#my library can't have it

[brieflymaximumprincess]

Just happily geeked to my coworker about a book that is going to be released tomorrow.

I saw in her eyes that we were not on the same page. ^^'

I had to played it down so she would not take me for insane.

#i lost the habit to be seen as crazy because of a book #it's rather common now #but i guess i don't geek often for that to coworkers #book nerd #i'm waiting for this book since 3 months #i never wait for a release #it's #dice men the origine story of game workshop #by #ian livingstone #and it's out tomorrow in USA #my library can't have it #so it will surely take a few time before i can buy it and it will be ship to me #mine

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

*tries to organize my thoughts*

*remembers i'm not in school and therefore beholden to neither heaven nor hell nor any man's grading system*

*joyously shredding & tossing all my carefully arranged 3x5 mental notecards into the air like so much beige confetti. raising my arms in victory, cheering raucously until i accidentally inhale bits of homemade confetti*

(*coughing up itty bits of paper like a cat evicting a hairball with a firm understanding of tenants' rights*) wait wat happens next

#i marie kondoed my thoughts and *i* feel great. but now my stream-of-consciousness has escaped containment #so many innocent bystanders at stake #every time i try to organize my thoughts i run out of plastic bins and have to make a trip to the container store where i get even more dis #racted so. you can't just hand me THIS brain and NO catalogue OR library classification system #and expect me to single-handedly sort through all this nonsense? bad form but fucking form not in my job description #aNYways. formal education sure did a FUCKING NUMBER on us huh #(a number i measure not in gpa or dollars of student debt. #but in the number of therapy sessions & medical debt it will take to recover.) #seriously folks. our education systems are...innately traumatizing for a huge number of students. and we NEED to address this. #the fact that it is culturally common for adults to have anxiety nightmares about school/exams...even decades later? #that is not cute. it is Alarming. #no one--much less entire generations--should be spending their developmental years in an environment of chronic stress & pressure & strain #and yet that is the reality for millions and millions of pre-teen and teenage and young adult students #this isn't healthy and it serves and empowers NO ONE #...except of course the many exploitative educational & financial & debt-collecting institutions thriving from the current balance of power #and of course it's a nefarious and powerful way to sabotage/erase the middle class #which billionaires and the wealth-inequality creators they finance couldn't possibly have any noteworthy interest in whatsoever #it's not like there's an elite group of people with huge financial incentives to drain/steal resources from the masses... #anyways sorry for going all Conspiracy Theory on you. #obviously the billionaires who control the vast majority of our resources and news and political campaign funding #are not tied to every single itty bitty social issue and i'm a silly billy to imply it #please tell elon musk to ignore this tweet i am so subservient and acquiescent #mr musky u r so good at inheriting slavery-built mining fortunes & buying other people's companies #& building rocket ships & fancy cars that do NOT explode/catch fire & also NOT running billion dollar companies into the ground #mr musky u r so talented genius billionaire playboy with 10 kids and ex-wives who find you creepy af babe u r basically iron man

[egophiliac]

HAVE YOU SEEN MALLEUS DORM UNIFORM CARD????

I didn't get him. :( ...so I looked up his dorm story and it is incredible, oh my god. if you haven't noticed by now, Malleus doing the absolute stupidest shit with the best intentions is my favorite, and this is pandering directly to that part of me. I can't pick a favorite part.

(wait, actually, yes I can)

#art #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #also containing copious amounts of my second-favorite thing which is malleus vs technology #i can't believe it's literally canon that malleus 1) does not attend meetings because he can't figure out how to open his email #and 2) therefore GUESSES when and where the meeting is and will just. sit in the fucking library for two hours wondering where everyone is. #mal. honey. you can be all '~fae and humans have such different senses of reality~' #but i think you might just be a doofus. #also canon: malleus powerwashes his phone and then is like 'i didn't do anything it just broke' #and don't forget my THIRD-favorite thing which is malleus trying very hard to be a good host and being extremely bad at it #this story really has it all huh #everyone's super mad and screaming at him and he's just like 'feel free to have some cake } :)' #yep. definitely a doofus.

