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[letsgetreadytotumble]

2023 Tumblr Ultimate Fail Son Competition Round 3: Bombshell Blonde (Dee Reynolds vs. Stede Bonnet)

THEY'RE DYNAMITE! THEY'RE ON FIRE --- NO REALLY! SHIT PUT IT OUT PUT IT OUT AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

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[4ffyl0n]

@everyone Hello ALL/EVERYBODY ON SOCIAL MEDIA AND STUFF! <:YEP:809755660345671691> peepoHug <:Pog:962806253040582727> How is EVERYBODYS WEDNESDAY 2023-03-29 TODAY Nice/Good in a way or something right..!?!?!? 🤔 My WEDNESDAY 2023-03-129 TODAY IS Nice/Good <:YEP:832266709574221884> Because was eating Salmon Fish Dinner at my parents place today at 16:30 Swedish Time! And had Vanila, Chocolate and Vanila Caramel for Desert! <:YEP:809755660345671691> <:Pog:962806253040582727> <:Kreygasm:492141174920970260> 📸 And afterwards we played Monopol/Monopoly BOARD GAME! <:YEP:809755660345671691> <:Pog:962806253040582727> I was A LIGHT LANTERN and Dad/Father A TRAIN and Mom/Mother BATHTUB! <:YEP:809755660345671691> And DAD/FATHER ROBBED ALL OF MOM/MOTHERS MONEY SADLY YES… :/ WELL S HAPPENDS YES 😛 LUL SO DAD/FATHER WON BY IT! <:YEP:809755660345671691> And ME in SECOND PLACE! <:YEP:809755660345671691> #longtext #longtext2023 #longtexts #longtexts2023 #longtextsarethebest #longtextsarethebesttexts #sweden #sweden🇸🇪 #swedenimages #sweden_photolovers #sweden2023 #sweden2023🇸🇪 #sweden2023📸 #sweden2023🇸🇪📸 #4ffy #4ffyl0n #4ffy2023 #4ffyl0n2023 #foodpıctures #foodpicturesby4ffy #foodpicturesby4ffyl0n #theyear2023 #dinner #dinner2023 #icecream #icecream2023 #icecreamlover #monopolyboardgame #boardgamer #boardgamer2023 https://www.instagram.com/p/CqYnQNvM1vB/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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An accurate representation on how some kids fell about missing school

#Memes #School #LongText #IamNotReadingAllThat #BackToSchool #Reddit

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[kaninku]

namanya kak ninna, dia selalu cantik.

and this.. is, a love letter from skye on this loving day, to her love!

kuahku, kanin.

kakak, i think it’s been kinda long since i tell you in longtext as how much i love you. maaf adek been in my jeyek phase that makes us miss some of our daily convos and gibah moments 🤕

kanin, i’m so lucky to meet you. truly. God knows how much i love and grateful that i know you here.

hehehe adek selalu seneeng banget tau everytime i saw how you’re surrounded by the people that love and adore you (kadang cembulu dikit wlelele) but i know that they must have the same feelings as mine, everyone love being around you.

i always love how kanin express her feelings out. i love how she talks about her day, how she rants her heart out, the way kanin tell me that all is going to be okay. skye also suka sama semua gibahan kita, the way our bahasa alien sometimes lookin funny, even whenever kanin feels not okay and sad, i lovee it abt her.

kakak, i hope kakak juga punya your comfort person yang bisa kasih kakak sayang and space for you to ask about things, to show your sadness, to ngadu about all things, to rant your heart out, and as wise as you to talk with ya….. just the way you’re being that kind of person to everyone.

i wish i could take all your sad phase away so you don’t feel that way anymore, actually.

kakak, you’re so loved. trust me. thank you for being so caring and BIIIGGG thanks for your presence.

makaci for being my kakak my kuah my kanin, calangyu.

i love you, kakak. may you have many many many happy phases. i love to see you happy and being surrounded by all the love that you deserve, truly. happy vals day. adek will always sayang kanin.

your baco ikan yang calangyu,

cekay. 🦖💗

[wpmtests]

[imy2]

notes longtext

2-2 oooo hi hector , didnt realize he'd be so soon •

oh damn goodbye mack. should've expected that was this ep w vasquez comin in... ughh the way murphy looks when addy's staring at him :/// •

2-3 "woahh don't be so negative; worry is poison - that's why you don't crap right." lmao random dude, too real •

