#mostly a reminder for me tbh

[thecorvidforest]

your intrusive thoughts don’t make you a bad person. your intrusive thoughts don’t reflect who you are. your intrusive thoughts aren’t secretly your beliefs. your intrusive thoughts won’t send you to hell. your intrusive thoughts are not your fault. your intrusive thoughts are a symptom. you are not a bad person for experiencing them.

#corvidforest #/genuine #mostly a reminder for me tbh #it’s a rough night hahaha #ocd #obsessive compulsive disorder #intrusive thoughts

[paperbagedhead]

It's OK to not want to be touched, but sometimes...

(btw isn’t crying because they aren't getting hugged, it’s for an unrelated reason.)

#Mostly a message to myself #to remind me that some people are worth being uncomfortable for #autism #adhd #tbh creature #btw creature #adhd creature #autism creature #creature lore #my art #5k

[ct-multifandom]

I don’t usually make posts like this, but I’ve been seeing a lot of anti-intellectual junk lately, and I really think we need to put the word “pretentious” up on a shelf until people learn what it actually means.

It doesn’t describe someone who likes artsy-fartsy deep meaning media. People who are pretentious are fake. They’re posers trying to be sophisticated and unique, not like other girls. They pretend to only like stuff they think will make them sound cool when they talk about it. They want to act like they know something you don’t, and they want attention for it.

By definition, if you genuinely enjoy something, you can’t be pretentious. If it resonates with you, and you analyze it, and you don’t care what people think, that’s the polar opposite, actually. If you love obscure experimental prog music, if you watch underground high concept indie films through English teacher eyes, if you spend hours in a modern art museum reading each piece as a vessel for storytelling, if your backpack’s full of poetry books that inspire you, if you play underrated games that were someone’s passion project, if you have an interest in studying the classics or the masters, you are not pretentious.

Of course, some people just don’t like some stuff, and that’s fine, but that’s not what this is about. Don’t let anti-intellectuals shame you for enjoying things just because your interests are inaccessible to them, because they refuse to be brave and put effort into critical thinking. You’re not stuck up for refusing to overlook the craft of artists.

#anti intellectualism #media #movies #books #music #critical thinking #my friend who primarily listens to one very popular band once said that people who listen to obscure music are annoying and pretentious #which rubbed me the wrong way because 1 she knows that I listen to obscure music and 2 it’s such a cowardly consumerist take. anyone can #make music and hey a lot of the people who do make GOOD music. and this goes for all *obscure* media #this post was mostly inspired by people talking about Barbie and those anti pick me girls like the pick nobody girls who insist thinking is #for boys and having fun with an empty brain is for girls. Greta gerwig is an artist. I haven’t seen the movie yet but I know it has a deeper #message than haha cute pink! I’ve seen the summaries about the true meaning. the pinkness and popularity doesn’t negate the narritive. #though in the notes I saw a lot of tumblristas comunistas shitting on the film for being one big ad that people *fell for* which tbh is #tbh almost as anti-intellectual. don’t get me wrong they milked this film to sell hella shit but I don’t believe kids who play with dolls #are the target audience as these people claim. Barbie is a culturally iconic symbol almost archetypical of societal expectations for women #you say barbie people think unblinking perfect plastic pink girly. reminds me of the poem The Last Mojave Indian Barbie. yeah yeah you all #hate brands but this one carries undeniable significance and makes for a powerful literary device. it’s been used many times before #sorry for writing a tag essay about a film I haven’t even seen but I’m tired of internet people focusing so much on proving others wrong #that they end up oversimplifying everything just as much as the other person. god I saw people doing this to Nimona saying transphobes were #looking too deep into her character and they’re reactionary clowns for making that jump. like for once the transphobes are right. she is #trans. it’s a queer story. and irl the first people who notice queerness are the bigots who can tell you’re different. sick owns telling #them the story’s not that deep is harmful and it’s like they’re ignoring the real message on purpose. okay enough rambling hehe! thanks #barbie #nimona

[sketchy-tour]

Have I ever told yall a song I really associate with Dandy??? Like, when I think of Dandy this song just instantly comes to mind.

Course I got a whole playlist for them but this funky lil song lives in my mind rent free.

