#to get that invalid deleted?

[grimmywrites]

DO NOT POST MY WORK TO GOODREADS OR ANYWHERE ELSE

I’m fuming. I do not care how much anyone likes my work and I cannot believe I have to say this: DO NOT STEAL MY WORK AND POST IT ELSEWHERE! Luckily, Goodreads took my stories down after I proved they were mine, but only three of the works! The fourth they put as “invalid” and I’ll post the response I got:

“Thanks for your email. Unfortunately, we have a strict policy against deleting books from the database. Goodreads is striving to be a complete database of all published works, including works that are out-of-print. We like our members to be able to add the exact edition of their books to their virtual shelves. However, a one time exception was granted and your three books were set as deleted and one as invalid (the system did not allow me the record, because it was the last in the catalogue).” Under the ‘invalid’ link, they state that they DO list long, finished fanfiction as books. However, this should be only when you are the actual author. I do NOT post my work anywhere but here, ao3, and there are some remnants on deviantart. I certainly have never posted it to goodreads.

If you see my work elsewhere, please contact me so I can report it. (And maybe you could report it too, after you’ve notified me, if you feel so inclined.) Ultimately, I find it distasteful to even refer to fanfiction, especially my own, as books. I said as much in my response:

My response: “Thanks for the deletion but I have a problem with your phrasing. These pieces are not *books*, they're fanfiction. They were not published, they were *posted* to a free website for fanfic writers. Books are created primarily for profit and with original characters. You cannot write a book about someone else's characters, that is plagiarism. Saying that fanfiction is a book or even implying that there was any sort of monetary gain around it could result in legal trouble for me (and I would assume for you). I suggest you take that under advisement because if I see my work there again I will continue messaging you until it is all removed. That's my work, I decide where it goes, not you and not random people on the internet stealing it to post to your site.” I’m livid, and I know a lot of people are. Between this, AI being allowed to write stories for people to be posted on ao3, allowing AI to trawl our work, and the overall lack of engagement in fan spaces, I’m inching closer and closer to deleting everything I ever posted.

#goodreads #fanfiction #fanfic #fanfiction problems #fanfic problems #writer problems #fanfic writers #fanfiction writers #am I the only one? #I feel like I'm going crazy #I can't believe how many times I have to go through things like this #I've had at least 4 people plagiarize my stories on ao3 #and now I have people stealing it and posting it elsewhere for their own selfishness #is there nothing I can do to protect myself from this? #to get that invalid deleted?

[transgendermilesprower]

i keep thinking about how they use sonic advance 3 in particular in the one flashback in sonic prime, it's because that's where 'unbreakable bond' originates from!

Sonic and Tails' unbreakable bond is so important to sonic (the character and the series)

#sonic prime spoilers #unbreakable bond #sonic the hedgehog #miles tails prower #sonic prime #warning: i am about to ramble and the topic changes like 4 times and i am now too lazy to delete it all and make it into it's own post #i love sonic prime so so so much and i love how much it focus on sonic and tails' brotherhood #tails doesnt get much focus in the entire sonic series surprisingly #for being the literal 'luigi' of the series (little brother/player 2 to the main character) #and lots (not all) people often sideline or minimize the importance of their friendship #either for shipping reasons (invalid reason imo) or because they don't really care for tails (also invalid reason imo) #i love how much love to tails and amy prime gives. because despite how important to the series they are they get sidelined quite a bit #tbh the sidelining is worse for amy if you include fanworks too #amy is like the poster child of the main female character who gets hated on for 'getting in the way' of a fandom gay ship #and the effects of that are still felt now #people STILL act like that now and it makes me so sad!!! #i love amy so much. shes such a sweetheart. she just sometimes acts like the 12 year old girl she is and fandoms hate that #but yeah this is another reason why sonic tumblr is the best side of the fandom because i haven't seen people act like that- #- about amy here for a good 7 or so years

[lord-squiggletits]

Idk if my previous posts were unclear but I don't remotely hate any Optimus version that isn't IDW or think they suck. Every Optimus is good and there's a fan (or multiple fans!) of every version of OP no matter how obscure or underrated (as well as all the other characters).

