#that did not so much happen lmaooo

[courfeyracs-swordcane]

[pointing towards you emoji] favorite blaseball team. go

(if you want to practice drawing in another style, then draw yourself as a transformer OR as a human character)

WE ARE FROM CHICAGO

#THANK YOU THIS WAS VERY FUN 10/10 #This also took Actual Years but that’s mostly bc I have really no idea what I look like #it’s not especially this tho #top one is better than the bottom one #but still #ah fuck I forgor to color in the Chicago across the chest on that one #whoops #oh well. too late #blaseball #Chicago firefighters #I do not know if we have a generally agreed upon uniform this was just what I found in the server #also technically TECHNICALLY max ballad brothers was vaguely supposed to be a transformersona #that did not so much happen lmaooo #<— nobody say anything about catalyzer I’m better than him #and also. more importantly. would not look like that. #just me #look I drew a thing #am I allowed to maintag this? I don’t know. #sorry if you don’t want to see it I’m gonna want to be able to find it later and my Blaseball tag is way smaller than my art tag. #and technically it’s related but still. augh #<— overthinking this

[masonjarart]

Just watching how Ramon acts with sunny you can see how much he cares for her he doesn't want her to go through all of the things he has (even though she and the other new eggs probably went through some stuff on egg island) like all that kid wants is for his family to be safe and now this with forever threatening all the eggs he must be more scared than ever there's only so much he can do to protect her from that gun

#i dont understand Portuguese so with forevers lore rn I'm just going off of vibes and the lovely live bloggers on here #shout out to yall <33 the only reason ik anything #i did watch his stream but pretty much everything went over my head lmaooo #ive only had ramon and sunnys ralationship for a couple of days but if anything happened to them i would commit so many crimes #qsmp #qsmp eggs

[coffeeandcalligraphy]

I like to hurt EVERYONE’s feelings so here’s a really old note from Moth Work that would’ve led to the originally planned ending (which granted, is very similar to the actual ending). I’ve organized it so you can see who’s saying what:

H: Should I have come here? (Beat) What you [and Eliza] have I’ll never get. It’s something different. You move like you’ve known each other for years. Do you love her?

L: I’ve known her for a week.

H: But do you love her?

L: I feel like I’ve loved her for a long time. (Beat.) Did you love him? (Lonan asks referring to Jeremiah.) The man you left.

H: (Harrison shakes his head.) I couldn’t have, I was thinking about you.

And now I point you to when Lonan canonically goes “I’ve loved you for a long time” as noted above BUT IT’S TO HARRISON rather than Eliza (TEA):

Lonan takes hold of the guardian angel, and gingerly, like it’s fragile enough to crumple, brings it to his mouth and kisses it. His lip glints, just as the angel does, in the moonlight. He lets the angel fall, swaying like a pendulum, and pulls his hand back slowly. Quietly, he says, “I think I’ve loved you for a long time.”

AND Harrison in BODY BACK sticks to the script lol UNFORTUNATELY:

In the dark motel room, Harrison looks up at Jeremiah. He’s a good guy. A good friend. Looks even younger when asleep and even less aware.

“I love you,” Harrison whispers to the still air. He doesn’t even mean it. “I love you.”

One day, he hopes he’s nothing but a story Jeremiah tells. Someone to laugh at over mimosas, to curse while knee-to-knee with an improved lover. Jeremiah, this world doesn’t know what it has. Jeremiah, hold yourself dearly. Jeremiah, I’m not coming back. Jeremiah, forgive me when you’re older.

#Lonan breaking plans to actually be honest about his feelings is >>>> #Harrison sticking to plans I made 3 yrs ago and forgot about because he’s a disappointment LMAOOO #BUDDY I GAVE YOU THREE YEARS TO CHANGE THIS #AND HE STILL DID JEREMIAH SO DIRTY #anyway I’m happy the scene as planned didnt happen that dialogue is bad lol #also the I’ve loved you a long time dialogue in MW IS SOOOO ICONIC #basically the original ending of moth work is that they still break up #but it’s on much better terms - like harrison is happy Lonan has a better relationship in Eliza #and he willingly moves with Suzanna to New York #and the last image was supposed to be him at the water haha #but I much prefer gay angst and pining & then Harrison lacking emotional regulation skills and going to Suz because #she’s a last resort and not because he wants to and then ruining his life in Las Vegas and then ruining it again in NYC #we love a man who takes the long route

