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â a touching of souls.
their kisses with you.
fem. reader. suggestive.
feat. bi-han, kuai, tomas, syzoth.
bi-han â
steady and sure, grabbing at your waist, wrapping a hand around your throat to keep you still as he indulges himself in your lips. although he is not the most affectionate man, bi-han has an exceptional fondness for kisses. perhaps itâs the breathless sounds you make, or the soft gasps in between his tongue â perhaps it is simply that he prefers you at his mercy, a pretty little thing caged beneath or within strong arms. typically at night, when the moon is high and all is silent, he allows himself to calm, to open before you and allow you to initiate. bi-han tends to lose himself in these moments all too easily, an annoyance at his expense. most times, without even trying, simple kisses from you lead to sleepless nights and sore bodies.
kuai liang â
ardent, unrestrained, grasping at hips and breasts and hair, unable to keep what little space remains between the two of you from heating up â figuratively, literally. his lin kuei ways may have taught him restraint, focus, but kuaiâs hotheaded tendencies always get the best of him when it comes to you, only for you. his kisses trail like fire all across your body, his teeth leaving scorches in their wake, a tongue like that of flames licking at tender flesh until you melt like caramel in his hands. kuai is unrelentingly keen on smothering you with every bit of adoration he has; his lips alone are more than capable of proving it. you are a goddess worthy of worship, and he a devotee all too willing to bow down and serve, evermore shall his love burn for you.
tomas â
soft like daytime mist, cupping apples of cheeks, the tremble of fingers when his lips touch yours. he has little experience with romancing women, much less the gift of their kisses; you are his beginning, his end. it is precisely why tomas pecks, rather than lose himself to your lips, for a bashful nature keeps what eager will he has in check. his boyish charm only adds to the endearment, and often he finds you to be the one most content in initiating them. itâs a strange comfort, that you still pursue him despite his meeker approach to affection and love. assuring him that he is wanted sends his self-confidence soaring, and gradually does he ease into the idea of receiving and giving kisses on a more constant basis â privately, of course.
syzoth â
quick and light, flurries of kisses, all about your pretty face, your petalsoft lips, sometimes at those sensitive sweet spots across your dĂŠcolletage if heâs feeling cheekier than usual. syzoth, fairly new to the concept of kissing with warm, wet mouths, tongue and teeth and all, hadnât expected warm-blood affection to be so pleasant. he is cautious of physicality, having grown to live without its softer aspects for years prior to you, but kisses are easy, innocent enough to practice. you have made it this way for him, precious as you are. he kisses you hello, goodbye, as luck before either one of you leaves for calling duties, and simply when he feels like it, even if friends are around to witness and tease. he doesnât mind them, as long as you donât.
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leon. (dolor)
fem. reader. angst with comfort. mentions of trauma.
he stands at the bedroom doorway, brows tight and tense the way they get when heâs lost in twilight thoughts.
he doesnât walk in. he doesnât quite look at you. just stares at the visage of you sitting up in bed, curled up under blankets and clean duvets, cuddled into dovefeather pillows. scrolling through your device, observing whatever it is youâre talking to him about lately. that show, that book youâre into. maybe some hobby youâre getting better at.
leon, for a good long while, stares into the mundane of the room.
you donât say anything. you donât insist, or inquire, or shoo away. you know this is how he gets sometimes. you know itâs because of everything thatâs happened. everything, everywhere, everyone that resides behind those sky blue eyes, hollow and sunken, deciding to visit him every now and then, even on good days like today. even on days when earlier heâd looked at you like a man falling in love for the very first time, all over again, whose handsome face twinkled with mirth and stars and the kind of youth he may have once had when he was a boy.
leon stares. strong, safe body frozen at the door. tousled hair. roaming eyes. if you look closely enough, you may be able to see the growing desperation to ground himself. to ground his mind, at once racing with repressed memories but blank with numbness and nothing. thereâs so much. so much yet so little he can manage to think out, to put into concept, perception.
it must show. it must because you finally lift your head up and force his eyes on yours, and youâre so sweet and beatific and good he wonders why youâre even here, when did you get here? between the blood and bites and flesh and bones and mama and dad and the city and spain and luis and jack when did you show up? when was it decided that youâd love him and stay? after everything he did, after everything he didnât, why was it you chose him?
something burns down the sides of his face. one by one by one something burns after the other, but he doesnât move. doesnât make a sound. he just stares, stares and hopes you donât notice itâs a bad one this time, hopes you notice he wants to talk now, he does, but he canât, he canât because nothing is coming out and his mouth is open but he canât he canâtâ
âsit with me, sweetie. keep me company.â
you pat the space beside you. the normal, cheery way you do. if he looks too close, heâll see the calm look of worry you wear. but he doesnât, because he might start hiding everything away again if he realizes the state heâs in. reminds himself itâs okay though. itâs okay, because itâs you, no one else, no one to hide from like so many times before.
leon finally moves. he watches himself from somewhere high up above the ceiling, climbing into the place you directed him to. heâs shaking. he looks a mess. but the feel of cool sheets and soft pillows brings him back just enough. enough to catch his breath, to try to organize a racing mind.
your hand sticks out. not too close, not too far. a noncommittal invitation. iâm here. it says to him. iâm here if you want. only if you want.
leon curls himself into your lap, taking the both of you by surprise.
the back of his head presses into your stomach. his nose pokes the soft of your thigh. his hair falls over his tear-striped face, shoulders trembling with silent sorrow. his hand frantically searches for something up above.
it lands on yours. without a word, he sets it over the hairs of his head, and silently motions for you to pet him.
âplease.â is all he says.
you listen.
teardrops cascade down the expanse of your skin, each one a memory unspoken. uselessly do his hands cup his cheeks to catch them before they bloom, before he remembers the reason behind their fall. they will not stop. his silence becomes that of weeping whimpers, low, deep, from the cavity of his chest.
your fingers are featherlight across his scalp, a cautious touch in the wave of emotion. you say nothing only because you know he needs this, the physicality of affection, for words and sentiment are lost on deep dark hurt, unable to comfort like the caresses from a lover.
the two of you stay like this, for a long while. waiting for the tide to change, the storm to pass. until his tears lessen into saltskin, until he blinks fog away from damp lashes and loose strays of hair. you pull strands away from his rosy, tear stained cheeks to tuck them behind his ear. you run a gentle hand down his jaw, to the aching bob of his throat.
