#rin rants

[soldier--poet--queen]

i hate you diet culture i hate you body competitions i hate you extreme workout culture i hate you body shaming i hate you unhealthy expectations for how bodies should look i hate you culture that promotes starving i hate you unrealistic body images i h

#rin rants #rin rambles #tw eating disorder #tw diet #I AM SO FUCKING SICK. AND TIRED. OF THIS BULLSHIT #i am FINALLY at a healthy weight and body fat percentage after YEARS of being underweight to the point of my menstrual cycle being fucked #and WHAT AM I SEEING? DONT EAT CARBS DONT EAT SUGAR YOU WANT AN ITTY BUTTY WAIST SO THE GUYS WILL GRAB IT #WHAT IF I GRAB YOU BY THE NECK AND FUCKING THROTTLE YOU OKAY #WOMEN. LADIES. YOU NEED FAT. WE ALL NEED FAT ON OUR BODIES #I AM BITING AND KILLING AND MAIMING AND GNAWING AND TEARING THE DIET CULTURE FOR YOU

[youngbuckisms]

People on twt saying Edge/Adam “downgraded” is so frustrating. Look at the amazing talent in this company, the literal legends they sign, the matches they have, the storytelling in every feud, and tell me it’s a downgrade. Does AEW do as good as WWE in sales and ratings? No, but they put so much into every single show. Y’all so quick to jump on the hating AEW train, but never give the product a chance.

Anyway I’m happy for Adam and I hope he has the best fucking time in AEW.

#rin rants #rin things #aew

[vegafiction]

Trans healthcare in this country is a fucking joke.

You know. I had a meeting with a doctor to start GHAT back in October 18th.

It’s been about a month since then and I still haven’t started because

1.) my insurance company didn’t approve the first prescription

2.) After they didn’t approve of it, my doctor had to change it to the one that my insurance company did cover. (She did that no problem.)

3.) Once she did that, my insurance company gave the okay, and you’d think that would be enough but, no wait! There’s more.

Turns out the pharmacy has to preorder the medication, and when they tried to, it was on back order until January :D

And when I called to ask what the fuck was going on (because, mind you, their phone lines are shit and you can’t understand a god damn thing people are saying on the phone) they told me that the medication WASNT APPROVED. EVEN THOUGH SOMEONE ELSE SAID IT WAS AND IT WAS ON BACK ORDER?

I’m so confused.

The woman on the phone who left me the message said I had the option of going to a difference pharmacy to see if they have my medication in stock, and while I don’t fault her for the suggestion, the reason why I use them as my pharmacy is because I am agoraphobic.

If it were as simple as leaving my town to find a better pharmacy, i would do it in a heartbeat. But alas, that’s not how my brain works.

I just want to get my hormones man. God damn. Fuck people who made testosterone a schedule III drug. And fuck people who made it difficult for Medicaid users to get medication in the first place.

This country really hates the low-income disabled queer community and it fucking shows.

#Rin Rants #delete later #im lucky that im not in a desperate position for hormones rn #but it doesn't feel nice waiting this long #trans people just wanna live their lives #why does everything and everyone gotta make shit hard for us #whatever man

[neakco]

Imma go to sleep early I say.

I take the sleepy medicine at 8pm

I turn off my phone

I play the sleepy music

It is currently 12:30am

I have given into the delirium of being severely tired yet unable to sleep

The fact that I can type is a miracle

At least I think I am typing english

Could be gibberish

Or something made up

I did once dream in latin

I am not going to remember posting this

I am not even anxious or depressed today

I thought it was a good day

Why does my brain hate me

Words are jumping and dancing

Hopefully that means unconsciousness comes soon

I don't wanna wake up for obligations tomorrow....today.

#rin rants #sleep deprived thoughts #mental health is important

[rin-a-dingding]

Oughhh I want this fuckass job to be over with

I just want to be at home relax and draw my blorbos in peace

#rin rants #i have 3 days left and after that I need to head to storage to grab my things #it’s going to be a long ass week

[fukanouna]

First day of vacation and I’m called on Teams and on my personal # because of tech issues happening onsite.

I know I don’t have to answer but I also don’t want to return to a chaotic mess next week. This is why I believe everyone should have general knowledge in navigating both Windows and MacOS

#rin rants

[riririnnnn]

Random things in Blue Lock I find endearing:

-> Barou looking after Nagi

This was cute, you know. I mean, Barou was the one who first scolded Nagi for swimming in that bathtub, but he is also the one taking care of him—you getting me? It's a small thing, I know, but it's really cute!

-> Rin accepting Hiori's help

With the way Rin was shown till that point, I was actually scared for Hiori because I thought Rin was going to shook off Hiori by saying, "Fuck off!" Like, it just seems very plausible for his character, but then he surprised me!

