#theres only so many in my area

[toerrishumansodontbeone]

gee it sure would be nice to have a cat.................. .....

#im just #so fucking frustrated #the local animal shelter fucking hates me for being a poorly speaking immigrant so im basically forever barred from showing my face there:) #and DO YOU KNOW how fucking rare it is to find a cat I dont have to travel like 3+ hours just to meet #thats a whole fucking day n I dont have a whole lot of days that are 100% free #and OF COURSE im too late on all the fancy cats #theyre just now already selling off their last batches of kittens Y_Y #theres only so many in my area #mad bcus the one cat that was actually up for grabs in my city I didnt immediately inquire abt #n now the lady ofc isnt answering me so I fear he has probably been claimed too #I dont like juggling so many things all at once ughhhhh im so tired #vermin chat

[definitelynotnia]

normalise saying "I don't have enough information on this topic to have an opinion on it"

and then staying out of it completely rather than going along with wtv opinion u imprinted from three random posts/reels/tweets and having weird misinformed debates with full confidence

#like bro it's ok to not have an opinion on something if you don't know just say i don't know and move on #there's too many fucked up things going on in the world it's perfectly natural to not have proper information on a topic of debate #just remove yourself from said debate theres no needto go marching in with limited information and spreading even more misinformation #i see so many people around my age posting random political stuff be it religious or about lgbtq or women even and they haven't read #a single article about any of these topics ever #their only source is sketchy social media posts or “dark jokes” about a certain community making them think it's cool to shit on them #or random “sigma” edits of things and suddenly the most random stuff becomes everyone's favourite mainstream political affiliation #like have you read a single policy pertaining to this government or do you have a single reason for violently hating a certain community #i understand that some people are genuinely interested in these topics and that is absolutely wonderful it's great that young people have #opinions and commentary on world issues but only when this stems from an area of genuine interest and when at least some effort to be #factual is made not when it's only done because everyone else is doing it and they have some weird sort of fomo at work or they just think #it's funny or wtv without understanding the implications of their words and actions #no one is forcing you to involve yourself in every social issue but the moment you choose to make commentary on a social issue you must take #the responsibility of educating yourself as best you can before you open your mouth

[junotter]

sometimes researching for avatar redesigns has you 6 layers deep into the Japan's Meiji era allies wiki

#im trying to mess with some of the stuff that feels weird about the ways the fire nation is depicted idk #like i do not feel optically it is good for like them to be so heavily based on japan's imperialist actions #while dressed in clothes that come from places japan colonized #but i dont want it to just be solely japanese though i did draw zuko and azula in hakama but its largely cause i wanted to draw hakama #and like the only place with strong japanese influence being kiyoshi island and my own frustration with the modern day samurai depiction #i think fundamentally it isnt a choice that had as much thought as i am putting in put into it but it does raise an eyebrow for me #anyway i think keeping the thai influence is fine despite the brief invasion japan had into thailand due to thailand then allying with japa #and further allying with the axis due to allying with japan #ugh and ive been told not to think this much about it because its fiction but its also fiction so so so heavily based on real places #and when you base fiction on real cultures you fall into some unintentional pitfalls #i also fucking hate the royal fire nation robes they look so meh and the most costumey out of everything in the show #they look like heavy blankets despite being a supposedly hot nation #theres ways to have heavy robes (heian era japan) but they look like i make them out of fleece and velvet blankets #back to kiyoshi island i think the really only aesthetically japanese reference in the show being an island of noble warriors is lame #plus over done #it feels like nowadays theres a lot of people who get all whiney about people saying fire nation is based off japan #but like dude the creators in the comics and korra like go even more into the japanese influence and clearly it was the original intentions #also i do think you could do some pretty interesting world building by having say there be an older cultural influence on kiyoshi island #from the fire nation especially if the place is established as a central port area then you tie in some okinawan or even hawaiian reference #and gives an explanation that makes sense to why kiyoshi stands out from the rest of the earth kingdom you have long term cultural trading #and it establishes interesting relationships even pre kiyoshi time thereby drawing back onto some real historic references #cause for awhile ryukyu china and japan used to be this trading triangle which could explain some of these various influences going on #i think you can get a really interesting harmony when you create the fire nation out of a mix of japan and thailand #i mean both have these floating buildings due to living on some pretty wet lands and theres harmony in that mix #god i did see one person go like “fire nation is more based on china because theres a lot of red and red is important in china” #my brother in christ red is also important in japan #red is important in like many many asian cultures #i mean of course a lot of that importance stems from china and cultural exchange with china but idk kinda silly to say with your whole ches #like if you want to bring china in then the dragons are the biggest thing like sure some mythos has dragons in japan #but a lot of those comes from china in some way

