#what a fucking rotten day

[i-did-not-mean-to]

Why I prefer my pets to people

Some days, it's just pain and fatigue. The world is a maelstrom of blurry sounds, hazy sights, and endless agony.

People pull back as if I was a leper; they feel discomfited by my suffering, almost embarrassed to witness weakness, afraid that the hurt radiating from my bones is contagious.

My pets curl up on my weary body and lick wounds they cannot even reach through paper skin; they are undaunted by the abyss of my unhappiness.

Maybe it's that warmth, the certainty that I am not alone, the proximity of another soul beating its tiny wings beside mine that allows me to finally cry, to finally rest, to finally find hope again.

I'd choose them over many a person in my life because they choose me - even broken, even messy, even tired out of my goddamn mind - over their own comfort and safety.

#personal #I love my pets #not alone #what a fucking rotten day #out of spoons

[fujii-draws]

OKAY! Chatot rant in tags below! Read at your own discretion.

#okay starting from the beginning of where ppl usually dislike him. apple woods chapter. #he doesn’t give hero/partner the CHANCE to explain themselves despite them being relatively good recruits up until that point. #and that legit might be my only gripe with that chapter bc!!! stories need conflict! I LIKE the conflict in apple woods!!! #hero and partner being punished so something they didn’t do! #the misunderstanding! how team skull (Skuntank) actually outplays the main duo with a clever yet rotten trick. I LOVE that it segways into- #one of the more sweeter scenes of guild members looking out for eachother. I LIKE APPLE WOODS CONFLICT. #but chatot just. not giving them a chance. is so dumb. #I’d personally fix this by having a lil montage of hero/partner fucking up on jobs. A LOT. and chatot giving them a pass every time. #and let the perfect apple incident BE the one where he puts his foot down and doesn’t listen to them. bc he’d given them loads of chances. #and doesn’t want to hear any excuse. #but yeah. I legit dont mind him during that chapter except for that really stupid and frustrating moment. #NOW. CHAPTER 17. #UGGGGHHH WHERE DO I BEGIN #Him not believing hero and Partner about Grovyle and the future being in ruin? FINE. ACTUALLY GOOD. BC CHATOT WOULD BE SKEPTIC. #IT FITS HIS CHARACTER!! #BUT WHAT DOES SUCK. IS HIM GOING ‘Dusknoir isn’t the bad guy. he didn’t do anything wrong’ #WHEN HE LITERALLY KIDNAPPED HERO AND PARTNER RIGHT I N F R O N T OF HIM. #(​NO LITERALLY. HIS CHARACTER IS IN THE FRONT ROW WHEN IT HAPPENED.) #and him. having the GALL to tell hero and partner they must’ve been ‘seeing things’ and downplaying the HELL they went through. #despite them being missing for hours/days. his own guild recruits. and his angry sprite showing up. #like. I think that’s when I genuinely despised him. #that and him going ‘OH I BELIEVED YOU THE WHOLE TIME HEEHOO :)’ shit was so fucking annoying. #just playing it off as a joke the second the guild started to believe hero and partner. #IMAGINE IF HE W A S ACTUALLY TESTING THE GUILD’S TRUST. SHOWCASING HIM AS THE MORE RESPONSIBLE AND RESPECTFUL RIGHT HAND OF THE GUILD. #and yes. Brine cave he saves hero and partner. but at that point I just didn’t care anymore. #he fucked those two over so much. that I didn’t care what ‘valiant’ sacrifice he had. #and he grills Team Skull for what they did OFF SCREEN. they couldn’t even give us THAT. #<<< THAT or him outright saying sorry would’ve been nice. IKIK his ‘actions’ or whatever but. #eughh again this is all imo. I’m not trying to make people hate him or change their mind. #I’ll get into positives in the second post cause I’m running out of tags

[queercodedvillains]

