#oh that is fucking revolting

[sapphic-woes]

Karlach and Astarion literally cannot have a happy ending if they... actually do good and stay true to themselves. Wtf.

#im. a bit annoyed #like karlach? probs gonna fight in avernus for the rest of her life JUST to be free #Astarion? he'll live in isolation in the shadows and always in fear because he is ALWAYS afraid #all because karlach wanted to save the fucking world and Astarion thought killing 7000 victims was a bit too much; even for him #like????????????? #cmon shadowheart choosing the truth can literally reunit her family???!!! #wyll can reconcile with his dad and be a duke??? (presumably) #gale i dont even know. ig mystra got infonite weave so unless she literally decides to kill him hes good #and lazeal will carry Orpheus' legacy and revolt against vlaakith like a BALLER #but ASTARION AND KARLACH LITERALLY GAIN NOTHING IN COMPARISON????? THEY ARE BACK TO SUFFERING???? #FUCK!!!!! #oh #bg3 spoilers

[lord-squiggletits]

Something else that makes me sympathetic to Pharma's situation is like. Idk if there's an actual term for this or if someone smarter and more academic wrote it about some real life context that actually matters.

But, so we've already established among Pharma stans that the circumstances at Delphi were blackmail/torture with no real way out that wouldn't involve Pharma being responsible for people getting killed (either killing patients for the deal or having everyone die bc he failed his end of the deal).

And I feel like while "he's still in the wrong because he killed people" is part of it, another sort of implicit part is the idea that Pharma should've been willing to take more personal risk, maybe even risk dying? I mean, Ratchet does ask "why didn't you just detonate it near the DJD" (to which Pharma responds that he did try to get Sonic and Boom to do it, but they refused) so like

Idk I feel like we do have this social notion of martyrs as a very romantic ideal, people you can praise for being so brave and strong and righteous that they ended their own lives for their cause, while you can also coo about how sad and tragic it is that dying is what it took for them to do the right thing. But at the same time I feel like in reality, having an expectation that people become martyrs is kind of a toxic social norm bc like. It's very easy to demand that others sacrifice their lives for some Ultimate Moral Good when you yourself aren't experiencing the same hardships as they are. And ultimately it is kind of fucked up to tell someone "the moral thing you should've done was risk your life/kill yourself" because asking someone to pay their life to do the right thing is no small request. And sure, the typical response would be to call them a "coward" for caring more about saving their own skin instead of doing the right thing... but again, death is a really scary thing and self-preservation is a really strong instinct, so it kind of feels like having this binary view of "you're either a Brave Hero who sacrifices your life for everyone else or a Dirty Coward who's too scared of dying to do what's right" is kind of fucked up?

I guess the best way to describe it is that if someone willingly gives up their life as a sacrifice to others, it can be a noble thing because it's a choice they made willingly, but if it becomes a Moral Standard that in order to be a Good Person you have to be unafraid of throwing your life away and if you aren't willing to die you're a Cowardly Bad Person, that's when it becomes toxic.

Idk, I guess how this ties back to Pharma is that he was never in a position where he expected to make these kinds of moral decisions/ultimatums. He's a doctor who doesn't even get into combat, his job is to heal and not to kill, he's behind the front lines in a hospital that's supposed to be a safe, neutral place for him to heal people. So in the face of suddenly having a "murder people on behalf of me, or I murder everyone you swore to protect" ultimatum thrust upon him, I understand why Pharma wasn't """"""""""brave enough"""""""""" to "do the right thing" (whatever that would've been in the case of Delphi). You could argue that maybe a frontliner soldier accepted the burden of possibly dying for their cause and they've become used to it as someone who lives that reality every single day, but I feel like for Pharma, who's a doctor and a protected non-combatant (from what we can tell), that sort of risking of his life/living with the fact his life could be snuffed out any day isn't something he would've been prepared for at all.

And for me personally, from an outsider's perspective, it strikes me as kind of unethical to go "oh well he should've just detonated the bomb himself even if it killed him" bc again, there's a difference between witnessing a moral conundrum as a bystander versus being the person living with it and being under time pressure where it's do-or-die. Just as part of my personal standards, I feel like death is such a huge consequence/burden of someone's actions (literally you are no longer alive, any potential you had left is cut short, you cease to exist on this plane) that it feels rather callous to go "Well you should've just been willing to die for your beliefs if you really cared that much!!!"