"you are not the boss of me -.- she is." one of my fav murphy lines •

ok i regret not taking notes last eps so recap of what i rmbr then onward.. rc2-4 z weed lol • rc2-5 nvr noticed b4 that they call this ep aka lucy zombaby - makes sensee , but s1 zombaby is true zombaby in my heart. lucy's lucy :p ... ugh serena was so pretty this ep.. even looked cool as a zombie • rc2-6 gb4n lucy.. also cassandra :(( </3 • rc2-7 sketchy n skeezy were here again .. • rc2-8 i thiiink it was this ep that this happened but if not close enuff.. warren said to murphy, "the time is coming where you're gonna have to decide what side you're on - and when that time comes, remember which is trying to help u survive n which wants to eat ur brains." ooo i never noticed how good of a line that is bc well warren which side is which! half the zombies dont care abt murphy atp and yall r takin him to be experimented on .. hmmm • rc2-9 this is always a fun ep • rc2-10 idt docs cool aop in this ep... • rc2-11 addys hotelwoman moment :') • rc2-12 oo the zeroes.. warrens sooo pretty •

2-13 murphy savin warren, hell yeah. murphy listening to warren, helll yeahh. again warrens gorg.. hector n doc n murphy all also look cool .. el camino B) 10k w slingshot - also cool •

2-14 lmfao doc pre-z(beginning of z actually) "oh jeez, sorry, didn't mean to intrude! -- what a minute, what did i just see.. larry and his gay lover? it's funny he never mentioned him.. 2 patients wrestling on the couch? .. it's a damn zombie! hang on larry!" lol him pullin a joint from his beard .. • •interlude ... i used to say i wish i had a beard all the time as a kid 9-like12, love that for me..idt id want one now, i do wish i had more body hair tho man my arms n legs look hairless basically -.- my brother used to always comb his hand thru his thick ass leg -.- #jealous .. also hairy stomachs r so hot -.- anyways.. i also need to do smth diff w my headhair like sooo bad. its been like 6yrs since ive had a haircut its badd. i wish i cld do a cool haircut but my hairs thin n straight so.. no cool cuts look how i'd want them to w/o stylin n i cannot put stylin effort into my hair everyday.. i need a genius to tell me wtd w my hair basically! but im scared of goin anywhere..

also on subject of gender(re my feelings abt my hair) i've been kind of (aka when i rmbr to lol n when it dsnt feel awk) tryin to speak in a deeper pitch .. i hate when my voice sounds as high as it does smtimes :/ also.. well nvm 4now •

"why me? i don't want to be shit. this is all some terrible mistake. i just want to crawl off and die like everybody else. why me? what did i do? where is my mercy?" murphy n mercy (n me) i said it! •

omg pre-z murphy looks so different n cool. & postal fraud man.. he shld be pissed •

"if you were really my friend, you'd help me." "but i'm not your friend." ... "they're gonna hurt me. you know that, right?" "i won't let that happen." •

2-15 "i did not spend three years fighting my way across 10,000miles of zombie-crazed america just so i can be a blood bag for a few billionaires." hell yeah •

bye vasquez .. hey hector.. hey(almost) kaya n dr. sun :-) aww lucy.. •

•s2 done.. overall rating.. 3.5/5 .. i didnt rate s1 brb.. 3/5 .. huh kinda surprised s2 came out on top •

3-1 hi red.. hi the man... •

ooo i nvr noticed the red details -right b4 walking up there's red cloth in a basket, then - redofc, 5ks keychains, warrens bandana, 10ks socks n bandana n shirt stripes, docs suspenders n sunglasses, cassandra's jacket, addy's shirt n jacket tassels .. very obvious, cool .. then just blue murphy. interesting. enuff red down the line tho •

"got a name?" "10,000. but everyone calls me 10k." "10,000? that's a number, not a name." ... ''so what's ur name?" "red." "that's not a name, that's a color." - wait lol, "you asked me my name, that's my name" red u did it to him first •

3-2 • intros.. s1 was 3bullets, s2 was 2bullets-chomp, s3 was 3bullets+spin .. fun stuff •

now murphy got red pants this ep.. after they first reinforced blue by only showing shirt/skin/hat.. interesting •

ahh murphy wanted warren to go w him so bad :/ "seriously roberta?" .. "ttfn" •

3-3 got a fun screenshot from this ep .. terrible quality ofc.. •

3-4 10k off the bridge n merch khs .. fair enuff•

3-5 tbh the way reds been here so far(aka e1 n now) is so weird.. •

#h-vom

[manusiayangsukaindomi]

cara buat longtext yg sweet?

[bestcloudcomputingcompany]

The JSON Data Type in MySQL: Pluses and Minuses

Optimizing data architecture is an important part of your application development process. Data in MySQL is generally stored in the record format, and when the data is called from the database by UI/UX or any other function, Java converts the data format to JSON before sending it to the client.

