#ok im done talking to myself

[hueberryshortcake]

I don't think scrooge and goldie could do howl's moving castle and that's because sophie's entire arc is about learning to be confident in her own self worth and understanding that she has an inherent right to exist in this world. and neither scrooge nor goldie has ever been insecure about anything in their entire lives ever because they are both personified steamrollers who make everything about them already

#JOKE I GUESS #between them both being old most of the time anyway and neither of them being a great fit for either character.... yeah #sophie's role in the story is defined by her personality imo and it wouldn't be an optimal story if scrooge or goldie was put in her place #howl's moving castle is my favorite book. i read it nine times in 2021. it was kind of a problem. #anyway huge HOWEVER to this is scrooge could do chapter 6 in which howl expresses his feelings with green slime #and goldie could do chapter 19 in which sophie expresses her feelings with weedkiller #and vice versa honestly #also can u imagine. hugely powerful enchanter glittering goldie opens her mysterious portal to another world #only to reveal that it goes to. not wales. CANADA. #scrooge: why are you wearing a jacket that says “canadian hockey” on the back #i love u welsh rugby sweatshirt #last ramble thought: idk if i can think of anybody who's really like sophie but if i had to say SOMEBODY id say donald is the most like her. #which might be a hot take. possibly a bad one. i dont care #ok im done talking to myself

[skunkes]

#IM SO DRUNK @ THISTLE THISTLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #a doodley #OK SLEEP NOW im giving myself a headache thinking abt him #thje glimpse we get of him in the opening is enough to make me want to jump out a window im not gonna make it. #alsofd this is making me think of when i posted my yearly redraws and someone in the tags put like #''how does it feel to have had every art style'' #afn like literally. i just cant go full lineless/painting bc ilove lines too much but i can do Dis #too many ways to draw #anywhay i just talked abt how im not a fanart person bt i want to draw him so bad. i love him #he's my favorite character in the series #even more so now that its Done and Cohesive. it hurts so bad i understand him i do

[gelarshiesprofruitboarder]

woohoo !!!!!1!1!1!1!!1!1!1!1

#blurrggfhffhddfhgh i hate drawing and art and aajhdkdhfkdjdd dies #mostly just drawinf men actually #hashtag lesbian moment /j #art #homestuck #alpha kids #jane crocker #roxy lalonde #jake english #dirk strider #janeroxy #cotton candy #dirkjake #i keep drawing the alpha kids. why. im not even a bit fan of like. half of them. and i cant draw them well. augh #why do i do this to myself #/hj #also this is with no refs because i had no wifi so it looks like shit #ok im done talking now

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

the picnic table scene

#this isnt going to make sense to literally any of you for a long time and im sorry about that #but FUCK was i writing this morning #man. man man man man Man the motivation Hit #this fic might get done after all... #i need. to go sleep. OUASGAHSAKJSNCADCLSKDVMS; #THEY MAKE ME INSANE THEY MAKE ME INSANE #YALL ALREADY KNOW WHO IM TALKING ABOUT #THEY MAKE ME CRAZY AGH AGH AGH #ok. ok. ill sleep. and we'll see if the scene holds up when my brain is Refreshed #absolutely unprompted #throwing myself to the ground and howling #who do i need to BITE #oh 7 am me we're really in it now #literally getting myself too worked up. im. Emotional. i almost feel like tearing up #if that was something i could do lmao #fortunately crying does not come easily to me but in my heart im like. idk. Sobbing #anyway in order to calm down im gonna go think about something that makes me equally insane #which is the OG reason i designed a butterfly look for howdy. yass!howdy's origins <3 #slamming my face through drywall ok bye im off to crazyville where i can catch a layover to sleepytown

[hasarjunadoneanythingwrong]

I got a really important commission from @theneonflower that i need everyone to see ASAP

#my post #NOT my art #arjuna #gudao #ritsuka fujimaru #ok real talk this is the first time ive ever done a commission and im SO happy w how it went. like i love neons art sm and it was awesome #also i like that i can use this so whenever i see the angsty arjuna comic i can pretend theres an au where its fine ;') #but like THEY LOOK SO GOOD GUDAO IS SO CUTE ARJUNA IS SO CUTE I LOVE THE COLORS #neon has really distinctive linework that i adore tbh. so of course i needed to buy art from them >:) #the hardest part of this tbh was figuring out like. what i wanted them to be doing bc i knew i couldnt message an artist like 'junaguda??' #'junaguda happy??? arjuna?????? yes???" #but i forced myself to pick something. for once. and its SO GOOD #its SO GOOD guys #ik im sounding insane here im just really excited lmao #the reviews are in: i like arjuna and i like getting art of him #and i love them having a nice date...theyre happy....