[secondbeatsongs]

my library has a page where you can request titles to be added to the catalogue, and my requests have never, never been turned down

like, obscure book on irish mythology? added! cookbook written by a robot? hell yeah! just season 3 of a 1970s detective series, on DVD? sure, why not!

I don't know if it's that a librarian has decided to humor me, or if my library is particularly well-funded (I hope so; I love my library), but no matter what I request, they buy a copy and add it to the catalogue.

...so now, as I type in a suggestion for a queer romance with a pretty boy on the cover, I can only hope that luck is still with me

#personal #the robot cookbook btw was the one that IBM's Watson did a while back #I don't remember it well #but I don't think I found it particularly interesting #I wish I remembered the irish book #but I can't find it #and the DVD series? #hardy boys season 3 #because of course it was #hardy boys my beloved #update: I think the irish mythology book was #''mysterious world: ireland'' #by ian middleton #the library doesn't have it anymore but that's okay xD #I think I was the only one who read it

[ride-a-dromedary]

Also, unrelated, but I love how Halsin refers to the druidic library (or at least parts of it) as "my books", though he doesn't seem otherwise personally attached to physical objects, and the library is obviously shared communally by all the druids. It's such an affectionate little thing; he probably spent a lot of time in that study and library, adding to the collection over the century, keeping the key with him at all times.

What I'm saying is give Halsin a little library in Reithwin.

#BG3 Musing #Halsin #Halsin Posting #the druidic regimen seems to be that supplies and things are communal property in that they should be free for anyone within their walls #to use and access (at least by fellow druids - they seem divided on outsiders) #i just love the idea that Halsin spent so much time in that library he started affectionately calling them *his* books #(and maybe some of them were actually acquired by him but halsin is very much the what's mine is yours type - i can't really imagine him #having solid division lines of these are *my* books and these are *not* my books)

[fullmetalbee]

I was listening to the GTN audiobook and I was at the bit from chapter 21 where Camilla mentions that soul siphoning normally causes brain damage, and that Colum probably does have brain damage:

And now I can't stop thinking about Augustine basically calling Cristabel an idiot in chapter 17 of HTN

Was it just the siphoning??

#i gotta focus. i'm shifting in tlt mode #me 2 weeks ago: rereading tlt would fix me. me now that i've listened to the gtn audiobook + placed a hold on gtn at the library: #i am once again rotating cristabel and mercymorn in my mind #anyway. maybe this was already super obvious. maybe this has been noticed before. idk #tlt #the locked tomb #gtn #gideon the ninth #htn #harrow the ninth #cristabel oct #camilla hect #gideon nav #augustine the first #not to spam these character tags but since they're the characters from the quotes #alectopause #i guess djfkdjdh #i feel like i can't 100% pay attention with an audiobook but i picked up on some tiny details i'll have to overthink once #i rereread gtn weeeer

[mattodore]

pretty girl (who has clawed her way through multiple chest cavities)

#river dipping #delphi sol #lykos #ts4 #ts4 edit #ts4 cas #simblr #she's so cute i remember i intentionally gave her sharper angles when i was messing w/ her last year #but when i did her over last month i just made her rounder again so like. what was the point of that exactly lmao #i'm gonna edit ria jussst a little then fix imani's eyes #i still have an absolute MESS in my library like so many saves i have to go through and delete i'm fr a pack rat in my saves library #but anyway i'm just gonna tweak some faces #my wrists are hurting so i should probably sit down and just watch red dwarf after... #mattodore might start calling to me tho idk #ALSO... added magic bloom to my cas preset :3c have i tested it with matthias yet? ...................no. #palest man aliveeeee he ruins bloom for me all the time like i think bloom can look sooo pretty but i can't even use it like i want </3 #i'll probably have to toss it but it looks pretty to me rn

[frostfairysteve]

Eddie gets the idea while grocery shopping.

It's the end of November, but some of the people in Hawkins know how to hold a grudge, so Eddie still avoids being out alone when possible. This time, he had been buying groceries with Steve.