[bunnyb34r]

Boy oh boy my car is gonna be a shitload of money (: yay

#my mom's cousin was like oh well you shouldve have (her husband) do it! hed only charge you parts! #like no if i had him do it he would only do my oil which is what i went to the mechanic for and theres a reason my mechanic has so many #auto awards and shit from various places like you go in for an oil change and they check EVERYTHING to make sure you're not gonna #get fucked by your car breaking down and suddenly something they could've caught early is now $5000 bc many moving parts are broke now #and if he did catch it then i wouldnt feel comfortable having your husband do it bc thats a lot to ask someone to do #so i need new brakes bc of course i do 🙄 #it's never JUST an oil change here though but again id rather them catch something than get a check engine light come on when im in like #pa or something yknow?? #and when i got my car we took it to him and all i needed was a new cabin filter bc they sold me it WITH A DEAD MOUSE IN THE CABIN FILTER #AREA which is why i couldnt drive with the ac on for a month 😭 he was like car looks great but mickey died in the cabin filter so uh 😬 #marquilla

[toastsnaffler]

I will say while I've loved most of elden ring I'm really glad I'm down to just 2 more main boss fights (malenia + maliketh) before I start the endgame boss fights... whew 😮‍💨

#really gorgeous world but frankly its unnecessarily long. theyre gonna kill me for saying that but its true.. #some areas/bosses just become overly repetitive when the game is THAT massive like its unavoidable #they tried rly hard to distinguish every area + honestly its a great effort but it couldve been half the size and just as good #like i just did the elphael ulcerative tree spirit bc i wanted to finish millicents questline. and come on man we didnt need another one #the design is sick + loooove the animation. but its a bad fight not bc of the difficulty but bc its janky as hell #lock on doesnt work properly bc of its size and the way it moves. u cant see shit on ur screen fighting them melee its just hack n slash #and theyre always in the most dogshit arenas possible for them like spaces w no maneuverability. its just not fuuuun #especially after youve fought 5 or 6 already earlier on in the game.. #and its cool to have variations like the scarlet rot ones but we already HAD one of those just before lake of rot!! the gimmicks worn off #i did everything except maliketh in farum azula today as well and again. it didnt need to be that long. killing beastmen gets boring #after like the first 20 combat is just mashing buttons.. even the platforming is getting dull bc ive done 120 hours of it now #and theres only so many combinations of ladders and hallways and so on that u can possibly cram in here.. #i say all this with fondness like i truly do love it. but it couldve been a lot tighter! regardless ill still 100% complete it #and i get most ppl dont try to get every single armament and talisman etc so they probably dont waste time FULLY exploring like i am #ahhh. anyway ill probably do malenia and maliketh tmr bc im right outside both of their arenas. and then call it quits this weekend #ill get my first ending next weekend probably... and hopefully by june ill have 100% and then i can play something else 😭 #ik the dlc comes out in june but ill probably take a month or two break before i get to that #it doesnt even neeeed a dlc.......its excessive as it is just make a new game by this point ahhhhh #anyway its like 1am i need to SLEEP. i said i would go out to watch for northern lights but its overcast and im tired and my roommate #didnt wanna come with.. so i was gonna go to bed early instead but i guess that didnt happen lol #gonna feel like shit tomorrow bc i have to be up early to take my meds and she'll wake me up anyway.. but cross that bridge #typing is getting difficult bc im so sleepy okay goodnight everyone #.diaries

