#so huge amount of progress

[fortyfive-forty]

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#finally made progress on my fic!!! and boy. #it's incredible how the human brain/body works sometimes #i didn't realize how much stress i was carrying about so many different things #in so many sectors of my life #i've taken care of maybe 85% or so of them #at the beginning of the week (or even 48 hours ago) that was closer to 20% or 30% #so huge amount of progress #but because of all this stress i was finding it so fucking hard to write or be creative to any significant capacity #and i kept trying to edit this chapter and just being completely unable to write it #not even because of writers block or anything i think i was just so wound up i couldn't make the words happen properly #in the way i wanted them to #and i couldn't figure out why the whole chapter structure just felt wrong #i knew something needed to be deleted and the timeline was off and and and #but i couldn't figure any of it out #anyways #i took care of all these tasks this week #i sat down after not touching this fix for maybe a week and a half #and i just wrote and fixed the issues in maybe 30 minutes #wow #there's still more to do but the fact that it flowed finally in the way it usually does...🥹 #finally finally finally!!! #bc i love making shit about things that i like more than almost anything #and i love sharing the shit that i make #and i think i've been lacking that for a bit because i haven't been able to write #honestly i think that's why i've taken up gif making a bit #because it gives a similar feeling of creation and then sharing with others #even if its maybe not as long-term laborious it still takes effort and creativity #but easier to do when i don't have time to spare but just feel the need to make make make #but anyways #i'm just happy i finally feel good enough to write

[tangledinink]

in an older ask (before the bracelet comic) you broke down, basically, the odds of donnie recognizing his family to different degrees on any given day... i'm curious, what would the odds be now, now that he has the bracelet?

Hell yeah let's do more Swanatello Math~

Let's say his family visits him eight times-- this time with the bracelet.

-> Maybe one time out of eight, usually less, Donnie will not be able to recognize them and will treat them as intruders, driving them off. There are occasions when he disregards the message of the bracelet or forgets it too quickly to be helpful.

-> Two times out of eight, Donnie will be able to recognize them enough to not view them as threats, but will not be able to organically recall any further details about them. He is confused and frustrated. He recognizes something is wrong, and can comprehend the research materials he's reading, but no actual memories are being pinged in his brain, leaving him in a very frightening, bizarre, uncanny-valley sort of space. He has to repeatedly reference notes and journals to try to puzzle the identities of his family together, which is upsetting and embarrassing. Days like these focus on providing comfort and support to Donnie, but the context that his research board and bracelet provide does make this easier to manage now.

-> One time out of the eight, Donnie will be able to recognize his family but struggles to comprehend his current situation or recall details surrounding it, though he recognizes something is wrong. He knows that Raph is here, and he remembers Raph fully, but has a difficult time processing why they're here at the lake instead of being at home; it's just not sinking in for him. Things in his brain are not matching up, and he is confused and frustrated. His family will have to re-explain to him what's going on, typically multiple times. Days like these focus on providing comfort and support to Donnie, but the jumpstart that the research and bracelet provide often makes this process much easier.

-> One time out of eight, Donnie will be able to recognize his family enough to not view them as threats, but will not always be able to recall further details about them. He's not able to fully process that anything is wrong unless it's explained to him, (usually more than once,) but even then it seems to overall elude him and not fully sink in. He will happily spend the day showing his lake off to his family, dancing with them, etc. His bracelet and research board help, but on days like these he often seems unable to fully retain this information throughout the day. These days are usually pretty frustrating for his family, but are overall lower-stress for Donnie, at least. False memories are common on these days.

-> Three times out of eight, Donnie is able to both recognize his family and recall details about their current situation. He remembers the family members who are currently with them, and sometimes even those who are absent, and understands that he is currently being affected by magick that manipulates his memory and patterns of thinking.

Overall, the bracelet has improved the situation. The family has to take care to try to be present as much as possible, however, as receiving this information from the bracelet and research board can sometimes be very scary or disorientating, and they've found that having someone around either during this process or immediately after is very important. Typically, if Donnie wakes up, receives the message from his bracelet, inspects the research board, and waits for the promised family to arrive... and then they don't, he'll panic and quickly lose trust in the information. He may react negatively to any family members once they do show up. Swanatello overall tends to do poorly when left alone, they've discovered.

