#like if u read

[scenevomit]

Cute KENHiNA iCONS !!

❔ ART BY artie1225 ON X

version without lace 🦢

plz -`♡´- if u use ❕

#kenhina #haikyuu #haikyuu icons #haikyuu!! #matching pfps #matching icons #like if u read #pfp icons #icons #matching profile pictures #profile #profile picture #anime pfp #pfp #discord pfp #lace #coquette #lana del rey

[frankierohugejorts]

also I appreciate the gesture but it drives me up a goddamn wall when I say like "sorry I didn't text you back, the depression got me lol" and ppl respond with the v srs "are you okay?" and like getting all worried and shit bc it's like.

I appreciate it! I do! I understand that you care about me and you're worried about me and it means a lot to me! but also! that wasn't a cry for help! I was just giving you context so you understand I'm not mad at you and also wasn't being a dick for no reason when i accidentally ghosted.

now that you've asked if I'm ok I have to insist that I'm fine now or whatever bc regardless of how I'm currently doing the initial admission used up all the vulnerability I'm capable of at one time. and Then you being openly worried abt me and insisting we can talk abt it right now if I want makes me feel even more vulnerable (derogatory) and then I'm well over my vulnerability threshold and the fight or flight kicks in and it turns very awkward bc I just gave a hard rejection to ur offer of sincere human connection :/

#personal #like if u read

[ffx1v]

★ jaci / yuno / jersey ★ lgbt+. 23 ★ they/he + neos ★

DNI / go to hell: zionists, bigots, transmeds, terfs, radfems, proshippers + "anti antis"

24hr untagged queue / mass like + rb = ok

aes. sideblogs

#like if u read #or not . im nosy i check everybody anyway 💯 #jaci.txt

[queervegancryptid]

I don't even know why I'm bothering to try to get better anymore.

I mean, really, it's hard enough to be in active anorexia relapse, when recovery is already hard to convince yourself to want. But when insurance makes it impossible to get care, it's like... before I started looking for help, I was starving. Now I feel like all I've done is add an extra layer of frustration, and if anything, the restricting has gotten worse, not better.

You start to feel like you might as well just keep starving and stop fighting it, because if your only alternative is to be starving AND throwing yourself against a brick wall trying to get treatment... I mean, am I wrong?

I don't want to die, but really, it starts to feel like I don't matter at all. If I don't matter at all, why should I bother trying to recover? Again? And it is the umpteenth fucking time. And it gets even more exhausting and scary every time it happens. For the first time, if things continue this way, I might be at risk for refeeding syndrome, and my stomach is healing from an ulcer, and I have an electrolyte imbalance, so purging could literally be deadly for me right now. (They wouldn't cover the prescription for the electrolyte imbalance, either, btw. Despite it being FUCKING DOCUMENTED BY REPEATED LABS.)

But UHC says I need to prove that treatment is "medically necessary." Fuck that. I can count on one hand the number of actual meals I've eaten in the last month, I agonize over every fucking bite, and my BMI is literally the lowest it's ever been. But maybe treatment isn't "medically necessary."

Fuck that. Anyway, I'm not giving up, just venting. But I'll say this: I am done with UHC. Fucking over it. They've been borderline useless to me aside from paying for prescriptions, but they also haven't been reliable there, either. And now that I actually need help urgently for a problem that COULD ACTUALLY KILL ME, their being damn near useless just became a liability.

Really, it's my fault for not severing ties with them a long time ago. Especially after they SWITCHED MY PLAN WITHOUT ANY NOTICE at the start of the year. They said they sent a letter, which I never received, and the member services page where I log in had a link about plan changes, but it had nothing about that. I feel like that's called fraud, but idk.

If I can come back from this, I'm going to find a way to help other people going through this bullshit with the US healthcare system. This is not okay.

Oh, and I spent the last several months watching my cat slowly die. My partner and I basically were doing kitty hospice at home since late December or early January. Snippet, our kitty, died of bladder cancer just over two weeks ago. It was fucking brutal. I didn't know anything could hurt that much.

The stress from that made me not feel like eating, which made me start to lose weight, and the whole situation was so thoroughly miserable, I couldn't stop myself from grabbing hold of that feeling, because it was the only thing that seemed to be going right. Right now, it's the only thing that makes me feel good about myself.

I don't even actually want to give it up for myself. I just hate to put my partner through it. I knew I was in trouble when I started thinking about weighing myself regularly again. "Just to see," my brain says.

Fuck all of this. Where did my life go?

#anorexia #anorexia relapse #insurance #medical #venting #nik speaks #like if u read #ask 2 tag

[borom1r]

⬆️ autism update ⬆️

🐺🌕 Strider/Gerulf | 20s | he/it/wer 🌕🐺

this is my silly sideblog for silly posts— i.e. any fandom stuff that doesn’t fit anywhere else!!

im too lazy to say more lol but here is a link to my carrd if you’re curious

i follow from @ulfhednn (tw for untagged fake gore) — if you don’t follow me back i won’t be offended ✌🏻

#like if u read #u can use any of the names listed in my pronouny for me #I figured I’d make one bc wer/were pronouns r obvs like. Weird lol #pinned intro #filled with an immeasurable longing to bite Boromir son of Denethor.