[insertsona]

hi ! you wanna comm me sooo bad

tried to make the sheets as clear as possible but if anything is confusing just ask !!!

#important note for anyone reading the tags: i am a very fast worker and usually can get a drawing done in one sitting. HOWEVER. #the reason i dont work well with deadlines is because my motivation is very very inconsistent . if i force myself to draw while unmotivated #the overall quality tends to be worse . thats why a lot of my art is just doodles #casinos art :] #casinos words: talking #casinos ramblings #do i. put tags on this? #what. would i tag this with #um. #furry #deltarune #pokemon #well . those are my main three fandoms (i can draw others too ...) #oc #art #commissions open #comms open #ok im not adding any more tags ill cry

[lovedazai]

this week was so stupid

#its over :) thank GOD #next week will be better !! (saying it until i convince myself) #i see my asks. i love u #i promise i’ll reply when i have a little more energy <33 #look inside my head its literally this 🌫️🌫️ #i think i’ll sleep for twelve hours now #i dont want to think ab it anymore so i’ll tell u something good that happened !! #i got my hair done !! im so obsessed w it ive been feeling myself ever since #i met the cutest boy ive ever seen….i didnt talk to him v much </3 but maybe he heard me telepathically #lastly ! i got my fav serum on sale !!!! #itll all be ok :< ending my day w my dog sleeping on me and shes v warm #tmw is lazy mai day im not doing ANYTHING !! except maybe baking some goodies #i hope ur week was kind to u <33 and ur weekend is even kinder

[doodlebloo]

God I love my internship so much I could cry this is literally my dream job

#idk what I'll do if they dont hire me #this is like. i didnt even know this job existed and now im here getting to be a part of the BEGINNINGS of all this cool shit!!! #I can so easily see myself like 40 years down the line still here talking abt how ive been here since the beginning #sorry for gushing but god it's so cool here i love promoting the arts in my own community & everyone is so nice here :(( #OK DONE NOW LOL good luck back at school fellow scholars 👍 #doodle.txt

[todayisafridaynight]

sister saw me wearing the puffer that i use for my daigo cosplay since im cold all the time and sweaters arent enough and she was just like 'i really like it :) you look so. 👊💥' and after going What she was like 'you look real cool :) is what i meant :)' like thank you sister of mine youre too silly for this life

#snap chats #like she punched the air and made a punch sound effect fwrjflkjle #i mean she is not. WRONG with miming that about this jacket so 💀💀💀💀 #also funny im wearing my own cross necklace and a black shirt and pants. lmao #also yeah i have two puffers- one's meant for the rain and REALLY cold weather and the second one's just. Casual/Daigo #'why are you like this' cause the other puffer's way too buiky fr casual wear and daigo and the interior isn't black like his is #this one's more slim and has a black interior. which is so funny cause when i was looking for a puffer for daigo years ago #it was impossible finding such a thing specifically but i got bored and decided to look again recently and i found it on the first page #for like. three cents basically too fejLRKjELj so thats cool. cant wait to show it off at animenyc #no im actually so excited bout animenyc ... hopefully i can actually. attend a meetup unlike last time 💀 #i also didnt get to go last year so itll be fun going to a con again .. #im just stoked in general bout the small-but-meaningful-edits-to-me ive done to the whole look #s'gonna be fun .. AND im gonna try tweaking my mine one too since i got compelled to do That with all the mine talk lately #idk when id show that one off if ever. UNLUCKY that i hate taking pics of myself no one ever gets to see my cosplays unless its video form #ok im done rambling i have some stuff to do before i take an exam bye

[softshuji]

Any men out there wanna pretend to be my bf to get my parents off my case about marriage? I am so so serious right now.