#swanatello #asks #its gotten better but its still rough #the difficult thing is is that while the situation has improved overall #and in terms of making progress towards their goal and spending time together its a big step forward #its arguably more difficult and higher stress for swanatello #in the past about five out of eight days would be days that he didnt recognize anything was wrong or that he was forgetting anything #and so that wasnt something he had to grapple with or stress over #now thats only one or two out of eight days #and every other day hes under huge amounts of emotional and mental strain trying to work through all of this #which is tough and takes a lot out of him #hes having breakdowns or panic attacks on a regular basis #which is hard on him and on his family (who ofc hates to see him suffer) #luckily he has his family's support at least <3

[lavendertarot]

Having to periodically remind yourself not to compare yourself to others who have been practicing a skill for years when you've only been doing that skill for 7 hours maximum is hell but it's apparently good for you

#my posts #car's adventures in html #(through gritted teeth) yes my webbed site is buggy and unfinished and looks like ass but I am learning #(gripping so hard I draw blood) if anything I should be proud of the huge amount of progress I have made #in a skill that 24 hours ago I could just about write hello world

[mieczyhale]

@gay-jewish-bucky IT REALLY FUCKING IS. No matter what if it’s a canon gay couple it’s just not going to be good enough for the exact same people who complain about wanting more gay rep. Part of getting gay rep is accepting that we’re going to get rep for all kinds of gays, all kinds of relationships, all levels of relevance - not just the kind that some people want or deem acceptable.

We finally have what is, in my opinion, a pretty well balanced canon queer ship that isn’t just ~hints and eye contact~, that isn’t squeaky clean, that have meaningful conversations and show love and affection like it’s not a big deal. It’s treated on equal levels to any straight ship on the show and I think that’s a breath of fresh goddamn air tbh.

I know people are always going to complain, but this topic has gotta be one of the most annoying and most exhausting ones. People should be happy we get any kind of lgbtqa+ rep, and that that rep is getting not just more diverse over the years but better too. There’s never going to be Perfect Queer Representation and to bitch and hold out for it?? To nitpick the fuck out of every ship?? Why would you, y’know??

#sorry for ranting jksdhfkds #i feel ancient saying this - like a grandma regaling her grandkids with tales of walking to and from school in the snow barefoot - but #i remember when there were no canon queer ships on tv or in movies #there wasnt shit for any of us #no matter what your label was #and now we have enough canon ships and canon lgbtqa+ characters that people feel they're entitled to be picky?? #like my dude we just started getting this kind of content in my teen + adult life #maybe appreciate how far we've gotten studios and companies to come in a relatively short amount of time #maybe appreciate the positive for 2 seconds before you start demanding stuff and whining when you dont get it. especially when it #wasnt promised to you - btw. in regards to the ship i was talking about the showrunners said it was going to go down differently from #the books. they aged up the characters afterall + they were smashing 2 series together to create a whole new thing. they warned people #we got the canon ship. they put a lot of thought into writing it and the actors - who are big fans of the books - put a lot of thought #into acting it. that's the other thing!! actors who give a shit a bout providing quality queer rep!!! why are y'all not talking about that? #that's also not a given when it comes to people playing queer roles. there's a lot special going on here and to be so negative.. #idk man it's doing a huge disservice to a lot of people + it ignores the progress made + it's whiny and annoying #i'm annoyed. does it show?? i think it might show #sdhjfsdkfs #sorry again for turning my reply into a rant. cole ur an angel and i love u #replies #maison speaks

[icewindandboringhorror]

Daily Log 4

Trying out (probably just temporarily) making short daily-ish notes about things, in an attempt to see if it helps me be more reflective or productive lol.

Activities: Woke up late because I went back to sleep with a headache briefly, then kind of struggled to focus all day ToT

Worked more on the aforementioned tapestry/painting type of thing. I've done the base layer of painting for the main image, now I'm lining in darker outlines. I wanted to finish the center art before getting into the intricate borders. Still haven't translated the text lol..

Made a small bowl and also a little box with a lid out of more avocado pits. Still just with random nail cuticle tool things and kitchen knives, as I don't have proper carving tools.

