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Recording how many words of fanfic I read per day (April 28)

Today: 26,874 words Yesterday: 26,168 words Top this Month: 189,795 words

I feel kind of bad for not tracking the fic updates because some really good ones have updated these past few days...

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Short cause thanks to work every idea I had disappeared lol

Oh look the first part

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Part 16 of Arc II (Part 42)

are you ready to meet ocs? no? too bad lol

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a fic that has made me laugh and has very, very much made me cry just updated... so i drew about it! power up by @pickledcarrotsandradish!! wahoo!!!

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ah fuck lads, it's rat flu time

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Recording how many words of fanfic I read per day (April 27)

Today: 26,168 words Yesterday: 42,424 words Top this Month: 189,795 words

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I just realized. I don't think I've seen anything about April in OaaHF. Where is she? What does she do in the resistence? How aware is she of Leon's situation?

Set while Leon is recovering from his first facial scar:

“No, no way!”

Leon groaned as the yell woke him, sound getting choked out by the bandages wrapped tight around his neck. Constricting his airway making it so he could never get a full breath, was always light headed. Although that could be the bloodloss.

“We need his portals, its not a-”

“I don’t care if it’s a transport mission, I don’t care if he’s at the very back line, you are not getting him out of that bed,”

Leon scrunched up his face so he wouldn’t have to deal with the light of day. Or the light of med bay. He wanted to go back to sleep and it wasn’t even the yelling that was stopping him. Pain flared along his face and shoulder in tandem with his heartbeat. Bandages pulled meticulously tight making every throb worse.

“It’s not an active mission, I’ve mapped out the points all Kraang will be avoided-”

“Then you do it!”

That voice, Leon knew it even past the haze pain. Probably helped that there were no painkillers available to keep him floaty. He sighed his big sisters voice was always soothing, well when she wasn’t yelling at him. Although he supposed she technically was.

“Ape’s I’m needed here,” Leo reasoned, his voice was deep and raspy. Huh Leon wondered if his voice sounded closer to it now, “I can’t up and leave the resistance without aleader for a minor mission,”

“So you admit it’s a minor mission!” April accused, Leon tried to open his eyes. The best he could make out was a couple of blurry figures until the light forced him to shut them.

“Minor but needed, lives are at stake here April,”

“His life is at stake!” Leon opened his mouth, but his throat was raw and the skin of his cheek pulled weirdly threatening to make him throw up if he tried. He tried anyway, why should be matter? “If he moves that wound, the wound you gave him is going to tear right open, he won’t survive that a second time,”

“April it was an accident, my hand slipped,” 

His future self was right of course. After all he had been the one to sacrifice his scarf to keep as much blood inside Leon’s body as possible. He had literally held Leon’s life in his hands. You didn’t do that for a person you were actually trying to kill… no matter how much it looked lik you wanted to seconds before.

That was fine. It was an accident. Leon shouldn’t have baited him.

“Bullshit, also I don’t give a crap, he’s not ready for field work!”

“The doctor cleared him,”

“Which you know they shouldn’t have!” April screeched, ugh Leon wished she wouldn’t, “Come on Leo you're a medic, just look at him!”

There was silence. Leon held still pretending to be asleep. Which was easy as he was teetering on the edge of unconsciousness. Only the jabs of pain and his sister keeping him present.

“It’s between him and them,”

“Him, everytime, my little brother should come first everytime,” Leon’s heart didn’t know if it should skip a beat or clench. It was the answer he wanted to hear- but one he was completely undeserving of.

“I can’t play favorites,”

“Plaaeesseee,” The pure amount of sarcasm poured into the tone would have shot three men dead, “Is that why Mikey’s locked up in the underground bunker within an underground bunker, deep fried and finished with magic?”

“April-”

“Or how about Donnie’s lab, which is enforced with thirty percent of our titanium stores?” Leo would have rolled his eyes if they wouldn't just keep rolling back into his head. Obviously it wasn’t a matter of favoritism, his brothers were simply more important than him, “And how me and Cassie keep getting shortlisted missions? Junior hasn’t left your side in months and you haven't left this safehold in a year? Yet guess who’s going on missions every other week?”

“It’s all a matter of circumstance,” Leo’s voice took on a cold and harsh tone, “I’m trying to keep everyone alive for the sak-”

“Everyone but Leon,” 

She called him Leon… when had he become Leon? When has he started solely thinking of himself as Leon? Why was his futureself exclusively Leo? The thoughts were to hard to capture, slipping through his hands like sand. He wasn’t sure he wanted to dwell on them anyway.

