#ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

[timothylawrence]

btw there are people on twitter claiming gortash is arab/west asian so like. yeah. there's a reason i've never touched that character with a tenfoot pole.

#ewbie.txt #ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #to delete

[inkykeiji]

in other news: natsuo.

#he’s fucking massive #my size kink is going off the fucking charts right now i’m going to SCREAM #he!!!!!!!!!!!! he’s so!!!!!!!!!! #LARGE #i just want him to rip me apart like is that so much to ask #with his cock #if that wasn’t clear #ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

[ssspringroll]

slowly but surely we progress. got the classics for kids done, and the first droom shape. still got all the rest to go. and then i have to do it all again. twice more. for toddlers and infants.

#UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #why did i have to make so many shapes #think im going to take a break for a while or possibly the rest of the day now #simoleon

[loyalhorror]

[stares at the ceiling] am i actually polyamorous or am i just so convinced that i have nothing to really offer anyone and couldn't possibly keep them by myself so it's safer for me to just "fill a niche" in an existing relationship and/or let people use me for sex

#rat.exe #negative tw #i'm sad and it sucks. #like. it would be so nice to have A Person. #or i guess even to have Multiple People but to feel like my relationship was equal with all of them. #so i don't think it's really about monogamy vs polyamory #i think it's about actually committing to a relationship or not. #idk. hm. #ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #yeah baby come on over i'm emotionally unavailable and don't do anything except sleep and stare at a computer screen.

[soldier-poet-king]

Woke up >:( and it's like. Oh I need to LEAVE. I need to ESCAPE. Not even just The Parents now but bro1 is making this house actively hostile to life with the way everyone has to tiptoe around his maybe breakup and moodiness and like sure he's not actively aggressive but why are all my routines and habits having to be altered so he can mope and be angry and moody and sad and become an alcoholic and possibly give himself an ED because we can't just sit him down and have a normal human conversation nooo bc he's the favourite child and therefore we just have to wait and deal until he's *ready* on his own. Which has not happened in his entire 23 yrs of life. But y'know. I can keep waiting ig.

Like yes yes pot and kettle when it comes to moodiness. But I See Doctors. I take Meds. I take Responsibility for My Actions and develop Coping Skills and Apologize and Don't Take It Out on other people. I actually CARE abt people other than myself and how my actions impact them, even if they're ppl I don't like or who have hurt me before.

#also when My morning routines are altered. brain scream #but no i can just cope with active mental distress from diagnoses brain disease #so the bitchy little baby can mope and stay out all night drinking vome home and puke and then be a bitch #when he has to go to work at 6am #like ues i feel bad i liked his gf hes sad #but also. like. not to be like well hes apathetic and selfish and callous but ... #he also made a joke abt abortion at dinner yesterday bc our 16yr old cousin is expecting #and it was so awful??? she WANTS this kid??? #ugh ugh ugh ugh #i have a horrible strained relationship with each of my brothers #but each one is a different flavour of bad or dysfunctional #and this one. this one. i cant even get into it. #i love my brother. i need a shovel to love my brother #my parents both complain abt their adult child younger siblings #and then like. trear bro 1 like this which will make him become an adult manchild #ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #truly. i need to fuckin move out. i need it #ill lose free food and rent monies and free laundry and utilities and ooen backyard garden space #but oh my god the emotional toll this is taking on constantly tiptoeing peacekeeping #IM FORCED INTO LYING BY OMISSION. I HATE LYING. IT MAKES ME WANT TO DIE. #franposting #we're supposed to share a car all summer and commute together sans our father #i might just take the bus. even tho i have to leave almost an hour earlier #i don't trust him. or his moods. esp when mildly hungover at 6am. and without our father there to moderate? #this sounds horrible but im a little afraid. (plus i cant be late everyday all summer bc of him) #like. once again. fuck me. i am the ONLY responsible child and i get so much shit

[discount-kirishima]

i'm fine, i'm just listening to trigun stampede's tombi by kvi baba for the 15th time while staring at my ceiling at 2am

#sometimes u gotta cry over ur blorbos #thinking about vash and feeling emo #trigun stampede #vash the stampede #kvi baba #tombi #ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

[lavalamp-juice]

Years of

"what do you want to do after High School?"

"idk"

"oh don't worry you still have time :) "

Welp I'm 3 months from graduating and I STILL DON'T KNOW?!!?!!

#i literally have no interests #ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #no interests at allll #can ninja turtle trivia be a job :') #p l z #whatever #oh also i do not want art to be my job lol #i really dont want my happy lil hobby to become my source of income 😅

[quasieli]

Can I ever catch a break? The last month has been absolute garbage and ofc just when I start to feel the slightest bit okay, I get sick! I went outside once in the past week and I masked! What the fuck!

#Eli Speaks #ask to tag #ughhhhhhhhhhhhh #ive been in bed since Wednesday #i feel so tired but i cant sleep except at night #got some upper respiratory shit or something #cause i only had a brief low grade fever but i still feel horrid #and i tested neg for covid #i went out for a fucking drs appt #i was masked the entire time! #love going from not wanting to leave my bed cause i wanna die to not wanting to leave my bed cause i feel like lead #(im okay enough mental health wise im sad but im okay) #ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

[deadlittledogs]

SORRY FOR THE RANTS TONIGHT GUYS I GOT HIT WITH DAH DEPRESSION WORMS AND DON’T HAVE A THERAPIST ANYMORE……. EXPECT ME TO GET REEEALL TRAUMA DUMPY ON HERE UNTIL I CAN FIND A NEW BROAD TO SLAM DUNK MY PROBLEMS ON LOL

#getting a new therapist is so….. #UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #i’m just going to take whoever and threaten suicide first session

[bardicbird]

i love it when the recommended treatment for specific brand of my mental disorder is just to stop having the disorder 👍 thanks ill try my best.

#tw vent #its not based in trauma its not based in anxiety or depression or any other treatable chemical fuckery in my brain #i just have to literally do my best to stop experiencing symptoms on my own bc there isnt anything any professionals can do for me #its so fucking exhausting #like :0 have you tried… eating the food you don’t want to eat? wow! that’s so helpful !!!!! thank you!!!! #(granted. that is actually my best method of recovery. but hearing it still sucks ass) #ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #arfid #cause thats what this is abt. #also side note some ppls’ arfid is absolutely rooted in anxiety and/or trauma etc. its just that mine specifically isnt.

[hiskinndbodyguard]

I KNEW IT

#bad buddy #samop #bad buddy the series #UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #well done high school friends for putting them next to each other #hands….!!!!?????

[star-ocean-peahen]

grrrrrrrrr the Malady keeps getting in the way of my relationships and i HATE it

#:') why yes hanging out with you leaves me feeling worse than before you arrived #i love you very very very much my body just won't let me do anything about it #ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #i WANT to answer every ask i get and chat with my mutuals about poetry and story ideas and literally whatever their interests are i want to #learn about you and know you as a person because i want to LOVE you #but my body won't freaking let me #grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr #lassie vents #vent

[userblaney]

photoshop not even being able to launch on the temporary laptop

#UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

[callings]

fucking love that my callback from jobs and family services from yesterday came in today and then I had to call 3 times just to get on hold, and then when I finally speak with someone they were like idk why they called you back at 2pm, they only do what you're waiting to do until noon each day

#ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

[kyoohyeon]

.

#ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

[kenobster]

can't believe i'm a palpatine stan apparently

#ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #that tag 'darth blorbo' really did something to me #personal