#me? sad about the buckleys?

[queerbuckleyhans]

do you ever think about how maddie's depression started when she was 9-10 years old? think about just how young that is. imagine such a little kid, seeing her parents suffocating under grief that no one is allowed to about, and seeing her little brother, not even 3 years old, already loved more by his sister, who's still in elementary school and shouldn't know what it's like to grieve, than by his parents who put all of their trust in him and abandoned him when he wasn't a miracle.

she grew up so fast.

#me? sad about the buckleys? #it's more likely than you'd think #maddie buckley #evan buckley #margaret buckley #phillip buckley #911 #mine

[lover-of-mine]

#911 #buddie #911edit #buddieedit #911 on fox #911 fox #911 abc #evanbuckleyedit #eddiediazedit #my edit #otp: you don't need to pretend with me #i dont know #i just had to make it so i would stop thinking about it #this song is sad tho soaksokasoaks #lauren 🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶 #911verse #evan buckley #eddie diaz

[p4nishers]

with eddie confirming he only married shannon bc of chris and his disastrous relationship with ana i think it's pretty safe to say that he's gay. he is SO gay and i was right.

#no no sshhhhhhh let me live my truth pls #no but it's so sad to think about cause if he WAS actually 19 when chris was born than he literally had no way i #of even knowing who he was/could be and he had to bury that side of him bc everyone needed him in that marriage h #and he never got to fully know that part of himself but know he has a family and his son is happy and he has space to experiment and #actually get to know himself #im so fucking emotional i love him so much he means everything to me #eddie diaz #911 fox #buddie #evan buckley #buddie 911 #911 6b #911 show #911 6x16 #911 spoilers

[findafight]

QPR stobin in their forties, married since, like, '87, finding out about qpr language. They see someone mention it or just stuble upon it on the internet and go oh!! That's us! That's what we have! :) Because they're still involved with lgbtq activism, and are like oh!! These young people have words for what we are isn't that amazing!

I think Robin would find out that sometimes people call their queerplatonic partner "zucchinis" absolutely hilarious and never refer to Steve as anything else. He's her zucchini. Her sweet yam. Her pumpkin pie. Steve giggles at it and says "because we're fruity!"

They don't get divorced to get married to their romantic partners because that's a hassle and also they don't want to. What would happen to the children. To the cats. To the fish the cats long to eat that they are expressly forbidden from eating because their mother and father are cruel and deserve jail for a thousand years. They are each other's PERSON, no romantic relationship will change that. This causes some stir when it's revealed Steve is Eddie's partner and also Steve has a wife. Eddie Munson, beloved queer metalhead/rocker is a homewrecker?? They try to explain! They do!

Steve is like 'okay well we were best friends and soulmates and very queer in the 80's it was just easier to get married especially seeing as I wanted my parents to have nothing to do with anything incase I died, so no brainer. We already lived together, it didn't really change anything except we were able to adopt!" "But don't you want to marry someone you actually love?" "I love Robin more than anything else besides our children??" "Not...what about Eddie?" "Yeah I love him he's my partner. But I don't want to marry him I'm already married to Robin." "But you aren't in love with her" "not romantically no. We're what the kids call 'zucchinis'" "I'm sorry what" "zucchinis! It's what some people call a queerplatonic partner! Like, a life partner that isn't romantic but is still the most important person! Rob thinks it's a very funny name and I gotta say, with the unconventional nature of this type of relationship I agree it fits."

Steve gets on twitter and is like "sorry to everyone who doesn't understand platonically spending your whole life with someone but I'm different" and then logs tf off and lets people freak the hell out in the replies.

And Eddie is like yes my partner is married. No he's not cheating. Yes we were together when he got married. No I'm not jealous. Yes I knew he was getting married I know you know this I was the best man. No he's not getting a divorce to marry me now same sex marriage is legal. Yes I'm fine with it. No it's not a problem. Yes I understand ya'll don't get it. No I don't actually care you don't get it. Yes Robin and Steve are the most important person in each other's lives. No I'm not hurt by that they were like that when I met them. Yes I love him. No I'm not worried they're actually in a secret heterosexual relationship that's ridiculous and stupid this interview is over.

