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#sending you a bowl of soup!

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#honestly take me back to being a student #that’s somehow less stressful #than everything I have going on now #and not so terribly far from my field

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Get kissed, idiot. A little doodle with @angstmongertina 's Tairuna.

#THEM!!!!!! #Noods they look amazing!!!!!! #I LOVE THEM AND ALSO YOU!!!!!!! #Tina plays SWTOR. #Someday I will write more fic for them.

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#what a good doggo #queue

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If I ask nicely will people reblog this and tell me what their most common breakfast is? Not your favorite necessarily, just what you have for breakfast most frequently? 🙏🏽

#either some leftover dessert from the night before #or toast with a slice of provolone #or instant oatmeal when I’m in a hurry

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ok I’m trying to see something here

#hahaha rip

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#yes to both #I took some horseback riding lessons as a kid #I didn’t get super far in it #but I could do enough of the basics that I think I qualify #as being able to ride a horse

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patience is such a compelling dynamic in relationships sorryyy it’s the peak of romance to me

#hehehehee #queue

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I'm really tired of the "woman sad about her arranged marriage" trope, especially if that woman is royalty.

I am sure that many women across time were sad about their arranged marriages, but I'm sure a lot of others were excited, ambivalent, or resigned. Again, especially if you were royalty! I am sure if you were born a princess, you were trained from birth that your whole purpose in life was to marry someone important to solidify the power of the person on the throne. And honestly, it's an important job, if it wasn't, they wouldn't have tried so hard to do it.

That woman isn't just marrying another king or prince, she's going to be an ambassador of her country. She's supposed to be there promoting good relations. She isn't just a woman being sold off, she has a job! Also, if she is marrying the reigning monarch (or the heir), she may well end up running the country if the king is off at war or he dies when the heir is really young. That happened a lot throughout history! (or maybe she marries the third son and helps him find his way to the throne. Good for her)

It just feels like a modern sentiment being projected back. In Romeo and Juliet, when Juliet's mother first brings up marrying her to Paris, Juliet's basically cool with it and says she'll try to like him. She would have known this was going to happen because that is what rich women do, they marry into another family so their two families can be buddies. What else would she even be expecting?

It wouldn't bother me so much except that it's all we see! Give me a story about a woman who is like, "Cool, I shall give it my all!" Or she's like rolling up her sleeves and planning how she's going to get the court on her side and rule France, power behind the throne style (these women are mostly portrayed as villains, but who is to say the king would do a better job?). And also, have a little faith in women's fathers? You think men in the past didn't occasionally consider the happiness of their daughters? Not even a little bit?

#amen to all of this #they might not have married for love #but that doesn’t mean they didn’t have their own reasons #they weren’t all miserable about it #queue

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Anyway here’s a poem I wrote about my cat

After “Do not stand at my grave and weep”, author disputed:

Do not stand at your bowl and meow. I gave you food. It’s in there now. I feed you at the dawning light, I feed you at the fall of night. I feed you kibbles mixed with meat And wet food for a special treat. I feed you even though you scoff At all the food within your trough. I feed you and still yet you yell Like as a beast from deepest hell. Do not stand at your bowl and cry. I gave you food. You will not die.

#beautiful #queue

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Been watching Granada Holmes on YouTube and they’re all great, but I cannot take FINA seriously with the “goodbye and good luck” and the looking directly at the camera for Watson’s last lines.

It’s probably just me but I laughed instead of cried lmfao.

#Tina rambles. #Not gonna tag anything but like #it took me right the fuck out of the moment #‘goodbye and good luck’ had me laughing out loud

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#I’m normal about weed use in theory #but also I hate the smell so I avoid it if I can #ever since people in my hall in undergrad smoked it way too much #and gave everyone ELSE a headache because of how strong it was #so yeah feel free to smoke but please keep it away from me

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in the interest of curiosity and spirit of community, where will you guys all be during the solar eclipse on april 8th?

(this is mostly for the north american folks)

#picked up eclipse glasses from my department #I think that’s after all of my meetings on Monday so I should be free #gonna watch a bit if the weather cooperates!

