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mclqren · 3 months

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CAR TALK ★ LS2

PAIRING ✦ logan sargeant x fem!youtuber!reader

SUMMARY ✦ on your youtube channel, you post q&a's in your car, and your most recent guest has people speculating about the two of you. [ SMAU ]

WARNINGS ✦ cursing

NOTES ✦ reader lives in america for the purpose of this fic. i know the car doesn't like the same in all of the pictures but that's the best i could do ahaha. the fc i've used is kiana davis, but feel free to picture whoever you want! my requests are open so feel free to leave a request :)

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yourusername first 'car talk' episode of 2024 is pending...🏎️

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user1 the weekly episodes of car talk have been severely missed this winter vacation.

user2 SO REALLL i've been needing y/n back on my screen

user3 she is actually so perfect it's scary

user4 idc we needdd a car talk x chicken shop date crossover asap

yourusername @/ameliadimz thoughts??

ameliadimz we can look into this 👀

user5 OKAY BUT CAN WE TALK ABOUT THE CAPTION?? THE RACECAR??

user6 she HASSS to be interviewing some f1 driver.

emmachamberlain YUMMYYYY

yourusername 😍😍

yourbsf MY BEST FRIENDDD!!

yourusername ALWAYSSS

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yourusername 'car talk' ep 1 of 2024 coming this saturday 👀🏎️

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user8 IT'S DEF A F1 DRIVERRR THE SHIRT IS A DEAD GIVEAWAY

user9 oh ABSOLUTELY

user10 her facecardddd oh my gosh

user11 been missing your videos queen!

user12 okay but like which f1 driver do we think it is??

user13 crazy thing is she has like five or six of them following her/in her likes right now, so it could technically be any of them

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yourusername 'car talk' ft logan sargeant out now!! one of my favorite episodes i've filmed so far ❤️

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user18 WOWWW IT WAS LOGAN THE ENTIRE TIME??

user19 I KNOWWW

user20 yall's chemistry was through the roof. i was sweating just watching the episode

alex_albon 👀

user21 LMAOOO ALEX WHAT DO YOU KNOW

logansargeant Best driver/farm animal expert/youtuber 🙌

yourusername yessirrrr ❤️

user22 HELP NOT ALL OF Y/N'S PROFESSIONS

user23 he had to make sure he got all of them in

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logansargeant Thanks again to the crazy lady who drove me around the city, almost killed me in the process, asked intrusive questions about my life and took me to visit a farm. Had a blast 🏆

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user24 HIM CALLING Y/N OUT FOR HER DRIVING HELPPP

user25 why do i actually kinda ship them...

user26 no ur so real for this.

yourusername you're so welcome!! ( i'm at ur door for mentioning my driving abilities )

logansargeant I'LL TAKE IT BACK SORRY

alex_albon 👀

user27 HIM COMMENTING THE SAME THING ON BOTH THEIR POSTS I'M CREASING

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yourusername brb, currently escaping to dc 👋

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user29 why is she the most perfect girl everrrr

user30 LITERAL MODEL.

user31 logan has now taken his spot as permanent liker of y/n's posts

user32 is it just me who wants to see logan & y/n together again??

user33 NOT JUST YOU!!

logansargeant Maybe you should come down to Florida sometime??🙌

user34 LOGAN SHOOTING HIS SHOTTT

user35 @/user34 or they could just be friends?? 🤷‍♀️

user36 @/user35 let us be delusional please.

yourbsf photography creditsss??

yourusername yes yes all to you!

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yourusername back on the move ✈️

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user40 RIGHT BEFORE THE SEASON STARTS ASW??

user41 i smell a bahrain visit!!

user42 okay but her hair is my most favorite thing everrr

alex_albon 👀

user43 MR ALBON BACK W THE EYESSS

user44 WHAT DOES HE KNOW.

logansargeant 🙌❤️❤️

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logansargeant Bahrain ✔️ Girlfriend ✔️ Mission Accomplished ✔️

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user47 "mission accomplished" THE PLAN HAS BEEN BREWINGG

user48 FINALLY MY FAVSSS

user49 crazy car guy x even crazier car lady is my new favourite trope

user50 SO REAL FOR THISSS

alex_albon already knew this'd happen 🤷‍♂️

logansargeant So you've mentioned!!

user51 he's been trying to help yall out AS HE SHOULD.

yourusername be glad i didn't kill you that time i took you driving, otherwise you never would've gotten to ask me to be your girlfriend. ❤️❤️

logansargeant Thankful every day 🙏

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yourusername new car talk episode incoming this time with my BOYFRIENDDD 🥳🥳

user52 THEY'RE THE CUTESTTT

user53 she looks so happy omg

user54 if you hurt her logan we're all after you. 😁

yourbsf so im a third wheel now??

yourusername nahh he can third wheel us bbg 😉😉

lilymhe ANOTHER FEMALE IN THE WILLIAMS PADDOCK THANK YOU LORD

yourusername i'll make you my latest car talk victim 😍

lilymhe sign me upppp!!

user55 im sensing a double date car talk incoming

user56 'the eyes, chico. they never lie' @ logan in the second picture

yourusername @/logansargeant LOOLLLL WISHING I MADE THIS THE CAPTION

logansargeant My fav ex-farm employee ❤️

yourusername still prefer the sheep to you ❤️❤️

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firegirl888101 · 10 months

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Insatiable Madness (7)

|Sagau Yandere Fatui Harbingers x Reader|

It seems you'll have to restock some food soon... But is that really your biggest concern?

Reader is Gender Neutral!

You couldn't get the words you wanted to say out of your mouth. How could you be so blind? So naive? It should have been obvious, the way their voices sounded the exact same, the way their characters acted a little too accurate for a fan...

What the fuck could they possibly want with you? You're not the leader of the country, or a famous figure, or.. or...!

"Stop squirming." Capitano ordered you, letting a brief and satisfying hum leave his lips when feeling you move less.

This is really happening. You thought it couldn't possibly get worse after seeing your family massacred in the restaurant. The clear pain and agony on the corpses faces, their screams being silenced by sharp weapons out of this world.

Perhaps if you never felt the need to play that stupid game you'd have been killed along with them, maybe that would have prevented your now never-ending grief.

Let's calm down, rethink things and gather what I already know. There's no use wishing for a different outcome when I can't change what's already been done. You thought to yourself, taking a deep breath.

These... Fatui Harbingers are after someone called The Decider. They used that... compass thing Dottore supposedly made to locate them, and as it pointed to me, they think I'm the person they're looking for. They killed everyone in the restaurant for some unknown reason and now they're trying to take me back to their world...

Arlecchino said 'The Tsaritsa has been searching for someone who can control what can't be seen for awhile now'... What could that possibly mean? As far as I'm aware, I have no special abilities or anything like that.

"You know, this is the quietest I've seen you since first finding you hiding in the toilets. It was very amusing..." Scaramouche taunted you, knocking your head.

You pretended to continue being stuck in your thoughts, and ignored him.

"Well, apart from when I beat you senseless." He corrected himself with a laugh. "How are those mortal bones you have? I should have hit you harder, that way you wouldn't be able to move..."

What a monster. I can't believe the harbingers were my favourite characters.

"Your taunting will break them if you continue." Signora rolled her eyes.

"Rosalyne is correct. Heartless puppet..." Arlecchino cursed under her breath.

"And your arrogance will lead to your demise, witch." Scaramouche snarled at Signora, turning his head to give a warning glare to both women.

"Enough." Pierro warned the two, seperating them with a push. He looked at you staring at the drama for a moment, then continued walking next to Dottore.

Capitano then placed you gently on the ground, keeping a firm grip on your shoulders to stop you from moving.

"Do not think this is a regular occurence," He sighed to himself, grumbling like an old man. "We're all a little unsettled in this world, we're usually more calm and collected in the presencse of prisoners."

Oh, no, I know very well from the game that this is a regular occurence.

"Stupid gadget..." Dottore cursed to himself, taking a screwdriver and tinkering with it.

"Dottore, you've been tinkering with that compass like a mad man since we first arrived in this world." Sandrone eyed the doctor suspiciously.

"Assuring it'll function correctly is all I'm doing."

"Deary me doctor, I'm beginning to doubt your intentions." Columbina smiled at him whilst using her body to block his path.

"You're mistaken in your intrusive comment."

"Miss Columbina is correct," Pulcinella frowned at his coworker. "It's becoming suspicious how you're delaying our departure of this world.

"Do you really think I want to stay here without my lab? Without my clones? Without my life's work?"

You could feel the tension rising as each harbinger began to question the doctor. You knew they didn't really get along in game... but it was frightening to actually view it in real life.

I'm starting to feel sorry for the fatui underlings who have to pretend they don't hear anything...

As they continued to argue, you began to notice where exactly they had taken you.

The park? It's practically deserted, nothing like how you saw it earlier in your aunt's car. The bird's which once flew for their children hid in their nests, the squirrels hiding in their little burrows for comfort.... It truly was something new.

"Hey comrade! We're talking to you." Childe tapped your forehead.

"You definitely weren't talking to me. You were talking to him." You pointed at Dottore, who's arms were crossed.

Although, now that you're paying attention, somethings noticeably wrong. The Harbingers all don't look as confident as they once did, they were all looking at you, some had hopeful expressions whilst some glared at you.

"We definitely were." Sandrone scoffed.

Next to Dottore's feet was a crushed compass... wait, did he destroy his gadget?? How the hell were they going to leave Teyvat without it?

Hold on, isn't that a good thing? That means they can't take me to Teyvat... but it also doesn't change me being held hostage...

Also what happened to the police? They left as fast as they came!

"Stop leaving us." A harbinger clicked their fingers in front of your face. "The Director asked you a question."

"..." You stared at him in confusion, due to you not hearing the question and being too scared to ask him to repeat.

He simply sighed, and realised the context of your conflicted response. "Do you happen to have a house near this area?"

what.

"Of course..." You replied quietly. You had a feeling you knew where this was going, and it wasn't going somewhere you found favourable.

"Guide us to your home, any tricks will not be tolerated."

Are you kidding me? I'm not taking them to my house!

"Do I have the right to refuse due to privacy?" You asked after pretending to think about it.

"No." All the harbingers replied at the same time.

Great.

... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ...

You unlocked the front door of your parent's house with frantic thoughts. Good thing you were gifted an extra set of keys for your 16th birthday a couple years ago...

