#ok thats enough of being weird. for now

[99probalos]

happy belated birthday jay ‼️‼️‼️‼️ im so fucking sorry this is a week late.

#HAPPY 43 JAY🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶 GOD BLESS YOUR BEAUTIFUL SOUL #ok thats enough of being weird. for now #i hope u all enjoy my clipart choices #mwahahahha..... #rlm #redlettermedia #jay bauman #red letter media #fanart #art

[ambagel]

Wait hold on, in his anniversary video Barbatos mentions the mc being the brother's attendant?

But in the other videos, it's implied that they don't remember the mc leaving (which is actually something im very disappointed about and really hope isnt the case in the actual story)

In these two specifically, it seems like they aren't aware of the mc's presence in the past/alternate timeline/whatever it is. The only other person who seems like they know is Lucifer

Which also lines up with the end of lesson 40, where he's the only one who says welcome back? So like?? Do only him and Barbatos know? Did they not tell anyone?? Diavolo would probably know as well but I haven't seen anything to show that yet. Anyways I don't really like where this is going, I would really prefer they not make everyone forget the mc disappeared

#of course they could always just be not quite putting the pieces together in these scenes #buuuut at this point im not so sure.. #i was hoping theyd take a more “WE MISSED YOU” approach #because if im being honest those are some of my favorite moments #like yay everythings better now lets hug it out #i feel weird about them potentially not knowing about what happened #how would they play that off? solomon already said they were freaking out? #“oh whoops we time traveled just far back enough that no one noticed you were gone” #no #do not do that #that defeats the purpose of this whole shenanigan #they also cant just say it was the regular past #because story inconsistencies #solomon has even commented on how its different #hes like “simeon and luke shouldnt be here” #istg if they try to move past that without explaining i will explode #its a very plausible scenario at this point #theyve done it before #because oh does diavolo just not have the power to spot lies anymore?? ok #anyway im scared for the future of the story #this could go wrong in so many ways #obey me! #obey me! swd #obey me lucifer #obey me satan #obey me luke #obey me barbatos #posts #maybe barbatos just merges the timelines again and thats why everyone feels weird #idk im too tired to think more about this

[icewindandboringhorror]

I have a big google doc thing where I keep track of media and stuff (putting everything in loosely ranked categories), which is mostly just for my own reference so I know what tv shows I've already seen before, etc. and I never really look back through it, typically just a quick "okay, watched two movie in the past 8 months, need to quickly slap them somewhere in the lists. okay. done. save document. exit". But today I was actually reading through some of the old notes and there are like... MULTIPLE places where my comment is basically "It would have been good if it were about elves" or "I wish there was a fantasy show made in this same style" or "It's well made, but I just keep thinking about how I would like it more if everyone was an elf or was in old 1700s costumes" or etc like...... lol.... Most biased media ranking system on earth blatantly made by someone with an extremely hyperspecific range of narrow interests. It'd be like if a food reviewer only had 5 foods they actually liked, so they'd just go to a pizza place and be like "eh, the pizza was okay, but I just think it would be better if it was cereal instead. :/ ...2 out of 10"

