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[lukadjo]

Are you [tumblr] famous? I think you're [tumblr] famous. What's your follower count?

No

I'm not [tumblr] famous.

I only have like ≈260 followers

#Tumblr #Not #Tumblr famous #Instead #Tumblr unknown #That's me

[o-kye]

guys unfortunately your man is dead ( been out in the 95 degree heat for five hours )

#Kye shitposts #Bur like #Not

[putuponpercy]

Painted my nails white then immediately decided to put more pink in my hair without gloves so now one hand has very deep pink nails and the other has pastel pink nails

#ramble in furness #am smart #not #sobs

[nosaintsinheaven]

MF DOOM

#mf doom #wallpaper #not #my art #if yours please dm so i can give u credit

[invader-bean]

for the love of god man i just want to fish

#tfhjdfhsj #txt #not #like angry just #oough #getting brain zaps i need to run and frolic and touch some fish

[emily84]

why aren't we talking about how the memory daniel sees of armand telling him "you stole your dad's playboy magazines and sold them at recess" (or rather, implanting that memory in him) is just the most "you were heterosexual you were heterosexual you were heterosexual" thing, just the most. heterosexual thing that would come to mind to a queer person lol.

aka armand practising gay conversion therapy to save his bi lover from himself in the year of our lord 1973 was NOT on my bingo card, guys (gnc)

#lmaooo #shitposting #but also #NOT #daniel x armand #the vampire armand #daniel molloy #iwtv #iwtv2 #interview with the vampire

[lordeboy]

whatever there’s more important things to life than sports

#not

[itssoh]

Don't get used to ignorance.

–Prem Rawat

#Prem Rawat #quotes #do #not #dont #use #ignorance

[ohnoidontexist]

#sometimes #it #feels #better #not #to #talk #at #all #about #anything #anyone

[ischaron]

work was........... fun.

#❝ ᴛᴀᴋᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ʙᴀᴄᴋ. ( out ) #not

[deadendtracks]

More overly detailed asks where I cannot phrase a question but just scratching at conversation starters…  XD

In your Not series, there’s a scene where Alfie is at Tommy’s house, and Curly is tending Tommy’s injured knee. Alfie realises suddenly that Curly is an alpha and, while the thought doesn’t get explicit in the prose, the impression is a sexual undercurrent in Alfie’s intense shock because alpha!Curly is touching omega!Tommy in such an intimate/close way -> so this sense of how could *they* possibly have…!

So, I was interested in the thinking behind the scene, and also wondered if maybe it was an opportunity to do a bit of compare/contrast on that other aspect of alpha biological-drivers -> some omegaverses also have that driving alpha need to ‘care-take’ for an omega, and was wondering if your verse leans into this, and maybe this was an example of showing that non-sexualised caretaking?

One thing that comes across with Tommy and Alfie’s relationship is that it’s so sexually driven, but then, Alfie also grapples with all these non-sexual motivations that he never *really* seems to want to think about very hard – like the one that made him drive out to Arrow in this particular fic – to caretake, while Tommy *does* seem conscious of those drivers in Alfie and constantly pushes back on them. That particular scene with Curly struck me a little tiny bit of Alfie being jealous/annoyed/frustrated/bemused that actually, Tommy has people (the herd) who care for him (including alphas) and his relationships with those people don't have all these *other* heavy sexualised drivers laid over the top of that. Alfie trying to cross a boundary into something more than sexual, and while Tommy does verbally push Alfie back later, Curly's position in the scene as an *alpha* just felt very particular.

So that Curly scene -- yes and no?

Taking care of an injured Tommy and worrying over him is something canon Curly would do anyway, so his being an alpha isn't the primary driver of his behavior. The scene is more about Alfie's perception of the dynamic (and of what it means to be alpha) than it is about anything naturally inherent to being an alpha. Something Alfie probably doesn't understand is how Curly completely lacks an impulse to *control* as part of his caretaking. He has no desire to dominate as part of taking care of someone, because Curly doesn't have that perception that being alpha requires it. Curly is a nurturing guy; he'd be that way whether he was alpha or omega or beta but Alfie still slots people into these categories and tries to make sense of them that way.

I think of Alfie as someone who still has unconscious ideas about what alphas and omegas are supposed to behave. My personal omegaverse isn't hinged on the concept that alphas and omegas are *inherently* or naturally any one thing at all gender role wise -- but there are still stereotypes in that world along the lines of some of the typical omegaverse tropes, with some spins on it, I guess. I like to try to undercut them a bit here and there or find my own expression.

Alfie is someone who thinks he hasn't bought into those societal stereotypes, thinks he's risen above them or is enlightened, but has a lot he hasn't unlearned. Kind of a "male feminist" idea lol (nothing wrong with male feminists; just that even the well-intentioned cishet male feminist tends to have at least a few areas where his behavior doesn't match the theory).