Wake up babes, new chapter of mallrats just dropped <3

Mallrats (23114 words) by QueerCodedVillains Chapters: 3/9 Fandom: Naruto, Naruto (Anime & Manga) Rating: Explicit Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence Relationships: Deidara/Sasori (Naruto), background kakuzu/hidan Characters: Sasori (Naruto), Deidara (Naruto), Hidan (Naruto), Kakuzu (Naruto) Additional Tags: SasoDei Week 2023 (Naruto), 90'S, Akatsuki - Freeform, Alternate Universe - Modern Setting, Claire's AU, Mafia AU, If You Squint - Freeform, we are taking liberties translating the akatsuki into a modern setting here, Drug Use, Drug Dealing, Blood and Violence, POV Alternating, Bottom Deidara (Naruto), Top Sasori, BDSM, Impact Play, Praise Kink, Edging, Orgasm Control, Overstimulation, Sasori is still a puppet master but only in the loosest terms, if you catch my drift, Shibari, Suspension, Fucking Machines, Porn With Plot, Hurt/Comfort, Bratting, brat taming, Dom/sub Series: Part 1 of Mallrats Cinematic Universe Summary: In which the Akatsuki are 90's mallrats by day, crime syndicate by night. All the best criminals have a day job to launder their rent money, but the real fun only starts once they're off the clock.

#deidara #sasori #sasodei #claires au #mallrats #i dont wanna give any spoilers but #if you didnt know the difference between power dynamics vs positions #aka dom/sub vs top/bottom #hopefully you will now uwu #smut now plot later #head empty just these guys going at it like fucking rabbits 24/7 #we'll get to the plot when i say so until then we're all just gonna be happy the muse caught me on a day off #okay? okay <3 #my writing #mallrats!akatsuki #its my au i get to pick the tags #yes i am still working on my sasodei2023 fic after already posting another sasodei2024 fic #ariana grande and what about it dot gif #sighs deeply #when will i be free #when will i be cured of the brain rot #i really gotta carve it out with my own two hands and post it on the internet #its just me and a few dozen fellow inmates of the sasodei unit of the psychward #we are in this together lads #smh i gotta do everything around here if i wanna read it i gotta fuckin write it. and i WILL. its rotten work but christ alive ill do it

[dailykugisaki]

Day 164 | id in alt

Itadori you and your ability and genuine want to eat weird shit is horrifying.

#jjk #dailykugisaki #kugisaki nobara #itadori yuji #THIS BOY IS FUCKING HIMSELF UP JUST BC SUKUNA #HELLL #also i dont know if i got the day right or wrong. if i got it wrong ill change it when my internet stops shitting itself #do not comment on the fucked up day if i did get it wrong ill throw up actually #anyway Itadori will jump on any rotten thing if it is a chance to fuck up sukunas day #they are menaces to eachother and rightfully so #what the fuck is my style its a big huh and BUH??? #being half curse and possessed cant save you from a stomach bug #THE DATE IS FIXED. I CACKLED BC I SKIPPED A DAY LMAOOOO #the giant blotch of magenta on the second image was an accident i am just not about to fuck with the doodle to fix it

[cosmic-hoboandthehighlander]

Not looking forward to the phone call I’m going to get from my mother later for clapping back at her transphobic aunt in my Facebook comments. I feel sick; this is why I don’t defend myself or other trans people because I deal with lashback every time.

Fucking hate this state.

#transphobia #tw transphobia #tw mental health #kim Reynolds is a rotten piece of shit and I hope she gets what’s fucking coming to her #fucking bitch #also my great aunt is also a bitch. Hope she sees how awful she is some day

[hannibalismos-jaaneman]

so i never said this to anyone and bottling this up is exhausting so i'm just gonna vomit it here. PLEASE SENSITIZE CHILDREN TO ART.