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Data saved in record format

Data saved in JSON format

Retrieve data faster by storing it as JSON

Conversion from row data to JSON is an extra layer of effort, and it takes more time and processing power to complete the action.

Exporting MySQL data to JSON can be done using any of the following methods:

Using the CONCAT() and GROUP_CONCAT() functions

Using JSON_OBJECT and JSON_ARRAYAGG functions

Using MySQL Shell and JSON Format Output

Using third-party software such as ApexSQL Database Power Tools for VS Code

Since version 5.7.8, MySQL has supported the JSON data type and allowed users to save in JSON format directly. However, since record format is the default, many users prefer to continue with this more traditional data format. By investing in the right data architecture services, you can optimize your data formats and data types to get the most out of your data architecture.

What is the JSON data format?

JSON, or JavaScript Object Notation, is a lightweight data-interchange format that’s similar to other data types. The storage size of a JSON document (also known as a NoSQL database) is around the same as that of LONGBLOB or LONGTEXT data.

Now that MySQL can store JSON data in binary format, the server can efficiently store, search and retrieve JSON data from the MySQL database.

When do you use it?

JSON data stores configuration data of multiple attributes. For example, let’s say you have the attributes of a customizable character in a game. One player’s character may have a hat, while another may have shoes a particular shade of red. All these data points can be captured in JSON tabular data.

How do you use it?

The syntax for a JSON column is column_name JSON. Data can be stored as JSON in MySQL by using the JSON data type.

Why should you use it?

The JSON data type provides certain advantages over storing JSON-format strings in a string column:

Automatic content validation: When you’re adding JSON data to MySQL, the database automatically confirms that the data format fits the data and doesn’t allow you to save it if it doesn’t match.

Faster data transfer: All calls from other clients require data conversion from record to JSON. Saving data directly in JSON makes data transfer more efficient. In addition, JSON can have a substantially lower character count, reducing the overhead in data transfers.

Readability: Since JSON data is saved in text format, not XML, it’s more easily readable by the human eye.

Easy exchange: JSON is helpful when it comes to data exchange between heterogeneous systems since you can also use the JSON format with other programming languages.

Potential to combine and store: JSON documents with multiple keys and value attributes can be saved in the same document.

What are the disadvantages of using JSON?

Indexing: MySQL doesn’t support indexing of JSON columns, which means that if you want to search through your JSON documents, you could trigger a full table scan. A JSON column cannot be indexed directly. However, if you wish to perform more efficient searches, you can generate a column with values extracted from the JSON column, on which you can create an index.

Limited storage: JSON documents stored in MySQL can only reach a theoretical maximum size of 1GB.

Inefficient storage: JSON could be more storage efficient. If your priority is optimizing data architecture by prioritizing storage efficiency in your database schema, you may be better off with more traditional data types such as INT, CHAR, VARCHAR, and the like.

At CloudNow, we understand that using the correct data types and formats is key to optimizing your data architecture. That’s why we stay up-to-date with the functionalities available on MySQL and the benefits of using different data types for different requirements, to provide top quality data architecture services.

#Cloud Technology #application #Application Modernization Services #web application development #application development #applications #mysql

[gotham-fan-shit]

hello, uhm i don't know if i'm asking too much, sorry kinda #longText. so the other day i was thinking abt how usually the 1st time everyone drinks alcohol ends up in a v*mit, headache,crying situation, and was wandering about what if reader had an intense finals week and was invited to a party. reader is not under age ofc, but hasn't really thought about drinking before so gives it a try and yikes. THE POINT IS how would the batboys react? like they come pick reader up, take care of them, idk

ofc !! read it here !

[problemspritester]

I introduced Archer now I'm going to talk about throne biology and culture until I turn blue

Biologically, thrones are extremely similar to humans, with the exception that they naturally grow wings and toxin producing spines called thorns. This toxin varies little between individual thrones and nowadays most thrones are not harmed by anyone elses toxin.

Wing placement (purple) can be in one of three locations, the side of the head, the waist, and the ankles. Placement is hereditary, but not related to thorn growth or flight capacity. (Adult throne can all fly just as good as one another regardless of where their wings are) Adults are the only throne that can fly, children are able to fall slower but not much. Children are enrolled in flight classes as soon as they exhibit the ability to create lift. Its magic don't worry about it too much.

For all intents and purposes, all Throne are blind. They have receptors for sight, but lack the eyes to use them. Despite this they can still navigate effectively using their other senses. In addition they developed a special type of "eye"wear specifically to access their otherwise useless ocular receptors, allowing them to see normally.