#Which.. I mean... I am allowed to be biased because literally it's just for my own personal reference (or occasionall #y to send to friends or something if we're discussing the topic) so like.. nowhere am I saying 'I am the god of perfect taste and these #rankings are objectively the absolute truth and everyone should have my same opinion' or anything #BUT still.. it's funny to me sometimes #'Succession would be 100x better if it had the same cast/character quirks and shaky camera style and #acting choices/weird dialogue and general concept etc. EXCEPT it takes place within an elven noble family or something #managing the family business and everyone is in fantasy costumes now'' like.....okay...... but it's NOT that way..soo... thats not the show #''I like the acting style/general tone of Fleabag but i don't care for any of the characters or any of the subject matter and I wish it was #set in the 1800s and had vampires and was about magic instead'' okay..... again... you are making up an entirely new show in that case lol #OR my other beloved typical complaint ''The concept is good but theres too much plot and action and not enough people just sitting #around doing nothing and exposition dumping world and character lore'' ''this needs more goofy sideplots and filler episodes'' #''this Drama was too dramatic I think it should be more lighthearted & people need to sit around doing nothing just being weird more often' #''the Action Movie was ok except for the action scenes - which I skipped through all of- but I liked the costumes and worldbuilding'' etc. #ERM sorry your plot has too much plot. also elves have to be included somehow. bye #BUT SERIOUSLY!!!!!! I literally genuinely believe that any show I like (or even dislike) could ALWAYS be improved greatly by #putting people in fantasy or historical costume/setting/etc... why the FUNK would I want to see bland jeans and cars and cell phones #when I could see elaborate velvet cloaks and fantastical landscapes and interior design and innovative takes on historical or #magical technology or etc. etc. etc. I LIVE in the modern day. I see it all the time!!! BORING! stinky!! boo!!! #ANYWAY... another social divide for me.. People love to bond by discussing media. which is hard when I'm like #'I literally will not watch something at all unless it fits into one of these 10 extremely specific categories which are all i care about i #the entire world''.. I say this and yet I still dislike most fantasy or historical things I've watched lol. ok TWO main criteria then!! #it must 1. be in a different world or time period. 2. be goofy silly. Nothing ever has BOTH. It's always overly serious boring drama action #fantasy/history stuff OR it's comedic lighthearted but with modern day characters... WHY.. anguish and woe and so on.. #ANYWAY jhjnk... at least I can make that divide. Some people seem to project their own personal preferences and get really emotionally #defensive if you say you didn't like something - as if the fact that they DO like it is some Objective Truth or something rather than just #opinion/preference based. I can still easily say ''this is well made/well written/acted/good in a technical sense/has a lot of #points of appeal that most people would be drawn to/etc'' and admit that it's a GOOD show probably. I just PERSONALLY think its #bad because my tastes are very narrow. Some things ARE actually made badly but. things are not bad INHERENTLY just bc they dont suit ME lol #Better to recognize/accept whats odd about you and be peacefully aware of it than just being mad at everyone all the time for not fully #agreeing with you even when you're the one with the Weird opinion in that case lol.. I am right though :3 but.. lol... still. i get it

[trashworldblog]

me after getting home after all of the things went wrong: DEATH DEATH FIRE DEATH HATE RAGE ANGER RAAAAAAAAAAA

me in about 10 to 20 minutes: hehe :) everything is wonderful :)

#OK SO FUCK. HAD 3 HOURS OF CLASS. EQUIPMENT CENTER DIDNT HAVE A MICRO SD CARD EVEN THOUGH THEY ARE SUPPOSED TO HAVE THEM #SO I WENT TO THE STORE AND THEY DIDNT HAVE ANY SO I WALK UP A HILL TO GO TO TARGET AND I WAIT 20 MINUTES FOR AN ATTENDANT TO UNLOCK #THE THING AND IM ALL UPSET BECUASE IM THINKING ABOUT ALL THE THINGS TARGET LOCKS UP LIKE BABY FORMULA ESPECIALLY IN POC NEIGHBORHOODS #AND HOW FUCKED UP THAT IS THAT COMPANIES LOCK UP BABY FOOD TO PROTECT THEIR BOTTOM LINE AND THEN I GET ON A BUS AND MEN ARE BEING WEIRD #ABOUT MY LEGS IN SHORTS AND AGGH i look like a minor and thats so fucked up and now im home. #also its fucked that the equipment center doesnt have enough functional sd cards for the cameras they have. and i had to buy my own #when my tuition is supposed to pay for that so. yeah. #tldr i had a bad few hours but in class i made a funny video in premiere and made ppl laugh so thats good

[opens-up-4-nobody]

Au idea: Little Naruto raised by a shulk, Kurama made contact very early and kept the boy company and eventually Naruto disappeared into the forest to live with fox summons. He only ever really showed up to steal or pull pranks but he disappeared right into the summons realm before anyone could catch him.

When the Genin are ready to graduate Naruto is just there, with his wild hair and fox aunt.

Iruka doesn’t know how to respond to this, he’s blue screened.

