#people smarter than me have said it

[primrosepollen]

i'm reading "dostoevskij and parricide" by freud because unfortunately it's in my brothers karamazov edition and i must say, if based on what i studied in high school about him i thought he was just a person who was trying to find some logic about the topic of the human psyche but unfortunately arrived to some deeply unpleasant conclusions that were subsequently disproven (kind of a la greek philosophy), now i have the unwavering opinion that he was a callous man, and not even a very intelligent one.

one of the themes of brothers karamazov is that people are complex, they contain both the abyss of abjection and the highs of virtue at the same time. that doesn't make you either a virtuous person or a evil one. and yet freud opens this essay (essay written for an edition of brothers karamazov) by stating that since dostoevskij wrote about "people with violent tendencies" then he himself must have been a evil individual, and therefore all the (documented) love he had for other people must be fake and simulated, and of course, "symptom of neurosis".

another theme of the book is how doctors don't really know what they're doing at best, or at worst make everything worse by ignoring facts that disprove their preconceived diagnosis. and what does freud do? he talks about dostoevskij's epilepsy (which to me is extremely absurd because how are you even trying to diagnose a person you don't know 50 years after he died), which is promptly described as another symptom of neurosis because it doesn't follow the "official symptomatology", so it's not physiological but hysterical, and it must derive from some sort of altered sexual flux (because OF COURSE it does). it doesn't matter to freud that biographical data disproves his theory of "dostoevskij's illness only relapsed during periods of emotional stress", and it doesn't even occur to him that maybe dostoevskij had an atypical epilepsy, or that freud's "symptomatology" was incorrect or lacking, or that maybe he had a totally different illness but there still wasn't a name for it so he went for the closest one. no, all this doesn't even cross this guy's mind, because he's right and the patient is always wrong. he actively dismisses everything that contradicts his premade theory with a "the patient is neurotic and can't be trusted with anything he says. also people with mental disorders are always idiots and dostoevskij wasn't an idiot so he must be hysterical".

what's really laughable (read: tragic) about this is that dostoevskij wrote a WHOLE chapter about how you can't trust psychiatrists because they will diagnose you with kookoocrazy disorder just because you looked the wrong way in their opinion, not to mention all the other ways doctors outright don't care about patients, not to mention the absolutely respectful and loving way he talked about mentally ill people, and freud wrote a whole ass essay about taking pride in acting in that same reprehensible way. an essay that was meant to be published with the book. unbelievable. tone deaf, arrogant, callous and extremely stupid too.

#sigmund freud #fëdor dostoevskij #brothers karamazov #i won't talk about my own experience of being a psych/neuro patient #i won't talk about the countless ways psychiatry was and is just a tool to victimize the weak and undesirable #people smarter than me have said it #i'm not reading another word of what that poor excuse of a person wrote about one of the most beautiful and loving books ever written

[musicalchaos07]

Justice for Argyle tbh

#smarter people than me have commented about Eduardo's treatment v Joe Q but it's feeling very that this morning #like people are massively obsessed with a one season dead character and Argyle is nowhere to be found #imagine if they did the same thing with Robin in s3 #and it's all bc what they couldn't think of a way to include him??? #be so fr #i just #in a cast of like so many people losing one the like 3 people of color is wild to me #i dunno #like I said others have been much more eloquent on the subject #I'm gonna go be salty at work #but never forget what they took from you tbh #stranger things #argyle #argyle stranger things #fandom salt

[sunshinechay]

Uea’s facial journey during the birthday cake scene is just so good

Discomfort and slight irritation that King would come into the bathroom without asking first

Surprise and a little awe that King would think to do this for him when Uea still firmly believes their relationship is only-barely-friends with benefits

The happiness when he gets to blow out the candle and that this is likely his first time doing this since he was a very young child (almost certainly before the age of 10/11)

That looks of what feels almost like an adrenaline rush. The “I finally did something I haven’t been allowed to do in years and even if it is childish, I’m still really irrationally happy I got to do it”.

Still in a little in shock though because King had never seemed like the type of person who would do something like this for someone like him (Uea)

The acceptance of love and affection. That feeling that comes with knowing that someone cares about you, for exactly who you are and nothing more.

King cares about Uea in a way that Uea is only just now coming to understand. I think he’s also realizing that he cares about King in the same way. Uea is in no way ready to admit or call it love, but that’s exactly what it is. Somewhere in Uea’s brain, he is starting to wake up to the fact that he is falling in love with King and that King is falling in love with him (if not already in love).