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sacred romantic moments

“ don’t go. stay. “

“ but you’re here, so stay. “

“ i don’t want to be alone tonight. “

“ just come over. “

“ let’s be alone together. “

“ i didn’t know where else to go. “

“ i don’t want us to be apart anymore. ever. “

“ i wouldn’t have called you if it wasn’t important. “

“ you can talk to me about anything. you know that, right? “

“ just… be honest with me, do you hate me? “

“ i could never hate you. not really. “

“ you’re my friend, but… sometimes i wish you were more than that. “

“ we’re not just friends. you know that. “

“ i think i’m falling in love with you. “

“ can i hold your hand? “

“ yeah, you’re in love with me. “

“ just hold me. “

“ things would be so much easier if we were honest with each other. “

“ why can’t you be honest with me? with yourself? “

“ maybe you could stay? just for tonight? “

“ it’s dark outside, and it’s raining. my arms are much safer. “

“ you can’t keep doing this. you can’t keep lying to yourself. “

“ i can’t keep lying to myself, or to you. it’s not fair on either of us. “

“ i think you should kiss me. “

“ kiss me like you mean it. “

“ just kiss me. “

“ you shouldn’t kiss me right now. “

“ look me in the eyes and tell me you love me. “

“ you can’t lie to me, you know. “

“ you know me better than anyone. you always have. “

“ you’re pretty amazing. you know that, right? “

“ you’re just… you’re extraordinary. “

“ you’re good to me, you know. really good. “

“ you’ve made me the happiest i’ve ever been. “

“ i don’t know what i would have done if you weren’t here. “

“ our love can conquer anything. “

“ and for many generations to come, our love story will live on. “

“ i want you to marry me. “

“ if you asked me to marry you tomorrow, i’d say yes. “ “ what about today? “

“ marry me, name. marry me and make me the luckiest [x] in the world. “

“ your kiss could mend a broken heart. “

“ are you going to kiss me again, or do i have to do it myself? “

“ i could cry, that’s how much i love you. “

“ you’re worthy of my love. “

“ truth is that i’m so damn in love with you that i don’t know what to do with myself. “

“ maybe tonight, it’s you and me. “

“ i don’t know what the future holds. all i know is that i hope you’re in it. “

“ could you promise me one thing? “

“ promise me that we’ll be together, no matter what. “

“ it’s you and me, forever. no matter what. “

“ i didn’t want to tell you until i was sure, but… i’m pregnant. “

“ we’re going to be family! “

“ this baby, it’s the best thing that could ever have happened to us. “

“ i can’t believe this, we’re going to be parents! “

“ dance with me? “

“ may i have this dance? “

“ you’re my whole world, you know. “

“ don’t speak, just… kiss me. “

“ you have no idea how long i’ve been wanting to that. “

“ i’ve been wanting to tell you for so long… “

“ so… is this like, a thing now? “

“ i always miss you, even when you’re next to me. “

” i miss you. i miss you so much it hurts. ”

” i don’t want you to miss me. it’s tearing me apart. ”

“ you make me happier. “

“ i love waking up next to you. “

“ my favorite thing is falling asleep next to you. “

“ come cuddle with me. “

“ this is torture, isn’t it? “ “ not in the slightest. “

“ do you love me? “

“ could this be something more? “

“ move in with me. “

“ do you think we should move in together? you spend all your time here anyway. “

“ are you serious? i’ve had a crush on you for as long as i can remember. “

“ i know you’re in love with me. “

“ you’re really cute, you know. “

“ you’re so damn attractive. you know that right? “

“ if anybody were to kiss me, i would want that person to be you. “

“ and right now, i think you should kiss me. “

#will I finally write a thing again? #scientists unsure but I might as well try #writing prompts

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SHAN’T.

Lizzie earlier: Quinn’s lines if you romance him and then tell him to go fuck off when you get him back on Iokath hurt my feelings.

Me: ….I need a new Sith Warrior….

ILY @purplemeteors <3

#Tina rambles. #Tina replies to things. #purplemeteors #Tina plays SWTOR. #ILY Lizzie #captain of my heart

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Lizzie earlier: Quinn’s lines if you romance him and then tell him to go fuck off when you get him back on Iokath hurt my feelings.

Me: ….I need a new Sith Warrior….

ILY @purplemeteors <3

#Tina rambles. #Tina plays SWTOR. #It’s fine I’m not gonna KILL him. #Just… make him suffer more. #captain of my heart #it’s very weird to play not Yin though #I haven’t played any SW other than Yin….

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#26% #my very immigrant parents don’t give many shits #and some of that passed to me