âmy love, my boy.â you say softly. âyouâre everything to me. nothing will change that. itâs been so hard for so long, i know. youâve been strong all this time, leon.â
âwhat if i canât do it? what if itâs not enough for you?â
âyouâre more than enough, lee. youâve been trying your best, donât forget that in these moments. youâre home and life to me, always. love, darling, would i lie to you?â
his answer is immediate. ânever.â
and he takes comfort in the pressing of your lips to the shell of his ear, the curve of cheeks and tissue scarred by the past. eyes shut tight, basking in the waves of gradual calm over him, keeping back the dark for the time being.
but he knows thereâs too much to heal with simple kisses or honeyed words. plenty things he canât bring himself to speak aloud with you. perhaps thatâs where heâll start, find somewhere to go, someone qualified to talk to. take the load off his back, and keep from worrying you, too.
he entwines your fingers together. brings them up for a kiss to your knuckles. âi love you. iâd do anything for you. anything.â hoarse his voice may be, he speaks strongly, clearly to emit his conviction. leon presses kiss after kiss across your fingertips, heart caught in his throat by how gently you cradle him into your bosom.
the warmth of your love lulls his fatigue into a dreamless sleep; his last thought is full of you and you alone.
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flirtatious character intros. (various/goddess reader.) (3)
note: fem. reader. suggestive. 3rd person pov.
feat. raiden (+ dark) fujin, nightwolf, scorpion
iâm so happy to finally share the newest installment of this series! all the exciting news about mk1 definitely gave me some much needed motivation to finish these. once mk1 drops later this month, iâm considering adding its brand new roster to this series as well â letâs hope future me does so. thank you all for the love and patience youâve shown; please enjoy your reading.
part 1 ; part 2.
raiden
raiden: i am glad to see you look so well, name.
name: you act as if we havenât seen each other in years, old friend.
raiden: no matter our time apart, i will always be glad to see you.Â
raiden: do you still accept my friendship, twisted as i am?
name: so long as we serve the realms together, never will i stray from you.
raiden: your kindness is undeserving, name.
name: raiden, there are rumors whispering about us.Â
raiden: do they speak falsehoods, name?
name: for my heartâs sake, i hope them true.
name: raiden, there are rumors whispering about us.
raiden: are they a nuisance to you, name?
name: iâd merely like to know how to make them fact, is all.
raiden: you never fail to surprise me, name.
name: how so, my lord?
raiden: despite our years together, my affection for you grows ever stronger each time we meet.
name: i visited the sky temple some time ago, but you werenât there.
raiden: is that so? what were you in need of, name?
name: what else? you, of course.
dark raiden
name: my lord, i beg of you â do not test my resolve this way.
dark!raiden: havenât i proved myself worthy of your devotion?
name: how could i, knowing what youâll become?
dark!raiden: devote yourself unto me, goddess.
name: my lord would have me succumb to darkness?
dark!raiden: he would have you as his rightful bride.
name: what is happening to you, my lord?
dark!raiden: do you fear me, name?
name: i fear i am losing my dearest friend.
name: what is happening to you, friend?
dark!raiden: iâve sought this power to protect us, name.
name: in doing so, you would sacrifice the raiden i cherish?
dark!raiden: tell me whose presence offends you most, name, and i will bring you their head.
name: my lord, surely you jest?
dark!raiden: iâve told you, havenât i? anything for your sake is worth doing.
dark!raiden: i will allow no harm to befall you again, goddess.
name: what have you done, raiden?
dark!raiden: whatever necessary to have you remain by my side.
fujin
fujin: the winds have blown the most loveliest of breezes my way.
name: (laughing) i am sure iâve heard those words countless times before.
fujin: yet still they flatter, should your smile show for it.
name: fujin, there are rumors up in the air about us.
fujin: no need to mind them. let the others speak all they want.
name: are they correct, is all i wonder . . .
name: my lord, there are rumors up in the air about us.
fujin: you need only ask, and i shall speak my heart, name.Â
name: fujin . . . will you accept mine in return?
fujin: my lady, would there ever come a day youâd reconsider my offer?
name: earthrealm has its brothers thunder for protection. is it necessary for me to join you?
fujin: it would certainly put my mind at ease, gazing upon your beauty each day.
name: dearest fujin? youâre still alive?
fujin: of course. i couldnât bear another moment without your company.
name: i am glad your spirit remains ever breezy.
name: dearest fujin! everyone told me youâd been lost to time.
fujin: time itself could never keep me from you, lady name.
name: thank the four winds that guided you back to me.
fujin: tell me, has bi-han troubled you in any way?
name: the dark one has no hold over me, my lord.
fujin: should that ever change, allow me to be the first you turn to.
fujin: youâre quite popular among our mortal friends, name.
name: (laughs) worry not, he of wind. my eyes are still set on you alone.
fujin: i . . . ahem. itâs not like you to tease, my lady.
nightwolf
name: your wisdom surpasses that of many mortals.
nightwolf: it is by the great spiritâs guidance, not my own.Â
name: humble and handsome . . . sheâs chosen her champion well.Â
nightwolf: the great spirit wasnât lying about you.
name: pray tell, were they kind words?
nightwolf: kind as you are lovely.
name: i admire your resilience, nightwolf.
nightwolf: all i am, all i have become, is for the matokaâs sake.
name: blest be the matoka to have you, dear one.
nightwolf: haokah is especially fond of you, name. he a close friend?
name: indeed. weâve known one another for eons now.
nightwolf: (scoffs) if i were him, i wouldâve asked for your hand the moment i laid eyes on you.
name: iâve never met a nightwolf in person before.
nightwolf: thoughts on your first, name?
name: if youâre willing, allow me the pleasure of knowing you further.
nightwolf: the great spiritâs keen on our meeting together, name.
name: she wishes to boast the power of her latest champion?
nightwolf: she wishes for us to be . . . compatible. take that as you will.
name: have you any sage words for me, nightwolf?
nightwolf: none whatsoever.
name: the way your eyes wander tell me otherwise, young pup.
nightwolf: i have heard that countless suitors vie for your hand, name.
name: such is the life of a goddess, iâm afraid.
nightwolf: allow me to put a stop to them for you, here and now.
scorpion
name: the thralls of hellfire no longer consume your heart?
scorpion: my suffering can only be quelled for so long.
name: if i may, allow me to ease it for as long as i can.Â
scorpion: shinnok was infatuated with you.
name: he, like many others. does it trouble you, hanzo?
scorpion: so long as i am the only one in your company, no.Â
scorpion: for all weâve suffered, will you bless the shirai ryu?
name: grace me with honorable kombat, and blessings you shall receive.
scorpion: your kindness will not be forsaken, name.
scorpion: should you ever desire it, the fire gardens are welcome for you to visit.
name: a kind invitation, grandmaster. iâd hope it would come with a tour.
scorpion: it would be an honor, name.
scorpion: sub-zero has mentioned you time and time again, goddess.
name: is that envy i hear, hanzo?
scorpion: there will be no need for envy once iâve proven my superiority for your hand.
name: i admire such ardent loyalty for your comrades, grandmaster.
scorpion: the ones i cherish fan the flames of my devotion.
name: i hope that i, too, am among such ones.