#squiggposting #pharma apologism #this is only like tangentially related to pharma honestly #not to compare blorbos to real life but like. it reminds me of this phenomenon where privileged ppl in privileged countries #will tell ppl living in zones of war and strife 'oh well if you don't like your gov so bad just revolt against them' #like oh yes tell me how easy it is to stand up against the threats of torture and death #surely the only reason people would want to avoid that is bc they're cowards or don't want to stand up for their beliefs #contrary to what nationalism would have ppl believe. 'wanting to not die' isn't a moral position #everyone wants to live. no one wants to die. it doesnt make you a bad person to be scared of dying #esp (going back to blorbo's) in a situation like pharma's where every option he had ended in death #the death of his patients or the death of everyone at delphi or his death personally #on top of the fact he's a noncombatant who hasn't been desensitized to violence/risking his own life #and is dealing with a trained group of killers that he can't possibly match on physical terms #so yeah actually i don't blame pharma for what he did #he made shitty decisions in a shitty situation but was ultimately a victim #also if you want to view the blackmail deal from a framework of abuse #it is also fucked up to basically tell someone they werent brave enough to just kill their accuser or ask for help #isnt the entire point of such situations that the victim is both powerless to stop the abuse #and too afraid of asking for help/thinks they cant ask for help. and thats why they dont just get out #idk sometimes the best moral judgement is to forgive someone or view it as 'complicated' #sometimes regardless of the good or evilness of their actions the best choice is to not make a judgement #or to err in favor of a forgiving/'i cant speak for your experience' judgement #anyways the fact is that the rosy fantasy of being a brave noble soldier who sacrifices for the cause #rarely stands up to reality where youre just terrified and powerless and dont know what to do #and suddenly the rosy glow of The Noble Cause isnt comforting in the prospect of horrible torturous death

[aro-with-bad-aim]

people will call Holden from the catcher in the rye a “manipulative misogynist” but praise 1984 in the same breath

#mentions of sa in tags #mentions of sa #I can’t stand 1984 #The world building was good #I liked the newspeak element of it #but oh my fucking god #the main guy was REVOLTING #and not in a “btw guys he’s a bad person” way #In a “hey guys #this is your hero” kinda way #I’m convinced Orwell had never interacted with a woman #“Oh yes random man from my work who fantasises about sa-ing me id love to have sex with you” #no woman thinks like this #Holden shows so much more respect for women #And he’s also written to be a flawed guy #The book focuses on his inter troubles and how he’s not a great person #but he tries #and he shows WAY more respect to women than winston does #catcher in the rye #1984

[krownest]

also i haven't been on tumblr too much for the past 2 weeks but there's suddenly like 3 big new discourse topics wtf

#well. par for the course ig #my dash is niceys but i see shadows under the ice and im nosey so i follow them... #off the top of my head there's #ezra orena/toonimal csa #the cyclic tumblr transmisogyny witchhunt (somewhat related to the former) #stardew valley wholesome anticapitalist landowner discourse #(possibly related to the former) #umm. what else. oh yeah ofmd cancellation + subsequent lament + subsequent “worse things are happening in the world” discourse #happens literally every time some fandom thing happens concurrently with real world terrible thing (which is basically every month #if not every week) #and lastly. duolingo ai reveal (shocked pikachu face) which strictly is not Discourse but is just making the rounds rn #let me know if i missed anything. lawl #OH also. the most revolting imo. genocide bingo. that one is the most fucked

[bubonicpain]

Bad news lads.... i didn't like the Barbie movie.

I'm gonna rant about my take in the tags please don't send me messages for why I'm wrong this was my personal take away if you don't like it and it makes you mad please just block me.