[magentagalaxies]

hi @liliana-von-k, thanks for the follow! i have answered this question before but i love talking about kids in the hall and my "origin story" with them so i'm happy to tell it again (jsyk it will be a long post bc i always have to tell the full story bc i love it so much)

basically my parents have both been kith fans since the 90s, so even before i had seen any of the show itself there were certain kith quotes that were just part of my family's vocabulary. the first sketch i watched was "these are the daves i know" when i was like 8 years old and i became obsessed with that song. i watched a few other sketches/the first few episodes from season one but i didn't truly get into kith until after their documentary "comedy punks" was released

see, my mom is a big documentary person so she was like "oh hey there's a new kids in the hall documentary! do you want to watch it?" and i just kind of shrugged and was like sure i'll be in the room while it's on, probably working on my own stuff or scrolling on my phone. but like not even five minutes in i was hooked. while i'd always enjoyed kids in the hall's comedy, something about hearing the very personal histories of how the troupe came together and survived for all these years was so affecting. i think it was scott specifically that really signaled to me that this show was something special, and the part where bruce talked about comforting scott while he had cancer by telling him how the rest of the troupe would die first was so powerful. honestly no individual movie has changed my life more than comedy punks did specifically bc it gave me that push to get into kith and approached it from such a human perspective, which definitely informed my approach to the rest of their work and them as people. i remember watching comedy punks for the first time and getting this strange feeling i couldn't pin down yet that was like this is important, not just referring to the show or the troupe, but like this feeling that i had just crossed a turning point in my life, and i remember feeling this pull towards toronto which seemed frivolous at the time but has been so heavily solidified as i'm now planning to move there in just over a year.

so i bingewatched all of the kids in the hall tv show in summer 2022, as well as brain candy, death comes to town, the amazon season, etc. basically as much kith stuff as i could find. but i needed more. so i started getting into side projects, which brought me to "mouth congress" (a queer-punk band scott thompson and paul bellini had in the early 80s that they've recently started putting out new music with again). i found a youtube channel with a bunch of recent live performance clips of the band and each video had like less than 10 views. so since i didn't have anyone to infodump about kith with irl (aside from my very patient mother lol) i started commenting on every video, complimenting the performances and pretending i was talking to a friend, confident no one would actually see it

after 2 weeks of this, turns out someone did see it. PAUL BELLINI HIMSELF. this led to a whole back-and-forth which eventually ended up with him emailing me a copy of the unreleased mouth congress documentary, i emailed back asking if he'd be interested in meeting on zoom (since i am a queer comedy writer myself so both he and scott are my biggest comedy inspirations), and yeah bellini is a delightful person to talk to and we very quickly became friends. i ended up offering to run mouth congress's social media, which can be found on both tumblr and instagram as @mouthcongress and posts both vintage videos from the 80s/90s and recent live clips. they're currently working on an album of entirely new material written in the past 2 years which is going to be released soon (we don't have a specific release date but the recording is completed and they've started filming music videos for it!! but i'm getting ahead of myself lmao)

a few months pass and mouth congress is set to perform at a new year's eve show at a local club in toronto. i'd never been to toronto before, never even left the united states, but paul says it would be so great to have me there and by some miracle my parents say yes to making the trip (they still can't believe this is happening either, since they were kith fans first!). the trip is wonderful, i immediately fall in love with the city, i get lunch with paul irl for the first time and get to have my very first face-to-face conversation with my number one comedy inspiration scott thompson. it's honestly a little awkward but in an adorable funny way. i also have my first legal drink at that show (bc canadian drinking age is lower than the us), specifically saying i want to have my first drink with buddy cole, which both scott and paul are very into

it's actually only a couple weeks until i'm in toronto again, because scott is debuting a new buddy cole show consisting of monologues that were all censored by amazon that he pitched during the revival season. this is my first time traveling a long distance without my family which my mom is anxious about so paul bellini lets me have him as my emergency contact. the show is amazing, i get to stay for the afterparty, and while i'm there i casually mention that i'm surprised no one has made a buddy cole documentary yet. like, this character has such a rich history even beyond the kids in the hall (which i can infodump about all day lmao) and is such an important staple of queer comedy that doesn't get the attention he deserves. the kith documentary is great, but where's my buddy cole documentary? paul accepts my pitch (that i didn't even realize i was pitching), passes along the idea to scott, and yeah now i'm legit directing a film with my number one comedy heroes and i haven't even graduated college yet. what the fuck. i expected this to be the type of thing i accomplish over 20 years into my career, not at twenty!! so yeah that's how the buddy cole documentary started. i'm still in preproduction on it but we're launching an indiegogo crowdfunding campaign for it in the next 2 weeks bc this has evolved into a full feature-length film with some incredible celebrity interviewees, both kith and otherwise.