#my mom gave me a really really lonf lecture and upset me because her and my dad want me to start thinking about settling down ans getting #married. again. cos this comes up all the time. ans I reiterated that i do wanna marry and have kids. i know im 26 years old why do they' #think im also not aware of this??? like i suddenly forgot my own age and have my head in the clouds all the time. and i got so heated cos i #said they only believe in that in theory. in reality neither of them have accepted the idea od my leaving home or the idea of mw being with #a man. and they start freaking out if they even find out i talk to them so to say they want me to get married is so fucking naive #ans when i mentioned this and that they're more than ok w mt brothers talking tp women she said that if i wanted to settle down she could #talk to dad and they could “go about finding someone for me” and I've never been so pissed #i got so upset. why does everyone keep saying this to me. as if anyone my dad knows could ever be a half decent man #and the truth is they don't care if im in a happy marriage they've accepted that i won't be they only care that im gone and saving face in #front of family. that's all. it's always reputation it's always “what will people say?” #not once did love come up. not once did shw even imply that i should marryfor love #or that they hope i love someone and marry them. because they're more happy with the idea of me marrying for the sake of it than #they are at the idea of me finding genuine lovw #im not a fucking broodmare im not here to push out babies for the sake od reputation. #and then i said nor being married isn't the end of the world and she said “it's important that you settle down” #and i said im unwavering in my principles. she can call mw high maintenance like she loves doing but I'm not wavering on the #kind of man i want to be with and when i do marry him i want it to bw genuine. because be loves me and vice versa not because im ticking off #somethin from a damn checklist to appease them. and if being unwavering on my principles means staying unmarried then so be it. #my obligations are to god and myself and that's it #and y'know what??? i am in love with a boy already #and yet they don't care that i wanna be in love at all. no im just a puppet to follow a certain narrative in life live according to evergone #else has and that's it. #im done. #and then she tried to apologise by getting me a slice of cake and that somehow made me feel worse. #i dont want an apology. i want to be heard and actually listened to for once. i want someone to ask what i want. to actually give a shit #and love me cos it's me. not cos im some thing to further an agenda. or some toy or puppet that does your bidding. #is it so much??? to just want to be loved in return? to marry and live according to how i want to?? ans not want anyone to make these #decision's for me? #ruined my whole day.

[lightbulb-warning]

this is getting ridiculous there's so much stuff i wanna draw i need to clone myself immediately

#what do you mean i can barely stand up??? no that was me an hour ago im completely fine now and also am capable of drawing 70 things rn #<- I WISH #genuinely just talking at myself here #okay!! plan time: homework is 7 pages +dialogue. i sketched the rough layouts out already and i my teacher gave me the okay to do it digita #i don't think she realized she gave me the okay tbh? but i asked her twice and she said yes so no takebacksies!!! #i have a timer that only does 55 minutes. in 55 minutes can i rough out at least 3 better pencils? ill find out! #i should start with the ending because that's 1 birds eye view like three times and a car that explodes and a bunch of close ups so ez pz #i just gotta figure out one car perspective im giving myself 55 minutes for the car #lineart is gonna be a pain but when isnt it :') #hey did you know there's an entire ship month prompt list??? im seething that's such a dumb idea i wanna do it so baaaaad #whatever #ill figure it out #that's part one of getting boring shit i need to do done!! part two should be easier bc its just hospitals and the draft is already p detai #ok ok ok i can do this #the essay is an essay and the essay is getting fucked i will do it at GUNPOINT #aaaaa #shut up maiora #p.s. edit: i did some of it and ended up doing a completely different plan. sigh sigh oh well im doing my best

[slopdoughnut]

My bitchass cat- 80 ft up in a goddamn tree

It has been a day

#i dont want to make a long post so im ranting in the tags #this is now day 2 of her being up there #we only just found where she was in the tree thanks to binoculars #there are lots of emotions rn #ive already had a shitty few days and now this #on top of all that #this guy that came to “help” was constantly making remarks about ways to get her down that would definitely kill her #“oh I'm just not a cat person” #ok??? #and??? #shut the fuck up #i lost my cool on his ass so fucking fast #i like to consider myself a generally nice person when it comes to social interactions #but within the hour i was done with this asshole #i will not mention the ways he talked about getting her down #but i will mention that i definitely threatened him #lucky i did not tell him what i was really thinking #which was that i wanted to cave his skull in #but still #i dont give a fuck that you are here to help #the past few days have been shit and now this???? #why are you such an ass??? #fuck that guy #thanks for reading my rant #i hope your week was good #ill update on how getting her down goes #rant post #personal rant #rant

[moeblob]

Before I post any art, I gotta say a thing. And I've told a few people already but I am gonna share it here, too.