#my heart is broken #i was so excited so hype i thought i was gonna love it #i thought all the reports being like ''they says they hate men'' were anti feminist reactions #but no this movie is misandrist as fuck #the moral really is ''oh well men rule the real world so women deserve to rule this world and the kens can fuck off and get over it'' #when the kens were literally never oppressors #even when they got patriarchy its presented as a disease they caught not as genuinely having power and using it against a vulnerable group #the kens don't get a happy ending the barbies dont have Anything change except one of them is gone now cause she decided she wanted a pussy #barbie spoilers #weird barbie was fun #we didn't get enough of the discontinued barbies #they tried to half ass a conclusion for ken by setting him free of his romantic pining and giving him permission to just be ken but like #he's still homeless #he's still unskilled #he still lives in a world where he isn't accepted anywhere and is hated everywhere just because he's a ken #''actually inequality is good when we do it but we should be kinda nice to them too so they don't try to revolt again i guess'' #i really liked the aesthetic i really liked the acting i really really love the inclusion of the real stuff #as in the Barbie things like the outfits by name and the specific barbies from specific lines #this movie was fine if you want to turn your brain off and watch someting pink its great #i did enjoy myself #i will be getting it and watching it again #again please don't send me anything explaining why you disagree #this is only so i could get my thoughts out there so i can hopefully think about them less #but i dont want a discussion people are allowed to disagree

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#my brain: what if u just lay down and listen to radiohead all day #me: ...hey uh r u doing ok? #i might do it lmao bc i need to read papers and write stuff #so i could justify if. just laying here and listening to radiohead as i work #im just feeling blah. itll pass soon enough #sending out another round of emails to a bunch of old men like: pwease let me join ur lab? #bc all the photosynthesis guys are old ass men apparently. mostly white or indian #thry r doing some rad cyanobacteria stuff in india. also in Germany #sigh... energy where? how? #im just so tired. is it anemia? oh fuck its probably pms nooooooooo #i have to go out in the field starting Thursday 😭 i dont wanna deal with the agony of my body in revolt #on top of hours and hours of tedious field work rip #skip me pls body. pls dont do that to me #lmao one of the guys emailed me back already and copied another professor 😭 like my guy thank u for taking me seriously #also hes from an area of the us i would love to visit at the v least so 👀 #unrelated #oh god. the intrusive thoughts r kicking up. shut up. shut up shut up. #waste of time. shut the fuck up. go away #so fucking annoying. brain why? stop beaming me stupid terrible impulses #dont listen to them. i dont have time for that shit. shut up

[yoonstudios]

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#another vent! don't read if you don't want to! it's long. #so um. my mom and i got in a small fight while out shopping. not anything extraordinary just a regular small dispute and she got #kind of annoyed. and whenever anyone annoys her she *always* says 'it's fine' or 'i'm fine/over it" and it has become noticeable to me #over time. so i told her 'i know you're annoyed with me' and she literally told me 'fine. do you want me to just start telling me that #i'm annoyed with you??' and i was like 'what? yes! why wouldn't i want you to??' but she didn't really answer it. we got into the car #and i said 'sorry i didn't mean to upset you earlier' and of course she was like 'oh it's fine' so i just said to her: #'what i wanted to say was that telling me how i annoyed you and told me what you thought would get us a lot further than just covering your #emotions with a constant 'i'm fine' and not telling me anything.' #and was just like: 'i love you madison but that's not how it works.' #like ????? girl yes it is how it works!! good communication strengthens trust in relationships!! how is this a foreign concept to you?? #but something clicked when she said 'look your father hates it when people talk about their feelings or how actions and words #make them feel. if i get used to telling you how you made me feel then i'll start doing it to your father.' #and i just fuckin. sat there. i didn't even say anything for a good minute bc i was so astonished but everything like. made sense. #this house is so full of 'i don't care' 'fuck you/off' 'i'm fine' and so many other harsh words and careless but hostile name-calling— #we don't even know how to tell each other how we feel and think. there's no healthy connection. whenever someone gets emotional by #crying or saying something about how they feel they're called 'soft' 'snowflake' 'sensitive' or sometimes worse names i won't mention #but it's all the same shit. the shaming of being human is revolting but it also shows how dysfunctional this household is. like #it seriously checks every. single. mark. i don't even tell my mom about my problems because all i ever get back is a 'just relax' or #'stop being ridiculous' and there's no sign of comfort or trying to problem-solve anything. it's just 'get over it you'll be fine.' #it made me realize that everyone in this house doesn't know how to properly communicate or work through emotions- thoughts- and conflicts. #myself included. ever since the age of 9 i had such a hard HARD time showing and receiving affection (physical and emotional) from friends #but i didn't know why! it just felt so goddamn foreign! but now it just. now i understand where my deeply rooted #emotional unavailability came from. healthy communication of affection and conflict was never shown to me and all i ever saw from #my parents were fights. lots and lots of fights. i think i thought that's all normal relationships looked like. i thought any affection or #display of healthy communication was fake and a trap of some kind so i just never even chanced a good friendship. i started having healthy #friendships just in late 2020 when i started realizing what in the fuck was going on. i'm more mature than a reserved 9 year old girl now #of course so i'm learning how to be more emotionally available but. i just need a minute. what the fuck.