“Well sucks for you but I care about keeping him alive, even if you don’t,” 

That wasn’t fair, he cared about Leon he did, as much as he could. Leon didn’t make it easy, after… after everything he caused. He couldn’t blame his future self for being a bit weird. He cared where it counted. Leon would’ve been dead three times over now if he didn’t.

“This mission is needed-”

“I’ll go then,”

No, April

“April, No,”

“If it’s so important you need to drag him out of bed and risk reopening the slice you put in his neck then it’s important enough for I, commander O’Neil to take over,”

“You’re not who you are in the future, you’re not Commander O’Neil,”

“And I never will be if you keep coddling,” April spat, “Besides I don’t care about being a commander right now, I care about being a sister, so it’s either I take the mission or you cancel it,”

The silence stretched on. Leon grasped onto his threads of consciousness. Purposely twitching his shoulder to get the fiery pain to keep him awake. It was amazing how something could fill him with so much dread yet he still selfishly felt hope that they would go through with it. Because he was selfish, rather stay hidden away in bed in a back room of the stronghold while his big sister fronted all the danger.

“Fine,” Relief and dread, unfortunately not in equal measure, “You come back alive understand?”

“Oh darn, there go my plans,” April tossed back, a shade closer to her usual teasing tone but still tense.

Leo didn’t answer. Because he was Leo, even in Leon’s own mind. But the older turtle huffed. Leon listened to his footsteps fade as Aprils got closer. The dip in his bed bit him to open his eyes.

“Heya blue, you awake?” April’s hand gently brushed his forehead, Leon cringed as he opened his eyes, “How’re you doing?”

He couldn’t answer, not really. So he leaned into her palm. Flinching as the small movement pulled on his wound from neck to cheek. He hissed through the pain. Tight bandages around his throat feeling suffocating as he would have struggled to breath even without them.

“Sorry, sorry, just wanted to check in,” The details of Aprils face were hard to make out pain blurring them out, “I’m going away for a mission,”

“Do… t,” Leon tried to sound out, it didn’t come anywhere close, but hey look at that: His voice was raspy.

“Don’t worry about me, it’s my job to worry about you,” She pat his cheek, thumb rubbing soft circles under his eye, “Seriously, please, it’s ok to care about yourself, you should, once in a whil- actually all the time,”

Leon shook his head imperceptibly. She was wrong. He had done that, over and over again. Each time they lost so much. He couldn’t, not anymore. Why couldn’t she understand that? 

Leo understood that. He knew what it was like to sit with that guilt, that self hate. He knew how to work for others to ease that feeling even a little bit. As losses stacked everyday and crushed him under their weight.

“I bet your thinking something stupid right now,” April pinched his opposite cheek, the unscarred one that showed off his brilliant red stripe, “I wish you were better so I could beat my love into your skull, but we’ll have to save that for when I get back,”

Leon plucked up the strength to use his right arm. Greaspoing Aprils loosely. He needed to get his point across, even without words, he had to.

“I will be alright, you rest up,” April moved from his grasp to instead thread their fingers together, “I’m your big sister, I’m always going to look out for you, even if I have to do that by not being here,”

No, no that wasn’t what he meant. Leo jerked to grab her again. White hot flares shot through his shoulder. Fuck, wrong arm. Darkness clawed at the edge of his vision, plusing in time with the pain searing through him.

“You’re so………. Don’t let anyone convince you…..” April's voice faded in and out, “ We have always…….. None of this………… alright Leon?”

Leon, that was the last word he caught before his world faded to black. The last thing he heard his sister say. 

When he woke up.

She was gone.

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[I.D. Two panel comic using Draxum and Mikey from ROTTMNT. In the first panel, Draxum is in the foreground, wearing a bathrobe and looking extremely tired and grumpy, with his eyes closed. Instead of straight, his hair is drawn as curly. He holds up a mug that reads "Don't talk to me. Ever. F off." and his ear twitches. In the background, Mikey is drawn in a cartoony squat, his eyes wide and his mouth agape. He gasps dramatically and loudly. In the next panel, Draxum and Mikey are standing next to each other. Draxum tilts his mug towards his mouth, revealing a middle finger. He is raising an eyebrow as he looks at Mikey. Next to him, Mikey looks up with stars in his eyes, smiling excitedly, and his hands clasped in front of him. He also has sparkles near his head to show his excitement and interest. Mikey says "You have curly hair??" Draxum replies "Yeah? I've always had it, I just normally use straightening spells." Mikey responds "Can I braid it please please please please". Draxum says "I have to leave for work in thirty minutes. No." End I.D.]