This scene definitely marks the shift. Uea is starting to realize things and that night he was willing to let it go and not analyze it further, soon he won’t be able to stop himself. Soon the doubt is going to start creeping in and he’s going to start to feel all kinds of emotions about it, but for now, for that night. Uea is just happy to have someone he can depend on. He is content with just having someone that he can spend his birthday with in a way he can’t with anyone else.

Uea doesn’t want to spend his birthday alone and this time, he doesn’t have too. King is right there with him.

#bed friend #bed friend spoilers #kinguea #netjames #ueaking #james is such a good actor #and net is right there with him #these scene #i’m sure people way smarter and more articulate than me have said something about it #but i needed to get my thoughts out #cap watches bed friend #meta post #cap speaks

[ginalinettiofficial]

played the game ok boomer at my family party today, ended up explaining to a room of ~20 of my relatives what fanfiction is so they could understand the question, “in fanfiction, what does AU stand for?”. and then the card’s definition of “AU” was wrong so i also had to get into the concept of “canon”.

can u believe. in front of my whole family. a room full of people, aged 3 to 80. all staring at me intently as i explain the difference between an alternate universe and canon divergence. at one point my mom was like “daina i think we get it” and a cousin and two aunts were like “wait no we’re interested please continue” and i had to say to my own mother in front of god and my i am kenough sweatshirt “sorry but unlike you the rest of them DON’T have to listen to me talk about fanfiction on the regular”. my uncle is a retired judge. my one cousin worked for the federal government in a job that was so classified that for years he literally couldn’t legally tell us about ANYTHING he was working on. and today those men sat and patiently listened to me define “coffee shop AU”.

also, not one, not two, but THREE of the answers for the young folks, i knew solely because they were either plot points on stranger things or they were things i found out whilst reading stranger things fanfics. and then i was the only person in our age bracket (10 people, ranging from ages 9 to 42) that knew who anne rice was, and had to explain yet again that the reason i had this knowledge was because… fanfic.

it was surreal. also my aunt, aged 68, may or may not begin attempting to read fanfic now because, according to her, “there are so many stories where there are these small side characters and i’d just KILL to hear their backstory or like what was going through their minds during the main action!” i’m very happy for her. today was wild.

#d speaks #the things i knew because of stranger things: who ripped a bats head off on stage. what year the challenger exploded. the ghostbusters theme #in case ur curious the way the game worked is there was a set of questions for people born pre 1980 and a set of questions for people born #post 1980 and you split into the two teams and you take turns reading trivia questions to each other #the questions for the young ppl were things like above - who wrote interview w a vampire #what year did the challenger explode. who are the fab four. true or false elvis had a twin. #the questions for the old people were like: what does BAE stand for. in fanfiction what’s an AU. who won the first american idol. #it was a weird game but very educational #and funny to play with my little cousins because as i said anywhere from 2-4 of them are gen alpha depending on how u define it #so it was very interesting to see what sorts of things have been passed down culturally and what sorts of things stayed solely in their time #it was sort of reminiscent of are you smarter than a fifth grader in some ways #also no one asked but. the teams were: #old team: 4 solid boomers. 3 boomer/gen x cuspers. 3 gen x’ers. #young team: 2 xennial cusps. 2 millennials. 1 zillennial cusp. 1 zoomer. 2 zalpha cusp. 2 gen alphas #and then also our 3 year old cousin who technically is gen alpha but he was more moral support than anything you understand #though at one point he DID declare that he wanted to play - picked up a card and ‘read’: #‘santa comes he eats the milk and cookies. poop goes in the potty’ in the EXACT cadence of someone asking a trivia question lmfao #love that kid. he also told me a few knock knock jokes #mainly they were like. knock knock. who’s there. candy cane. candy cane who. candy cane on your head!!!!!!!! #a true comedic genius that boy

[sauntervaguelydown]

it's interesting how much of media from previous eras implicitly assumes that the lives of women (at least, beautiful young women) are more valuable than the lives of men

I mean just their lives, not their happiness or anything. Just. their being alive. The good guys always say "I don't kill women" even when there is a woman literally trying to kill them. "Women and children first" in all the stories about the Titanic. Even the way that people in the real world reacted to female criminals receiving the death penalty (ie. with discomfort and horror).

