#which i dont

[turtleplushi]

Meta Knight needs so much therapy, if only there was a therapist in Cappy Town that could-

#turtle talks #i could write a one shot about this if i knew how therapy worked #which i dont #meta knight #kirby mabel #kirby right back at ya

[shadowseductress]

I can never answer anons with a paragraph. Fuck anons, I can't answer anyone with a paragraph.

#not a big fan of talking #paragraphs are not my thing #only exception is when i love you or care enough for you #which i dont

[squidkidnerd]

this is a psa that "if i could tell her" from dear evan hansen (specifically the sapphic version by reinaery) is SUCH an agent 24 song it's unreal. CRIMINAL no one's made a pmv of it yet

#splatoon #agent 24 #'but we're a million worlds apart' yeah how abt growing up in two different societies that are enemies of each other #just AUGHHHH #anyways i would definitely make a pmv if i had the time and the art skills #which i dont #so yeah #if u decide to make one credit me /j

[wickedwitchofthewilds]

W-what if I gave Rhea just one more lover??

#she already has 3 #4 if you count Gortash #which i dont #hes a means to an end #fucking him is fun but she isnt invested in saving him #astarion and halsin of course #raphael is an old lover she wants to know again #karlach was an almost lover #but what about gale #hmmm #needy gale

[faszaakisshobbi]

im losing my mind. im not prepared for next week at all. and im 1st chair again. at least this week im prepared. and I JUST FUCKING GOT THE CHAMBER MUSIC FOR NEXT WEEK ITS THREE FUCKING PAGES I CANNOT DO THIS ANYMORE

#please im losing my mind #people are gonna think I don't know what Im doing #which I dont #but dear lord I wanna kms #what if I started crying in front of this poor grown man that is my coach for chamber what then?? hmmm??? #or maybe one of the conductors they are sweet and one of them kind of likes me #if I break down in front of Б she will maybe help me or at least comfort me please #teacher crush community #teacher crush #teacher attachment #female teacher crush #female tc #tc feelings #tc crush #tc blog #tc love #tc community

[shadowofmoths]

i wanna do that concert ask meme i’ve seen ppl reblogging but i’ve been to 3 concerts ever. two of them were full collapse shows. thursday played at all of them. that’s it that’s all there is

#unless we count the weird fuckin … charismatic catholic worship services i went to w my parents in high school as concerts #which i DONT #moth sounds

[thickest-antivirus-programs]

I hate sailing so much, historically its for the adventurous but compared to a roadtrip or just going on omegle theres alot less going on. Its mostly about the sport and the strenght which is cool but I've been misled its also about adventure and its not

#Unless you define adventure as taking any risk with very predictable results #Which i dont

[elmentalwish]

dori has one of the smuggest expressions on any genshin character i’ve ever seen and i write miko-

#i love herrrrr #but why did they have to design her like that asdfghgfd #i feel like i have to keep mentioning i dont approve of her design so i dont get blasted by people who think i defending it #which i dont #but play it safe #;the archon of inazuma can’t cook. all they know is dango milk. thunderbolt. pursue eternity and cry. (ooc)

[ethotv-archived]

started making lists again which is awesome however. they only work if i remember they exist

#◇.txt #WHICH I DONT #like to do lists mostly but also just. things i would like to do. things to think about. etc #but i DONT REMEMBER THEM

[aropride]

it's so fucking frustrating to be in college and know everyone uses chatgpt and to be tempted by it constantly while also knowing intellectually that it doesn't work and it's a bad idea. like, i hang out in the library a lot, and i see people using chatgpt on assignments almost every day. and i know it isn't a good way to learn, because it's not really "artificial intelligence" so much as it is an auto text generator. and it gives you wrong information or badly worded sentences all the time. but every week i stare down assignments i don't want to do and i think man. if only i could type this prompt into a text generator and have it done in 10 minutes flat. and i know it wouldn't work. it wouldn't synthesize information from the text the way professors want, it wouldn't know how to answer questions, it just spits out vaguely related words for a couple paragraphs. but knowing my classmates get their work done in 10 minutes flat with it while i fight every ounce of attention deficit hyperactivity disorder in my body is infuriating.