What's more questionable (or at least annoying) is when fandom ignores canon character personalities in favor of writing specific archetypes that are either out of character or repetitive/stereotyped to the point of annoyance. As an example of this, it would be a female character being called the Team Mom just because she's a woman existing in a group of (primarily male) characters even if she's not remotely motherly or nurturing. Or, as a more topical example, how often I've seen Transformers ships where even though both characters are canonically masculine (or gender neutral), fanartists love to turn one of the characters small and weak (or even outright feminine) to turn the ship into Strong Dominant Seme and Sweet Cute Uke to fit a specific kink or romantic fantasy, even if it's a disservice/OOC to portray those characters like that.

In other words, a fandom's popularity of certain characters, ships, headcanons, etc is often more informed by tropes and forcing canon to adhere to one's personal tastes, as opposed to approaching canon and trying to understand it on its own terms. I'm not talking about the quality of the source material, but rather the way that the fandom interprets the source materials in ways that don't make any sense, approach it in bad faith, or just generally don't care about canon at all. So I'm not saying one OP is better than another, my problem is when fandom consistently focuses on certain stereotypes or flanderizations of a character, and then any character that doesn't fit the popular (often stereotyped) mold is ignored or virulently rejected. In other words, I think popular fandom often does a DISSERVICE to characters whether they love them or hate them, it just takes different forms.

So, just as an example, I think one fandom caricature of Optimus that I see a lot (and heavily dislike) is making Optimus some sort of shrinking wallflower type who's innocent, sweet, and virginal, in contrast to an opposite caricature of Megatron that's big, strong, dominant, and rugged, and making ship art that forces the characters into some kind of seme/uke or borderline heteronormative romance. Despite the fact that canon Optimus (in, say, TFP for example) is tall, broadly built, deep voiced, dignified, assertive, and strong (physically and morally), completely incorrect interpretations of him as a shy feminized uke type are still pretty common to find. And it makes you ask yourself why it is so many people make MOP ship art of them of The Small One and The Large One or The Small, Cute One and The Big, Violent One when it's completely different from canon. It feels as if such fanart is made by people who just want to see seme/uke style slash ships, and if canon doesn't give them what they want, they'll simply trash it and replace it with their own version, even if it's completely OOC.

So when I said in my other post that people don't like IDW Optimus because he can't be fit into caricatures like happy dad or shy twink, I'm not saying it to say "other OPs who resemble that suck," I'm saying it to express "Fandom tends to simplify characters into easily palatable and comfortable tropes, and when they encounter a character they can't do that with, they respond by ignoring or even hating on that character."

Other versions of Optimus have the problem where fandom turns them into a stereotype instead of the actual character they are, e.g. portraying TFA OP as some poor abused damsel with no self confidence and crippling anxiety being abused by his superiors, and then they talk more about this fake uwu smoll bean cinnamon roll version of TFA OP than they do about actual canon TFA OP. And honestly I can't think of any prominent content/meta about G1 OP that isn't just "he plays basketball and does funny one liners and is Team Dad/Grandpa." (Hell, you even get that with non-Optimus characters that get simplified to just sexy twink, old grandpa, comedy relief, evil ex, Diversity Win-- She's A Lesbian, third wheel to the favored ship, etc even though there's way more depth to them than just their surface level stereotype.)

IDW OP's problem is that he can't be stereotyped like that so instead the fandom ignores him. He's not small, so they can't stereotype him as a skinny twink getting topped by a burly uke. He's not jovial or happy go lucky or extroverted, so they can't stereotype him as Team Dad or Comedy Relief. He's assertive, blunt, and has a temper, so they can't stereotype him as a shy wallflower in need of protecting. He makes catastrophic mistakes and is responsible for bad things happening, so they can't stereotype him into a sweet cinnamon roll who has never done anything wrong in his whole life or The Infinitely Wise and Kind Paragon. There's no Big Bad Authority Figure who was mean to IDW OP and traumatized him, so they can't excuse the bad things he did as "he's traumatized so he couldn't help it" and wave away his flaws as "it's his abuser's fault, they made him this way." IDW OP has the kind of depression where he's grumpy, shut off, and angry-- as opposed to the shy, sad kind of depression that just stares forlornly out of the window in a beautifully tragic way-- so they can't make him into a sad woobie kicked around unfairly by life.

Or I guess they just stereotype IDW OP as "evil bastard with no redeeming qualities that's mean to everyone for no reason, plus the writers forced everyone to like him just because he's Optimus Prime" even though that isn't accurate either.