anyway a few months later it's announced bruce mcculloch is bringing his one-man-show to the city i go to school in. not only that, but his theater is literally 2 blocks from campus. i ask paul if he'd give me bruce's contact so i can set up an interview for my school's newspaper, paul gives me bruce's assistant's email, and i set up a 30-minute zoom two weeks before bruce will be in town. the conversation honestly goes bizarrely well. like it's honestly surreal how close bruce and i got after only knowing each other for a half hour? he's such an easy person to talk to and literally by the end of that conversation he was already calling himself my mentor, asking about my comedy, and offering to let me meet him backstage after his show. which is exactly what i did, launching yet another incredible friendship-slash-mentorship with one of the kids in the hall.

bruce eventually signed on to executive produce the buddy cole documentary (alongside paul bellini), i've been up to toronto in january, april, june, august, and october this year (so essentially every 2 months, though it was slightly offset by going twice in january) and i'm planning on going up in december, every time not only do i find time to meet up with scott, paul, and bruce but they all deliberately try to reserve as much "jess time" as they can because i have a unique and powerful friendship with each of them, every time i finish a new creative project paul has to see it bc he loves how ambitious i am, i repeatedly wake up to texts scott sends me at 3am about the documentary and how excited he is to have me on tour with him to film it next year, bruce thinks it's hilarious he used to think i was "shy" bc i've gotten so comfortable going on infodumps and tangents about things i'm passionate about, and the three of them all feel like extended family. best of all, i actually have plans to graduate from college a semester early so that i can use the money (and time) i've saved to find a place in toronto and start making even more connections with the comedy community up there (also for the record: no i have not met mark, kevin, or dave yet. i know kevin is aware of my existence from bruce giving me a shoutout at a show they both did but that's about it. but i know i will interview all of them for my documentary)

so anyway that's how i got into kids in the hall. i know only the first 2 paragraphs answer your question, but at this point my love for this show has become so so intertwined with my relationships to bruce and scott and paul as humans that i don't really consider getting into kids in the hall and getting to know the kids in the hall as separate things in my life.

(also if you have any follow-up questions on anything mentioned feel free to reply or dm me, this goes for everyone else too!)

#as always i hope talking about knowing some of the kith irl doesn't come across as bragging bc that's absolutely not my intention #bc i do very much feel like a very lucky kith tumblr nerd and my favorite thing is connecting the kith to this part of their audience #hosting little digital screenings of hard-to-find kith media or passing along questions etc #this is exemplified with my ''kids in the archive'' series which you should check out if you haven't already #but yeah this is a very (and i mean VERY) brief summary of how this all unfolded #bc like. yes this all kind of happened over a year and a half. but it was a very eventful year and a half #if you scroll far enough in some of my kith-related tags you can find posts from in-the-moment before i knew some of them #or when i was still coming up with the concept for the buddy cole doc or something like that #which is very interesting to see. this blog is like a living kith journal lmao #also: the bruce interview article was never written bc i actually lied about writing for the school paper lmaooo #but for the anniversary i might write a transcript and/or see if i can post the audio bc i did record it #i haven't relistened to it since the day (march 6th) so it'll be so cool going back and listening to myself being starstruck #compared to now where i see bruce as ''just some guy (complimentary)''

[bunnyb34r]

I wonder if Formally Good Manager will return from war... wherever the fuck he is.... now that BaldBastard is out of here lmao

My facial blindness will NOT be able to handle it 😭 Bootleg FGM is his doppelganger and I already have trouble remembering that that's NOT FGM

Also we got news that Old BossMan got fired from whatever job he "left" our store for lmaoooo bitch it's only been a year and a half?? and you've been fired TWICE???