#raj shitposting #so on new year's eve my apartment complex decided to have like a little carnival and people were invited to set up stalls for their stuff #so my mother is a mix media artist and i FORCED her to set up a stall which i kinda sorta regret now because of this thing that happened #so we were setting up our stall and a little boy comes up and wants to purchase something from the jewelry section and when we #tell him the price of the piece he calls my MOTHER'S ART A SCAM. A SEVEN YEAR OLD BOY WHO DOESN'T EVEN KNOW HOW TO SPELL PHOTOSYNTHESIS!!! #WHO DOESN'T KNOW WHAT A SCAM ACTUALLY IS. CALLS MY MOTHER'S ENTIRE ART A SCAM. #i wanted to smack him so hard across the face but my mother held me back and told me to calm down and asked him to get lost. #but the entire day our mood was rotten about this #PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF FUCKING GOD TELL YOUR CHILDREN THAT IT'S NOT OKAY TO INSULT SOMEONE'S WORK LIKE THAT!!!!!!! #YOU IMBECILE IT'S EXPENSIVE BECAUSE IT REQUIRES SKILL AND MATERIAL THAT IS DIFFICULT TO PROCURE AND KNOWLEDGE THAT IN ITSELF IS HELLA- #-EXPENSIVE TO GATHER!!!!! #ART IS INVALUABLE GUYS WHY DO YOU THINK OUR PARENTS PRESERVE THOSE STUPID ASS CRAYON LANDSCAPES FROM OUR CHILDHOOD????? #he might be a child and not know what any of this means but he could just back off... this is NOT curiosity it's mean spiritedness #and FUCKING RUDE #i was a child sometime in my life. i never talked shit like that to a 40 YEAR OLD AND TALKED BACK WHEN THEY ASKED ME TO BACK OFF #smh #anti intellectualism #art

[hyp3rfixation-h3ll]

i have been Considering. watching sgt frog again. bc i stopped at around 119 . and it is a very fun show. but The Horrors

#sgt frog #keroro gunso #i cannot explain to you the amount of mental shit i have to brace myself for when watching this show #its good! dont fucking watch it. please god #its like home//stuck . like im dead serious it has the same effect #everyone who ive asked about hs to. has told me Never to read it #and im going to repeat that same sentiment for sgt frog. Never fucking watch this show /lh #they GET YOU with the first episode it's CAPTIVATING it's UNIQUE its like CANDY #and the rest of the show is one Long #Long #terrible horrible no good Very Bad trip . that IS GOOD. in some parts #but sometimes it leaves you wondering what the FUCK they were smoking in the writer's office #this isnt accounting for how unwelcome in the fandom i feel being a keroro fictive btw. which is its whole OTHER POST that nobody'll read #my point is . fucking . sgt frog sucks (affectionately derogatory) #it aged like the finest Milk left out on a Hot summer day in arizona #and by god we are all consuming the absolutely rotten curds #sorry for that analogy it was trhe best i got #btw i put this in the main tags . bc everyone Knows sgt frog sucks. we;ve all agreed this show sucks Butt and Ass and Balls #i should hope so anyways #because it does. its GOOD dont get me wrong. but Oh My God is it Bad

[rawliverandgoronspice]

yeah, I just feel really really numb.

#thoughts #trying to not overspill on here #but the current world events are truly sending me down the mental health gutter right now #it's not even like I didn't know what kind of nightmare world order we live in but #yeah can't focus on anything #I'm really physically isolated too and cannot leave my house for the whole week #so I genuinely cannot do anything beyond giving donations that are kept from reaching destination #and pretend everything is fine and dandy at work as if I had it in me to care about videogames at the moment #while my government reveals once again how much a fascist conglomerate of US-bootlickers white supremacist pieces of shit they really are #sorry it's normally not the tone here but I just... it's so disheartening #witnessing utterly inhumane violence branded as righteous and inevitable #and I know it's in moments like these that it's vital not to give up on people and to band together and believe in democracy etc etc #but god are we being tested right now #and I'm not even... affected like I'm not someone who might get directly hurt as a result of all this #but even this unearned privilege feels rancid and rotten and so fucking wrong #I don't understand how so many people can just... go on with their day as this is happening #as everybody's place in the system is being cemented and enforced by all manners of violence #I mean I do understand helplessness is a thing we truly cannot do much individually especially when your country banned protests #but yeah #might delete later

[formula-fun]

Whenever people debate whether Charles should leave Ferrari, it's like, do you even believe in romance???

people will wax poetic about the narrative and then say he should leave in the same breath. If you want that then what's the narrative? if you don't believe in the world it would be stupid to paint it!!! if you dont believe in god, then who are you talking to ???? like