Put bluntly, IDW OP forces fandom to contend with the idea that someone can be a good person with good intentions but still fuck up on a massive scale and maybe end up hurting more than they helped. IDW OP is messy, ugly, flawed, mean, stoic, closed off. When IDW OP has mental breakdowns or has his feelings hurt, he's loud and angry and harsh, and the consequences of what he did while he was unwell continue to haunt him long after. In other words, he actually experiences negative emotions the way a real person would, and sometimes when he's under the influence of negative emotions, he lashes out or does stupid things (like a real person might) instead of inoffensively crying in a corner somewhere. He isn't sanitized enough for a fandom that only wants Perfect Pure Good Optimus Who Never Hurts Anyone Even By Accident, so instead of IDW OP's mistakes and dark moments being treated as the logical end point of a person put in constant no-win situations until he breaks, he gets treated as if his mistakes and flaws make him an irredeemable bastard with no good qualities who should've fucked up less often to make fans actually like him.

And this is all in a fandom where 90% of the characters are war criminals and a good half of them have massacred organic planets. But god forbid IDW Optimus ever make a bad decision in a stressful situation. Or be mean to someone. Or have a character arc about how blindly idolizing people as paragons ends badly for everyone involved because no one can be that perfect. He is simply The Worst Optimus Ever and there's absolutely nothing about him worth discussing.

And just to be clear, the problem isn't the fact that some people don't like IDW OP, or he's just not their thing and they don't care.

The problem is the fact that he's consistently and actively hated by the fanbase who makes a concentrated effort to say he sucks and make sure none of their fan works ever include him. It's literally at a level where I stopped looking in the Optimus tag on this website because I was tired of people randomly going "and btw IDW OP sucks and I want to drown him in a ditch" in posts that weren't even about IDW, and I stopped looking for MegOP fic on AO3 because most of it is IDW Megatron/clearly TFP or G1 inspired continuity soup Optimus. Places that are Optimus friendly for Optimus fans, where I could reasonably expect to find positive conversations, but instead get sucker punched by hate about the character The Space Is About. And I can't even have conversations asking about why they do, bc the way 90% of them talk, I can tell they literally just didn't read the comics or deliberately misinterpreted the story.

I find it bizarre and frankly, tragic, that the hate train for IDW OP is so pervasive that people actively erase and replace him from fan works IN THE IDW UNIVERSE in a way that no other character is targeted in. I have tried so hard to understand why IDW OP gets this sort of hate and erasure when other characters who were as bad or worse than him have perfectly normal takes about them that go "yeah he kinda sucks but he's cool and I like him" or "who cares if he's problematic IRL, it's a story." The only conclusion I can come to is that because Optimus Prime (TM) has a specific brand image and is locked into being a cultural icon, he's held to a standard of The Ideal Perfect Hero instead of the way better standard of "Is he an interesting, well written character?"

#squiggposting #discourse #i tried my best to phrase this in a way that didnt invalidate different tastes #but like honestly. some ppls tastes suck. or are actually problematic and not in a fake way #like as an example from the main text avoe #i hate it so much when gay ships are made seme/uke - dominant/submissive - fem/masc #when that not only isnt in character or accurate to canon. but is also really boring at best or homophobic at worst #i cant control ppl's opinions but i can still think theyre boring stupid or even downright offensive #i have SEEN pretty much every popular TF character or pairing get flanderized somehow #so it's not just my attachment to OP in larticular #and i find it very frustrating when it seems as if ppl arent fans of the very media they consume #and they turn an interesting story into cookie cutter stereotypes #and then when the story isnt a cookie cutter stereotype easily divisible into black and white #they hate the characters and story and call it trash #might delete later bc i feel cring #but this is oretty much the culmination of all the thoughts and discussions ive had #with multiple people #anyways ive seen enough fandom discourse posts about The State of Fandom #and The Same 5 Tropes Recycled just copy pasted into different fandoms #what i speak of isnt just about my fave. rather my fave is a victim of this fandom tencency #and it is a FACT that fandom will force characters into offensive stereotypes that dont even make sense #tldr sometimes fanon.....is way worse than canon #also i revised and edited this like a billion times to make sure i wasnt hasty or vague or mean #so if i still made a mistake. whatever i guess this post took hours #it's not about wanting absolutely everyone to love my favorite #it's about the fact that ppl actively hate him even in spaces that are about him/ships he's in #to the point i have to not interact with strangers bc i never know if my fsve will randomly get shit on #and on top that the hate is mostly based on surface level assumptions and misinformation #so not only is my fav hated in a way no other character is. they dont even hate him for canon facts #sucks to see the fandom so thoroughly full of hate by ppl who arent informed bc they never gave canon a chance

[anartisticdreamer0]

ya know the “one normal night” song from the addam’s family musical? that’s me this year so far.