The domesticity always get to him, but this time especially. Steve had paused by the advent calendars, looked through the different designs, and carefully picked out seven. Eddie didn't even get time to formulate a joke before Steve softly explained that this is his third year doing this for the kids, how it started after he befriended Dustin, and how after experiencing an awful thanksgiving, Steve wanted the kids to have a brighter December. It's not about Christmas, it's about having something to look forward to each day, even if it's something silly like a piece of chocolate.

And Eddie understands. After all, he's still not comfortable alone in public after seven months, and he's only been through this once.

But here Steve is, keeping him company and doing something for the kids, and Eddie can't help but wonder what anyone does for Steve in turn.

And looking at the advent calendars, looking at Steve, thinking about how domestic it feels to go grocery shopping together, Eddie knows what to do.

25 days of giving Steve Harrington the affection he deserves, starting on December 1st. And if it doubles as a plan to woo Steve, well, Eddie has always been a bit selfish.

But seeing Steve smile will be worth it, even if it doesn't end in a spectacular Christmas Day kiss.

#steddie #my fiction library #chocolate advent calendars did exist and had become popular in the us by the 80s but idk how varied the designs could have been #it's period accurate enough #i am making no assumptions about anyone celebrating christmas here. steve just wanted to do something nice and advent calendars are easy. #considering s1 and s2 both are early november this makes sense #and i continue to sprinkle in that steve can't stand thanksgiving

[fisheito]

a wretched spectre upon my existence

#because you're correct . i AM being haunted every minute of waking life #sometimes even my sleeping life #i'm just trying to read my library books in peace. and not think of him #contemplating my nonexistent fireplace and the stormy sounds all around me #but noooOOOoooOOoOOOOooOOooOOoOoOoO #i can't appreciate the wonders of the natural elements and the nostalgic smells of old paper #BECAUSE I HAVE TO WRING THAT SNAKE #replies

[thelaurenshippen]

feel like pure shit just want her back

#the devastation I feel having just discovered that sharing my apple music playlists with my own library music #doesn't show the library music if it doesn't exist on apple music #THIS IS WHY I STILL HAVE A CD BURNER #sorry that I was an insufferable college music major and radio jockey #and have hundreds of tracks that seemingly exist nowhere else #anyway for those of you that subscribe to my monthly mixtape newsletter #I'm so sorry I can't be better for you #this month's playlist is gonna be like 5 songs I hate everything #personal #music #lauren says things

[marshmalleaux-queen]

I took my new e-scooter to the drive thru and I don't think they were expecting to see that

#context: this was an early xmas/birthday gift #so that I could go places by myself bc I can't drive a car #people. I rode this thing all frickin day till my butt was bruised #first I went to the library to ask about jobs but of course there were no openings #so after that I said y'know what. I need a cookie to drown my sorrows #and I just frickin did it. I took my 27-year-old no-license-having ass to the wendy's drive thru #folks it felt LIBERATING #thankfully there were no other cars there so I was more comfortable about it #I also got stuck behind a lady on the sidewalk with headphones in going .0005 miles an hour #but that's a less interesting story dkfjg #daily marshmallow #my art

[crebbyhermit]

akane and nagito are friends in my tomodachi collection game rn so it felt fitting,

#crebsketch #dumping here for archival purposes again #danganronpa #sdr2 #nagito komaeda #can't believe i had to tag that man. anyways #999 #zero escape #akane kurashiki #or as i call them in my save file #nyagito and kanny #ooooh boy do i have tea from this game. #i made kanny and jumpy together and then they started dating and then JUMPY BROKE UP WITH HER #wild. i need to play the other zero escape games. they are sitting in my steam library i got them for less than ten bucks #when finals are over............perhaps #also kanny has this really cute jacket i drew her in here c:

[violent138]

I haven't seen it anywhere, but I really want to see a fic where the Batkids/batfam pull an all-nighter together planning something? As you can tell, this is heavily vibes over the plot, I'm more interested in them keeping each other awake, dressed half in gear, half in comfy clothes, snapping a little, brainstorming and working together to try to break in somewhere/figure something out/fight some shared enemy.

