#like actually six years in the making

[mossbabie]

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#i did it!! #it was the scariest and most uncomfortable thing i've ever done but now it's over and i!!!! #can't tell if it's a little bit the oxys but life just feels so good and safe and abundant #none of my old fears and anxieties appear to be on the other side of this surgery #even things that had (seemingly) no relation to it #even if it's a placebo that things feel this good and fresh i'm gonna take advantage #and use this huge enormous change as an excuse to live entirely as the person i was hoping surgery would turn me into #because i think that's how surgery Will have turned me into that person #i really cannot believe this fight is over #like actually six years in the making #six years of this being The Big Thing that i Will Someday Do #and now i get to live forever on this side of it #and for the first time ever uncertainty doesn't make me shake and shiver #i'm so excited to see what changes and who i get to become

[newttxt]

this is opla!zoro, to me 🙂

#one piece #one piece live action #opla #crazy that i have to actually tag for spoilers… i never watch things within six months of the release #usually it’s like. years… #zoro #usopp #luffy #someday i might tag my vaguely shippy art #but for now im choosing to leave it up to the viewers interpretation #anyway i enjoyed opla a lot but my general opinion of zoro is ‘i can make him worse :)’

[silverpsychedelic]

I've missed him

#balanwonderworld #balan wonderworld #balan #maestro #wonderworld positivity #ive missed him ive missed drawing art for bww!! #ive had a lot of burnout with it but also ive had a new job for the past six months that i love #but its also very tiring lol #this has actually been a design for a charm ive had for like two years #i hope i can finally make it a reality #bww #silverpsychedelic

[averlym]

fairest of the fair

#hi! im alive and back and etc. #six the musical #six the musical fanart #katherine howard #thinking of that post going 'i think eventually you become the person you needed most' and like maybe that's the thing with my art #this started out as a redraw and <improvement meme> i think i've finally reached the stage where i'm making the things that my younger self #aspired to create. like i can do this now! i've reached That level of technical skill! tiny me would be so proud. it's very gratifying #redraw from august this year actually. i've made a surprising amount of improvement HAHA maybe it was the adamandi stuff getting me #back into digital rendering. i think that obsession has quietly slipped away but yknow. one never truly leaves a fandom. just less intensit #also speaking of old fandoms! we're back with the six stuff haha. as of writing i'm in the midst of blog revamp- figuring out how to chill #multifandom status doesn't mean ditch all the old stuff ! but i do feel much freer and less stressed. i think hiatus has been good for me #notes on this piece particularly: redraw about cutting hair and thinking of the lyric above. also lowkey &j ref + pinterest poem excerpts #of female suffering. and maybe a dash of amanda heng let's walk inspo. this work is really just full of contradictions.. #1. the mirror and cutting hair as an act of self liberation 2. the & is part of the lyric but also a nod to &j (in another iteration it was #pink but the white looked better) and like. &j is really all !!! girl power!!! etc. and i was like hmmmm. also matching pink shiny aes #3. the frame as a cage; the mirror as a self reflection idea (ie. saville's propped insp) but also as a sign of vanity. 4. sparkly costume #and pretty pose- read one too many poems about women feeling like they have to be pretty even in their suffering. something i wanted to #explore. and also in 5. the show itself... all you wanna do is. despite all the dancing and pink and sparkly the content of the song is #darker. and even though it's a story of her suffering it's still presented as a shiny fun pop song and ajshdhfhfh ok... 6. the lyrics fall #outside the frame. sort of a caught inbetween. sort of a trapped in the narrative and yet #within the frame it's all. vaguely handwavy breaking free vibes. like i said contradictions? #7. cutting off the long ponytail vs the pull my hair lyric at the end. yeah #8. the blocked off & looks a bit like scissors. positioned to cut right at the neck #anyways yeah irl remains hectic! but if i get around to more doodles they'll appear here :)

[gertritude-art]

sometimes when you're not a great programmer and everyone looks at you and goes "i don't know... that's scary" when you want to do something in ren'py you have to get creative and by creative i mean code that would make an actual programmer get mad at you

#i have three semesters of java and one of python behind my belt from college like five/six years ago and i haven't learned anything since #yet i stay silly #i taught myself html once for a web design class where the professor was completely incompetent i can do a lot through sheer determination #notart #well that first sentence is a lie actually. i learned how classes/children worked so i could make item objects #which is something i kind of knew but forgor

[fantasykiri5]

