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Found in the Internet Archive by AnitaNH

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#book shelf dark academia

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#dark academia library

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Hope Tala 

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'run a botanical garden? why darling, i would love to'

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#dark academia library

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Has anyone successfully gone off the grid before?

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#dark academia #libary

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I have come to the fun realisation that my parents are only affectionate to me when they need something from me. Then they use me, and act like I should never have been born if I say no. 

And they say I’m ungrateful if I try to move out. 

#desi problems #brown people #indian #therapy

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I’m going out for lunch. Not far. 

Just so I don’t have to pretend that there is light left in these eyes. 

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Trust me, I mean to live.

I mean, I want to live.

But there is this overwhelming urge to die looming.

So I tell myself ‘be mean to live’ 

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Today, I got so angry, I wanted to lash out. Throw all the books off the bookshelf, break everything that would break, push people into walls. Be violent. 

But I couldn’t do it, so I went to the bathroom, ran the shower and hit myself until I bruised. 

My anger is mine to put where I want it. So I left traces of it on myself, maybe this way I will remember that I'm alive, that I want to live. Otherwise why would I get so angry?

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New Thoughts

I know I don’t often write on here. But I've been having some new thoughts. 

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Anyone notice how Aang greets humans and spirits based on their nation/culture?

Water tribe

Fire nation

Spirits

Air nomads

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Aditi Rao Hydari in Padmaavat (2018)