[dandyshucks]

need Guz to hug me tightly for like an hour solid oh my god dhdjdkl I went driving for the first time in over a year and I chewed my lip raw 😭😭

I'm starting to look like a caricature of Anxiety with all these physical symptoms and signs LMAO

#this is so ridiculous fhfjdkdl #i do not like driving fjdkdl i know i should not be on the roads #but unfortunately i have to bc i live rural and also my parents insist i ''just need more practice'' #practice is not going to fix the dissociation 😭😭 practice will not fix the Other Drivers being shitty and scary and reckless fjfkdl #it might make it slightly easier bc i wont have to think as hard about shoulder and mirror checks and roadsigns and speed limits #and where i am located on the road and intersection rules and whatnot #but like... it does not fix that i live in a town (and world lol) where ppl are fucking bonkers on the road #i had someone riding my ass for like a full five minutes. we had only two feet btwn us. MAYBE. IF THAT MUCH. #he was BIG mad that i was going the speed limit #and THERES A POLICE STATION LIKE RIGHT NEAR THAT AREA MY GUY IM NOT GONNA GO OVER THE SPEED LIMIT RIGHT THERE LMAO ???? #also im a rule follower usually so i do tend to go Exactly the speed limit fjfkdl #and maaannn that makes people SO fucking angry dhfjdl its impossible to drive Anywhere without having someone right on ur bumper #its so ridiculous like... that's not helping anyone ??? ur not getting to ur destination faster by riding up on somebodys ass ???? hewwo ??? #ANYWAYS. i drove around the neighborhood and then went up the highway and thru some intersections and then into the main core of town #and then i got my dad to take over from there bc it was lunch hour and the core of town is a lawless land at the best of times #MY NERVES ARE FRIED. i need Guz to act as a weighted blanket or one of those pressure therapy vests for me LOL #im like... shaking fhdjsl that was far more than i thought we were going to do for driving today good lord #IM OKAY THOUGH I SURVIVED I DIDNT EVEN HIT A CURB OR ANYTHING #i think I've only hit a curb once so far in all my times driving and that was on my second time driving on a road i think #so pretty good track record... im a very careful driver fjdkdl i work so hard to be safe and drive smoothly #during my driving test the only thing the test guy had to critique was that i waited at an intersection when i could've gone #but the reason i waited was bc i wasnt sure i could make it across the traffic lane before the oncoming vehicle got to us #so it was like. a safe decision overall but a little too hesitant which can actually be unsafe fjdkdl #AUGH ANYWAYS SORRY FOR RAMBLING SM #driving stresses me out so bad and my lip is all raw now and i have so many physical stress symptoms the past few days fhfjdl #after tonight i should be able to calm down a bit hopefully fhfkdl theres a thing we're going to tonight thats been stressing me out so bad #but after tonight it'll be over and hopefully I can get myself settled down again fjfjdkl #dandy.cmd #vent //

[aashiqui-aashiqui]

so i deleted insta for a while and downloaded it again recently and why has it gotten exponentially worse somehow. wtf is the meta ai thing always there. whys just everything….bad?

#i am tiredddd but i also know a major reason i hate it is because theres too many people on there #and its so much more superficial like on here im complaining or oversharing no problem but on there i have 0 posts and talk to 5 people 😭 #its always been bad but like now its getting bad to the point where im probably only going to use it to check in on the people in my area #my rambles

[anotherpapercut]

wild how much of the time "there isn't anything to do where I live" is code for "I refuse to seek out local artists and events"

#if you live completely in the middle of nowhere obviously like. its different #but ive also lived pretty much completely in the middle of nowhere and theres still usually house shows that are findable #if you have at least 1 friend with a car #anyway people say this abt my midsize Midwestern city all the time and its so annoying bc there literally are so many local shows #we have like 2.5 gay clubs and a couple bars that do concerts. plus tons of people who do house shows #there are random art galleries in local businesses as well as a monthly art showcase #you just would only know about it if you actually looked for it. like if there are bars there are likely shows #if there are abandoned buildings there are likely raves #people do drugs literally everywhere #also the library does tooooons of stuff. even in all the rural areas ive lived in #if this post doesnt apply to you then it doesnt apply to you and theres no need to take it personally btw. just in case anyones concerned