Thorns are cartilaginous, and while not very rigid are very sharp on the tip. They will grow back if broken.

Thorn growth zones (green) can be in one of 7 different locations for an individual. As in, an individual will never grow two thorns in two different locations. Thorn growth is also hereditary, as is thorn shape and quantity. (If a Root and a Heart were to have a child, the child could be a root with the heart-parents thorn shape, or evern farther back familial traits, like a grandmothers zone if neither parent exhibit it)

Thorn position also lends to your class in society, with Roots (feet) being lowest, and the Crown (top of head) being royalty. (Crown refers to not only the position a thorn grows in but also the formal title of the ruler of the throne.) (the Crown (little t) refers to the body part, The Crown (big T) refers to the ruling class)

Root thorns, despite the diagram, are not always on both feet. If they are they are rarely symmetrical. They made effective soldiers in the races infancy due to kicking being a more effective way of administering toxin than tackling. Once weapons were developed foot combat was rendered obsolete but the class continued to be used as soldiers. Roots that are not soldiers are generally lower class and when not provided for by The Crown, are employed by Navals as couriers.

The Naval is the traditional "merchant class". Long ago a large group formed the "Navy" to ensure goods were delivered to throne worldwide, though any class of people can join the Navy. However, since space travel has been developed and normalized many Navals choose to serve on the mission ships as navigators and additional soldiers when needed.

Plexii were, along with Hearts, the "caretaker" type back in the day. Children need babysat, illnesses and injuries need healed, these two have a natural inclination to help. A trait which persists into modern times. While they are not required to perform certain jobs, generally they prefer caring for others. On mission ships they serve almost exclusively as attendants to the UPGe children.

Throats begin the classes of "government officials" and "authority figures". They are given preferential treatment in regards to choosing a commanding officer on mission ships, the title being called "Voice of the Crown" for a reason. Throats have a unique ability to project and boom their voice, lending assistance to the jobs theyre given.

Brows are the second of the "government" classes. They serve as advisors to Throats and the Crown with their ability to "feel" correct decisions. Not quite foresight but close enough to be effective. With the absence of a Crown a Brow will be chosen to serve as a planets Jewel until a suitable Crown can be provided.

the Crown refers to Throne whos thorns grow out of the top of their head. (looking like theyre wearing a crown) They serve as Throne royalty and are the ultimate say on decision-making throughout Throne-occupied space. When the Throne occupy a planet, a Crown is chosen to lead that planet. Failing to appoint a Crown a Brow will be appointed in stead. This person, Crown or Brow, is called a Jewel. The current head of The Crown permanently resides on the Throne homeworld, but thanks to advanced holographic technology the Reigning Crown can settle debates between Jewels.

#throne fs #fanspecies #longtext #anyone know how to add readmores on mobile? cause i sure fucling dont #LOOOOORRRRRREEEEE

[4ffyl0n]

@everyone Hello ALL/EVERYBODY ON SOCIAL MEDIA AND STUFF! <:YEP:809755660345671691> peepoHug <:Pog:962806253040582727> How is EVERYBODYS SUNDAY 2023-02-19 TODAY Nice/Good in a way or something right..!?!?!? 🤔 My SUNDAY 2023-02-19 TODAY IS Nice/Good <:YEP:832266709574221884> Because i was playing Pokémon Go all day LONG! <:YEP:809755660345671691> <:Pog:962806253040582727> TOOK 14 234 STEPS TODAY! 👀 <:YEP:809755660345671691> <:Pog:962806253040582727> And was eating Dinner at my parents place today at 16:30 Swedish Time! <:YEP:809755660345671691> SOME Curry Rice WITH Soya Nuggets, Salad and Yellow Princess Cake for Desert! <:YEP:809755660345671691> <:Pog:962806253040582727> <:Kreygasm:492141174920970260> 📸 And we are always playing Monopol/Monopoly after the Dinner! <:YEP:809755660345671691> <:Pog:962806253040582727> i Was a light Dad/Father Train and Mom/Mother Bathub! <:YEP:809755660345671691> And Dad/Father WON THE GAME! <:YEP:809755660345671691> And ME in 2 <:YEP:809755660345671691> #longtext #longtext2023 #longtexts #longtexts2023 #longtextsarethebest #longtextsarethebesttexts #4ffy #4ffy2023 #4ffyl0n #4ffyl0n2023 #sweden #sweden🇸🇪 #swedenimages #sweden_photolovers #sweden2023 #sweden2023🇸🇪 #sweden2023📸 #sweden2023🇸🇪📸 #instagram #instagram2023 #i͜͡n͜͡s͜͡t͜͡a͜͡g͜͡r͜͡a͜͡m͜͡2023 #instagram2023❤️ #food #food2023 #foodblogger #foodblogger2023 #foodpics #boardgamer #boardgamer2023 #monopoly https://www.instagram.com/p/Co3IR6ZtLDx/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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[xchiyuu]

The Art of Letting Go~

So today I stumbled over the topic of letting certain things in your life go, specifically friends.