It's easy to say "obviously it's because of chauvinism", but I think it goes a little deeper than that word. And I don't think most people were thinking about it in terms of breeding resources. "women are helpless, therefore they must be protected" got so deep into the popular consciousness that I think it became kind of like how we hate to see a dog get kicked, because they're dogs, you don't DO that to a dog. even though dogs can be very dangerous. It's just a gut reaction, We Don't Kick Dogs, skips right over the frontal cortex and hits the amygdala.

#I'm sure smarter people than me have said this for decades

[aroaessidhe]

2022 reads // twitter thread  

The Spear Cuts Through Water

adult epic fantasy

two warriors travel through the empire with the body of a goddess to rid the empire of the tyrannical kings oppressing their people

story-within-a-story, unique narration

Filipino, mlm

#The Spear Cuts Through Water #aroaessidhe 2022 reads #first. as i have said. the cover is so nice. i want to eat it #initially the narration confused me a bit- #it’s like 3rd person but sometimes 1st person but also 2nd person and there’s random sentences in 1st person from the POV of random backgrou #nd characters #which takes some getting used to but ohhhhh but when it all comes together……….. #SO worth it #like if it confuses you i promise just go with it #it’s like not quite fourth wall breaking but that’s the closest comparison i have…..so good!!!! #smarter people than me have more to say about the layers and the storytelling and narrative and all that but it's very good #also like the romance elements are small? but very good #or I guess the bond between the characters is very significant and plot relevant instead of being random and annoying #if that makes sense #Love A Romance That Shows Not Tells

[boxylic]

Nonbinary is an umbrella term for a vast array of experiences and trying to pinpoint its definition beyond "outside a standard binary" is ridiculous to me e e ee

#gender is such a personal experience! smarter people than me have said it but even the very idea of male and female #are largely meaningless #because those two words mean vastly different things between any two people ever #anyways. whatever #.txt

[danielnelsen]

sometimes i’ll randomly remember someone from primary school and go and see what they’re up to and today’s guy is now working as a child & adolescent psychologist with explicit mention of working with trans kids

#obviously people do the things they want but i also want to say. my influence……… #like at my year 12 formal there were some guys from primary school there as some of the girls’ dates and they came and said hi and congrats #i realise not everyone has been here following my entire life story for the last decade #but i came out in the last week of school and then we had the hsc (end of school exams) and then we had formal so that’s the timeline #i don’t think this guy was there but everyone from primary school knows about me #anyway. good for him. i still feel kinda bad about not going to a dance thing in year 5 where we were supposed to be partners #(i was thinking about that because i was remembering times teachers have got mad at me) #(like jeez sorry for not going to every single event outside of school hours) #(anyway that’s why i looked him up. sweet kid. kinda awkward and unpopular. also probably had a crush on me) #primary school was a weird time for me socially because i was heavily bullied #but also very much ‘friends with everyone’. i could get along with anyone basically. which is still true #plus i was smart so the boys either hated me because they didn’t like it when girls were smarter than them— #OR i was one of the only girls they got along with. a few had crushes on me and they came from BOTH categories. yeesh #this is the biggest tangent of my life sorry. glad this guy is doing cool things. i only knew him until we were 12 but it suits him i think #personal

[designernishiki]

it’s just sorta hitting me that we know like almost nothing about what the fuck majima was doing in 5 when he was supposed to be dead??? like???? he was in on katsuya/mirei’s plan and caught onto what was going on really early and whatnot but. what the hell was he DOING for all that time. he just shows up at kurosawa’s at some point with zero explanation how or under what pretext or anything. how did he fake his death in the first place? how did he get it announced on the radio and put in the news despite there being no body or anything to prove that he died?? I have so many questions about his side of the story it’s insane how much was brushed off bdhffdjdjdjsjdnd

