#sick and tired of playing nice?

[wowitsverycool]

sigh...................... i think we need to get 2016 undertale fandom levels of annoying. we need to take drastic measures. i want ISAT not just to be popular but to be NOTORIOUS. do you understand. do you understand me

#we need to go off the deep end and we need to do it QUICKLY. #get me ten markipliers playing this videogame STAT #if everybody else isn't sick and tired of seeing it everywhere by fall you're FIRED #we need it in the streaming platforms. we need it on the youtube. we need it in clickbait theory videos #chop chop time is money everyone come on #good fandoms seldom make history everybody get REALLY MEAN to each other RIGHT NOW #<- joke please continue to be nice actually i like that part. #but. i mean. if someone wants to bathe in a darkless sharpie bath as a publicity stunt well. i wouldn't complain #isat #in stars and time

[in-the-sweet-november-rain]

god i hate my damn school 😭

#vicki's shit #like they find EVERY fucking reason to torture me its insane #and like make fun of my parents and my family #LIKE HOW DO YOU EVEN KNOW MY FAMILY?? #who are you to comment on that? #“she's only here cuz she has good grades and plays instruments” yes. yes i am #HAVE YOU BEEN PLAYING THE VIOLIN FOR 7 SEVEN FUCKING YEARS? HAVE YOU PATRICK??! DIDNT' THINK SO! #like im so sick and tired of adhering to the expectations that society has of me #like i will ALWAYS be the lonely depressed girl that doesn't wear makeup much and #doesn't have the money or the desire to buy chanel or whatever fucking brand and #has puffy hair and listens to weird music and doesn't have friends #like i have friends i think i have a really close one #but idk anymore #we used to be rly close- now they're slowly turning into one of THOSE girls and is invited to the parties i'm never invited to </3 #its just hurts yknow? #it hurts knowing you'll never be like them #cuz it feels nice to be wanted #and i'm not. #anyways sry lmao #no ones gonna fucking read this lol #if you're here reading this thanks <3 and i love you

[madd-nix]

if i go to jail for strangling my brother, just know he tried to kill me first by bringing over his girlfriend 's cat all the time, knowing i'm allergic

#me talking #vent #rant #for legal reasons this is a joke #but seriously i have not been able to smell and/or breathe right almost all year cuz of them #the excuse is her door doesn't lock so she's afraid the dogs might hurt the cat #BUY A FUCKING LOCK #OR STAY AT HER HOUSE TO WATCH THE CAT AND NOT COME TO OUR HOUSE #like i was nice at first about it cuz i thought it would be an infrequent thing and that he'd keep up with cleaning his room #but the cat lives in his room half the time now and he doesn't keep up with cleaning #and i'm just constantly stuffy and feel on the verge of being sick a lot of the time #and i had to renew my asthma inhaler prescription for the first time back in the spring #after not needing it for like 7+ years #and when i once asked him to vacuum his room while his gf could hear #apparently that upset her and 'made her not feel welcome here' and that i had to apologize #i did not apologize cuz fuck you! you're the ones not allowing me to breathe in my own home! #my brother is a fucking idiot #i'm so tired of playing nice with them #i might just send him a link to how cat dander travels along with where to buy door locks #i hate my brother sometimes i really do

[majimassqueaktoy]

I just went on to Tumblr search to find you and check what you've been up to.

..... I had a brain fart and typed in Jess instead of your Tumblr name then corrected it to Majima so you'd show up.

Literally "I wonder what Jess has been up to, Tumblr find Jess..... wait...."

tumblr, tell me how jess has been

hmmmmmmmm

#did i type jess into the search bar? yes. #always funny when theres jess/jessie characters bc my brain is like im p sure you and jessie from toy story were the originals < insane #nice you thought of me😁 #i got sick with a flu like 2 months back and at some point it left but developed a migraine which lasted like 12 days #and now its just more coming and going but the doc wanted me to get another brain scan #even though i only just got one ? last? year #i think last year? idk time is fake #i got that on monday #but otherwise i been chill just sleeping a lot #still need to play dead souls ive just been too tired to plug the ps3 in lmaooo #so yes very boring lol #thanks for thinkin of #me though <3 #ask

