#when by dodie

[wormonastringtheory]

oh when by dodie we're really in it now

#dodie #doddleoddle #dodie clark #when by dodie #god this song means so much #the week. the week my life changed because of Natalie fucking Miller #i produced a breathtaking cover of this #its lost to time #i recorded three part harmonies to it #i need to do again now that ive grown and healed so much

[l0nely-and-aesthetic]

Oh it’ll be over and I’ll still be asking when?

#late night thoughts #dodie clark #the 1975 satvb #the 1975 tattoo #the 1975 #dodie #when by dodie

[thefood-oflove]

when olivia rodrigo said “tried so hard to be everything that you like/ just for you to say you’re not the compliment type” and when chappell roan said “And I try to be the chill girl/That holds her tongue and gives you space” and when richard siken said “Love, for you, is larger than the usual romantic love… it’s like a religion. it’s terrifying. no one will ever want to sleep with you” and when mitski said “So if you need to be mean/Be mean to me” and dodie said “I kissed someone because it's fair/ Oh, do I tell you, would you care?/ So deeply hurt, you beg for who/ Or are you kissing someone too?” and when boygenius said “I came prepared for absolution, if you'd only ask/ So I take some offense when you say, ‘No regrets’” and when girl in red said “So, I'll be willing to let this die, / Able to look you right in the eyes, / Say I'm not your consolation prize” and when

#something something #one of us feels such an intense need for the other #and the other just casually tosses us aside when we’re not useful anymore #etc etc #can you guess which one i was #love #richard siken #litany in which certain things are crossed out #olivia rodrigo #boygenius #lucy dacus #phoebe bridgers #julien baker #mitski #girl in red #chappell roan #the rise and fall of a midwest princess #dodie #dodie clark #doddleoddle #i kissed someone (it wasn’t you)

[magnoliasandbeardedtooth]

thinking about the relationship between sif and the universe, and related theories / headcanons aka I listened to a song and I need to get these feefees out of me

this is a lot of prelude for something that can be shown with just the video clip, but I want to include all the strings that make up this knot

Its not explicitly stated, but I believe it's pretty clear that whenever sif repeats something three times while hoping for something (sharpening the keyknife, carving in general, praying to the change god statue in dormont), he is performing wish craft.

however, he doesnt repeat anything three times when getting the keyknife. he doesnt even need to pray to get it at all, the change god just gives it to him. they say themselves that they dont care for rituals. they never even take credit for the stat buff, they only take credit for the keyknife

when sif changes how they pray at the change god statue, their method more strongly resembles the ritual to make a wish at the favor tree (picking the one you like best), and as a result the buff gets better. it is the wish craft ritual that is the important part of the prayer to that statue, not the change god

one thing that IS explicitly stated is just how powerful wish craft is for those who know the rituals, and how dangerous it is in the wrong hands. between the disappearance of colors (Im pretty sure that was the result of a wish, I may be misremembering), the disappearance of the country, and the king being nearly successful in freezing all of vaugarde in time, it only takes one wish to take out massive chunks of the world at a time

we know that wish craft is very entwined in the culture of the country (the story written about in the journal is told as a cautionary fairy tale, the rituals themselves are so deeply ingrained in sif that the wish to forget the country did not restrict his memory of the rituals, and he can perform wish craft without even being fully aware he is doing it)

it seems reasonable to me that the reason for the country's disappearance was to hide the existence of wish craft and the rituals to access that power from the rest of the world. considering sif didnt even remember his culture AND had good intentions, and still nearly ended the world, seems like that concern is pretty well founded. however, thats not the important theory Im making this post about

the country has knowledge of wish craft in conjunction with worship of the universe. "the universe leads, we can only follow," "the universe willed it," seems pretty safe to say that sif's Universe is the "entity" that is granting wishes

the way wishes are described, they dont seem like something the universe grants based on who worships it. as long as you know the ritual, you get the wish. everyone is part of the universe, after all, worshiper or not