For a person who tends to be really clingy and attached to people that are important to me, this was a question I asked myself a couple of times over the past years. You see I had a friend, let’s call her Anne, and she was my best friend since I know I am alive. We grew up together and were also related to each other. She was like a sister to me and at that time I would have done everything for her.

So the problem was that she got depressed. Like really bad and I wanted to help. I wanted to be there for her. The thing is, she distanced herself from me really suddenly. Like one day we were still close and the other day she insulted me and pushed me away. It was really bad and it fucking hurt.

I thought that this is just because she is in a very bad place and that it would pass. So I waited and still tried to help, but I couldn’t and she definitely didn’t want me to. This was the situation over 4 years or more. I held on, i just couldn’t let go because she was so important to me.

Also there were these moments of hope. The moments when for a blink of an eye everthing was like it was before. A little moment where everything was okay. The problems with these moments is that in the end it just hurts you more because you start to think it turns back to normal. But it goes back to shit again just as fast.

In those years i didn’t really had a real friend. I mean had friends but no one to really talk to. And I couldn’t tell my mother because Anne was family and i didn’t want to worry her. So I was in a really dark place, too but i never fully realized it because at that time it didn’t matter to me. More likely I didn’t thought about myself. I always put myself and especially my problems beneath anyone elses.

I finally distanced myself from Anne, 2-3 years ago but I still couldn’t really let it go. Over those years I processed everything that happened. The most important thing of it was the part about what it did to me. It kind of broke me back then but I wasn’t able to realize. In the end, Friends can break hearts, too. Another important thing I came to realize was the realationship that we had all those years was really toxic. To see that I needed the help from other people. The help of my two best friends now. I felt what a friendship truly should be like and I’m so grateful for them.

I talked to Anne a couple of months ago even if I avoided that moment a long time and I think I am finally able to start closing that chapter of my life. Yes, “starting to” because I still have to process and heal from that time and that’s okay. Those years weren’t good times but I’m grateful for the lesson it tought me. Sometimes it’s better to let things go that clearly aren’t meant to be. I know it hurts and I know that you think you cannot make it. But I’m certain you can. It’s okay if you need time to figure things out and it’s okay if you need a long long time for it. I did too.

I want to end this post with a quote from Erin Hanson:

“Sometimes the thing you’re fighting for isn’t worth the cost. And not everything you ever lose, is bound to be a loss.”

#letting go #friends #toxic friendship #lesson #life #hurt #let go #deep #my story #thoughts #memory #longtext #long text post

[ephemeral-earthling]

2019

Man I have not written anything on tumblr in so long. This post is mostly for me, and my thoughts about this year. 2019 was one of the most challenging and painful experiences of my entire life. Well, the first half. 

I got an appendectomy a few days after new year, and after that surgery was in constant, unbearable pain. I had to quit my (relatively new) job after living in Utah for just six months because I couldn’t stand up. I had no support group here, no friends, and was trying to get a diagnosis or an answer about why i was in so much agony. Doctors didn’t believe me, they brushed my pain aside, and I had to fight tooth and nail against this countries medical system for someone to help me.  The first half of this year was exhausting and lonely. My boyfriend, who, bless him has supported me through all of this, still had to go to his full time job so i spent months alone trapped inside my apartment, dealing with pain, becoming depressed, and mourning the loss of my freedom and life. 

After four months, I finally got diagnosed with a chronic bladder disease and started to get my health under control. I tried different meds, I started doing yoga every day, I started to slowly get better. The first half of this year was exhausting and lonely and painful. It drained me in a way I’m still recovering from. 

I am now 24, and living with an unexpected chronic illness. It is scary to fear a relapse or a flare up, and I’m still learning to navigate life with this disease and trying to keep a positive attitude. 

But I am also 24 and supporting myself somewhere I always wanted to live. I wanted to move out west since I was little, and I did. Despite the pains and challenges of this year, there is so much to reflect on. My boyfriend proved himself to me time and time again. After finally moving in together after the first year of our relationship was long-distance,  we only had five months together before my life fell apart. He staying with me,  wrapping me in his arms as I cried and sobbed in pain, sitting on the tub and holding my hand as I cried on the toilet, reminding me time and time again that things would get better. I rarely believed him, but they did. 