It started as a qpr Fabriz thought but y’know what it extends to the rest of the bad kids: I think it would be really funny if they had a complex web of platonic marriages just to reap the financial and governmental benefits. Like “if one got seriously stuck in a hospital the others would be able to visit because they’d be considered spouse and/or legal family” style, y’know? In a “benefits on tax returns and few(er) questions if Fabian (or the cig figs if they make more money?) decides to share a larger amount of money with the others because they’re considered extended family” way, and a “easy to put on emergency contact forms” way. Half their parents are already dating each other, it wouldn’t even need to be a very large friend-marriage-web! Idk man I just think it would be funny

#Kiri rambles #I was thinking about how many legal benefits there are to being married (in relation to how fucked over you can get from NOT being married)- #-and was reminded of the immense comedic potential of ‘make the relationship web EVEN MORE FUCKED UP with like six platonic marriages- #-because taxes and professional adventurers surely frequent hospital visits’ #are there probably also laws allowing registered party members some similar benefits?? #I would hope so and knowing Brennan either probably or they’ll tackle that next year but IN CASE THERE ARENT I think is would be funny :D #the reason it wa spriginally and Fabriz thought is just because I’ve seen a couple very funny posts about them being platonically married- #-for various reasons but then I realized that A.) Riz would honestly probably REALLY benefit from that financially and B.) I actually- #-forgot my second point but my first point still stands #Fabriz #<- mostly for the blocklists frankly #the bad kids #d20 #d20 fhjy #fhjy #dimension 20 fhjy #should I tag all of them? it’s about them all but only partially mentions two… #fuck it why not #adaine abernant #Kristen Applebees #gorgug thistlespring #fig faeth #fabian aramais seacaster #fabian seacaster #Riz Gukgak #kristen chilis applebees #<- her fucking middle name.. you go girlie franshice names

[formulatrash]

haven't been this fucking insanely furious at Williams since they fired Damon Hill halfway through 1996

#this is SUCH a horrible decision for them both #while i think there is a short term chance that Alex may produce a better race result #the car is pretty naff so the chances are low #and now alex has enormous pressure on his shoulders #if he makes another mistake and tbh that's likely because the car is not ideal and he's now in a high pressure situation which he #historically speaking #does not do well in #(also despite the heroics in the first year at williams he actually doesn't get on with Melbourne very well) #but if he does that he looks like an arsehole and the team look like arseholes and the press will call alex a villain #and meanwhile in the medium to long term #logan's just been told the team has so little confidence in him they believe a driver who destroyed his car will do better #which is going to knock anyone for absolutely fuckin six #like if you empathised with alex at red bull you have to empathise with logan here #mr vowles i am booking a fight i am coming to fight you

[navree]

i'm sorry but this is sending me into the goddamn stratosphere, if you send people to physically attack my mom, torture my sister, cut my six year old son's head off, threaten to murder my toddler, and then also threaten to rape my six year old daughter, i would be very happy and jovial in declaring war on your psycho ass for pulling that shit on people who literally didn't do a thing to you.

consequently, if i sent people to physically attack someone who never did me any harm, torture my sister who never did me any harm, cut my six year old nephew who never did me any harm's head off, threaten to murder my toddler nephew who never did me any harm, and also threaten to rape my six year old niece who never did me any harm, i would be very full of regret and sorrow for what i've done, because those are bad things that i did.

#personal #house of the dragon #hotd #like yeah no SHIT aegon's super gung-ho to carpet bomb rhaenyra and her side #you murder my kid and beat up my mom and make my sister go crazy and literally threaten to RAPE MY SIX YEAR OLD #i'll go apeshit i'll have the time of my life talking about how you're gonna suffer i'll be happy as a clam about it #like rhaenyra should absolutely feel bad and fear what she started! what she started was monstrous! #and by not thoroughly denouncing daemon and removing him from her side for it she's clearly endorsing it! #and people have the right to be happy about causing her bodily harm as a result for either tacitly or outright endorsing things like this #you know things like child murder and threats of violent rape against little girls #(and i mean even just the bad precedent to set of 'you did something that hurt me so i have the right to take it out') #('not on you or anyone who supported you but civilians who weren't even remotely involved in the situation at all') #like come on rhaenyra's side is in the wrong for blood and cheese and it's so fine for aegon (as the person most deeply affected by it) #to be happy about any retribution he could bring on her #just as it is both fine and actually really good for rhaenyra as a character to feel bad about it #as the wrongful party #be fucking for real

[forestgreenlesbian]