Admittedly, its a bit of a stretch to say that the universe as a collective force has any sense of empathy for human struggles. but using the change god as an example, as spiteful as they are to sif, and unsympathetic to anything other than a human's role in the concept of change, they still show a great deal of care and favor to mira, someone who loves them. it is possible for a deity to care for those that care about it

sif, despite no longer having access to his culture or why he cares about the universe, still loves the universe, very very deeply, just as much as mira loves change. the change god says that sif's deity will never answer him, but I dont think thats the case

and this is the important headcanon that I am making this post for

sif is performing the rituals, so he gets the wishes, simple as. but I feel strongly that his wishes getting granted in very small but noticeable ways, despite not knowing how or why hes doing it, is the presence of his universe helping him, caring for him, even when he doesnt remember it

the strongest evidence for this, and the basis for this whole thing, is exactly how euphrasie breaks down in act 5

at first I only really noticed when she laughs, it reminded me very much of how the change god, a being who uses sprites of other characters and has done a whole possession, laughed during their encounter. they and euphrasie are the only two that use anything other than "ha," and right after this laugh is when her breakdown pauses and she says the lines

"... Soon you'll be able to go back to your normal lives. Away from battle and strife. Finally, you'll all be able to go home!!!"

which, knowing the end of the game is coming, is incredibly relevant. very deliberate

before this pause, her breakdown seems pretty chaotic. the characters and the player are just coming out of one harrowing experience, and are clearly headed for another. the cohesiveness of this glitchy breakdown amongst a mess of the rest of the world doing the same isnt really high up on the list of priorities. none of the characters notice anything beyond the fact that reality is breaking, not even sif. it just sounds like scary nonsense.

but with the context of euphrasie being possessed to talk to sif, every single one of her lines makes perfect sense

(footage from Zhain Gaming on yt)

the universe is there its talking directly to him, it was there the whole time

the Universe loves Sif so much

#isat #in stars and time #isat spoilers #isat act 5 spoilers #I have no idea how obvious this is or if its old news #since I havent seen anyone else talk about it #but the relationship between sif and the universe makes me emotional #I wrote this at 3 am based on memory #at first I wasnt too confident in it since it was only based on the laugh and the lines that follow it #this was just something that made me happy that I was gonna keep no matter what #but when I went back to look at the lines and found that every one lined up‚ I cried #anyway #I wanted to write this whole thing after listening to Secret For The Mad by Dodie under the lens of the universe talking to siffrin #special shoutout to pidgey who joked that the universe was adrienne actually #they were goofing but as a high concept meta art thing I can definitely appreciate #speaks

[rottenlittlefink]

Yeah, we’re gay, keep scrolling

#mlp #moral orel #miss censordoll #dodie flannelsocks #moral orel oc #I want twilight and francis to interact so badly #poor twilight when she visits moralton on friendship business and sees fran burning books

[charliespringverse]

hi i spent three weeks on this and i'm really proud of it so i'm posting it everywhere because wtf !! i made this !! with my own two gay little hands !!!!!

#jay screams into the void #dodie #doddleoddle #i usually hate everything i make but i'm genuinely sososo proud of this #like . i planned and organised and finished this On Time and didn't give up when it got stressful and i MADE IT #and i am PLEASED WITH IT

[risu442]

i’m very sorry. i did not consider your fragile sanity when hitting 'post'. 😔

It's not your fault, it's Jeffy's. Like the details pls! How dare he be so pretty and so manly at the same time? Go fuck off Jeffy 😤

#but fr #when he shows those arms.next to his fucking pretty face i am down #he is so #damn #jeff satur #illegal #should ban him #btw i really love u dodie #u know exactly how to ruin me in a good way

[shimmershy]

Um, hi! I made a playlist for the Dreemurr siblings, inspired by your art and all the songs you have for them on this blog! I hope you like it.

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/68t2wHso6fFBDRcLr24hbx?si=s9QmTOv7R062uV32m3QBxw&pi=u-AWBKa9tmRlOK

Hi I hope you know this means the world to me. <3 I listened to it through this morning and loved it!! Really good playlist!! Holding it in my hands....... So many great song choices, they're all very fitting. I'm really glad my stuff inspired you! Thank you so much for sharing! :0

#ask #headspace-tales #genuinely got very excited when i saw this...i love having new playlists to listen to and i feel super honored to have inspired it somewhat #it's really cool because i do recognize a lot of the songs but this also introduced me to some new songs which I'm vibing with immensely. #so thank you shidkd. never heard that one by Porcupine Tree but I love it a lot. and i know I've heard No Sunlight before but only #in passing. it's a new favorite though and has been stuck in my head for most of the day. #nightclothes by radical face and epilogue by the antlers..... auuughhh. and monster by dodie........ #don't die in me by mirah........... </333333 #AND isle of flightless birds by twenty one pilots #a playlist catered towards me for real....... #i am very much rambling in the tags. sorry for getting so excited about this I'm an unbelievably huge Music Enthusiast. #music my beloved.