Fortunately, you hadn't encountered anyone who recognised the harbingers. Unfortunately, however, the police still hadn't found your new location. You thought they would have thought to track your phone by now, but it seems they haven't...

Is there something stopping them? Or maybe, they're trying to think of a plan to save you?

Let's not think about that right now, right now you have unwanted guests in your house.

"I'm setting some rules." You spoke loudly, causing the whispering schoolgirls to hush.

"Who said you could set rules? Have you forgotten you're not in control once more of your situation?"

"That's where your wrong!" You smiled. "This is my house. Which means I am in control here. That's just how it works, sorry!"

"What sort of bullshi--"

"We understand." Pierro nodded. "What rules do you plan to set? As long as they are equal I will not stop you."

"First of all, my bedroom is off limits." You glared. "This is because it's a special place for me, and I don't want it to be ruined by Fatui Harbingers whose manners are that of a barbarian."

Of course, you weren't going to tell them the real reason was because of the embarrassing merchandise and a certain Childe pillow and whale plush on your bed.

"Understandable." Dottore glared at Pantalone, who simply shrugged with a playful smile.

"What? I routinely check your lab for good reasons you know."

"Secondly," You shushed the millionare. "Don't fucking break anything or take apart a piece of technology in this house. Any questions must go to me."

"Who do you take me for?" Sandrone crossed her arms.

"Weren't you the one talking about taking apart the giant machinery in the restaurant earlier?"

She stayed quiet.

"Where's the fun in that Decider? How do you suppose I understand this world if you won't let me investigate?" Dottore whined, picking up the TV remote he found next to him.

"You ask, like a normal person."

"How normal do you think I am?" He argued back pressing buttons on the remote with confusion.

"This can't possibly control a weapon, there's too many buttons..." He muttered to himself.

"That's a remote control for the TV. Well, since you'll probably want the full name: the television." You said, snatching the remote out of Dottore's hands and pressing the power button.

The TV lit up, and showed a woman introducing the news of the previous day.

"Woah! That's so cool!" Childe swooned, walking directly in front of it.

"Don't stand so close!... Oh my god, I sound like my mother." You shuddered at the end.

"What exactly does it do?" Pantalone questioned, slightly smiling whilst taking a seat on the sofa.

"One, I didn't say you could make yourself at home. Two, it displays what you want it to display. It's a type of monitor, meaning it's programmed to be connected to whatever you want it to connect it to."

"I don't follow..."

"Alright," You sighed. "This Television screen displays the programming in this little box." You guided the harbingers.

"This remote control guides the programming to show what you want to see at a point in time. For example, if I didn't want to see this woman talking, I go to the menu where I can see all the channels and choose what I want to see! Or, if you know the specific number for that channel you want to watch, you input it using these buttons."

"Like a performance on a stage!" Columbina giggled, her hands clapping with glee.

"Not exactly, but if that helps you understand I suppose the idea works."

"This is genius." Dottore hummed in delight. "But you're absolutely terrible at explaining. Let me try."

Dottore then scrolled down the list you demonstrated, he squinted his eyes at the words... almost as if he couldn't understand them. He then pressed on a random channel which almost seemed coincidental.

"Oh please don't click on that one, I'm squeamish." You sighed, covering your eyes when watching him click on it anyway.

"Dottore get that disgusting surgery off of the... the... thing!"

"The screen." You reminded Sandrone.

"That's right! The screen!"

Finally done! Updates will begin to slow down once again as school holiday's are almost over and stress begins... No need to fear, I won't stop working on this.

Little unrelated note: I HATE THE DESERT. I wanted to finish it before I move to Fontaine but it's taking me forever 😭😭

Please don't expect too many happy, nice and generally fluffy scenes.

This is Yandere, a genre which should never, under any circumstance be considered normal. It's abusive, unhealthy and leads to a lot of victims facing awful conditions which they never should or ever have to endure no matter who they are.

This is fiction that I'm writing, meaning it's all taken light-heartedly IN A FICTIONAL SENSE.

If anyone, by chance, is currently in conditions where a loved-one or yourself has suddenly become distant and/or being hurt when away from eyes please get help. Talk to them, or if it's you, talk to someone you know you can trust.

If you can't talk to anyone, find authorities who can help you. Call 999, as it is in the U.K, or your local emergency service. They will always help you, and will never deny your rights or freedom.

Thanks for reading this, I hope all who's reading knows this information already, but I thought I'd include it since who knows when it comes to where you are in the world and whether your education programs taught critical information like this.

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momthewolfstareader · 23 days

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The Evolution Of A Wolfstar Girlie

(with my fic recommendations)me aged 10-23: there will never be a book I like more than Harry Potter. I love books and read all the time but Harry Potter is above anything. Reread HP everytime I am feeling down.

me aged 24-30: I lost the ability to read for pleasure. Just read to my kids and A LOT for work.

me at 31: *after a random tiktok video* Sirius and Remus were TOGETHER together?! Never even crossed my mind!!!

But... I get it.

But like... JKR didn't write it. Fanfic is just amateurs writing, right? I have enough of reading as is, I have to read for my job (I'm a translator).

But... They promised it's a HP experience. And I do have an eReader... It costs nothing to try it.

But... What the hell is ao3? What is smut??? Fluff??? HEA? MCD??? Cannon?? AU? Excuse me, is this English?!

The following then happend over 2 months time:

📖 Reading All the Young Dudes

OK, this is really very much like HP. I am getting hooked. This is ACTUALLY what happend, right? Like this is amazingly written. How is this not a real book? (What IS a real book and how do I not know this being a book translator?!) Are Sirius and Remus getting together in this one?

Oh my!

Actually, I've not been this obsessed with a book in like 10+ years.

Reading all through the night (with three kids, mind you, so a very stupid idea)

🎶Love this music!!! Have always loved rock, Queen, Beatles, Bowie, led Zeppelin… You name it. But this makes it better!!!

Finishing ATYD: OMG! OMG! I AM OBSESSED. They need to be together forever. I need to re-read it.

A SEX SCENE in Harry Potter?! EXCUSE YOU! Like… Didn't know I needed that. Thank you.

Of course they had teenage sex at that school. Yes to a giant snake killing people with its sight and no to some friendly petting? Yeah, sure, JKR! Be for real! Never thought about it like that before. And of course they had parties. And smoked (weed) and did drugs. Like… It's a boarding school for heaven's sake! this is much more realistic. Finally know what smut is and I am here for it.

I want a cigarette SO BAD right now (haven't smoked for YEARS)

googling specifics of gay sex because I never thought about it (and I live in a very conservative country) (and like I had QUESTIONS, excuse you, like can you just do butt stuff without prep?!)

finding 📖 explicit one-shots from ATYD

📖 Reading ATYD sirius's POV:

This is ALSO good. So... fanfics on the internet can just... be amazing, right? How has this existed for years and I did not know about it?? Sirius is obsessed LOL. He fell first and he fell harder, the poor boy.

My husband is SO MUCH like Remus. (personality-wise). Guess I know my type, lol.

These fanfics are written better than majority of books I've read. I'm utterly amazed.

📖 Reading Out of the Blue and Bootleg Tapes:

OK, I needed some healing. Happy for Grant and all. But I need wolfstar more.

📖 We could be heroes (finding out what a "fix-it fic" is)

Yes! Wolfstar endgame! A happy ending! Yes!!

Intrusive thoughts: Is ATYD wolfstar like… toxic?

Are they ever happy?

Don't go there, brain!!

Trying to heal with 📖Manacled, then DMATMOOBIL.

Like Dramione. But wolfstar is far superior.

Also have to note that Draco is amazing in bed.

Not a sentence I've ever thought I utter or think. Ever.

Finding 📖 Cadence Of Part-time Poets

sceptical.

How can muggle AU be good? Don't I like all this because of the magic?

Reading it, re-reading it.

Buying an e-cigarette (cause I have to DEAL ffuck's sake and they smoke in like every second scene and ecigarrete is the least of all evil)

Obsessing.

Cannot get enough.

Best. Thing. Ever. Written.

Somehow more magic than magic U.

DOES REGULUS LIKE JAMES?

Seeing the possibilities of Jegulus (is everyone gay in the end? Excuse me, Am I GAY at this point ?)

THE MUSIC OMG THE MUSIC IS MUSICING!!! I am in love with the music! How are Marauders not a band in cannon?! Like that's obviously what they were always supposed to be! Lottie, Simon, Tonya, Tomny… They ARE cannon for me lol. They were there and you cannot convince me otherwise.

Cannot read more, afraid I will lose this Cadence feeling. Just re-reading the best scenes over and over. Stalking motswolo's tumblr. Consuming all there is about Cadence out there. Trying to talk to people about it but noone reads fanfics here!

Can we like start a gofund me for them to get therapy??? I want to see them diagnosed, aware of their traumas and forever together.

Also, why is Remadora a thing? Thank god it wasn't in Cadence (yet) but sometimes i remember it exists and like… vomit internally. Gosh, I rly hate JKR. She just did it to discourage Wolfstar.

getting to read 📖 Black Mass Over Highway 90:

Very sceptical at first.

It's American… and Marauders are essentially English. Remus somewhere in Texas… of all places? Afraid this won't be my cup of tea... Cowboy Remus?! wtf

OMG.

This scene basically porn… right? Why do I LOVE THIS?!

Remus is DADDY! Officer Moons!!! He can get it. Like omg. Cowboy Lupin FTW!!

THIS IS the SMUT, RIGHT?! Like do I even want to watch porn at this point? How am I - a cis female in a hetero relationship of 14 years with 3 kids - finding this SO HOT?!

📖 Reading Blends

Also very sceptical.

But... it's so sweet! Is this fluff? Am I discovering fluffy fics? Now, this is comfort reading! Coffe-shop AU? Like, this is where I want to die, my friends! This is so sweet, so incredibly sweet, and I DO NOT miss Voldy and his stupid war one bit, like to hell with him, he can order an Americano and Remus will decaf him at this point!

I am in LOVE!

📖 Reading Names (Blends sequel) because can you do anything else at this point?

Now this is... a whole other thing. It is fluffy, yes. But it goes deeper. And... wider somehow?

It's the first WIP I give a chance.

Cluster headaches are an AMAZING parallel to lycantrophy.

HOW exactly are people this talented just out there publishing fanfics?!