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#feel like my relationship with my younger brother is changed completely forever not to be dramatic lol but i am sad #we used to b very close but he has kind of. found his faith again and gone full missionary christian which like. i knew meant the dynamic #was doomed lmao but actually acknowledging it makes me sad i feel like i'm grieving for the friendship we used to have even though #it is literally a me problem i think from his perspective he doesn't think anything has changed. but i feel weird about everything #also his new gf is nineteen and he is. almost 25 and i am the only one who feels weird about it like i know she's over 18 but! idk i can't #tell if i'm being overly cautious or if my gut instinct is right. my sister & her husband have a similar age gap but they met when they wer #both over 30 so like. it didn't feel weird. and i didn't feel comfortable actually seriously talking to him about it apart from the first #time he mentioned her over facetime (he went to another country to do mission stuff & met her there) so like an idiot i've just been #making jokes about the age gap becausee like. thats always been our thing lightly bullying each other lol but he blew up at me and said #i've had nothing positive to say about her since he's been back home and that he thinks i hate her and i'm out of line for constantly #implying he's creepy for dating someone younger. idk i felt like such a freak idiot horrible person about it. it completely blindsided me #bc yes the jokes were coming from a place of idk how i feel about this situation so i'm going to rely on the humour-based communication #we have always fallen back on as a safety thing but i guess i was wrong or the dynamic shifted or something anyway it's all fucked #& everyone is just telling me i feel weird out of some?? misplaced kind of jealousy thing?? because i'm 'losing' my brother to his gf lol #which does not feel right at all he has dated so many other girls and i have never had a problem it is literally the age gap like i haven't #even met this girl i'm sure she's very nice! i just worry about her being nineteen!! jesus. and yes maybe i do feel some resentment around #a brother younger than me who seems to be able to live his life with zero difficulty whilst i'm stuck being this unemployed loser who ruins #literally ever friendship & relationship ive ever had but i think thats ok right like i can't help feeling that. i don't fucking knowwww #am i just projecting all these sad feelings about our friendship dying onto his new relationship or like. am i right to be genuinely #concerned she's six years younger than him and still a fucking teenager!!!!!! i don't know

[brother-emperors]

like, I'm old school web comic culture, I like handmade zines that are stapled, I just want to make comics and tell stories and the ranking system of the popular webcomic sites exhaust me to my core, which is why I like tumblr. I want to draw sulla wound fingering crassus and not think about the metrics.

#that said i'm a pretty avid reader of korean webcomics and chinese webnovels when i have the money for it #unfortunately i have not had the money for that kind of thing in like. six years RIP #its part of why i dont really plan to paywall my stuff. i want to like. connect somehow. and thinking about a historical fiction comic #in terms of 'is this something someone will pay for?' over 'this is something i FELT in my BONES' kills me #and i do not mean that as an exaggeration. for like two years i was an art industry artist and it did serious critical infrastructure damag #to me. i do commissions and freelance gigs to pay the bills but all i want to do is draw comics #and hopefully! i will make comics that people will want to support through patreon or something like that! #because i would love to not think about trying to pay my bills with this but unfortunately i have student loans #also eventually i would like health insurance. tbh. or actually. dental insurance.

[expatesque]

Well ladies (gn), it might have been unexpected but funemployment isn't starting off too bad.

#I was fired! Truly unexpected and truly proof that April is not my month! #(the break-up was last April) #anyway i was not passionate about investing which is true but also stupid because they were happy with my work #they kept telling me they knew I'd be spectacular at any job I wanted but they could tell i didnt really want this one #which is vaguely true but like i enjoyed it enough. i probably would have left in about a year but #for once! i would like a few months! where do i not have to make a life changing decision!!! #I'd like to just live for a bit!! #so I'm home now going to travel going to italy going to read and write and we'll see #s narrates her life #truly April 23-24 has been like... Blow up your life 2k19 HARD MODE #and more like have your life blown up really #c'est la vie #they're paying me for six months so I cant actually complain complain #it's the sabbatical i wanted but better because im being paif #paid* #but worse because im unemployed haha

[jestiamy]

yeah I've. been into undertale aus again. happy birthday fresh. alt ver under cut

fresh sans by @loverofpiggies . I don't think I have any extra notes. other than. yeah sorry my style has been (more) inconsisent lately ; I've been trying out stuff

#fresh sans #fresh sans fanart #fresh fanart #light eyestrain warning #cw light eyestrain #sans au #sans au fanart #art stuffs #I wanted to post something for his self-recognized birthday on the first #but unfortunately I was busy with my real human being friend's birthday. which is actually on the first #sorry fresh sans. I'll try harder next time. #you wouldn't know this about me unless you were me or perhaps a very dedicated obsessive but #I've actually liked fresh since like. 2018. which doesn't seem so long ago but it's been six years or something #passage of time; super crushing; I've done this joke rant like. nine times now. I really need to get a new joke #fresh #fresh art #fresh sans art #I like the colouring on this one. I've been trying to make my stuff more interesting lately

[lunetual]

the sooner you guys can divorce your enjoyment of creating from how many notes your set gets the happier you’ll be and the more fun you’ll have on here !!! flopping is a social construct. kill the idea of it !!! eliminate it from your mind !!! if you love it, that’s enough. if others love it too, that’s a great bonus 🫶

#i wholly appreciate every person who interacts w anything i make !! #but i just think assigning an arbitrary number to your idea of success is ultimately going to be harmful for your own happiness #esp since !! as we’ve discussed !! interactions ARE lower than they would be been five or six years ago #in terms of outside validation there is nothing like creating for a group that like three people know about but then one of those people + #rbs like ‘________ gifs ?? in this economy???’ #that serotonin rush is unmatched actually #in unrelated news im off to gif ireah again 🫡 #chatter

[felizusnavidad]

taylor swift lyrics that keep u up at night?

