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Been binging on Hidden love, a Chinese drama lately and it's actually soo cute that my brain is malfunctioning. For my first Cdrama, I believe it's a good start. This was a friend's suggestion and it's living upto the expectations as of now.

I was actually a little irked by how young the kid Sang Zhi looks though. Like her younger self is a 14 year old teen but the girl looks no older than 8 in my eyes and i would have maybe dropped the show on the very first episode if not for Duan Jiaxu's angelic face and smile. But sticking with the show has been worth it coz it keeps getting cuter.

Duan Jiaxu is at this point a neon green flag and he somehow keeps on getting greener every episode. I really don't know how that is possible. I am half way through and that boy is just too nice a person till now. And the kind of nice where you know that the person has a good heart, like they are not doing it to show anything or make someone like them. They are just warm. No wonder Shang Zhi fell so hard because it's kinda impossible to not fall for him.

Angelic, indeed.

Sang Zhi is a sweetheart as well and her first heart break felt so personal even though you could understand the situation. She really conveys how it feels to have that first crush. I can't wait for these two to finally get together now and be the absolute perfect couple that they would be.

I have another favourite as of now, in the form of Mr Sang Yan. I believe he is the most accurate and wholesome representation of an older brother that i have seen lately. A complete goofball who will tease his sister to death but will hold her while she cries and tell her that he has her back at all times. The literal best, I am not even kidding. I am truly blown by how real his character feels and how much of an impact he has made with the screen time that he has. He is again someone who is just genuinely nice, and it's clear in the way that he treats his family and his friends.

Some really good representation of men, to be honest. And a really good representation of how puppy love feels. That first crush, the first time someone makes your heart feel all warm. It's painfully sweet and i am truly in for the ride.

**Sharing something other than totnt and my baby boy Rangie for the first time here. Feels weird. But well, I binge a lot and slowly, this is just going to be my space to talk about all my fandom loves.**

#sang zhi #duan jiaxu #hidden love #sang yan #Duan jiaxu is the greenest green flag #cdrama #The show is just too cute #Sang Zhi and Duan Jiaxu #duan jia xu #chen zheyuan #zhao lusi #Victor ma

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It's my boy's birthday 😍

Ah, it's not 7th july in my time zone yet but as per KST, it's my babyy boy's birthdayyy 🥺😍

He is the love of my life! He does not know that but he is 😍🥺

Can't wait to see him in his next drama where he will somehow again manage to make me love him and break my heart at the same time ❤

Wishing that this boy gets everything that his heart desires and I get to see him achieve all that and more ❤

#kim beom #kim bum #Kim beom birthday #kdrama #kdrama addict #KB is my forever bias #lee rang #Go seung tak #jan hoon hwi

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: 구미호뎐 | Tale of the Nine Tailed (TV), tale of the nine tailed 1938- fandom Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Lee Rang & Lee Yeon Characters: Lee Rang (Tale of the Nine Tailed), Lee Yeon, Yeo hee Additional Tags: Brotherly Bonding, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Hurt/Comfort, Angst and Hurt/Comfort, Angst and Feels, Lee Rang deserves love, And he deserves a proper apology from Yeon, I shall give him that if the writer's won't, Lee Yeon is slightly OOC because he never accepts his mistakes in canon, but here he does, first written work ever, so please forgive me for the verbal vomit, Episode 8 Tag, Fix It Fic, The entire story got out of my hands, the tags are also getting out of hand Summary:

What if instead of Yeo-hee, Rang broke down in front of Yeon? What if he laid bare all his insecurities and all his pain in a moment of weakness. Shameless emotional hurt/comfort because Rangie deserved a proper apology. //.// Episode 8 Tag

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Okay everyone, I never thought I would say this but I ended up writing a fan fiction. This fic was fuelled by the need to give Rang the apology that he deserves. In the process of doing so, I have written a Yeon who is way nicer and far more aware of his flaws than the canon one. 😅 

My love for Rang compelling me to do things that I never thought I could 😅 Will I ever be getting over him 🥺 I don't think so 😅

#lee rang #lee yeon #lee rang and lee yeon #totnt 1938 #tale of the nine tailed 1938 #totnt #totntfanfic #tale of the nine tailed

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KB is actually just a baby around LDW. 🥺 So glad that he is so comfortable around his Dong Wook hyungie! Warms my heart. 🥺

❤️🦊🦊❤️

#kim beom #Kim beom and lee dong wook #lee dong wook #totnt #They are so soft around each other 🥺 #lee rang #lee yeon

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I need a manual on " How to survive weekends without Rang 🥺".

