridiculous. “Seriously, Steve,” Robin sighed, using a firmer tone. “Rock star life— the chances of him… you know. You know I’m not judgy of that, I just don’t want you getting… sick.” “I hear you, I hear you. You don’t need to remind me,” Steve confirmed, soothing the spot he had pinched earlier. He understood why Robin was concerned, even if the last conversation he wanted to be having was about using a condom. She was right though… he didn’t want to get all wrapped up in love and lust and throw caution to the wind. As awkward as it was going to be, he’d ask whether Eddie was clean or not before they got into anything— if they got into anything. “When are you seeing him then? Where?” Robin asked, getting off the furniture and walking back over to the little bar cart nearby. “Batting cage,” Steve indicated, motioning for Robin to make him a drink as well. 

“Steve,” Robin replied sharply, whipping around as she shook up another martini. “The batting cage?” “No, seriously,” Steve sighed, waving her off. “We were chatting and flirting and all that, it sort of devolved into me saying I could show him how to do it. Batting, that is, and he was like… all into it. At the time, at least. I think it’s just a… you know, flirty thing.” “Oh, come on. You’re not that corny, are you?” Robin asked, pouring their drinks. “You’re going to show him how to bat? Jesus Christ, Steve.” “Hey, when was the last time you pulled a lady for a week of flirting?” Steve retorted as he reached for the glass Robin was handing him. “Ass,” Robin breathed, plunking down beside him. “You know it’s not the same with girls.” Steve hummed in understanding before slinging her arm over Robin’s shoulder. She leaned into him easily as they both sipped their drinks. “Just don’t become too obsessed with him, okay? I don’t want a… fling with a rock star to end with you being outed,” Robin lamented, talking softly. “I know, Robbie,” Steve replied, kissing the top of her head. He understood… even though he also knew he wasn’t letting his brain go down that rabbit hole. He was too excited about Eddie, too wrapped up… too obsessed already. Steve had denied himself any attraction toward men for so long, even though he knew he was interested. Even though he fantasized about the kind of sex he would have with a guy, and how invigorating it would be. The fact that there was one guy all of that attraction was focused on felt amazing. He had never met someone that had sparked his interest so quickly and so completely. 

It really felt like he was in love. 

Chapter 2 (not out yet)

#eddie munson #steddie #my_writing #steve harrington #stranger things #steddiesummerexchange #baseball player! Steve #Rock Star! Eddie #Batter Up Summer Exchange

[livegastrodonreaction]

drops mmj pronounce and queer headcanons and runs

establishing right off the bat that All of Them are lesbians and polyam. so I don't have to individually list that in their bullet points

Minori

she/it/clover transfem agender

aceflux

realized her lesbianism and gender identity from a young age. seeing Haruka for the first time made her realize that she wanted to be a girl and Minori's family has been nothing but supportive. Later on, Haruka was also her lesbian awakening.

also resonates a lot with xenogenders, specifically many of the animal related ones

she is very proud of her queerness, but that pride in its identity was used against her in conjunction with the other things about her that could socially isolate her. like her bad luck, constant enthusiasm and passion for her interests, clumsiness, eccentricity (cough cough neurodivergency cough co- *dragged away*), etc. In my head this would contribute to her, in the past, being that person who everybody knew and said hello to but not many people bothered to stop and really befriend and listen to. Besides her few close friends that were accepting of her quirks (like the girl we see in Dear Me, From Back Then), I think Minori would have been kind of socially isolated - it wouldn't have affected her majorly but it definitely would have influenced her low base level of self-worth and the way she perceives herself. whoops JESUS CHRIST I went on a tangent there huh maybe i'll just make another post about this it lives in my brain

Haruka

they/he transneumasc nby

likes playing around with his gender expression but he still feels a little apprehensive about it. In general, he has trouble being accepting of themselves and their identity both as a lesbian and genderqueer person. It's very tied to his fear of change, his need to keep up a certain image of themselves, and his previous experiences in The Industry. he's come a long way in expressing himself with MMJ's support though!!

wears a binder often. "Yeah, I'm just wearing a binder to further enhance my disguise in public" -> "huh. huh I like this. oh wait. huh."

"I'm probably on the ace spectrum but I have a show in 3 days so I don't really care about that right now"

Airi

she/her transfem

started transitioning from a pretty early age, like Minori

specifically is a femme. the femme label is very precious and affirming for her

demiromantic

i'm pretty sure this is just canon but Airi ties her transness and girl-ness to her idolhood, and worth as an idol, a lot. MMJ is helping her work on undoing this self-damaging outlook on her identity. it'll take a hot minute but she's getting there :)

Sort of bullies Haruka and Shizuku into letting themselves experiment and express themselves freely. Minori then makes sure Airi is following her own advice about this topic.

