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fat pussy friday

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In my daydreams the most gender affirming thing to happen to me would be: helping an old lady by holding the door open or carrying something for her, then she'd smile and pat my arm and say "There's a good lad" and I'd smile like a dork and say "No worries, mum" and skip away

#gaslight gatekeep girlblog #gender #genderfluid #androgynous #androgony #androgynous day dreams

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1941

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Me @ me when Michael Sheen and/or David Tennant

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We move again in grade 7

People treat you different because you're parents are divorced

Im tired of making friends so I just don't

My mom's ex stalks us to the new town, mom gets a restraining order

My sister doesn't want to hang out with me at recess

I'm the tallest in my class

Getting bullied in a Christian highschool type of way

Teachers pet

I don't want to compete for good grades I just want to get them

Getting a school laptop and spilling hot chocolate on it

Being friends with the exchange student, who isn't my friend the next year

Mom's on PAC and argues about everything

My sister is popular and I'm not

Mom dates a teacher

Mom dumps said teacher

Said teacher gives me bad grades, throws stuff at kids during gym, then gets fired

My mom never dates again and becomes a hermit, so I can't invite friends over or go out that often

Things that traumatized me childhood edition:

I pooped my pants and my parents dont have a change of clothes

Mom put a door knob safety cover on and I can't get out

I spit gum on the side of the road and a fox ate it

Dad forgot to pick us up from school

I fell asleep on the couch and my parents friend I didn't know wakes me up

We're moving out of our house

Mom and dad are getting a divorce

We live in a shelter now

We're moving again

I don't know anyone at this school

I forgot a library book outside overnight and it rained

I ripped my pants crotch at recess and wasn't allowed inside to change

I failed math

The other girls won't let me play owls with them

I got my period without knowing what it was while off at summer camp

My mom still picks out my clothes

I hate going to daycare because I'm the oldest there

Mom still dresses us in matching outfits

Dad keeps cancelling visits

I grow boobs

I'm forced to wear a bra

My best friend and I kiss, she pretends it didn't happen

The Librarian said I'm not allowed to spend recess with her anymore

I'm not allowed to watch Harry Potter, Star Wars, or Spongebob

The art teacher threw out my painting

Dad drives too fast

I need glasses and mom picked out the frames

Mom gave away my strawberry shortcake dolls

I have to babysit my sister everyday after school, finish my hw, and have dinner ready by the time my mom gets off work

I asked mom to watch my fav show with me and she said no

I lost my phone and it got returned to the office with no phone case

My fav quilt keeps ripping apart and nobody knows how to sew

Mom banned Katy Perry music videos

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Sometimes I get sad about my childhood, then I think about how David and Michael are friends, in healthy marriages, with cute kiddos, and my heart lifts. And on top of everything they're neighbors!? Posting cute duo family photos with #sheenant and #sheeberbergnants?!??! Ngk!!

#gaslight gatekeep girlblog #dont look at the age gap #childhood #good omens #tearful kay #speculation #michael sheen #david tennant #good omens brainrot #pondering my orb #grass grows greener #adopt me #sheenant #delulu

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I wish the world was soft for me, like a jellycat from chapers.

I want for an easy view, like pastel colours from a children's book.

I need to feel safe, like I'm wrapped in a blanket in your arms.

I long for you as you once were, like the mom I had before.

#tearful kay #poetry #childhood #nostalgia #gaslight gatekeep girlblog #its 6am and i havent slept yet #mommy issues

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Things that traumatized me childhood edition:

I pooped my pants and my parents dont have a change of clothes

Mom put a door knob safety cover on and I can't get out

I spit gum on the side of the road and a fox ate it

Dad forgot to pick us up from school

I fell asleep on the couch and my parents friend I didn't know wakes me up

We're moving out of our house

Mom and dad are getting a divorce

We live in a shelter now

We're moving again

I don't know anyone at this school

I forgot a library book outside overnight and it rained

I ripped my pants crotch at recess and wasn't allowed inside to change

I failed math

The other girls won't let me play owls with them

I got my period without knowing what it was while off at summer camp

My mom still picks out my clothes

I hate going to daycare because I'm the oldest there

Mom still dresses us in matching outfits

Dad keeps cancelling visits

I grow boobs

I'm forced to wear a bra

My best friend and I kiss, she pretends it didn't happen

The Librarian said I'm not allowed to spend recess with her anymore

I'm not allowed to watch Harry Potter, Star Wars, or Spongebob

The art teacher threw out my painting

Dad drives too fast

I need glasses and mom picked out the frames

Mom gave away my strawberry shortcake dolls

I have to babysit my sister everyday after school, finish my hw, and have dinner ready by the time my mom gets off work

My mom breaks up with her boyfriend even though my sister and I like him

I lost my phone and it got returned to the office with no phone case

I asked mom to watch my fav show with me and she said no

My fav quilt keeps ripping apart and nobody knows how to sew

Mom banned Katy Perry music videos and anime

#trauma dump #girlblogging #childhood #divorce #divorce tw #tearful kay #gaslight gatekeep girlblog #confessions of a tumblrholic #trauma #puberty tw

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be uncompromisingly queer in the face of fascism

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I'm sad

I'm tired of being strong

I want to be weak, coddled, babied

I want to sleep without waking up early to take out the trash

I want to be a permanent passenger with no obligations

I want to rot in bed with the lights off after work

I want to claw at my chest until it starts feeling again

So instead

I'm happy

I'm excited for a new day

I'm independent, reliable,

I want to stay up late with you I'll take out the trash in the morning

I want to drive you anywhere you like no obligations

I want to meet up with you tonight after work

I want to claw at your chest while I make you feel something

#gaslight gatekeep girlblog #people pleaser

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i get so scared. and i get scared again. yuo are never gonna calm me down. i get so scared. and i get scared again. you are never gonna calm me down. i drink a nervous drink. i drink a frightened drink. i drink an anxious drink, i drink a scary drink. i fear the scares that remind me of the scary times. i fear the scares that remind me of the horror times

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I'm really allergic to cats but I really love them so much sometimes I put my phone on my chest and pretend it's weight is a cat and I stay really still so I don't disturbed it and then I fall asleep and wake up with an uncharged phone 🐱

#tearful kay #tumblr girls #cat #maladaptive daydreaming #confessions of a tumblrholic #girlblogging #gaslight gatekeep girlblog #sadgirl

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fat little girls deserve the world tbh society is so traumatizing to them

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I’ve seen a lot of posts on my dash tonight about users who are threatening suicide, with other Tumblr members posting in effort to try to get ahold of them. I think you all should see this:

IF THERE IS EVER A TUMBLR USER WHO HAS POSTED A GOOD-BYE MESSAGE, SUICIDE NOTE, VIDEO, OR ANYTHING OF THE SORT, PLEASE FOLLOW THIS POST.

1. Scroll to the top of your dashboard.

2. See the circular question mark icon at the top? It’s the third one over from your home symbol. Click on that, and a screen similar to the one in the picture will come up.

3. Where you can type in questions, the box with the magnifying glass at the top, type in the word “suicide.”

4. Click on the first link that shows up. It should say, “Pass the URL of the blog on to us.”

5. Type in the user’s URL and tell Tumblr admin that the user is contemplating suicide and has posted a message indicating that they are going through with it or will be attempting. Hit send! Tumblr administration will perform a number of actions to contact the user and take the necessary steps to prevent the suicide.

TUMBLR: THIS COULD SAVE A USER’S LIFE. PLEASE DO NOT IGNORE SUICIDE THREATS.

Reblog this to keep other users aware. Suicide isn’t a joke, and neither is someone’s life. If you didn’t know this, someone else may not, either. Pass it on.

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"sadness should be witnessed, thoughts should be heard, and hands should be held." -kay

#tearful kay #girlblogging #sadgirl #quotes