#I could go on #especially about his and saejima’s last fight/argument(?) because I’m still REALLY unsure how much of that was true and how much majima #(and saejima but mostly majima) was lying/acting for kurosawa and his men to buy time. because majima’s way smarter than people give him #credit for and quickwitted as hell- I seriously doubt he didn’t have a plan and some of the shit he said was too absurd to be true imo (him #having written the expulsion letter. calling saejima weak based on the batting cage fight. etc) #and I think he was trusting that saejima knows him well enough to know how absurd some of that was and pick up on the act he’s going for and #play along. I mean it worked out didn’t it? bought them enough time for shinada and co. to fight baba and keep haruka safe and all that #anywho that’s the only thing that makes sense to me but. would’ve been nice for them to have made that clear and given majima and saejima #a more genuine heartfelt reunion #and don’t even get me started on kazumaji not getting a damn reunion. that’s a topic for another post #majima was just sorta neglected at least considering his importance in the plot and all. he should’ve talked to haruka too imo. and katsuya #and. you get it. #yet again he was left to clean up the tojo clan’s mess and just expected to deal with it while his two closest companions go to prison #(AGAIN) and daigo’s recovering from a bad wound (AGAIN) and so on. this guy does not get enough goddamn credit #rambling #y5 #yakuza 5 spoilers

[welcometogrouchland]

*twirling my hair* do you like cassandra cain? if not, do u have a moment to hear about our lord and saviour cassandra cain?

CASSANDRA CAIN MY LOVE!!! She's definitely the batgirl I've read the most in terms of full issues, the first 30-ish issues of her solo by Kelly Puckett Scott Peterson and Damion Scott had me hooked and I binged them but fell off after Horrocks came on (nothing against him, he was just given an editorial mandate to make the book more romance focused and it turned me off because it felt so ooc for Cass to me lol. I do own some of the issues he wrote tho! I like the ones with art by Rick Leonardi). I'm not really caught up with modern comics (ish??) And I'm not reading anything dedicatedly but I hear she's in a new original book teaming up with a magic user? Neat! Good for her. I love her in the shadow of the batgirl graphic novel (IT'S SO GOOD)

#ramblings of a lunatic #asks #^ sorry had to be tistic about things for a minute #i loved damion scotts artwork for her solo series sm (especially the later moee stylized stuff even though i recognise how bonkers- #-the proportions are i can't help myself. i like women and i love stylised art like that) #his stuff was surprisingly influential on my own art. idk how much it shows these days but It's There #this hasn't mentioned anything about what i love about cass as a character but like. it's the same as most people who love her man #i love her self destructive dedication to redemption i love the guilt she's saddled with- #-and how it's juxtaposed with her committment to kindness and justice i love how she's the fucking best and she knows it #i love how the relationship between her and oracle was an intergenerational mentorship between two disabled women #and her gay ass bond with stephanie (who in all fairness may be my fav batgirl???- #-but I've also read wayyy less complete issues of her compared to cass due to the differences in how their respective series' are- #-formatted but like. what i have seen i tend to love. i love u stephanie) #but also dear god i do not wanna get reeled back in because nothing the industry ever does will please me the way the ideas in my head do #and I'm constantly at war with myself reading stuff #also it's just hard to get back in when you've been gone with a while it's all just very difficult #but i am rotating cass and stephanie in my brain like a microwave waiting for someone to explode #plenty of people smarter than me have already said this but cass should team up with jason and they should both seethe #he wants to kill. she keeps breaking his bones if he tries it. they're both brushing each others philosophies off bc of where they exist- #-on the batfamily ''kill/no kill'' binary even though they share similarities of wanting to be batman but Better #(jason via controlling crime and killing criminals and her with her ultimate dedication to the symbol and superior combat skills) #(also keep in mind i just watched utrh but haven't read a rhato comic in yonks. so if this is an outdated jason characterization+ #-then whoopsie <3) #Jason's dedicated to pushing buttons and poking holes in batmans philosophy and cass is great at reading ppl- #-and sometimes in her series she then performs a limited psychoanalysis of them and tears them apart #(at least she did for shiva) I'd love to see her do that to jason. break him so i can tape his sad lil ass back together #this is getting away from me. anyway no need to proselytise. I'm a former alter boy round here

[tonyglowheart]

reading thru old meta posts on qian qiu and there's like, some stuff I agree with sure but there's also a lot I don't lol. w like yan wushi especially. there's a lot of. I think too much conventional-mindedness in approaching yws even from the ppl who did like him as a character. saying he's a difficult character, and is meant to be a difficult character, but then still framing him along more conventional moral frameworks. yet another apartment 'complex'? strange, I find it quite simple moments.