:-)

#u would have to have him vanish maybe within a year of thr Uchiha massicure #say he was in danger. the seal gets messed up so his 9 tails chakra goes all weird andand idk kurama calls in a bunch of foxes to get him #outta there. and bc im an iruka simp we can say iruka was on his way to help but wasnt fast enough. but they still have the existing #relationship bc Iruka's been his teacher for like almost 2 years and has treated him like a human #then he spends like 3yrs? with the foxes. learning from stollen scrolls. and shows up for the genin exam #and they say he can take the exam if he spends a few days in class with the other kids and iruka deems him eligible #then he passes so u dont get the big mizuki scene bit iruka keeps hanging around bc he felt so horrible abt naruto disappearing #so naruto is more competent earlier bc kurama is working with him. but is more influenced by the 9tails anger and has to be drawn away #from thst by iruka and team 7. lol there. thats how i would justify this #naruto #uzumaki naruto #umino iruka #also i just like the idea of foxes buying ramen with money and teuchi just being like. sure. ok. i guess i serve carry out to foxes now #also i feel like fox summons just like normal foxes and only communicate in the heads of those they wanna talk to #sneaky telepaths

[lottalove01]

rant <3

#so i told my friend im thinking abt engaging more in my christian community again starting w going to church more and visiti g exchanges etc #she kniws abt basically all my other friends being more than less religious and active in their respective communities #+ my family being religious even during soviet times and she even kniws abt the orthodox side of my family #so this shouldnt surprise her this much #why is she trying to talk me out of it saying christianity is evil and she cant agree to creationism like ok bitch me too #she acting as if im gonna become some republican american blonde woman or an primitive medieval peasant wthhh #and like i get it she and her family have always been agnostic and she doesnt have any personal experience with believe and faith #but that is even more reason to shut the hell up?? especially bc i just told her as like a life update i didnt want to start a discussion #w an agnostic no less #ppl like that make me so uncomfortable and then she kept saying things like this person is godless as a joke like stfu??? #and kept bringing up she csnt believe in god at random times it made me so umcomfortable #especially bc now i feel hesitant to invite her to hangouts w my more 'strict' friends like idk what she thinks abt them and i dont want to #expose my friends who have to listen to enough shit to someone like that like i want my home to be a safe space for my friends #anyways thats the same girl who keeps telling me she doesnt think im white and when i tell her her saying this makes me uncomfortable #shes argues its ok bc she is not white herself ok wth im literally german/slavic how is that not white im crying #cant really articulate what exactly makes me uncomfy abt this but feels like she wants to enable me its really weird #also with tge christian stuff like ive always been religious she kniws abt me reading religious texts its so weird to me #why are you my friend if you disagree with a foundamental part of my life #maybe she thoight i was an ok one bc me and my familys approach to believe and faith is very relaxed but wth man

[horrorwebs]

why are men literally the fucking worst

#theres a guy in one of my uni friend groups who has a crush on my friend also from the friend group #and she feels so so uncomfortable plus she hasnt done ANYTHING thatd give a hint that she likes him back. bc she doesnt #and now she doesnt feel ok around because hes so attached to her and so so needy and its like. well. way to fuck it up dude. fuck you #he has been acting so strange lately and not in a good way. strange awkward and needy and like. possesive. #her and i also have another friendgroup where frankly i feel much better with and she does too. and its like. well the guy is always like #butting in but now really being part of anything? like its not like he comes over to the grouo to be with all of us hes just sort of . there #talking only to her or sometimes me but its like not nice its weird and annoying #ALSO HES SO PATRONIZING TOWARDS HER ITS AWFUL #AND hes like. a bit older.... where its not like. the weirdest age gap i dont think so. but it IS a bit weird considering some of the things #he has said. like the other day he made a comment about how my friend 'well shes so young like people her age sometimes dont get [x]' like? #if you think she is SOOO young and SOOO out of touch with people your age well why the fuck are you asking others if you have a chance w her #get away from her really #sidenote: today she was telling me and a different friend about this problem and my other friend said it was really uncomfortable and bad + #that he used to think the guy had a thing for ME BEFORE??? and i dont know if he also thought -i- had a thing for him but please god no. #even the hypothetical made me feel super uncomfortable. also i used to feel like that a bit like he might like me and it was bad and gross #so i dropped a comment that let him believe i was a lesbian i think? also got much colder towards him . like. thats what you get fucker #about the lesbian thing i meant that he told me about a friend of his that had it hard coming out as a lesbian and i said like oh yeah being #like that was hard for me also. finding out i was not straight was tough etc . #dont remember if i said the word lesbian i dont think so but i did say i like girls and i didnt mention boys at all so i hoped itd be enough #also people dont really -get- what being asexuas means + didnt want to tell him im ace + techically i Can like boys bc romantic attraction #is undefined to me but i was definetely not going to tell him that bc 1. im much more prone to like a girl and 2. not trying to get his hope #up. #so anyway it was gross to realize other people saw it too so i mightve actually not been insane to think he had a crush on me but it was bad #and also. i really need for my friend to be comfortable in class so i might have to kill him who knows. well see #spikeposting #personal