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hello marie!!! long time no see, how are you btw? đĽş
hello dear vanie! i apologize for getting back to you so late â thank you for being sweet as always. iâve been okay! i was enrolled in a few classes this summer so itâs been keeping me busy (and sleep deprived) unfortunately. how are you doing? any paralive news youâre excited for? i just saw that cozmez + akyr are competing in the second round, if my memory serves me right. đ iâm looking forward to seeing iori + kanata interactions, their dynamic is really amusing to me.
iâm sure itâs obvious, but iâve been taking a little break from writing paralive stuff. but only because iâve been distracted by sooo many new games/shows iâve gotten into this year! i promise i havenât forgotten the paralive crew. 𼚠iâve always had a habit of jumping from one interest to the next, without making more room for them in my mind, haha. thereâs plenty iâve written, but nothing iâve finished. (sad life of a writer, lmao) but i hope to eventually clear out my requests once iâm in a better spot.
sorry for writing so much! i just really appreciate you checking up on me. let me know how youâre doing, too! â¤ď¸
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Helloooou again :3)/
hello friend! i hope all is well. thank you for checking up on me, as always. â¤ď¸
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ada. (enamour)
fem. reader. love rivalry including ada/reader/leon. (focus on reader)
something cold digs in between your shoulder blades, sending shivers up tense muscles.
itâs a sudden sensation. catches you off guard you forget to call out to leon, whose back is turned to you whilst sifting through paper files laying across an abandoned wooden desk. the latest room youâve snuck into seemed abandoned enough â save for its open window rocking back and forth on screeching bolts. they mustâve entered through there mere seconds before the two of you did.
warm, sweet breath tickles your earlobe. another round of shivers overtake your senses. this time, through, you recover quickly enough to react.
your hand flies to your pocketed blade and in an instant is pressed up to their throat. it is then you realize, recognize who your company is. she smiles serenely at you, acting like the knife at her neck isnât sharp enough to slice through bone. she bears her pistol with all the grace of someone whoâs caught you in her web, not the other way around.
âlong time no see, kitten.â
her deadpan voice practically echoes through the silence of the night. finally surprising your partner into turning around. what surprises him further is the way ada gazes at you, almost identical to the way she did at him all those years ago.
âada.â leon says plainly, hand hovering over his own pistol. his eyes flicker between the two of you, to the way your hand fumbles with your blade, to how she smiles a little too suggestively for someone being threatened. heâs certain youâre about to push her down, or for her to knock the knife away from your obviously loosened grip â neither happen.
instead, you carefully tuck your blade away and greet her with a coy smile of your own.
âi wasnât expecting you here, red.â your arms cross, a guard of sorts. you knew full well of the games she liked to play. she holds your eyes as she slips her pistol back in its holster, searching for something you refuse to show. itâs been a long time, indeed, but you still remember how to compose yourself around her. itâs all rather flattering.
ada circles you, trailing her fingertips over your shoulders. her silky touch is the only weapon in her grasp, but it is perhaps her most dangerous. she takes pleasure in the way you shift beneath her watch, how your pretty face fights to remain mild. sheâs no fool. she sees the smile playing at those luscious lips of yours â why bother hiding it? sheâs all sultry eyes just for you, now that sheâs finally managed to separate your stuffy partnerâs hip from yours. seems he hadnât changed after all. he really was the clingy type.
it was cute. once. not when he happened to be clingy with you of all people.
âonce i heard you were around, i just couldnât help myself.â her arm comes to rest around the curve of your waist. her fingers press into the flesh of your hip, easing you closer. her lips hover over the soft of your neck, almost kissing a path up to your ear. your breathing stutters, and she purrs, âwanted to stop by and catch up with my favorite girl, is all.â
you scoff, but thereâs no stopping the heat rising up and over your face. those pretty lips of yours finally turn up in a smile, bashful like a schoolgirl crush. the temptation to run her thumb over your bottom lip runs strong â until an awkward, intentional clear of a throat interrupts the thought.
âiâd appreciate if you left my partner alone.â leon interjects, striding to stand tall besides you. in a swift motion he interweaves your elbows together and pulls you towards him, at once halting the hold she had on you. itâs a comfortable, possessive sort of touch. how quaint. cute little leon, still wearing his heart on his sleeve.
given the way his hand clamps around yours, he must really have it bad. what a shame. for him.
ada is slow to drag her eyes away from you. she even runs them up, down, over your lovely body for good measure. she canât have leon thinking she isnât willing to compete â two can play at that game. his fuming glower tells her heâs gotten the message loud and clear. as he should. she zeros in on the way his grip tightens around yours, again, cozily touching you as if you were his.
a quirk of her brow suggests ire. âglad to see you, leon. to think, after all this time, youâre still such a lucky man. who wouldâve thought sheâd end up being your partner?â
the two of them stare each other down with such intensity you wonder what other history they share aside from you. tension seeps into the chill of the nighttime air. leonâs coiled up so tightly it raises worry, and you find yourself wrapping your arms around his bicep to placate him. for all you know, the mysterious plagas infecting him could thrive off stress, and heâs already had plenty of that so far.
almost immediately does your touch have him redirecting his notice towards you. his intense gaze softens at your pretty eyes studying him. his broad shoulders gradually relax in your embrace. heâs visibly calmed by the simple act, much to adaâs amusement â and her vexation. her fingertips dig into her palms, wishing it was your hands beneath them instead.
âada, why are you really here?â you inquire, and sheâs pleased when you finally set sights back on her. sheâs not fond of the questioning, however. she purses her lips. her expression morphs into a cautious neutral. youâre aware you wonât be getting a direct answer, no matter how much she likes you.
ada sighs, âoh, sweetheart. you know i donât work and tell.â
guarded, she saunters to the opposite end of the room to the very window she slithered in through, overlooking the bleak scenery with little interest. you slip past leon to follow after her, grasping her fingers to keep her from going any further. pleasant warmth seeps through from your fingertips to hers. thereâs no time to relish it, although she longs to feel more. calculating eyes regard you and you alone.