#marquilla #work talk #we dont know why he was fired but we know he did which is so so funny like hey... your old job here opened up... too bad you're #blacklisted from working here now lmaoo id die if they somehow rehired him AGGSGSGS Can you imagine?? BossMan 2 Electric Boogaloo #it's not gonna happen bc he got super super fired uh i mean he CHOSE to leave after an incident where his employee threatened another #with a gun at work shdggdgd so yknow... but god that would be so fucking funny #anyway anyways FGM kept signing up for military leave so he wouldnt have to give up his job but wouldnt have to be HERE with BaldBastard #which like ... i get it but also id just quit but thats me sgdggdgdgd we dont know where he is/when he's coming back but he was SUPPOSED #To be back in october and then just signed up right away for another tour 😭 imagine your employee hating you that much #funniest thing is FGM was BaldBastard's favorite lmaooo it was NOT mutual but then his lady friend manager from PA moved here to work #with him and she was legit CRYING at work when he told her he was quitting like again imagine uprooting your life for this and he just #LEAVES less than 6 months of you moving here 😭 i don't think she was into him but idk maybe she's bi i just know she likes women at least #she could do so much better than this white megamind looking fucker sgdgdggdgd #the best part ab having a job is the drama you get to absorb by proxy and the glee of watching shitheads get their just deserts #schlaundefraud or whatever the spelling is of that work sound it out you know which one im trying to say

[emodennis]

why did i decide to take a job at an extremely active and sport-focused camp this summer.

#well on the bright side i got my legal name changed to phoenix on the staff portal #but training starts tomorrow #and im gonna be the bitch that's slower and less fit than everyone else #like i genuinely do not see a scenario where that doesn't happen #i'm either gonna have to push my body beyond what its capable of doing comfortably #or ask for breaks #i hate the society we live in #where i internalized that asking for breaks is weak and embarassing #but to answer my own question. it's because the pay is so much better than the other camp jobs i was applying to lmaooo #i mean i'm sure i'll get more fit as the summer goes on #but being behind everyone else in the beginning is gonna be so stressful #i tried so hard to exercise more this month. but i don't think i did it more than 3 times a week #which i don't think was enough #but hopefully it will be something #i also hate the sun and bugs. #WHY AM I DOING THIS KASJHDAKSHD #i don't even know if i like working with kids :''') #i hate new situations where i have no idea what to expect #i did as much research as i could but the autism can't handle the things i can't know or prepare for #idk what i need rn. everyone's who's told me that its gonna be fun or a good time or whatever has not helped #and anyone who's validated me and said that it sounds stressful hasn't helped either #so i will take your likes on this post as a little kiss on the cheek <3 #that's all i need #phoenix talks

[todayisafridaynight]

i'll probably be skipping stream today & tomorrow on account of my personal challenge to finish JE before you (<- absolutely not going to happen)

but while i'm here SHUT UP your headcanon is not icky :) though i can't really talk since i don't bring my own up very often either, and i honestly haven't even put that much thought into the logistics around it. anyway trans masato 🤝 trans wagi as personal coping mechanisms

DAWG you gotta finish it... idk how long youve had it but prob longer than me cmon now gamer i know you can do it ✊

trans masato is just funny because Like Everything I Do it just started as me joking about scenes from the game and then the ending happened and i was like Oh Lol It's Not A Joke Anymore I Think

I DONT USUALLY SUBSCRIBE TO TRANS HCS EITHER THAT WHY IT ICKY TO MEAJLWKJL but thank you. i promise to only mention it once every five months