[strwbrymlkshake]

Why can't I be satisfied with everything? It needs to be perfect to me and I can't accept anything otherwise :(

#mine #oh boy here we go. guy last post was about has been pretty cool and i got flustered around him a few times #but i feel bad bc. i need m o r e he isnt insane enough he isnt making me go absolutely crazy i want to be satisfied but im NOT im sorry #like its quite honestly the most attention acceptance etc ive gotten but its not ENOUGH he doesnt die whenever i send a selfie #im never satisfied WHY i have unrealistic expectations !!!! i hate my brain killing and violence and death etc #i get crushes on guys who want nothing to do with me but then when one actually wants me its not enough? what is wrong with me #thrill of the chase? i cant accept being loved? what is it brain. christ almighty. im not doing anything like deliberately yandere related #anymore im just being generally incomprehensibly mentally ill 🙄 still trying to find a therapist but idk how on earth ill explain that #ill update this post tomorrow with more insanity but for now i am the sleepy tired #// ok its now 3 days later i dont feel like making another post. i think i was just having a mental illness moment as always #because he does make me insane. hashtag girl. im trying to be the smartest and calculated i have ever been with a relationship in my life #like im thinkin about it so hard bro. the future n shit. how would this relationship go. im so scared ill do something wrong its preventing #me from doing things RIGHT. im sad becaude i flipped out today over even imagining him being upset with me a little #so i was really embarrassed and it put me in a weird mood for the rest of the night but he reassured me he doesnt hate me or want me to die #every one aaalways says theyre different. i can only hope this one is telling the truth. i dont know what ill do if he isnt. #well i need to stop whining about fictional scenarios and focus on the good stuff in reality. i get along with him very well and he #is very niceys to me :3 he doesnt think im fucking insane or stupid for overreacting. i feel very comfortable gossiping and talking w him #every long time blog viewer of mine reading this like ah shit here we go again #but thats what im here for. i guess. just have to keep doing this shit until something good finally happens to me romantically hngh #i feel so strange because i have wanted and yearned for a relationship but now that i actually could have one im like WAIT #I DIDNT THINK ID GET THIS FAR 💀💀💀 bruh. and he doesnt even think im stupid hes respectful to me he checks in on me all the time #like perhaps the only person to ever actually almost match my energy in a romantic sense. there was [redacted] i guess but he didnt love me #he listens to me talk about my problems he doesnt think i complain or overreact too much. all the ridiculous cringe shit i do #he doesnt mind it. its nice to be able to be myself. and im really proud of myself for not rushing into a relationship right away

[snekdood]

if words are not enough to get a manipulative person to leave you tf alone and hit the road, wtf are ya supposed to do? maybe throw a small toy at them to send a message