âleave the girl,â demands ada. âsheâs lost no matter what. you walk away nowâŚand who knows? maybe youâll live to meet me again.â
keeping her eyes locked on yours, she brings your hand to her lips, and presses a languid kiss across your knuckles. a stain of red now marks you as hers. play glimmers in her irises. ââŚmaybe iâll even take you on that date i promised.â
âyou think weâre gonna give up that easy?â leonâs voice cuts in, weighed with barely contained venom.
âright.â ada exhales a laugh. how true. the two of you really are perfect for one another. hearts of gold, heads full of dreams. she turns towards a silently seething leon, whose eyes pierce her every move. he does a poor job at hiding his envious glare towards your entwined hands. âhow about we continue this discussion another time?â
she drops your hand unceremoniously, in favor of pressing a kiss to your cheek. the pulse of your racing heart is nearly tangible. such a sweet girl, flustered by a simple kiss. longing parts her lips in their journey up to your ear to whisper, âstay safe, beautiful.â she pulls away with an air of nonchalance, committing to memory the clear look of shock sheâs frozen you into. it takes all she has not to go back in for another kiss, for thereâs no knowing where her lips will land if she does.
âkeep her safe for me, will you, leon? sheâs really quite precious, you know.â
and just like that, sheâs gone.
you nearly stumble towards the creaking window for a vain glimpse into the night sheâs disappeared through. half shocked, half mortified of your audience still gaping at you, you could only hope he wasnât put off by the instance of his flirty adversary. or the fact you had no quarrels in encouraging her.
a hand wraps around yours, warm and tight.
âcareful. leaning out a little too far there, donât you think?â
leon sounds rather relieved now that itâs back to being the two of you. ada mustâve been a sore sight for whatever reasons heâs held within. you avoid his eyes to recollect yourself, murmuring apologies beneath your breath.
then, a touch upon your cheek, the very one sheâd kissed, puts a stop to all thoughts. your eyes flutter up towards leonâs. his usually somber expression has turned sour, scowling and scorned in a way youâre unfamiliar with. his hand cups your face, thumb frantically rubbing off what must be a lipstick stain adaâs left behind. the intensity of his eyes only adds to your embarrassment, makes you wish he hadnât seen her in the first place. maybe then he wouldnât be upset, angry with the ghost of her presence.
âhere i thought luis would be my only problem.â leon mutters, so softly youâd mistaken heâd spoken at all. when he notices the shift in your pretty eyes, the sweetsoft concern that struck him weak, his gaze mellows instantly, and he blinks rapidly as if coming out of a daze. rose pink springs across his face in a blooming blush, a bigger surprise than his supposed anger. he rips his hand away upon realizing himself, leaving you curious.
âi meanâi meant, sheâs the last person i expected to run into here. itâsâitâs a long story. wonât bore you with it. just know sheâs probably not worth trusting completely. itâs best youâre careful around her. iâd hateâŚi wouldnât want you hurt.â
his voice goes quiet at the end. his head is turned away, body tight and tense, hands fiddling with the holsters of his weapons. it isnât like leon to speak so personally. so openly about his emotions. and you know it isnât because of adaâs mere presence, what must be a recollection of the past.
you touch your cheek, still warm from his skin.
âyouâre the one i trust, leon. we came here together, and weâre leaving together. iâm with you until the end.â
courage overtakes bashful notions. you close in beside him, reach up to push a lock of his hair behind his ear. cup his shying face, a tender encouragement to share his vulnerability with you. leonâs eyes fall back on yours too easily, too swiftly for a simple friendship. you see it; he is incapable of masking it.
itâs somewhat of an honor heâs so fond of you. itâs a reminder to be gentle with his feelings, though you yourself may not have yours sorted out just yet. but it is ascertained that you care immensely for him, perhaps in the way heâd like you to. perhaps not. thereâs plenty of time to work things out.
âiâm with you, ace.â you smile, tugging his cheek until he returns one of his own. âthereâs no one else iâd rather have beside me. got it?â
leon nods, convinced. âyeah. thanks.â
you pay a playful pat to his cheek, satisfied with his answer. âgood, good. now, why donât we get moving? we wouldnât want to keep miss ashley waiting. what were we even looking for in the first place? some kind of key?â
the mention of the mission reinvigorates him. âyeah, exactly. should be somewhere around here, if you can help me look.â
âsure! letâs just hope we can get by without someone interrupting again.â
âwouldnât that be nice.â scoffs leon, slipping his fingers through yours to lead you back towards the other half of the room. this habit of wanting you close was really too cute. willingly do you allow him to take your hand as he pleases.
all the while you will your heart not to flutter at the lipstick still staining the other, red on red alike.
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leon. (desiderate)
fem. reader. canon-typical violence/injuries mentioned.
if only youâd been beside him a second sooner.
the surrounding ganados were resolute in killing the two of you, but so far youâd handled everything well. he took the front, you, the back. it was going fine enough, up until a creature welding a machete managed to land a clean slice across the side of his abdomen, easily cutting through the flesh. your partnerâs pained sounds were a nightmare on the ears.
once that damned church bell finally rang upon safety could you take cover in an abandoned home to check whatever damage was done.
now another challenge began.
âplease, just let me see how bad it is.â your pleas are no match for stubbornness. leon waves you off, pretending that he isnât holding a bleeding wound. his beautiful jacket, a favorite of his, he had told you on the way to the village, stains his hand a bright scarlet. he lingers by a window to keep watch outside, his handsome face scrunched with discomfort.
âitâs fine. iâm fine. focus on yourself first.â his reply is curt, slightly winded. his broad chest heaves as he applies more pressure on his injury, his jaw setting tightly to avoid letting out a moan of pain. you watch helplessly, unused to the view of your calm, confident partner so hurt.
the two of you hadnât been partners for long, but something akin to a friendship was undoubtedly there. his odd quips, the occasional joke that would usually cause eye rolling and groans were actually rather charming coming from a man of his reputation â you took them in stride, bouncing off of his personality as if youâd known each other all your lives.
but there is a certain coldness to leon. an inner frost, like a perpetual twist of the brows stuck in thought, or eyes heavy with a lack of heart. clear reminders of whatever heâs gone through before meeting you. perhaps itâs the innate good you sense from him that encourages the desire to know him, befriend him. a goodness that is such heâd prefer bleeding out if it meant saving you first.
you gather your courage. with cautious steps you approach his side, place a benign hand on his bicep that silently insists. at first, leon refuses to look your way. he's all too aware of those doe eyes youâre making at him â knows itâll get him weak in the knees. the touch on his arm is already making it harder to breathe.
