#stupid. i'll kill him.

[sciderman]

photographs that are permanently grafted to the inside of my eyeballs

1.

#sci speaks #this shouldn't be allowed. #tasm2 #why are his hips so tiny for. so men can grab them?? #stupid. i'll kill him.

[mari-lair]

I wanna talk about Gon's "Im glad I met you" declaration, because it warms my heart.

Greed Island is the closest thing to a gift his dad has ever given Gon, a gift he had been excited to play but that no one cares about, killing each other for a reward, and destroying the game's original intent.

He feels like he is the only one properly playing Ging's game and respecting what his dad wanted when he created Greed Island.

But Killua reassures Gon that the game mechanics allow players to steal cards, so it's not a disrespect to Ging's game, just a different play style from Gon's.

This shows that killua cares about this 'world ging created' and how it works just as much as Gon, and that while some people are crossing the line with murders, others are still 'playing', which calms Gon down.

The most important part is how killua says "Let's enjoy the game by ourselves" with genuine excitement!

He effortlessly reminded Gon that this isn't just a 'challenge Ging left', it is also another of their fun adventures, and others don't matter because Killua will always follow him.

For as social as Gon is, this has always been a part of his life he didn't share much with his loved ones: Mito never liked his dad, Leorio and Kurapika always help when asked, but they have their own goals, and Gon would never drag them into something for himself, but Killua has always been by his side with a smile, from when Gon first listened to Ging's voice, to teaching Gon how Joy Stations works, all the way to entering the game, Killua makes this search for Ging fun, and Gon feels grateful for his presence.

He loves that his best friend is here, that he got to meet someone as smart and cool and amazing as Killua at all. So he tells him.

#hxh #hunter x hunter #gon freecss #gon freccs #killua zoldyck #killugon #people were very nice on my first post sharing my thoughts so here is a sprinkle more of gon thoughts #i love him and killua so much it makes me look stupid #i'll do a big post on how much killua means to him in the future even if it kills me #character analysis

[bruciemilf]

I think I'm gonna die soon if I don't talk abt Martha and her brothers

#BRUCE HAS TWO UNCLES AND HONESTLY? HONESTLY??? #i am gonna fucking scream #literally wheres my post mortem panic. that scene where marthas and thomas families gather to decide what to do witj bruce #whos still reeking of death everywhere he goes and cant stand the taste of life #wheres my Philip kane -- the youngest of them the dumbest of them -- who says they cant just volley with a child #and have a contest over who wants him LEAST #wheres my jacob kane with a voice like winter observing Gotham from a clean glass window as he stares at the misery below #'do YOU want him then?' and philip stays quiet. hes serious. its unnatural for him to be serious. hes the stupid little brother #the jester. the family clown. he's thomas' favourite because he makes them laugh like a court monkey #and now he'll never hear thomas laugh again #and he still can’t bring himself to say he does #and bruce? bruce is tugging on Alfred’s trousers. he wants up. he wants to die #and alfred holds onto him and won't let him. 'take him.from me. i'll kill us both.' #AAAAAAAA #philip kane #jacob kane #martha kane #martha wayne #bruce wayne #HISSSS SHIS SSHISSSS #wahhh wails and cries #young bruce wayne

[sapphire-weapon]

I’m about to vomit out a bunch of thoughts, and I’m not sure any of this is going to make sense by the end, but. I’ve been thinking a LOT about these three lines in RE4make:

“You haven’t changed. You just think you have.”

“You can’t save her. You can’t save anyone.”

“This time, it has to be different...”

I’ve seen people focus in on that Krauser line and tie it directly back to Sherry, which is cool! Even as recently as five years ago, people completely glossed over Sherry’s impact on Leon’s life, and it’s cool that the remakes have had people digging into his character and realizing “oh shit, literally everything that happens to him after RE2 is because of his paternal love for Sherry.”

But... Krauser’s line is about more than just her.

With the remake turning Krauser into Leon’s combat trainer, chances are he knows about everything that happened in Raccoon City. And I don’t mean, like. He read a government file. Leon probably told him.

In OG, Krauser and Leon have this exchange of dialogue:

Krauser: “What is it that you fight for, comrade?” Leon: “My past, I suppose.” Krauser: “Hmph. Umbrella.”