Your last paragraph sums up how I was trying to write the dynamic really well!! That was my underlying idea -- that when it comes down to it, Alfie doesn't know much about Tommy's life, has no real understanding of how it's embedded in a community, even if that community is fractured between s3-4. He doesn't fully understand the impact of Grace's death on Tommy except abstractly. That's why I needed to bring Curly and Uncle Charlie into the story. And I've always been curious about Frances in canon; I haven't done alot with her in this series but whether Tommy wants her to be or not she's part of that community for sure. But Alfie is *surprised* by it and doesn't know how to process it; his mental version of Tommy is isolated from all context. In a lot of ways this series is about Alfie's assumptions being peeled back one by one.

I also think of Tommy as a bit more self-aware of some of these things than Alfie is. Like of course he has his own hangups and blindspots but he ... understands Alfie a lot better than Alfie understands him, and knows it. He can see through Alfie more than Alfie is able to see through him. At least when it comes to their dynamic. Of course there's a ton about Alfie's life he doesn't know about either, but I think he's more aware of that fact than Alfie is of the reverse. Alfie has this idea of who Tommy is and thinks he's right about it; Tommy only really exists in relation to Alfie for Alfie. Where I think Tommy just assumes Alfie has his own life in Camden Town that Tommy frankly doesn't give a shit about beyond his compulsive need to research the people he deals with. But he knows it's there!

Part of that is how they met -- Tommy first comes to Alfie on Alfie's territory surrounded by Alfie's people, alone. And a big part of Alfie has never revised his mental picture from that first meeting.

So what finally comes to a head here is that Alfie has this unconscious suspicion of Tommy-as-omega-seducer, combined with the fact that before he met Tommy he basically never let himself be in a situation where that caretaking instinct has an object. Eternal bachelor sort. So these two undercurrents are at war in him.

At the same time he's struggling with wanting more from Tommy. Much of his frustration is due to a fundamental misunderstanding or ignorance -- he just completely misses the fact that Tommy loved his wife and his wife just fucking died and Tommy still basically wants to be dead because of it. Alfie is (unconsciously) a bit dismissive of this, even when he considers the idea of Tommy having been 'bonded' to her. It's like... Tommy existed for him, then Tommy went off and got married and ceased to exist as anything but a distant business contact, and now that Tommy's wife is dead he exists again, and for Alfie there's this kind of continuity that doesn't exist for Tommy. For Tommy there's been an extremely violent rupture.

IDK if I'm expressing this well! But Alfie's looking for a man that doesn't exist, to quote Uncle Charlie.

Alot of this is driven by my wanting the relationship issues between them to not be 100% Tommy's fault/responsibility, which is how alot of Tommy/Alfie fic tends to go. When in canon Alfie is just... not the well adjusted guy who wouldn't be fucking up his relationship with Tommy if it existed! Like the issues between them aren't because Tommy's sexually repressed or internalized homophobia or because Tommy can't commit or idk. Even Tommy's trauma. Whatever. It's messier and more complicated and Alfie has a big responsibility there.

Beyond Grace's death, Alfie's actions (the ones from canon I've kept in this universe, which is all of them) have had a direct negative impact on Tommy, and that, you know. Affects Tommy's willingness to trust him, etc. At the same time there is something there for Tommy too, and he keeps coming back.

I'll stop here, though I'm aware I have only covered Alfie's half of this whole dynamic in any depth.

#not #meta #i guess? meta about my own fic

[lostevilangel666]

#may #not #perfect

[flowey-the-lanternflower55]

I mean I need coms desperately tbh- cuz I'm running out of my protective where- and my mom can't send me money- I see ppl likeing it on both here on Twitter but- no comments or dms and it's stressful Tbh

Makes sense

#not

[yalnizligin-siirini-yazanlar]

Aşk, mutlu sona varacak kadar uzun sürmez...

#alıntı #kitap #not #söz #artists on tumblr

[breezybangtanbebe]

❤️I NEED HELP❤️So..I know Im not crazy. (Anyone, feel free to tell me if I am) But i vividly recall during a concert performance of “Special” by Monsta X, IM changed the lyrics on his verse of “oh shit, I like it when she groove on me” to “oh shit, I like it when she c*m on me..” and there was a video of it! Lmao I KNOW IM NOT CRAZY. Someone tell me i aint crazy and if you have a link, please send it because I cant find it lmao

For my sanity😌

#I #know #im #not #crazy #changkyun #jooheon #monsta x smut #wonho #hyungwon #shownu #kihyun #minhyuk #hyunwoo #changkyun smut #ambw kpop #kpop fanfic #monsta x fanfic #monsta x

[ohnoidontexist]

#they're #not #my #pets #fur #babies #family