âleonâŚâ âgod, do you have to say his name so softly like that?â âiâm not hurt. iâm worried about you. just let me take a look so i can help ease the pain. please.â
his eyes flicker down to yours before he can stop himself. fuck. those pretty eyes, brows turned up with concern, flutter when they meet his. leonâs jaw goes slack, and he swallows so hard heâs certain he gulps aloud.
âokayâŚokay. i surrender.â he says, a hint of humor lacing in. âsorry to have made you beg.â
your unease melts into a beaming smile. âas long as it paid off.â
after finding the most stable looking chair in the house, leon peels off his beloved jacket on the one side heâs hurt, exposing the weeping cut caked with a mix of dried and fresh blood. he at least looks a little sheepish to have insisted he was fine, when he was, in fact, not very fine at all.
you cringe at the sight, deterring any ogling leon would've preferred to see instead. you carefully lift his skin-tight shirt to examine the cut further. the feel of your smooth fingers gliding across his bare skin sends a wave of gooseflesh over every inch of him. he reminds himself heâs a professional, not a schoolboy.
âiâmâŚiâm sorry, but, ew. aside from that, itâs actually not too deep. a good cleaning should help, since that blade was probably really unsanitary. then iâll bandage you up. sounds good?â
leon is quiet. concerned, you glance upwards to check on him, only to find heâs already staring at you. something hot clenches at your chest. his eyes fall to your parted lips for a split second before realizing youâve stopped talking.
âyeah.â he mindlessly agrees. it is incredibly obvious to the both of you that he hasnât heard a word you said. you kindly choose to ignore it, mostly because itâs cute. and because heâs probably lost a bit of blood while he was being stubborn. not to mention he was nearly sawed in half by a literal creature of darkness, too. something like that would take a moment to process.
âiâll clean you up, then bandage the cut. sounds good?â you repeat slowly, trying to also kindly ignore how his eyes switch between your eyes and lips. leon nods, then looks away in silent complacency to let you do what you need to. and to steady himself when your hands run down the expanse of his abdomen to check for any other injuries he may have sustained.
he wonders how youâve managed to keep such soft, supple hands. how they press just the right amount of pressure, not too much or too little. the first aid spray, nor the herbs you mix and crush into a salve hardly sting when you massage them across his wound. all the while your eyes, those pretty eyes, gleam with pure concentration as you work to heal him. help him. without ulterior motives, without asking for anything in return.
guilt overtakes him. to have you mend him despite his being perfectly capable feels selfish. reminds him of naivety and red. longings of the past. you two were already in over your heads, and now this? having you coddle him? leonâs hardly deserving. hardly worth your effort. he wasnât the priority at this point, even if he made the promise to get all three of you back home safe. there were risks, dangers, that either of you could succumb to, but heâd be damned before letting anything happen to you. as long as you stuck together, nothing would.
âyou with me, ace?â
your whisper jolts him out of thought. leon appears struck, as if forgetting youâre sat beside him, pressing bandages along his abdomen. your perplexed expression wakes him from his inner rumination. makes him think his own face is twisted in the way it gets whenever heâs too far deep in his mind.
leon takes a beat to answer. âuhâŚyeah. all good. sorry about that.â
âno need to apologize. i know itâs a lot to take in. iâm just worried about that handsome face of yours.â
he freezes, his dark thoughts at once evaporating. âmyâwhat?â
you turn slightly bashful. âoh, well, you know. if you keep making the same kind of face, itâll get stuck that way. i justâŚwell, it would be a shame if yours did. youâre really quite nice on the eyes, leon.â
he gapes at you, stunned silent by your boldness. and what more it could imply. these sorts of compliments are nothing heâs not used to, clearly, but coming from you? the first person to mean something to him in years?
leon feels his face going hot. shit. he clears his throat, shifts in his creaking seat. prays he isnât blushing as badly as he thinks he is. you manage to catch his fleeting eyes for a second. he watches how your lush lips turn up with an amused smile so poorly hidden he almost thinks you wanted him to notice â and just like that, heâs properly flustered.
he isnât allowed to collect himself. soon youâre patting off whatever excess salve remains on his skin and tugging his shirt back down over freshly set bandages, held together by even more prayers and a bit of medical tape. youâre up and on your feet before leon can even pierce together the concept of thanking you.
you head to the nearest window for a quick peek outside. âlooks like the villagers are still in the church. itâs all clear for now, unless they decide to cut service short.â you muse. leon joins you, carefully readjusting his jacket and his cool.
âdonât jinx us.â he huffs. âlast thing we need is another run in with trouble. we should start looking for ashley now that things are quiet.â
you agree. after one last weapons and supplies check, you lead the way towards the front door to brave whatever awaits the two of you ahead. before you finish twisting the doorknob, he pats an awkward hand on your shoulder.
leon says your name intently. ââŚi appreciate your help. very much.â he hesitates, his tongue slipping out to wet his lips. you can still see a bloom of pink across his cheeks. âsoâŚthanks. i owe you one.â
you pat his shoulder in return with a mellow smile. âof course, leon. itâs why iâm here. i am your favorite partner after all.â you joke, turning the moment he lets out a chuckle. you miss the way his eyes soften as he takes in the pretty view of you.
âtrue. but itâs not like you had much competition in the first place.â
âha-ha. if youâre saying i win by default, then thatâs just fine byââ
the moment the two of you step outside, an incoming call from hunnigan interrupts the lighthearted atmosphere. the sudden intrusion turns leonâs face somber once more, though he glances somewhat apologetically at you before answering.
no matter, you think. thereâs plenty of time to spare for team-bonding.
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leon. (brume)
fem. reader. angst, suggestive mentions.
your husband is a stranger.
the man you married months ago has been reduced to nothing, ground to bits, reborn as a soldier, a tool, a puppet. he is no longer yours; he will never be again.
the color of the sky, his eyes shone bright, now sullen and sunken with unspoken hurt. hollow cheeks from missed meals, dark bags from little sleep. of these things and more, he says nothing. shares nothing. and you let him be, out of love, out of fear, to keep the distance between the two of you from growing further apart.
nevertheless, he treats you much the same. still kisses you soft, still holds you close in all the ways he knows you like. but there is a new edge behind his movements. unfamiliar. paranoid. his hands, calloused in places they werenât before, grip too tightly your own when youâre out and about. his unnerving stares towards alleys and doorways, his too quick response to his hip at every sound. was he always this way? or was it the city, the hell that brought it out?
leon, youâd whisper, come lay down and rest.
he listens. in the evenings he curls up next to you, lets your scent, your warmth, engulf him like a cloud. a tangible reminder of what he wants to protect. lets you tuck his face close up against your heart. he listens to its beating until it slows to a pulse, then slips away to stand guard at the front door again. and when you wake up alone in the dark, you pretend his version in your dreams sleeps soundly besides you.
leon, your arms hug around his waist, make love to me today.
he listens. be it by day or moonlight, he indulges you in every way you ask. his too rough hands grabbing, bruising, taut muscles grown slick with sweat and lips parting to kiss at your breasts. this body is unfamiliar, no matter the pleasure it brings. his newly assigned training, grueling and relentless, has wrung out every bit of softness he once had â he is sharp, cutting at your flesh, pulling and shaping you beyond what you knew. who is this stranger, loving you as he did? who is this man, whose dark eyes you avoid when he looks at you?