okay i've seen a couple of other people drawing Draxum with curly hair and i jumped on the bandwagon lol

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Recording how many words of fanfic I read per day (April 26)

Today: 42,424 words Yesterday: 31,265 words Top this Month: 189,795 words

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what if i gave rise leo BPD...

his anger manifests in the form of self-sabotage and self harm. he asks donnie to sound proof his room when they get to the new lair so he can wreck it without concerning everyone else. before that he'd sneak to the surface and wreck an already messy alleyway

his self harm is recklessness. he gets hurt in fights as much as he can and still get away with just a "please be more careful" lecture from raph

speaking of raph, his oldest brother is his favorite person. so when raph starts to brush him to the side and distrust him, he doesnt take it well. when he does something to impress raph and all he gets is "finally..." thats when he disappears for hours and comes back home with sore arms and usually some scrapes and many bruises

he becomes a medic because they can't ignore him if he helps them. plus he can get better at hiding his breakdowns if he can take care of his own injuries

he wants to be in the spotlight so bad until the spotlight shines on him and suddenly his skin fits wrong

splinter and raph brush it off as teenage hormones. donnie shuts it out. mikey is the first person to realize leo's moods aren't normal, but he doesnt want to confront the fact the bpd comes from trauma, so he tries to support leo as best he can

april doesnt realize how much leo's mood shifts until she spends a night in the lair and realizes that leo isn't as hyper as he presents himself. he tries to mask, but he's too tired and the sudden silence from leo throws april off. it creates a rift between them. even when leo is happier around april, she knows somethings wrong- knows its not quite as genuine as she thought.

she spends more time around donnie than leo and leo thinks its for the best. eventually all his brothers- all his family prefer spending time with someone thats not him. he tells himself its for the better- the less time they spend around him, the less likely he'll be upset around them and end up making them upset

leo convinces himself he's meant to be alone and puts his all into being the team medic and spends the rest of his time alone and dissociating. he hates being the leader- having everyones eyes on him all the time. watching him. waiting for him to mess up- to act out- to prove they were right not to trust him

.... idk.. just a thought

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Spent ten mins thinking of what to type

Weiner

K bye💃💃💃

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Recording how many words of fanfic I read per day (April 25)

Today: 31,265 words Yesterday: 64,746 words Top this Month: 189,795 words

tired

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who do you think would win in a leo vs leon fight, with leon in the 2012 body

hmmm that's a good question.

Their circumstance makes them more evenly matched, for better or for worse. Because Leo would be a little more adapting due to his experiences in Rise, and Leon would have more technical experience due to training with 12 Splinter.

Then you have to keep in mind the timeline, too. At the start of their canon, I'd say 12 Leo would probably win, again to having more training with 12 Splinter and the many many spars he'd have with his bros, though he might be a little off balance due to not being in his usual fighting body. So maybe Leon would win just by having more fighting/sparring experience at that point?

Leon is a faster thinker and more adaptable, and definitely knows how to tick Leo off or at least make him think he's going for a different move than what he's doing (I think Leon has fun with fake outs). I think he'd be better at those quick decisions to take advantage of a slight weakness over trying to wear his opponent out or out skill them. And being in the 2012 body might not hinder him as much due to having generally more experience fighting in it than Leo would have with Rise, but it might depend on if he hadn't been in it in a while.

I think it also depends on how willing each of them are to fight the other. If one doesn't want to fight, they wouldn't be as offensive or want to win. Though this might vary between the two; Leo would be more trying to calm Leon down and staying defensive, while Leon might go for disarming and getting Leo in a position where he can't fight and has to chill out.

Sorry I went all analysis on you and didn't give a clear answer. But considering all of the above, I think it wouldn't be too much of a stretch to say Leon would generally win more against Leo, regardless of the body situation.

#soul switching #rottmnt #tmnt 2012 #asks

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Recording how many words of fanfic I read per day (April 24)

Today: 64,746 words Yesterday: 24,103 words Top this Month: 189,795 words

Not posting the fics today because my brain is melting. I'm even going to bed early too. I am about to have a terrible day tomorrow too. And I have exams every week for the next month or so as well. So. I'm just Not

#word counting #obviously I am coping via reading more fanfic #which doesn't help much but what else am I going to do to keep the panic attacks at bay #hm. anyway. bed now

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I actually dunno what to say here so I’ll walk away

🚶🚶🚶 baiiii

The comic before

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Part 9 … :1

Don't ask me how Ecliptica's hair fit into her helmet. Her helmet works like Finn's hat from Adventure Time👌

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Masterpost Ref sheet

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Glorious, chapter 4

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