The weekend feels empty without my baby boy. I miss him. Bring back Rangie!! 🥺😭

I miss my soft drenched 1938 Rang-ah!

I miss my chaotic yet hurt 2020 Rangie!

I miss his smoldering looks 🥺

I miss KB's posts and his countdown stories 🥺😭

I miss it all Guys! I need more! More of 1938 Rang living a happy life, more of 2020 Rang getting the chance to live happily for once and more of Kim Beom loving his character as much as we love him.

Helpp needed 🥺

#lee rang #tale of the nine tailed 1938 #tale of the nine tailed #kim beom #kim bum #totnt #totnt 1938 #Missing my baby boy #missing lee rang #missing his soft smiles and his vulnerability #missing his chaotic damaged yet mysterious charm

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Totnt 1938 Finale! Part 2!

This one is for my cry fest! Everything I liked about totnt's finale has been discussed in part 1. I am purely going to cry and crib here. So anyone who loved the entirety of it, just skip this post.

Starting off, I am someone who watched the season 2 of Totnt just for Rangie baby! The 2020 Rang who died at the end of the 1st season and kinda took a part of my heart with him while dying. I watched the entire 2nd season in hopes that he will somehow get a better ending. That he will get to come back and live as himself rather than a reincarnation who has no memories of said life. Despite people in the show clearly mentioning that the future won't change; Being extremely optimistic, I kept believing that it has to change. How does the future not change when you alter the events in the past 🥲.

I am forever going to be heartbroken over the fact that my 2020 Rang did not even get a chance. Did not get to ever live happily with his brother or his family. And i can't help but be heart broken over the fact that even 1938 Rang is supposed to somehow meet the same fate in 2020. I really don't know how that makes sense but it sure as hell did not make me happy.

As long as my boy's fate actually ends like this, I can't be completely happy. It will forever hurt me. Yeon going back to the future and being happy with his love is all fine with me. Coz i knew it would happen. They never disregard Yeon's happiness after all. He got to go back in time and mend his relationship with his brother. And then he comes back to the one he loves the most. Everything working in our hero's favour. Like always.

I just needed my boy to be there too. Why not give us that.. Why not 🥲

Also, Just to make it perfectly clear, I hate 1938 Yeon. I hate that dude. His reaction when he hears Rang has less time left was this. He legit had the audacity to say forget it and then went back to lie down on the freaking sofa.

And then the moment, our precious yeon hears about Ah-eum. He gets up and packs his bags. At this point, If i could strangle this lee yeon, I would.

Be it 2020 yeon or 1938 yeon, he does not deserve Rang's love.. The only one who was a little decent to be getting it is 2023 yeon and to an extent his behavior is guided by the guilt he feels.

Every single time, in the end I have to see my boy crying and saying goodbye to his brother. The brother he loves more than the whole world and the brother who will always love him a little less. I have at this point, obviously, tried making my peace with the fact that Yeon won't ever love Rang the way or the much Rang loves him. But I am so enraged about the fact that my 1938 Rangie will go ahead and give all his love to this douchebag 1938 Yeon who could not even get up from the sofa after hearing that his brother has less time left.

While everything seems so happy about the ending of totnt 1938. This is still the last memory that i shall have of my Rang as per timeline.

It hurts me. In my mind, I am now going to create two Rangs and atleast try to believe that the 1938 one got to have his happily ever after with his mermaid and that his douchebaggy brother will maybe someday turn out to be a little nicer and that he never died in 2020. Because I can't be happy knowing that no matter what changed, everyone still lives in a 2023 where Lee Rang does not exist.