âleon,â you plead, sorrow in your throat, âplease tell me you love me.â
he is quiet. stops stuffing his go-bag with mission ready supplies, beckoned by an early morning phone call before dawn even crackled through the sky. a part of him wishes to throw this godforsaken bag out the door, or crush his phone into the pavement and hope he finds a way to keep from being found. another wishes youâd just go back to sleep.
âyou know i do.â he replies without turning around, voice heavy with a humorless sort of huff. a disbelieving sound. âdonât tell me you forgot already.â
âjust tell me, please. say it before you go.â your voice breaks faintly at the end.
leon turns and peers so intensely at you that tears swell forth in your eyes. it prevents you from discerning his expression. was it one of pity? exasperation? you bury your face into your hands, woe bubbling up like a spring.
strong arms embrace you. whispers of affirmation dull against your sobs, against the outpour displaying your silent suffering. if only you could find comfort in this manâs arms. in the way he kisses your seasalt tears across your cheeks, how tenderly he runs his hands through your hair. through the blur, you see the youth of your love, the hopeful candor who was once your leon. when you blink, then blink again, it is the face of a jaded, somber man who gazes at you the same way he did, once upon a dream.
âi do. i swear i do.â leon insists. he presses kiss after kiss on every inch of your pretty face, unsure how else to soothe you. âyouâre everything to me, remember? youâre why iâm still here. youâre all i have. please donât cry, darling. i love you, i love you.â
you close your eyes. bask in the noise. if you try hard enough, you can still make out the soft cadence of your leonâs voice hidden beneath his baritone pain. but itâs not him, is it? itâs not anymore. try, try harder, and perhaps youâll learn to love him like the leon he was before. maybe then his kisses wouldnât feel like thorns, and his hugs wouldnât choke you blue.
âi just want you back. thatâs all i really want. please stay here, donât leave me waiting alone.
oh, leon, please donât go again.â
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â whatâs in a name?
their favorite pet names for you.
fem. reader.
feat. leon, luis, ashley, ada.
leon â
very traditional. he likes the classic pet names the most: baby, sweetheart, darling are just a few of his favorites. he likes the sappiness behind the simplicity. and the way you light up when he addresses you as such. depending on his mood, heâll even whip out some eye rollers to tease you with (honeybun, lovebug, mama). this is especially true when he wants to distract you and/or snatch your attention from what youâre doing. leon never uses pet names to demean you, however, and would instead use your actual name/nickname during serious circumstances.
luis â
very romantic, very suave. he calls you by nearly every affection in the book, should you manage to keep count. bonita, corazĂłn, cariĂąo, are his go-tos most of the time. luis also uses possessive labels such as mi vida, mi amorcito, mi linda when heâs feeling especially clingy. or when heâs hit with with a spot of jealousy and wishes to let everyone else know youâre taken. (it happens more often than not, as it were). heâs the type who uses pet names to annoy you during arguments only because he thinks heâs slick enough to charm you out of being upset with him. (he is, but thatâs not the point). he seldom uses your name/nickname in most cases.
ashley â
cutesy and food oriented. she isnât shy about calling you the sappiest, fluffiest pet names even around others, which in turn leads to plenty of cooing and awing over your sheepish reactions. sweet pea, pumpkin, cupcake are her faves. she reasons that because she loves sweet things, it only makes sense to call you by their names since she loves you even more. that, and they sound super cute to say. ashley tends to call you by name/nickname just as often though, therefore balancing the sweetness perfectly.
ada â
sultry, on the cusp of leading to more. sheâs taciturn and cautious, but reserves just a little bit of herself for you and you alone. kitten, doll, beautiful are her usual choices. always spoken to you in a whisper, like a secret she wants heard by your ears only. ada hates to share, so she canât have just anyone thinking they can address you the same way she does. she finds herself reserving these pet names during more intimate moments spent together. she uses your name/nickname the majority of the time, but will indulge you in a murmur should you ask politely.
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luis. (sweet talk)
note: fem. reader. implied to be latina/hispanic; no physical features are mentioned. can also simply pass as a spanish speaker. spanish was kindly corrected by @angi-writes-filth ; translations are included at the end for your convenience.
âÂżdime, chula, quĂŠ pasa entre usted y el oficial?â
his question has leon turning to you with a serious curiosity, no doubt hoping youâd translate something useful. unfortunately for him, and for you, itâs nothing more than what luis hopes will turn into flirtatious banter.
you shake your head at your partner, leaving him unconvinced. you hope his meager grasp of spanish keeps him from understanding too much. âÂżquĂŠ con que?â you beck your head at luis, who grins upon receiving your attention. âes mi socio, nada mĂĄs.â
your coy reply does not escape him. at once he slinks to your side, playful gray eyes flicking about your pretty face. âparece que le caes muy bien, Âżeh? te ha cuidado mĂĄs que a la niĂąita.â he bumps shoulders, a teasing gesture. gets you rolling your eyes with a hint of a smile on your lips.
across the room of the safehouse, ashley looks on with girlish interest, her brows raising suggestively at the sight of you two so close. you send her a face, a code between young women, that has her fighting back a laugh.
leon, ever responsible, busies himself by placing whatever broken wooden planks he finds onto the dirty glass windows by the entrance door. you catch him glancing ever so often back at where you stand, unable to hide the wary way he eyes the man cozying up beside you. you ponder luisâs words.
âquiero pensar que somos amigos. los amigos se necesitan quererse, Âżno?â you reiterate, shifting your weight opposite of him. a thrill runs up your heart when he inches closer, intentions all too obvious.