I am 24, working somewhere I wanted to work before I even moved here. I love my job, I love my co-workers who have become my friends, and I love the impacts that I can make in children’s lives. I love being able to inspire others to care about and protect nature. 

I am 24 and recently got admitted to grad school, along with my partner, and one of my co-workers. Despite all the challenges this year held, I still managed to get into a very exclusive program, and will get to live in the forest in Idaho during the 2020 school year. I am so proud of myself not just for getting in, but even just for trying.  

This year showed me my own strength. Chronic illness makes you feel small and burdensome and scared much of the time. But l have now experienced the worst life has to offer, and can walk around with a straight face while experiencing pain that would leave others crying. After experiencing that kind of pain, nothing else really scares me any more. I know what I can survive. I know what I have gone through, and although I came out of my fight battered and tired, I came out alive, and I came out stronger despite my weariness. 

This year reminded me to slow down. My illness is triggered by stress, and as someone who grew up in an abusive home, my anxiety had become a part of my self-identity, it seemed an aspect of my person-hood. I learned how to slow down, I learned how to take time for myself, I learned not to push it. Rather than being go, go go, I now know I need time to stretch and do yoga and take deep breaths every day. I got better at advocating for myself and my needs. 

This year was a whirlwind, and seeing as the first half was like one long waking nightmare, it feels like I’ve only experienced six months of this year from June to now, so it doesn’t seem like december should be here yet. 

So here’s to 2019, the year that taught me that I am strong enough to get through anything. The year that taught me tears do not make me weak. The year my life was stolen from me and the year I fought, tooth and nail, sometimes against my own body, to get it back. The year that I reclaimed ownership over my life. The year I continued to fall in love. Cheers. 

#2019 #life #self #personal #longtext #long post

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Feeling ko talaga wala akong kaibigan.

Okay lang naman, sanay naman na ako. Wala akong kausap, wala akong kasama. Buti nalang si god lang ang tunay na kaibigan. Di naman ako nakakalimot, palagi ako nag papasalamat. At nag sosorry sa mga kasalanan. Di naman ako humihiling, kusa naman nya binibigay.

Ayos na din ganto at least di ko pinoproblema, mga problema nla. Well mas close kami ni god. Kesa sa mga plasticfriends. Yea. Lahat ng tao ganon, ganon nakikita ko sa mundo. Lahat hindi totoo. Sarili mo lang. Ang mahalaga, mabuting kaibigan at kapatid ako. Kahit di ko sila lagi nakikita/nakakasama. Alam kong may mga kaibigan ako. Kasi naging totoo ako sakanila.

#kwento #tagalog #thoughts #longtext

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Kodėl keleiviai nenori važiuoti Šilutės autobusais?

Šią baltą žiemos dieną nusprendžiau truputį pasidomėti, kodėl žmonės nelabai (švelniai tariant) nori važiuoti „UAB Šilutės autobusų parko“ (toliau ŠAP) autobusais.

Kadangi pats esu šilutiškis, pastebiu senus, gremėzdiškus, dūmijančius, pakiūžusius ir pustuščius Šilutės autobusus, važiuojančius tiek mieste, tiek užmiestyje. Kyla klausimas, kodėl jais naudojasi gan mažai žmonių. Nemažai keliauju ne tik Lietuvoje, tad matau, kaip kitur yra sprendžiamos visuomeninio keleivių vežimo užduotys ir daugmaž įsivaizduoju, kas yra geras viešasis transportas, o kas nelabai. Deja, galvojant apie Šilutės autobusus, apima gilus liūdesys, nes juos priskirčiau tai antrai kategorijai, kuri nėra sektinas pavyzdys.

Tad pabandysiu panagrinėti, kokios problemos kamuoja Šilutės autobusus bei kodėl keleiviai vengia jais važiuoti ir kaip būtų galima tai pakeisti. Todėl tekstas nebus trumpas.

Susipažinimą su situacija pradedu nuo interneto svetainės - www.silutesautobusai.lt. Svetainė jau gerokai morališkai pasenusi, tiek dizaino, tiek funkcionalumo prasme. Reikia pagirti, kad bent jau yra pritaikyta mobiliesiems įrenginiams. Vaizdinė autobusų medžiaga, tikrai neskatina rinktis ŠAP paslaugų, nuotraukos prastos kokybės, autobusai nuotraukoje ne pirmos jaunystės. Žiūrint iš vartotojo (keleivio) pusės, pliusas, kad tituliniame puslapyje iškarto galima rasti nuorodą į tvarkaraščius, bet tik tiek.

