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Today I did quite a few things

I woke up at 11 after snoozing my 8, 8:30, and 9am alarms. I felt bad for sleeping in since I promised myself that I would wake up with my alarms, but reasoned that I was still recovering from my driving adventure to Minnesota. 60 hours was too many hours to be high and isolated.

Toes, my cat/roommate, was very excited to hear I was finally awake and jumped on the bed to be scratched. I'm very grateful to have such a loving cat, I just wish she would stop dragging litter into bed.

First thing I did out of bed was take my ssri and walked the dogs. Penny's legs are working much better but as much as she loves to run around now she still needs to rest in her crate. I don't care what "they" say, chiropractors can absolutely help.

I got the mail and found my tax return had come in. That was a relief; I can pay my car bill now.

I made myself two eggs for breakfast and went to sit down and of course had to go to the bathroom. Came back to floor eggs and two guilty looking dogs. I made one more egg and ate a quadruple strawberry with a large glass of water.

Tried to watch a show on Netflix while I ate but got bored and anxious very quickly so I ended up taking a nap.

Woke up to some texts from my friend Krissi and felt guilty for taking a nap but decided to get on with my day instead of sulking. I took half an Adderall and cleaned out my car for my mom. She's going to Miami this weekend (birthday in Miami!!) and asked to borrow my car for reliability reasons. My car was absolutely trashed and covered in dog hair from the ride down from Minnesota with my friend's giant black German Shepard.

I found many things in my car: "lost" water bottles, cool books, meal replacement powder, about a gram of weed, and a single cigarette. I smoked half the cigarette as soon as I found it. I'm attempting to improve my life bit by bit and decided on the trip that I was done with nicotine (as I smoked 2.5 whole packs), but fuck I needed some oral stimulation and dopamine that I just couldn't get from screens today.

I made a plan to go get lunch and a new vape pen (better than cigarettes) while I was out getting the car washed and oil changed.

Had a nice interaction with the man at the vape store. He seemed very relaxed today and as always helped me find the best and least expensive options. I left excited to have a source of stimulation that didn't send me down a rabbit hole of guilt.

I then went and got my car washed and vacuumed the inside. Finally got the cat litter off of the seat and floor. It feels nice to have a clean car, and nicer that my mom gets to be in the car while it's clean.

Last stop of today was at the Jiffy lube to get my oil changed where I chatted with a very charming employee. He genuinely seemed to be enjoying himself and was eager enough to chat with me about car makes and which ones were the biggest pains to maintain. We agreed that Honda was pretty impressive when it came down to ease of maintenance (Yee haw).

While I was waiting for the oil change I walked over to the mall and got some lunch. A sweet tea and tomato cucumber salad from toojays. The walk was breezy and I feel very fortunate to live in a state that doesn't hurt when you go outside.

After my errands I came home and my sisters were home from school! I sat and talked with Tessa for a while. She didn't get a call back for the upcoming play and is very bummed about it. We tried to find some positives to the situation and I think she's feeling a bit better. We loosely planned this weekend and I left her alone to study.

I made the decision while I was driving north to move my body every day to help keep the happy juices flowing. Im lucky enough to live in a house with a pool so I figured I would take advantage of my situation and went for a swim!

I swam laps for about 10-15 minutes and realized I was really thirsty and out of shape so I called it a day. It wasn't much but it was a good first step. I hope to swim more often. It's been so long since the last time I swam I forgot how much I love the water. I guess I was on the swim team as a kid for a reason; I just didn't like the competition. It was really cool to see my body progress in the mirror though... I really do look completely different than I did even a year ago.

I took a shower and used some really natural shampoo that smelled like coconuts that I found in my car and my scalp isn't itchy yet so that was an extra bonus today.

It is now 7:30pm and I'm looking forward to mom getting home.

Happy first post!!

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