#lee rang #tale of the nine tailed 1938 #tale of the nine tailed #kim beom #kim bum #totnt 1938 #lee dong wook #lee yeon #totnt #Lee rang deserves to live beyond 2020 #give him back to me #please give him back #Totnt 1938 finale #totnt finale #lee yeon and Lee rang

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Totnt 1938 Finale! Part 1.

Guys, this is gonna be long and divided into parts coz I have spent the entire last night and today feeling very overwhelmed because of the finale and I need to talk about it, even though I won't know how much sense it makes coz I am extremely emotional about all of it.

So, I have extreme mixed feelings about the entire finale. And the entire season of the show in general. This part, I am discussing what I liked about it coz obviously I loved certain parts of it and now that I have tried segregating the good from the bad in my head, I shall be able to talk about it.

I adore 1938 Rang! and I love, truly love the fact that he got some semblance of peace. I love that he has a lover by his side who puts him first and loves him. I am grateful she did not die. I am so glad he has someone who realises his worth coz he needed that and he deserves it more than anyone else. ❤ I even love his henchman and how loyal that guy is to Rang. 🥺

And man, watching Rang unlock his complete powers and fighting back was the absolute best thing I have seen this year. KB was just phenomenal and I will for sure be rewatching that scene again and again just for him. I was so done with people labeling my boy weak this season. Go eat shit everyone who dared call him weak. 😎

Loved the scene where Yeon tries saying I love you and Rang runs away embarrassed. Well, we all know Rang loves him way more than he would ever be able to express 🥺❤

I even loved how somehow, they gave everyone a complete happy ending. I was actually on the verge of tears when I thought Jae Yo would die and I am glad he did not because it would have hurt.

Glad that even Moo yeong got to live and have some peace. Boy was just misguided and at times dumb, but has a good heart. So I am happy for him. I think, after the last season, the writers did not want to kill people off. And yeah, good for them. I hope Hong ju and moo yeong end up having a happy life ahead and are not dead in the future as well.

This scene will stay with me. It will have a separate fanbase for sure. ❤

So, from a standalone show perspective, if i forget that season 1 exists, I would love every bit of this show. It was far better than what i thought they would do.

But unfortunately, I am someone who can't forget that season 1 exists. Someone who loved the 2020 Rang with pain in his eyes and a smirk on his face forever. And that's why I have such mixed feelings and that's why I ended up feeling so damn empty post this season ended.

This post mentions pretty much everything I liked about the finale and that's far more than what i liked in season 1. But now, I am going to have the 2nd part which is going to talk about every thing that just ruined me ! So yeah, people who loved the show completely, don't read the 2nd part. Everyone who wants to cry about 2020 Rang's fate. Come over, we will cry over him and rant about 1938 yeon. 💔

#lee rang #tale of the nine tailed 1938 #tale of the nine tailed #Totnt finale #lee yeon #kim beom #kim bum #totnt 1938 #totnt 1938 finale

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I don't need my heart anyway 💔😭

“Will they never see each other again after tomorrow?” “Yeah. Never”

Tale of the Nine Tailed 1938 ep. 11

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This! This! Every single word resonates with me. Yeon loves Rang but Yeon will never love Rang the way Rang loves him. Yeon is Rang's priority no matter what while Rang has always been an option to Yeon. No matter who he loves, Rang won't let go of his love for his hyung. However, Yeon cares for him as per his convenience. Period.

I would love to be proven wrong on this. But as of now, I stand with this completely.

In season 1, whenever Yeon and Ji Ah are together… it’s always about Yeon and Ji Ah. Rang will only be mentioned if they’re with Rang. Or if they need something from Rang. Yeon never talked about Rang to Ji Ah in a positive way.

In season 2, whenever Rang and Yeo Hee are together, Yeon’s always mentioned.

When Rang realized he’s feeling something for Yeo Hee already. He refused to accept it because he felt that his feelings are making him weak. So he said, “I don’t need you (Yeo Hee) or Lee Yeon anymore.”

When Rang was telling Yeo Hee that he will be fine: “As long as Lee Yeon’s with me, I will never die.” And Yeo Hee replied, “that’s how it feels like having a sibling, huh.”