Atsidarius tvarkaraščių nuorodą, deja matau tik formaliai įgyvendintą reikalavimą, kad tvarkaraščius pateikti reikia. Pats pateikimo būdas nelabai aiškus, reikia gerai pasigilinti, norint suprasti, kiek kartų per dieną važiuoja autobusai vienu ar kitu maršrutu. Nėra jokios galimybės matyti visų galimų maršrutų iš tam tikros stotelės (juk keleiviai važiuoja net tik iš Šilutės autobusų stoties). Tad informacijos apie maršrutus pateikimas ir patogumas keleiviams yra labai nekokybiškas. Nekalbu apie informacijos pateikimą fiziškai autobusų stotelėse, ten situacija turbūt dar graudesnė.

Toliau, pats maršrutų sudarymas ir autobusų dažnumas, man kelia nemažai klausimų.

Pvz.: kai į Rusnę važiuojama tik trečiadienį ir šeštadienį ir tai tik 1 kartą dienoje. Nuvažiavus į Rusnę (ar atvirkščiai), kaip grįžti? Tiesa yra dar vienas maršrutas Šilutė – Rusnė – Uostadvaris, bet čia tiek visokių išlygų ir išimčių ir jis gan painus, todėl neaprašinėsiu.

Kita problema, pvz.: jei reikia nuvažiuoti į Švėkšną (vieną didesnių miestelių rajone), yra net 3 skirtingi maršrutai. Tiesa, reisų daugiau nei į Rusnę, bet sužiūrėti visas galimybes, kaip nuvykti į Švėkšną, reikia peržiūrėti 3 maršrutus. Jokios galimybės susirasti informaciją tiesiogiai, kokie visi galimi maršrutai tarp 2 stotelių.

Visų maršrutų neanalizuoju, bet kyla klausimas, kada paskutinį kartą buvo peržiūrėti maršrutai, autobusų dažnumai, atsižvelgta į keleivių srautus? Atsakymo nerandu, bet panašu, kad senai.

Kita problema, pustuščiai autobusai, pvz.: miesto autobusas vadinamas Antrukas. Ne kartą mačiau didelį, nepatogų autobusą, kuriuo važiuoja 1-2 žmonės. Pats neatsimenu, kada važiavau šiuo autobusu. Ir žinau kodėl nevažiavau. Visų pirma, maršrutas išraitytas nelogiškai per miestą. Antra, normalios ir patogiai prieinamos informacijos, kada toks autobusas važiuoja, nebuvimas, verčia rinktis kitus būdus keliauti. Čia matau, neatsakingą resursų naudojimą, kai leidžiamas neproporcingas autobusas pagal keleivių srautus. Ir vėl kyla klausimas, kada paskutinį kartą buvo daryta kokia nors analizė tokio maršruto? Man neteko girdėti.

Ne kartą teko matyti ir situaciją, kai į tarpmiestinį maršrutą išleidžiamas miestui pritaikytas autobusas (pvz.: į Klaipėdą), kuris yra nepatogus ilgesnėms distancijoms. Čia vėl atbaidomi keleiviai.

Neteko girdėti informacijos iš ŠAP, kaip jie pritaikė vietos maršrutus atsiradus traukiniui į Klaipėdą. Jei kokie pasikeitimai ir buvo, apie juos žino turbūt tik ŠAP darbuotojai ir keli keleiviai, kurie priversti važinėtis autobusais, nes neturi kitų alternatyvų.

Pabandžiau pažiūrėti kaip ŠAP sekasi finansiškai. Deja, svetainėje pateiktos ataskaitos už 2016 metus, o jau artėja metas, kai reikėtų teikti ir už 2018 metus. Iš ataskaitų (ir viešos informacijos) matau, kad apyvarta 2016 metais mažėjo, keleivių taip pat mažėjo, tiesa, pelnas kiek paaugo (nuo €40 tūkst. 2015 m. iki €70 tūkst. 2016).

Pagal rekvizitai.lt duomenis, darbuotojų taip pat mažėja ir yra visu 20 mažiau nei numatyta etatų (šiuo metu dirba 72, o etatų yra 92 pagal 2016 m. duomenis). Priežastis gan aiški, palyginti maži atlyginimai, vidurkis kiek daugiau nei €660 „ant popieriaus“, kas yra gerokai mažiau nei Lietuvos vidurkis (~€936 „ant popieriaus“), todėl nenuostabu, kad trūksta darbuotojų, o dirbantys nėra labai motyvuoti.