*takes a deep breath*

remember looking at this room, we loved it cause of the light now i just sit in the dark and wonder if it's time.

(oversharing in the tags)

#i know it's not the most obvious choice and i think i've never talked about this line before #but i think it will keep me up at night for the rest of my life #so when i heard you're losing me for the first time i was in a very similar situation #most of you don't even know i was engaged and had the most terrible break up this year #it's easier when someone breaks up with you #it's much harder when you have to make that decision #and the hardest when you know you made this decision already but you're not sure if it's actually the time... #and i feel like both taylor and i knew it was the only option but we were never 100% sure if it's time to go #if that makes sense #i did eventually #i still remember moving into our apartment 3+ years ago when we were still happy #and then spending last six months of our relationship alone in this apartment knowing it's going nowhere and i have to leave eventually #and moving out in june to my own small cozy place i live in now #but i never even got closure #so i still didn't fully recover #and it will haunt me forever #trust me this line always makes me cry #ugh #sorry for that #i still miss him sometimes even tho he was a bad person #thanks for the ask tho #i feel like i wanted to say all of that long ago and you just gave me a perfect opportunity to do that #so i'm grateful ❤️ #yes i got your letter yes i'm doing better*

[quirinah]

ive gone completely insane

#quirinahdraws #IVE BEEN DOING DRAWING WARMUP DOODLES FOR FUN AND. UM. UH. 😅 #nobody look at me for a little while. #I OVERTHOUGHT THESE CLASSPECTS. I PUT THOUGHT INTO THIS JOKE. #there r some that I’m not super confident about… tbh i think kema also reads well as a time player or isaku as doom or even a light bard #but the implications of him as a page of light r fun to think about #not pictured but kazuma is a mage of void #this shows artstyle is deceptively hard to dupe.. #the page fit is also incredibly embarrassing to draw KSHFHDIEJBWBDQSB #sounin being opposing aspects…maybe opposing classes? but not really? was not intentional but very fun to imagine #i took saburous super literally and interpreted heart in the sense of like identity moreso than emotion so he steals identity LOL #raizous is mildly influenced by his intuition mini series where he learns to make decisions on the spot and needs to unlock his potential? #i didn’t do all the six year lunar sways but it’s chouji isaku senzou derse kema koheita prospit… monji im actually not sure. #people who are good at these…wow NSHFSJEIABEKQANWA #sounin both read derse I think? #koheita is witch of space. chouji is sylph of mind #i posted the first pic and immediately got 5 pqrts JENFNEJWDNWK #anyways I’m going 2 go dig a hole and sit in it… #zenpouji isaku #nakazaike chouji #nanamatsu koheita #tachibana senzou #shioe monjirou #kanzaki samon #tsugiya sannosuke #tomatsu sakubei #kukuchi heisuke #fuwa raizou #hachiya saburou #sounin

[navree]

there has GOT to be a way to explain anne boleyn's proto-feminism and importance to history without absolutely shitting on katherine of aragon and acting as if she was basically set dressing for her entire marriage rather than a person in her own right and an important one at that, but i think a lot of stanne's are just virulently misogynistic so they're physically incapable of doing so

#personal #'anne was not catherine content to sit around and be paraded and sew her husband's shirts she hired a shirtmaker' dear god in heaven shut U #stanne's are incapable of viewing feminism through any other lens than 'not like the other girls' #like you do not need to constantly tear down all these other women from the era #and their importance to history - especially katherine #just to make anne look like some miracle #(i think a lot about that person who said anne was the most significant queen in english history) #(when she was a consort for only three years while england has had like six actual queen regnants including her own fucking daughter) #like there's this tendency people have to try and highlight anne's importance by just shitting on any other woman tangentially close to her #especially katherine cuz you know rivalry and all #like it's just deeply misogynistic i'm sorry #the inability to recognize the importance of the role katherine had as a consort and also as a person and a queen herself #it's just misogyny because she wasn't doing it in some fucking katniss everdeen way #anyway that's my contribution to anne's death day sorry girl but your fans are a fucking nightmare