#charles leclerc #im so glad some of you guys get me on this #the day he leaves ferrari is the day ferrari lets him go and that will be devastating to me #him winning with another team? devastating to me #nobody loves ferrari more then him so if he decides someday it's not worth it? if HE decides that???? that will be literally crushing #like this is the love story of their generation girl tbh #the scuderia is limping along saying its rotten work #he said not to me not if its you #they are both insane and evil #she is an eldritch horror and she is not sure why he is not running away #people keep implying it's because he doesn't understand and its pissing me off #he understands!!! he sees it!!! he sees the blood and teeth!!! hes just not afraid of it!!!!! #he walked into it with his eyes open!! he loves it anyway!! she is not sure why he is not running away but it's because he loves it!!! god #hes our fucked up lil guy. who else would he love like that??? but also what other team would be able to handle all that?? #the frat boy energy drink team?? bro what about the NARRATIVE

[pepprs]

genuinely so angry and scared im shaking. how many other times this week this month this year have i been exposed without knowing it. do people even tell each other anymore. it’s just so grim. it’s so fucking grim

#purrs #delete later #covid19 #i am fighting for my fucking life every day to stay safe and to keep the people around me some of whom are disabled / chronically ill / #immunocompromised / medically vulnerable safe. i am fucking fighting for my life. it’s already hard that i am usually one of two people in #any given room still wearing a mask let alone an n95 mask. hard and bad enough that we get looks for wearing masks and people think im crazy #for my life still being on hold and for my family still basically never going anywhere. ITS FUCKING WORSE that we are still very much in the #throes of all of it and we are in constant physical and quite frankly EXISTENTIAL danger not only of getting sick / becoming (more) #disabled / literally fucking dying but also returning to the absolute hell of lockdown which while important was psychologically damaging in #ways that are difficult to even articulate. like not only have we as a society decided to not give a shit about unpacking all of that and #healing from the trauma and assuming everyone went through the same thing when we very much did not and to just send everybody back to #school and work because 🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑capitalism🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑 but we have ALSO decided to pretend like the freakish unceasing danger just doesn’t exist #anymore and to get rid of every tool we had available to keep us safe or at minimum make people have to pay exorbitant amounts of money to #access them because 🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑capitalism🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑 !!!!!!! im TIRED. im so fucking tired of it. i am so fucking exhausted and angry and scared. and i #HAVE the luxury and privilege of being able to afford n95 masks and covid tests and to be able to work a job that i can do remotely if i #need to and to not be disabled or immunocompromised. what makes me fucking furious is we decided to throw all the people who don’t have #that access or privilege under the fucking bus and forget about them lol. but what do you expect from a country rotten to its core the way #it is lol. im fucking despondent. why are we living in an incinerator. #* the lockdown(s) werent just important they were necessary. and arguably we should have another one even though if we do i genuinely fear #for my mental health both during and afterwards and quite frankly before. im tired. i am grateful for the life i live which has resulted in #part from the different things that have happened because of the pandemic but i also so desperately wish this never happened and every day I #think about what life would be like if it hadn’t happened. the grief of it all is unspeakably big.

[lucy-ghoul]

anti r.eylo on my dash in the year of our lord 2024? god. get over yourselves this is ridiculous

#i adventure outside of my comfort zone (aka mutuals/blogs i trust) for ONE time #'r.eylos are racists uwu' i'm sure some of them are since it's a huge ass fandom #and there was that whole scandal months ago (which btw the other fans denounced) #but a loooot of r.eylos are poc. ik because i followed them back in the day #also... i'm sorry but being an anti r.eylo doesn't make you immune to racism? #i've lost count of how many antis were fucking racists/homophobic to poc/queer r.eylos over the years #in this whole stupid ass 'war' there was a lot of rotten borderline harassment. believe me i was There #it's also ironic when this bullshit moral superiority attitude comes from people who ship equally or even more problematic ships #and when i say ironic i mean fucking unsufferable #that's what i really can't stand. not the dislike/hate of the pairing itself because at this point i don't even care much about it #and i was always in the sw fandom for different characters/ships anyway #but the fucking Holier Than Thou bs. ~i'm not racist but You Are because you're a dirty ratlo uwu~ on god. SHUT UP #val speaks #the discourse #val rambles in the tags #txt

[bunnyb34r]

Hmm is this burnout (overdoing everything bc the craft show is SATURDAY) or just a depression episode? Or both??