#text post #just rambling #dandy leon #Song sharing!!!! #aaa I love my silly Dandy playlist though its mostly corny love songs tbh. #Spotify deems a lot of the songs on it as “indie skater music” which is SO silly #Dandy cannot skate thats for sure. I dont think there are skateboards in WH #OH! OH BUT REBOOT DANDY!!! I could see Reboot Dandy being able to skate!!! ooh skaterboy #Reminds me I need to actually try and design au designs of Dandy. So far opposite Dandy is the only one I got a sort of design for #Otherwise I keep getting stuck. Maybe I need to make...rules for myself??? Idk idk idk. AU designing is SO hard #Youtube

[oddlilpupper]

Hello! It’s been a while~

Here’s a fan painting of Idren and my Ophelia from @honeypeabrain’s Ouroboros, glow up and all.

First time painting on my Surface pro, as well as my first attempt at not leaving in the lineart. Not quite yet at that level of artistry I wanna be at, but I think I’m getting closer. Hope ya’ll think it turned out okay! Still can’t do background TuT

Ramble down below!

These two have been invading my every thought lately. 

Thoughts like what they could have been before everything fell apart. How “the incident” turned them into enemies who may-or-may-not still have feelings for one another buried under all that hate and anger. How Idren stuck around and got both help and a support system (he and Sive seem pretty close, and I think I recall Honeypea mentioning Auryn  befriending Idren).

Meanwhile, Ophelia (or rather, all of our MCs) is forced to retire and lives in self-imposed exile. She COULD reach out for help, but as someone who struggles with mental health (on a less severe level and without PTSD) I know how hard that is. It’s much easier to lock yourself away and let it fester.

I like to imagine Idren knows this and wants to be a supportive figure in MC’s life. This especially considering his response to MC begging him not to drag them out of retirement. Granted, he goes about it in a.... unique way. BUT AT LEAST HE’S TRYING!!!!

Don’t get me wrong when I talk about the differences in experience. Considering the situation, Idren absolutely needed immediate attention and I can understand why no one took the time to make sure Ophelia/the MC was getting help. 

On the bright side, Ophelia/the MC was never completely alone. Not with Oma stopping by for visits!

But yeah, I don’t know. Something about these two resonates with me, both as individual characters and as a couple. 

#Ouroboros #Ouroboros fanart #Idren #OC #Not really satisfied with Idren's armor tbh #I think the problem is I keep drawing it as if it'd be mostly metal whereas in reality #given his more rogue-like style #It'd probably be mostly leather (or more of a leather like material) #Glad I didn't go with my original plan of making the chestplate one big snarling wolf face #On a slightly unrelated note #That new pokemon (ceruledge) lowkey reminds me of Idren #I caught a female ceruledge and named her Ida #She's my badass fire baby

[mountain-lion-gremlin]

Quick reminder:

P-shifters *arent* looking for power, or whatever

We literally just go creature and know we are creatur

some of us practice going creatur, some of us go creatur involuntarily

In past some were bad, but not all of us

now that it's universally disliked are so less likely to find those who want to fake being a p-shifter :b

aint nobody continuing to identify if all of us just wanted "power" (as in why the hell are there still p-shifters if it's seen as bad?)

most of us could completely do *without* the internet to get this so said "power" (I've spent years struggling with my relationship with my device and being my animal self, many can relate with me. It's been a very long time since I've interacted with a power hungry proclaimed p-shifter)

please stop spreading the idea to witch hunt and attack all p-shifters on sight

it also harms others that identify in a similar manner (clinicals, physical nonhumans, etc.) and literally helps no one

Just teach how to identify if people are looking for power and manipulation instead of targeting us