And this "slice of life" thing IS doing it for me. Like really.

📖 Reading Crimson Rivers

Is there anything else besides angst in this?

Wait, James likes... Regulus?!

discovering Jegulus -

wow. I am utterly amazed... cannot put this down at any point of the day. Reading while breastfeeding, reading all through the night. Reading all through the day. Learning how to read and braid my hair at the same time.

I keep thinking - why DO I love gay man/boys stories? How did it come to this? How is this FREE? How do I GIVE BACK to these AMAZING authors that are just doing incredible things for me? Like this is everything I've ever wanted from a book... and they're not even getting paid for this?!

📖 Reading a bunch of short fics inbetween (honorable mentions: Like Real People Do, That's the Art of Getting by, Led by Light of a Star Sweetly Gleaming, Pages of You - discovering Drarry, thinking Drarry is less angst because there's less homophobia in the 90s,

📖 Reading Only the Brave

OK, it's Jegulus, let's give it a chance...

OMG

I feel like ever since getting into this fandom, I'm just falling and falling and falling. Falling... In love.

This is so good, you guys. I love JEGULUS!

But as long as WOLFSTAR are together, I can deal (took them half a fic to get together, so please don't do anything stupid!)

I. CANNOT. STOP. READING. WOLFSTAR.

In every universe.

Wolfstar & fanfic taught me not to have any prejudice. And I also discovered that I was quite prejudiced without being aware of it!

I can read anything with those two... just don't break my heart and just let them be together.

Wolfstar made me read again and actually enjoy it. It's been several thousands of pages in a couple of months and I don't regret the lack of sleep…

They are soulmates. In every universe. I don't know what this fetish is called but I need them to be together, see them together, read them together. Love them both. Just need them to be happy.

I am completely amazed at the sheer power the internet has, that an online community has. This is my new obsession and I am utterly devoted to it. It taught me and gave me SO MUCH. I will forever be learning how to give anything back.

Thank you.

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satanicsanity · 1 year

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Guess who's got more au lore for Baker-wally!! (I worked hard on this with some friends and mutuals in the Discord server)

Tw: Disturbing themes, cannibalism, implied abuse, violence, demonic-ritual stuff, overall Just... Huge trigger warning! This is a bit dark!

The overall lore, so far:

Wally was unstable from childhood, grew up in a violent home, baking was always a coping mechanism for wally... Whenever wally was sad or angry, he would bake. This always kept wally calm... And happy. Wally found from early childhood that sugar improved his mood immensely... By large amounts. (this lead to later-on sugar pills, to keep himself happy and.. mostly stable)

One day during his childhood, a close friend of wally's passed away. Wally (being completely off his rocker already) ended up eating their corpse in a desperate and crazed attempt to stay close to them... and never forget them. But upon doing that he got a sudden addiction to it, to the taste of the flesh... and began going out late at night to kill innocent folks and would frequently draw little pictures in the victim's blood.

However one evening upon doing this... He accidentally drew some kind of demonic entity symbol (A swirl to be specific 🌀) which summed... Well... And entity. (because it was drawn in blood) which lead wally into the knowledge of the paranormal, etc etc.

Realizing all of this... He tried to convince the entity he'd accidentally summoned, to bring his friend back. But the entity couldn't do so... because wally had eaten and harmed the corpse... Meaning they couldn't be brought back, because they had no physical body to be brought back TO anymore.

Wally was discouraged by this, but the entity decided to give wally an offer... The entity took a quick liking to wally.

So the entity proposed a deal... Keep making sacrifices to them, and the entity would assist wally... Giving wally SOME of their mind and time manipulation abilities to use however he wished. The only downside, is that this mind manipulation could only go so far... And could only erase others memories for so long. (There was a time-limit on how long the memories would stay erased, in a sense.)

Wally of course took the deal without hesitation... Using it to his advantage to get more sacrifices, to keep the power the entity has granted him alive. But there was another issue, the entity only needed the blood-symbols and the life of said victim... They had no use for the victim's body. (And wally could only eat so many victims at a time on his own.)

And so, Wally began struggling to hide the corpses and the police were catching on... As the downside was previously mentioned that wally could only erase people's memories for a certain amount of time, before the memories would be returned. (The Time manipulation didn't help, because The memories were still intact after time ran out for the erased memories. It just made people slightly confused on why the day seemingly reset.)

So wally moved out of town quickly for a fresh start, packed his things and left without a trace... Left his family behind... Left everything behind. Eventually finding himself in a cute neighborhood. Wally quickly made friends with some nice neighbors... Barnaby, Julie, howdy, Eddie, frank, Sally, and poppy.

Unable to keep his cannibalistic murdering urges at bay... Trying to bake to Distract himself from those intrusive thoughts... He realized he could simply get rid of the corpses by baking them into the treats he makes. Not only that... But he could embed his new-found power into his treats by infecting it, in a sense.

So wally worked some magic when greeting his new neighbors formally, offering them cupcakes... That he infected himself using certain sprinkles (doused in the entity's power he'd been given) that would allow complete control over those neighbors minds, COMPLETE control. (the same sprinkles that are stuck in wally's hair, a hidden sign of wally's control over the neighborhood) This created a loophole of sorts when it came to wally's power limitations... The time limit didn't matter anymore, BECAUSE wally's power was now attached INTO their bodies and systems, attaching onto their brains, growing like fungus... Wally had complete manipulation over their minds now and practically the entire neighborhood, no time limit to worry about. This would make things much easier... He could create the PERFECT neighborhood! Killing off neighbors he didn't like, baking them into teats to serve, and his neighbors would be none the wiser! And if he was ever caught... He'd simply erase their minds, and reset the day!

There was one issue though... Poppy didn't take his cupcake offer upon first meeting. This is a huge issue for wally... Because now she's the only one, besides wally, who remembers things the others don't... And is aware of the day-resets. And she has a strong feeling it all has to do with wally. (which she's absolutely correct, but has no proof)

When poppy tries bringing this up to the other neighbors, they have no idea what she's talking about. (like I said... Their minds get erased by wally if he's ever caught.) Poppy knows something isn't right... and wally is aware poppy knows, as she never took his cupcake offer. She's as aware as wally is of the neighborhood resets.

Wally finds this a bit fun though... And strives to make poppy feel as if she's going crazy. He doesn't bother using his short-term mind eraser on her... He finds toying with her is far more amusing.

Now where does home (wally's bakery) come in with all this?

Home was built from the ground up by wally, and brought to life through sacrifices wally made to the entity. In short... Home basically owes wally their life. Wally is the reason home is alive and conscious... Which is a reason why home never goes against wally's word. (other than the fact wally also protects home to an extreme extent.)

In A VERY short sense: Wally's gained complete control over the neighborhood, and all the neighbors expect poppy, through the help and collaboration between him and an entity who'd taken a liking to wally after an accidental summoning.

(This is all over-explained and word vomit, so I apologize for that! If there's anything problematic about this story, I will go back and fix it! <3 I tried to make the lore as close to the overall theme as possible! This may be edited in the future!)

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hyperfixation-symposium · 1 year

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Alright yall I’ve touched grass. Therory time.

I’m going to start with what we learned today from Fit, before talking about everything strange that happened.

1. Fit remembers his past from before the island in clarity. He remembers the life he had and the reason that he came to the island. The vacation was a ruse.

2. Fit is working for someone. He is being paid for his work and has signed a contract of some sort.

3. Ramon is Fit’s priority right now, no matter what.

4. the conflict on the island is increasing the value of something

5. The federation and the anti-cheat that they have on the island is blocking Fit’s acsess to whatever he came to the island for, as well as any abilities he has.

Now, I’ve seen a lot of people speculating that whatever or whomever Fit is working for is behind the code entities. Here’s why I don’t think that’s the case.

First and foremost, it appears that they want something that the island has. The code’s expressed and clear purpose is to get everyone away from the island and back to whatever life they came from. The code is doing this by sending out messages in whatever way it can and killing the eggs. On top of this, the code seems at least somewhat aware of the federation because they’ve hacked their broadcasts.

Fit’s orignization, on the other hand, was not aware of the federation. He’s informing them of the federation’s existence and what they’ve been doing. He talks about the anti-cheat, how they’re keeping everyone trapped, ect. If the group that is paying Fit knew about this beforehand or currently, why would he need to inform them?

The priority of Fit’s orginzation seems to be a physical thing that has value. For some reason, Fit needs acsess to cheats in order for him to acsess whatever this thing is. They’re also paying him enough to clearly do something that is going against his morals, I mean, the whole stream he was procrastinating reaching out. I wouldn’t be surprised if Fit was worried this connection and his mission put Ramon in danger.

Now, onto therorizing. I fully believe that the Federation and the code are, at least currently, tied only to the island. However, there is something on the island that would hold a lot of value to someone in a place like 2B2T. I would not be surprised if one of both entities know of this value, but both have diffrent goals with using whatever it is.

The federation may be using it to experiement on people. We’ve seen the federation do insane things - bring the dead back to visit loved ones, erase memories, change the weather and time of day. The code has also shown these abilities.

Imagine how useful something with that sort of power would be to those on an anarchy sever?

On top of that, there’s been a lot of therories about this being some sort of show. It’s being broadcasted live and being seen by hundreds of thousand. The conflict with the codes and the federation and the eggs, the members, all of that could easily raise the value on whatever this thing is. We’ve seen it used here - come look at this in our server too!

Fit is still a human though. He’s being paid, and he’ll do a good job, but we can feel his humanity seep through in his message. Ramon is his first priority, he’s saddened by the others loosing their eggs, he’s grown attached to his friends. Fit has a job to do, but he is clearly stubborn with putting his own priorities first. He is helping the others, even if it is partially motivated by his contract. He’s asking them to think of the cost to other people.

I have no doubt Fit will continue his mission, but I think he will let his humanity affect it.

I don’t know quite what’s up with the book or the strange messages but I think Fit is a bit too casual about those ‘intrusive thoughts’ for me to accept that they’re not tied to whomever he’s working with.

Closing thoughts: I believe we are aware of four diffrent orginizations now.

The Federation: They are behind brining all the current players to the island as well as the eggs. They are experimenting on the island members in some shape or form and want to keep people happy so they don’t try and leave. They attempt to limit outside influence on the islanders.