#snap chats #to put it bluntly i Do Not like acknowledge. That aspect of my life. if me never even saying terms outright is to go off of LMAO #i cry thinking about it- like right now LMAO I ALMOST DID I HATE IT i dont like using hate but... thats one of five things i hate for sure #My Issues Aside Tho ive already talked about 'my logistics' with trans masato but ill say them again cause its funny #1.) The Injection Scene like it's for his. Adrenaline or whatever but the first thing i said when i saw it was an injection joke #because literally how could i not LIKE LMAO THEY SERVED IT ON A PLATTER #and then there's the whole Change His Entire Identity After Running To A New Country #i always joke about wanting to do that so that's strike two buster #and then to top it off when he comes back he looks like every transman ever before the effects of T start taking effect #which is a hilariously ironic statement to make considering The Before And After but lol strike three bozo #AND THEN STRIKE FOUR WAS HIS WHOLE 'i changed my name and body' BIT LIKE DAWG YOURE ALREADY OUT #IK ITS IMMEDIATELY FOLLOWED UP 'FOR POWER' BUUUUT TOP TEN 'HE JUST LIKE ME FR' MOMENTS LMAOOO #there's also his voice- both in jp and eng- just having a sort of Texture(TM) to it #in jp it's sort of high and nasally while in eng there's a sort of gravel to it that's so 🏳️‍⚧️?????? to me. im sorry. #do you see. that's why it's so funny. its so painfully funny #the funniest jokes are the ones with Some Weird truth behind them by the most delusional bitches ever <- me #ANYWAYS. i promise not to mention it much If Ever only when something really funny happens to me that reminds me of it #and i dont have a sneaky way to allude to it in a comic or a fic #end of the month is always hell for me cause on the one side Yay Money but on the other hand its like I Have To Work For It FUCK #so i can only draw on the weekend #im having a month-long sale for december tho...... so if we never see me again thats why #EW I JUST REMEMBERED I HAVE TO DRAW FOR A SECRET SANTA THING TONIGHT NOOOOOO #and i wanted to finish up that fic... cause im literally three lines away from finishing it... #christ i need to learn to juggle better. for now im eating this onigiri that i was too busy to eat #anyway no one look at me im soryr for sharing my cringe </3 i prommy it wont happen so bluntly again

[smithsparker]

this sure is a skam season huh

#wtfock #so much is happening lmaooo #anaïs: no wtf of course im not smoking! also anaïs 2 minutes later - #honestly i feel bad for hanne she's just looking out for her friend #these last 3 clips were weird as fuck tho #why did anaïs not want to take the bus? am i just stupid and didnt catch it? #and like. sure i don't particularly love the stuff bobbie is doing but before all this she was just doing shit on her own #now she's actively bringing anaïs in danger by running a red light on a scooter paid for by anaïs her dad... this is Not gonna end well lmao #but we shall see that chaos unfold in the coming weeks for now i am going to bed <3 goodnight wtfock tag #sas.txt

[polaraffect]

love those moments in academia where you're like "oh. i'm so fucked."

#damien.txt #not only did i procrastinate writing this research essay i also procrastinated choosing a topic lmaooo #it's 3 p.m....... do we think it'll happen lol #to be fair! i've been sick for the past week. but uh. yeah i should've done some of it probably lol #it's really not a hard essay i just need to. choose something. which is..... hard #bc i have to like. research a historical object from a book we've read in the class so far? #and it has to be specifically from the victorian era. which is. harder than you might think #truly going to have to start digging through these texts #but i have noooo motivationnnnnnn #the day-of deadline anxiety really hasn't kicked in bc my neurodivergent brain has lapsed into #'this is SOO much work and impossible so we shouldn't even do it' mode. y'know? there's a word for it that i can't think of atm #but uhhh it's making my life difficult rn #playing totally fucked from spring awakening in the hopes that my brain triggers back into anxiety mode so i can do it

[pagesofkenna]

amazing and grateful that even tho the ofmd posts started showing up on my dashboard while i was still at work this morning and thereby unable to watch, the biggest reveals of the three episodes did not get spoiled for me and in fact the only reveal that did was the stupidest

#stupid in a positive way lmaooo like they went 'this is very much a big deal so we're gonna be a little ridiculous about it' and im so glad #ofmd #im being vague im referring to literally the last shot of the third episode #which i saw in various forms on my dash multiple times #but at least one or two was a memification? #or like a 'out of context this is what happened' and then i watched it and was like. no yeah thats literally what they did lmaoooo #very big emotions stuff happening! glad they could make us giggle about it

[arklay]

🖊🖊🖊🖊 for diana ofc

a fun little fact about diana is that she wears her watch with the face on the inside of her wrist

while working for umbrella (well, undercover for the rival company, that is), diana's employment was never common knowledge to the public – because why would a pharmaceutical company need a herpetologist? instead, she simply held a position as a researcher at raccoon university, and would occasionally do lectures, but for the most part she would just take the cable car underground to the nest

when diana collaborated with the connections through h.c.f. in the early 2000s, they named one of the d-type bioweapons after her

diana saw a lot of her younger self in sherry when they first met due to the similarities in their situations with their parents, and the way she behaved around both herself and albert. despite her dislike of children, she couldn't help but feel for her and even came to enjoy when she would stay over on occasion (i'd love if my brain would let me finish the rewrite of their first meeting because i touch on all of this in there and diana's thought process ough)