Shizuku

they/she/fae (+ a whole lot more neos) egogender

They struggled with finding a label for themselves for a while until Minori helped them do more research on the topic. and then she realized that her gender is just. Her. She likes just thinking of her gender as just. being herself :) *I am we are starts playing*

plays with her gender expression A Lot. Like Haruka, but More. she does as a part of discovering herself beyond the image her old agency had forced her into and letting herself express herself more and realized that her perception of how her identity manifests changes quite often. Also like Haruka, she is still nervous and apprehensive about fully going with the flow and expressing herself.

she plays with her gender perception often enough that she's questioned whether she's genderfluid. fae does not have a definitive answer to that yet

Like Minori, also resonates a lot with xenogenders

#proseka #prsk #project sekai #queer hc #lesbian #my sillies.... #how would i even tag this #more more jump #hanasato minori #momoi airi #kiritani haruka #hinomori shizuku #aghejenrehrarebhgehghgejghehrbh #theyre very special to me #my headcanons #HAPPY PRIDE MONTH PEOPLE IN MY PHONE!! #pride

[reginrokkr]

𝐂. Khaenri'ahn survivors struggling to escape to the surface of Teyvat.

...Most people fled aboveground with the Schwanenritter, and only we are left hiding down here... ...For my mother, this is as far as she can go. Even if we went into the wilderness, we would never survive. I have to stay together with my family... ...Terrifying rumors are spreading. Those who went aboveground and returned say that they have personally witnessed those who fled to the surface being afflicted with a strange disease and turning into monsters... ...I don't know how long it's been. The surrounding area has calmed down, but our supplies have nearly been exhausted...

This is part of a journal that was found not too far from the giant door to Khaenri'ah in the depths of Sumeru and this... is quite sad to think about. That there were people who couldn't even make it to the surface at all and had to meet their end there. Moments like this one does feel unjust for those who didn't deserve to be stripped from their homes and their families, let alone be cursed.

#◟༺✦༻◞ events to be remembered in blue veins ┊addendum.┊ #for the 100th “minicanon” #this is quite ominous #kind of feeling bad that it's with a topic like this #but such is fate djfhjg #there is another thingy #that I might address if I remember #that the Khaenri'ahn knights that fought in Sumeru #had an ill reputation #because of all the rumors spread about Khaenri'ah #as it was known that monsters came from there #but it's unfair for these knights who fought #for a country that isn't their own #to be regarded in an ill manner

[schneiderenjoyer]

This part has provided and honestly confirmed an insight that's been implied occasionally, but never openly stated as much as this moment.

Arcanists are less durable.

It's mentioned a handful of times how it's important for combat between arcanists to be quick and efficient. While they can be physically strong even beyond human standards, their limits are far shorter in comparison. They're far more prone to taking physical and mental damage quicker with their quick healing/recovery to make up for it, but not change just how fragile they are.

This is very insightful too as to why arcanists would be more inclined to fight using arcanum instead of physically as much as possible. Their arcanum gives them an upper hand where their physical stamina is lacking.

#reverse 1999 #reverse 1999 lore discussion #uluru games #arcanists are so mentally and physically weak like an actual mage in DnD y'all #i still think that spathodea jumped too conclusions on ezra's intentions and it's really rough to see how raw and real that is #for a topic about building friendships between two people with clearly problematic topic on oppression and prejudice hanging over them #they're just kids. and spathodea has the weight of keeping one of the few remaining arcane cultures alive on her shoulders #it's a lot of pressure and the fear of humans erasing or taking it must not feel good to her and that blinds her from ezra's kind intention #it's also tough to swallow seeing this is a really sensitive topic and an honestly well written expression to just how painful and awkward #it is because ezra needs to acknowledge just how bad it is and even if he's not participating in the system's oppression #he has to carry the weight of generations of it and take responsibility in order to make sure that change starts happening #they're kids. God they're fukin KIDS #i have many feelings about this man. this event is so good wtf

[apotelesmaa]

I think tsukasa is a normie sorry. He does not know memes or internet trends he’s too busy scouring the internet for bootleg theatre productions and practicing facial expressions in the mirror. Guy who could tell you everything you need to know about some obscure actor/play from 100 years ago but does not know a single modern celebrity if they’re not involved in acting. He’s adding new poses to his vast repertoire he is not making banger posts online. “Based? Based on what?” Type of guy.