#bitch i coulda been way worse dont play #if it were me now with all the self respect i have now i woulda thrown more shit ta have ya running out the door ok #idc #i mighta fucked around and thrown my shit at you ok. #i dont think you realize the distress you caused by gaslighting me about what you did to me and also trying to be just like me? #like basically cosplay as me but want me to still date you? sorry that shits fucking weird. and i tried ending it every time you got #to that point. but ya kept trying to keep me around anyways even though you knew i was uncomfortable. didnt matter what i said #you'd find a way to manipulate the situation to keep you around. so what am i supposed to do to send the message of #'GO THE FUCK AWAY I DONT TRUST YOU AND I DONT WANNA DATE SOMEONE WHOS GONNA COSPLAY AS ME' #when words arent enough? no matter how i approached it? #i tried being nice about it. but my primal self defence kicked in and told me 'this bitch needs to get tf away from us' #so how do i show you to fuck off in a way you'll fuckin understand? yeah. #i tried playing your dumb words game. i tried playing it the way you do it. for a whole fuckin year. where you use words to manipulate. #i tried to figure out what way i could order the words that would get you to finally understand. didnt matter what i said. #bc thats how you are- you think you can say whatever tf you want and if you face any consequences suddenly its the other persons #fault. i interpreted your cosplay as mocking me. deep down all you are is a bully hiding under an uwu veneer. but yall verbal bullies alway #gotta act like victims once ya get hit with something that you had plenty of fucking warnings about. #its as if you were testing me to see when i'd snap. and then when i snap you act like a victim. fuck the entire fuck off and drown in shit. #fuckin bendy from fosters home ass type bitch #vent

[ironmanstan]

the dichotomy of man (need to get out of this fuckin house but if i go then i can not see my cats)

#JUST realized this and now i want to kill and explode and throw up #WHAT THE HELL WILL I DO . WHAT THE FUCK DO I DO ABOUT MY FISH ok i can probably take the fish with me #but MAN #thats such a FUCKING HASSLE #ill just stay here this is fine <- tormented by the horrors. ball and chained to familiarity #the gamer speaks uwu #guy who is terminally stressed and sick about change but desperately needs it to live a life #oooo i need to be in a hamster ball everything new can just be out of arms reach and i will be safe and contained forever #no more new experiences and life changes ill cry we should all just die actually so i never have to break out of my shell #sometimes im like im therapized i dont need to go to therapy i am sooo normal and then i say shit like all that n im like nvm #the desperately averse to change braincell is funny like is it the autism. is it the ptsd. probably both #bc i sure did like have a moment of like i should just drop out of school all of this is too much i cant do it anymore #wired in juuust the right way where i can live so much better than i ever have but itll stress me out enough where i still feel the urge #to throw it all away bc it is strange and weird. and then i have to resist that urge constantly bc ill be fully like cidal again if i do th #its so weird actually. oh u have friends? u take meds? u have irls now? strange and unfamiliar and scary get rid of it all <- the insanity #anyway sucks how there isnt a word i can use in place of men/women when im like 'women will x' but for being nonbinary #nonbinary mfs doesnt hit the same . enbies doesnt hit the same either #nonbinaries b like i am free from the horrors and then go down a whole spiral at the very thought of moving out of their nightmare house #vent #i guess oops what did this turn into

[bonedoor]

the urge to commit crimes

#i volunteered to do the last two parts of the presentation bc i had alr started doing research on it before we divided larts #but i had done a large portion of my research on the okinawa dialect(/lgge) . which was one of the initial 2 we were gonna cover #nd After we r divided parts this one girl in the group who got assigned the analysis part on okinawan kept being like yea i dont see any #linguistic info on this . nd i personally kept trying to lightly be like thats weird bc i do see info . . like adding sources that cld be #useful for her . but like i didnt wanna be forceful bc like if u dont wanna work on okinawa i cant force u to u know #but like by the end of the meeting she successfully convinced everyone that we shld do another one instead #which affects me bc im doing the attitudes abt/perception of both dialects we r working on #nd like . i was like sure its ok at first like i was slightly pissed bc i was alr half done w the part that id have to scrap but #i mean sure if thats easier for u whatever #but now im finding out that i am finding close to nothing abt what she chose #how am i supposed to go 5 minutes when all i find is one (1) line abt it #mind u i am still convinced that she DID have enough material to work with for okinawa originally #either that or she refused to look at english sources one or the other idk

[catboy-jupiter]

just saw jaiden's video on having adhd/audhd and uhhhh. i rlly should seek to get diagnosed huh. meds sound like they could rlly help me.....