Finished editing and proofreading the new poll adventure post!! I don't have time to post it tonight because I need to get to sleep early but.. I have it Completely 100% Ready.. finally..

Also washed the clothes I got together yesterday. Called about the bloodwork. Sent an email to a doctor.

Reviewed some writing documents to get back into my game maybe?? (basically, I started working on a visual novel type game a few years ago, decided it was a huge project so kind of put it on the backburner for a while in favor of things that were more easily finishable/tangible. then later on a game website I play (similar to neopets or something, there are collectable little creatures, etc.) there was an opportunity for me to design a pet on site, so I made a smaller shorter visual novel centered around that, where people on the site have to play the game in order to earn the pet, and I have a google form for them to answer a few short questions about it. All of the feedback is quite positive (reached 200 responses a while ago! though still only like 4 comments on the itch.io page lol.. Mandatory Form vs. Optional Comments evil showdown), but sometimes I get commentary that's really enthusiastic and inspires me to start back working on the OTHER bigger game. The small game was kind of like, a proof of concept that was safe because I had a guaranteed audience, that has helped me gain more insight for the larger one.

Anyway, since I've abandoned the Main Large Game for so long, I have to re-read and review/probably rewrite A LOT of things just to pick it back up again as A Thing I'm Actively Working On, so it's another one of those tasks that I do maybe 45 minutes of and then realize it's going to take days and days and get discouraged lol..

Notable sights: Saw two cats in windows. No clovers. It rained a little today but I didn't get to go outside and see it. One of the pieces of asparagus in the fridge was like the size of a carrot, comically overgrown downright ridiculous looking asparagus. Maybe I'll get taller after eating it.

Goals moving forward: Consistent sleep schedule. Focus on social activities, finding new friends in the places I want to move, communicating with ones I have. Physical therapy exercises. Plant nasturtiums. Finish and upload videos, edit costume pictures & etc.

Notable foods: ASPARAGUS AGAIN BABEY.. yeaAAAAGHHH asparagus squad !!!!!!

#just posting these publicly since it feels more like I'm doing something or easier to hold yourself accountable if you make public #declarations of goals and progress or etc. .. perhaps.. for now.. #I wonder if you can eat too much asparagus. Hopefulyl I don't get sick ghjbj #Still craving lots of savory foods and soups. Also in a big big worldbuilding mood. #Not enough to actually edit the worldbuilding slideshow videos apparently since I've barely done any of that all week #>:Y #(they are different though.. actively writing wolrdbuilding is different from like.. editing recordings of you talking about it #BUT STILL...) #In an ideal world I have a little house in scotland or canada or something and am sitting cozy by a window watching it #rain whilst I eat lasagna and like a huge buffet table of every single hearty food I am having Anemia Cravings for #and my cat is sitting near me and I am furiously sketching various designs for different worldbuilding details. I have finally found #a weird hermit platonic best friend I'm compatible enough to live with and they are up in the attic doing their own weird little hobbies #but every once in a while I can call them down and tell them about an idea so we can bounce concepts off of each other. I somehow walk away #with no heartburn or stomach upset or nausea despite eating 800 plates of craving foods. It's cold and summer #does not exist anymore but not in a Catastrophic For The Earth type of way more in a like.. I am in a magical bubble #that only affects my direct vicinity and sheilds me from the temperature ever getting above 65F #(also I have a comfortable amount of money and good doctors and reasonable health etc. etc. but that's a given in any Ideal Scenario lol) #oughh... I just want to eat hearty breakfast foods and think about elves for 5 hours.. is that so much to ask #Why must... responsibilities... capitalism... limited time and no energy to focus on 100 projects at once... why these things... #ANYWAY #daily log

[sonknuxadow]

Ohh i just jumpscared myself with the knowledge that i have like 500 million unfinished synthv project files just sitting there . scary !