#qpr stobin #robin buckley #platonic stobin #steddie #give me unconventional relationship with rockerstar eddie!!! give me qpr stobin!!!! #i get that people want romantic ships to get married but i think that eddie wouldn't really want to get married #and also they were young (queer) adults in the 80's thats prime time for anitconformist queerness #also also if stobin were to get lavender married i doubt they'd get divorced bc they love each other too much #someone might being it up after same-sex marriage is legalized and they'd try to talk about it but get too upset because itd be too #much like a breakup. they cannot be separated they'll be too sad (not to mention how legally and financially their lives are entwined) #finda's rambles #finda writes stuff #this post probably makes no sense but whwtever im emo about qpr stobin #stobin #platonic with a capital p #steve and robin

[gayeddieagenda]

buck begins makes me crazy. buck what do u mean u never saw the ocean as a kid. u lived maybe two and a half hours away. im going back in time to yell at the buckley parents again

#he makes me lose it #midwesterners have an excuse to never make it to the ocean the buckleys do NOT #ugh he just said “california is a hard place to feel sad” im so emo about BUCK

[katlandry]

I love the idea that Nancy would be so accepting of herself and she’d have like a mini gay crisis for like 0.2 seconds, I do personally think she would bc that’s just the kind of person she is. HOWEVER there is something so funny about Nancy being so comp het that she thinks she’s homophobic, because every time she sees Robin with Vickie it makes her want to rip her own hair out but she tries so HARD to be okay with it and she just doesn’t understand why she’s feeling this way about Robin & Vickie when she’s so happy for Steve & Eddie?

and everyone, even MIKE, is hinting at her that it’s because she is literally in love with Robin but Nancy just never picks up on it until one day Jonathan (or Steve or Eddie, I picked Jonathan bc he knows her the best but honestly it works with any of them or maybe it’s all three of them that sit her down 😭) literally spells it out for her and she has a classic *oh* moment. And she’s so glad she isn’t homophobic, except now she has to deal with the fact she’s in love with Robin and Robin’s dating someone else.

Except Robin isn’t dating anyone, she and Vickie are just really good friends after being able to bond over their similarities and of course Robin is in love with Nancy too because who isn’t? She’s Nancy Wheeler. And now everyone has to suffer through watching these two mutually pine for each other and being disgustingly in love without the other knowing.

and Mike is just slowly but surely losing his mind…

#nancy wheeler #stranger things #stranger things 4 #ronance #nancy stranger things #natalia dyer #robin buckley #st4 #robin stranger things #maya hawke #steddie #steve harrington #eddie munson #comp het nancy is so important to me #i was supposed to just write about that but i had to give it a bit of a happy ending #i can’t do sad endings #nancy eventually gets tired of beating around the bush #and finally confesses to robin #and tells her she doesnt have to respond #she knows robin is with vickie #but nancy needed robin to know otherwise she’d lose her mind #BUT THEN #robin tells her she isn’t with vickie #and nancy is understandably so HAPPY #they kiss and live happily ever after #and mike is no better #bc ofc he’s in love with will and doesn’t realise #but oh do his friends #and max is one second away from sitting him down to yell at him #the wheeler siblings are one in the same lbr

[ohlookitsthearkhamknight]

Theres nothing more i love to read than Tommy’s first crush being Sal to the point he would do anything for an ounce of his attention that slowly broke his heart but he was desperate to feel any love and would put up with Sal being an asshole and never reciprocating his feelings. Like mmm thats the good shit. (Im totally not projecting lols)

I love that its not just Evan thats learning to be loved and wanted, its Tommy too i just love that vulnerability *chefs kiss*

more hc in the tags

#just thinking about after Gerard left and tommy did some digging #he finally realized OH #it wasnt just looking up to sal #it was a crush too #i can see him doing EVERYTHING to get some form of acknowledgment #maybe they go out drinking and Tommy lets himself lie to himself and pretend its something more than ‘bestfriends going out for a drink’ #tommy in some seedy bar kissing a broad guy with short hair that he can pretend is sal #going to work the next day and pretending he didnt call his one night stand sal #catching glimpses in the changing room #chimney has a suspicion but keeps his mouth shut #hen just looks at him sadly #and sal barely looks at him at all #tommy feeling sad that sal left for good but at one of their meet ups sal goes on a rant being homophobic and all #and tommys heart shatters because it finally hits him. he’ll never have a chance #sry tommy just makes me insane and i cant stop thinking about how his first crush could have been sal #tommy kinard #sal deluca #evan buckley #bucktommy #kinley #911 abc #911 show

[typicalopposite]

Ok so let’s take the Tommy Finds A Kitten Drabble here and add some (read: a lot… so here’s a TW for animal abuse) angst to it 👀 shall we

Tommy was always more of a cat person. He likes dogs but he just loves cats. And when he was little there was a stray cat in his neighborhood he would sneak food to until it trusted him enough he could pet it, but then it started trying to follow him home… and— and dad said boys are supposed to like dogs and his dad hated cats so Tommy loudly shooed the cat away which sort of stabbed a knife into the progress he had made it getting the cat to trust him… but it was for the best.

