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For years I would look at posts and questionnaires about neurodivergence that takes about being so focused on something that you forgot to eat and be like, "Couldn't be me. Being hungry is so uncomfortable! Your stomach is growling and cramping? How do you ignore that?"

Then someone informed me that neurotypical people have a whole bunch of "hungry" sensations before they get to that point.....

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IS

I honestly really wish that there was an “If you enjoyed this, you may like this” feature on Ao3.

#Is this not what we all do

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Went to two of my city's pride events this weekend.

Neither of them were accessible for me or most of my friends.

Kinda sucks when things made to be welcoming and accepting of all cannot welcome people because we physically cannot be in that space.

Went to the Mardi Gras fair day, most of it was on grass and inaccessible by wheelchair. Also had loud music in a lot of areas which made it so I could not be in them, even with my earbuds in.

Went to the Minus18 queer formal, the disability toilets were not accessible to my friends in wheelchairs. Also the amount of loud noise and flashing lights made it a health hazard for my friends with neurological conditions and almost physically painful for me to be in any of the space due to sensory issues.

We were told these places would be accessible.

We were told these places would be for us.

They weren't.

When a space meant to be accepting cannot accept you it fucking hurts.

I am making this post to ask one question: Why is pride inaccessible to disabled people?

(Abled people can reblog, but don't fucking clown on this, okay?)

#Not in a wheelchair yet #But where are the chairs and benches #I admit I don't wanna hafta use the seat walker thing #I wouldn't have to if they just had BENCHES

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i gotta say like. my real enemy is the usamerican psych industry, i want to direct my energy & vitriol towards the people in power and not towards random strangers on the internet, but it's REALLY fucking hard to feel any kind of solidarity when even among other nd/mi folks, the response to psychiatric survivors is soo lukewarm. like people will disclose the horrific human rights violations theyve been subjected to by healthcare professionals who were directly enabled by the system to enact those violations and the most you people can come up with in response overwhelmingly seems to be "therapy is still good sometimes, though!!!"

#My sister is a psychiatrist who 100% should NOT be #She is abusive and egotistical #She is neurotypical #They don't vet these guys for abusive tendencies before letting them practice #Got the college paper? Good to go

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Just an important reminder, both to myself and for others:

Social media can be a very large echo chamber. In this case, I mean it can make it seem like autism is very similar. That we are mainly level 1's, a dash of level 2's and the rare level 3.

Approximately 30-40% of Autistics are non-speaking.

Approximately 30% of Autistics have an intellectual disability.

Yes, online is very much an echo chamber where you're unlikely to come across many others not like you. But it's important not to spread misinformation, to not assume and to try to teach the wide ways that autism can show.

This is a strong reminder to myself as to why I run this page, why I open myself up to nasty comments, rude behaviour, and (rare) hate. And why I am always trying to learn. It's uncomfortable to run this blog sometimes, but I hope that people are learning that they are not alone.

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wait americans can just. buy massive bottles of ibuprofen what the fuck

#Why are you using 5 ibuprofen OP #That's not safe #At least American ibuprofen should be 2 pills max

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I talk to many people who say things like "oh I have trauma but I don't have PTSD", but then when I talk to them a little more I realize that they most likely do, they just can't recognize it as such due to how lacking PTSD awareness is, even beyond the whole "it's not just a veteran's disorder" thing.

The main reason they think they don't have PTSD usually has to do with flashbacks and nightmares, either they have one but not the other or have neither. But here's the thing, those are only two symptoms out of the 23-odd recognized symptoms. Flashbacks and nightmares are two of the five symptoms under Criterion B (Intrusion), which you only need one of for a diagnosis. The other three symptoms are unwanted upsetting memories, emotional distress after being reminded of trauma and physical reactivity after being reminded of trauma (i.e. shaking, sweating, heart racing, feeling sick, nauseous or faint, etc). Therefore you can have both flashbacks and nightmares, one but not the other, or neither and still have PTSD.

In fact, a lot of the reasons people give me for why they don't think they have PTSD are literally a part of the diagnostic criteria.

"Oh, I can barely remember most parts of my trauma anyway." Criterion D (Negative Alterations in Cognition and Mood) includes inability to recall key features of the trauma.

"Oh but I don't get upset about my trauma that often because I avoid thinking of it or being around things that remind me of it most of the time." Criterion C (Avoidance) includes avoiding trauma-related thoughts or feelings and avoiding trauma-related external reminders, and you literally cannot get diagnosed if you don't have at least one of those two symptoms.

"Oh I just have trouble getting to sleep or staying asleep, but I don't have nightmares." Criterion E (Alterations in Arousal and Reactivity) includes difficulting sleeping outside of nightmares.

"But I didn't have many/any trauma symptoms until a long time after the trauma happened." There's literally an entire specification for that.

Really it just shows how despite being one of the most well-known mental illnesses, people really don't know much about PTSD. If you have trauma, I ask you to at least look at the criteria before you decide you don't have PTSD. Hell, even if you don't have trauma, look at the criteria anyway because there are so many symptoms in there that just are not talked about.

PTSD awareness is not just about flashbacks and nightmares.

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Hello please stop scrolling if you're Neurodivergent.

I'm autistic and I'm doing a test to see the average amount of special interests that Neurodivergent Tumblr users have.

If you vote please reblog so I can reach a bigger amount of people.