Either way this shit sucks I have shit to do

#marquilla #i have to get shit packed. fill the handwarmers. fill the cat toys. make the bunnies. finish the teeth. deal with the necklaces and clean #the display stand. and then we're gonna have to pack all this shit up in my car 😭 thank god i have a wagon dgdgdgdg #i didnt use it at the Big Show one and i had to walk across the whole parking lot AND the school hallways AND the gym 😭 i was dying #and in not craft show stuff i have to sort and clean my salads for the week (i really wish josie's organic fucking had quality control or #something bc my salads will be a best by date 7-10 days away and ill have to throw out a quarter of it bc it's rotting or turning #there's no other option besides make my own and ADHD tax... Dole salads are too expensive for what you get and theres no other #premade just greens salad where we shop 😩 #like the parts that ARENT rotten or turning make a great salad but i hate that i have to sit down and sort through it #oh and i have to sort the red lettuce from the greens bc that rots faster and the stiffer greens last longer #i get those big tubs of salad and split it into four portions and will eat the whole portion as a meal shdhdhhd

[fionnaskyborn]

one day when i am not busy dying on the inside and out i will write an honest-to-god essay about how people are, for the lack of a better descriptor but simultaneously for the lack of a more perfect one, too edgy about five.

#like yeah five is an edgy game and the darkest in the series and gloomier than all of its predecessors but. i lack the words for it now but #there are important little moments in five where light shines through the carpet haphazardly thrown over a pile of garbage that oft get #ignored in favor of pushing the agenda that everyone in five is filth down to the core and that's just not true #i just- deeeeeeep sigh. people are so shallow sometimes man #this is how we get those characters that do not resemble the original in the slightest that either take one trait of the given character an #then bloat and exagerrate it until the character is a caricature of themselves OR projections of what the people would like these character #to BE in order to... be able to wrap their heads around them and their motivations more easily‚ i guess?? #i don't know it feels to me like people just don't want to bother with the intricacies of complex characters and that's how the wood plank #versions of characters get created and then passed around ad infinitum #sweet grouchy baby boy who never did anything wrong ever. man who is either an innocent little big guy or satan himself. guy who is #objectively one of the most flawed individuals in the series being worshipped as a hero (griffith syndrome). guy who is either depicted as #an obnoxious playboy who only cares about getting laid and having as much skin exposed as possible at all times or the most vile man on #planet earth while being neither. the fucking. masochist cyborg thing. i'm gonna explode #oh and if you point out that there needs to be depth to any analysis of these characters if you are to do them justice you end up with a #gaggle of people saying oh yeah of course everyone in here is awful and they all have pig hearts #and i'm just wondering why this is the default conclusion most come to and not‚ you know‚ the thought that complexity does not inherently #imply rottenness but rather that even in the most horrible of situations you can find something good #i'm not the happiest or the most fortunate of individuals but i still refuse to believe in the idea of inherent evil that's being sold for #cheaper than a copy paper pack these days #but that has nothing to do with this my point is if you're trying to do media analysis you've got to look beyond... i don't have a word for #this... i guess you could call them fanmade stereotypes? no that's not it‚ my point is that people need to open their eyes to how complex #motivations and circumstances and human connection are and face that complexity head on instead of rubbing the story with sandpaper until #it's satisfiable to them #logs

[girlbob-boypants]

I use my likes as a bookmark function so I like personal posts to show people support and then unlike said posts a few days later so that's the context otherwise this might come off as more random. anyways. thinking of what you've said about toxic positivity and I have to say being in those circles, it does also get to the point where it feels like you cant even talk about the things you do like and why, because the mentality of just of "if you dont have the same views 1:1 to me then it's a personal attack" so it's more of a personal anecdote but those spaces are severely allergic to any serious discussion even if its positive criticism and analysis lmao

Listen I've got ADHD. "This might seem random but" is about how I start 90% of tangents.