He still would bring the cat food but resorted to putting it down and leaving.

And yet still the cat began to trust him again and one night it did follow him home. It sat outside the house meowing and Tommy had to pretend he didn’t know why it was there… until eventually his dad stormed out screaming and hitting their chain link fence and the cat ran away… and Tommy used the moment alone to dab at his eyes eyes so his dad didn’t notice the tears.

Then later that night when his dad went out to buy more beer Tommy heard his dads old trucks tires screech as he backed out into the road then the sputter of the engine as he threw it into drive… followed by a thud—thud and then thw god awful sound of a cat howling in pain before going silent.

And Tommy knew his dad probably didn’t even try to swerve to miss it.

He thinks that’s probably where his disdain for making any kind of attachments to… well anything started.

And so when he shows up with this tiny kitten sleeping in the hood of his pull over there is a slight tremble in his hands as he gently pulls her out of the hood and sets her down in the sink. Evan definitely notices, and Tommy knows he will have to share that story or his poor overthinking boyfriend will over think himself into a frenzy… but that can wait until this extremely small ball of fuzz is bathed and fed and settled into her new home.

#911 #911 drabble #911 ficlet #911 show #911 abc #911 season 7 #tommy kinard #buck and tommy #evan buckley #I felt like this one was gonna get a little sad when I first started thinking about it. #and here we are… making things sad #but with a happy ending and a very spoiled little baby #but like yall give me some names because I suck a naming things #she is gonna be a little fire kitty!

[snowangeldotmp3]

tw; depression

“It’s just—do you ever feel like—what am I saying? You used to be King Steve, of course you don’t know.”

“Rob…”

She screws her eyes shut, and tries again. “Do you ever feel like you don’t belong?”

“What?”

“Like it’s fine most of the time, it doesn’t even really bother you, but there are moments where you realize that you don’t fit like you should and you just—you know it. I can’t explain it. I get it, I wasn’t here for a lot of the shit that went down with all of you but, I don’t see how I fit into the equation anymore.”

What if there’s something about me that drives people away?

She sniffles, silently cursing herself for doing so. “Or it’s like, I know it can’t last forever. I can feel the expiration date creeping up on me. I’m the odd one out, I’ve been here the least amount of time and I don’t even add anything important to the group. You all have something, I’m just the girl who speaks different languages and rambles too much for her own good,” she pauses, taking a deep breath to stop the burning in her lungs. “I don’t wanna lose you guys because you guys are all great and you’re my best friend in the world but it’s—it’s a feeling I can’t shake. Like I’m waiting for the other shoe to drop and this has been one big joke or—do you remember last summer? What I said right before we got truth serumed?”

She wouldn’t blame him if he didn’t remember, getting drugged and then the…everything else after that, but she can see his brows thread together, trying to sift through his own memories of last summer—tied together in chairs thinking they were both going to die in that stupid, stupid mall. He shakes his head. The familiar numbness takes over Robin; a detachment. Hollow. She plays with her rings.

“My whole life feels like one big error,” she repeats, in the same intonation as she had that night. She laughs, wryly, ignoring the burn of tears behind her eyes. Steve’s face drops, eyes softening. Robin can’t look at him.

“Rob,” he says, placing his hands over hers. His voice is wet when he speaks. “You aren’t an error, Robin.”

“It just feels like—”

“No, Robin,” Steve says firmly. “You’re right, I don’t really know how you feel. I don’t know what that’s like. But I know that you aren’t an error. You aren’t the odd one out."

#tw depression #here's the sad robin #robin buckley #steve harrington #platonic stobin #remember that time i said i was gonna write something for robin based off creep by radiohead? this is from that #stranger things #sorry i just think about robin feeling like the odd one out because she's so new and the line from rebel robin the podcast and i just #i've gotten more comfortable writing nancy lately but robin angst is where i love exploring #lol she's just like me fr #sad AND gay #my fics #my ficlets

[hoediaz]

letters from medea, salma deera.

