#um everywhere

[torosdottir]

the fact that ur childhood affects ur brain for the rest of ur life is sooooo fucking embarassing. yeah i have all these things wrong with me and i feel kind of bad and weird all the time. why? oh umm well my mummy and daddy were mean to me when i was 5. no yeah i know. yeah and im still living like this. yeah. cringe 😬

#sometimes i literally am like why do i feel like im evil and awful and terrible forever why does this follow me everywhere #oh right its because mummy was mean to me. #um. and does that uhh. go away? now that im older and can be more objective about the world? #no? oh i see. oh so my brain is just shaped like this now? i see. and i have to live like this? ok. amazing.

[laundy]

this literally happened

#sorry for the weird format. these were studies turned... um... whatever this is #tailgate party episode was so good to me. kendall being grabbed by yaoi hands everywhere #succession #kendall roy #lukas matsson #lukas/kendall

[sacchiri]

"what is that— "

#hellsing #my art #integra hellsing #alucard #a variation of the 'um.. whatcha got there' 'a smoothie' meme #he probably only looked like that for a day or two i just felt like drawing bondagecard #too tired to draw a background so i tried the hirano method of drawing weird lint everywhere

[absentlurker]

Have a little Ficlet!!!

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Wayne sighs heavily as he walks into the trailer after a long night shift. The lights were off in the living room except for a small Coca Cola night light plugged in above the kitchen counter. He locks the door before dumping his keys on the kitchen table before taking off his jacket. He kicked off his boots after hanging his jacket on the back on the table chair.

Wayne grabs his boots and placed them against the wall beside the front door before walking down the short hall to Eddie’s bedroom door.

He paused before the cracked door when he heard voices softly talking. Eddie and Steve, Wayne thought to himself and started to walk away but paused when their voices started to rise a little in the bedroom.

Nosey old man, Wayne chuckles at himself as he turns his head so he can hear better.

“I know you’re scared to get hurt again, baby,” He hears Eddie say. Wayne’s brows furrowed, “but you can’t let that stop you from letting people in, Steve.”

Wayne hears Steve huff and it’s quiet for a moment before Steve says weakly, “You don’t understand. I think about if we don’t make it and I’m just sick to my stomach.” Wayne hears some movement and Eddie’s bed squeaking as he moves.

“Honey, what’s the alternative?” Eddie questions with a hum, “are you going to let us go because of a maybe? Baby, I can’t see the future but you gotta take risks sometimes.”

Steve doesn’t say anything which worries Wayne because god, Eddie would beside himself if Steve were to break up with him. He’s so gone on that boy.

He’s surprised how calm Eddie sounds when he says, “You know, I’ve been there.”

“Huh?” Steve questions, “what do you mean ‘you’ve been there’?”

Eddie takes a deep breath and says, “When I moved in with Wayne, I had convinced myself I wasn’t gonna trust him.” Wayne stops the noise that threatens to escape at the confession. What?

“What? Wayne?” Steve asks and he hears Eddie’s voice crack as he laughs at Steve’s surprise.

“Yeah, man. I was terrified to let anyone in again. After my dad-“ Wayne’s heart aches as Eddie’s voice breaks, “Well, you know…I didn’t want to let anyone in or love anyone because what’s the point, you know? They’re just going to hurt me and they didn’t understand me anyway.” Eddie snorts softly, “Did you know I didn’t even speak to Wayne for about six months when I first showed up?”

“Really?” Steve asks softly. Wayne remembers those days. God, they were so difficult. Wayne constantly felt like he was doing everything wrong back then.

“Yeah, I honestly don’t know how he managed. I was such an asshole to him for no reason back in the beginning.”

No, Wayne thought, you were a grieving little boy who lost everything he knew.

“He didn’t give up though. God, I still remember when I came home from school when I was like eleven. I had a black eye because I got in a fight over something I don’t remember and I was just angry all the time. I refused to tell him what happened and honestly, I was trying to start a fight with him.” Eddie admitted distantly, “I guess I wanted him to yell at me and prove he was just like everyone else and you know what he did?”