When Rang was buying a gift for Yeo Hee, he went to buy another one for Yeon.

When Yeo Hee was taken, Rang’s hope wasn’t completely lost. He said, “Yeo Hee’s not here. But if you (Yeon) leave too…”

See the difference?

Yeon loves Rang. But I will always believe that Yeon can never love Rang the way Rang loved Yeon. And yes, I say “loved” in past tense to remind everyone of Rang’s fate.

Yeon will always love Ji Ah more than Rang. But Rang will always try to disseminate his love equally to both Yeon and Yeo Hee.

Yes, Yeon will be there to save Rang’s life. But is that really what family is about? You’ll just be there when someone’s about to die or whenever you’re greatly needed? And the other days, you completely forget about your family?

Well fuck, Yeon can’t even be there for Rang when Yu Ri stabbed him multiple times because of the Imoogi’s doing. He was making out with Ji Ah while Rang was literally on his deathbed.

My view on Yeon might change though if he… if he… decides to not go back to the future because he can’t leave his dongsaeng behind. Because that will show that for the first time in forever, Yeon chose someone else over Ji Ah.

#tale of the nine tailed 1938 #lee rang #lee yeon #lee rang and lee yeon #lee rang deserves better

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Rang's self worth issues just break my heart this season. I don't know how this boy does not see how much he gives back to people. How he only sees himself as someone who is incapable of being loved, someone who is a failure and can't protect anyone.

On the other hand, he would gladly see the best of people despite being hurt by them.

While i can understand his sentiments when it comes to Yeo hee, though even with her, once he decided to accept his feelings, he was completely willing to lay his life down for her and fought for her with his life.

But when it comes to Yeon, he has given back more than enough even when he has not received the same kindness back. I know that this Rang is not my 2020 Rang yet. But even 1938 Rang has been willing to die protecting his brother and we all saw that. Also, I don't understand why this Rang never seems to bring about the fact that he was very mercilessly cut down by said brother. Maybe because the writers want us to forget that Yeon was ever mean to him. Well, I refuse to forget that.

My boy never sees the good that he does but ends up holding everyone he loves at this pedestal. Show him the bare minimum love and affection and he would just gladly die protecting you. And i am not just winging it, he almost died protecting Shin ju in the well this season despite being all mad over him.

All these years of trauma and being abandoned by the people that he loved the most has just built my boy in a way that he believes he is just a stain, a burden, someone who has nothing to offer. And I need someone to tell him otherwise. Tell him how he has such a big heart and how he gives back so much more than he has ever received. 🥺

But the entire season, they ended up focusing on clearing Yeon's conscience. I believe all that matters to the writers is showing us just how much Yeon loves his brother. But the best way to do that would have been if they had acknowledged the pain that he had caused and apologised for it. Made Rang see his worth rather than pretending and believing that he never did anything wrong.

Ah, I might just keep on ranting if I don't stop but someone please help my boy see how precious he is. And he does not need to die for his life to be of some value. 🥺

#lee rang #lee rang deserves love #lee rangs self worth is non-existent #someone tell him he is worthy of love #and that he has such a big heart #lee rang and lee yeon #totnt 1938 #kim beom #tale of the nine tailed 1938 #tale of the nine tailed #kim bum #lee dong wook #totnt

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No one leave my boyyy!! No one pleasee 🥺😭🥺

“Please have my back, so I can fight.”

Tale of the nine tailed 1938 구미호뎐1938 // Episode 11

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This scene!! God this scene!! To be honest, Rang is not wrong in his fear. But the much he needed to hear this from his brother. Yeon, please keep this promise. Don't leave him alone. I can't watch these two part ways in the finale. I just can't. My boy needs his brother 🥺

This scene!!!

I am…no words!!! This is EVERYTHING!!!!

#Rang deserves his brothers love without having to die for it #please don't take that away from him #please stop hurting him #lee rang

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The finale weekend is almost here guyss. I don't really know what to expect going into tomorrow.. But I really can't watch Rang getting hurt once again at the end of it.

I also really don't want to see him lose his brother once again. He deserves to have Yeon's love without having to die for it.