#and a large chunk of them are sonic related because of course they are #reason i never posted them is because i. like i said never finished it. or i actually did make a huge amount of progress on it #i just got shy and never posted anywhere #if i remember correctly i have almost finished. as in the song is fully written out i just need to fix a few parts that sound weird #and then combine the tracks together. covers of with me from sonic and the black knight and my sweet passion from sonic adventure #and im here from sonic frontiers #my sweet passion probably sounds like a random choice but at the time i didnt have many voicebanks to choose from #and wnated to be a song that would sound good with what i already had . so thats why i did it #also stares at my cover of endless possibility that is nowhere near complete but i wanna finish it . Someday .

[thethingything]

the fireworks have stopped for the most part and we handled them really well (a bunch of other alters keep complimenting me for this) but now I'm very fatigued and have a migraine and a lot of back pain because I kept standing near the window to watch them so I think it's time to lay down and do basically nothing for the rest of the night

#personal #thoughts #🍬 post #I say this but I'm shit at actually resting so idk #if I'm working on a drawing or something in a couple of hours just know I absolutely shouldn't be #anyway I know we've been posting about the fireworks a lot but most of the system is currently still in disbelief #this is the first time we've actually enjoyed bonfire night in years and some of them are kind of emotional #because it means we've not just dealt with a trigger that normally completely fucks us up #but actually managed to not be triggered by it at all and got to just enjoy ourselves instead #so it's a huge amount of progress given that last year we had panic attacks for a few hours until we just passed out from the stress

[lycanr0t]

if someone ever tries to tell me testosterone is easily accessible for everyone im allowed to rip their arms off actually

#like every fucking month i have to FIGHT to get mine nad my husbands refilled #we skip so many weeks bc the doctor just like. denies refills for no fucking reason #this month its bc we need bloodwork done to check our levels #which im like. beloved how will we accurately check that when we'RE OUT?? AND NEED TO TAKE IT?? #PLUS we literally HAVE AN APPOINTMENT SCHEDULED.... #every damn month. every damn month #YES its worth it to me. BUT the amount of fighting i have to do just to get my damn hormones is insane #not to even mention that its not actually easy to find places to prescribe you t unless you live in a big progressive city lol #signed a guy who lives in a place that there is a huge medical center and 0 ppl that do t so i have to go out of state <:) #sorry to bitch im just so sick of this shit. im sick of ppl acting like T is easy to get on and stay on. its not for everyone #basically hi. trans ppl who need/want T are at the mercy of doctors and if doctors can just decide to not give it to us #we're faced with so much medical gatekeeping its insane and im always fucking angry about it actually #rot posts

[frankensteindotpdf]

i still havent decided whether or not i have the puzzlers disposition

#i speak #i got really into karen puzzles on youtube #and i was like. i need to do a puzzle or ill die. #so i got one that i knew would probably be a little tricky #but it was really pretty!! and i thought itd look so nice on my wall #which was an important factor #i wanted it to be nice decor when i was done with it #anyway #i got swamped with courses and stuff so i didnt have time to work on it #plus i had a huge pileup of laundry in front of it and couldnt reach it so well #but!!!! i just worked on it for like. 2 hours #so maybe i do have the puzzlers disposition DFKGHDSJKHG #i didnt realize it was 2 hours #lost in the sauce #(the sauce being the riverdale next to normal and carrie soundtracks and then will wood album) #anyway. its reallyreally nice to get such a good amount of progress done on it!! #its a bunch of different flowers in space #so i started by sorting them out by main or notable piece colour #and then did the edge #and then worked on big flowers that connected to the edge #and then just now i a. finished the stuff that was loose on the board #and then emptied out a whole box!! that had like 4 colours in it!! #so. :) :)

[biteapple]

i do also feel like The Pale Beyond holds your hand TOO much in some aspects but not enough in others