“What?” Steve whispers, he sounds as invested in his story as Wayne is even though he was there.

“He grabbed me and hugged me so tight,” Eddie sounds choked up and honestly, so is Wayne. “He-he said, ‘boy, I understand you’re angry and you miss your old life but I’m going to be here even if you build concrete walls around yourself. And I’m going to love you and care for you and if you think for one second I won’t go down to that school and raise hell because of your face, you gotta thing comin’” Eddie laughs to himself, “and he did! He stomped down to that middle school and told off the principal for not expelling that boy who hit me.” Eddie snickers softly, “Jesus, that was great.” He hears Steve laughing quietly.

“I knew I loved him then,” Eddie continues, “and I wasn’t even mad about it. It was a risk because it was still in the beginning and he could still hurt me one day but you know what?” Eddie sounds content, “He hasn’t. He probably doesn’t understand everything I do and say because dude, I can be so weird sometimes,”

Steve interrupts with a laugh before saying, “True.” Wayne nods in agreement.

“Rude. But he doesn’t care and he loves me anyway.”

Wayne hears Eddie move around before he says, “Stevie, I’m asking you to take a risk with me. I know you’ve been hurt and it’s made you doubt yourself about love and relationships but the planet is going to keep spinning with or without me and don’t you wanna see where it goes?”

Steve sounds on the edge of tears when he says, “Yeah, yeah, I do.”

“Yeah?”

Steve laughs, “Yeah, you goof.” Wayne smiles to himself when he hears the obvious sound of lips smacking together.

“You won’t regret it, Stevie, I’ve got a good feeling.” Eddie tells him playfully.

Wayne turns away from Eddie’s door to walk back down the hall with a smile on his face.

Maybe he didn’t mess up that much trying to raise that little ten year old who showed up at his door all those years ago.

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(inspiration for this was from the song the alternative by Lyn Lapid)

#stranger things #eddie munson #steddie #steve harrington #wayne munson #um #enjoy??? #I’m trying to get more confident in writing so this is super random lolol #but I love Wayne and Eddie and Steve so HERE YA GO #y’all I always have to change my tenses cause they’re like everywhere lmao

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

had a human au thought of Barnaby and Wally. idk doing their taxes or going through bills together since they share a house & Barnaby going "hey we could get married for tax benefits and health insurance. wait no what if i want to marry Howdy someday? it's illegal to be married to two people." Wally goes "we could get divorced" and Barnaby gets legitimately sad like:

#wally: uhhhhhh. um. i think i left the oven running #barnaby: YOU DONT BAKE- GET BACK HERE AND ANSWER THE QUESTION #in human au barnaby's ideal world he can marry both his platonic life-partner And the love of his life #but the american government says No smh #my heart goes out to polyams everywhere #fuckkkkk getting unwell about this aus barnaby and wally again everyone #like i have so many different little plot lines and mini aus for the au #like what if there was a covid arc? #in my mind lockdown happens while wally is Elsewhere #so he cant exactly get back home! and obviously no one is happy about that but wally is dealing well enough #but barnaby's like 🥺 my lil buddys out there all on his own and im alone here so im gonna call him every day #(also i like to think that howdy spends lockdown w/ barn or vice-versa but this aint about that) #wally: vibing #barnaby: a bit of a wreck #absolutely unprompted #wh modern human au #but then also Angsty Thoughts of yo when they all get old uhhh who dies first #and In My Mind! they both die within a few days of each other #maybe barnaby goes first and wally just. pines away. broken heart syndrome babey! #also having soft thoughts of them when they first became friends #barnaby taking him to the farm and introducing him to the animals <3 #wally trying to help out with morning chores after a sleepover <3 #ms. beagle absolutely adoring wally and always having his favorite snacks In Stock for whenever he comes by <3 #that one time barnaby broke somebody's jaw for going a little too far w/ insulting wally & almost got expelled <3 #mannn they're so! honestly goals #oh and later on when they have their own place wally having his own lil art studio #and barnaby continuing to be his go-to muse <3 #wally probably has so much fuckign art of barnaby lmao #OHHHHH AND THE CAR CRASH ARCCCCC DONT EVEN GET ME FUCKIGN STARTED #EMOTIONS CENTRAL THAT IS