#text #like i KNOW it doesnt work but i still want to use it which is SO FRUSTRATING #bc i DONT want to use it. but its TEMPTING.

[cemeterything]

i think it's so fun that "damn" is such a casual curse word now that it's basically become divorced completely from its original meaning. like oops i dropped my phone, time to invoke the wrath of god about it in the most mildly annoyed tone of voice imaginable.

#🐉 #even around people who dont like swearing you can often get away with it. which is crazy if you think about it. #to be clear i think this is a good thing! fuck cultural christianity lol

[inkskinned]

because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.

you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.

you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.

don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.

if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.

you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:

how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!

aren't you happy yet?

#almost wrote the champagne line as ''effervescent'' but legit could not write it without saying ''effervescent like a snail'' #ah tumblr... #writeblr #warm up #idk . having trouble writing rn #ps i don't like to talk about it . it is my medical information. but before you ask. yes this is about being on the spectrum #i really don't like when ppl make my writing about how im [whatever ID]. i want it to ring true for the people who it rings true for #i don't want it to be like ''awwwww look at this person!!! she's the EXCEPTION!!! :)" ..... #no.... not really..... #idk something gross happens whenever i admit to certain conditions and i turn into like inspiration p*rnography #like yes they actually let us use keyboards these days #furthermore i just... dont feel comfortable talking about this part of me. i had too bad of a childhood. adhd is one thing... #this one im like. still coming to terms with. which is like. my own journey. #idk. just please be kind. some things are more private than others. this one feels private to me. #i do not know how to help others w/this . and i do not know how to help myself. i will talk about it if im ever ready. idk if that will #actually ever happen #ty in advance i love u im kissing you we are kissing somewhere on the spectrum

[bluecrusadearcade]

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#so i cheated in my maths exam #and i got caught #i will face the consequences #backlog subject #they will fail me obviously #gods i am so scared #the whole class saw #and now people spread rumours that i cheat on all exams #which i dont #and i just lost respect from the hod and my professors #wow i fucked up #i dont know what im going to do tbh #next sem onwards ill just keep my head down and sit in the corner of the class #and not talk unless spoken to

[bitchfitch]

I need to draw men being obnoxious to their partners and getting In The Way right now immediately.

#the issue is that I dont know Which Men. #i just need to

[mamawasatesttube]

BTW... PSA.... even if we arent mutuals if youre in my notes regularly theres a Very high chance i am still fond of you. yes im vaguing someones tags on the compliment the person u rbed this from post. but like. positive vaguing? THE POINT IS im weird abt following ppl but IM STILL SENDING U FOND VIBES...

#i have to acclimate myself into following people. first i have to spend a few days to weeks checking someones blog manually #and i cant follow too many new people in the same burst or else theres TOO MUCH new unfamiliarity on my dash #and i become a small and easily frightened beast alarmed by change #also im just....................... incredibly picky kjhsdkjjkdsj sometimes ppl i generally am :)! towards do occasionally rb #from someone who i want to throw bricks at. and then i cant follow them but im still :)! when i see them in notifs #and sometimes its just that im going AAAA!!! AAAA!!! and cant put more new things on my dash #or in some cases its someone im fond of seeing/chatting w whenever we have talked BUT they simply are also into stuff im not rly into #and i dont want it on my dash despite liking them as a person. etc. you know how it is #ALL OF WHICH TO SAY................... :)! #rimi talks

[heedra]

talking to preschoolers is awesome bc they have not fully differentiated stories into 'true stories' and 'imaginary stories' yet so you will tell them about something that happened you once (coyote came out of a bush right in front of you and got startled) and they will tell you about how one time their house was full of coyotes in every room 'including five in the garage' and they're not even like, aware i think of the idea that they are technically 'lying'. they are simply telling stories about coyotes bc its time to tell stories about coyotes.

#like ppl will be like 'kids love to lie' but i think whats going on is the human inclination to storytell. which is pointedly different imo #and like to be clear im not saying they dont know there weren't actually coyotes in their house #its just that like. they don't know why it would matter