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Hellooo!! I haven't posted in FOREVER so I decided to come back with a sweet lil Doremy I made :3

...This was made in Roblox, I drew with my MOUSE so please ignore if this looks bad...

#touhou #東方project #2hu #fanart #the real miyoi okunoda #東方 #touhou doremy #doremy sweet #ドレミー・スイート #i love touhou #sorry for inactivity #aaauughhh #idk man #why am i so inconsistent #i have no idea how long this took #idk what else to tag

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Sprites by Dairi on pixiv~

Reisen gets pranked for the 3001st time

#touhou #東方project #2hu #fanart #the real miyoi okunoda #東方 #idk lol #てゐ #tewi inaba #因幡てゐ #reisen udongein inaba #reisen #鈴仙・優曇華院・イナバ #get prankd lol

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cirno

#touhou #東方project #2hu #fanart #the real miyoi okunoda #東方 #idk lol #チルノ #⑨ #9 #cirno #touhou cirno

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I can only try to understand the things you are saying, and in a bit of my past, I feel that I have shared a small part of the demons that you are having now. But my dad taught me to fight the demons and I would like an opportunity to share with you. So, I ask you to take my dad's advice also.

My dad told me that always being the best was the wrong thing to be. I was challenging everyone and everything and always failing to be number 1. My dad told me that my mission in my life was not to be number 1 but was to only try to be number one.

He said that there is a difference between trying and being, that trying also means that sometimes you do not succeed an that not succeeding is not a failure if you do not. This made me feel more at ease inside when I would see that other people did better than me. I began to understand a difference.

Not succeeding and failure are not the same and when I started to understand that trying make that difference I began to feel better inside. My dad taught me that killing myself was like quitting and becoming a failure.

And after I understood that I no longer wanted to live the life of trying to fail. I wanted to live and try to be more of a success and did not care about being number one anymore.

I hope this helps at least a bit

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I hate saying it so often, but I feel like killing myself over insecurity again. Specifically, WHY are there so many artists I believe are better than me? Either I'm better than them, or I HAVE to kill myself!

But then again, I don't feel important enough to be worth that… I feel like I have no worth and no value in this fandom. I feel like I should do it. I really feel like I should. Because ultimately, being 'the best' is the only solution. "You don't have to be the best" isn't true. I do. I really do. "Don't compare yourself to others" doesn't work either, because I can't control it.

The ONLY thing that would ever work is being better than everybody. INCLUDING YOU AND EVERYONE ELSE.

But I don't think it'll ever happen and I don't think I'm worth it. So I'm thinking I'll do it sooner or later.

I can't stand it, thinking I'll be abandoned by everyone precisely because I need more people…

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Yuugi's favorite drink~

#touhou #東方project #2hu #fanart #miyoi okunoda #the real miyoi okunoda #東方 #yuugi hoshiguma #星熊勇儀 #sake #hhhhh #idk lol

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Tewi after pulling the 3,000th prank on Reisen

Tee te-te-te, Tewiiii

#touhou #東方project #2hu #fanart #the real miyoi okunoda #東方 #因幡てゐ #tewi inaba #so cute uwu

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I'm so sorry to hear that lately things haven't been good. It's normal to experience overwhelm and discouragement when comparing your abilities and success in comparison to others. But it's important to keep in mind that success and achievement are relative qualities anf abilities. What could appear simple/effortless to one could be challenging to another.

As for your art, it's another way to express ourselves through physical form. And for the fanfiction you've always wanted to write, I say go for it! Even if you don't think it's perfect, it will still be a unique piece of art that came from your imagination and creativity. And the more you practice and learn, the better you'll get. It's also worth considering that some of your favorite artists and writers have faced similar struggles and doubts. They've just learned to persist and keep creating.

Regarding medication, while it cannot fix every problem, it can help manage certain symptoms of mental health conditions. It's important to work closely with your healthcare provider to find the right medication and dosage for you.

In the meantime, it may be helpful to try some self-compassion techniques, like speaking to yourself with kindness and understanding. Remember that everyone has their own journey and that it's okay to struggle and make mistakes along the way. Don't worry, Nate. You're doing great. Don't give up on yourself just yet, alright? Keep going, and keep trying your best. You've gotten so far. We all believe in you!

I'm not good with this stuff, so I'm very sorry if this doesn't help you. But I hope it brings you a bit of comfort knowing that we want you to stay here with us.

Please don't like this post. Only reblog if replying.

I promise I won't vent much more after this, ok???

I feel as though I've failed at everything. Art is failed because people are better than me. Animation is good as failed because people are better than me at over 5 years younger than me, and I haven't even begun. Everything else? Forget it. I really don't know why I'm still breathing.

I want to write out the fanfiction I've always wanted, but I'm terrified I'd fail that too. Because there'd be someone better.

I'm begging someone to prove me wrong. I'm begging to have it proven to me that there's nobody better. I'm begging. I can't live this way.

Signed, another day of my psychologist refusing to help me. She referred me to someone to get me medicated for ADHD, but that likely won't help with this. Besides, that's weeks away.

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Remind me what "oxygen" is?

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Remember, guys! Easy Mode is for babies!

Make Reisen proud, and play on Lunatic!

#touhou #東方project #2hu #fanart #the real miyoi okunoda #meme #東方 #reisen #reisen udongein inaba #冷戦 #鈴仙・優曇華院・イナバ #gun

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Chi- Chi- Chirumiru~

Who doesn't like 「⑨BAKA」?

...don't look at the hands pls

#touhou #東方project #2hu #fanart #the real miyoi okunoda #cirno #hands on hips #ice fairy #チルノ #⑨ #9 #baka #バカ

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Me, but without hat! ...This was drawn very lazily, don't mind it...

#touhou #東方project #2hu #fanart #miyoi okunoda #the real miyoi okunoda #no colour #wink wink

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Smuggy (Kazamechi on youtube)

#touhou #doremy sweet #touhou doremy #東方project #touhou lost word #2hu #i found this on youtube #smug face #smug bastard

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Stop stealing, or draw 25?

#meme #touhou #marisa kirisame #東方project #2hu #fanart #uno #the real miyoi okunoda

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Gently shake the screen. Make Miyoi boogie.

#touhou #miyoi okunoda #gently shake the screen #東方project #meme #the real miyoi okunoda

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Look alikes! (ish)

#miyoi okunoda #yuyuko saigyouji #mystia lorelei #touhou #fanart #東方project #i just wanna sleep #idk lol #the real miyoi okunoda

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It may be cute, but it causes great suffering...

#東方project #touhou #miyoi okunoda #art #fanart #2hu #lazy art #i was half asleep while drawing this #it's 3 in the morning #why am i still awake #the real miyoi okunoda

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How about we go fishing together? I'm still a beginner artist, so don't mind if it looks bad ehehe...〜♬( ¯꒳​¯ )ᐝ

#koishi komeiji #touhou #東方project #fanart #kkhta #touhou koishi #2hu #the real miyoi okunoda