Just look at him allowing Hiori to help him up by his arms! I understand that many will think that I've gone crazy, but this is one of those things where if you know, you know.

–> Barou throwing Nagi

I snorted at this panel. Like, before this panel, we can see that Isagi literally has his hand around Barou's nape, but no, Barou has to throw Nagi only, it got to be Nagi—if that doesn't sum up their relation, I don't know what will.

–> IGA-DA-GOAT-GURI and Goatmaru

When Isagi's name was suddenly called and he got startled which cracked them up. I just absolutely loved the above panel—so adorbs‼️

-> Sae being Sae

I really haven't seen anyone talk about what he said above—even I seemed to have overlooked his words. It seems so bittersweet that when Sae gave validation to Isagi, he mentioned Rin too like, "He saw through your instincts too." Almost as if it were some kind of necessary requirement for someone to shine in his eyes.

Like, in simple words, "You looked through my little brother's instinct too? Now that's some good shit!"

It's kinda a subtle way of Sae giving Rin validation too like, "He is a solid player! How I know? Oh because he saw through your gameplay."

Sweet.

-> Ubers

Lorenzo especially. Like, just look at him! I don't need to say anything more!

-> Silly Boy

I wanna squeeze his face!!!! AAAAAA!!

And he is supposed to be the ace of the national team???? Like, look at that face, I will never be intimidated by such a cutie patootie. He deserves so many smooches!

-> Little Brother

Aww. Just, awwwwwwww.

Head pats is my own love language too, so seeing this made me melt, and to be honest, Niko is Blue Lock's little brother! It just makes sense to think like that.

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Part 2.

#blue lock #bllk #barou shouei #nagi seishiro #itoshi rin #hiori yo #igarashi gurimu #gagamaru gin #itoshi sae #don lorenzo #sendou shuto #mikage reo #niko ikki #雪 ranting

[soldier--poet--queen]

man i really wish i could enjoy things without my ocd making me insane

#rin rambles #rin rants #sorry for the negativity it's just i'm this close 👌 to losing it #wish i could enjoy something without my mind being like 'you're not feeling this emotion the ~right~ way. do it again' #and by the end of it i'm so memtally exhausted that i equate the feeling of being tired and struggling with the thing i like #and then THAT makes me stressed because of course i don't want to feel emotionally threatened by the thing i like #but i don't know how to combat it #wow!! sure do love ocd!!!

[merlucide]

NONONO YOU LISTEN TO ME.

…

SAE IS A GOLD GIRLIE.

RIN IS A SILVER GIRLIE.

PROOF (ft my amazing editing):

YOU KNOW IM RIGHT.

(Other bllk boys colorssss)

#Sae is the definition of a gold girlie #Just look at him #disagree with me I dare you. #blue lock #bllk #sae #sae itoshi #itoshi sae #rin #rin itoshi #itos #itoshi rin #itoshi #rin itoshi x reader #bllk x reader #blue lock x reader #blue lock x you #bllk x you #sae itoshi x reader #itoshi brothers #Bllk rambled #Bll #bllk manga #bllk sae #bllk rin #Rant #Gold #silver #Jew #jewelry

[luvingshidou]

Ik I'm bored when I start making coquette bllk pfp 😭😭😭 seriously wtaf am I doing liek oml I'm acc just so bored at this point ughhhhghhh

I love them though🫶🫶🫶

#rants!! #idk what im doing #bllk #blue lock #blue lock icons #bllk x reader #bllk shidou #bllk isagi #bllk kaiser #bllk oliver #bllk rin #bllk barou #shidou x reader #isagi x kaiser #kaiser x reader #aiku x reader #rin x reader #barou x reader #im bored out of my mind

[neakco]

Origami jumping spiders. I made them for Halloween to decorate my door at work. The plan being to hang them from strings.

Don't know if I want to anymore though since someone stole the one I have had on my door for 3-4 months. If they had asked I would have gladly given one of the other ones I made, but that was my first and it was on slightly more expensive paper. I still have some but it will turn out better than before if I remake it.

Cat tax under the line

#origami #origami spider #theft #rin rants

[annoyingrin]

I think im having food poisoning from the mushrooms in my noodles last night. they had a faint funny smell and i was abt to throw them out anyways. welp.