Thank youuu

And regardless

this isnt a post to try and "convince" you to believe or interact with p-shifters

tbh, wouldn't want to talk with you anyways if you weren't willing to listen to me :|

sooo.... DNI if you are going to be an asshole and have an issue with me being a p-shifter? I mean like I'm not here to bother you, but if you are going to bother me, imma just block you

ight bye

#bro this isn't a post to cast a safety net over abusive people #obviously #this is just a reminder to those who believe p-shifters are all horrible people #like please can we do something more constructive like idk #teach people how to actually be safe from *all* power abusers? #not just p-shifters? #Like we just want to be creaturs #frostbane hisses #also messy post #because yes #and I felt weird #also inspired off of someone asking what p-shifting is #and found a dumb anti p-shifter post that they reblogged #soooo #tbh I have no issue with people being hateful #it's not like I can stop you #but please leave me alone with it x-x #I'm not looking to fight anyone here just be a safe space and be chill (mostly) #now I'm rambling GG #mountain lion.txt #p-shifting mentioned #this is important for everyone to seeee

[daz4i]

ngl this all happened bc i stepped out of my tumblr bubble (my beloved mutuals and their anime posts) and went onto someone's blog (who is a very nice person but they post things that put me in doomscrolling mode. which. i never do). remind me to never do that again. i should be focusing on anime men's asses instead of politics. for my own mental health

#and i mean that last part unironically!!!!!!!!!! #I've been mostly doing fine as long as i had distractions going on at all times #as soon as i stop and think i am back in the trenches #(that's true p much all of the time but esp these days.) #this is a reminder from me to myself. don't click show post on stuff you blacklisted. only go on fun fandom blogs. #giving this tip to anyone in my situation who may benefit from that mindset too tbh. #(also given how i deleted all the posts on the topic. this may be incomprehensible to anyone who missed them. but still)

[duck-n-clover]

i apparently never posted this by itself which is wild to me so here it is again, disaster trio dressed as iconic slashers!!! the thing with drawing ocs as other characters is you cant obscure their faces or else its just. the guy. so Levi and Libra are holding their masks :) but i still like this alot! happy halloween!!!

Drew is @darby-draws' oc 🔪

#repostober #this was from 2021 when i was mostly on twitter i guess. #tbh i kinda wanna redraw this... but i got other stuff to work on kfhdsk #anyway we watched freddy vs jason the other day it reminded me of this drawing #fun fact i never seen either friday 13th or elm st movies before that lmao it was a good choice for first foray into it i liked it! #october 2021 #disaster trio #libra #levi

[aztrosist666]

oh okay sunday’s design FUCKS

#mostly bc his little ear wings remind me of grian sorry #also i love some good angel religious imagery #also acheron looks AWESOME i love her vibe i really hope she’s not a one-off quest appearance and then gone for three years like baizhu was #i don’t like aventurine though tbh . theyre really trying to recapture haikaveh but like if everything that made haikaveh appealing was gon #ratios not even autistic……………. #🐋

[mabelsguidetolife]

the sunflowers are coming up already….. now that the trenches are dug and hydrated, it’s time to plant some veggies

#mostly just peppers and tomatoes #some squash i think #idk my parents chose #anyway #gardening is kind of therapeutic tbh #reminds me of when i was a kid and i’d play in the dirt except with purpose

[lunarharp]

qify birthday scribblin

#witch hat tag #orufrey #i lov celebrating fictional birthdays. ok we all know it's not his real birthday but did i make up that its the day he was found? #all i can find is sensei saying it's the day they celebrate it. honestly i hope it's just a random day tbh #'happy birthday aka a reminder of the worst day of your life' why would they do that. do they just know he's spiritually a scorpio? Tell me #anyway im playing new pokemon i guess. in other updates for cai fans i've started playing persona 5 royal again because i dont understand #life when i am not playing that any more i think . but it'll never be the same i'll never go through what i went through then again... #i think my sprigatito will evolve soon. mostly i'm just glitchily falling off cliffs idek whats even going on #today was also tsukigumi black jack shonichi like what is going on

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

blessings list for @brown-little-robin!!

#today is my one day with nothing to do for the week #so i am working on fics and fic outlines and playlists and inspirations #this weekend my family is going to the ballet and taking several other girls from a family we know #AND THEN #we're going on a LONG DRIVE on monday which I'm very excited for #and getting a new puppy. which i am less excited for but she's going to be mostly my sister's. so. #also!! i made shakshouka yesterday and it was a huge hit with my family #and I'm making a strawberry cake tonight for no reason but that i want it #I've had the opportunity to work production tech for the studio my sister dances at and i told them i would do it whenever they need #which is SO FUN I LOVE IT if i can't do that stuff professionally at least i can do this!!! #and I've been reading and annotating my comparison copies of antigone and it's FASCINATING #plus God has been reminding me to pray more which is really good bc i do need the reminders tbh #feel free to rb and put your blessings in the tags!!!