ALL I WANT-

#this is not to say that any of this is happening for invalid reasons #(except for the cellbit hate bullshit THAT WAS UNREASONABLE AND STUPID) #but on terms of SOME PEOPLE and workers not getting paid i absolutely support speaking out #but FUCK all at once bro #GIMME TIME TO BREATHE #anyways this post is a joke because humor helps me cope #fuck racism and xenophobia #pay and COMMUNICATE with your workers ohmy god #that’s all i’m gonna say for now #qsmp #<- if i get hate im just deleting the post

[ratboysims]

daily Christianity fact: if anyone but especially a trans person says “hey use (insert he or she pronouns)” and you keep using “they” then that’s still misgendering and you’re going to hell

#really having some feelings about it on this fine evening #i get using it before you know because its like.non gendered #but once you know its so invalidating to be called they if i explicitly say i go by he #WILL delete this later.

[josephslittledeputy]

Having been left behind by someone who she thought she could trust, Willa now has to endure the depravities of John Seed

Chapter 3, There Ain't No Sin and There Ain't No Virtue: Part 1, has finally been posted!!

#im embarrassed to admit that this took more than a few hours to get up on ao3 #sleep deprivation did not help and having to do a brief edit AND having to fix some random mistake ao3 made #where it just put a bunch of italics code on sentences that did not need it ??? making the ones that DID need it invalid and not show up #so i spent like 20 mins or more deleting that. BUT its posted and my blogs are linked and its pretty and im actually happy! i mean wow #3 chapters in and im actually happy with my work and still staying committed to it???? #gonna take a brief break until i feel motivation for it though because ive got Other Things Brainrot™️ & i want this project to continue #being fun #ANYWAY with that being said; read it dont read it idgaf i am just happy and ready for sleepy time lmao #and this gives me an excuse to post my banner :3 #ok no more tags i prommy #far cry 5 #my writing

[chipped-chimera]

Oh. Brilliant. I just realised it's also Autism Awareness Day/Month. Can't wait for corpos to tell me how they're oh so supportive by donating to the hate group charity a d showing only the most stereotypical representations of autism imaginable and make me feel worse!

Ugh a heads up: If I suddenly disappear this month it's because that shit is getting to me and I need a break.

#kerytalk #maybe i should just delete the internet actually #i am having a bad time #I think this is culmination of autistic sensory blowout and a period delayed by two months catching up with me too #I just want to live in a world that I actually wanna live in you know? #so if I go dead silent during April its probably the Autism shit getting to me #already feel invalidated without being reminded of how little society cares for me as a human being contributing to my mental health mess

[natasha-in-space]

Gonna rant a bit about fandoms, because I have some thoughts to share.

Kind of sad to see that fandoms are starting to be viewed as a generally bad thing even by the fans lately... It is such a strange change to see, especially if you've been participating in fandom culture since the beginnings of the internet. Nowadays, the moment something becomes fairly popular and beloved by many, you can see hundreds of people feeling genuinely frustrated or upset that 'now the fandom is going to ruin it like it always does'. I see this take mainly on Twitter, but it's prominent on Tumblr and other platforms as well. I've been a part of fandoms both big and small, and, sure, smaller fandoms are generally more cozy and easy to interact with, but what happened with curating your own experience? It's so sad to see bigger fandoms be addressed as this disgusting and gross thing (both old and new, which is even more upsetting to see), when there are thousands of wonderful creators putting so much love and time into their art, fanfics, fan-projects, and so much more. Fandom is a community, first and foremost. Sure, consuming content is a big part of it, but why are we treating fandoms like it's some big assembly line that needs to be perfectly cut out for our needs? It's more like a fun fair, and it's up to you to choose which vendors to come up to, and what do you want to interact with. And yes, you should interact with creators. By no means is that a necessity (I was a silent viewer for a long time myself), but it is still encouraged. I feel like fandom is becoming less about interacting with people and more about consuming content. And, subsequently, fanmade content is starting to get viewed as product, and treated as such. And that's sad to see.