I really don't want them to kill yeo-hee because it would just wreck him. And man, my boy deserves better.

And one very extremely optimistic, completely delusional part of me wants Rang to have a future. Beyond the year 2020. I need the future to change, Taluipa can go and shut her mouth, but I really need my boy to get a chance to live his life without the ending that we have already seen him get because he deserved better than to die for a romance that took away almost everything from him.

I want him to have his brother, his love, his found family. All of it. But I know I am mostly gonna get clowned 🤡

Hoping against hope that they do better by Rang this time. Give my boy the love that he craves and the love that he rightfully deserves. ❤

Any ending that is plain bad for Rang will see me lose my sanity this time. 🦊🪓

A happy Rang is all I want ❤

#lee rang #lee yeon #lee rang deserves the world and his brothers love #lee rang deserves better #lee rang simp account #totnt #totnt 1938 #tale of the nine tailed 1938 #the tale of the nine tailed #kim beom #Let my boy be happy please🙏 #Totnt 1938 finale

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Given what they have been doing till now, they will most probably do nothing only 😅 This is just me ranting coz i wanted some closure, which i will not get. 😅

Another day, another time i crib about Mr. Yeon spouting nonsense words.

Mr Lee Yeon on his moral high ground spouting how he never abandoned Rang without a single evidence in his favour. Left the boy alone on a burning mountain with his dead dog and came back only to punish him for his sins once he was much older. I see how you never abandoned him, were right there by his side throughout, weren't you? Oh sorry, maybe they forgot showing us that.

Mr Lee Yeon copy pasting the same statement to Hong joo. Again without evidence.

At this point, someone either teach me the meaning of abandonment Or someone please teach it to Yeon. Because we have completely different definitions it seems. 😅 Yeon, bro, next time you tell someone you did not abandon them, maybe try telling them how. Like how are we to believe that you did not. Did you check up on them, send someone to look after them. Anything, bro, anything!!

Though i really do like the season 2 Yeon, I really wanted him to have a decent long conversation with Rang where he actually talks about what he did wrong, owns up to it and strives to do better by saving his brother. The conversation regarding Rang's death should have actually been longer and should have dealt with Rang's insecurities for once. Coz as we can see, Rang still believes that he meant shit to his brother and was basically a stain in his life.

The day my boy stops being hurt about this is the day i will forgive Yeon for it. Till then, I shall continue to be bitter. My boy internalised all his abandonment issues and ended up believing that he is the one who is unworthy of love and that it's somehow his fault everyone left him. They should have done a better job fixing his hurt this season. On the other hand, all he gets is new pain.

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I know!! But you know at the same time, I don't want any justification of it now. This one act of Yeon gave Rang centuries worth of trauma so i don't want anyone to belittle that by giving us a justification for Yeon's actions. All i want is a proper apology and accepting that he did wrong. Justification should have come a lot sooner. It's too late for that now.

Another day, another time i crib about Mr. Yeon spouting nonsense words.

Mr Lee Yeon on his moral high ground spouting how he never abandoned Rang without a single evidence in his favour. Left the boy alone on a burning mountain with his dead dog and came back only to punish him for his sins once he was much older. I see how you never abandoned him, were right there by his side throughout, weren't you? Oh sorry, maybe they forgot showing us that.

Mr Lee Yeon copy pasting the same statement to Hong joo. Again without evidence.

At this point, someone either teach me the meaning of abandonment Or someone please teach it to Yeon. Because we have completely different definitions it seems. 😅 Yeon, bro, next time you tell someone you did not abandon them, maybe try telling them how. Like how are we to believe that you did not. Did you check up on them, send someone to look after them. Anything, bro, anything!!

Though i really do like the season 2 Yeon, I really wanted him to have a decent long conversation with Rang where he actually talks about what he did wrong, owns up to it and strives to do better by saving his brother. The conversation regarding Rang's death should have actually been longer and should have dealt with Rang's insecurities for once. Coz as we can see, Rang still believes that he meant shit to his brother and was basically a stain in his life.