#911edit #buddie #evan buckley #buddieedit #i'll never learn how to tag gifs and that's a promise #anyway blending is not my friend but evan buckley is and i am TERRIBLY sad about him today! #i have written and read approx one billion scenarios where eddie tells buck he loves him but the idea of seeing it on screen #even platonically! #makes me want to throw up i need a lobotomy #anyway! i needed to excise this and now it's everyone's problem #also does it make anyone else crazy that eddie leans into buck while laughing in that 4x06 scene. what is ur problem sir. #*gifs

[art-o-gant]

some silly little drawings

#that are not meant to be silly at all im thinking about fin des vers de jean prouvaire this isnt fun . #um #fun story actually why im drawing combeferre so much today um #i had a dream where my design for him got not!themmed #but like literally all the other ones wdre fine it was just my ferre #like he looked like the rock #so i woke up and i decided I Must Fix This #in my dream also i met jeff buckley and i woke up and i was sad. that psrt of my dream was so cool and now im SAD #anyway #time for the dreaded tags #les mis #les miserables #les amis #les mis fanart #enjolras #combeferre #jehan prouvaire #love this guy #aughsjdndkdn #THEY ARE SO DEAR TO ME #please click on them to get the Full Experience[TM]

[eddiebabygirldiaz]

Fuck it Friday

tagged by @daffi-990 @thewolvesof1998 @giddyupbuck @rewritetheending @devirnis

thanks you beloveds! <3

now that paint sex is finished and posted i am focusing hard on the calls fic. for context this snippet is occurring while buck is comatose after the lightning strike.

The medic in Eddie is internally screaming all of the effects of reinjuries. And for the first time in a while, Eddie hates how much he knows.

He knows how continued harm to one spot of the body can degrade all that holds a person together until they are worn and weary and unable to function anymore.

He knows the pain of enduring repeating, mirroring injuries, far too intimately for his liking. Shot enough times to know the taste of metal in the back of his throat and the pathways it can carve through a shoulder and the invisible force that catapults through your body, a shockwave that temporarily numbs every nerve until the pain blasts out so violently you feel like you are being torn in half.

He knows what reinforced trauma can do to a person, how it can cut open old scars and create new wounds with similar shapes and textures that go far too deep to ever heal.

Eddie lost his wife.

He lost Shannon several times, really, but the last time–the last time is something he carries with him, forever and always. Those moments with her in the back of an ambulance where so many other lives had been saved and spared–but not hers, why not hers–engraved into his heart.

It scarred over eventually and every now and then Eddie will run his fingers over them, the jagged and rough lines that nearly ripped his heart in half, remembering how he bled and hurt and sobbed and nearly destroyed himself, but able to feel proud that he made it through the loss, he kept going until he was more than just his grief.

He can’t do that again.

tagging @elvensorceress @spaceprincessem @diazass @anxieteandbiscuits @callaplums @bucks118 @lover-of-mine @housewifebuck @captain-hen @lemonzestywrites @shitouttabuck @gayedmundodiaz @folk-fae @buddierights @monsterrae1 @loserdiaz @rogerzsteven @spotsandsocks @thekristen999 @disasterbuckdiaz @911onabc @vampbuckley @forthewolves @eddiediaztho @hoodie-buck @the-likesofus @arthursdent @bigfootsmom @paranoidbean and anyone else who wants to share!

#its funny because when i make buck hurt i am all giddy about it but when its eddie it just makes me so fucking sad and forlorn #idk what that is about asdfghjkl #but it means that me and eddie are REALLY going through it in this fic #buddie #buddie wip #eddie diaz #evan buck buckley #911 #5+1 calls #ryan writes #fuck it friday

[forestmossling]

there’s one thing that i find incredibly unrealistic about robin’s canon (and fanon tbh) characterization. you’re telling me this girl speaks three languages fluently (excluding pig latin) and she never ever slips into any of them?? the only line in another language we ever get from her is “flambé”??

like, i fluently speak one foreign language, can more or less communicate in another and am in the process of learning a third, and i call bullshit. as a person who constantly struggles to articulate a point in my native language without using english words or phrases (and literally all people i know that are fluent in foreign languages are the same way) i do NOT believe that robin doesn’t just sometimes bluescreen because there’s a phrase in one of the languages she knows that would perfectly express what she wants to say that just doesn’t have an equivalent in english, but she can’t use it because nobody will understand her. or that she never subconsciously literally translates a phrase from another language in english because it’s so natural to her at this point that she just forgets words don’t collocate in english like that or there’s no such saying in english and steve just blinks at her and goes “yeah, literally nobody says that”.