The codes: Assumedly on the island before the federation, they don’t want people on the island aside from themselves and will do anything to reach that goal. They don’t desire casualities but they see no other choice at this point.

???: A group against the Federation that heard Max’s signal and gave him the skematic for SOFIA. Possibly working with the codes.

Fit’s orginization: An outside group interested in something that the island has. Hired Fit to retrieve that something unaware of the Federation or the Code. Having trouble/unable to get messages through thanks to the federation firewall.

Now the real question is... how did Bad bypass the fedderation firewall to call Skeppy?? lmao

#qsmp #q!fit #qsmp federarion #qsmp code entity #qsmp therory #God this is all so interesting to me #Fit MC from 2b2t whatcha up to...#Also. Another him is now offically a q!Fit song #I do not make the rules #I listened to it on loop writing this

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Let's say that vampirism actually enhances a person's WORST trait (rather than an innate ability or power). What would be each Cullen's enhanced flaw?

I keep trying to answer this and I keep coming back to like, twisting their positive traits into a flaw, so I guess that's where my brain is going with this.

Like, Carlisle. I think if negative things were enhanced we'd end up with someone who is like . . . 'saving' everyone. He knows best, he wants to help, congrats you're a vampire now whether that's something you'd ever have wanted or not. He'd like amass a huge coven much more quickly and before he himself had really beaten the bloodlust/thirst stuff, so either it's just way too many vampires to keep in line and they start killing lots of people, or it really becomes a cult-like sort of thing with his natural ability to draw people to him also being twisted/corrupted. Probably wiped out by the Volturi early on because yikes.

With Edward I guess it would be his judgmental streak? Already in canon he is pretty quick to decide this person is bad based on a few idle thoughts, thoughts this person might actually consider intrusive, or thoughts they would never voice nor act on. He's probably leave on his rebellion much sooner because he would be convinced he'd ridding the world of monsters and Carlisle's like, "he's just like my father." I think whether he can still read minds in this scenario or not wouldn't really make a difference, he'd still appoint himself judge, jury and executioner.

The dark side of ability to love, to me, is possessiveness and jealousy. So an Esme with flaws intensified I see as someone who is very possessive and jealous of those she loves, to a manipulative and unhealthy degree. Lots of guilt-trips and "don't you love me?" and all that. Carlisle probably can't keep a job because she's jealous of the time he spends there; the kids probably don't go to school because she wants them with her, etc.

SM seemed pretty happy to highlight Rosalie's flaws already; her vanity, self-absorption, her rudeness. But I think if her power is beauty than the enhanced flaw has to be related to that too, so either enhanced vanity or maybe she's more like a Heidi type who can lure people in not just with looks but with a little something supernaturally extra. Whether she still abstains from human blood or not, she could still use and manipulate people with that kind of power.

Emmett's competitiveness and impulsiveness could be the enhanced flaws. It would be sort of like James, I'd imagine, constantly compelled to put himself (and his family) in increasing levels of danger. It could also enhance his temper; instead of being kind of playfully competitive, he gets actually violently angry.

I mean Alice, let's be real, already manipulates reality and the people in to her will based on her visions. She does so in an attempt to bring about the 'best' future possible, but it still veers into questionable territory pretty quickly. If her sort of pushiness and desire to know and control everything were enhanced, it would take what is already sort of there in canon and push it all the way into a really dark place where she's pulling the strings and creating a future that solely benefits her and doesn't care one bit about who might be harmed in the process.

Jasper lack of self-control intensified would also be, uh, really bad. I suppose he would have been killed by Maria pretty early on if he was that impossible to rein in, unless he killed her first and then the Volturi would have to step in because there is this out of control killing machine who can't control himself running around. If we stick with his gift being corrupted/turned into a flaw, that charismatic streak that he had could turn into a power to actually make people do things, like mind-control of sorts. I personally don't like mind control powers because the lack of free will really squicks me out, but I can go with something like hypnosis, where like some people are more susceptible than others and you can't really get someone to do something they wouldn't do as themselves. So like he couldn't compel the average person to serve as his Renfield or to murder people on his behalf, but he could find people who were susceptible to the power of suggestion AND who had that darkness already in them and get them to do almost anything.

#asks

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wow!!! the immortality post was so good!! you captured every character so well 🫶 im glad that for nai’s part he stopped himself before he accidentally killed reader—i wonder how insane that would’ve made him. i’m tempted by how angsty that would be …

Anon: *Slides angst onto table*

Me: (in a very suspicious and obviously trying to not be obvious outfit) *snatches the angst and runs away with an evil cackle.*

If you can't tell, angst is my favorite and OMG I absolutely love this idea I'm drooling over it as we speak. Sadly though I feel like my last knives fix was rushed so I'm going to try and write this one better for you.

IT'S A GOOD THING I CAN'T DIE --- Millions Knives

SUMMARY: How could he ever do something like this. And why to you of all people?

WARNING: Death, descriptions of death, mutilation, trauma.

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He has always seen himself as being incapable of caring for someone else. Humans are especially at the top of this list, they are the very thing he's worked so hard to get rid of and yet, he let one walk right into his life. You slowly took over everything he did, his planning became filled with ensuring you had food to eat, finding you a place to sleep and keeping you safe. He kept you in his company, even while you slept, just in fear of what others might do to you. He knows his disciples don't like you, they'd even go as far as killing you, but Knives, he would never hurt you. Never has the day come that he has ever thought about laying a hand on you and if he dared, he might mutilate himself.

The time for that day fills with its unprecedented arrival and it swallows him whole, eating him alive with guilt. In this moment he stands frozen, unable to think or move. Beyond the door he attacked had come a name, his name, in your voice of all things. In his worst nightmares he's dreamt of this but... was it really you?

Just hours before this he had seen a horrific sight, one he hopes will be wiped from his mind forever, an image of you laying in a pool of blood. Impaling every open spot of your skin is nails, each of them driving through to the floor and mangling you beyond recognition. Maybe it wasn't you that he saw, his mind was just playing a trick on him. At this point, he's too scared to break himself from this trance, he doesn't want to know what dead body lies outside that door. He knows he has to check it soon or he might lose his mind at the thought of killing you.

Pulling out of the trance, his tendrils hook the door and relieve it from its place upon the hinges. It snaps with a loud crack as he pulls it away and sets it to the side. Even with the ability to see the body laying in his doorway, Knives is too scared to look. He refuses to bring his eyes forward, and looks away. If the blood seeping into the carpet was yours, what would he do? Would he actually kill himself? Without you, what would he do?

Knives begins to gather the courage to look down at the body in his doorway, casting his eyes to the figure, it runs his blood dry.

The blood covers the whole room outside, it makes his stomach churn at the sight. Saliva fills his mouth, Knives keels over from the sudden intrusion and opens his mouth to let his stomachs contents pour out. Without it being any substantial food at all, it burns the back of his throat with bial. Tears build and blur his eyesight, keeping him from making out the full body, but he didn't have to look that long to know who it was.

Falling apart around him feels like the world, his last line of sanity, the only thing he cared for has been stripped away and by his own hands. If only he had inspected the first body closer he might not have killed you in a fit of rage, he might be able to salvage any sanity still left over, but it's long demented. Simmering in the juices of hysteria.

To his knees, he falls. First Vash and now you. This couldn't really be happening could it? The body before him smells of you, but how could it really be you? Why did you step in at the wrong time? Why did he fail?

From his throat erupts a scream of raw, unadulterated, pain. It's sad and pulled with sorrow before it delves back down into a low sinister cackle. Hysterical to no end, Knives finally loses it. Everything he's lived for up until now could go to waste, and everyone else better swear to God for their safety, if anyone touches you he might not step back over the edge. Any drop of sanity he might just have left, will be gone. Not even Vash would be able to bring him back.

#millions knives x you #millions knives x reader #knives x reader #millions knives #trigun stampede #trigun x reader #trigun stampede x reader

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paintingwhiteceilings · 10 months

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❃EXO's chances of surviving a zombie apocalypse❃

A/N: because why have your first post be romantic or suggestive when it can be unserious and downright weird.

Xiumin/Minseok: 9/10

✾ Let’s be honest, this man is way too good at sports not to survive far into a zombie apocalypse. Pretty sure those skills will translate and be useful in some way. He can outrun them so easily that he never truly finds himself in any danger.

✾ Xiumin actually possesses functional brain cells and a good dose of common sense which means he makes good, well thought out, decisions. Unlike the beagle line, he won’t get himself stupidly killed.

✾ Despite all the chaos, he is incredibly organized, keeping precise track of what he has and needs.

✾ He can properly take care of himself and could run this thing solo. He is not dependent on others to do things for him and he strikes me as someone who is perfectly content to be on his own. The only reason he would team up with the others is for the company and because he finds their idiocy amusing.

✾ He has the added bonus that the zombies think he is adorable, like a pet, so they will keep him alive even when he does get caught.

Suho/Junmyeon: 5/10

✾ Remember that time when Suho fell asleep during carting? Yeah, he is beyond exhausted before the apocalypse even starts and will probably die by accidentally falling asleep. Suho will try to ‘rest his eyes’ and before he knows it a zombie is gnawing on his arm.

✾ Honestly trying his hardest to keep the rest of the members from dying, but instead of appreciating his efforts, they keep making fun of him for it. They are really testing his patience but he feels too responsible for their safety to leave them to fend for themselves.

✾ Not that anything he says matters, they never truly listen to him so instead he has to be the one to get them out of the dangerous situations they get themselves in.

✾ If he doesn’t get eaten due to his permanent exhaustion, he would be the type to accept his fate. The members will drive him insane to the point where he will simply give up and walk into a hoard of zombies with open arms.

✾ If you pair him up with his babies Kai and Sehun his survival rate somehow increases. Nobody touches his babies.

Baekhyun: ?/10

✾ Okay, so he either survives until the end or does something stupid and gets himself killed. His survival rate is either 10/10 or 0/10, there is no in-between.

✾ Like Baekhyun is an ace in most games so he has the ability to outsmart the apocalypse if he puts in the effort. He is competitive enough to take it seriously, too.

✾ His survival truly depends on whether he gives in to his intrusive thoughts and let’s be fair, he has many and zero impulse control.

✾ He would, for instance, believe that he can successfully pretend to be a zombie to blend in with them. He has a lot of dumb ideas and will either act on it himself or get someone else to try it out.