[elliesgaymachete]

I understand i am poking a wasp’s nest here and you could not pay me enough money to actually tag this with anything cr (which is why all the ships mentioned are censored lmao)

Anyway i love c2 with my entire being. But. The fandom drama through the whole campaign was WILD.

#anyway my pick goes for when liam was harassed into removing she by dodie from his character playlist #because wtf. it’s a SONG

[thesixscapes]

dodie was right the memories are painted with much brighter ink

#dodie #when

[afairycreature]

moments I'm made of

#that 70s show #eric forman #the perks of being a wallflower #when dodie #emma 2020 #emma woodhouse #mr knightley #she's always a women billy joel #derry girls #new girl

[ellsss]

im really sad tbh. im trying to be happy but im just really really sad rn. my christmas was awful. had a meltdown because my sister was completely aggressive in a conversation but apparently she talks to everyone like that so that makes it okay, my parents again, showed their ableism and i tried to chat to people to make me feel better and they dismissed me or were really busy(fair enough) so.. yeah.

im really angry and fed up with no one caring about me or even trying to cater to me. it's always me that has to change and be better and be less sensitive and accommodate others but when is it my turn?

im always the draining aggressive mean domineering one when im not even trying to be. its always what people do and they always misread and misinterpret my actions and body language and tone and im sick of always having to monitor myself 24/7. i can never just relax and live in the moment because im always thinking about how i am or how others are going to read me.

i hate my family, i feel like my friends always find me too hard to deal with and im always doing something wrong. im tired and its not fair. i hate being autistic.

#ellsss' rambles #it'll be over and i'll still be asking when #i'll live in the moment but i'm never happy here #i'll always feel and be alone #Spotify #dodie is me internally at this point #dodie #i hate being autistic #ableism

[unorthodox-soundwave]

Lyrics That Have Aro Vibes™ from Songs I Like

i dunno how many of these are meant to be aro--probably none--but i don't care. they are aro now. even if it doesn't really make sense in the full song. they're aro because i said so.

(cutoff bc it's a sorta-long post)

Turning Out - AJR

"Am I ready for love? / Or maybe just a best friend / Should there be a difference / Do you have instructions?"

Turning Out Pt. ii - AJR

"I think I probably wasn't in love with you / I think I probably loved the idea of you"

Crush Culture - Conan Gray

"And no one cares if you two made out / I'm sick of the kissing cult" (this one was very hard to pick a lyric from but i think this is the most fitting for today specifically)

I Don't Need Your Love - SIX

"That I don't need your love, no, no / I don't need your love, no, no"

When - Dodie

"I think I've been telling lies / 'Cause I've never been in love"

Crush - Tessa Violet

"But that's not what I wanna do now / And I'm not tryna be with you now, you now"

Oh No! - Marina and The Diamonds

"TV taught me how to feel"

FRIENDS - Anne-Marie & Marshmello

"You say you love me, I say you crazy / We're nothing more than friends"

#oh no! has more obvious picks but i like the TV one the best #turning out #turning out pt ii #ajr #crush culture #conan gray #i don't need your love #six the musical #when #dodie #crush #tessa violet #oh no! #marina and the diamonds #FRIENDS #anne marie #marshmello #aro #aromantic #aro pride #aromantic pride

[kaseyskat]