[zegemma-beach]

I want to burn the fucking government

#to burn down things #you want to fight lets fight #the french government #even though i shouldnt say this on the Internet since Antifa said #but oh my god i HATE macron and his government #where is the fucking democracy #since the first day he was elected he saw people revolting and he said #I WANT TO DESTROY EVERYTHING #i am rage #i will calm down #but a lot of raging things are happening now #i dont think ill calm down eventually actually

[psalmsofpsychosis]

there's literally *sniffs* not a single day where Spirit The Stallion Of Cimarron is not relevant and amazing, not a single day i tell you–

#me watching spirit when i was 10: oh fuck this is my entire personality now #me watching spirits when i was 20: oh fuck this is my entirely personality now #me watching spirit now: oh fuck this is– #Like. the scene where they bring him into the camp and he watches horses trot in the meaning routine #all streamlined and proper with manifactured discipline and performative poise that is supposed to look examplary #except that it's all void of the freedom #freedom of all wild things and all beautiful things #and then it's the moment he snaps #like i saw that scene and i was like ''how can a story know the inner wirings of my revolt this well–'' #and then i turn and look at social media barnie doll babygirls and babyboys with all plastic skin and plumped to death lips #and mass-produced pristine and unfuckable hypersexuality #and i'm like ''yeah... yeah. the urge to flip the table of body colonialism''

[yellobb]

If my body could stop trying to make me feel awful 24/7 that would be sick actually

#m rambles #it’s like trying to revolt against me #first the bronchitis #which still isn’t fully gone btw #and has been going on for three weeks #now my stomach feels like fizzy soda #and I’ve shit half my body weight this morning #which #that’s totally not concerning at all #and now my period is starting 😭 #I’m actually not allowed to just live apparently #always gotta be something wrong with me #oh your meds actually work now and you’ve gotten great at taking them? #fuck you take four different physical ailments for no particular reason #same vibes as when i finally got my body image issues only to immediately become insecure about my personality #like bitch????? #please let me be happy and live in peace #k thanx bye

[oatwhiskers]

warrior cats fans will be like "oh my god i fucking hate him he makes me sick to my stomach he is so revolting and twisted i hope he dies a horrible death"

and then this is who they're talking about:

#he is SICKENING #warriors #warrior cats #sillyposting #wc #silly

[thiswaycomessomethingwicked]

i had a crazy idea. you know how people make 'sonas for various fandsoms? like a lotr or star wars character? what if you had to make a napoleonic 'sona like a marshalsona or something

Oh man, I guess I don't operate in that corner of the fandoms I'm in so I've never come across that. I associate 'sonas with fursona and other sex-play related things, not fandom. I also personally don't do self-inserts, they're just not to my taste or my style.

If I had to create a self-insert (I think that's what this would qualify as?) for the Napoleonic world I'd 100% just be a long suffering, over-worked civil servant (...which is what I am in real life) OR I'd be a scheming diplomat. So, a Berthier or a Cambeceres or a Talleyrand. Something in that ballpark.

Hmm, probably scheming diplomat or spy. Since that sounds fun.

I'm not terribly into military things (perhaps a surprise?) so being a marshal or a soldier holds no appeal.