#qian qiu #yan wushi #sorry so many of you are still hung up over the *chapter 45* '''''betrayal''''' rip but i'm different #(though I wonder if I'd feel this way if ppl hadn't made such a big deal of it and so I was expecting The Betrayal to be like. worse lol) #like for me since I was expecting *a* betrayal when I hit it in chap 45 I was like. this is it? lmao I thought it was sth actually serious #and then ppl like I can't let it go or I can't get over him saying he doesn't regret it - like god forbid women do anything forreal #the thing about yan wushi is he is not just master-less he's also in many ways *peer*-less #and that's why to him he was so much on the 'what a shame you're like the one guy who maybe could have been my rival but you're not' #I think ppl see rival as like. could be my enemy. but it's like. someone has to be your peer to be your rival #and it's very much established that yan wushi even before his power level is like maxed up has this wild potential #there's that chap where sq reflects on what qfg said abt yws having the potential to be better than him #but also I think it's a huge mistake to see/think of yws as amoral #he HAS morals. they're just not the same as yours #he doesn't care about the greater good as a rule but he's also not completely indifferent to it #and like. I think it's also a simplification to say that 'sq breaks the rules of yws's world of human nature being inherently corrupt etc' #I think that's a belief that yws holds about human nature but I think he's also like. smarter than to believe in absolutes? #and besides. to say it that way I think frames it as if yws is in denial about sq's existence and nature #I just don't get that sense from him - imo he sees sq as more of a curiosity than a like aberration #he's testing sq's bottom line not necessarily bc he's convinced sq is secretly evil but he because he wants to see what sq's bottom line is #and he wants to know that because sq's nature is so different than his own or those he generally encounters and understands from people #he's squishing sq like a dog with a chew toy not because he wants to destroy it but because he wants to see exactly what kind of noises #he can get out of it and exactly how far he can squish it before it starts being too much #(but also I think bc he sees sq's potential to be on his level and wants to see if that can get teased out) #in a like... bonsai shaping kind of way #yes he's pruning the tree back and sometimes pruning & shaping quite hard #but as with the art of bonsai - it's an interactive dance and like only the tree can add material #and for all that you can prune & shape the tree you will never know exactly what the tree will do #SQ is also like a tree in the sense that like you have to prune to get read of dead growth & also encourage new growth #and SQ goes from that like houseplant side of the meme that's like i'm allergic to tapwater #to flourishing under the adversity and the 'i can eat thru concrete'

[nashvillethotchicken]

#i think he does just not in mixed company or his mom #he and claudia be calling each other niggas all the time #i think he admonishes her for saying it when shes younger/around lestat but once shes his sister and not daughter he dgaf #he and paul used to call each other nigga every day. if they had phones paul would have louis number saved under brother nigga and vice vers #louis de pointe du lac #interview with the vampire #iwtv #amc iwtv #iwtv claudia #iwtv 2022 #i saw the new snippet and louis calls himself a brother and i just thought he wanna say nigga so bad but theres too many yt people around #also hes telling his story to a white man and his asian husband. hes not gonna say nigga. claudia tho #and i really hope this dont kick off no more racism discourse white people please #im just a nigga tryna have fun during bhm let me have this #i only said the thing abt book louis cus he owns slaves. and thinks black people are no smarter than apes. insert its in the book gif

[literary-heights]

preface i am NOT smart enough for scum villain meta this is just a rant bc it's in my head

one thing that i think a lot about bingge is that like. along with shen qingqiu being the most liar bitch worst unreliable narrator ever (don't get me started because there's SO much i could say about that beyond just the simple fact that he is). pidw is like. unreliably told.

sqh was making it up as he went along with no regard for continuity or integrity and jsut designed to make bingge look cool. and so he looks cool and he gets everything but when you remove him from that controlled environment

HE IS FUCKING PATHETIC. and that's literally so real. he doesn't even know how to deal with it. when things aren't going exactly his way because that's how they were made to because the world was his...bro just falls apart. he literally can't do anything. he's so so so so cringe.