It was axed completely from the remake, because it doesn’t make sense for it to happen in the remake. If Krauser was Leon’s trainer, that question was probably asked very early in their relationship. And since they weren’t currently in a fight to the death, and because they weren’t already six years removed from Raccoon City, chances are, Leon’s answer was a bit more involved than just “my past.”

So, let’s back up a little bit. In RE2make, they basically turned Kendo into a completely different character. OG Kendo was literally just there to point a shotgun at Leon and/or Claire and then go “oh my bad you’re not a zombie” and hook them up with some guns before he gets eaten. In RE2make, he’s a desperate and terrified father just trying to spend his last few moments with his infected 6 or 7 year old daughter before she turns. After he shuts the door on Leon and Ada, Leon turns to Ada and says, “Protecting people like that is why I joined the force.”

But Leon doesn’t protect or save Kendo or his daughter. He doesn’t protect or save... anyone. Every single person that Leon comes into contact with and tries to save dies horrifically -- and some, he even has to kill, himself (Marvin Branaugh). The only people who make it out of Raccoon City alive are people who saved themselves (Claire and Ada).

Of course, there is Sherry. But Leon didn’t save Sherry; Claire did. ESPECIALLY in remake canon, since nearly all of Leon’s scenes with Sherry got severely shortened or removed completely in RE2make.

But then, when Claire entrusts Sherry to Leon’s care (on his own insistence, per her RE3 epilogue), he goes and fucks that up, too. Gets her kidnapped and held hostage indefinitely by the federal government, and the only thing he can do about it is do exactly as they say and just hope they keep their end of the bargain and not hurt her.

So, when Krauser says “You can’t save anyone,” he means anyone. Ever. And even up to that point in RE4... Leon got the two officers who drove him into town killed, and he watched Luis die a slow, agonizing death right in front of him. And then, past that point, Leon has to kill Krauser with his own hands. Then he watches Mike die.

Ashley is literally Leon’s first and only success story, up to this point in canon. (And even when you go all the way up to current-day canon, Ashley is one of... three? People? I can think of? Total? Who Leon actually saves?)

So, Leon saying, “This time, it has to be different,” he doesn’t just mean Sherry. He means Ada. He means Kendo. He means Marvin. He means the entirety of Raccoon City. He’s staring down a repeat of what happened back then, not in terms of the bioterror situation, but in terms of his own personal failures. His survivor’s guilt. He can’t handle the thought that he’ll be the only person to walk away again -- and he refuses to be.

And that’s why Ada’s line bothers me so fucking much.

I mean, first of all -- Ada, you haven’t seen this man in six years, and you’ve spent a total of like five minutes with him since meeting up with him again here, so how the fuck would you even know -- but even aside from that...

To be clear: she’s right.

But she’s also wrong.

Leon has changed -- to an extent. In RE2 (OG or remake), Leon honestly believed that if it was lawful, then it was also morally right. He doesn’t believe that anymore. There’s no more “letting the law sort it out” or trusting in the power of authority for him anymore. His moral compass has been boiled down to: “If you hurt or murder innocent people, you’re a fucking asshole, and I don’t really care who you are, I’ll kill you myself.”

RE2 Leon was willing to hear people out and give them an honest benefit of the doubt -- even Annette Birkin. RE4 Leon just tells people to shut the fuck up before opening fire.

RE2 Leon was honest and trusting to a fault, and he felt stronger as part of a team. RE4 Leon is suspicious almost to the point of paranoia, and he just wants to be left the fuck alone to do his job.

These are all things that were really important to who Leon was in Raccoon City, and they’re reasons why things turned out the way they did for him, back then.

But at the same time, Ada’s right in saying that, at the core of it all, Leon is still that kind-hearted, decent guy who just wants the good guys to win and the bad guys to lose. That’s why it hits him somewhere sensitive when Krauser says: “You can’t save anyone.” 

It’s just that, now, the way he approaches it is different. His outlook on life in terms of his goals is different. His expectations for it have changed.

So, if Leon had been smarter/wittier, he absolutely could have turned it around on her and said: “No, I’ve definitely changed. You just think I haven’t.”

And not only would that sound threatening as fuck, he’d also be right. They both would be, at that point.

And for all of those major parts of him to have changed and still be facing down the possibility of failing every single person he comes across, especially Ashley...

"This time, it has to be different.”

And this time, it was.