âeso es lo que quiero saber, cariĂąa. usted, el chaval, sĂłlo sois amigos, Âżverdad?â
âvayaâŚestĂĄs muy interesando en ĂŠl. Âżpor quĂŠ me hablas a mi?â
âsupongo que quiero saber si tengo una chance, Âżque mas?â luis chuckles, moves to prop his shoulder onto the wall behind you, one arm loosely caging you, the other resting on his hip. ây, pues, la cosa esâŚâ he leans in, the tip of his nose brushing against the shell of your ear, âque difĂcil ignorar a alguien tan hermosa.â
heat rises up your face, a trained façade breaking as you laugh him off, unable to stop from smiling this time. luis hovers, incredibly pleased, watching from up close how your beauty lights up. he lingers even when you give him a lighthearted shove, stammering an excuse of having to check upstairs for supplies.
he lays back against the wall, feels the vibrations of your heels clicking up the stairs. knows you wonât find anything, anyway â if you werenât so flustered, youâd remember he had already gone up there to check as soon as the group arrived.
a satisfied smirk refuses to leave his face, despite the severe way leon glares at him from across the room.
âiâm guessing you didnât share any valuable input?â leon asks curtly, broad shoulders tense.
friends, my ass, luis thinks. he throws his hands up innocently, appearing clueless to leonâs envy. âno, no, it was. valuable for her to know, at least.â he winks impishly, earning himself a scowl. âcâmon, yanqui, iâm just being friendly, you know?â
though his jaw sets tight, leon says nothing in return, remembering ashley stands not too far from his place near the front door.
âeverythingâs clear up here.â your voice comes down the stairs before the rest of you does. you pointedly ignore both men eyeing your figure as you make your way to ashleyâs side. âthereâs a relatively clean bed upstairs if youâd like to rest, sweetie. i know itâs hard to relax in our situation, but i think itâs best you try.â
ashley quirks a brow. iâll go if you tell me everything.
you offer your hand. well, duh.
âyeah, youâre probably right.â ashley agrees, voice feigning hesitation, placing her hand in yours to lead her away. she gives leon a passing look to gauge his reaction, but canât seem to look past what she now recognizes as his âcool, calm, agent guyâ persona. that, and, heâs a little too occupied watching you walk away to really react.
at least luis shows a little disappointment when you walk by without looking his way, even pouting at the lack of attention. the air sours as the two men are left alone, for plenty of reasons sheâs clueless for.
she should really brush up on her spanish when she gets home.
translations below:
âtell me, cutie, whatâs up with you and the officer?â
âwhatâs with what? heâs my associate, nothing more.â
âit looks like he likes you quite a bit. heâs taken more care of you than of the girl.â
âi like to think weâre friends. friends have to like each other, donât they?â
âthatâs what i��d like to know, sweetheart. you, the guy, youâre just friends, right?â
âwowâŚyouâre seriously interested in him. why are you talking to me?â
âi guess i wanna know if i have a chance, what else? and, well, the thing isâŚitâs difficult to ignore someone so beautiful.â
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askbox: closed!
thank you all who requested! writing asks are now closed for the time being. my inbox will be open only for messages/questions/etc. that iâll happily answer. take care, be well. â¤ď¸
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hiii i know it's already new years and christmas passed but could you do kissing under the mistletoe headcanons w/ kanata, allen, and yuto? <33 happy new year!
hello! thank you for your request. although late, i do hope your new year has been going well. take good care. â¤ď¸
note: fem. reader
genre: romance/fluff.
characters: kanata yatonokami. allen sugasano. yuto inukai.
kanata:
he isnât very aware of the tradition at first, as uncommon as it was for himself and nayuta to have any reason to celebrate christmas in their younger years, so he doesnât quite understand what heâs even supposed to do. or why someone would hang this useless plant up in the first place. that said, there are two possible routes heâll take.
one: kanata will flat-out refuse to follow through on kissing should the two of you be in a public space. he much prefers showing affection privately, especially when it comes to something as intimate, but will apologize and make it up to you once youâre alone together.
two: if nayuta was the one who hung it up at home, and there were only the three of you in attendance â fine. heâll kiss you, but only a bit as not to bother nayuta. (nayuta does not care at all.) kanata is much more comfortable this way, and might even try to catch you beneath the mistletoe a few more times just to have an obvious reason to kiss you. (kanata gets embarrassed asking for affection when heâs touch-starved.)
allen:
is probably the one who hung the mistletoe up in the first place, with every intent to get you underneath it. unluckily for him, both anne and hajun made it their intent to keep you from crossing whatever doorway heâd hung it over, making it a very long, very hectic christmas party of cat-and-mouse. (you were none the wiser.) once he finally caught you, his roommates irked by his sad puppy eyes following you everywhere, allen practically hopped with excitement as he pointed upwards to show his free kissing pass.
wrapping you up tight, he presses dozens of kisses all over your pretty face, much to the annoyance of mostly everyone else around, but only wants to make sure you feel how special you are to him. he also likes to catch you multiple times beneath the mistletoe throughout the night, to kiss until both your lips swell with love.
yuto:
caught completely off guard by the appearance of the mistletoe. he doesnât attend many parties due to a strict work schedule and general shyness of public spaces, so for yuto to immediately find himself beneath the mistletoe with you sends him into a total reboot of mind. he stands so still so long it worries you, but any negativity threatening to release hancho is quickly soothed by your comforting touch.
out of a polite social obligation, yuto complies with the tradition even while being teased for it, but will probably need to hide for some time to collect himself. he doesnât have much confidence to catch you underneath the mistletoe again, but will happily engage in other forms of affection for the rest of your time there. yuto will offer apologetic kisses once the two of you are alone, and at home, away from prying eyes.
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hi! If ask box is open,can i ask for Zen dating headcanons? because this man deserve more love
hello! thank you for requesting. i adore zen bunches â he definitely deserves much love. enjoy, and be well. â¤ď¸
note: fem. reader
genre: romance/fluff.
characters: gaho zen.
zen:
isnât very experienced with dating/romance before meeting you, but is very enthusiastic about building a strong bond. may be the type to rush into certain milestones, but treat him well â itâs only because heâs so enamored that he wants to spend every moment he can with you.
zen is a gentle presence concerning the balance of your relationship, whether you happen to be more assertive or equally as docile. he often puts your needs/wants above his shall they differ, happily satisfying you first. it is very apparent that he is wrapped securely around your finger, but with regards to healthy limits; zen appreciates someone who considers his needs just as lovingly.
he has no preference as to whether you enjoy working out/exercising or not, and wonât let it get in the way of being with you. he isnât particularly picky about appearances, so long as youâre soft and wonderful in his eyes. (also, he likes showing off for you.)
immediately notices whenever you sneak away one of his hoodies to âborrowâ for a time. itâs often difficult finding clothing in his size, so he tends to keep better care of his favorite pieces to avoid damaging them. zen loves seeing you in his clothes nevertheless, but will let you know whether theyâre safe to borrow for the night.
always, always cries during sad movies, even ones youâve watched before. please expect to comfort him for the rest of the day.
cooking together is a daily routine. zen loves cooking for and with you, and is open to learning new recipes or cuisines, especially if you belong to a different culture/ethnicity. he tends to like more healthy approaches to food, but is happy to break his diet whenever something looks too good to pass up on.