#mia babbles #might delete later #of course there is nuance to this - i am just complaining lol #it's just sad because i feel like by being so negative about fandom as a whole - you are invalidating so many wonderful people #no fandom is a bad fandom (unless we're talking about harmful media but that's a whole other can of worms) #i've been a part of many fandoms that get brought up as 'disgusting' and 'the worst ones' #and sure i won't deny a lot of very weird and sometimes downright gross stuff that got created out of them #but what about thousands of beautiful art that artists put hours of their lives creating? #what about all the amazing stories that writers worked tirelessly on out of nothing but their love for something? #and that's not mentioning everyone else - because fandoms are not complete without folks interacting with fanworks #it's a community not a product #i feel like a grumpy grandma complaining about the youth not getting it but... sigh

[cheridraws]

hate hate hate having to explain irrational fears to people it’s the worst thing on earth uurrgrgvghh

#my rambles #and the fact that u have to explain it every single fucking time too #hey I don’t want to go to this river :/ if u remember I hate water #‘’WHHHAATTT???? u hate water?????????’’ #sigh. yes #<- literally explained this to the same person a month ago #but u used to love it!!! we couldn’t get u out of it as a kid!!!!!!! #ur lying. GOD this generation is so soft #I’m gonna be pissy and invalidate ur fears. and make u explain all this again next week all over again #-_- #have u heard of this thing called ppl changing over time. what about anxiety. how abt ppl not being the same person they were at 8 #or even. consider this: pretending to like stuff. bc I would’ve been punished otherwise #-_- I am so tired #sorry I just. need to rant sometimes #delete later

[ponyonline]

wait im gonna be known as that one person who got kicked from the wordgirl server cuz of her friends :((((

#and like we werent even doing anything wrong we were just chillin #wordgirl niggas hate me and i dont know why :((((((( #but at least i have my friends :3 we were just having fun and chatting #we werent causing trouble or anything you guys are just ableist #at least we actually used the vc and stuff #and thats the one thing i dont like about that server is that it doesnt feel like a community #like we shouldve done more stuff together as a server and have watch partys and stuff #thats the whole reason why i invited my friends so i can hang out in that server more #but yall wouldnt get it........ #i love going on long ass rants in the tags its so fun #and FUCK those people that deleted my blacklist and invalidated my trauma #like tobecky is a literal trigger for me i cant help that...........

[slut-jpeg]

I keep coming back to this and maybe it’s the autism but I cannot and will probably never understand why/how nonbinary/genderqueer people date self identifying “straight” people. like by definition they aren’t straight then and them saying they’re straight is directly invalidating to your gender. like unless I’m missing something straight people don’t date nonbinary people. (this is not the same with lesbians because lesbianism is liking anyone who’s a nonman btw) but straight is literally attraction to the “opposite gender” and there is no opposite gender to nonbinary so like ?????

#terfs dni #obviously #I’m gonna get hate for this one probably but I don’t care #actually everyone don’t reply to this I’m not interested #I’m deleting all replies just because I don’t know how to turn off replies #it’s invalidating and that’s it I’m not arguing or looking for new perspectives

[vampstel]

Alright so vent/rant thing under the cut:

I’m starting to notice how a lot of the internet just… seems to hate queer men for no reason. especially feminine queer men. Like the concept of a queer man being feminine just seems too much. “Oh It’s not okay!! It’s terrible because of *insert bad reason here*”

Yet the same people who have this mindset see a cis male celebrity paint his nails and suddenly they’re praising him for breaking gender norms. Please explain to me how this works, I don’t understand… Especially when the person who does this is queer themselves. It genuinely feels like we (the lgbtqia+ community) have been going backwards for the past few years and it’s kinda sad to see :(

#꒰ v’s rambling ꒱ #like nowadays I feel as if people think my identity as a queer man is invalid #or perhaps even a threat to them #and it’s odd. it really is #The queer community to me feels like it’s been getting more… separated? #Like there’s no solidarity. Mostly just gatekeeping and all that #Sometimes it’s understandable yet most of the time it isn’t #It’s just… I dunno #Just really tired of seeing fellow lgbt people invalidate me and my fellow queer men simply for being who we are #I try not to let it get to me but it sometimes won’t leave my brain #Maybe I should delete Twitter since that’s where I see this kind of thing #It’s just sad to me. Like leave us be damn <\3