#asks. #denerims #oc: diana #thank youuu emily!! ilysm 💖💖 #i think for the diana asks some things are going to be like things i have probably mentioned before but just like a lil more in depth... #you know how i am. or like things i've deleted since posting them. it's fine. i'm normal about her!! but many lil tidbits in my brain i can #share about her too. just not sure if i have enough rn for the couple of asks i got with lots of pens lmaooo head empty and i've talked #about her SO much that there's not much that's not around here somewhere on my blog in previous ask games oopsies or on her page #also ngl i'm forever mad that in the 3 remake they made nest 2. because the university lab was where the vaccine research for the #t-virus was done when things went to shit and they named that daylight. and then for the creating weapons to combat the b.o.w.s and also #test the bioweapons against one another was done at the r&d centre... i'm fine i'm okay it's okay. capcom can i pleaseeee have an outbreak #remake!!! i miss her!!!! but yeah that's weird cause nest 2 didn't exist originally and the nest was a lot bigger?? it's fine. #anyways she just did her typical like Legal research with herpetology and virology there as a front but then she'd take the cable car #underground to the nest because my rules. if travel to the nest was available by cable cars from the waste facility / treatment plant / #arklay labs / rpd sewers & training facility then i can add another one beneath the university :) ALSO in outbreak they travelled to the #actual nest from the hospital and not nest 2 :) so yes. underground system for employees to access all facilities basically 💅🏼 #i originally had her work at the chemical plant as her front but then i went no that would make no sense for her background and like both #of the birkins were already there so it would just be too much going on there and needed to split them up #OH also. sorry omg i talk so much but you know me <3 the part about her working at the university. i literally had this mentioned in that #fic where she went over to the s.t.a.r.s. office and um things happened but i cut that off early cause i liked it ending where it did

[coffeeandcalligraphy]

one thing abt me is that I cannot brainstorm about my characters/wips for the life of me (brain is blank unless I’m drafting) and I’m thinking the reason is because I’m soooo used to lonan and harrison and their stories so they’re not as exciting to me as they once were when I WAS unable to stop thinking about them so what I’m saying is I’m going to spend the next few months mentally planning their wedding <3

#LISTENN #I REALIZED YESTERDAY THAT #(at least in seventh virtue they are so hopeless in every other project) #they are SOOOO READY TO SETTLE DOWN #the way LONAN is PREPARED LIKE RN #reeve and darren are supposed to get married in SV (but like it won’t happen for a while for reeve reasons) #& like idk why I am thinking so much about marriage I am not going to get married LMFAO #in reality I don’t think they’re going to do anything fancy but WHY did I not think of this SOONER #(probably because in every other project they like hate each other but IN SV THEYRE IN LOVE OKAY????) #I was thinking about how lovely that is actually 😭 them in a relationship because they mutually like each other & not because #they’re codependent :) lmaooo #I have a very Lonan and harrison idea for how this topic will be brought up #near death experience ???? #assassin husbands fr

[theyneverblindmedarling]

Okay I know I’m very behind but do we know around when Him was written plz and ty

#Like are we talking pre 2016 or like 2016 bc I need to know for science #haylor #like Its giving woman but at the same time she only released TIWYCF and IDWLF between 1989 and rep #So like if we are trying to nail it down to a lyric its gotta be presumably either calciums song or a *** song right? #which if its *** thats MUCH more devastating imo bc like that means something happened before/early on in that that made them being public #hurt sooo much worse bc the emotions are def fresh whenever it was recorded like you can hear it #and if its calcium then its like what we know p much with woman and ole/them sneaking around and calciums jealousy #but in that case idk what song he would be talking about bc she didnt write about him and the songs were released before that so did she #say something like I know shes tried to reclaim songs and change who they are about before but idk man #cant really say like wildest dreams or smth is about calcium if he wasnt in the picture when it was written lmaooo

[deadveiled]

( i think it's okay to hate me, actually )