#nene is the most internet poisoned wxs member and she is not sharing that info with tsukasa #rui is also somewhat online but I feel like he’d mostly be on Wikipedia clicking all the links on an article for a soup #<- also the kind of guy to be watching videos on the most obscure topics just for fun #emu is untainted by the sins of modern internet she is just watching funny pet videos online #i do however think rui would teach tsukasa memes so that tsukasa can misuse them on purpose to annoy nene #sliding scale of nene in middleschool getting into heated online discourse vs tsukasa going ‘that’s boring I’m logging off’ #would like to amend that actually I think tsukasa would see a bad take on one of his favorite actors and get into a 5 day long argument #online on some random barely used Internet forum until the mods were like ok we’re locking this thread every1 shut up #mine #project sekai

[marcsnuffy]

Using Lorenzo and Charles' interviews as reference, I'd love to see any assumptions of what Kaiser and Ness would answer here

#i'm 100% sure they'll get character profiles at some point #maybe more in depth ones like the ones in the egoist bible #since these are meant to be read as interviews to the characters I wouldn't put it past Kaiser to exaggerate or lie in his #like using his answers for those questions (the morning routine/luck rituals/etc) #as reference he totally makes himself sound more put together than he actually is #even if he still sounds kind of fucked up like where's his manager. Can he say that. #anyway #i have ten million guesses for ness' favorite movie. #i could see him liking matilda. & the first 5 hp movies. & narnia. fantasia even. the first fantastic beasts movie. the wizard of oz. etc #can you tell im procrastinating/too into this #ALSO #both lorenzo and sae add comments like #'doing bad things is not ok right?' and (on the topic of school subjects and getting bad grades)'don't be like me' #which i read as both using their ng11 status to give out advice & also as something they've come to think as they've grown #would love to see a kaiser comment in this same wavelength #anyway 2 feel free to rb or reply with thoughts....... i'm curious if anyone'll get them righr #right*

[a-passing-storm]

A thing that I found out that I think is interesting (fucked up) is that the US Supreme Court doesn't recognize any kind of parent-child or familial evidentiary privilege. It recognizes spousal privilege, but not familial privilege. I think that's so fucked up!

(Also, this was from a really quick search. Don't take this information as the absolute truth or anything.)

#aromantic #aro #amatonormativity #allonormativity #dante dicit #spousal privilege #i am doing a sociology project on amatonormativity (and it's my final project i have three months to do it) #and i am definitely going to mention this in my project. i feel alittle bad for my group members. #they were like “i don't have a topic” and i was like “I DO” and they are just... in for the ride now. #i really want to go above the scope of the project and do some kind of real actual research beyond literature review stuff #but yeah. i think that's really fucked up. #i'm thinking of having a component just listing laws and such that enforce relationship hierarchy

[sevarix-blogs]

whoops random tumblr post unlocked horrible past memories about my college experience! 1000 points of damage!

#fr tho i had such a bad time in college #it was the most stressful time of my life #idk if this is a stem thing in particular but like #they CONSTANTLY make you feel inferior and stupid #like 'you should already know this' kind of vibes #like excuse me you did not teach me how to code!!!!! #so no i don't know how to code!!!!!! #i didn't know how to code until i worked my first professional job!!!!! #bc they didn't teach us!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #they just expected us to know how to code complicated algorithms!!!!!!! #like how can i have time to teach myself coding when i am so busy with stupid homework assignments on topics that won't help me later!!!! #i used to google solutions for coding projects bc i literally had no idea how to code at all #i changed a few things here and there to make it Less Good #so i wouldn't be considered a 'cheater' #why teach us complicated algorithms when we can't even code fr #sorry for the vent

[autoboros]

If you played the Pokemon DLC, what's your opinion on Kieran and Carmine :0

Absolutely love the both of them, kind of wild how my opinions swapped between them

At first I loved Kieran and really disliked Carmine but by the end of the teal mask I thought Kieran was becoming a little bitch (affectionate + positive) and I absolutely loved Carmine

Still do, I'd say Carmine is probably my favourite to come from scarvio, below Arven but above Drayton

#off the topic of kieran and carmine but on the topic of characters; #i dont know if its just because its been well over a year since i completed the base game story but #i kind of feel like penny nemona and arven got really flanderised in mochi mayhem? #i dont know if im alone in thinking this but i dont think i remember them being so one dimensional #going from characters with interesting stories to Nemona wants battle! Arven clingy! Penny is a fucking geek!!!!!! #penny probably annoyed me the most tbh mochi mayhem was weird for me but otherwise i liked everything a lot #sorry about this tangent its just bugged me so much #of course these traits were always a bit strong in them. nemona especially. but i really dont remember them being this bad

[ineffablefool]

The lil corner of the Good Omens fandom that I generally see is getting more and more into publicly declaring that That Theory I Dislike Is Bad And People Who Ascribe To It Should Feel Bad, and I don't know if it's really new, or if I was just lucky enough to generally be missed with that shit the last four years.

Different people's brains work differently, which means they will notice things, form interpretations, maybe come to extremely firm conclusions, all different from each others'. Different from mine, different from yours.

I get that some people think that they have the brain which produces the Objectively Superior theories (and/or which can easily determine which other people's theories are the Objectively Inferior ones). I just really missed the memo where Your Interpretation Is Not My Interpretation (And That's Okay) was dragged out back and fucking shot.