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passing by after a while /á . .á\ŕ¸
hellooo how are you?, I come to leave love to your board ËËË ę° âĄ ęą ËËËËâşâ§âËâĄËââ§âşË I hope every day is better than the last for you <3
hello, friend. iâm doing well! winters make me lethargic and a little sad, but itâs my favorite season nonetheless. iâve recently watched some movies/shows iâm becoming slightly fixated on (jjbaâs stone ocean, netflixâs castlevania, avatar: the way of water) which makes me happy, but slows my creativity immensely. iâm obsessing over too many things at once! my mind is scattered like dandelion tufts in the wind.
thank you, always, for checking up on me; i appreciate your kindness so much. your messages never fail to make me smile!! i hope youâre doing well and staying safe, too. â¤ď¸
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ramattra. (innamorare)
fem. omnic reader
no matter the days heâs spent with you, never will he tire of your beauty.
he runs a careful hand over the curves of metal, dips of steel and lining of cables that make you you. he does not see the manufacturing number assigned to you on your lower flank. he pays no attention to the designation given you by fleshly humans, who named you senseless letters and numbers to serve, to obey.
you are more than a number; none are capable of counting your worth. you are perfection, the only redemption your human creators could possibly hope to have. you have made yourself by way of your spirit, indeed, a dolce soul.
âmy love.â he calls you, leaning down to press his face to yours. cold, unflinching metal scrapes together, but it is the warmth you bring to his chest the only sensation he feels. âmy soul, my life.â
your laugh, resonance with a buzzing timbre sweet, sounds between his throat when you nuzzle closer against him. âi am well aware,â you tease, your fondness never lost on him. âyou remind me so often, so gently for a mighty omnic.â
he forgets how easily he overtakes your slimmer, feminine build. how large his hands, his arms embrace and enfold you when the two of you lay alone in his chambers. how your face fits squarely clasped between his palms, they which pull you in close to kiss about your features, each a sudden spark igniting soft laughs and even softer touches.
rays of dawnâs light fall in through a crack of his curtained window, reflecting off your entangled bodies. specks of light are thrown about the room, like freckling stars across the twilight sky.
âi fail to be mighty in your presence.â he admits, a rumbling whisper. âfor you bring me such joy none could ever replicate, a kind no other being has experienced before.â
âsurely you jest.â you whisper back, modest as always. but he feels the way your exhausts heat up in an omnicâs way of bashful expression, his words flattering deep within the wires. it makes him chuckle, pulling you snug into his lap.
ânever, soul. when i rest, i hear your voice call to me, how spring begets blossoms. when i wake, it is as if the iris itself has renewed my vigor, so strongly you sing to me in my dreams. it is no jest, and do not doubt; you are everything.â
his chest fills with the echoes of your delighted laughter, a pleasant balm in the form of sound. he holds you closer still, wishing only briefly to know what it feels like to touch, really touch, every lovely inch of you, wonderfully made as you are.
but the thought leaves quickly like it came. he has no need for skin, for flesh, for fingertips. thereâs nothing, no thread of hair, no scent or smell, no sigh of breath or press of lips he needs to love you true. he is content with the cold, the sharp and edge of metallic bodies, the exposed balljoints of limbs and alloys that form these shells you occupy.
anubis be damned. he was not created only to serve, obey, to wage war on flesh and bones.
no. ramattra was made to love you and you alone, to be an interweaving of wires and light ever seeking your devotion, your benevolence. all this and more shall he follow with loyalty closer to worship, from past to now to future until the day humanity sees you for what you truly are â a goddess of steel, the muse of his soul, the love of his finite life.
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ramattra. (flesh and all)
fem. reader. angst.
itâs been years heâs seen your face.
shambali was his home, as good a home as any, his omnic brothers and sisters and friends its true source of comfort. on occasion, a rare visitor in the form of fleshly human bones entered the temple grounds, searching for warmth in the night. there were plenty of tired, worn faces that came through those sacred doors, but none had that distinct beauty like you did.
what a thought. him, finding a flesh-thing worth beauty?
at the time, and perhaps even now, he did.
he pretended not to notice the others staring. pretended not to hear zenyattaâs whispered words of encouragement. pretended that the brush of your hands, warm, silksoft, did not move something deep inside of him. neither did the way your voice fell like snowflakes upon his audial sensors, nor the pressing of your petal-like lips to his faceplate.
ramattra could care less for most humans, rotten as they are. but when it was you, and only for you, he pretended he didnât.
now, standing mere feet before you, that face full of beauty from so long ago, he could not pretend his soul did not pulse with sadness, with love. even when your eyes caught onto the fiery destruction laid all around him, smoke and soot and screams darkening the evening air, did he once wish you hadnât stumbled upon this land â for if you hadnât, heâd never the chance to see you once more.
he says your name, and the sound is softer than a butterflyâs wing. âgo and seek shelter, heart. it is not your place to stay.â
your eyes begin to water, from emotion or ashes he does not know. âitâs you.â you say, voice a simple hurt. âitâs been you, all this time.â
âyou know it must be me.â
the words cause tears to cascade down your cheeks. briefly a memory surfaces, of nights heâd run a careful hand beneath your leaking eyes, a metallic touch providing cold comfort. he watches your beautiful face crumple, and wishes it wasnât because of him.
âgo, now,â he urges again, stepping closer. âgo, before harm befalls you.â
ramattra, ramattra, you cry, like a birdâs song on morning breezes. you human, what makes your spirit so weak? have you no thought to live, to breathe or to shine? human flesh, he thinks, does not befit your beauty. for the fleshly things he doth hates, but that soul of yours he loves so completes him.
distant voices sound closer, a warning for him to pull his troops back lest any more of his friends are lost. he imagines an emblem, round with human hope, and is assured youâll be found by lowly humans fortunate to be in your presence. as he turns his back, a whisper stops him still.
âiâm sorry.â
he turns to look at you, one last time. he hopes you see what little fondness is left in his soul, reserved for those deserving like you. âyou are never to apologize to me. it could never be from something like you, merciful and true.â
âbut if it hadnât been me?â
something lies behind the irises of your eyes.
he looks away, not daring to see it.
as he leaves you for yet another time, ramattra wonders whether the beauty of you will soon again greet him in this life; flesh and blood and sinew and all.
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