Since my character would operate rather high up in the Napoleonic governance structure, they'd have to be damn good at their job because Napoleon didn't suffer fools. I like to think they'd have a bit of Larrey or Lannes' guts in terms of telling Napoleon facts as they are and confronting him when he is making massive, fucking mistakes. Which as the empire continued on, he made more of and was less receptive to critique.

For sure my character would be buddies with Talleyrand and would have an ongoing letter-friendship(?) with Metternich. They'd hang out with Fouche just to get the gossip on everyone but since we all know Fouche is a snake, they wouldn't trust him an inch.

The more I think about it, the more I'm here for them being a spy or agent of some kind who isup to no good, but on behalf of the Empire. An Antonio Cincinello sort of figure (he was a ruthless diplomat/envoy/spy who worked on behalf of king Ferrante of Naples [yes, the one with the museum of mummies of his enemies]). Hopefully my character won't be hacked to death by an angry mob, unlike Cincinello.

So, a mash-up of Thomas Cromwell, Talleyrand, and Cincinello.

My character and Talleyrand would have wine-and-whine sessions where we bitch about people, mostly the Bonapartes and all the crap we put up with from them and on their behalf.

My character does know some of Talleyrand's less-than-loyal-to-Napoleon's schemes but doesn't tell but they're not some godless narc.

Talleyrand: you can't tell a soul.

My character: I'm offended that you think I'm a snitch, honestly.

Appearance I suppose would be unassuming. Nothing to write home about. Um, yeah, I don't know what I'd go for in terms of appearance. Since this is aself-insert do they have to look like me? Just make me a dude, then. Which means I'd look like my father lol. If I get to choose my appearance uhh brown or black hair? Long features, big eyes, ummmm I don' t know man. Average. lol.

I'm sorry if this isn't the right way to answer this! I've never done this before and haven't really seen this sort of thing, again, outside of sexual fantasy situations! Or fursonas, which runs the gamot from pedestrian to very sexual.

Thank you for the ask! <3 <3

#reply #ask #napoleonic #anon #writing #i guess #I would just want to shit disturb so much #Napoleon would be like: what the fuck is So-and-So up to now?? oh god fermenting revolt in Silesia. At least it's on our behalf? #I suppose that's nice?

[v-gersix]

i want to smash my head against a wal lsooo many fuckign times

#im so disgusting im so dsigusting im so disgusting im so disgusting i have disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting #disgusting disgusting disgusting teeth. disgusting it's revolting it's fucking disgusting. it's just disgusting. #no one would ever love me no one would ever want to kiss me no one will ever want to ever ever touch me im so fucking disgusting #no one would ever ever ever ever ever love me #imm so so so so so so so fuckign disgusting and revolting im just a fucking bug im so so so so so disgusitng #im just that disgusting fucking cashier who works at panera bread the disgusting but nice cashier #oh she's so nice haha! she's so nice and disgusting and will enver get anywhere with her life she's so disgusting #haha why do i have to give this disgusting disgusting girl my order. why. haha why #she'll never get anywhere in her life she's just so so so disgusting. haha

[tallyhocrow]

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#ads are annoying but easy to ignore for the most part #BUT COULD YOU FUCKING STOP WITH THE DISGUSTING EAR CLEANING AD #OH MY GOD IT'S REVOLTING

[queerhairycowboy]

fuck the british. fuck the monarchy. fuck the fascists. FUCK THE TORIES.

free scottland, let trans people be seen as people, SUPPORT STRIKES!!, WORKERS RIGHTS, UP WITH THE WORKING CLASS

#im so sick #and so tired #of this fucking country #every day i hear something that makes me want to drive a knife into my skull and pour my brain into the toilet. #fuck facists #we need to revolt #honest to god #we've been saying shit since the 70s but its about fucking time innit #oh but right! protesting is basically going to be illegal soon #this government doesn't WORK #thats the problem #cant just stick a new fanny in charge and expect it to be okay #we need a new system #new everything #the school system is a PRISON #i dont want to work til i die #for barley anything #fuck that #fuck the tories #fuck them fuck them fuck them fuck them oh my god in going insane #im not even in my third decade alive yet #not past 20 #and the futures already #set #corprate job #poor for the rest of my life #oppressed #and fucking british #i hate this fucking elitist country