[meziniart]

I'm losing my religion

#wolfwood wearing vash's glasses in badlands rumble makes me feel a lot of things ok #also i like to draw his tiddies out #*knows nothing about composition so keeps shoving a giant cross everywhere* #um #trigun #trigun badlands rumble #nicholas d wolfwood #vashwood #its implied vashwood i dont care what u have to say

[no-see-um-incorrect]

Sweetheart (Spencer’s Version)

#redacted audio #redacted asmr #redacted headcanons #redacted sweetheart #this one’s a bit everywhere #no see um listeners

[samarecharm]

roughhousin'

#persona 5 #goro akechi #blood #WHO was he fighting? #its ryuji #dont worry its good for them. its enrichment #this would be the first time they really fight #ryuji n makoto spar all the time and they eventually add goro to the mix #but BEFORE hes buddy buddy w them he is still um. #a piece of shit whos cocky and full of himself #and is a hell of a bully w a shit attitude w a habit of running his mouth #so this would be him severely underestimating ryuji and getting his pretty face roughed up #ryuji looks just as messy but hes used to it. goro however is absolutely NOT used to getting his ass beat #humbling him one ass whoopin at a time #SOMEDAY i will draw his redesign w a fullbody #theres not MUCH changed except for the gauntlet weapons and added harness #but it would be nice to draw it up to see his body type. very defined arms. very toned everywhere else. very Tall. very Legs. #very intimidating. someone who thoroughly enjoys throwing his muscle around to get what he wants. hes a brute and he embraces it #its just. well he has met a team that had their own muscle (ryuji and makoto) and hes a bit peeved that it doesnt work on them #sorry man; u gotta learn some new tricks heehee

[shima-draws]

I’m not even at WCI yet so I don’t even have context but my brain won’t shut up about Sanlu Forbidden Romance where Luffy sneaks in to the Vinsmoke mansion (or wherever the hell they’re keeping Sanji) so he can tenderly kiss him under the moonlight. I am unwell

#Sanlu #Lusan #One Piece #Sanji #Luffy #Black Leg Sanji #Monkey D Luffy #And my favorite very self indulgent headcanon: Luffy being stupidly absurdly possessive esp since Sanji’s currently engaged #So he leaves um. Well you know. Marks. Everywhere :)))) #Sanji: NOT that high I don’t want Pudding-chan to see— #Luffy: Well I do. Sanji is mine and I want her to see my marks :) #Sanji: 😳😳😳 #Sanji: (Hope this doesn’t awaken something in me) #(Hint: it does) #The Vinsmokes are 100% unaware Sanji is secretly kissing his boyfriend while their backs are turned. It’s quite excellent #Pudding: He’s so obsessed with me it’s pathetic 🙄 #Meanwhile Sanji is currently sitting in Luffy’s lap kissing him silly #Luffy scaling a massive castle wall just to sneak in through Sanji’s window every night. #THE PINING. Luffy secretly panicking bc Sanji’s really gonna get married soon isn’t he. #Sanji just wanting to leave but he can’t 😔 #Luffy: Run away with me? #Sanji: 🥺🥺🥺😭 #CRAWLING UP THE WALLS I’M INSANE RN. I AM SO UNWELL #Shima speaks #SORRY I CAN’T BE NORMAL ABOUT THEM EVER. NEVER EVER

[waveoftheocean]

spring blossoms

(so excited to finally post the full cover i did for @seijoh4fanzine!! aftersales are open for this zine rn if you wanna get your hands on one!)