[the-punforgiven]

God, ABA feels just like how she used to for me, I'm so happy

#Just like #I mean it's Strive so she feels a little different #Feels slightly tougher to combo into key grab though #which is like #disappointing somewhat but manageable #skill issue on my part mostly tbh #Moroha stance not consuming her health is HUGE though #but overall she feels very nice and has the same sort of ''You're fucked now buddy'' energy I remember from AC+ #Still fully haven't gotten the hang of her i-frame moves but I'm getting there I think lol #I do miss the silly baphomet skull though lol #idk the melty face para has instead really just doesn't have the same vibe #Does remind me I need to get a new controller though #my B button's all fucked up from panic rolling too much in Elden Ring lol #Honestly though she feels SO good to play I'm so happy to have her back #pun's text posts #Guilty Gear

[augustsails]

I think my advisor is so neurotypical she cannot even fathom other people not being as neurotypical as her. Because why is she mad at me for doing exactly what I was supposed to do? I just didn’t tell her I had done it because she never asked, I was supposed to just know?? That she wanted me to tell her I did it?? So now I have to do it again and she’s giving the subtle ‘you fucked up’ vibes when I literally did exactly what she told me to do!

#Vent #I know she would never say this #but it occurred to me after one of our meetings that she was saying nice things that were actually kinda rude #I don’t even think she’s mean on purpose #I just think she’s EXTREMELY neurotypical and expects people to be just like her #I’m mostly just pissed because I know she thinks I’m incompetent #when I’m doing everything right grrrrr #I just didn’t reply to your email because it was just an email reminding me to do what I already did so?? #Why would I reply unless something was wrong?? #It’s mostly just very annoying to feel like someone thinks less of you for oh idk DOING EXACTLY WHAT YOU ASKED #there’s no way she hasn’t dealt with less neurotypical students too #Tbh I may reach out to our DRC just to see if they can give her some idk training for saying what you mean and not expecting students to #read your mind #This is a minor inconvenience at most I just hate the way she’s perceiving me when she has no right xD

[swiftfootedachilles]

hey you were wondering so i wanted to let you know that nobody has talked about you in either of the servers. and i know it's really tough when the blocks come from people you really like or were previously friendly with, but i think a lot of people block not because they hate you or even anything close to that. but just because they're not wanting to see the things you post about. i hope this makes you feel a little bit better, but i do really understand why it feels bad man, hang in there!

thank you i was genuinely wondering if someone had said something because it seems all of these users blocked me around the same time

but the thing is my content hasnt changed at all recently. i post the same stuff i always do. some of these users didn't follow me and never interacted with my posts in the first place, so it sucks that i cant look at their blogs anymore because i was a genuine fan of their content. some of them are people who were mutuals with me and have even interacted with me countless times, saying they love my blog and enjoy talking to me. im just not sure what happened but from my perspective, it feels like a switch has been flipped. one day i was a normal member of the fandom, the next im the social pariah. i just cant help but wonder what i did to earn so much backlash

#like is this seriously all because a month ago i said s11 ian should be drawn with body fat? #that's literally the last hot take ive posted. and i personally find it to be ice cold #i genuinely dont understand like is this a zoomer thing am i obsessed with how strangers on the internet see me #i hate to sit here and wine and cry to my dozens of still active and very sweet followers over being blocked by some strangers #but i genuinely have nobody irl that knows me for who i am and cares about me so yeah i rely on this website for validation a lot #i can only be myself here and every time in ny entire fucking life ive tried to be myself i get rejected #its not about the fandom or the people even its about my inability to be rejected by those i feel are in an elite class to myself #rjs will really have you rolling on the floor sobbing throwing up over getting blocked on The Blocking Website #asks #anonymous #sorry for those who followed me for shameless stuff the past year but heres your reminder that my blog is mostly just mental breakdowns #all i do is open this app to bitch and complain tbh