#why am i only now realizing this

[geekydemigodinthevoid]

I had another realization today and I'm not okay

#I'm homophobic as of now #my brain is rotting #i cant fucking believe this #who allowed this #why am i only now realizing this #my life has been agony #my 15 year old self's ship vs my ship now #this is why we cant have nice things #cherik #ineffable husbands #aziracrow #good omens spoilers #gomens spoilers #good omens 2 spoilers #good omens 2 #good omens season 2 #gomens 2 #These are opposites and yet the same and I'll never shut up about it #None of these scenes are happening for the same reason and yet #the parallel is inescapable #beach divorce #the kiss #do you see my vision

[stillpartofthisworld]

halfway through Chalice of the Gods and I'm realizing the reason I never thought I had ADHD was because I never presented like Percy. I presented like ANNNABETH

#why am i only NOW realizing this #her infodumping? #her being a Little Outcast in school? #HER ACADEMIC ABILITY BEING TIED DIRECTLY TO THE FACT SHES ACTUALLY INTERESTED IN WHAT SHES LEARNING #and all the little ways she compensates for her symptoms like. #i should've known #pjo #pjo cotg #cotg spoilers

[clj-art-blog]

Ok, I only now noticed how important this moment is.

It is, of course, very romantic and beautiful, but at the same time, Xiaolanhua shows Dongfang Qingcang her complete trust by allowing his hand to be so close to the Heart-Hidden Hairpin.

#This is the first time his hand is so close to this object #and now I understand why she turns her back to him so unsurely at this moment #Why did I only realize this now? #2:10 am. #Although he could take it out at any moment and break it if necessary #but he didn't! #cang lan jue #苍兰诀 #clj #xiao lanhua #moon supreme #dfqc #dylan wang #esther yu #cdrama #love between fairy and devil #lbfad

[zombiegal]

Alrighty then...here ya go...

#trollhunters #gunmar #why am i like this #I only now Realized i drew him in a more chibi ect kinda style?...um enjoy i guess:P

[cluescorner]

I cannot imagine being a Damian stan right now. You've got both Zdarsky's bullshit (where he clearly doesn't give a shit about your boy) and The Boy Wonder (where Juni Ba clearly gives so many shits about your boy) coming out on the same day. The whiplash must be insane. I hope y'all get some nice warm soup for your efforts jfc

#damian wayne #damian al ghul #damian al ghul wayne #batman #batfamily #for all of the issues that come with having Steph as your fave having too much wild shit happening at once is never one of them #btw I quite like The Boy Wonder Issue 1. wow shocker an artist and writer who I have liked everything they've ever done #has once again written something that I am enjoying with art that makes me want to be part of its world. #it's almost like Juni Ba is really freaking talented or something #like I have some problems with it but it seems like many of those are part of the point. Damian is learning that his siblings are more #three-dimensional than he realized and that is part of this 'coming of age' story merged with fairytale #so I can't be mad at the oversimplistic defining of Dick and Jason and Tim until the conclusion of the series. that might be the point. #I hope that the series will address Steph as a Robin but if not then frankly it's not an issue unique to this series. #I'll be annoyed and disappointed but ultimately roll with it like I am with Babsgirl being here. There's too much good stuff here to get #hung up on shit that seems to be almost an editorial mandate at this point. at least that's where I'm at. #I am also very sorry that Chip Zdarsky is massacring your boy. he has 'X (Tim for him) is the best Robin so everyone else must suck' diseas #where a writer really likes one specific Robin and in trying to uplift them demeans all of the other Robins. instead of like...just writing #for that one character only or alternatively not demeaning the other characters in order to make his blorbo look good #it's wild because I actually think his writing for Tim is pretty solid. but he's not writing a Tim series. he's writing a Batman series. #and if you are going to write a Batman series and include other Batfamily members you need to actually write them well. #instead of assigning them like 2 personality traits while Tim gets to be a whole character #I accept that behavior in fanfic where I have lesser standards because it's fucking free. not a comic run that wants me to pay #tens of dollars in order to understand what the fuck is going on. he's been going for a while now it's gotta be a lot of money. #I can buy Steelworks with that money. I can see John Henry and Natasha Irons in a trade. Fuck you Chip. #it's why it takes such a special person to write a good ensemble story/a good Batfamily story. you have to be good at writing a LOT #of different characters. which I don't think most people are. I sure as hell am not. I can write maybe 3 at a time confidently well. #and you also have to give all of them at least SOME love or else people will be upset that you aren't focusing on their fave #and also the writing as a whole will suffer. Chip Zdarsky is a pretty good Tim writer. I'd maybe read a Tim solo written by him. #I would not read a story focusing on multiple characters that I like written by Chip Zdarsky. because every character who isn't Tim #is at least a bit weak/inconsistent/out of character INCLUDING FUCKING BATMAN. THE NO. 1 GUY MOST ARE HERE FOR