The day my boy stops being hurt about this is the day i will forgive Yeon for it. Till then, I shall continue to be bitter. My boy internalised all his abandonment issues and ended up believing that he is the one who is unworthy of love and that it's somehow his fault everyone left him. They should have done a better job fixing his hurt this season. On the other hand, all he gets is new pain.

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Another day, another time i crib about Mr. Yeon spouting nonsense words.

Mr Lee Yeon on his moral high ground spouting how he never abandoned Rang without a single evidence in his favour. Left the boy alone on a burning mountain with his dead dog and came back only to punish him for his sins once he was much older. I see how you never abandoned him, were right there by his side throughout, weren't you? Oh sorry, maybe they forgot showing us that.

Mr Lee Yeon copy pasting the same statement to Hong joo. Again without evidence.

At this point, someone either teach me the meaning of abandonment Or someone please teach it to Yeon. Because we have completely different definitions it seems. 😅 Yeon, bro, next time you tell someone you did not abandon them, maybe try telling them how. Like how are we to believe that you did not. Did you check up on them, send someone to look after them. Anything, bro, anything!!

Though i really do like the season 2 Yeon, I really wanted him to have a decent long conversation with Rang where he actually talks about what he did wrong, owns up to it and strives to do better by saving his brother. The conversation regarding Rang's death should have actually been longer and should have dealt with Rang's insecurities for once. Coz as we can see, Rang still believes that he meant shit to his brother and was basically a stain in his life.

The day my boy stops being hurt about this is the day i will forgive Yeon for it. Till then, I shall continue to be bitter. My boy internalised all his abandonment issues and ended up believing that he is the one who is unworthy of love and that it's somehow his fault everyone left him. They should have done a better job fixing his hurt this season. On the other hand, all he gets is new pain.

#lee rang #lee dong wook #lee yeon #tale of the nine tailed 1938 #tale of the nine tailed #totnt 1938 #totnt #kim beom #kim bum #lee rang and lee yeon #lee rang deserves better #Yeon should have given a better apology #and tried accepting his mistakes a lil more #lee rang should be protected

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Okay! So I am in such an angsty mood because of totnt 1938 and their shitty treatment of my boy again! That i will be spending this week talking about everything that's going on in my head till we finally see the finale this weekend.

Let's talk about Rang and Yeon-

Well, My boy telling his girl how miserable he was that day when he saved her. How he just wanted to die. Now do we all remember why he was that miserable. This was right after he heard that Yeon was going to be gone in a month and is not the actual real brother he is yearning for. (like he is lee yeon, but not this Rang's elder brother Yeon)

You are telling me that this boy willl be okay once his brother leaves and then he meets a douchebaggy version of said brother in the future as per the original timeline. The one who will not even recognise his hurt but keep on lecturing him on why he is so bratty.

My boy, who legit ends up naming everyone he knows around his brother. It's like he knows no other name than Yeon!

This little brother, who is actually trying to make himself believe that he hates his brother and wants to kill him, ended up naming both his horse and his henchman after his brother. Coz Yeon is all that he knew of relationships. Yeon had 600 freaking years to fix their equation but he only chose to do that after almost losing him. I am forever annoyed about this.

I know that we have got to see another side of Rang this season. I know that he now loves Yeo-hee truly and wants to be by her side. And I truly hope that they let him have that.

But no one out here can deny that Rang has always loved his brother more than his life and he would obviously not be okay after losing him, no matter what the cause. Even if he does not end up losing yeo-hee and God, I hope that he does not lose her. He will still lose his brother unless someone goes and knocks some sense into 1938 Yeon and reminds him that he has a brother that he does not at all deserve, but Rang deserves to be loved by him.

I need them to somehow fix last season's shit because this concept of how the future won't change no matter what is annoying the shit out of me and kinda nullifies the entire impact of this season. Like what is the point if nothing changes.

Let my boy be happy with the two people he loves the most. His girl and his brother.

#lee rang #lee rang deserves the world and his brothers love #Lee rang loves his brother so much #his love for his brother makes my heart hurt #dont take that away from him again #Let him have his girl and his brother #totnt 1938 #tale of the nine tailed 1938 #tale of the nine tailed #totnt #lee yeon #kim bum #kim beom #lee dong wook