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outlawwolfe · 10 months

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I am very emotional

#tyler childers #makes my gay little heart so happy yet so sad #sobbing bc I rewatched it again #Youtube #music #I demand more queer love stories in country music videos!!

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baeshijima · 3 months

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bitches will still be crying over the high-cloud quintet at 2 am months later and never get over them

its me. im bitches.

#may the stars guide you <3 #once again reiterating how much i loathe and despise this game with my very being and entire soul bc of how emotional it gets me #i could make a full on analysis rant post abt them and it still wouldnt be enough to console me #theyre just so tragic and doomed by the narrative coded and i hate it so much like wtf hsr devs what were u cooking with this ;w;;;#anyway guess who ended up watching that jingliu companion mission cutscene and blade narative part again bc of that reunion fic in my docs #that acts as a kind of sequel to the jing yuan long fic... looking over it again made me sob and then i rewatched a flash and then i reread #what i have for the soulmate!blade fic and then i died #sighs i hate them i love hate them i love them i want them to be happy but they cant be fully happy bc they wont all be together

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tianhai03 · 1 year

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been wanting to draw luis for a while now

(no context re4r spoilers under the cut)

i just really wanted to draw this if im being honest.

#chapter 11 sucks! im not looking forward to replaying it in my future playthroughs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 #its lke dmc5 mission 18 to me. the chapter itself is hard to get through both gameplay wise and emotionally.#im not gonna recover from this for awhile. and the games already throwing more things at me. i love this game it might be my fav re game <3 #im so close to finishing the game i need more free time soon to do that #resident evil #luis serra #leon s kennedy #allyart #i hope its obvious that i drew that second sketch without rewatching the scene #i cant do that bc 1. im afraid of spoilers and 2. i cant. i physically cant. i cried when i got to that and i will cry again #so if it doesnt look accurate just know its bc i didnt have refs and i was too busy sobbing my eyes out to remember how the scene looked #re4r is a great game it brings me so much pain <3

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sunsetsandsunshine · 2 months

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Heyyyyy guys ✨🩷🫨🔥‼️ Just wanted to say that I’m officially re-opening my inbox! So feel free to drop in tickle prompts or sumthin 💞💕🥳 (you don’t have to if you don’t want to obvs)‼️‼️‼️

#AHHHUHHHGHHS #It feels so good to write again ohmygosh…#Sobbing #I missed it sm wtffff #Working on a Rottmnt + Mutant Mayhem fic aldjdhsjsj #I love multitasking #Sfw Tickle community #Writers on Tumblr #Also adding more fandoms bc AHHH #Rewatched a WHOLE ton of stuff…

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loveydive · 2 years

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thinking about that ocean vuong quote ‘Because that’s what mothers do. They wait. They stand still until their children belong to someone else’ and the rest of the paragraph is little dog telling his mother that he hates her and that she is a monster only to take it back when she isnt there anymore, that he didnt mean it. mothers, especially immigrant mothers, belong to their children first. they dedicate their whole lives to them, quashing their own potential and personhood at times to do so.

and i was just thinking about how the ending of everything everywhere all at once was the complete opposite of that. how at first when joy asks evelyn to let her go, she does what she wants - she lets her go. ‘because that’s what mothers do’ and it feels like she’s doing the right thing, by letting her daughter go to get rid of the pain that she’s feeling. but it is an passive act of love - one that immigrant mothers are too familiar with. to raise and love your children through sacrifice (so much sacrifice) while neglecting what they themselves want.

joy tells evelyn to let go, not because she actually wanted her to let go but because it was a challenge, almost a test, for her mother. like when little dog tells his mother that he hates her and that she is a monster, they both dont mean it. its a test. they want to see to what extent their mothers can love them. would you love me even if you thought i hated you? if i called you a monster? would you love me if i asked you to let me go? even if i told you that being with you hurts us both? and joy gets her answer. evelyn refuses to let her go because she loves her. without a doubt.

she holds onto joy and doesn’t let go. she tells her that she ‘will always always want to be here with’ her. even when there are other universes where she doesnt make all those sacrifices and is more successful - she chooses joy (metaphorically and literally). and its just. i keep thinking about that other tumblr post where they talk about how evelyn wanted to feel that she was worth loving and not letting go of with her dad. and she does that with joy!! she doesn’t let her go because she loves her. evelyn in the movie shatters the mother’s instinct of ‘standing still until their children belong to someone else’. she is no longer a bystander in her own daughter’s life but someone who actively chooses to be with her. love doesn’t just sit there, it is made!! and i just love it so much.

#eeaao #everything everywhere all at once #cin.txt #literally rewatched the scene of this post an i ended up sobbing even harder than when i watched it the first time #genuinely love this movie so much you dont understand #on earth we're briefly gorgeous #such a beautiful book btw #i feel like i need to read it again #even tho i just read it a few months ago LOL #edit: also just want to say that bc evelyn chooses to love joy. she exhibits her own agency in doing so.#when she does it she isnt just doing it bc shes her mother. shes doing it as a person who loves joy.