lovesong 38 for the kiss prompt pwease nyxie <3

(#38 - a kiss because they're running out of time)

~~~

"You're going to break up with me."

The way Nick says it has Sparrow flinching, even as they sit together in Nick's bedroom, hiding from the rest of the world. You're wrong, he wants to say more than anything, but the words die on his tongue, and all he can do is turn his head, stare at his partner.

Nick is staring straight ahead, not looking at anything. His hair hides his expression, and with the way his hands are folded in his lap, his shoulders slumped, Sparrow knows he's already accepted it; that this night will be their last, one way or another.

"Yeah," he finally admits, and he breathes deep through his nose and exhales through his mouth, just like his father taught him. "I... you know I don't want to, but..."

"Your family," Nick says flatly. This, too, almost has Sparrow wince: over the two years they've been seeing each other in secret, he had finally gotten the soft side of Nick, the side of him he hadn't let anyone else see. It hurts now, being treated just like the rest of their friend group.

"My family." Sparrow slumps now too, and he stares at the floor- it hurts too much to look at Nick any longer, to see someone he loves so withdrawn. "I don't want to hurt you, starling."

"You could never hurt me," Nick says, quietly, but he doesn't sound entirely convinced.

It's not true, anyways. All my brother and I know how to do is hurt people. Still, Sparrow swallows, and he hesitantly reaches out one hand, placing it over Nick's in his lap without looking at him in the process.

"It doesn't have to be tonight," he murmurs, tentative and soft, hesitant. "Will you... will you spend one more night with me?" Please. I don't want this either.

Sparrow has never prioritized his own wants over the needs of others, especially when it comes to his father and Lark and the mess of the world they've made together. This one, though, hurts worse than all the other times he's allowed his familial duty to win over his personal desires. Can't he have one good thing in his life? Can't he have this?

"One more night," Nick agrees, and when his hands close over Sparrow's own, Sparrow finally regains the courage to look at him. Surprisingly, Nick is looking back at him, and even with how upset he clearly is about the entire situation, his gaze reflects nothing but fondness.

"So kiss me," Sparrow challenges, and he tilts his head up, baring his neck. Make me forget why I'm breaking up with you. Make me feel like this night will last forever. "Please."

"Well, since you asked so nicely," Nick huffs.

Usually, when they kiss, it's in a blaze of passion. Sparrow still doesn't really care for kissing, but he enjoys the way Nick feels pressed against him, the heady rush of power that goes to his head, the way Nick makes him feel claimed, taken, loved.

This time, though, it's slow. Nick trails a hand over Sparrow's cheek, thumbing gently over the curve of his lips, his fingers tingling as he brushes hair behind Sparrow's ear. Sparrow's squirming in place by the time those fingers trail lower, to his neck, and then curl around to his hair.

"Nicky, what are you doing?" he finally asks when Nick still makes no move to lean in, instead focusing so hard on combing through Sparrow's hair, his gaze dark and intense.

"Studying you," Nick answers. "So I never forget."

Well, damn. Sparrow shuts up, and he takes the time to study Nick in return: the curve of his jawline, the way his jacket gives way to his collarbone, the faintest trace of bite marks that Sparrow's left for him in the past. He is, Sparrow thinks, unfairly attractive.

It'll hurt leaving him behind. Fuck.

Finally, finally, Nick uses the hand still tangled in Sparrow's hair to coax him forwards, drawing him into a kiss. It is softer than any other time they've kissed: before, Nick would kiss like he's staking a claim, but now each gentle press of his lips is an apology, a goodbye.

Sparrow can only close his eyes, allow himself to fall prone into Nick's arms, remain stock-still when Nick trails his lips against the corner of Sparrow's mouth and then lower, mouthing at the skin of his neck.

If Nick notices when he starts crying, he doesn't say anything.

#dndads #kasey writes stuff #lovesong #nick foster #sparrow oak garcia #this is set when theyre seventeen btw! #the concept is that they were dating until the oaks got the. chosen one prophecy #then sparrow breaks up with nick to pursue rebecca because its safer. easier. #also this one was highkey inspired by one last time please by dodie hehe

[logically-asexual]

turned 24. usually i’m fine about birthdays i don’t really care about them. but now i feel. bad.

#vent #i discovered dodie when i was 17 and she was like?? 22? #she wrote her album at 24 #now i’m 24. and im. worse. than when i was 17 #at least then i had hopes #because i could look forward to uni #now i’m just here wasting away two years after i should have already gotten officially my degree #:(

[a-tiny-sloth]

left behind.

Orla Gartland, Left Behind // Alice Oseman, Radio Silence // Taylor Swift, right where you left me // Taylor Swift, New Year's Day // dodie, anything (demo) // Maggie Stiefvater, The Raven Boys // Mïrändä, Stay

[ID in alt text]

#started making this when i was working through something last year #i'm in a completely different place now but i wanted to finish it anyways bc being left behind is shitty! #orla gartland #alice oseman #radio silence #taylor swift #dodie #maggie stiefvater #the raven cycle #web weaving #noah's stuff