TW; Anxiety (but like positive?)

At work I am quite well-known as "that person with anxiety". I think at most points, despite turnover rates of employees, at minimum 65% of all employees have seen me cry at work before. If they haven't, it's probably someone on night crew. The thing is though, it has it's really weird benefits? I'm absolutely not here to wish anxiety on anyone but when someone that isn't me has anxiety? A lot of coworkers will ask me to talk to the person in the middle of an attack because "hey you can relate".

And today all I had to do was listen to someone vent their work stress as she cried out back and vaped a little to calm down. Like, she didn't ask me to join her out back. A guy told me to go check on her so I did. And she just... let it all out. And as she calmed down and was about to go back in I told her "hey it's fine to feel better but if you go right back to where you were it's not gonna help anything. Go into the walk in cooler for a minute to literally cool off" and she paused and was like. Stunned. That it could be that easy. (note, the back? no AC. her station? the pizza station? ovens AND multiple people for body heat. outside where she vented? also hot!)

I just enjoy the fact that while it sucks to have anxiety, I've been there long enough to help multiple people through an attack because I'm just a small and little fella. The least intimidating person in the restaurant who has been seen crying more than any other worker.

I remember having my own anxiety attack and my GM at the time just walked over to me and stood at a slight distance and started to talk to me about a video game he'd been playing lately and when he left to get back to work, I felt better. He just ... rambled about something to distract me and it worked. I remember a manager who had real bad anxiety prior to working and had it under control who told me it was fine to feel anxious because your brain's stupid. And, as a restaurant, he's like "to your brain under an anxiety attack, you could have a line out the door or a lion at the door and it's the exact same sense of fear."

Basically, I haven't had super huge attacks at work lately but I'm still known for having them and for some reason, that gets spread around and no one ever acts like it's a defect. In fact, plenty find it relatable! And when I can help someone with advice I've gotten before or just distracting them with a silly story about the one time I walked in the back door and walked into the cooler and started to cry and shake and a manager found me and goes "did you even clock in yet?" and I shook my head and he told me to go home but after I sat in my car for a bit to calm down. It's nice to hear someone laugh when I tell them "so hey, at least YOU got to clocking in so you're getting paid to cry".

It's just wild how a little understanding goes a long way? How it doesn't fix anything but dang it really does help to just co-exist as "ah yeah I get that - do you want some water?"

#moe talks a lot #not art #i might delete later idk #but for now i just think its cool how my current legacy at work isnt that of being a crybaby #but a person who can help others with anxiety cause i CLEARLY have anxiety #its p nifty ! i can def think of worse reputations to have honestly #and the fact people do appreciate just having someone to talk to who gets yeah its irrational crying but #its still crying and its affecting work and hey i feel better now thanks #ok now i have to draw but since it got to be really long i cut myself off as a read more #ty for reading if you did ! #but honestly as someone who isnt even 5ft tall im the least imposing figure you can be around #any who if you have anxiety and you made it this far GOOD JOB YOU DID IT youve done great so far

[stinkrascal]

dont think i’ll be able to finish editing n begin posting the vlad/brie backstory reprisal by the 31st like i hoped i would 🤒

#soooooo maybe i’ll push it back to january 31st instead #to give myself some time to build a queue #and now i can make a cool preview pic like how some simblrs do u know #to promo their stories before they debut!! yesss that will be so fun i think i have some ideas for what i wanna do for it too #it’s so close to being done u guys i can TASTE IT!!! #sry ik i talk about this project a lot w/o ever really saying anything meaningful im just AHHHHH im so excited to share it!! #ive had so much fun writing it over these few yrs. it is an extremely personal work for me #it has been very cathartic 2 write and i hope you guys can appreciate it even though i havent been a simblr for months atp 😭❤️ #ok thats all goodbye now i must go questing (go to the dispensary)