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hella1975 · 1 year

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ladybird was so real for the mum and daughter just violently hurling the most atrocious comments back and forth at each other like a nuclear game of hot potato and the dad just sitting there saying absolutely nothing like 😐👀

#i should rewatch ladybird but i fear my first year uni trauma (literally just last year why does it feel so long ago) when me and my mum #were just perpetually at each other's throats is gonna creep up #literally remember WEEPING to this film during that period bc it had always been a kicker for me bc hello it's LADYBIRD #anyone with a mother is gonna find something in that film that stings a little #but then i went to uni and me and my mum argued on my move-in day to the point we were driving down for the most monumental moment #of my life thus far like literally MOVING OUT OF HOME FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER THIS IS NEVER GONNA HAPPEN AGAIN #JUST LIKE IM NEVER GONNA BE AT HOME AGAIN PROPERLY and we just were not talking #and my dad was just there in the car like 😐😐 so AWKWARDLY lmfaooo #and it felt so much like ladybird's mum on HER move in day it was A LOT FOR ME OKAY #and we then spent the entire year in THE WORST period our relationship's ever been like WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT #and the whole 'please talk to me mom im bad i know i am and im sorry' GODDDDDDDDD #yeah no actually im not rewatching ladybird #the way that was also the year eeaao decided to come out too. you can imagine my distress #me in my little prison cell of a first year accommodation biting my pillow and sobbing <333 girlcore #my flatmate absolutely heard me. he is stronger than any british army veteran #hella goes home

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tvrningout-a · 10 months

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don't mind me, i'm just thinking about two characters being torn apart from each other unexpectedly and their resulting determination to find one another; the miles of terrain crossed, battles fought, letters written that cannot reach an unknown address, stubborn hope questioned by those around them; the reunion that maybe starts off slow, disbelief freezing previously eager legs, but then they can't simply be close enough, hands clutching, arms crushing, faces hidden in shoulders and joy muttered against familiar skin; " i never stopped looking for you. " " i knew you'd find me. "

i'm also thinking about two characters being torn apart from each other unexpectedly and that determination to find one another dwindling over the years, hope chipped away every passing season until they accept that they're lost and maybe always will be. they're miles apart but always on each others' mind, like a song they can't get out of their head -- life goes on, but they cannot forget, holding onto a memory perhaps to the frustration of those around them. maybe their paths nearly cross a few times, though they're none the wiser, until one day. one day they hear a familiar name, see a familiar face. or maybe they hear a familiar voice, pushing through a crowded street and searching, searching, searching --- all the determination returns, frantic as the beating of their heart. and there they stand, alive and well and older and different but still them.

i'm thinking about two characters being torn apart from each other and the connection between them that can't be broken by any force or amount of distance or time, and i am so so unwell y'all

#i decided to rewatch the first season of shadow and bone and eventually watch the second season #bc i gotta start picking up the stories i enjoy again uvu and now i remember why i love mal and alina's dynamic so much #in general i am so so so weak for this sort of plot #it doesn't even have to be romantic alright -- i loved this plot in the day after tomorrow too and that's a dad and his son #when one character would do anything to be with their loved one again i become so full of emotion i could burst okay ;;;;;;;;v;;;;;;;;;#i'm only two episodes in and i just needed to talk about this and put it in my wishlist bc my gosh i love it so much #the devotion the love the unwavering faith!!!! i am ill and sobbing!!!!!#i grew up on disney | wishlist

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jemmo · 1 year

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i don’t know how else to describe eternal yesterday, and the profound affect watching it has had on me, other than it’s the most quietly heart-breaking show I’ve possibly ever seen. It presents its subject matter so simply and plainly in a way that makes it feel huge, overwhelmingly huge, painfully huge. It’s premise is not for supernatural drama, it isn’t played up, not laughed at or exaggerated or used to give things more unnecessary emotional weight, it simply gives physicality to the real experience of letting someone go, to having to let someone go, to having to let go, and the indescribable pain of it that you can’t truly know until you’ve experienced it. It’s a glimpse into this short period of time, less than a week, that is so private to them, and is so concentrated with emotion, that truly does feel like time stopped, holding on, the fear of the moment passing, so instead the pain of it is just dragged out. You think of course they should do this, fight for every last second they can have together, but then you come to realise this life after death, this impossible extension, its a curse just as much as it is a miracle. We always wish we could know when we are going to lose someone so we can take that chance to say goodbye, but is that easier or harder? how do we wrestle with the pain of holding on but the pain of letting go? its a situation we cannot win, its simply a situation that has to happen, and we have to let time tick on.