#i remember one time while i was visiting my friend #we were having a sleepover & were talking and suddenly my mind just. went silent. #i remember telling her 'my mind just suddenly stopped this is so weird whats going on' #and she asked me what i meant & i told her abt how i like #constantly have at least 3 stream of thoughts going on at once that i'm half-listening to #and there's a main one i'm focusing on but my attention is always like on 70% on it #so i can very easily get carried onto my “sub-thoughts”'s streams #and she wondered if i was just so used to my anxiety (my only diagnosis so far that i had even back then) #that when i suddenly experienced being without it for a short while i found it strange #and i was like “maybe... makes sense” but i wasnt too convinced idk why #then years later i found out more in-depth abt adhd & the “inattentive type” it began to make sense #but its still kinda scary to think i may have it #and kinda scary to think i may not have it #jaiden articulated it well #that feeling that you'll be told “no you're normal just lazy so get your act together” #but also if you actually get a diagnosis it may change a lot of things #esp for us that arent self-employed or unable to pursue self-employment full-time bc its unprofitable rn #and we have no fallback that doesn't rely on other ppl's continued generosity #and to this day i wonder what caused my mind to “fall silent” that day btw #my memory sucks so i cant remember if this was like #the first day i drank alcohol #or the first day i tried an energy drink #or if i didnt actually try neither of those that day & smth else impacted it #my bet is on alcohol bc that day i got tipsy & got rlly sleepy & i remember feeling very sleepy when i had that talk #but also idk if that would even actually a consistent effect bc i dont actually dig alcohol that much so i dont seek it out LOL #only take sips from others' drinks when offered & thats not enough to get me tipsy #also if it was it kicked in pretty late & only for a short while bc i remember a few minutes later going “ok my minds normal now whew” #before we even actually went to sleep #so idk lol

[42deg]

watching selkie become mainstream is weird bc i remember when this was a niche designer line

#💖.txt #its weird watching a lot of the very girly styles i associate with weird fem people on tumblr become popular! #i do wonder when itll stop being a trend bc. i am kind of annoyed #i try not to be bc yknow fashion is fun everyone should have a good time and i also indulge in trends #but. at a certain point im like ok can the thin cishet white women who havent read anything about gender #beyond the handmaiden stop talking about 'reclaiming femininity' #yr not reclaiming anything. it was never taken from you in the first place #narratives about reclaiming or choosing feminine self expression started as talking about queer/lgbt ppl and fat ppl and poc and now. #'oh but people judge me for caring about fashion' thats just misogyny! you are just experiencing normal misogyny! #anyways. can the normal cishet thin white girlies stop acting like normal misogyny #is somehow Extra Bad bc theyre feminine. misogyny is bad enough you do not need to exaggerate #you also sound silly when you insist masc women are celebrated

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#i was supposed to spend the last 2 days prepping and relaxing for the start of this big project tomorrow #but ive spent thr last 2 days frantically coding as fast as i could and focusing v hard to get a lot of bullshit done #and ive fixed things since yesterday. the changes i had to make were too too bad bc the thing that went wrong was so fucking weird #but it should be okay by tomorrow. knock on wood. but this does mean ive done fuck all to prep for tomorrow #so we r winging it bby. ugh. just gotta fucking pray that everything goes ok. pls let nothing b broken and let everything seal properly 🙏 #i was also supposed to meet with my boss today. probably for her to make sure i dont fuck up this project but apparently their safety hood #was having an emergency... whatever that means. so im sure shes having a week as well. and im free to fuck everything up for everyone #ugh. im so. theres a certain point in burning out where youre not really in pain anymore. you dont really feel anything all your joy and #hope dissolves away and u just exist to be useful. and i feel like its easier to maintain that than trying to b happy #i do not advise that bc its a fucking miserable. wasteful way to live but i dont really have time to try for anything better #god. i really hope my measurements friday dont take a full 8hrs. i dont know if i can handle that. literally i would have stay intensely #focused with my brain being Interrupted every 5min so i can manually record data points. its gonna b agony #so that fun. but maybe it wont. maybe itll be great and fun and ill have a wonderful time. seems unlikely but ya never kno #lets not think abt the fact that having to rush all this is preventing me from being able to do all thr other bullshit i need to get done #to prepare for the future. future? what future? hard to imagine from the bottom of this pit im digging myself #sigh. in a few months i can leave this place and never come back. soon but not soon enough #lol i was literally crying listening to cold play earlier bc idk thats the type of music my parents would put on at parties in summertime #so it evokes a v specific mood. which is i guess me hiding away from ppl at parties haha #back when i didnt have to worry abt things so much and i could just listen to the frogs chirping and watch the fireflies #oh god. now my boss is asking if i reached out for help tomorrow. no. lady i would rather drink bleach than have to direct an undergrad #tomorrow. its 10pm im fucking tired. just let me be sad. did i reach our for help? no my brain is on fire #tomorrow is gonna b a long day ugh #unrelated