[wri0thesley]

are you ever going to write jujutsu kasen smut again? no offense but I followed you for that and I dealt with the other stuff you post but its selfish to all the readers who made you popular if you just start writing for other fNdoms like genshin impact that literally nobody asked for?

every day i log onto this website

yes, i'm still writing jjk, i'm just having fun. i write what i feel inspired to write, and that inspiration comes and goes and on bad days, bad weeks, bad months i write NOTHING. you are perfectly welcome to unfollow me if i am no longer posting content you like, i'm not mad about it, i understand that sometimes people no longer vibe. i went through this with jojo followers when i started writing for jjk. i like being multi-fandom a lot! it just so happens that my current fixation is genshin, and friends and people i spend a lot of time talking to also like it, so i am most motivated for it. that's all. whilst i love taking requests i do mostly nowadays just write for myself to make content i want to see exist in the world!! so it doesnt matter if literally nobody asks for it bc i am asking myself for it.

anyway. you can block my tags (i tag everything! as carefully as i can!). you can unfollow me. you can even commission me, if you really want me to write something! but idk why you'd just write me an anon about it. thank you for 'dealing' with other stuff i post i guess?

#hilariously received this anon whilst playing genshin. its 2am i need to go to bed #anyway anon bye and also good riddance maybe #nat.txt #im too tired and sick to be too nice to you rn sorry #negative ///

[piplupod]

i think what upsets me most, besides the fact that this means no more accordion unless i somehow miraculously get it fixed, is that despite my best efforts to be careful and not mess up, i still managed to make a mistake and fuck it up. despite understanding and appreciating how expensive and valuable and fragile this instrument is, despite my best efforts to keep it safe and in good condition, i still managed to mess up and damage it.

like ... I just mess up. I have something nice, something of value, and I cannot seem to keep it safe and taken care of. things end up ruined. shirts get holes, dresses get stains, electronics get battery acid leaking or cracked, dishes get broken, book pages get torn or bent, trinkets get chipped, instruments are bonked and rattled. i am so terrified of handling anything that things most often just stay sitting in lidded bins so they are safe from carpet beetles and dust and dirt and food and me.

i just feel awful, i dont understand why I can't just keep things safe and in good condition ?? why is this so impossible for me, especially when i care so much ??

#i think this is partially why i dont allow myself any good art supplies #I got a set of charcoals several years ago and I've barely touched them bc im terrified of fucking them up #but if i get smth from the dollar store? that stuff is getting used immediately #bc its cheap and its not very good quality #im not afraid of using things up. im afraid of ruining them #im such a careful person too but i just. always end up fucking up some time #idk what is wrong w me #this sounds so melodramatic but god im tired #i still feel sick that my nice shirt from the 70s got a tiny hole burned into it bc of fire sparks that i didnt know were around #like i just. cannot have nice things idk. i have the absolute worst luck it seems like. or maybe i just am not careful enough #idk how to be any more careful though honestly fhfkdl #like i either keep things stored away safely sealed up or i am exceedingly careful in handling them #and do everything i can think of and find out to make sure nothing happens #and yet ! #i just feel like a massive idiot for this idk fhfmkl silly me to think i could be trusted w this instrument #there are some websites and videos teaching ppl how to fix accordions but... its complex #but i either attempt a fix myself or never play it again bc getting a professional is too expensive #so ... i guess I'll have to take the dive and tinker w it if i want even a chance at playing again #im just terrified I'll break it even further #also i dont think i have access to everything I'll need for fixing it depending on whats gone wrong #so idk if it'll even be possible even if its doable like. i need Tools and leather and felt #i have spare leather scraps but no felt :| #and no special pliers fjfkdl #argh argh im so upset w myself for this #pippen needs 2nd breakfast

[mothram]