[crowtechs]

i know i probably made a post like this before but its just !!! im so happy!! im experiencing selfshipping how i really wanted to experience it!! filled with so much love for my f/os and in general get so excited to see them !!

its just so nice !! and i get to make myself squeal or fluster over thinking cute things to do with them aaaaaaa ^_^ .... its just a very nice feeling.....

im really happy ... these two mean so much to me waaaaaaaaah..... i feel sometimes bad cause my friend hears me gush about them both all the time ^^;; but its just so nice !! and gosh .....

its so strange making silly selfship things (like text posts or silly things i guess) because i never fully done that without feeling strange or weird upon doing so...... and honestly?? that feeling isnt even there with them!! its so ?? nice?? i know i keep saying that i just dont know how to express or describe it ...

im just so happy and so smiley ..... i can finally experience something that means so much to me again & without second guessing myself so much <3

#eee sorry for this post??? #i just want to express how i feel lately hsdjgdfgdfh #i think its mostly cause im just sort of thinking this is for me and no one else ??? #that its just been helping and making me super happy !!! #last year was such a horrible year for me... the only good thing that happened was i think in december #OH and in october <3 #so...... this means a lot and makes me so happy..... #its just overall so comforting >_< #aaaa sorry !!!! rambling in the tags #+ sorry for the long post i just talk i guess........ #<- ok one more thing sorry #i thiiiiiiink it could also be the fact im embracing myself more and more instead of hiding inside a shell...... #still nervous and socially anxious but im trying to be happy for me :] #OK SORRY NOW IM DONE EHJEKFHJDFG #ashley talks

[girlcrushau]

#me? about to use tumblr as a diary again? in 2024? unfortunately:/ #but here have a waterfall i saw on a hike last week as payment #i am sO tired and exhausted emotionally after dating #there's this guy that i fr thought was going to last and be around for a long time. we spent like every moment together that we could for 2 #months straight and if we werent physicaly together we were texting or calling or on ft . just every part of our day had the other in it #not once did i ever feel unwanted undesired or uncared for. not once did i feel that i wasnt sure of his intentions. i felt safer with him #in those 2 months than i ever did with any one else i could think to compare to. #until one day he just didnt think it important to communicate any more. after 3 days of nearly nothing .. hardly any talking . i asked if #he was ok if we were ok. what was going on in his head. he said some ive just been with my buddies and family and havent been on my phone #and just. immediately thats heartbreak yanno. thats :// thats what they say when theres a new girl. but there'd never been a reason to think #there was another girl so i was like ok we're gonna trust bc this dude has been So good in every way. so i said imy but i understand. enjoy #your time with your buddies and with your fam -- i cant wait to hear about it (and hold you) #and i havent heard from him in the 3 weeks since. just randomly #so last night #i send the dreaded 'i miss you' text. #i dont expect to hear back and i accept the hurt that will come with that and the confusion that i've felt settles deeper into my heart #until this afternoon i hop on ig and see a hard launch that was posted an hour after my text was sent #that shit kinda hurt different. but also sent me into a bit of a delirious state where all i could do is laugh bc are you for fucking real #did she see my message? i know it. bc i know him and i know that he wouldnt hide anything from the person he's giving his heart #and his softness to. i can almost imagine how he showed her and promised her theres nothing to worry about #and there really isnt anything to worry about because he genuinely is the type to give his all to the relationship he's in #which feels silly to say after what happened w us. like no there wasnt a title ever #it sucks to call it a situationship because a month ago we were laughing in bed together about how we could never bc we were all in. #just the timing of the hard launch makes me giggle. did my text push them to have a conversation about what they are. was she really the #reason that he went away on me. #im trying not to blame myself . trying not to think about the phone calls i didnt answer. about what i could have done differently. trying #not to think about where we would be if i didnt let my anxieties hold me back. if i wasnt scared about what he'd think of the parts of me #that i keep hidden just a little bit longer than the rest. #and at the same time im trying not to put him on a pedestal. but that pedestal is just where i wholeheartedly believe he belongs #he set the bar for me. he set the standard. i was never too much. i was never too little. he made me feel perfect just as i am