✾ Obviously, his plans wouldn’t work and he, or his chosen guinea pig, would get eaten. Then again, it is Baekhyun and somehow he always manages to come out on top, so who knows, he might survive.

Chen/Jongdae: 6.5/10

✾ Okay, this man is a father so he gets to enjoy the father buff. If his family is with him, he is near unstoppable. Chen can be competitive and has a lot of energy, so technically his chances aren’t too bad.

✾ His main issue is that, well, every zombie and their mother can hear him from the other side of the planet. He is absolutely oblivious as to why the zombies keep finding him.

✾ Like Chen, please use your inner voice, zombies are not deaf and you are giving them your location whenever you talk.

✾ Will ‘accidentally’ push Chanyeol into a zombie when he jokes about being the C in CBX and finally find peace. At this point, he kind of deserves it.

Chanyeol: -10/10

✾ Hear me out, this man is a mess.

✾ Technically, he could survive but he is another one that for sure will listen to his intrusive thoughts. Like let’s be fair, Chanyeol has mastered an array of weird skills just because he can’t stand being bad at something; he will be just as determined to figure out how to survive during an apocalypse.

✾ The type to “I saw this in a film” and try it. He will quickly discover that most of it won’t work because those are movies and not real life. Still, he will have the biggest motivation to figure things out, even if most of his sources are fiction.

✾ The problem is that he is way too much into this whole apocalypse scenario. He will try to out-apocalypse the others or will make up some sort of stupid competition to kill time because sitting still for five minutes is for losers.

✾ He comes up with the “Who can get closest to the zombie without getting killed” game. Baekhyun might have helped.

✾ To be honest, it doesn’t quite matter how good his cards are in the context of a zombie apocalypse, he will probably die within a day because he has two left feet and a very intimate relationship with the floor.

D.O./Kyungsoo: 7/10

✾ Pair him up with another member, and suddenly their chances increase.

✾ His cooking skills make him so incredibly valuable. He will make sure no one starves, and can make a decent meal out of pretty much anything you give him.

✾ The others try their hardest to keep him alive because being in an apocalypse does not mean one has to eat grass.

✾ Then again, he would not hesitate to sacrifice the others to the zombies if they annoy him.

✾ The only one able to keep the beagle line from doing stupid shit with his threats.

✾ You can’t really count on him outrunning the zombies, though. We have all seen this man attempt to play soccer, he is not made for physical activity. He will not survive with his physical skills and will absolutely accept his fate rather than try.

Kai/Jongin: -100000000/10

✾ Listen, this man will die within the first five seconds of the apocalypse.

✾ It is not a question of whether he dies, more so than how. There are so many ways that he can get himself killed, even without the apocalypse playing a major factor.

✾ He could give himself food poisoning when he tries to cook or trip over his own feet when he tries to run away from the zombies. He does not really have a great sense of self-preservation.

✾ 10000% the type to think that they could befriend the zombies because “zombies are people too.” Luckily for him, the zombies do think he is adorable and won’t immediately eat him when he gets too close.

✾ But yeah, if it isn’t for the others constantly monitoring him, he is dead.

Sehun: 1000/10

✾ Last to die because his members will do everything they can to keep him alive. Maknae privileges and whatnot.

✾ He is very much dependent on his members to do basically anything, but the thing is, they would do it without question.

✾ He will complain the entire time and whine constantly.

✾ If Suho dies, you might as well kill him too. How is he supposed to sleep without his emotional-support-hyung??? So yeah, the only way to really decrease his survival rate is to eliminate his members.

✾ Honestly, we all are simply living in his world, what Sehun wants, Sehun gets. It might even extend to the zombies. He would just ask them to stop trying to eat him and they would oblige because, well, Sehun asked.

✾ He is 1000% responsible for the cure being found. It has nothing to do with Sehun finding it himself. Instead, when/if he gets bitten, the members will stop at nothing to find a way to rid him of the disease. Sleep? Who needs sleep when Oh Sehun is dying!?

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trickstarbrave · 4 months

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thinking abt serial experiments lain and dagoth ur

i have many ideas but putting them into something coherent is. quite difficult. dagoth ur is fundamentally wrong about the nature of reality with him at the center. but i do think he is innately tied to a collective unconscious. the dream sleeve, as it were.

being tied to the collective unconscious comes w a lot of things. being able to pull on strings in people's minds. effect the id, and then the ego of the mind. free will means very little if you cannot see the strings other people are pulling from behind the scenes and cannot comprehend that you also have strings that can be pulled.

at first he was content to be voryn dagoth who is not yet dagoth ur, ruminating on his nature and tugging strings. the world seems much smaller from there, easy to control, and he becomes drunk on the feeling until he is convinced he is a god. his only other path is to admit he doesn't really exist either, though, so it's what he goes with.

so instead, he is real. he is the only one dreaming. and in this dream he might as well be god. everyone else is just a fragment of 'his' subconscious, like fictional people in dreams to us are technically still just us. when they act against his will they are an annoyance, like a nagging, intrusive thought he wants to get rid of.

however he wasn't content just floating along and tugging strings. it can only do so much, and other entities keep meddling. operating at a subconscious level, he isn't at his "full power". he's tired of simply "dreaming" and wants to escape to somewhere real. so he decides a body will be useful. the flesh helps ground the ego and helps you understand the divine. in its own way, the flesh is needed to process divinity and supersede reality. and the best way to fully absorb the stray parts of his subconscious (which is what he sees other people as) is to also connect them via flesh. hence the divine disease

the divine disease acts as a mini anti-CHIM. that being they realize through madness they arent real and dagoth ur insists that is because they are him. it still has the effects of CHIM, while he tries desperately to keep them tethered to reality. he has to kill their egos slowly and carefully. many people cannot handle it though; their bodies literally begin rotting alive, unable to die and unable to disappear from reality and the collective memory. they are trapped and stuck, forced to languish as their subconsciousness rots into their ego and they become just mindless extensions of dagoth ur.

of course, this does mean i dont think dagoth ur can be really 'killed'. not in a meaningful way. he lives in the subconscious unable to be fully destroyed. cutting him off from the heart of lorkhan just limits his ability to reform a physical body and thus stops him from spreading corprus or continuing on his plans. but he could very well still be there. still living in the collective subconscious. still pulling at people's strings, making them believe it was their own thoughts, their own opinions, their own beliefs and discoveries and moral compass driving them to do certain things and commit certain acts.

what an uncomfortable thought.

#dagoth ur #voryn dagoth #morrowind #tes lore #im sorry for rambling like an insane person thats just how serial experiments lain is

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hi kat, i hope it's okay to vent, this has just been going through my head for about a week and i don't know who to talk to about it and the guilt is killing me. i've been with my boyfriend for about 7 years and i love him but we've been struggling a bit recently because he has been stressed about work and it's affecting our relationship a little bit. i have ocd and intrusive thoughts about our relationship and romance in general do effect me a lot. i have a co-worker who i'm not particularly close to but i always thought was kinda cute which is relatively normal to acknowledge i think and this is all i thought for quite a while but last week he was joking with me and being nice and all of a sudden my brain just suddenly latched onto him and developed a really really overwhelming crush even though i still love my boyfriend and i feel so guilty about it. it has become obsessive, i think about him constantly even when i dont want to and have unwanted images flashing in my brain of us together basically like an intrusive thought occuring and I'm basically having constant intrusive thoughts of cheating on my boyfriend with him even though that thought is horrible to me. the problem is that i feel like some of it might be genuine curiosity because i have never been with anyone else and i do wonder if maybe there is someone better sometimes but i do still love my boyfriend but i get anxious that maybe he isn't the one. but that could also be the ocd talking. I get the vibe that the coworker could maybe slightly like me or I could just be trying to see things that aren't there, I don't know. I don't think a relationship between us even would work if we were together, I barely know the guy honestly and it would be very complicated but I feel so guilty that I'm even considering it in the first place you know? I don't really know if there is a solution for this I just need to get ut out there so the guilt of this doesn't eat me alive.

First of all, your thoughts and feelings by themselves aren't harming anyone. You don't have to police your thoughts and feelings, and you likely can't. Obviously you gotta try to figure out what you want to DO about this inner conflict, but until you DO something, you are not being a bad person who's harming people. A thought can't hurt anyone but yourself. And being confused and having doubts isn't a crime. It's okay. Just think about your ACTIONS. That's where you find your power and ability to affect others. It's not inside your head. What's in your head is yours alone

#chat with kat #cheating tw #internalized ableism tw #obsessive thinking tw

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afterthefeast · 7 months

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re lrb in any case to me astarion’s arc is less about regaining agency than becoming aware that he already has it and has to act like that. there's a distinction between agency as a material fact, ie having the ability in theory to make your own decisions and act on your desires, and the awareness of having that agency.

i'm no psychologist, but in my experience one of the most helpful steps in recovering from mental illness has been the awareness of my own agency ─ yes, sometimes I feel as though my life is completely run by my intrusive thoughts, but invariably getting out of that place has involved a recognition that ultimately, I am the one in control of my thoughts and I have the agency to work through them. that doesn't mean that it isn't hard, or time-consuming, and sometimes I don't succeed in the way I'd like, but nonetheless the ability to at least try is and always has been in my power.

in baldur's gate 3, your companions appear with varying degrees of agency (aside, obviously, from the tadpole they all share). they range from gale, whose current situation physically and magically restricts him but who at that moment in time doesn't have many other immediate restrictions on his day-to-day actions, to wyll, whose every move is watched by his abusive warlck patron.

nonetheless, your companions benefit from being shown that they not only could have agency at some point in the future, if they break their pact/shar's curse/free cazador/free orpheus/fix the infernal engine/get the crown of karsus, but they have agency now and must therefore use it responsibly. wyll is already to some degree aware of this, i think, even if it's only because he is so morally forthright ─ he's one of your companions who remains actively trapped by their abuser during the game, yet he refuses to kill karlach because he knows that would be wrong. even within his severely limited circumstances, he makes a choice, he demonstrates agency. in the shadowfell, shadowheart ─ a cult victim subjected to extreme psychological and religious abuse ─ has the choice whether or not to kill aylin, and can make it either way.