#i have shitted myself twice in the span of 2hrs and i feel another one brewing #hope its nothing bad #i have taken meds for it tho #rin rants

[midnight-pluto]

BRO THIS CUTSCENE GOT ME

CUZ GODDAMN THAT MANS EYELINER IS ON FLEEK AND HIM JUS LEANING OVER STELL IS JUS SO—

AND STELLE’S LIL CONFUSION AND QUESTION WAS SO CUTEEEE

#rin’s rants 🥀 #i love them sm #dr ratio #dr ratio hsr #hsr dr ratio #dr ratio honkai star rail #dr. ratio #hsr stelle #stelle #stelle hsr #stelle honkai star rail #honkai star rail #hsr

[the-dragon-girl-27]

In my previous post i talked about how I have a lotta scrapped MV ideas, well may as well dump some designs i've made based on songs over the years because like I probably wouldn't post these otherwize

also heres a few nice picture of miku from one of em to make you click on this post because its gunna be a long one and all these are hidden below a read more

for the record don't expect me to do anything with any of these, also these are from old to new some of these date back to early 2022 and it shows

This one i posted a storyboard for actually its An Aliens I Love You by Utsu-P.

I gave young Rin a sakura motif with her dress because of miku and rin meeting under a sakura tree, teen miku has a pink ribbion and hairclip to continue this. both rins bow and mikus outfit get darker outfits overtime to sybolize the song getting darker. I also gave adult rin the future rin hair. Miku's "alien" form is more or less how its described in the song tho i was lazy and didn't draw the 4 arms in the refs.

also Lily is Rins mom in this yup there she is indeed.

I actually have a lot of assets finished including the ones above i may show em off one day who knows.

This one is Stained Nocturne by Toa i actually did finish this one

the grey one is when they talk about being colorless

i gave them both very cute and elegent outfits i think it matches the vibe of the song. The starry outfits are the real highlight. if you wonder how I drew em over and over i just copy pasted the stars on their dresses.

they also are very blue because yknow nocturne. I forgot if i dumped the assets for this MV or not maybe next rant post.

This one is Corona by Utsu-P no idea why i did it its probably not even in my top 20 Utsu-P songs i just had some brainworms that wore off. I finished like a minute of it I guess.

I really like rin's outfit. "goth metal astronaut" is such a weirdly specific concept but she absolutley nailed it. 10/10 desin

This one is Garando by Picon. I gave her a like idk what to call it paperboy outfit like the one you see in the MV a few times. her eyes are yellow like bullets because I had this one S teir visual idea. I have some assets for this one i may show off one day.

i also considered doin the sekai ver i really like garando if u cant tell lol

This one is Happy Haloween by Junky another one i finished

Rins is just from the OG mv the rest are themed around the characters

Minori is a dark angel because tenshi no clover is themed around... a normal angel

haruka has candy and a penguin mask because thats her thing

airi is a vampire cuz she has fangs

shizuku is a witch because of her cast a spell on you outfit

This one is NEXT NEST by Satsuki Ga Tenkomori. The cubes are from the original MV image thing. I gave her a super cybernetic look to match the song vibe. I also gave her a plaid skirt to match miku's concept desin because this song is like sorta miku becoming sentient or smth idk been a while since i read the lyrics.

another S teir design. also zamn this ref goes hard lol.

This one is Bluff Liar by EZFG. VY1 doesn't really have a desin so I went with this based on the semi official one (we dont speak of her new official one also i drew this long before that regardless lol) I have a shitty animatic thats 80% stick figures for this. never posted it tho.

tbh i put the file to this ref on an external hard drive cuz this whole video killed my storage because i actually finished it so i yeeted all th assets off my computer as soon as i was finished so i just dowloaded the little thing of assets from this post

not much goin on its kinda just normal ol luka lol

This is Black Hole Artist by utsu-P. its not in project sekai and never will be but it reminded me of Ena so I had this idea. not much to say, I have a few assets for this but nothing really finished.

Another VY1 EZFG song, IDK what my plan was for drawing this over and over. also pretty asthetic ref lol. not much to say i don't draw very cyberish designs so its fun

this is just concept art. this is Roless Weapon by Neru and Inubakumori. yeah those two colabed you wouldnt know cuz this song has no MV. IDK what my plan for this was tbh but like when else would i show this off.

From here on its just concepts lol. this is Atari Front Program by Utsu-P... god how many Utsu songs is this lol

S teir desin i love miniskirt plus pants combo idk its just a vibe.

this drawing sucks lol. this is Live by Mizuno Atsu. Long haired kafu is cute I have better drawings of this in my sketchbook somewhere I think. I might revisit this it would be very simple and cute.

also weirdly my fav part of this aside from her hair is her shoes.

anyway Kafu needs more outfits for songs tbh theres like 3 kafu songs where she has a unique outfit

actually i lied about only having doodles, this is Where Shall We Go by Mellowclle

already made a post bout this

this is my most recent. I sketched this after finishing this art of this song. It is Memento Mori by Buriru