#there are parts in the story where literally a popup appears telling you why one of your traits made a character say something to you #and thats something i would MUCH rather like. interpret or figure out on my own. in a story-based game #and also makes like ... makes me feel like i can SEE behind the curtain of the game. that should be secret to me. #let ME think about why someone said something or did or didnt do something. dont TELL me why in a convenient popup #and in some parts of the game doing certain actions seemingly arbitrarily ends the day or is final when i really wish the game was like #just a small sentence telling me what actions are progression-based and what aren't. SOME of them are color-coded but not all #there was one point where the game was like ''you can choose one of these'' and then prompted me to assign someone to something #so i thought *I* could choose one and assign a person to another because a prior event had me do that #and me assigning the person WAS my one action. just wish it was clearer in some aspects in wording its finality. #espectially when it mirrors what the game has taught me prior and then does the opposite of what the expected outcome is #there are certain mechanics that feel unfair where (potential spoilers ahead) you can assign people to the med bay to rest but... #if there's open beds and you forgot to assign someone else into the bay you're out of luck and cant pull up the menu again #like. why cant i? the engineering panel allows me to pull it up again. as does the cooking pot. as does every other panel. why not this one #that specifically just feels like an oversight. that among OTHER things #like special items not proccing twice when they should #there's one item that when warming up freezing crewmates #the engineers will warm 2 instead of 1. but. if you assign two engineers to the task the same time #then they'll only heal 3 people total because the code accounts for the action preformed not the amount of engineers assigned to the action #and if you assign them in succession they'll do it successfully. which is annoying to have to remember and a huge oversight

[bispearlnets]

nobody asked but I feel like height-wise (since there are no canon SU heights) I put Pearl at about 5’9/5’10 (seeing as she’s around the same height as Greg and he describes himself as “not that tall”, which I take to mean the shorter side of average). meanwhile Bismuth is around 6’5ish, maybe 6’6. Garnet is actually slightly taller than Bismuth which surprised me when I looked at reference images, I think she’s around 6’8ish. which would fit with Greg’s description of Rose being 8 feet tall, because with my height headcanons she would be just slightly under that. Amethyst is about 4’11 because she has extreme “not quite 5’0” energy

#pearl is also the closest in height to most of the other adults in SU #so it would make sense for her to be around that height #she blends in quite well with the crowd on the height front #amethyst on the other hand is around the same height as Sadie but both of them are short #garnet bis and rose tower over the boardies #I say Greg is around the same height as pearl because sometimes he’s taller (e.g. house guest) and some he’s shorter (e.g. mr Greg) #but there’s never a huge amount in it so I hc them as pretty much the same height #although I’m sure they’ve measured as part of their rose contest #Steven is a short king #at 14 he’s around 4’8 I reckon #although he gets a bit taller as the seasons progress #then when he’s 16 I think he’s about 5’6/5’7 at MOST #when he grows up I think he will end up taller than pearl #I reckon he’ll get a growth spurt in his early 20s and end up around 6’3 or something #still shorter than garnet bis and rose but taller than his dad and pearl #but he’ll stay his current height for a little while #literally nobody asked for this but it’s my blog and I can post whatever the fuck I want

[camelopardalisa]

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#101 days sober #!! #alcohol has never been an addiction for me but going teetotal has been such an eye opening experience #I’ve had more fun on nights out and stayed out longer #I’m saving a huge amount of money cos those cocktails are spennyyyy #when I tell people I don’t drink you can see them assume it’s because i’m some sort of purtitan #and I have to clarify that im down to go on nights out I just don’t to get drunk #I miss feeling being totally giddy in the girls toilets with my friends and falling over ourselves laughing #I do NOT miss the hangxiety that shit made me MISERABLE tho #cutting out alcohol has also been a huge health benefit #I’m sleeping better and can see noticeable progress in my muscles #I’ve never been a big drinker and it was always something I planned on quitting after uni #so now I’m here and feel like a much happier person #looking forward to the future :) #exciting times

[lordsardine]

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#annnndd made some progress on the writing critique group story #not a Huge amount. but i'll count it as a win #miscellaneous #i should be getting back my query stuff from the editor like tomorrow?? so we'll see how much focus that eats up #gonna try to approach that in a methodical way #Anyway.

[thestarmaker]

If had a nickel for every video game I'm replaying the first major chunk/at least several hours of to work back up to a certain point where I Made A Decision that broke the game and caused me to have to restart the entire game I'd have two nickels etc

#i somehow flipped the exact wrong switch in skyward sword's first dungeon and therefore put the switch i SHOULD'VE flipped first #underwater and out of reach therefore making me unable to progress further #thank god for skippable cutscenes I've been catching up pretty quick #but i also have to replay base cloudpunk before i can even get back to city of ghosts bc i have to choose the other ending there too #at least cloudpunk is so easy to fall into for a couple hours. and hey i was gonna replay it anyway #and skyward sword hd fixed a huge amount of the game's issues which is so refreshing #it doesn't interrupt you every chance it gets now! bless #im also forever glad to have it as a handheld game too i underestimated how glad id be for it

[nientedal]

What progress at home has biden enacted? What policies of his show that he is making progress that prove he is actually different than trump?