#I counted all of my crafting as one interest #Otherwise the number would have been too big

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I am autistic and ADHD. This is a real struggle for me. I do think that the perfectionism and lack of creativity are separate, though. I have struggled with creativity since I was very young. I couldn't ever even give a single stuffed animal an original nickname. They are all named after the animal/bug that they are. I can create themes I learned over and over again in art class, but I can't just draw or create anything I want. I want to to create so bad and I want it to be MINE not just a kit. But I gather the supplies and I try to create and I can't think of anything to create. Somebody has to to tell me what to create.

I do also struggle with ADHD motivation and with trauma induced perfectionism. I also struggle to learn new things without a lot of direct and involved help, which I struggle to ask for. This leaves me struggling to learn new art mediums as well as life skills. But that is the struggle to learn the skills and not the ability to imagine and create my own unique art.

Diagnosed autistic. I have many autistic friends but none of them seem to have this same issue as far as I can tell. I lack creativity. I cannot generate new ideas only remix old ones. it applies to every medium of art I've tried (writing, drawing, painting, etc) and its not just art, but also in attempting to do something I've never done before I just can't unless someone steps in and walks me through it, and experiences don't translate well to new contexts. It feels disabling and restrictive to have a mental block on attempting to do or come up with anything I haven't done/seen a dozen times. Even the most simple day to day tasks. Even stuff that should be more than obvious. Like trying to cross the street. Brain simply cannot connect the dots. Like a computer that needs every function programmed in or it cannot compute. Is this an autism thing? It feels like an autism thing but none of my autistic friends seem to suffer from this.

This could relate to autistic perfectionism, which can show up as "if I'm not perfect at it from the moment I do it, I give up". I suffer from this horrifically, and is a major reason why I can't do online tutorials. I need to be shown how to do things that are new and given prompts or I will give up. I have given up on so many things in my life because no one was around to help.

This also ties into ADHD, for any followers that feel similar.

One thing I have taught myself, however, is that there is nothing wrong with a creative idea that rehashes another idea. It's about how you execute the idea, how you add what only YOU bring to that.

#actually adhd #actually autistic #weird brain #executive function #neurodivergent art

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Okay I wasn't planning on talking about it, but I think I will anyway: I don't think ADHD should be reanamed. The current name is accurate enough and changing it would just harm awareness.

I've heard people say "oh we have to get rid of the 'disorder' part, we're not disordered we're neurodivergent!", first of all 'disordered' and 'neurodivergent' are not mutually exclusive, in fact most ND people are disordered, and second of all, we are disordered, though? Even in a perfect world where my ADHD is perfectly accommodated, I still can't get anything done because of executive dysfunction. I still forget important things all the time. I still get genuinely suicidal from rejection because of RSD. I still ruin relationships because I get too caught up in hyperactivity/inattention to obey social cues. Yes, there are good parts to ADHD, but I am still disabled and I am still disordered.

There's also the argument of "oh but we aren't actually deficit in attention" and while that is true, the term 'attention-deficit' still isn't completely inaccurate, because we do have a deficit in regulating attention and that's where the symptoms come from. The term 'attention-deficit' describes it well enough, I don't see the point of changing the entire name of the disorder when it's not exactly inaccurate.

The final one I hear is "but not all of us are hyperactive! there's ADHD-I people too!" and I've talked about this before, but ADHD-I people do experience hyperactivity, it's just more internalized. And their nervous system is still hyperactive, which again is where the symptoms come from. There's nothing inaccurate about the H part at all.

Changing the name just because one part of it isn't as accurate as it could be is ridiculous, especially when the name ADHD is so recognizable. It'd just make awareness even harder. It's already a nightmare trying to get people to stop using 'ADD', it's gonna be even worse if we tried to phase out 'ADHD' too.

Unless the name of a disorder is seriously inaccurate or harmful to the people with it, changing it is not helpful at all and is actually quite counterintuitive. It made sense with, for example, MPD to DID (because DID is not a personality disorder, and alters are separate states of consciousness and not separate personalities), but with ADHD there's no reason to change it. Focus on things that will actually help us, please.

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Oh dang looking at a post smbdy reblogged got me thinking like. I wish it was easy to explain to abled people that 'feeling better' for chronically ill folk is not the same as feeling better for regular sicknesses. I think that's the mistake made with this line of thinking - we don't 'heal', we sometimes feel less worse. That's what better means to us.

Like - my mom has damaged lungs right? So like, everyday she has symptoms, coughing and chest pain. On days she 'feels better' it doesn't mean she healed, it just means she's not coughing. And that doesn't mean her other symptoms are gone either they're still there. So like a 'good day/period' for her is when she feels symptoms less. They're not gone.

When you're sick with like a regular sickness, when you recover you move forward. Chronic illness doesn't work that way, it's more like a guessing game. It's always 'Today I feel better' 'but that's just today'. Tomorrow is up in the air. The future is unpredictable. So you can't be like, setting a recovery schedule. You just have 'feel better' goals that either go your way or collapse every other week. Only certain things are predictable, when you know your symptoms and if they have certain outside causes as well.

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HELP. I was trying to figure out how to create a second blog and mistyped my blog url (maybe wanna completely change it even). I can't figure out how to fix it. It's not giving me the edit option when I go to 'edit appearance'????

#tumblr tech support