I love this song the creator said its supposed to sound like a mecha anime opening so i went with that vibe. teto looks great, miku doesn't. Teto doesn't really have a counterpart so I assigned miku as her girlfriend lol.

sadly I cannot draw robots so idk what my plan was tho i have a cool visual for the end in my head.

anyway thats everything I could find. does anyone give a crap? probably not but hey character design is fun and i love messing around.

anyway fun trivia more songs i have video ideas for i won't make: Poster Girls Prank - Utsu-P (but with MMJ project sekai)

Stella - Jin

Paranoia - Mezame-P

and probably more i'm forgetting lmfao

#vocaloid #hatsune miku #kagamine rin #kagamine len #megurine luka #lily vocaloid #vy1 #kaai yuki #kafu #kasane teto #hanasato minori #kiritani haruka #momoi airi #hinomori shizuku #shinonome ena #akiyama mizuki #utsu p #project sekai #doodle #maybe i should make a ref tag one day #i probably forgot to tag something #long ass rant #character design

[riririnnnn]

These Itoshi brothers are going to be my end one day.

Every time I'm like, "Yay, I made a sensible theory. I'll stick to it now," these two always whack me out of nowhere. It's like they love to go, "🗣️📢 HELL NAH❗HE-HE-HELL NAH❗"

Anyway, so I was re-reading Rin's part in the LN, and I realised something:

So, after Sae left for Spain, there was a visible decline in the performance of both Rin and their Soccer Youth Club. Rin says it's because he could see the goal path and stuffs, BUT his teammates couldn't and the only person who could match his vision was, of course, Sae.

That's why Rin had to change his playstyle to match that of the Team's. He began passing instead of waiting for a pass and all. Things starts to get better, and the whole team starts to get their glory days back.

There was a line in the LN which goes something like, "The teammates thought they were playing good, but they were actually just playing in strings of Rin's. Rin was controlling everything."

He then goes, "This is tough and Nii-chan was doing this all along? Nii-chan was holding back. That's why he chose to go to Spain, so he can play the way he wants."

See.

THIS

is exactly where my brain started to churn.

So, Sae was in that soccer club since way long, and he was legit considered as the pillar of it or something. However, all these years, he was, in fact, holding back himself and when he got to go to Spain, he thought like, "Yes! Finally! I can show the world what I got," but sadly, he found out he just wasn't it.

Maybe it could be because he played UNLIKE his real self for so long that he forgot himself.

OR

He just wasn't that good as he thought he was. He found out that he was the Frog in the well.

HOWEVER.

He still had Rin back home, and he trusted him because he knew about his younger brother's true potential or impulses.

So time passed and the day of the U-15 Championship Finals came.

Reminder: Sae was scouted by Real Madrid/Re Al when he won in the U-15 Championship alongside Rin. That's why it was really important for Rin to win that Final match too.

What I said above was a fact Sae, probably, knew too. That's why he came a whole day AHEAD of his schedule to watch the younger Itoshi play with his own eyes (Rin had pointed out that Sae was supposed to come a day after).

But, surprisingly, what Sae saw was what he feared— he saw Rin play the way he himself used to. He was probably like, "I sacrificed everything for you and you became exactly what I sacrificed myself for you to NOT be."

Reminder: Rin gets into his real flow state/becomes berserk during the LAST three minutes of the whole game.

Which gives us two possibilities:

Firstly, Sae just gets up and leave without seeing Rin's berserk mode. After which he comes back to confront him once the match is over.

Secondly, Sae stayed the whole match and saw Rin's berserk mode and was somewhat relieved to know that the younger Itoshi hadn't completely lost his true self. After which the confrontation proceeds.

I don't want to say much about their reunion in this post, but I do want to add another perspective to why Sae challenged Rin for a 1V1:

Sae, probably, had thought that, "I couldn't beat the world and if you can't even beat me, then you are nothing in this world."

That's it, I guess.

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I really wish for a Itoshi brothers spin-off because it's hinted that they had a big shared room, so I really want to see how everything is like after Sae returns from Spain.

#blue lock #bllk #blue lock theory #bllk theory #itoshi rin #itoshi sae #雪 ranting

[soldier--poet--queen]

oh tumblr mutuals we're really in it now

#rin rambles #rin rants #this week is the con and i still need to finish my cosplay #no biggie for the most part #what IS a biggie is that i also need to finish these other peoples' cosplay. and they. uhm. #best way how i can describe them is they were giving me shit last monday for not having everything done and one of them just finished the #first 1/4 of their outfit saturday #so i feel like i need to do everything myself right #so i want to give myself a haircut right #fix up my undercut right #WRONG IM GOING TO SCREAM #now i have a shitty self-made haircut with an entirely new piece of armor i need to make #because these same people thought unspoken requests were just requests #slamming my head in a wall