[lordystrange]

So which one is romantically interested in Will?

#why am I only now realizing that Mike and this pretty girl have similar hair? #byler #mike wheeler #will byers #byler proof #stranger things #st4

[pictureday2005]

i dont need therapy or medication i need it to be 2007. i need it to be my full time job to learn and explore and be curious about the world around me again

#crayon on envelope #i cant do any of that shit when i gotta have a job #i really miss when all i had to do was go to school #like i didnt realize how good i had it at the time #go in for like six hours and still have time and sunlight to do what i wanted when i got home #weekends off where all your friends Also have it off so you can organize hanging out #the whole summer to yourself #honestly i feel like id be doing so much better psychologically if i could have summer vacation again lol #bc at least then i was working towards something #just gotta get through the year so i can enjoy my summer #now its like. why am i even doing all of this #why is my only goal to suffer till i get a paycheck #and i dont even get to keep most of it #pointless luv litchrally pointless

[grapeagata]

god I fucken love rocks somuch!!!!!!!!!! and minerals and crystals and glass and lava and magma and geological formations and mountains and hills and rocks rocks rocks!!!!!!!! yeah!!!! rocks rock hell yeah!!! wahoo!!! yipee!!! and salts and ice and snow and sand and metamorphic rocks and ignious rocks and rocks make me so fukin happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! myeah!!!! and i want more rocks to add to the collection and i want more space to show more rocks becaus the more rocks the better and rocks! also god please add more rocks in the next update and also give them to meeeeeeeeeeee also make a meteorite fall near my house so i can get it and add to the collection pleasepleasplepalspleaplspelapleplaslapelpslpaleplspaleplsp rock are so cool and some are so hot and sexy and im going to marry a rock and minrals yeah!!!!!!!!

also yeah dirts cool too i like dirt it tastes nice and its moist and cool i like it :3

#geology #minerals #rocks #cool rocks #crystals #:3 #happy #I LOVE ROCKS #also some poeplo believe crystals have metaphysical properties and thats cool too you can belive in that #they also say obsidian is a crystal which it is not #i will marry this rock #rock and stone #also i did not realize until now that you can put a fukton of tags on a post i wonder if there is a limit? but also why would there be a li #i just found out that there's a 140 character limit on how long tags can be #the only rocks i dont like are the ai generated ones #how am i supposed to study and marvel at the beauty of a rock if it doesnt exist? #mineralogy #minerais

[kiirous]

I just now figured out why I prefer not to read from the viewpoint of my favorite character, but rather from the viewpoint of the ship partner I read about. It's simple, really. I just want my favorite characters to be worshiped the way they deserve, and the best way to do that is by reading the viewpoint of their shipping partner. I do prefer to read my favorite character's viewpoint, though, when I'm in the mood to read about them suffering. Or it's none shippy.