#resident evil 4 #leon kennedy #meta analysis #and it WOULDN'T have been different if leon hadn't changed #could you imagine how RE4 would've ended if leon was still his RE2 self and tried to apprehend krauser instead of killing him #or like give him a second chance #like 'i beat you now you can repent' #fucking LUL #that's how you fucking die comrade #unfortunately leon succeeding in RE4 also taught him to emotionally close himself off and push everyone away #classical conditioning and all that #but that's a separate post for a separate time #if they ever remake RE6 watch me clown honk my way through leon and sherry's fucked up relationship #claire goes to see sherry regularly and leon admits out loud he hasn't even spoken to her in at least 3 years #and then chokes up with tears when he finally sees her again #smfh he's so fucking stupid #leon if you can't cope with your trauma properly then just shut up and keep drinking god i can't stand you #one day i'll also write a big post about leon's suicidal ideation #today is not that day #but one day

[bnbc]

maybe you like him because he is a knight in shining armor I like him because he is deeply traumatized

#if i read one more take on heinrix like #women like him because he is nice and kiss your hands a lot #I'll start killing people #also 'women only want to dance and play regicide with him' #MY DEAR POSTERS HAVE YOU EVER MET A WOMAN #ik ik i should avoid such places but i get bored without reminding how stupid people can be

[chipistrate]

ugh. I want that stupid fucking hedgehog dead.

#Chip Chatter #he always comes so close to dying #but he never commits #smh #(Sonic) #i hate him /aff #whateverrrrr more Sonic art tomorrow cause I hate him soooo much #and also cause I've drawn nothing but fnaf since like June/July I'm doing this for my sanity #now that I'm looking at my CSP gallery it's actually kinda funny how long I can scroll before seeing anything not fnaf related #whatever unrelated #Eggman fuck off I'll kill this stupid blue bitch myself

[cyanide-latte]

fffffffsssssss every day I forget about one particular TWST OC I have until @simons-twsted-children @inmateofthemind or @ramshacklerumble remind me he exists.

#he's a Clayton expy i made purely so all other OCs have a shared minor antagonist that everyone can hate #but nobody and i mean nobody hates Liam Aarden as much as yours truly hates Liam Aarden #brat gets hoisted by his own petard regularly. eventually I'll kill him off #either as a result of him threatening Copper's loved ones and finally pushing Copper over the line to kill in order to protect #(which would be some hefty turmoil and character development for my baby boy esp since he swore not to kill) #or as a result of Liam being utterly stupid and causing Wei Renqiao to Overblot and ultimately paying the price for THAT stupidity #either way he's going to die one day and until then he's going to continue being a hateful little tosswad #anyway ignore my rambling #Cyanide speaks

[crystalleoi]

5C

#inanimate insanity #ii mephone5 #ii mephone5c #my art #listen man. these two (+ 5S) are like inherently connected in my mind. even though they've never met canonically #created by a man who does not truly care about them or their well-being and only values them bc they are still new and useful to him #& died trying to kill their predecessor. but their efforts wouldn't have mattered anyway because they would've been replaced in like a year #did they know they would be replaced? did they just have to live with the knowledge that they would one day no longer matter to cobs? #these tags r only tangentially related to the artwork. i'm losing it i fear #anyway a headcanon that's actually kinda related to this art: #i imagine that cobs gave more preferential treatment to 5S because he had more advanced tech nd stuff #and 5C developed like a weird relationship w her self-esteem where she (like the other mephones) kind of has an inflated ego #she readily compliments herself (literally called herself “the most colorful beauty in existence”) #(partially bc she's kinda compensating for not getting as much praise from cobs as 5S) #(i also think she tends to seek validation from others (e.g. “i'm made of plastic. neat huh?”) because of that) #but she doesn't talk up how advanced her tech is because it's from Last Year #you don't understand how long this headcanon has been microwaving in my mind. it's been YEARS. i've never unleashed it until now #it's probably stupid but WHATEVER MAN. i'll overanalyze these phones as much as i want #this is what happens when your favorite characters show up in like 1 episode and die. you go insane

[zeroducks-2]

Baldur's Gate 3 Ending Spoilers Ahead :)

Okay why The Fuck can't we have a romance ending with the Emperor. Why THE FUCK NOT. WHY. THIS IS UNFAIR. LARIAN YOU ALLOWED ME TO FUCK THE GUY, YOU ALLOWED ME TO TRUST HIM AND BE THERE FOR HIM AND TURN INTO A MINDFLAYER MYSELF, AND THEN I CAN'T HAVE A ROMANCE ENDING? THE FUCK???