[yo9urt]

started playing ball dur's gait 3

#mine #6.5h in (i may have stayed up past my bedtime) and i am beyond impressed #not only do i get the wish fulfillment of making myself a sick ass wizard who hangs out with cool fantasy people #and does cool fantasy stuff including hitting people with magic (my dream) #but like the whole world feels like REAL also it feels FUCKING HUGE OMG THERES SO MANY AREAS #I HAVE NO IDEA HOW TO GET TO AND THERES LIKE LITTLE HIDDEN ITEMS EVERYWHERE #AND LIKE SHIT GOING ON ALL THE TIME LIKE WTF THIS PLACE IS HUGE!!!!!!!!!!! #i kind of like how directionless it is like obviously theres the main story and stuff but you can really dick around #and you can kind of set your own pace and do things your way which is very enjoyable #even for me as someone who is kind of stupid and needs to be told what to do in video games #i think that aspect of it and the combat system being kind of complicated (but in a fun and challenging way imo) #is hopefully going to make me not suck at video games so hard LMAO #i did die last night i got my ass beat in the overgrown ruins chapel area on the beach...embarrassing #so i had to reset my save to immediately post-crash which was a valuable lesson #anyway i really like how it feels like every dialogue and action choice has so much gravity to it #before i click anything im always like will this make someone mad at me... #will this make someone like me...will this cause something in my vicinity to explode...etc. it's kind of heavy but in a fun way #idk i'm super charmed by it lol i'm going to play like all day maybe #my tav is a high half elf wizard (transmutation school) if anyone was wondering :3 #hes a bit of a self insert lol he looks like a hotter fantasy wizard version of me #but hes also kind of a discrete guy (i say this because hes been doing more killing than i would want to) #(like when i went to the church and had to kill those guys i didnt wanna do it but i had to :( wah) #anyway.....fun game. all should play #o astarion kinda hates me too lol i need more points with him im just too nice #shart likes me and wyll likes me too i think (idk how to check approval on the steam deck lol) #i havent found the other companions i seriously have no fucking clue where they are #one of the goals for today is to go sniff them out lmao

[amatres]

anyway my personal ranks of origins backstories just in the game by themselves is brosca and tabris at the top, aeducan at the bottom. cousland i will admit is pretty impactful but i still feel like, as wild as an option it would have been, that a cousland warden should had the option to solo rule. they are from the only other teryn in ferelden and it's even said that it was considered for bryce to rule so like! come on!

aeducan is at the bottom because it so tightly locks you into siding against bhelen, which i suppose is fair for brosca being so skewed in behlens favor bc of rica, but brosca is just Good so i forgive that, while aeducan is just suffering.

i still stand by my idea that the 'noble' dwarven origin shouldn't have been the second aeducan child, they should have been the second aeducan's second in place of gorim. that way there would have been more room for roleplay. also the second aeducan child would have been a secret third option for ruler of orzammar that you would encounter with the legion of the dead that they joined after being kicked out.

you would have to both do the legion of dead quest to give them a noble caste, and also have high as hell coercion for it to work but it would really cool and also so funny to do. that said the origin just by itself is pretty fun, love being backstabbed by my second favorite baby brother from the dragon age franchise

mahariel and the magi warden are in the 'i like them but they don't feel as impactful' as much as it hurts me. they're both just kinda there, however that said if the game let you recruit jowan into your party that would bring the magi warden up much higher. alas.