astarion, at the point at which you meet him, has just been given freedom for the first time in, essentially, his life. it's no surprise that he doesn't know what to do with thise newfound agency, and doesn't recognise it for what it is, given that he literally cannot remember ever having control over his own life. that's deeply tragic, but it doesn't erase the fact that he has control over the things he does during the game. those actions (for example, given i am still talking about that last rb, talking about the children he kidnapped and gave to cazador as though they were nothing), are things he has agency over and is responsible for. nonetheless, he acts as though he does not, lurching from one attempt to gain power to another (killing the druids to suggesting you use whatever's in moonrise to your advantage), because his own self-perception as someone completely powerless is so overwhelming. he must accrue power because that is the only way he can make sure he's safe and can never be hurt again. it's just that that self-perception is not completely accurate, he does have agency; if he makes choices that result in moral wrongs, those moral wrongs are his to bear.

i'm not getting at astarion here, I don't mean to imply that he's at fault for this attitude. it is, obviously, the natural response to 200 years of enslavement and abuse. kind of the whole point of the game, of all of your companions' quests, is that if people are hurt and abused often they will feel as though their only avenue towards power is to do the same to others. but being severely traumatised doesn't make his behaviour okay; he doesn't get a free pass to do whatever he wants because of cazador. you can like him, literally who am i to say otherwise (i like him too!), but don't just excuse everything he does or get rid of the most interesting parts of his character because you're unwilling to grapple with the fact that as it stands in the game, he's morally incredibly complex.

i think there's a tendency to assume that a character either must or must not have agency, and to present it as a binary, because for some reason it's used as a shorthand for moral culpability, when in reality the relationship between agency and culpability is significantly more complicated. i haven't really been getting into coerced choices here because that's a whole other kettle of fish (though i will give the necessary disclaimer that my stance on this is quite clearly influenced by the fact that deep down i'm a bit of a virtue ethicist). nonetheless, while this is my pop philosophy take and i'm not trying to impose this overall moral framework on people, i think it's pretty reasonable to say that lack of agency does not mean that what you did was not wrong.

implying that astarion is at fault here would be indicative of the very attitude I am trying to oppose ─ the idea that people either have agency or don't, and if they do bad things with agency they are evil, but if they don't have agency they are victims. astarion is both ─ he is the victim of horrendous, harrowing trauma and yet he has done bad things and in fact visited that same trauma upon other people. there's no escaping this, and i think it would be bad for astarion to just brush everything he did for cazador under the rug because he did it for cazador. he still did those things ─ he might not be culpable, i do not think he can be considered as such, but there's no way you go through all of that and don't feel guilty for it.

notably, if shadowheart kills aylin and wyll kills karlach (if he can? i actually don't even know if he can do that, but hypothetically), they are still responsible for that action and it was still morally wrong. they have to deal with that: part of dealing with it can be to recognise the coercion they were subject to, but the fact that they lacked agency doesn't just erase the wrong or mean it was never wrong in the first place. likewise, astarion becoming the ascended vampire is still obviously a terrible thing to happen for him and everyone else, and is in no way justified just because it might finally give him the sense of safety and control he craves. the whole point of that moment is that even when he is being retraumatised, when he has returned to the place and person that hurt him, astarion has the capacity to choose, and to choose the right thing. acting as though his trauma means he has absolutely no agency whatsoever and so never has to address the fact that he can, at various points, greatly fuck up, just removes one of the biggest themes of his whole character.

tldr: astarion has agency, one of his greatest challenges is realising that he does and that he must use it responsibly, and acting as though that is not the case does a disservice to his character and the story it is trying to tell. also it is deeply deeply boring. the end.

#bg3 #i logged into tumblr on my laptop to type this out instead of learning how to use a pivot table #hence the abrupt change in capitalising I #i keep going on about this because it's a general attitude towards trauma and mental illness that drives me completely up the wall #yes life is hard yeah you gotta take steps to make that better #yeah thats tricky. sorry. gotta be done though #anyway i could literally talk about this all day like. gale or lae'zel and agency is a WHOLE thing and i could rant about those two for day #but this is getting too long as it is #also obligatory disclaimer that this is in no way a commentary on anyone's gameplay #im not trying to do a 'omg if u ascend astarion you're a terrible horrible person forever' or anything #i think it's great and fun that you can do that and explore his character that way #this is directed at people who just try to make him like uwu traumatised little baby who has never had any agency ever #in his whole entire life #and so cannot be morally responsible for any action he has ever taken

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namig42 · 4 months

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The Slayer (Ch. 1)

Hello! I started writing some scenes about my Durge character Vero, and have been excited to share them because I really love her character and the whole concept of a Durge who fears themselves. Please read and enjoy! I've got a couple chapters done, so I'll be dropping those as I clean them up!

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Summary: Vero, a lovely high elf bard with no memories prior to being abducted by mind flayers, suffers from a slew of intrusive, violent thoughts that come always at the worst of times. She now has to handle the new power that comes with the Slayer's form along with her dark urges.

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The night that Vero had been “gifted” with the form of the Slayer, she had been absolutely terrified. When her skin transformed from her elvish complexion into the rotten flesh of the massive beast, she had felt she was going to lose her mind. It was a miracle she didn’t swipe at Sceleritas Fel right then, though even if she had, he would’ve just praised her demonic behavior like the fool he was. It was a waking nightmare, one she refused to relive.

The worst part about the form is that she never wanted it. It was her reward for killing Isobel, though Isobel perished only by accident, not by Vero’s hand. An unfortunate blast of necrotic energy had struck her down in Myrkul’s lair. Vero had done nothing to earn the form, though that damned butler was likely looking for any excuse to return the curse to his master. What Vero wouldn’t give to snap that scrawny little neck, to hear all the little bones pop in her grasp… to watch the blood spill from the gremlin’s mouth as he smiled and thanked her…

No… stop that, you fool. Vero shook her head as she sat in the Elfsong for the evening, watching her companions rest around their large room that they’d taken for themselves. Her gaze fixed on Astarion as he sat on his bed, reading whatever book he had found to pass the time.

She reflected on how she hadn’t had the heart to tell Astarion, her truest confidante, about what she could become now. Vero feared every night how she may lose control and try to hurt him again, and somehow every night he reassured her that he would keep them both safe from those horrid urges of hers. “As I’ve said, I’ve got you my love. You can rest easy, I promise you.” It was that sense of trust and care that made Vero all the more hesitant to share about the Slayer’s form. Before the beast, she believed that Astarion would be quick enough to avoid any bloodthirsty lunges and be able to secure her in ropes or whatever means of restraint, just as he had that first night that the urges tried to attack him of all people. But with the Slayer? What could he do to stop that demon should it possess her and take control?

Perhaps warning him would give him a stronger chance at fleeing, though Vero couldn’t stomach the idea of him being disgusted by this new part of her. She couldn’t help but imagine that even if he had known and accepted her, if he attempted to run gods forbid something should happen, he may still be caught by the monster and ripped apart. Astarion gave her no reason to truly think that he would be repulsed by her new form, but how often does one’s lover gain the ability to transform into something even more horrid than a bhaalspawn? No, it was better this way. If she could restrain it long enough, perhaps he would never need to know. She would face Orin, face the Absolute, and after that, live a life of peace that wouldn’t require any form of killing. Yes… it was that simple, of course. What could go wrong?

Astarion looked at Vero’s pensive brow. She sat on the bed opposite his and her eyes were a million realms away. ”I hope there’s nothing troubling you, my dear,” he said to get her attention. Vero’s gaze snapped to his as her eyes returned to this reality. “No, I’m all right. There’s so many things we’re about to face, one can’t help but wonder what’s to come.” It was true. They had only arrived in the Lower City two days ago. Between fighting the cult of Bhaal, facing Cazador, retrieving the Orphic Hammer from the House of Hope, and so many other trials, there was good reason for the party to get lost in the thought of what the future held for them.

“I don’t blame you,” Astarion responded. “After all, we both have a terribly bloody family reunion waiting for us.”

“Do you think you’re ready to face yours?” Vero asked.

“Hah… I’m not sure. I do know that if I don’t, I’ll never escape Cazador , and that is worse to think about. He must know we’re coming by now. Instead of waiting for him to come after me, we’re better off taking the fight to him.”

“We will kill him, I promise you.” At these words, Vero had moved off her bed to kneel in front of Astarion and placed her hand on his leg. He placed his hand on top of hers and gave it a soft squeeze. “I know, my love. Thank you.” He put a finger under her chin to raise Vero’s lips to his in a soft, tender kiss.

Yes, this is what Vero was fighting for. No matter what may come, no matter how much she feared these urges, she would use everything in her power to keep this party safe. She would protect this family they had made, and especially the one that, since the beginning of this mess, never looked at her with an ounce of terror or disgust, but only fascination, admiration, and eventually love.

#bg3 #fanfic #mine #astarion #durge #my durge #the slayer #vero

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psychic-refugee · 3 months

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This post is inspired by @romancedream, who makes really good points about psychic powers on this post: https://www.tumblr.com/romancedream/744561229253705728/so-psychic-abilities-it-is-strongly-hinted-in

I hope they explore Xavier’s and Wednesday’s psychic powers in S2, and the idea that their powers are unreliable.

I don’t see the visions as objective vs. subjective, more confirmed and unconfirmed to be psychic visions. Wednesday’s visions are confirmed visions because other people can conveniently confirm the visions are of the past (Goody and Pugsly). She also has future visions come to pass.

If she didn’t have Goody, Pugsly, or her parents to confirm her visions of the past and give context, then she’d have no clue what she was looking at or what any of it meant. If Weems had happened to take an alternate route to avoid the accident, then Wednesday wouldn’t have gotten confirmation of her vision of the grocer. Without that confirmation, could she have simply thought his broken neck was wishful thinking or an intrusive thought?

She also knows they’re for sure visions because they happen during waking hours. Unless she has PTSD, then there’s a clear delineation between a vision and reality. Not only does she mentally go somewhere else, she describes a feeling of electroshock. She has a physical manifestation of her powers.

I think Xavier is correct as psychic visions are unreliable in either situation, the unreliability comes from their limited POV, and both instances are subject to their interpretation of what they think they’re seeing and if they happen to have corroborative evidence.

He correctly points out the severe limits to their powers.

Regardless of if it’s a vision of the past, future, or a link to someone, each only has a) a few seconds of one moment in time and b) from their own POV. This is naturally limiting, because neither has any context in the moment of the vision, and they only get context once the vision has come to pass, or they have someone to further explain or confirm.

