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“I want to be with you, it is as simple, and as complicated as that.”

— Charles Bukowski

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My drug tolerance has worsened in the span of months what do you mean i threw up after smoking 2 cigarettes

#thank god the grab (equivalent of uber where im from) guy was so nice and helpful #i was afraid he’d get pissed when i threw up in his car (i managed to hold it in and typed on my phone asking him if he had nylon bags lol) #but he just showed me where the nylon bags were so i could throw up in them #and gave me tissues #anyways hopefully this is a wake up call for me to be sober #graduation is coming so i most likely will get wasted unfortunately #and the upcoming farewell party for me since im leaving this company #anyways hopefully after that #i’ll stop using any sort of drug to cope even the lightest ones #my body cant tolerate drugs anymore i need to stop abusing it with unhealthy coping mechanism

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whiteness really influences how you perceive the world huh

#to not acknowledge the influence of whiteness on the subject matter because you'd already considered your whiteness as the default #anyways unfollowing more white creators as time goes on #in case future me forgets this is about me unfollowing white tumblr blogs and m/ddie d/agbaeks #after listening to her defending a/dison rae lol #lmao only addressing the internet bullying that blonde haired white girl because shes tiktok cringe #and not acknowledging how her conventionally attractive white girl/womanhood brought her to top tier tiktok stardom #and how she popped off from doing tiktok dances created by black creators that she did not credit #fucking miss “how can you tell if shes asian she could be korean” herself #tired

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Tenoch Huerta Mejía and Iliana Fox Las Aparicio (2015) Directed by Moisés Ortiz Urquidi

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a love that’s intense, all-consuming, passionate, adoring, soul deep, violent in emotion, and possessing.

#hah maybe i want that

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địt mẹ i need someone to love me like a lover and a sister

#please #and i need to love someone like a lover and a brother

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A year later and im about to leave this job

Despite the recurring mental breakdowns i do love working on my company's big events. I love working with the collaborators I love seeing them I love the chemistry they exude when they work as a team. They get on my nerves every now and then but the joy and glee they bring me is undeniable.

I love this job. I say I cannot leave because I have nowhere else to go with my incompetency but I truly love it here. I'll go back to bitching when I have to work on the upcoming task but at the end of the day I do love what I do.

#i love the people so much theyre the main reason why i linger #but its time for me to move on also ive had enough

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Gators daily free palestine moment???

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My new ship! Xie Lian and Hua Cheng from Heaven Official's Blessing!

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why do i put so much work into shit that dont mean shit

#and i have no one to blame but myself

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What level/kind of pressure do you believe will eventually result in cease-firing? what should we do ?

i don't know what we should do but this is the last thing refaat alareer, who was just killed by a targeted israeli strike in gaza alongside his family asked for:

"More pressure on the media more coverage more Palestinian voices more protests"

just more, more, more. what everyone is doing is already good. just keep doing it.

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Honestly tired of one of my friends posting ed shit every once in a while on her ig story

#i know shes in immense pain but man is it exhausting #i say friends but we’re not close and havent talked in like a year or two?

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Fucking 2 white men dropped 4 hour long video essays in the span of (over) a day im tired mostly because im still gonna make time to watch them

#finished the first one off to the second one #what if i kill myself over this

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FUCKING FINALLY SOME MUSIC FROM MISS BLONDE

At the club they dont have whippets so i opened ao3

#it was 22 #went home after 12am they played plenty of 2010s and only 1 taylor song? disappointing

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When miss blonde said “i hosted parties and starved my body like i’d be saved by a perfect kiss” … yeah

At the club they dont have whippets so i opened ao3

#also they played some 2010s hit how come miss blonde hits havent come uo #*up #not like i’ve hosted parties or anything

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At the club they dont have whippets so i opened ao3

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Fellow Travelers 1.03 "Hit Me"

#fellow travelers #to watch #i guess