#ama mumbles #dragon age origins #dragon age #sorry for putting this in the main tags yall can ignore me this is for the followers who want to block the tags lol #magi warden is brought up higher on an 'entire franchise' scale bc they feel relevant while the others... don't #but in just origins i will heartbreakingly admit they can feel a bit disconnected and underwhelming despite all the ties they have. #to the broken circle and to jowan bc of how smaller scope the choices you get in those two areas are #you get two choices with broken circle more or less and you either run jowan off or get him killed. sad. #which is fitting considering the fact they were forcibly disconnected from the world as a child by the chantry. anyway. #what if broken circle just let me kill the templars. what then. #if you could recruit jowan then they'd be tied to a companion and would probably get special dialogue with him #also then id get to drag my miserable adopted brother with me to the ass end of thedas. i was robbed when they scrapped that idea. robbed!! #to be fair magi feels less 'disconnected' in world and more just in a player sense #bc so much of the drama in it is entrenched in the lore of the world and when you don't know That then it feels. odd. #its a origin i feel many new players would have the hardest time emotionally getting into #mahariel however feels Very disconnected from everything. tamlen showing up as a ghoul i feel was added to remedy that a bit #bc otherwise theres really only nature of the beast and later on velanna but it's not even their tribe or someone they knew. so. 🤷‍♀️ #these are just personal thoughts tho #also why is tabris and brosca at the top? bc they go hard and i love underdog stories. #brosca also helps make paragon of her kind like. actually land. i never know what to roleplay otherwise bc Why Would I Care #tabris is just good baby #when will the city elf player background return to me #aeducan would probably be more bearable if they hadn't made harrowmount like That as king. or at least. foreshadowed it better #beyond just ambient npc dialogue bc at that point in game most pl are just running past #made paragon of her kind feel more well rounded. its very hard to get invested roleplay wise when youre not a dwarf pc #but that might just be my own failings i suppose #lots of tags #sorry i rambled again

[chartreusebird]

My hobby is exaggerated pointing at the yield to pedestrians signs as cars blow past

#theres a crosswalk i use almost every time i walk my dog that is so satisfying when the cars stop #i am always careful but yeah pointing and waving my arms and shrugging like a sky dancer in the name of walkability for all #my justification is they will be more likely to notice its there next time bc genuinely they are being huge asshole by not stopping at a #cleeeeeaaarrrrllllyyyy marked crosswalk #and i just fucking love doing it it brings me joy to do a lil interpretive dance of fuck these entitled motorists #and before you say it yes i always yield when im driving i be slowing down when nyone even looks in the direction of a crosswalk #again to ppiunt out to the motorists in ny lane that this is a spot they should paying attention to #its a college area so there are so fucking many new drivers and then also people coming in who dont know the area on game days #and also tooonnnnssss of pedestrians which is the only reason i can stand it

[garaviel]

Soooooo if all things end up well in terms of time management with a full time job i am gonna try to get an interior design degree

#theres phlebotomy and cosmetology ones as well im kinda interested in but #most nurses really are mean girls ™️ and so are 99% of hair stylists i have met if im being honest #might just be the area i live in but theyre insufferable most of the time #so unless i could work at a salon with a great selection of queer or alternative folks present id hate it #and lets be honest lots of us do our own hair why would we have high demand for a Weirdo Salon #and yeah id consider phlebotomy just out of practicality and not a desire to work in the medical field #but interior design? if its not designing storefronts or Beige Nightmares id love that shit #oh there was funeral director too but. i can only stomach so many christians in my day to day i dont think i could handle it

[comradecowplant]

A youtuber has made a video about a place very close to my hometown and I tell u what so far he is not being very factual and the latent small town instinct to rip disrespectful outsiders apart in defense of Our Town has activated >:(

#theres an old airbase with abandoned housing units #BUT THE TOWNSHIP OF FINLAND IS VERY MUCH NOT ABANDONED which isnt as good oOoOo sPoOky content for your dumb channel but its actually hones #and also the people who live there are very much cranky about strangers fucking about (almost like they're used to annoying kids bothering #them while urban exploring. which is so fucking valid) #even i didnt go fuck around up there out of respect (and fear lol) of the folks up there who are just making the most of a $ depressed area #anyway im only 2 minutes into the video and this is what im already annoyed at #he's going ohmyGoDdD cRaZy i BeT its HAUNTED over the most milquetoast decay like its his first time exploring #the military activity poisoned the primary well and thats why people left seemingly overnight. it was just before the crash of 08 #so the people who were invested in turning parts of the old base housing into low income housing pulled out #WHICH YOU WOULD KNOW IF YOU DID ANY RESEARCH BEFORW GOING TO A PLACE MR OOO AND AHH #it's the fake sensationalism that gets my gears so ground #its very poor and many folks struggled with addiction and when they had to leave a bunch of stuff behind it wasnt for fun #oh ive got whopper of a comment in composition for when through this 40 minute peice of rudeness #as an urban exploring enthusiast myself im not bemoaning that part. it's the Contentification and Chills voice commentary that has me riled