[theogony]

gn

#ranting here because if I do this irl someone will know but. I really fucking need an outlet but skip if you want #but anyway!! really fucking pissed that. blocking someone for a few days isn't something socially acceptable #like dude I've knwn you for ?? 7 years now?? but that doesn't mean I'm comfortable listening to you constantly talk about my love life #his love life* and like. fucking invalidating me when I come out to you as ace and bringing it up everytime you tell me about your #relationships like I get being gay is not easy in [redacted] but that doesn't mean I'm always ok listening to your tragic gay #romance especially when you like. actively talk about gaslighting others when you rebound like dude?? you're swag as hell #but when you gaslight others - likee I get I may be sounding slightly clingy - I get paranoid?? you've gaslit me too?? #and so like. I blocked you because my mental health is really fucking down the drain and I'm low-key overwhelmed #BUT?? INSTEAD OF CONFRONTING ME LIKE A NORMAL PERSON THAT YOU WERE INSECURE #YOU BLOCK ME. DELETE ALL YOUR SOCIAL MEDIA ACCOUNTS. TELL EVERYONE YOU KNOW I'M TOXIC. girl. gn #yes I know like he did deserve an explanation which I would have been happy to give but uh! why the fuck would you tell others I'm toxic #like mate. I'm not even going to lie I low-key sound toxic here but you do to! what the fuck! #worst part is I can't. I can't fucking complain because I've known this funky dude for 7 years #and like. I still trust him. even though he'd choose someone else in a heartbeat over me which i. have made with peace with #and like most of my friends are just telling me he's being toxic and I should cut him out and that he's just trying to like be a bitch #but like. tbf he used to be such a doormat but now he's like. low-key toxic esp cause I'm on decent terms with his ex #girl gn. move. on. I'm so fucking tired I have to work with you you can't avoid me forever like literally all I want is one fucking civil #convo about the competition we have to work together for but NOOOO you can't do that much. fuck

[sweetestofbelles]

What're your thoughts on Diamond Tiara and Silver Spoon, mod?

/ My thoughts?

Silver Spoon's just a follower of Diamond Tiara tbh.

I really think Diamond Tiara needed more character development rather than just a single episode. I speak as someone who's been in the position as a crusaders growing up when it comes to being bullied, not as a hater.

I think it's good that Diamond got redeemed, but I personally just don't like how her development was handled. We should've gotten more than a single episode and we should've seen her Mom in earlier episodes. I can sympathize with Diamond's home situation but her oneshot redemption episode should've been a two-parter and she should've been seen talking more in episodes after that especially since she's bullied the crusaders for 4 seasons until season 5.

It just felt. . . forced when she did the sudden switch on her mom, which is why I say I feel as if she needed more episodes/a two-parter. NOT TRYING TO INVALIDATE ANYTHING, PLEASE DON'T THINK THAT I AM.

#this isn't me invalidating anything #PLEASE DON'T ATTACK ME FOR MY OPINION ;W; #ooc #i will delete this if this gets rage reactions :')

[triggeringtommy]

starting my morning off by crying to my chemical romance and the wonder years,,, i feel like i’m drowning in my grief this shit sucks

#shit happens #:( #I miss my dead friends #i literally can’t stop thinking abt how much i wanna talk to em and hear their voice one more time #im so sad that i deleted every memory of us that ever existed so yeah #ik that doesn’t invalidate our bond we once had but i feel guilty for not being able to help #but u can’t force anyone to change #just sucks that they both overdosed in the same way like wtf not cool besties #literally not even a year apart from eachother #it’s been almost a year and then it’ll be a whole 2 years since he died #i can’t believe its been so long it feels like just yesterday i was with them but it’s literally been two years since he died so i #it’s been like three years since we last spoke and now I’ll never get the chance to change things #not that I would have reached out but like it’s good knowing they’re still alive and now I don’t hav that comfort anymore #I’ll never hear them see them touch them or even feel their energy that they put out into this earth #it fucking hurts my feelings that i couldn’t be there even tho i loved them all #i just couldn’t stick around to see them destroy themselves #i feel bad but what can u do except for move forward