Anyway this blog is an "I may not agree with your theory but you may trust that I won't publicly heap scorn upon the very idea of having it" zone if anyone was wondering.

#negativity #discourse type stuff #apparently i can't turn off replies to a specific post? but i am Not Interested in discussing why that kind of behavior is okay actually #also Not Interested in hearing about how i'm overreacting #unless you are prepared to prove that you have personally catalogued everything that I have read/seen/etc on this topic #this is not about any one specific post just about the bizarrely judgemental zeitgeist #also not about any of the posts where someone is like 'huh i know people like this theory but i'm not sure here let me tell you why' #i've always seen posts like those and those are great because YTINMTATO remains intact #JUST. yeah. Not Interested in discussing this at all really #but i've seen some posts that made me feel bad for being so unthinking as to ever find merit in this or that theory #and i'm probably not the only one feeling bad? #so you can think x character is fake or y character is secretly running everything from behind the curtain or z object was drugged #(or none of these things at all!!) #and i 100% promise i am not scoffing at the foolishness of falling for such a completely unsupported idea #i PROMISE i am not going to be mean #because if i wanted to *reduce* the amount of kindness in the world then i wouldn't have created the fucking Soft Zone now would I

[revvethasmythh]

That Specific Take TM is part of what led me to stop watching critical role entirely. Wouldn’t go so far as calling myself a “stan” of Nott, but I adored her. And I adored her progression into being comfortable with being Veth. But it feels like people see what they want to see far more than they see the character that’s been portrayed… TLDR I sympathize entirely, it’s kind of miserable to know so many people dislike characters you find very compelling for how they are portrayed simply because they are misinterpreting that portrayal at a rather fundamental level!

I actually do not think a take like that stems from dislike! Misinterpretation, yes, but misinterpretation is not always connected to disliking a character. Like, as many insane and wrong takes I've seen about Orym that have popped up during c3, the OPs of those posts often do not necessarily dislike Orym (at least, so they say). They just have a particular perspective that is not, uh, correct if you actually engage with the textual evidence. I think re: this take in particular, it really does come from a sense of disappointment that the dynamic between Nott and Caleb didn't maintain course, that the Veth reveal did irrevocably alter the dynamic.

Which--okay, there's a lot going on with that, and I think people who were overly attached to the "dynamic" over the individual characters involved tend toward Caleb-specific fans (hence how he's the listless sad boi of the post, the queer neurodivergent guy, while Veth is cast as a flat perfectly happy straight neurotypical woman (that was painful even just to write, but that is what the post is positing), and ignorant of all of Caleb's sad boi feelings--which of those descriptions is going to be more relatable/sympathetic to your average tumblr user, you know?), and if you were to track fandom engagement with Nott as a character, I feel like you would find a significant drop-off of investment in her after the Veth reveal. Because she yelled at Caleb, she altered the dynamic, her story separated from his story, she moved away from him narratively, and when the focus was placed more fully on herself and her character details, I suspect a lot of people drifted away from her. Because Nott was Caleb's funny sidekick and qpr and loving mother all rolled into one, and it's just not the same if she is a married woman, a mother, with goals of her own that may--and do--cause her to shift away from her very tight relationship with Caleb. In the eyes of a lot of people, she was there to serve at the altar of the dynamic, and her role was to support Caleb. Breaking the dynamic is a cardinal sin--it's similar to the way some people react so weirdly to the Nein all splitting ways after the finale. There's that deep attachment to The Dynamic, the Found Family, that rifts and conflicts and alterations to the dynamic are distressing to people and they'll come up with similarly incorrect metas full of projections and act like they're canon as a reaction to that.

So, instead of "dislike", I think perhaps the better word to sub in there is "disinterest." If people cleave so strongly to the original representation of the dynamic, when alterations to it are made they are disinterested in letting themselves be invested in, think deeply about, and care for the new dynamics created, because they're too tethered to a thing that was already lost--OR never really existed the way they're imaging to begin with.

#also I'm sorry bad take like these made you drop the show! #stepping back from fandom can sometimes be necessary to really enjoying the media #I was lucky to have about 85-90 episode of the second campaign to watch on my own w/o fandom before getting involved #which I think was overall a good thing #but even with the current campaign if you have the right people on your dash who you can talk to and agree with #it makes the bad takes feel a lot more like background noise. annoying background noise yeah but stuff you can ignore ultimately #anyway I hope this response was on topic because it kind of felt like I was but also like I was not I really can't tell #oh also re: wondering if fandom engaged less w/veth after 47--that's speculation #informed speculation but I--as previously stated--was not involved in the fandom at the time #so I'm not sure exactly how it shook out when those eps were airing #retrospectively I think it is true that people are less interested in veth than they were with nott though #which is where my point stands #anon #asks