#tw: negative #( kind of insane how two fucking comments made 3-5 days ago that aren't even backed up can fuck up my mind ) #( i've been trying to ignore it but??? when i went out today i felt prying eyes. probably nothing but ) #( knowing that there is a person out there who WILLINGLY seeks out places to contact me anonymously ) #( and to accuse me of something i basically never fucking did ) #( and tell me i said stuff that i didn't say ) #( involved myself in discourse that i didn't involve myself in ) #( tbf if my memory serves there was something mentioned in passing ) #( smth about good faith queer identities or smth ) #( but idk. my sense of anxiety of being out in public??? ptsd who??? /s ) #( it's amazing how accusations of something you never did can feel so. real ) #( anons might just stay off permanently ) #( or at least until i'm in a better state of mind ) #( if someone seeks me out after not getting a response after a day or two. and willingly so ) #( all while hiding their face and telling me to off myself ) #( i doubt it won't happen again even after a span of several days ) #( like i've literally been like 'what if they had a friend who they planned this with' lmaooo ) #( someone who isn't as much of a pussy ) #( and would willingly contact me NOT anonymously no matter what ) #( even though that doesn't make sense cuz they probably would've done it by now if that were the case? ) #( i'm such a paranoid motherfucker y'all ) #( idk just. ignore this. i'm just venting. ugh. ) #noah rambles. >>> 𝐎𝐔𝐓 𝐎𝐅 𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐄𝐑

[wishingprince]

This convention has been absolutely bonkers in bad ways but also in a LOT of good ones, very excited for tonight though and that I took off work tomorrow because I am completely beat and I need rest. Six days until my tattoo!

#prince text #my face 2024 #I did not take a pic of my super fairy kei outfit yesterday #we were so busy booking it though dealer’s hall #we forgot to eat until fucking 4:30 pm #so by that time it was time for some Actual Dinner. #anyways I bought way too much but I also saved specifically to go apeshit here #bc I never prepared appropriately for cons in the past #but I wanted to go in ready to spend here and it was so so wor th it #so many unique and adorable stuffed animals #pins dragons and constellations #there were more people doing plus sizes this time!!!!!! #I was so happy I got a beautiful mad burnish promare crewneck that is #like ACTUALLY oversized on me #and a beautiful pastel dragon cardigan #goddd the dragons were out in FULL FORCE THIS YEAR #anyways yea idk #it was fun and im really glad despite all the bullshit that happened too #still here today #but will be going home in a few hours #ready for my bed #excited to introduce my stuffed animals to one another #it’s important ok :( #anyways I had a cute fit yesterday but got no pics #and I was supposed to wear another cute fit today #but after all that was yesterday and the anime rave LMAOOO #im pretty burnt today #so not as cute fashion pics as anticipated

[angelicstalker]

Lmaooo

#drama happened at work and now oriana and anisa are angry with me bc they have to dispense while i pick #and im like ???? #but it was okay the three wekks that i had to dispense and watch them do nothing ???? #WHILE i had my period stsrt every time i had stress ???? #LMAOOO #everyone back there is like 'why do we have to do this in the rain and greg gets off free' #maybe bc um idk it literally gives me so much anxiety that my fucking body says hey heres some blood and also #i WAS DOING IT IN THE SNOW BITCH #god im so fed up #AND THEN AS IM WRITING THIS BRIE COMES UP TO ME #AND SAYS DID U READ MY MESSAGES I SENT LAST NIGHT #I SAY NO #AND SHE SAYS WELL U SHOULD BC I GAVE YOU THE BRUTAL TRUTH #AND I WAS LIKE UH UH #no #and i went off on her #bc she was blaming me for leading him kn #i said NOPE #IM THE ONE WHO KEEPS TELLING THEM I DONT LIKE HIM #AND THEY ARE GIVING HIM HOPE #IM NOT DOING SHIT #ONLY THING I SAID TO THEM THAT ENCOURAGED ANYTHING WAS CALLING HIM CUTE #AND I HUGHED HIM ONCE #AND I GOT HIM VALENTINES STUFF BECAUSE HE BOUGHT ME SHIT FORST AND I DIDNT WANT TO SEEM LIKE AN ASSHOLE #Im just #ugh #i probably lost literally all my friends today :) #its okay #ill be okay #mine