#matsuhanaiwaoi #haikyuu!! #oikawa tooru #iwaizumi hajime #matsukawa issei #hanamaki takahiro #seijoh #seijoh four #hq!! #my art #mine #haikyuu manga spoilers #okay okay so fun fact - i wanted to incorporate the title/theme of the zine into the cover right #and pretty much everywhere i looked translated the kanji of oubaitouri as cherry apricot peach and plum #BUT. #but... #but after i'd drawn everything out and started coloring i found out that.....apricot is not the apricot i thought of.... #it's ume.... #i always thought ume was a type of plum #apparently it IS a cross between apricot and plum but it is DECIDEDLY NOT #THE TREE. #I HAD BEEN DRAWING. #FOR MAKKI. #so i had to redraw the buds and branches for his :'))) #anyways yes each of the 4 tree branches and buds correspond with the kanji from the idiom hehe

[springlock-suits]

Fnaf-tober | Day 17: Weird Science

For this day I decided to draw @miiilowo's William from it's old Weird Science dtiys!

He is very fun to draw but also very much a challenge for me bdjsbdks

Fnaf-tober by miiilowo

#my art #miiilowo fnaftober #william afton #eyestrain #<-perhaps #i love putting random shapes everywhere #fighting for my life trying to find the balance between exaggered perspective(?) on the face/head and like. a face that looks good #dont flip this image btw #please. #overall i quite like how this turned out #fan of the highlighting #im about to @ you on insta w this too my apologies #do i use its pronouns for you too much? i try to make it my priority but ive judt realized ive used like exclusively it/its #for the past several times #um. go follow milo he's cool #and has very good and awesome William thoughts

[awakenmiamor]

Lol I chuckle whenever ppl unironically say that arthur didn’t care that john was mauled by wolves😭 im not sure you understand their dynamic quite well… that man sat by john’s bed and didnt even allow him to get up

#txt #not gonna do a long rant bc i dont care enough but um lets stop making things up #but yk some people are meaner to the people they love #because theyre so close theyre comfortable doing so #thats arthur #in general. in the beginning there may have been other factors that caused him to act like that to john but❤️ #he’ll bully john but he loves him. thank you for coming to this useless talk. #i just get so €;)3)dhwu9297 when ppl say arthur didnt care abt johns wounds but only abt charles’ #ik some say it as a joke but now i see it everywhere and im like u dont actually think that tho….right? #bullying is arthurs love language trust me he was classmates with me in hs #hes my cousin’s neighbour #🦌🐺

[lanshappycorner]

Doos...

#today im going to my friends house for a belated gift exchange and i am bringing my son because 90% of the stuff on my gift exchange list- #-were clothes and accessories for my son doos so it is likely he will get new clothes today #i know he is very sad and worn out looking and even his labels have been torn(as u can see in the pic um) #however it is bc i love him too much i swear i do not mistreat my son i just bring him w me everywhere and hold him too much he is spoiled

[meirimerens]

for every [Mistress of the Town] who [creates a world of esoteric and supernatural miasmas and vibrations you cannot fathom or begin to grasp] there are [homosexual male] [bisexual male] [bisexual male (id tag:NO BITCHES)] [homosexual male (id tag:SCARY)] who will [make you live horrors perfectly within your comprehension (more horrifying than the alternative)]

#wips #my art #this happened to my buddies... um... #here's my art tip. have tangents actually tangents are so fun put tangents everywhere. every<wher eyou can put them do it

[chalkeater]

ur art is crunchy /pos !!! how do you have the confidence to use stuff that isnt pencil and cant rlly be erased if mistakes are made?

make more mistakes

ACTUAL ANSWER BELOW because it got too long. oops lol

anyway. i wrote “DO IT ON PURPOSE” because when it comes to doing a whole drawing with ONLY a pen- you gotta force your brain get creative- at least practice. in other words- work with what you have. it’s basically like solving a problem every few seconds-

because sometimes my hand eye coordination glitches for a split second. or maybe my hand shook or maybe the line is actually shit looking. but instead of scrapping the thing entirely i gotta to try and make it work. ok so if my line looks like crap here maybe i can make it a Part of the drawing by making everything look messier. OR maybe i can even just. hide it!! by coloring a thicker line along it too!!