One of them needs to be injured enough to get to boss the others around/kind of beg for snacks and sustenance, balancing a battered laptop on a leg cast, while the others can be in a various state of disarray, having freshly lost/been bested by their enemy.

#but Idk I really like the idea of this kind of cosy fic even if the batcave is sorely deprived of a fireplace #I will definitely write this the second I'm done with the next hellish two weeks #Alfred would endeavour at least three times into this ticking time bomb of a night to relocate them somewhere better or remind them the #manor doesn't have a library for nothing #but none of them would bother moving #totally intent on figuring this out #I can't decide if I would be more amused by Jason or Damian being hurt #both have maximum doesn't have to be but will be a massive baby about this energy #I'm just slapping on any random tag at this point #batfamily #batman #school is kicking my ass lmao #dc comics #fic ideas #my fic stuff #dc universe

[anghraine]

“What a delightful library you have at Pemberley, Mr Darcy!”

“It ought to be good,” he replied, “it has been the work of many generations.”

“And then you have added so much to it yourself, you are always buying books.”

“I cannot comprehend the neglect of a family library in such days as these.”

This conversation is intriguing because, as is often the case in P&P, there is so little narrative framing or comment that you have to make quite a few assumptions based on how you read the characters. We don’t even hear Elizabeth’s reaction to this interchange and don’t know how she takes it (though when Darcy later tries to talk to her about books, she’s sure that their tastes are so wildly different that they won’t have anything to talk about).

In any case, both fans and critics have come away with a lot of different interpretations of Darcy’s book-buying sprees and, in particular, what he means by “such days as these.”

I just read an article that dismissively characterized it as a stuffy civilization-is-falling-down-around-us-in-these-degenerate-times thing showing the basic conservatism of his mindset, and while that article was particularly hostile, it’s a pretty common reading. And you can read it that way, but frankly, it doesn’t seem the most natural reading in the context of either the scene or his overall characterization.

Darcy is repeatedly associated with books and reading and general intellectualism. The Pemberley library links his family pride and his sense of legacy with his personal inclinations—as an individual, he’s bookish, clever, and fairly cerebral. He reads, he buys new books, he enjoys philosophical debates, his response to Elizabeth’s assertion of their different tastes in books is “cool, then we can argue about them :D”, he encourages his teenage sister’s artistic interests and defends her disciplined approach to them when she’s not even there, he collects fine and apparently borderline-incomprehensible paintings, he’s dismissive about the expected accomplishments of upper-class women in favor of reading (partly bc Elizabeth has been reading, but it’s not surprising that a man responsible from age 23 for the education of a young girl has Thoughts on the ongoing female education debates of the time).

All of this is to say that Darcy is engaged with what was then contemporary culture and discourse. This is especially the case if you go with the time of his creation, 1796, but it doesn’t make a huge difference because these debates were still ongoing in the 1810s, and he rarely refers to specific figures and instead prefers more generally familiar concepts and arguments (or chooses to rely on those in conversation with women), and in any case, the English artistic movements of the 1810s owed a lot to those of the late eighteenth century.

And a big eighteenth-century debate was about the merits of modern art, especially literature, compared to ancient art. Historically, there was a lot of deference in English literature to ancient models and dictates, and controversy over newer forms like the novel (in English) but also in poetry and drama and essays. To some people, it seemed like art was going horribly astray by diverging from the ancients (despite the continuing strong influence of Classicism). Others thought the artistic movements of the time were fucking awesome valuable and important, which is generally Austen’s position (most famously in the defense of the novel in NA).

So when Darcy speaks of “such days as these,” I don’t think this is coming from snooty disengagement from the current literary zeitgeist, but rather, the reverse. He’s seeing all these ideas being hotly debated in various essays and treatises, and the English novel taking modern form, and poetry undergoing changes that will only become more drastic, etc etc, and thinks—this is important. Anybody with a family library should be adding the literature that’s coming out at this time.

TL;DR I think Darcy has an affinity for modern art/literature/culture in any case, but also, is so convinced of the importance of the literary “moment” he’s living in that he thinks he’d basically be shaming his ancestors if he didn’t include it in the collection that he’ll pass down to the next generation as it was passed to him.