#okay the fact that he basically goes 'do your thing and I'll be waiting for you for as long as it takes' is sweet but #BUT #I TURNED INTO AN ILLITHID TO SAVE HIS STUPID TENTACLY ASS #(and not to have to kill Lae'zel either) #I LITERALLY TOOK THE BURDEN UPON MYSELF FOR THOSE TWO IDIOTS AND BECAME SQUID #I did all that PLUS I forsook my romance with Lae'zel and then the game fucking ends with A LETTER? #NOT EVEN AN IN-PERSON GOODBYE? #LARIAN??? HELLOOOO? #I had a whole sequence of Karlach going to Avernus with Wyll which don't get me wrong I'm glad she's fine! #I was so scared she was going to die! #but why is that the only cutscene I get #nothing about the other characters and most of all NOTHING ABOUT THE EMPEROR #the narrator goes 'you won't have to face this burden alone anymore' and my shippy ass was already smiling ear to ear #thinking 'cause I'll be with the Emperor right' #'I'll be with the Emperor right...?' #and then cuts to black. what the fuck. What the actual fuck. #Larian you buffoons shouldn't have let me have sex with him if you didn't have a romance ending. No I'm serious I feel scammed #'Zero are you really complaining about not having a romance ending with the tentacle fucking thing' YES #YES DO YOU KNOW ME YES HE'S THE BEST CHARACTER IN THAT GAME

[r0achlezbian]

i will forgive all of larian's sins both past and present if we get a quest to kill mizora btw

#benny.exe #balding gate #this is a joke i'll still be mad but i'd be slightly less mad if i got to put an axe in her stupid face #why is killing cazador a whole quest meanwhile mizora's just kickin it at camp and you can't get her to fuck off #'but wyll's warlock powers' yea! exactly! there could be a really impactful plotpoint about him losing those powers #right before the biggest fight of his life #and his new friends (and possibly partner) assuring him that no he IS enough without mizora #maybe there isn't a blade of frontiers without mizora's power but there is a wyll ravenguard and that's enough. #also like come ON please a mizora boss fight could be really fucking cool #raphael's boss fight is the best in the game please god let me fight more devils PLEASEEEE #wyll's lack of content is a bigger issue here but if you don't care about that #well. you might want to examine that a bit. but that aside we were robbed of a really cool fight come onnnnn #let! me! kill! mizora! actually better yet let me watch wyll kill mizora #he deserves it lord knows that man needs to feel some rage #wyll gets treated like shit by everyone in universe and in real life get him out of there PLEASE #bg3 spoilers

[pianokantzart]

TMNT 2012 (along with the rest of the franchise) was one of my biggest Hyperfixations as a preteen/young teenager, along with MLP:FIM and Gargoyles.

NGL, for all it's flaws TMNT 2012 as a whole slapped.

MLP:FIM and Gargoyles were both good shows too. I dabbled in both, but... by now you've probably figured out the way to really hook me into a hyperfixation is with a really good brother relationship.

#I'll also latch onto a highly traumatized self-isolator whose loneliness rarely gets properly addressed #(*cough cough* 2012 splinter *cough cough* Knuckles the echidna) #fluttershyfan12345 #askbox #Gosh... it was the BEST iteration of Splinter and they killed him for literally no gd reason!!! #anyways tmnt 2012 spoilers for all who don't know Splinter dies in the end and it's stupid #and I'll die mad about it

[pocketgalaxies]

i'm gonna scream though, actually

#glaring at my dash and muttering 'i do not see it i do not see it' while white knuckling the edge of my desk #4-sided-dive episode 14 timestamp 1 hour 39 minutes 35 seconds on youtube and beacon. #i cannot say more i'll be killed (btw the fact that i'll be killed is infuriating in its own right) #don't go around calling people stupid and harmful and misogynistic for something that was explicitly stated previously #and don't go around accusing people of damning your favorite character and unilaterally blaming him for everything #when all we want to do is point out that there may be a flaw in the logic. something every character is prone to. because they are people. #if you can't handle that it's not my problem and it sure as hell isn't my fucking fault #text #nova shh #cr negativity #might delete this later but i feel like i'll explode if i don't say smth right now