With Wednesday, she appears to be pre and post cognitive, she sees events of the past (Goody, Pugsly, Garret’s real cause of death, and Tyler attacking Kinbott) and future (death of the grocer and Rowan). Sometimes she has context, such as with the Pugsly’s bullies, other times she does not: the grocer who she sees gets a broken neck. She has no idea when this event will happen or what causes it. The same with Rowan’s death.

In both cases, the vision came to pass regardless of if she tried to prevent it or not.

We see she did absolutely nothing to warn the grocer, probably because he was rude and she didn’t know him. He died absent any intervention from her.

She did, however, try to save Rowan from his fate. She ran into the woods to warn him of the vision she had. But the question is, if she hadn’t followed Rowan into the woods and given Tyler a chance to turn into the Hyde, would Rowan still have died? Did she doom Rowan because she tried to save him? Because if she had stuck to her plan to run away, then Tyler would have driven her to the train station and possibly would have tried to kill her given what we know, but Rowan would have been left alone in the woods.

This is another aspect of unreliability, because there's no way to tell if their actions have any meaningful impact.

With Xavier, it is less confirmed because his visions happen in a dream, and we don’t know if he knows the monster in his dream is real, or if he’s just having a nightmare. This could be a new aspect of his powers that he is also just discovering. We also don’t know what his dreams consisted of. Is he seeing the monster attack its victims as they happened or before they happened, like Wednesday’s waking visions? Or is he simply seeing the monster in the dreamscape separate from anything that happened in reality? Does he see scattered images and have a nebulous feeling or vibe from the dream? Or are they like Wednesday’s where you’re more or less dropped into a scene and watch it play out? We as the audience are not given this information.

Yes, Xavier drew the monster because it was a reoccurring dream, but he also had a really bad run in with Tyler and Xavier expresses himself through art. With Kinbott as his therapist and who had shown herself to be dismissive of Outcast powers and utterly incompetent as an Outcast therapist, she herself could have convinced Xavier his dreams were just dreams. Visions might not have occurred to her at all. Xavier might not know psychics can have more than one ability. Perhaps he thought the monster was a manifestation of his fears and humiliation at the hands of Normies.

Also, if Xavier never witnesses the events in his dream or the images in real life, then he can’t compare them to his dream and realize they’re visions. We have no evidence that Xavier has had any other dream vision, nor that he has ever been confronted by one of his visions.

Xavier never comes face to face with the Hyde, does he ever find out the monster he drew is real?

I don’t want to say both of their vision powers are useless, but they definitely have a Cassandra’s Curse kind of flavor to them. lol

#xavier thorpe #wednesday addams #rowan laslow #tyler galpin #pugsly addams #goody addams #valerie kinbott #garrett gates #larissa weems

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pwurrz · 10 months

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thinking about yakumo’s trauma on this saturday afternoon. thinking about how when he was younger, he wanted so badly to help people, to prove he’s useful so that he wouldn’t be sent away. that he’s good, he can be good, please don’t give up on him, he’s trying his best, he’s-

only for him to be told over and over, by so many different people, that he’ll never be able to help anyone, that he’s destined to hurt and kill and destroy, that if he really wants to help, he should go back to living in the forest where he can’t cause anymore harm.

yakumo’s heard it so many times that when he’s still unable to grasp his essence, unable to help regulate the altars, unable to do anything useful, he breaks. he’s so terrified that if he can’t prove himself to be useful, that eiden won’t want anything to do with him. after all, what use is a clan member who can’t do their most basic duties?

it wasn’t so bad, when it was just him, edmond and the familiars. but more and more clan members were found, more people who could control their essence as naturally and as effortlessly as breathing. people who were smart, strong, brave, capable. people who were far more deserving of eiden’s love and attention than he was.

yakumo wasn’t jealous of the other clan members, not in the traditional sense. he wasn’t angry with them, more with himself and his lack of abilities. every time he saw them, it only reminded him of how small and inferior he is compared to them.

and it’s not like he isn’t trying to learn. he’s trying so hard. working to control and regulate his emotions. trying to improve and steady his healing ability. studying in the library after everyone else has gone to bed. even attending a school designed to help people learn how to control and regulate their essence. but despite all that, he’s not making any progress, and it scares him.

this lack of progress was noticeable, of course it was. most were too polite to saying. but after the second week of extensive training with nothing to show for it, his disappointed professor told him the same thing he’s heard so many times throughout his life.

that he’s a descendant of the great serpent of disaster. how could he possibly expect to be able to channel his essence in a way that wasn’t mean to destroy and cause harm? that’s not what he was made for. he’ll never be able to help, not with his cursed blood and tainted essence.

yakumo desperately didn’t want to believe it. he doesn’t want to hurt anybody, he doesn’t want to cause harm, that can’t be the only thing he’s capable of.. can it? but after being told something your entire life, you start to internalize it, even unwillingly.

(what yakumo doesn’t know is, aside from the domestic care he provides the clan (which is an important and cherished skill even if he doesn’t think it is), he’s struggling with his essence so much because he’s repressed it basically his entire life, pushing it deep, deep down in fear that he’ll do something unforgivable one day. after so long repressing his essence, of course it’s hard to control. but that doesn’t mean it’s impossible. he just needs loving encouragement and support, someone who believes in his abilities and thinks he is strong and brave regardless of his intrusive thoughts. and who better than his beloved eiden, who’s also learning to control the massive amount of essence buzzing around inside of him?

eiden, who will never give up on or abandon yakumo, no matter what he does, no matter how useless he deems himself to be, no matter if he never learns how to regulate altars or not. because he loves yakumo for who he is, not for what he’s capable of. and that’s always been the truth.)

#oh this got really long #uh. sad yakumo hours ig!#there’s a happy ending i promise #nu carnival #yakumo ♡#yakuei #mouser muses

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velveteen-vampire · 1 year

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can you please tell me your Mega Man hcs??

for any character(s) that comes to mind ^_^

OH YES heres just a handful of em that i can actually remember. its basically just X and zero because i have an issue

a bunch of small and easily looked over features that are present on X were not given to reploids for a while due to chunks of his documentation being lost. a lot of those things aren't practical for a robot but are things that make him more human. this means X gets surprised by his own ability to shiver or cry

speaking of the crying thing, im generally obsessed with the manga's notion that X was the only reploid with the ability to cry (though, im not sure if that actually goes for all reploids or if its just zero who cant cry). and thats kinda where the whole idea comes from. idk it makes my brain itch

similarly i think zero has a bunch of stuff in his coding that still affects how he behaves even though hes doing its own thing unrelated to what he was built for

i think one of the reason X and zero ended up becoming friends is that somewhere in the back of zero's mind, something recognized that blue robot as looking really mega man shaped which caused a really strong subconscious need to investigate. which turned into a genuine appreciation for X's personality

related: i think zero gets the reploid equivalent to intrusive thoughts. just the occasional "you could kill them right now and they wouldnt even be able to react" and similar things. he's good at ignoring them but its still upsetting if he lingers on it too long

zero's also got a weird way of expressing affection. just a really high cuteness aggression. kinda guy who sees a kitten and is like "id like to squeeze that thing until it turns to atoms" and mean it in a 100% positive way

this one predates recent events but genuinely i think X loves minecraft or whatever his time's equivalent is

X makes zero play minecraft with him but only so that zero can do all the monster hunting and mining and X can spend his time building the nicest town ever

zero also just speedruns killing the ender dragon every time

oh and axl griefs one of X's builds as a joke once and now X always kills him on sight. trust broken.

speaking of axl this isnt really a headcanon but i like to make his design more cat-like whenever i draw him because his helmet looks like cat ears to me lol. also hes a copy cat! cmon its literally perfect.

#i think thats all i have #sorry i literally spent all day trying to remember all the things ive randomly sent to my friends over the past 3 months #brain works when no one is expecting it and then immediately forgets everything as soon as someone actually asks #mmx

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12pt-times-new-roman · 11 months

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c3e64

Aabria and Christian are still here!

We begin with Team Wildemount, who take a whole bunch of damage because of a misfiring teleport. In theory, they could just keep taking damage until they go unconscious, but they do eventually land -- not in Jrusar, but in a similar-looking township built into the side of a mountain cliff.

Because it's the same time of day, they're most likely still on Wildemount, and they've landed in a settlement of eisfurra! It seems to be an isolated and secret settlement, as the leader will only let them go if they are temporarily blindfolded and led away so they don't know where they came from.

Frida looks around, and to one side, very far away, there's a mountain range that looks like the Flotket Alps. In another direction, there's an ocean, and they seem to have gone very far southwest of the Greying Wildlands. If I had to guess, I'd say they're either somewhere in the southern Ashkeeper Peaks, or possibly the southeastern Dunrock Mountains.

Also, Frida can now telepathically communicate? Did they level up and take a level in aberrant mind sorcerer? And if so, what the fuck does that say about them and the way they were constructed, if they're actively assimilating powers and abilities from the people they spend time around?

FCG was already close to a breaking point when they got teleported, and the presence of the birds starts to set it off -- but a calm emotions from Imogen calms them for now. Eventually, they land, and the eisfurra fly away.

FCG's rage starts to build up again, but Frida takes their shoulders and kisses them -- with a successful wisdom save, they "heal" 2 (1d4) stress points.

"I know you're keyed up, and I need you to not make your emotions other peoples' problems right now." .....that's certainly a perspective

They settle down where the eisfurra dropped them and make camp.

While FCG is in rest mode, Frida casts detect thoughts on them. The surface thoughts are recollections of recent events -- passing moments, words, expressions, like a brief review of bits of affirmation. Delving deeper, Frida "truly feels the tension, the immovable intent to kill. There is a need to destroy and cleanse. It feels unlike FCG, it feels alien, it feels intrusive, like an intrusive thought that cannot be ignored any further, and the only thing that you see beyond this boundary is images of someone building [FCG]. You see hands assembling, things being carved, elements of enchantment being pressed within the recesses of the chassis, within the head. There is a delicately crafted intent burned within the essence of FCG. Old, buried." Frida can't tell whether this is original programming or something like a virus.

Imogen casts teleport again and rolls a 53, which is "on-target." They arrive in the night, standing on a cobblestone street somewhere on the Smolder Spire.

From here, they can see Ruidus, massive and static, tethered by a single flickering, pulsing thread, locked in a flaring state. The few civilians in the streets rush to and from their destinations, and there are guards everywhere.