you can actually HIDE a LOT of mistakes with a pen without erasing anything. and sometimes the mistakes are part of the art- like when i see the most beautiful art online and i see an uncolored pixel. what matters is your final output not the things you cant change now or mean nothing in the big picture

honestly going from sketch to lines and rendering with a pen is about weight control (like with a pencil- sketching yk) and not beating yourself up. in order to gain the “confidence” you gotta absolutely ANNIHILATE the need for 200% perfection. because theres beauty in a mess.

anyway so. when you get the basic stuff down like “in order to to make less mistakes with pen stuff- make sure youre used to what youre drawing already!!!” or “draw/doodle stupid shit with your pen and make it (pen) a PART of you and not some scary beast (pen)

i think it all stems down to forgiving yourself and just having fun. having fun is always my motto. if you ever go “oh no i made a mistake!!!” imagine me yelling “WHO CAAARRESSS!!!!!!!! (#love #positive)” in your EAR

#deltarune #susie deltarune #myself #ask #susart #GAHH SORRY ITS SO LONG OR SOMETHING #we have chronic ‘if you ask any of us a question ill literally take 5 paragraphs to answer it bc idk detail and context or shit’ #ok bye how this helps???? #mintyblitz #i would include more of our pen stuff but idk whats worth showing lol #bc we sketch with pens a lot. actually fucking hate sketching with pencils sometimes because ughh #when youre studying fine arts and have 500 black drawings ???? um. yeah. no. i dont want to touch a pencil everr AGAIN!!!! #GOD GRAPHITE EVERYWHERE!!! on my shirt on my FACE!!! #of course we still do painting and drawings with pencils and then line them after #but if im gonna doodle?? yeah. pen #also not to be a pen apologist but when a sketchbook ages the pencils fade #but pens are fucking awesome because water and air wont let it fade away #we actually use waterproof BALLPOINT pens (our fountain pen oviously is not waterproof) #(Not aponsored but buy panda oens theyre so cheap and you can paint watercolor on them girls) #anyway so the worst our penned sketches get is like. a lottle bleeding but thats cool ask in a sketchbook #pencils?? gone. blank canvas. #pencils are great but i need people to understand how convenient oen is #also pen for filling in form?? but can be used to draw? versatile. she can do anything

[ilikeshitposting]

even if you could say that gojo was acting selfishly while 'saving' megumi and yuuta and yuji. even if - that's not completely true- you claimed that gojo only saved megumi because he was from the zen'in clan and was a ten shadow technique user/ because- trauma from the whole toji-and-geto catastrophe; that he saved yuuta only because his curse was (obviously) super strong and unique and had potential, and, similarly, saved itadori only because megumi asked him to + he swallowed sukuna's finger (w move, itadori-kun), do not forget ijichi-san.

~manga spoilers~ so as far as i remember gojo saved ijichi because basically 'it is better to do something else than die on the job' right? he thought, since ijichi couldn't survive fighting curses, he would be of better use being a manager. he practically pulled ijichi away from entering the jujutsu world as a sorcerer and made(?) him a manager instead. this was selfless. this was born purely out of the goodness of gojo's heart. his concern for his fellow- jujutsushi's and his unwillingness to see another less-equipped person die. geto's "if it was you in my place you could easily fulfil my (your?) goal/ eliminate all the non-sorcerers" statement made him realize that he had a responsibility to protect the less-stronger, because he really was the strongest. he was the only one who could save/ help them. everyone who needed his help/ needed saving. they were his responsibility/ his duty.

but that wasn't his only motivation because ijichi wasn't even that.. important back then and wasn't even in immediate mortal danger- OK MY POINT HERE IS-

Gojo's goodness-of-heart isn't simply because of his selfishness/ external motivations/ feelings of responsibility or duty or whatever: it is inherent. the by-product of him being human. if that makes sense.

#which is why it SUCKED that in ch 236 heis biggest gripe was with the fact that he wasn't the strongest/ was lonely and SUKUNA #but um. not gonna comment much on that :D #jjk spoilers #jjk manga #gojo satoru #jjk ijichi #jjk meta #satosugu #because i love them and they're EVERYWHERE