[orcelito]

Feeling some buyers remorse for buying 2 shelves yesterday online. But it's getting eclipsed by the excitement of thinking about where I'm gonna put them and rearranging my apartment a little bit

Is this what it's like to be an adult? Lol

#speculation nation #work sucked today but in brighter moments ive just been buzzing in excitement about furniture #i bought some storage shelves and then a bookshelf #im gonna put the storage shelves at the far side of my living room & put as many of my boxes as i can fit on it #removing Box Island from the center of my living room lol #i wanna also sort thru the boxes to figure out what things would be considered permanent storage (archival things) #which would be priority placed on the storage shelves #and then figure out what boxes i would potentially want to unpack in the coming months. to keep in easier to access locations. #yes ive been living here for 2+ years and yes ive only got like half my shit unpacked. such is life. #for my new bookshelf i wanna do a little more rearranging #the cats' fancy litter box is in the little hallway leading into the bathroom #placed there bc it was the easiest to access outlet for the self cleaning litter box #but it's chunky and gets in the way and with the non clumping litter those things are like fucking legos on the floor #crunch crunch crunch under my slippers. id like the litter box more out of the way. #so im gonna put it in the cat area of the living room. rearranging some stuff over there to make it fit. #and then where it is rn in the hallway. im gonna put my new bookshelf. #i dont know what books im gonna put on it yet. probably my less personal books. probably no manga. #im supposed to get a bookshelf from my dad sometime that's bigger than both my current and my new bookshelf #and im gonna put it in my room. clear the space behind my TV. and Theres where i wanna put out all my manga thats been in storage #idk. shelves!!! potential!!!! its all so exciting. #nothing like new furniture to make me feel like im gonna try to get my life back in order. #and Honestly having the living room suddenly so much cleaner has been... nice. #im gonna work on cleaning my room soon. it is Long overdue.

[astarionspocketpussy]

Thought too hard about how I name Tieflings and started considering the role of "common" in DND and how different real life languages might fit in that framework. Needless to say now I want to write an essay but alas. Its midnight.

#conventionally ive always considered common to be equivalant to english #but that really only works in the anglosphere #because like. even amongst humans living in one area languages differ #let alone different countries and continents #so common must change depending on where you are #but theres no real way to differentiate that beyond roleplay #anyway all this to say- #my tiefling naming scheme is singular nouns or adjectives #typically representing abstract conceots or bearing significant meaning #parents name their offspring in an attempt to instill qualities into them #hence: Dynasty #his mother named him in an attempt to ensure he brought the family #honor for many centuries to come #hence doomed by the narrative he was lmao #i definitely stole this from somewhere but i forgor where #its been 6 years #baldur's gate 3 ocs #DND rambling #dnd

[foxstens]

SLIME RNACHER 2 IS THE BEST GAME EVER

#my posts #gameblogging #liveblogging slime rancher 2 #i said i wasn't feeling it so maybe id wait until the full release #but i cant put it now #its weird bc its a bit draggy #since im still early game and i have to do everything on the ranch manually #despite knowing how smooth it can be when you have drones n shit #and it does keep a lot of the things from the first game #and the music hasnt blown me away yet #but theres so much to explore #theres so many new things #and ive only discovered two areas but theres so much #its so big #and it looks so good #it looks so so so sososososo good #like thefirst game looked amazing as well #but theyve definitely learned a lot as far as the graphics #and my favourite thing is that the npcs from the first game show up #AND THE CHARACTER WRITING IS STILL JUST AS GOOD #shgudjgufddhg #i love this game :')