As for the actual discussion, 500% yeah. While I mostly rant about toxic positivity cause it's most of what I deal with, toxic negativity can be just as prevalent. It's the main reason I even mentioned reddit in the tags of the post I think you're talking about. When the changes for the daily system in my current mmo came out, anyone who talked about the good things got accused of "forcing positivity" for the act of not making yet another post about how awful the bad parts of the system were (which they were but also the good parts were just as good as the had parts were bad. Its a fascinating duality)

But honestly go onto any internet connected multiplayer game reddit after a change and you'll see what I'm talking about. Criticism skews towards hateful and positivity is accused of being forced.

I just find that small fandoms within tumblr tend towards being very insular groups that expect positivity. Like to the point where someone in my main mmo apologized for saying "hey do not buy this because charging $20+ for this is downright predatory" because it was "negativity." The act of letting people know a business is trying to steal money with a pretty cosmetic you'll never see for more than 3 seconds at a time being considered negativity in a fandom is insane to me, frankly.

Which if I wanted to argue a cause with nothing but anecdotes, I'd say it likely comes from the way criticism of big name fans within small fandoms will often be met with a response of "Ugh I don't need this negativity in my happy place" regardless of the context or validity.

At the same time tho I 100% know what you mean by pushback against positive criticism even within those same spaces that I find toxic positivity to be prevalent in. Just look at the fact that "im a hater" posts get so many notes. No post about a personal belief can be rb'd on tumblr without easily influenced people altering their personas to fit it here (see: the way funny bitchy posts between friends getting popular and resulting in being rude to strangers). Saying you like something thats (fandom) universally accepted to be bad can be grounds for mockery etc.

At the end of the day it does boil down to what you said at the end, people hate any serious discussion of their favorite media, regardless of whether it's positive or negative. And any variance from the (perceived) fandom universal belief will result in pushback of some kind.

#girlbob.txt #im guessing this comes in no small part from your dealings in om spaces from what i remember of your favorite character and how he's treate #which i 500% get #searching the braham tag is just not a thing i do cause to this day people still say rotten things #and liking him is considered a personal flaw #but even beyond that just liking something that gets dunked on can be considered 'Forced Positivity' #which like. putting that term on the top shelf #anyway long answer to a short statement sorry #i do get what you mean i just tend to bang on toxic positivity more cause i face it in the small fandoms i don't belong to #but share a media with #like the time i said it's suspicious that both of the games DE has a hand in had really predatory mtx around the same time #and someone told me to go to reddit #which fuck that bootlicker first of all but the fact that was considered negative enough for that response lmfao #and god the mmos i like #i redacted this segment i've said so much already

[meowmeowmessi]

people actually tweet out shit like this then turn around and slander messi lmfao i hope a rabid cannibal finds you in the streets one day and devours your organs in front of your loved ones

#im still so fucking salty my fucking god. they're letting busi stay in exchange for reducing his wages #but messi? yeah fuck the best player in the world who crucified himself for your club ig #and afaik de jong isn't reducing his wages now is he. but that's w/e i don't actually care about that #it's 2023 and im still utterly utterly baffled by how callously barça treated messi. and continues to do so even to this day #what a rotten institution

[bugsmoocher]

saw a big fat cricket at work today

#now that everybody has been distracted by rhe cricket i am going to complain in the tags so dont look unless you really want to ^_^ #god my prides gotten so fucking stomped on these past few days i dont even know what i did wrong at the job interview #how do they hire this deadbeat i know but not me #ive never gotten turned down before and i did everything well and i said yes to all the shit they wanted from me #everybody was so sure id get it and it was going to fix everything #but now im sitting here worried about finding a new job all over again #once more worried about not getting an apartment because i dont make enough #once more getting sprayed in the fucking face with rotten fish at my shitty job and trying not to cry in my car #sitting here trying not to bother anybody with it #idk how longer i can do this shit man #if more shit goes wrong i think im gonna drive my car into a lake