there’s so many moments i want to bring attention to in this series but i’ll hold back and just talk on the 4 that feel the most special to me. first, a personal one, because in so many ways oumi reminds me of myself, and never has that been more true than the line “honestly, i feel comfortable when i’m alone. and i hate myself for being comfortable”. i cant think of another character that has embodied this anxiety i have in myself so much, and so simply, this ridiculous contradiction of being so at peace in your own company and despising that peace sometimes, wishing it wasn’t so peaceful, so maybe you wouldn’t be alone, maybe you’d do something, go out there, find people and things to do, and yet all that time maybe you’d be thinking “i’d like it so much better now if i was at home by myself”. its kind of ridiculous, and maybe people like us do need a koichi to be the company in our lonely peace, but yeah... i just have never felt so seen by a show before.

secondly, that final conversation oumi has with his father, because this whole time the situation feels so insular. even though other people know, and other people love koichi, and koichi loves other people, this is about oumi and koichi, and no one can truly understand the immensity of what those two are feeling in that moment. its like i said, you cant understand it unless you’re in it, unless you’ve experienced it. and yet, at the end, this minorly present, distant father comes in and says “what you’re going through, i went through that too”. and its the kind of conversation that doesn’t happen because they’ve both experienced this supernatural phenomenon of a love one existing after death, it happens because they’ve both lost people they’ve loved, and that something thats universal, and the people watching don’t need to have experienced anything supernatural to empathise with that. its when the audience truly realise that this story might be insular to them, but the story has also been told infinite times by countless people, and such the emotion of it is both theirs and everyones.

third, i think my heart actually crumbled to pieces when koichi said someone could have 2 number 1s. its his phrase, he loves mitchan the most, mitchan is his number 1. and its only given more weight when oumi says it back, and even more so when we hear his ending lines, about always wanting to be number 1 to someone, and that someone being his number 1 too, and how much of a miracle that is. for that same person, knowing he has to leave that person he loves the most, to say you can have 2 number 1s, saying to oumi its ok, you can move on, in the future you can have people that are precious to you, thats so fucking beautiful, and is an act of such love i cant even put it into words. you can feel so guilty sometimes for moving on from a loved one, for even feeling like you’re replacing them, so that gesture, that permission, that almost request, to not lose happiness and love because you’re losing them, to let yourself be happy again, because thats the biggest gift you could give to those you lose, thats just beautiful.

and finally, the moments in episode 6 where koichi is starting to disappear, and when people start to walk into rooms and not see him, i don’t think i’ve ever seen such a good metaphor for what its like to have a same-sex partner and for them to never truly be seen as your partner. because when that nurse walked in and was just talking to oumi, like koichi wasn’t there and yet he was, and oumi got so mad because thats the most important person in his life how dare you not see him, how dare you ignore him. i think it was him saying ignore that connected it for me, because thats what its like when you walk in with a same sex partner and you’re not recognised or seen as a couple. I thought to myself if this nurse walked in and oumi was sat with a girl, how he’d instantly be asked if its his girlfriend, but no he’s sat with a boy so you dont even bother asking, either because you dont think to or dont want to. we get flashes of it throughout the show with people not knowing about their relationship or the relationship between the teachers, how the gay is hidden. and with koichi gone but not gone, he’s like a ghost in oumi’s world, and i feel like that’s what it can feel like sometimes, walking around with someone you feel like no one else can see when theyre all you can see. theyre there but no one draws attention to them, no one wants to acknowledge them or it, the relationship, the ghost in the room, to the point you want to scream they do exist, how dare you think they dont. and when oumi gets angry on koichi’s behalf, thats what happens, thats what it can sometimes feel like experiencing homophobia. its horrid and angering and you want to scream because how dare they do that to the most important person in the world but theyre at peace with it. koichi has accepted his fate much like someone learns to accept hate and harrasment, they become at peace with it. and you can get angry all you like but that doesn’t change anything, that doesnt stop it from happening, thats what it feels like. you get that when you lose someone, you get angry when other people have moved on when you cant, you wont, you dont want to, you think why dont people care anymore, how can they be so unfair and unkind and unfeeling, which is why its shocking that themes of loss can mirror these queer experiences, where a partner can feel invisible to everyone even when their heart is beating. thats why i think this blending of actual loss and actual invisibility with queerness being hidden and unseen is just heart-breaking genius.

this show is heavy, and has honestly brought out in me one of the most condensed visceral reactions to media ive ever had. i feel sad, i feel drained, i feel broken. ive cried so much, and my sadness is physical, my heart hurts, it feels heavy. and yet... i do feel at peace. i feel at peace with this sadness because its something you have to learn to do in life. these experiences are inevitable and ive always tried to avoid these heavier shows, things i know will hurt and make me sad and feel things, where there isn’t a core of happiness, a good ending to keep you together. but sometimes it has to be embraced to see the beauty in it, because as koichi said, despite what happens, despite the tragedy and sadness and loss, at the core of the story if two people meeting and falling in love, and how that simple, human connection, that we all have, is a miracle, so treasure it.