#i mean it's obvious and smarter people have said it better than me but he's just such a loser #binghe at his core is a very pathetic man which is an important contrast to OUR binghe #because he's NOT. he's fully capable and he's smart and he knows it #sqq just pretends like he doesn't bc he's an idiot #sigh #bingge thinks about him #was thinking abt him and gyx again bc of course i was

[bellamyblcke]

not everything about the hunger games movies was bad but i still just cannot get over how badly miscast jennifer lawrence is as katniss like not just the fact that they cast a white blonde women in a role that was clearly meant to be for a poc (which is enough) but that they cast a woman who looks like an adult in a role that's meant to be played by a child! like literally everything about katniss feels wrong in the films and this is not jennifer lawrence's fault but looking at her does kind of ignite a rage in me that in eleven years has not extinguished

#time to reread folks #the hunger games #people have said much smarter things about this than me #but it still haunts me

[sandshadow9]

Don’t apologize for the long post! It was interesting seeing your perspective on both Moonbli and Qinter, but to me I feel like Moonbli was cliche and just… a little bit rushed. Throughout the second arc they had moments of attraction but it was the romantic developing that was lacking. Qinter HAD THOSE ASPECTS THAT WOULDVE MADE THEM SUCH A COMPELLING AND REALISTIC COUPLE, there were flaws in both of them, yet I feel like they balance each other out in a way Moonbli couldn’t. I totally see them helping each other grow into better dragons.

Just my thoughts

Yes you’re so right. I’m doing my best here to be diplomatic about Moonbli but it is certainly not pushing any boundaries.

I really want to try and put into words what I like about Qinter and why I think it would work. Recently though, I have not been going as hard on the Qinter train as I used to. Mostly I feel Qibli needs to be knocked down a few pegs lol. I’ve alluded to this in other posts but Qibli is like the “morally grey but not really” character that Tui put so much effort into making three dimensional but still missed the point of what that means and went ahead and labelled him as the “good guy” both in the conflict of the book and the love triangle. I suppose I just don’t like how Tui put them on unequal footing in terms of “goodness”, like sometimes I get the feeling Qibli visiting Winter is kind of framed like “wow look at Qibli being one of the few dragons to visit the mean Winter, isn’t he such a nice guy!” which annoys me but maybe I’m just interpreting it weirdly. Qibli needs to be humbled.

HOWEVER

Qinter still very good and their personalities and goals parallel each other so well.

At their cores, Qibli and Winter have the same soft hearted kindness to them, and they both try to hide and protect this vulnerability fiercely using different methods. Obviously a lot of the main characters of the WOF books are generally kind at heart, but considering the environment the Qibli and Winter grew up in (both abusive with siblings/family members that did not struggle to meet the toxic expectations) it really shows that they are the kind of dragons that have remained soft hearted, even if they didn’t want to, despite everything, and the way they hide this is different between them.

Winter has been taught how to hide his “weakness”, he has been given basically the ten commandments of how to be a perfect IceWing and clings to those teachings like a religion. Despite all this he can’t help but love and trust others. He’s like a kicked puppy in that way, no matter how many times those he loves tare him down he would still sacrifice everything for them. We see him do this for his brother and sister, and his tribe in the battle with the NightWings. There is no mistake too great that he won’t forgive someone. It will probably be the death of him one day but it’s just who he is.

As for Qibli, he had to learn for himself how to hide his soft heart through manipulation and observation and mistrustfulness. Unlike Winter, Qibli was able to get away from his abusive home and find a community that made him better and more open, but he is still plagued by his insecurities. 

While Winter still has a long way to go, he has an earnestness that I think would lower Qibli’s defenses. Winter wears his heart on his sleeve, despite having every reason not to (to be fair I don’t think he realizes he does), and in a lot of ways so does Qibli. I don’t think Qibli ever really was able to lock his heart away, only cover up the fact that it’s so exposed. 

I literally have no nice finishing sentence here and this is a mess but yeah I love those boys 

#winter wof #qibli wof #wings of fire #wingsoffire #wof #other people have said smarter things about this topic than me #but I am throwing mine out there as well #qinter wof

[holyluvr]

We’re talking about a woman who can’t stop being a brat and gave me MDMA then put on Grimes and went to college for engineering rockets btw

#context: I accidentally sprayed myself in the face. she said she’d give me permission to spray her with a hose in this weather #I said I would do it without asking permission anyway #and that is how we flirt #anyway if you think ur the same as my genius gf with more knowledge in science+math+philosophy than most people could accumulate…hm #+pharmaceuticals+technology/coding+….like the autism and homeschool personality in my gf is quite impressive #+history jfc i can’t beat her with info other than shit that’s so interesting that she didn’t know but makes sense #until we get to animals and general media and shit that always surprises me #such a narc that I’m dating someone that I know is way smarter than me woahhhhhhjajkaizjja #also older. I’ve never dated anyone younger than me. the closest was someone who I think is 4 years older #if I was basing my relationship on my ego it wouldn’t have started❤️