bloody-r1bs

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gonna get drunk to forget my hunger

#ana vent

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all of txt are my th1n$po i s2g

#male thinspi #ftm ana #trans ana #ana male #male ed #boy ana #ftm ed #anor3x14 #ed not sheeren

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what will get my account sussed

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I need to be in control. I need to be in control.

I need to be in control. I need to be in control.

I need to be in control. I need to be in control.

I need to be in control. I need to be in control.

I need to be in control. I need to be in control.

I need to be in control. I need to be in control.

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Im so fucking jealous of my brother, like he is just naturally underweight, like his body type is everything I want to be, a underweight cis man, like he can eat anything he wants an you can still see his bones, and all I am is a fat starving trans man, I need to lose this weight soon or I'm going to go fucking crazy

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Ed memes

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gonna go back to doing workout vids, hopefully everyday like i used to so i can lose this stomach fat faster

#male ed #anorexsick #ftm ana #trans ana

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going back to just eating eggs and low cal snacks, ive been maintaining around the same weight since fucking AUGUST and i need to go back to losing weight, im so fucking close to have a flat stomach i just need to put in the effort

#ana male #trans ana #anorexsick #anor3x1a #ftm ana #male ed

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this is literally the lowest weight ive ever been and yet i feel fatter than ever

#ftm ed #ftm 4n4 #anorexsick #ana vent #4n4 vent #ftm ana #trans ana #male ed

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Calories In Popular Fun Sized Candy

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like i feel like this rn

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ight im basically cured of my sickness so we’re going back to our regularly scheduled program of st@rving ourselves 🫡

#ftm 4n4 #anor3x1a #trans 4n4 #ftm ana #trans ana #ana male #male ed

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sorry ive been inactive ive been sick the last few days so ive been forced to eat i’ll be back whenever im over this cold 🫡

#ftm 4n4 #anor3x1a #trans 4n4 #anorexsick #ftm ana #trans ana

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I wish calories and food didn’t exist

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IM 144.4 LBS IM FINALLY IN THE NORMAL BMI RANGE WOOOOO

#anor3x1a #trans 4n4 #anorexsick #ftm ana #trans ana #ana male #male ed

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TW-- ED - i am always pro-recovery. anyone who isn't, fucking leave.

- - - block, don't report - - -

these are just things that help me to stay as safe as possible and still see progress, and boundaries i put in place for myself to prevent permanent damage.

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VITAL TIPS THAT HAVE KEPT ME GOING:

if you're new to ed or just considering it, DO NOT purge in the traditional sense. it's a really really slippery slope, and really consumes your life in a way that's so so difficult to recover from. if you're fighting difficult cravings or just need something that's higher calories, try putting it in your mouth and chewing it, then spitting it out and quickly eating something safe. your body produces the digestive chemicals when it senses you chewing, so if you don't eat anything after you spit, it can cause serious problems high restriction

high restriction days are actually really good for keeping your metabolism up. often time with fasting or severe prolonged restriction, your metabolism slows enough that there will be little to no progress. your body will do its job and try to prevent weight loss in order to keep you going, which is counterproductive to the fast in the first place. this isn't my comparison, but metabolism is like a fire. without any fuel, it will diminish and grow weaker and slow down. if you continue to deny it in such a harsh way (ie fasting) it'll fade to just hot coals, which when you then try to ignite with a log or even branches (ie eating), it will refuse to catch and grow again. if you instead let the fire eat up all of it's fuel and then just as it begins to drop give it enough to keep it going (higher calorie days or periods of time), it will continue to burn

hydrate, hydrate, hydrate. thirst is often mistaken for hunger. always carry around water or some other hydrating beverage, and consciously make an effort to drink more then you normal do. after a while, it'll be second nature, and your body will thank you

start doing calisthenics, especially if a full workout/ cardio routine is too overwhelming or exhausting. it still works your body and helps your joint strength, and contributes to toning and resilience without building muscle

eat as much as you want of low cal things, ESPECIALLY all natural ones like fruits and veggies. i find that the easiest way to curb my hunger or oral fixation is to literally grab a whole cucumber or celery stalk and some seasoning, and just go nuts. eating an entire pint of strawberries is not bad for you, especially if it's all you feel up to eating

TAKE VITAMINS. you do not want your hair, skin, teeth, nails, or organs to suffer the brunt of your weightloss. vitamins, supplements, and mineral substitutes are a great and simple way to keep your body as healthy as possible

find a place to talk about it if you can. eds can be really isolating, and having an anonymous blog (lmao me), online friends, trusted person, journal, or anyone else who would be a safe place to vent is really important

take care of yourself, and be compassionate. you're pushing your body really hard. if you need a bag of pretzels to get through studying for that physics test, fucking eat the pretzels. they won't ruin you. just make sure to stop after that one thing- it's only there to keep you going enough to do what you need to do. it's not the gateway to a binge

eat slowly and really be conscious about what you're putting in your body. ask yourself "do i really need this right now?" if the answer is unequivocally yes, fine. but usually the answer is a no or probably not. be sure that what you eat is necessary and the best choice for what your body needs

set off-limit times of the day to prevent binges (ie not eating after 8:00 pm or before 9:00 am)

remember: you are not alone, you are not undeserving of love or recovery, if you are here you are sick enough, no one is beyond help, and you are not defined by your weight. ever.

stay safe <33

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god it fucking hurts to see other guys, cis and trans, living my dream.

flat chest, flat stomach, adams apple, sharp jaw, collar bones, protruding ribs, bony hands, pointy hips, slim arms

i will fucking have it