and she’s a RAMBLER. it’s canon that she can’t control what comes out of her mouth half the time and you’re telling me she doesn’t unknowingly sprinkle in words and expressions in literally THREE FOREIGN LANGUAGES SHE’S FLUENT IN when she gets nervous or goes on a rant???????

and her just casually messing up the prepositions she uses with verbs from the models she learnt in other languages and the others understanding her perfectly but sensing there’s something wrong with the way she speaks without being able to pinpoint exactly what it is would just be so funny to see.

and just imagine her teaching steve some fun words that they use constantly like their own little secret code. the POSSIBILITIES. the POTENTIAL. because one of the coolest things about learning foreign languages, especially with other people, is being able to casually throw around phrases and words nobody else understands.

anyway, thank you for listening to my ted talk-

#once again #it’s time to project on your favorite fictional characters o’clock folks #and i’m not saying it’s just a st problem #trust me i have a lot more salty things to say about leo valdez’s very sad (and practically nonexistent) spanglish #this is not even all of my thoughts on robin knowing three other languages #trust me there are a lot more #i just didn’t want to drag this post out #robin buckley #robin buckley headcanons #robin buckley hc #stranger things hc #stranger things headcanons #stranger things #i am once again asking why you rob (hehe) robin of the possibility of being even more of a badass than she already is #and don’t let us linguistics and philology freaks relate to her even more #i just feel like a lot of situations in robin’s life objectively call for some dramatic yelling in spanish

[p4nishers]

Hey, what do you remember about getting shot? There was a searing pain. It felt like I got hit by a bus. And I was still standing. I remember falling. And everything got dark. And I thought, this is it. This is the last moment of my life. Then I woke up in the hospital. And that was it? That was it. No bright white lights, no trippy mind puzzles, just…thought I was dead and…then I wasn’t. So now am i allowed to ask how you are? Uh... honestly, Eddie, i...i don't know. YOU DIED, BUCK. You're gonna feel a lot of different ways about that. Sometimes all at the same time. I found the best way to process it is to...allow yourself to feel it. YEAH BUT YOU...YOU DO, EVENTUALLY, RIGHT? YOU...YOU PROCESS IT. EVERYDAY YOU OPEN YOUR EYES IN THE MORNING, YOU FEEL A LITTLE LESS SURPRISED THE WORLD IS STILL THERE.

#fuck im so sad #no but like im SO proud of eddie for this. for being able to talk about it. even if he wasn't truthful he still tried for bucks sake #therapy eddie i love you so much SO MUCH #buddie #evan buckley #buck x eddie #eddie diaz #911 6b #buddie 911 #911 6x12 #911 fox #the way buck was looking up at him all awed and mouth agape like PLS my dude control urself before someone (me) has a heart attack

[unclewaynemunson]

Crying thinking about how utterly lonely Nancy must've been ever since Barb died. She had no friends. None. No one outside her family and her boyfriends. Sure, she was friendly with the other newspaper kids and she got along just fine with her classmates, but it wasn't like they ever hung out outside of school. And then there was Robin, and she was terrified, because she hadn't let anyone in in such a long time, and what if they actually got along, what if she actually started enjoying Robin's company? So she pushed her away, but Robin didn't let her, she just kept breaking down Nancy's walls, one brick for every rambled word she said, until Nancy simply couldn't help but smile at her, laugh with her, confide in her, hold her hand, and eventually, at the end of that long road, kiss her. And she would never be lonely again, because Robin was her best friend just as much as she was her girlfriend.

#somehow i always end up writing fluff when a thought starts sad #oh well #i like how this one turned around anyway #stranger things #ronance #nancy wheeler #robin buckley #don't mind me rambling about stranger things #fruity ficlet

[bludhavensbirdboy]

Head canon that robin and Steve go see dirty dancing when it comes out in cinemas and after they go to Steve’s and practice the dances but robin is the one trying to lift steve !!

#Steve in his baby era #steve would also be in his bisexual element with the amount of hot people #dirty dancing came out in 87’ and it makes me sad that Eddie can’t be forced by steve and robin to go #you can’t tell me I’m wrong I’m so certain about this #irrelevant tags > #steve harrington #robin buckley #Headcanons #stranger things #steddie #ronance #bisexual steve harrington #eddie munson #nancy wheeler #the fruity four