[faggyangel]

is no one gonna talk about how ed knows izzy by the smell of his rotting flesh

#like he's CRAZY crazy #he's in love with izzy but not in a romantic relationship kind of way in a i need him under at all times and with me every second of the da #and i want to kill him but if he died i'd kill myself i loved him the best i could i hated his guts i want to eat him he makes me worse #but i don't know what i'd do without him he knows me better than anyone except one person who i love too but hurt me so all i have is him #but he's pulling away too so fine fuck it i'll kill him i'll make him bleed and hurt the way i bleed and hurt #i love him like the dog at my feet and the knife in my belt but i hate the way he bites and stabs im going crazzyyyyyyy over here #ofmd #edizzy nation we won we did it we won #i neeeeeeed them to kill each other its the only way #thats my stance on the stupid fucking ed+izzy discourse they need to eat each other that's the closest to love they'll ever get #our flag means death

[myhetaliaask]

he makes me so mentally ill

I can't stop drawing him 😭😭😭

UGH! THIS DRAWING, TOOK 7 FUCKING HOURS! I SPENT 7 HOURS FOR THIS LOSER WHY DO I LOVE HIM I WANNA STRANGLE HIM

#hetalia #aph spain #hws spain #Hetalia spain #he makes me so ill #i wanna kill him #but in a good way #I'll make him worse #In game #Stupid colonizer boy #you mean the world to me #hetalia fanart #portugal #but not today #not here #lmao

[crimeronan]

orpheus sucked. i've said it before and i'll say it again: if you loved her you wouldn't look. rip to eurydice girl if you were married to ME i'd walk straight out of hell and keep walking and if i never saw you again it would be okay because i'd know you were alive and carry that with me and none of the rest of it would matter because THAT'S WHAT LOVE IS and anything else makes my skin crawl. your husband fuckin SUCKSSSSS dude i'm so sorry. i'm so sorry an ugly bitch would do you like that i'm SO s

#is this a bad faith reading? yes. is it in response to people being condescending about this myth again? yes #the last time i posted about this a bunch of classics majors were like you've gotten the myth wrong #there are X reasons he looked back that didn't have to do with him being a little bitchass who can't follow clear directions #but listen. the only fucking thing people ever say is how he looked back out of love #and lemme shout it from the mountaintops #I DON'T WANT TO BE LOVED LIKE THAT!!! I DON'T WANT TO LOVE LIKE THAT!!!!!!! #IT SUCKS!! EURYDICE YOU CAN DO BETTER. CALL ME #there's too much adam in me for this nonsense. simply Do Not Look Back #JUST FOLLOW DIRECTIONS. YOU SELFISH BASTARD. #IF YOU CAN'T FUCKING SEE IT THROUGH THEN DON'T GO TO HELL IN THE FIRST PLACE. #to Me this is way more about selfish stupidity and possessiveness in the face of grief you refuse to process #which is actually compelling!! and interesting to explore!! #but no. god forbid. we have to suffer through a million poems of 'in that last moment eurydice knew that she was loved' #NO. FUCK OFF. SHE KNEW THAT THE SECOND HER HUSBAND SHOWED UP IN HELL FOR HER. #IN THAT FINAL MOMENT SHE KNEW HE WAS A LITTLE BITCHASS WHO CAN'T FOLLOW THROUGH ON ANYTHING. I'LL KILL YOU #this rant is obnoxious but please know i'm making my own post so as not to put tags on the post of someone who is loudly wrong about this #because i am being polite. kind of.

[tending-the-hearth]

Willow: I made you a friendship bracelet. Madmartigan: You know, I'm not really a jewelry person. Willow: Well, you don't have to wear it if you don't want to— Madmartigan: No, I'm gonna wear it forever! Back off!

#THEY'RE BEST FRIENDS #i haven't watched the willow show yet #i'll be watching it tmrw #but istg if madmartigan's dead or something i will lose it #anyways they're bffs and love each other so much #madmartigan is the epitome of the 'i've only had arlo for a day and a half' meme #but it's about willow and elora #madmartigan: yes willow is annoying and a little shit but if anyone looks at him the wrong way i WILL kill them #willow: yes madmartigan is a stupid daikini but he's MY stupid daikini #willow 1988 #willow #madmartigan