#many ships and character come to mind #zhongchi #birdflash #klance #merthur #joongdok #gratsu #aruju #there are actually more but these are all that come to mind due to me brainrotting about these the most #and more don't come to mind right now #sue me it's 2 am #i'm allowed to be tired #i also just now realized that i put almost all my favorite characters into the role of the bottom #whether it's dom bottom or not #i don't really care about who is topping who but i do have slight preference #i don't even know ehy when i often times only skim the smuty part due to it making me uncomfortable #just the penetrative part thouhh #i don't know why this part gives me the ick in particular #rant post #venting #oh i also really like #lukanette #daminette #callisto x penelope #and a bunch more

[fyeahygocardart]

Superheavy Samurai Prodigy Wakaushi

#Superheavy Samurai Prodigy Wakaushi #yugioh #ygo #Superheavy Samurai #So happy to see one of my favorite ARC V archetypes get support after all this time #Oh fuck why am I now only realizing this is supposed to be Yuya #Machine #Tuner Monster #Pendulum Monster #DARK

[winterscribbles]

They’re soulmates your honor

#why did this not post with my tags or caption #and why am I only realizing now. a week later. oh well #knight rider #Kitt #knight industries two thousand #yall can interpret this however you want!!! friends or QPR or romantic or whatever floats your boat!!! #personally I interpret it as All Of Them

[front-facing-pokemon]

#shedinja #now THIS is what i'm talkin' about! i love shedinja. i think it's a very unique pokémon and wonder guard is very *cool* if only it were ever #y'know. relevant. this thing is weak to way too many types for it to be relevant but like it's still cool in concept i think #you kinda can't tell what it is from this angle but that's why you have me here to tag it so you do know what it is #so. bit of a life update for you all. i accidentally deleted some semi-important files i needed for work. like two weeks ago #and i didn't realize i did‚ bc they were inside a folder that i deleted. but i didn't need the files at the time and i hadn't for months #i hadn't used those files since like last year. but now i need them again and i just realized that i deleted them two weeks ago #by accident? and now i need them again. to be able to do my work. so i'm actually queueing this guy and the next guy up #while i'm supposed to be working. as i've just sent an email to my boss being like Haha Hey. Do you Have a Backup of tHese Files……… PLease #and i'm hoping DESPERATELY that she does. if she doesn't i'll have to fucking reverse engineer them which i am not excited for #if it comes to fruition. so i'm just hoping she has a copy of them. feelin like shedinja against a fire-type rn fr i swear #i'll let you all know what she says when i get her response. if i get it before i'm done queuing up shedinja and whismur #spoilers. whismur is next but you could just look up the natdex numbers. and know that whismur is next #also don't tell me to look in the trash. on my computer. i know they're not there. for one i checked and for two they couldn't be there #because i rm -r'd the folder. i didn't just right-click delete that shit. i killed that shit. it's GONE #you might be asking me… why would you do that! and i would say? i did not know these files were in there #you didn't ask for all this information so i'm cutting it off here

[angellurgy]

squeak

#when i am gone it will be no more impactful than a tree falling in a forest with no one to hear it. #my death will have a meaninglessly small impact on this world. maybe it'll have a larger impact on the incorporeal. #there is something in my soul. something hungry. a serpent of unstoppable magnitude held captive in my stomach. #it wont stop until it or i kill us both will it? like a cancer. #im so deeply sorry im so bad at responding to everyone's kind messages. even more so sorry for what will eventually happen next #i have some plans. to excise this tumor that is myself. to rid the world of this putrid filth girl who is nothing but a drain on her compan #we'll see what happens. at least i got my body to a point of self approval before. at least i tried music. at least i tried to be me. #even if it changed nothing. at least im more secure in my being. if only the people around me werent so emotionally far. if only we cld tal #if only i could live with my self approval instead of loving and wanting so dearly. instead of having a mind corrupted by love #and friendship #i was so much. i know you all barely know anything about me in reality. if i asked any you'd probably just list off kinks and species. #but still. ty those who'll remember yk... #and as backup. if it doesnt work. well. please dont hate me. im just a girl who needs out. and cant keep her thoughts inside more #i hope i can be happy in the afterlife. i hope i can see these angels and maybe be one myself. #gonna put a post on top of this to hide it from brand new ppl lookjng at my blog. bc yeah. you all dont need to hear all of this #its the last one of these for this period either way #god i wish i couldve gone to toronto. i want to so bad still. god. why did i have to realize my hopelessness now of all times #bye