ŠAP svetainėje taip pat pavyko rasti, kad 2018 metais buvo 2 viešieji pirkimai įsigyti vieną naudotą (ne senesnį nei 2000 m.) tarpmiestinį ir 2 naudotus (ne senesnius nei 2010 m.) priemiestinius autobusus. Tiesa, nežinau ar pavyko ką įsigyti, nes tokios informacijos nėra. Bet išvada paprasta, perkami ne pirmos jaunystės autobusai, taip papildant ir taip jau seną parką.

Seni autobusai, dar viena priežastis kuri atbaido keleivius. Turbūt nereikia daug aiškinti kodėl. Seni daugiau genda (didėja rizika vėlavimo ar neatvykimo), yra nepatogūs, prastai šildomi, garsiai veikia, ne ergonomiški ir t.t. ir pan. Nėra malonu važiuoti tokiais autobusais.

Akivaizdu, kad viešasis transportas yra apleistas, neūkiškai valdomas, todėl turime tikrai nekokią situaciją. O galėtų būti atvirkščiai, galėtumėme būti pavyzdys, kaip reikia tvarkytis, tiekti kokybiškas paslaugas, gerinti gyventojų susisiekimą viešuoju transportu ir gyvenimo kokybę.

Keletas idėjų, kaip galima būtų pagerinti susidariusią situaciją

Visų pirma, reikėtų padaryti patogią tvarkaraščių peržiūrą, su platesnėmis galimybėmis, pvz.: paieška iš konkrečios stotelės visų galimų maršrutų. Taip pat, sukurti ir mobilių įrenginių sprendimą (programėlę), tvarkaraščiams, o tokių pavyzdžių ir sistemų yra, tereiktų prie jų prisijungti.

Antra, reikėtų peržiūrėti visus esamus maršrutus, jų keleivių srautus. Įvertinti, kurie naudingi, kurie ne. Suderinti autobusus su keleivių kiekiu, kad nevažiuoti dideli tušti autobusai, švaistydami brangų kurą ir smarkiai teršdami pervežant tik kelis žmones.

Atnaujinti autobusų parką, naujais, ekologiškais, ergonomiškais, nedideliais autobusais, kurie negenda, kuriuos prižiūrėti lengviau. Finansavimą galima gauti iš taršos kvotų pardavimo kitoms valstybėms, kur keletas kitų rajonų jau pasinaudojo tokia galimybe įsigyti autobusų. Taip pat, galima rašyti ES projektus, parko atnaujinimui. Resursų tikrai galima atrasti ir likvidavus nenaudojamą turtą ir pan.

Peržiūrėti miesto ir rajono maršrutus, ištirti žmonių keliavimo įpročius. Kaip ištirti? Mobilių ryšių operatoriai turi nemažai informacijos, kaip juda mobilūs telefonai (ir jų savininkai), kur didžiausi srautai, kuriuo laiku ir pan., tokiais duomenimis gali pasidalinti su savivaldybėmis. Iš šių duomenų, galima daryti išvadas, kuriuos maršrutus tankinti, kur jų trūksta, o kur per daug.

Suderinti vietos autobusų maršrutus su traukiniu Šilutė – Klaipėda. Taip pat suderinti autobusų maršrutus, pvz, Rusnė – Šilutė, ir Šilutė – Žemaičių Naumiestis ir pan.

Pritaikyti autobusų maršrutus turizmo sezonui, į Kintus, į Ventę, Mingę, Rusnę, suderinant su keltais į Nidą. Tvarkaraščius išversti bent į anglų kalbą, kad užsienio turistai galėtų orientuotis.

Peržiūrėti Antruko maršrutą, padarant jį daugiau draugišką miestiečiams, įrengiant logiškas stoteles, aiškų važiavimo grafiką, pvz.: kas pusvalandį piko metu ir kas valandą ne piko. Įrengti informacines švieslentes apie autobusų važiavimą miesto stotelėse, taip, kaip yra Augustovo mieste Lenkijoje. Gal būt reikia ir antro maršruto iš Pagrynių.

Tapti atviriems ir aktyviems, kviesti miestiečius persėsti į naujus, švarius autobusus.

Taip, tai ilgalaikis procesas, kuris vaisius duos ne iškarto, tačiau visos priemonės įmanomos, nereikalauja stebuklingų ir didelių resursų, o naudą pajustų ne tik rajono gyventojai, bet ir svečiai, juk esame turizmo kraštas.

#silutesautobusai #silute #visuomeninistransportas #problemairsprendimai #turizmas #idejossilutei #ilgas #ilgaspostas #longtext #lietuva #lithuania