I like to pretend I have faith in humanity, so I'll answer as if you're asking this in good faith.

Biden's DEA has lifted restrictions on telehealth prescriptions to make appointments and assistance more accessible.

He put a funding package into place to help unhoused people get access to mental and physical healthcare, as well as short-term and long-term housing.

He has attempted and is still attempting to get student debt relief through - this was blocked by Republican judges appointed by Trump, but he's still working on it.

Infrastructure repair - his administration has budgeted funds to actually fix some severely-damaged and frequently-traveled bridges.

Trying to expand access to healthcare to include undocumented immigrants who came to the USA as children (Dreamers) under the Affordable Care Act. Support for Navigator programs and outreach has also been increased.

He has vetoed Republican-led bills that were attempting to overturn environmental protections - one that would have forbidden investment fund managers to consider climate change in their portfolios (I have two degrees in accounting and this is actually huge), and another that would have overturned restrictions on agricultural runoff into our waterways.

He and his administration worked for ages to get rail workers paid sick days.

This is just some of what he's been doing. Meanwhile, Trump and other Republicans want to criminalize the lives of LGBT people like you and me. They want to eliminate no-fault divorce and force births that will kill parents or devastate them financially. They have stated flat out that they want to install a military dictatorship in the USA. They attempted to put that in motion on January 6th, 2021. They failed once. They will do better next time.

One party wants to house the homeless and expand social safety nets, while the other one wants to criminalize homelessness. One of them wants a future in which I might be able to vote to change how much of a war machine my country is, while the other one wants to eliminate my ability to vote entirely. Those are not the same. Those literally are opposites.

At the end of the day, all you and I can do is choose to do the least amount of harm possible. You and I cannot choose to do no harm. This is the USA, we sell war, you and I cannot choose to do no harm. I wish we could, my god do I wish we could, but that is not an option. So we grieve for the harm we couldn't eliminate and work to minimize the harm that is done. Despite all the crap they support, Democrats are the minimum amount of harm right now. Acting like they aren't is exactly what brought us to an election where our options are a future where we are either wading in blood or drowning in it.

Not voting for Biden will not help Palestine. Not voting for Biden will guarantee a Republican president who will make the situation in Palestine WORSE. AND it'll hurt a lot of other places as well, both at home and abroad, because Republicans are about business and the USA is in the business of war! And I would very much like that to change someday! I would very much like to someday be able to choose to do no harm! And I know what I have to do to try for that future, so what are YOU going to do? There is no standing off to the side in this. If you aren't helping pull, you're the dead weight we're pulling. Are you going to dig your feet into the mud and blood and drown us there? Or are you going to get the fuck off your ass, grit your teeth, and help us pull free?

#askbasket #iam-the-wild #us politics #israel #palestine #if you do not vote blue you do not get to call yourself an antifascist #i HATE that that's the case; don't mistake me #but that is the reality we're working with #there isn't any other #do nothing and kill five people or act and kill one. #so what are you gonna do? i can't choose for you. but i know what my choice is. #i'm part of this world. and as much as i hate it...turning away is not one of the options. #we fight on ALL fronts #we protest we donate we write we call #AND WE ALSO FUCKING VOTE FOR THE LEAST OF THE EVILS. BECAUSE NO EVIL IS NOT AN OPTION.

[yournewfriendshouse]

I just went for a walk

…did I do it just so that I can tell my GP I finally went for a walk before the year is done? maybe.

#but I also did collect a bunch of feathers some olive branches and lemons #and found a mulbery bush that is on public land but didn’t have the energy to deal with picking them without getting the juice everywhere #will totally go with my niece though! #chronic illness tag #in that I have made a huge anount of progress this year #just like…HUGE amount #pacing is so worth it and so good #personal