[roseofcards90]

Milgram if you can make Haruka visit Kotoko 3 separate times on her birthday you can make Kotoko visit Mahiru on her birthday when the last time they talked was 3 YEARS AGO

#DONT MAKE DEEP COVER RELEASE ON MAPPI BDAY AND THEN NOT DO ANYTHING WITH IT I SWEAR #why am I just now realizing that Haruka and John are the only people to have visited her wtf #aghhhh why #I need to get up lol I need coffee #milgram #my posts

[bunnihearted]

🐰🌧️

#so on my way home.. #i walked by a school and besides the fact that i felt so depressed bc just looking at these kids and adults i have NO hope for the future #i saw two boys on a bench as i walked by... and i just thought they were talking. and too late i realized that no one of the boys were #bullying the other boy. the bully walked away and the other boy just sat there looking so lifeless and dejected #a teacher came and sat down w that boy and i just kept walking. even if i wanted to say smth it's like what would i even do abt that situati #that made me so sad both bc that boy.. he looked so dejected and used to it. that anxiety going to school knowing you're bullied is awful #and like i imagined talking to him and saying heyyy if you're lucky you'll grow up to be 25yrs old #live like a parasite off your mom and be on wellfare and never have had a job :) #you'll have no education or highschool diploma :) you will still struggle to finish hs even at an easier level :) #you will also not have had friends in 10yrs and you'll be terrified of ppl and getting close to anyone and even going outside!! #you'll have no interests and hobbies and skills! you'll simply be a waste of space loser being a burden on everyone around u! #whoop whoop stay alive buddy it will only get worse ❤️ #god i just wanna cry. how did i let my life turn out this way??? i used to be full of dreams and life and passion and HOPE #i used to believe in things and in people. i had so many dreams and i wanted to try and do so many things #now all i can think is 'i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die'. im miserable wherever i go lmao #there's this bridge over the highway i have to cross when i walk to school and every time i look down at the trafic and when a truck drives #by i feel my entire body vibrate. i just wanna jump and get mauled by it. #or i dont *want* to but i feel so deeply and desperately that it's the only way for me #only way to make it stop hurting. and i am weak. i dont know how to just 'stop' or take control of my life. thats why i wanna die #bc i know that i wont be able to. that my life will never amount to anything #for fuck's sake my dream now is just to have my own 1bedroom apartment and have a shitty job - like in a grocery store or whatever!!!!! #not even that can i make happen! bc im so worthless i cant do anything. im also stupid so i wouldnt be able to do my job right #i dont know... i dont know... these feelings and thoughts are too much i just wanna relax #but i cant bc my ribs hurt and idk if it's heartburn or an ulcer 💀 why am i even alive???? what am i doing all this for? 😭 #my thoughts ran away but i meant like seeing that reminded me of how much of a failure i became #bc of my circumstances and all the shitty ppl around me thru out my life

[spaciebabie]

i was supposed ta start drawing 3 hours ago

#spacie spoinks #executive dysfunction #guys i took off work for 2 weeks and ive just been chilling in my home and i have only now realized how much i fucking hate working #oh my god??? i only do part time. why. #oooh this is not good #how am i going 2 survive . for the rest of my life #my mom told me i should quit my job b/c its causing me too much stress skjfhkjdsfhhsd #i mean shes right #but i havent even had it a year 😭 #siiiiiiigh