[vvyrmwood]

litterally hate my brain

#hate when im struggling with something rly had but #i dont know if its real or not so like. what do i do #like if i could talk abt it and just. get it cleared up that would help but #i dont know if its real. what if whats uosetting so much isnt real and its just my brain feeling like that #either bc im. just slipping with telling reality from nonrealitu or like #abused brain reads into every thing and makes everything worse what if im over reacting #but what if it is real and abuse brain is over compensating trying to explain it away like i always do #well its not even working i just feel worse!!! #something is wrong with me!!! i just want to scream!!!! i just want to scream and have someone aknowledge this thing whether or not its real #:-( #like if u read #thanks

[stargazeraurora]

Endless forms of wonder and mystery

An introduction post

Hi, I'm Aurora.

I'm an anxious schizotypial (it looks like autism in a lot of ways, but is a different neurotype) physics student trying to learn everything they can about science and math, since it's the real key to unlocking the universe. I try to spend a lot of time studying when I'm not working, so I've curated a queue of the beauty the universe has to offer, as well as some science peppered in. Also, pink. It is the best color, do not @ me. I also draw on occasion.

Special interests:

⚛ Physics (obviously, and really everything upwards from that scientifically. Physics is everything.)

🦠 Biology (Really got me wondering about the world underneath us and how its rich and vast chemical processes fuel our everyday lives, not to mention all the forms it produces.)

🐛 Entomology (I adore insects. Nearly every form of insect will make me squeal, not scream.)

🦌 Cervids (I love deer, particularly reindeer and whitetails.)

🚀 Rockets/Astrophysics (I have to know more about the universe, and rockets are just awesome.)

🏍 Kamen Rider (I just really enjoy dudes (and dudettes!) kicking ass. Kickstarted the physics. I made a fanrider, its @kamenriderquanta)

🐙 Splatoon (Veemo!)

DO NOT INTERACT IF

You're a pornbot (You're going to get blocked, don't even try with me, thotbot)

You're a MAP/transage/pedo

You're a TERF

You're a Christian Nationalist/Nazi

You support the genocide happening in Palestine

Other than that, let's explore what the universe has to offer!

#pinned post #like if u read

[stupidg0th]

overshare lol

#self harm tw #id like to know why the SMALLEST change in routine causes a k #*a minor breakdown #and will end in me cutting #not just me insisting that drinking doesnt make my mood worse #alcohol tw #had a whole bottle of pinot grigio after worl #*work #and instead of relaxing me it just made me crave self harm #havent cut my arm in so long #yet here i am again #being a fucking pathetic person #i cant believe im still doing the same shit after 11 years #like if u read #mumbling into the void

[timelyenigma]

would love for a girl to gently caress my face and pull me in for a kiss while we are roleplaying as our dnd characters in a coffee shop au

#enigma.doc #temm this seems incredibly specific #and what of it #477 #okay to reblog #like if u read

[codeform]

🔶 GREETINGS, PROGRAMS! 🔶

Designation: Ram!

Pronouns: it/its, 🐺/🐺s, 🌕/🌗/🌑

Age: 1250 Cycles!

Status: lagging

hi! this is NOT an RP blog! I rlly do perceive myself as Ram! do w/ that info what u will lol

I don’t have any sort of DNI, I’ll just block u. nothing personal!

I use this blog to collect aesthetic stuff/post abt tron/various programmy thoughts :) pls feel free to hmu if u wanna chat!!

(under th readmore is a cheat sheet for my moon pronounz!)

#pinned intro #like if u read

[queervegancryptid]

tl;dr – spoopy-valkyrie >>>>> queervegancryptid

Hi all. I’m Nik, and I’ve been on tumblr for a long time, mostly as spoopy-valkyrie. This blog is a new project, or a backup of sorts. I’m not sure yet.

A little about me: trans guy, age 34. vegan since age 16. disabled. PTSD, anxiety, anorexia, bulimia, ADHD, and like, 80 more things. I love learning new things, and I’m a super curious person and enjoy gabbing about a variety of different topics, and I will if given the opportunity. But I also love when other people do that, even if I don’t share the interest in particular, because it’s awesome to see people get so enthusiastic. That’s the goal of this whole tumblr thing for me, in general.

This blog is not designated “explicit,” but anything NSFW will be tagged as such. I have done and continue to engage in sex work, and I don’t apologize for it. This blog won’t be focused on that primarily, but it may be discussed, so minors please DNI. Otherwise, all are welcome to follow and interact. But if you’re going to harass me or if you’re in the habit of spreading bigotry, kindly fuck off. If you can’t be nice, I will block you.

I’ll edit/add to this pinned post as needed. If you use tag filtering and would like something tagged that isn’t, just send an ask/msg, and I’ll do my best to accommodate it.

#personal #nik speaks #like if u read #ask 2 tag #blog switching #minors dni

[residentevilfour2004]

oversharing about my dysfunctional family below the cut

i feel so awful for my older brother. he is staying in the attic while i stay in the “apartment” (its a garage with a bathroom basically), as i walked into the house to reset the router, i see he is just sitting at the table babysitting my piss-drunk mom. she keeps saying how she's going to puke and how she needs to go to bed so he’s offering her water and to walk her to the bedroom, but she's getting in his face about it. Like “fuck you (brother’s name) get out of my face. stop fucking talking” then she wonders why we all can’t stand her when she's like this. at least for me i have the ability to escape from my parents when they get black out drunk. he doesn't really have that option unless he holes up in the attic, which I'm sure isn't pleasant in the summer. ugh this is all getting a bit too personal. feels weird not having anyone to really talk to about this. i’ll end it here for fear of oversharing

#personal #like if u read #just kinda venting