#diana's music diary #good evening!! feeling sick agaiiin #once again... just relaxing yesterday and today... I had some really weird dreams last night though! #Was being chased and at one point ended up in an Alice in Wonderland costume and had to shoot at monsters using fireworks? #there was some weird time loop stuff too so I ended up with two more of me dressed as Alice after the last loop #also had a dream before that one where I was at some pokemon speedrunning event and had this really fucked up handheld console #that was only able to run pokemon if you used like 7 different convertion ports on the cartridge #and the game we were playing was a really really weird rom hack which had like.. auctions and joe biden weather events? #I think the handheld I had was designed by Big Yellow and they complimented it. it could run tekken and some transformers game too #anyway I'm very tired but today I'm downloading and setting up an account for a private mmo server! playing with a friend ^_^ #let's beat the eepiness and sickyness and make today nice and good :3 #Youtube

[skhardwarevers1]

One of my friends randomly started playing with my hair and I nearly cried (in a /pos way)

#I wanted to write this somewhere cuz like they’re a good friend of mine #And I wasn’t feeling to hot this morning (it was first period my dumbass was tired and feeling so sick) #And literally they’re standing right next to me and just started messing with my hair. Neither of us said anything #I was happy tho. Been while since someone did that so like I nearly died /silly #Anyway I think all my life’s problems would be fixed if people started playing with my hair more. I don’t care it’s nice #S.K rants about how he’s touched starved or something /hj #S.K thinks

[barredandromeda]

i am wearin the best shirt ever rn btw its this cute crop sweater w a bunch of suns all over it and it reminds me of tangled

#im so tired from bein sick aaaaaaa #it s ok im ab to go play a new game our parents got our sister on her new tv in her new nice room after i clean up mine !!! #my throat is dyin g #post #summer solace

[silverselfshippingchaos]

AJSJWBDKQHW he's such a dork!!

#it's so cute aksjaksj #he just. says things sometimes LMAO #normally i'd make a joke about warming him up. but my s/i is not me #and she is his childhood friend that is tired and sick of his antics #she sighs and says that she really didn't need the mental image of that #ash rambles 💚 #anyways i have such a big crush on m.atthew #his voice is soooo cute!!! #im approaching the end of x.enoblade3!!! so i can finally play his game! #i am SOOO excited to see him!!!!!! he'll probably become an official f/o then honestly #m.atthew is spinning around in my brain like one of those chickens #also.. his jacket looks nice to steal... and his hair looks nice to play with... #goddamnit. 😳.

[taegularities]

If they hate you so much why are they lurking on your blog? Ugh

don't get good enough dick irl so they refuse to get off mine 🤷🏽‍♀️

#alexa play obsessed by mariah carey #y'all know im nice any other day but goodness im sick n tired lmao i hope you forgive me this time #notes for rid 🌹 #anon #also to the other anon (who said im kind and funny hehe) i hope you know id die for u ily wtf :((

[ayakashibackstreet]

Whenever I get anxious, I swear, my brain reverts back to high school, where turning something in a day late meant your grade was getting lowered by at least half. Even though I've been at uni for 4 years now, and literally nobody is like that here

#they told us it's for our own good because 'nobody will baby us at uni' #meanwhile at uni everyone is way kinder and more understanding #man what the fuck was all of that #I'm tired I think #But I'll work a little still #If I work myself to exhaustion I won't think right???? ahahaha #as a treat again I might play a video game later #(though I feel sick just thinking about it) #or do some OC-related things #(again I feel sick thinking about doing nice things when my grandpa is dead)

[femme-malewife]

😶‍🌫️hm.

#im trying so hard to distract myself #im blasting music in my ears to the point i might end up with tinnitus one day #im replaying some of my favorite songs #im playing my comfort songs #but im ngl im still a bit nervous #the urge to just grab my pocket knife and just. slit my wrist open where a major artery is or smthin or down a bunch of pills is SO strong #im tired of living. im tired of suffering everyday and being too scared to message anyone abt it bc i hate bothering people #not to mention when i finally DO have the guts to msg someone theyre already going through sht and i dont wanna put more on them #its not the first and it wont be the last time that i have the urge to just fuckign kill myself but. #i genuinely just dont see the point in me living. #people on here only see the brighter sides of me bc i only post the best of my days usually #but ive been in an abusive relationship. i have religious trauma. i have trauma from when i was a child that gave me ptsd. #i have serious depression. and i cant even take anti depressants because im on seizure meds. #life has always been nothing but shit and im sick of trying to be positive for everyone only to be called all sorts of names and abandoned #idk. maybe dying really wont be so bad. maybe it wont be painful. i dont know. i really dont. #im typing everything here bc i dont want to post this openly and ik 99.9% of people dont read my tags anyway so its...a nice way of venting #i think.