#it's not just that people like him need to maintain family libraries with what's currently out there #but that he thinks that what's happening /right now/ is a really big deal that needs to be added for its own sake #i find it a bit weird that this reading seems unusual but some people are very committed to stuffy conservative darcy so #i do go with the c. 1796 setting which makes this fairly funny... lyrical ballads is coming out in two years #and darcy can't know that! it's just. something is going on! clearly! what is the point of being rich if you don't preserve this stuff??? #anghraine babbles #austen blogging #austen fanwank #lady anne blogging #anghraine's meta #fitzwilliam darcy #pride and prejudice #jane austen #tangentially: this is kind of associated in my head with how the preceding darcy-like characters are pretty much all 18th century #elizabeth has this whole beatrice/rosalind legacy and the debt to much ado about nothing is obvious #but darcy isn't like benedick. he's like... lord orville if he were interesting. #so he's a fairly distinctly /modern/ man in the original context where he's often now seen as a quintessential/old-fashioned figure #and it makes sense that he would have a lot of affinity with modern culture where elizabeth is more detached

[just-an-enby-lemon]

The thing about "love is a sacrament that should be taken kneeling" is that it really doesn't fit marriage proposals because it is actually a sad and very catholic coded tbh sentence about humility and worthiness from someone who was at their lowest and it ressonates with me for the parts I agree but also for the parts that I don't and that make me think of an anxious teen on his knees doing one ot the most important rituals (the Confirmation) for a religion he doesn't really believe and that doesn't really accept or believe in him because he wants to make his mom proud and happy (De Profundis was hard for a lot of reasons but I was not expecting my catholic upbriging to be one of them).

The other thing about "love is a scrament that should be taken kneeling" is that everytime someone points out it's not actually about romance they complete it with "is tots about bjs" and like I can see why better than I can see romance but previous perfomance does not equal future results Wilde can write things that aren't puns nor inuendos (shocker I know). So it's not about blowjobs. But like if you want to use it as so, go wild, have fun. Just don't spread it as if it was intencional.

#i just remember that before even finding a tumblr post about it as a fun fact I jad read De Profundis #and this quote as one of the ones that if the book was mine not from the public library + #i would have marked with shit that ressonates with my religious trauma #and I agree that no one should be forced to love other people that u can't be a dick and expect love that humility matters #but i also don't feel like the whole the only ones worth of love are the ones that think they aren't is good or healthy #but is very very catholic #wilde goes latin and all on this part #de profundis #oscar wilde #i 100% made this post because i found an rqg meme about it but instead of going funny my brain went #hey remember the catholic guilt this part made you feel over thinking you deserve love #i do get where wilde is coming from tho #also just want to make it clear that de profundis is not a catholic nor christian book at all #is not even a book #it just has parts where Wilde dealing with his own thoughs on religion and they are rare but i felt them

[mishkakagehishka]

I may have spent all my life until this moment wasting both mine and God's time, but from tomorrow on, for sure, i swear it, i will change my ways and be better. And it'll be different from all the other times i said the same thing🧎‍♀️

#i'm getting up at 6 i'll be at college by 8 i'll catch a nice place away from the sun in the library and i'll do so much work #until my classes start and then after the classes end i'm going back to the library i'm gonna set up camp there bc this is obviously not th #way for me. but you know what bothers me now? the fact that the college cafeteria isn't open on the weekends. #you know how productive of a weekend i could have if i could camp in the library 8-12 then eat a quick lunch and go back 13-whenever? #anyway. i changed my surroundings got mood lighting and warm blankets and shukufuku no library on loop #idk what to write for the introduction so i'm gonna write my arguments first and then expand on them #if i can't get myself to do things the right way then i'll do it however is easiest for me and figure out how to make it seem like i did it #the right way. but from tomorrow on i SWEAR #and if i finish my essay sooner than expected (inşallah) ??? #i'm writing. the bigbang until i reach the minimum and not a word more until i'm done with finals #and THEN i'm writing what i want to write. because i'm full of ideas to the point that i feel like bleeding over sheets of paper