Deanna tries to scry on Laudna, and she sees her in a subterranean space, a cavern, a carved living area -- the place where they fought Bor'dor, just before Team Issylra is set to arrive in Jrusar. Imogen tries sending, rolls a 69, and is met with static.

They go to check in with Pretty. He hasn't seen anyone Ruby Vanguard-looking, but it has been difficult to get around the city because some of the gondolas stopped working.

As the sun rises, the guard presence increases, but both the moon and the aurora stays in the sky. In this new light, they can see that the skyport is cluttered with ships, and there are others anchored amongst the nearby mountains. There's an air of tension and fear throughout the city; people who have errands are keeping their head down; many glance at the moon and quicken their pace. Additionally, beyond the guards and warders, there are other figures in unfamiliar armor -- different militaries with different holy symbols, sellswords and mercenaries. Those skyships are mostly batteships, not unlike the ones they saw crashed nearby the key.

Deanna supposes -- likely correctly -- that that message from the gods went out to the entirety of Vasselheim, and they have amassed armies in the nearest metropolitan areas to it.

"When we messed up the teleport the first time, I think some wires got crossed, and I can speak to people in their head now!"

Chetney notices that there are soldiers gathering at the base of the Lantern Spire, and several skyships have dislodged from the mountains and are heading south.

Imogen uses detect thoughts on a group of soldiers. She picks up anxiety, frustration, not enough information, suddenly sent -- some are from afar, "this place is interesting, where are we going?" Missing home, missing family. Others hold recent prayers in their minds.

Arriving at the Spire by Fire, they are met by a katari who recognizes them, but who hasn't seen the rest of the group recently. It seems like this tavern has been taken as a temporary barracks for gathering troops, and Frida positions themself near a group of them to listen in.

With a history check, they notice that some of the soldiers carry emblems and attire from across the world -- symbols of the Clovis Concord, the Council of Tal'dorei, and other military might from abroad. It isn't just Vasselheim's troops gathering here -- it's everyone.

Imogen looks to Ruidus. There has always been a very faint pull toward it for her, but it doesn't seem any stronger now than before. She tries to send a message to Xhudanna, which works! But she hasn't heard from Laudna.

Chetney approaches a group of soldiers. He learns that they're all following the orders of their commanders, but they don't know whether the militaries of all these different nations are coordinating with each other.

Fearne listens in to some of their conversation. The soldiers are being kept in the dark for the most part, they don't know where they're going or why, but they know that this secrecy means that they are important and trusted. Regardless, these troops are not stationed in Jrusar, they are being amassed here before being deployed elsewhere.

Hey! I called it! After the break, we're gonna get the other half of Bells Hells.

Emilee is still here too!

Prism fully thought that she was going to a different place, but nope! They're all here together.

They arrived on the Lucid Spire, one they've never really been to before. It's a wealthy neighborhood, lavish and vibrant, a thriving city built around the rest of Jrusar. From the public park they've landed in, they can see the same sight as Team Wildemount: Ruidus, its tether, and the leylines.

Prism wants to go to the Starpoint Conservatory! thank the gods that someone does. (I really, really miss the Cobalt Soul lore dumps from C2.)

Prism also has the dewey decimal system for abs. canon.

Yeah! they did level up! They're all level 10 now. Prism took teleportation circle for one (of two) of her new spells, and friends for her new cantrip.

Orym says that if he has any say in the matter, they'll find their friends, then start heading toward the malleus key.

Entering one of the gondolas, they find a courier. They learn that the solstice was an event, a celebration, to the general populace; individual spires and organizations had their own parties and events, but none expected this.

Orym asks the question of the night, whether the city has made any official statements. They have said that they are working with other militaries and governments in light of the "Hellcatch soul" -- presumably Ruidus -- and that there will be an increased guard presence in the city.

The gondola lands, the courier hurries off, and Prism sends Mother after him. She casts identify on the package, which is just a letter.

Ashton mentions the Ascension's Rise university to Prism, which they believe would be of interest to her. There's also a massive temple to the Dawnfather in the Lantern Spire. But Prism is looking for "pre-mythological information" about the eidolons, the elementals, and/or Predathos.

The Shadowfell has a massive celebration on the Day of Ascension, the Matron of Ravens' holy day. Notably, the same day is celebrated on the Material Plane.

Prism notices that, although the holy symbols are different, there are soldiers whose attire carries the iconography of the gods. The only one she notices in detail is of a woman's side profile whose hair cascades into her armor -- the Changebringer.

Returning to the Spire by Fire, the two halves of Bells Hells reunite! That's 5 people on each side of the table, and I can't imagine that that will be sustainable for long.

But it's Imogen who notices. It's Imogen who notices their silhouettes. It's Imogen who recognizes Laudna's silhouette first.

Laudna and Imogen immediately hug. Orym flies toward Fearne and wraps his arms around her neck. Ashton immediately insight checks Prism. FCG and Frida were making out in the corner. It's perfect.

tbh I'm not even going to try to transcribe this conversation -- needless to say, they explain their situations, there are many insight checks made, and once the group disperses to their room we get the more intimate moments.

"The way you put it, it's almost like the gods are planning escape pods." PRISM???

Both Imogen and Laudna are of the opinion that Ludinus is trying to follow in the Matron's footsteps, trying to become a god. Meanwhile, Laudna misinterprets the eidolons, Prism and Imogen continue to doubt the gods (as they should), and FCG continues to believe in the gods (as they should).

But Orym gets to a completely different question: Frida's past. Frida believes their initial purpose was to protect the original Malleus Key in Aeor, though they, Deanna, and FCG all think that Aeor is synonymous with Eiselcross.

Frida replays Imogen saying, "she's beautiful, but she's spooky beautiful." Imogen hides her face in her hands. But there is something to be said about the extent to which each individual group talked about the other to near-excess.

All the while, Deanna, having found a secluded area in the tavern, completes her commune spell. The burning light of the star that encircles Exandria, the star that brings life, death, and rebirth -- she feels his stare turn to her, expectantly, as she tries her best to not look away. "'A couple questions before I let you go. First, is working with Bells Hells actually going to help all of you? They seem... dangerous.' There is no response, which leads you to believe that the Dawnfather is uncertain. 'Are your disciples perpetrating harm in this world at your behest?' My disciples do what is necessary for the good of our people, collectively, and for the future of Exandria.' 'One more. Are you worth saving?'" Deanna is thrust out of her communion, her back hits against wood, her eyes burn like she had stared into the sun. "He didn't like that."

Finally, Deanna is introduced to the rest of the group properly. That all leads to Prism questioning whether the history of Predathos has been mythologized by the gods (which we as an audience know it has been), questioning what's true and what isn't. And I think it's important to realize that it's absolutely possible that both sides are mythologizing, both sides are lying, both the gods and Predathos are telling the truth, both the gods and Predathos are spouting lies. There is absolutely no certainty.

There are approximately 23 leyline nexuses in Exandria that have been charted, though there are many places that have never been mapped or even explored.

"Our journey was very horny." "It sounds like it. Ours was... traumatizing." oof

To Deanna, it seems like Ludinus put all this technology together slapdash. Frida suggests that someone needs to go to ground zero to figure out the "source code." Prism volunteers.

Deanna offers to them that she could, as a cleric of the Dawnfather, get in to wherever the Bells Hells couldn't in Vasselheim. They remember that teleport was working but teleportation circle was not, which determines that some permanent enchantments were broken while instantaneous spells may be unpredictable but are not entirely broken.

Dynios noted that all magic -- both arcane and divine -- was amplified by the nexuses. There were no fundamental differences between the two in regards to the nexus itself.

With detect thoughts, Imogen learns that Dynios doesn't trust the Bells Hells, and he says that he's "a good book with a bad attitude." In regards to Prism, "she is walking an uncertain path, and I am curious as to what paths she takes. She shows potential, and she has a radical streak I wasn't expecting, so, we'll see." Prism says that he's a "father figure" to her. In response to being perceived by so many people, Dynios retreats into the book, and Prism holds the book to her chest.

Both Frida and Imogen think that there's something nefarious about the book (unclear whether they're talking about the runes on the Judicator, Ludinus' notes, or Dynios).

As soon as Imogen mentions the Tal'dorei Counci, Ashton turns to Orym and asks, "where are your people?" Orym asks Deanna to scry.

Orym pulls out the remnants of the seed that carried Keyleth's message all that time ago, and she uses it as the focus of a scry.

It takes a moment for the magic to push through, as if Deanna's magic is being held at bay ("daddy wasn't happy with the attitude"), but it eventually does push through. As opposed to clouds, Deanna is pulled through warm sunlight, until she drops through the sky. "You see a shaded interior. There is light from nearby windows. A figure, standing, looking through with window -- turns around, carrying a staff. A woman, red hair, antlers, leaning heavily on the staff. Somebody talks on the side, and she looks back and nods, gives a motion, almost falling onto the ground before figures catch her and lead her back onto a bed. She fights them before eventually laying there and setting the staff to her side... voices, saying, 'Voice of the Tempest, you must not over-extend yourself--' Across her, there are dark red wounds, across her neck and arms and face and torso, that aren't bleeding but aren't closing. She breathes heavy. 'Just give me a moment, I have to speak with the others, too much is happening... it wasn't supposed to be like this.' She looks to a tapestry, and at the end, there is a single black feather... she stands and hobbles away from the chamber.'" Deanna tries to cast guidance on her, knowing that it probably won't work but also knowing that Keyleth needs it.

The Bells Hells decides that the failure of resurrection magic is due not to the reconfiguration of the leylines but to the malleus key and Ruidus, to Ludinus' influence.

Lastly, Orym recognizes the chambers Keyleth was in as her chambers in Zephrah.

Laudna feels as if the druids, nature, and eidolons may be the key to unlocking the secrets of this mystery. Ashton questions where they can find more of these druids, more of these ancient elementals, because the forces in Jrusar don't align with this.

They agree to split up; Deanna, Frida, and Prism will go to the Starpoint Conservatory to do research, while the Bells Hells will start moving across the Hellcatch Valley and back to the malleus key. They plan to travel alongside the soldiers who are starting to march that way.

oh god I had fully forgotten about the potential waeorwolf situation

For level 10, it looks like Frida took a level in aberrant mind sorcerer and Fearne took another druid level!

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