[i-want-to-be-spaghettified]

literally have to trudge through the mental equivalent of sludge with the consistency of molasses to form a singular coherent thought

#and don’t even get me started on how hard it is to focus #it’s like I’m a magpie in a room with a bunch of shiny pretty things and the thing I’m supposed to be focusing on is a lump of coal #my brain is currently the equivalent of using trig ratios with degrees on your calculator unknowing that your calc is actually in radians #genuinely losing it #my last shred of sanity is long gone #i think I need more sleep #and caffine #and sugar #lots of it #biology is going to be the death of me #i just want some nice good formulasss #so sick of memorization and notes #chaotic academia #dark academia #stem academia #stem #very tired #*incoherent screeching* #*cut the rope music plays in background*

[mothram]

#diana's music diary #good morning #i slept early #it was nice #very cozy #I only slept like 4 hours though cause I had to get up for a delivery... also I'm posting this a couple of hours after waking... #as is becoming usual for these... I've been kind of vibing to music pretty much... #anyway yesterday was good but so exhausting... played lethal company with friends like I'd said which was really fun!! was a little bit of #process getting my bearings in it since I'd seen maybe one second of gameplay before but after a day or two in game I picked it up I'd say! #I mostly just ran away when I saw something scary but I tried scanning a monster and it opened the door which made me scream once ahaha #after that I was a lil tired but we ended up having a session of the project moon ttrpg I'm in kind of out of nowhere #it was short but v fun to play Frei again he kind of completely shut down the distortion singlehandedly which was surprising considering he #has no combat capability.. incapacitated them and read its mind which helped us figure out what we needed to do to resolve the distortion #-peacefully! my partners character did the actual resolving cause Frei is terrified of going near anything as gross as that distortion was #(it was a giant gross greasy burger monster. who was just bob from bobs burgers. he ended up in a polycule with linda and teddy after.) #Frei also read my partners characters mind a bit and maybe upset him a little by mentioning his daughter (her character is divorced lol) #anyway yeah... I was tired after both of those so I kinda got in bed and passed out quickly while listening to music... #idk what I'll do today I'm a bit sore still and I'm v sick and tired rn so I'll probably just relax a bit... #let's make today nice and cozy and good... love u friends thank u for reading <3

[nostalgicdystopia]

Watched the new Sandman show. I liked a lot of what they did in terms of casting choices EXCEPT you mean to tell me that in a world in which there are 1.4 billion Chinese people alone, not to mention other East Asians, South-East Asians, South Asians and Pacific Islanders there would not be a SINGLE Asian dream? Admittedly I mostly was looking for East Asian representation but I do not recall seeing that many South Asians either. Everyone is going on about how the show has great LGBT+ representation, which admittedly it does and I’m happy about it, you’re telling me that in a story about an entity that spans human consciousness and takes part in the States and London (which I don’t think anyone is going to argue with me on how diverse the populations of those geographies are) there is only One East-Asian presenting character of any significance and she’s portrayed as a Dragon Lady????? Congrats to everyone who’s happy to see themselves represented on screen in the shows they love. Unfortunately, some of us are still left out in the cold

#not to shit on the show #I genuinely liked it #but I'm tired of having to go through every single show I like feeling like people who look like me don't exist #yeah there are some shows that do pretty well #but they tend to cater specifically to the Asian demographic #while mainstream shows either has one character that looks East Asian with none of the cultural habits and bleedthroughs that happen #in multicultural or immigrant households #(basically a white person in all but face) #that inevitably dies (in the better shows they manage to outlast some of the other cast members but often not) #like the new War of the WOrlds tv adaptation in Canada that came out a couple of years ago #like the apocalypse somehow always manages to wipe out everyone of Asian descent #leaving everyone else to play nice #so sick and tired and angry #DO BETTER #a middle ground between ALL ASIAN CAST and ONE ASIAN CHARACTER exists #fucking find it #Sandman #Sandman netflix #my post