[mrfoox]

Bruh, I'm so... Well obviously anxious about everything, duh

But then something I was anxious about turned out okay... Boy the level of relief I feel...

#miranda talking shit #I texted oliver to send me pics of his baking yesterday bc he said he was going to bake #But he didn't respond so i thought ... Ok i crossed a line. I was weird. He thinks im weird. Hes going to tell me in person tomorrow that #Im a creep and should stop. Nope he just said... I didnt end up baking yesterday but today I'll try again and send you the pics #The level of relief i felt was unmatched like oh... Oh gosh thank you #I know that i guess technically i shouldn't text him if its not work related. To my defense i havent either until now #So i crossed that line and thought for sure he'd be annoyed at least but seems im good #I kinda love and hate how our situation is set up ... Aka id say hes my friend but technically #I cant say that. Bc hes employed and works when we meet up... We've both made comments like being friends etc #Not straight out. But he have said like 'when i get an decent pc set up and running #We need to play some games togheter' and i mean... We have definitely shared more stuff with each other than #Patient/worker should have... I just know i cant actually say out loud that we are friends bc thats rule breaking /: #Feel the same way about magnus and it sucks. Id love to be able to talk with them as friends and meet up and do stuff #I mean i guess i could technically just... Quit hiring services from the company they work at and then it would be fine #But im kinda scared they'd not be comfortable talking with me outside of work like... I could just be imagining things #Maybe they are just being polite and thats it... Like yeah #So yeah its me being a coward and saying 'this is enough' bc i do get to meet them at least once per week for an hour this way #I know mom had this issue when working in this field. She have had more than one customer she formed close bonds with #But she still kept in contact with them after quitting. But thats her mom is like me we get attached #I can't assume others do bc then it'll hurt so much more if im wrong :')

[todayisafridaynight]

thinking about vampiric arakawas again just so i can make a 'blood-sucking politician' joke

#snap chats #have i ever posted my vampire arakawa musings. i think i did long ago in a distant land. or at least for halloween vjaERLVKJ #anyway i was having my evening stroll with my dog and thinking about how much i love dark-renaissance age stories and whatever #which is a weird way to lead into vampires since At Least Dracula vampire stories dont start until the victorian - progressive era #though i guess you can do whatever you want with mythical creatures and its not as if vampiric stories cant start during the 1400s either #theyre immortal and Not Real (i hope) so anythings possible theres no need to be super restrictive #i am. literally not getting to the point Point Is it could be funny ..... #thats why they cna be really good assassins like just eat your targets tf <- vampires dont eat people #but then of course i have to wonder the implications ... oh ive definitely made this post but im still curious #fuuuck man i wanted to make my joke but i just realized how do i even get to that joke cause i dont think masato would be a vampire #dhampir as i definitely said way back then IF THAT. what were the circumstances wait shut up why are there police next door #bro im too nosy this post is interrupted hang on #not nosy enough to keep watching im bored its probably nothing anyawy. cause i think sawashiro and ikumi woudlve been human #like during the uhhh idk dark ages and maybe arakawa turns sawashiro into a vampire later on but what of masato ..... #idk im not gonna think too hard about it. right now just take my blood-sucking politician joke idea we'll figure it out later #stopppp i was wondering about vampires in japanese pop culture but then i rmemebered mandurugo WHICH. are filipino but STILL FOUL #im everywhere im ending the post now bye #wait i have to end this post cause why tf did my bestie send me a tweet being like 'look forward to the future of chao' #since shadow x sonic generations is coming soon LIKE DONT PLAY WITH ME AVBOUT CHAO I DONT PLAY ABOUT THEM FUCKERS #ok im ending the post now for real bye im gonna throw up