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my silliest diagrams

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me and my cat fr [x]

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the ephemera is my favourite part

#i cant wait to see the video and hear about your trip and see the new pages

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bought this gem secondhand and can’t get over how stunning it is 🪐 reblog is okay, don’t repost/use

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Detail of a fireplace at Blickling Hall, Norfolk. Blickling is a fine Jacobean house by Robert Lyminge built on the site of an earlier house. It was extensively remodelled in the eighteenth century.

The Fireplace, 1994

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Honestly reading Gwen and Art are not in love is just a slightly touched up merlin (bbc) fic.

Feels just as conforting.

#gwen and art are not in love #lex croucher #lesbian #lesbeans #merlin #merlin bbc

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spring horror is good because of the symbolism of death and rebirth and storms and everything being vibrant but still cold. and summer horror is good because sweltering heat and insects and long days. and fall horror is good because halloween and death and scary movies. and winter horror is good because snow contrasting with blood and freezing temperatures and long nights. btw.

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That’s it, the Professor is truly the King of Sass

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I got another raise today. Praise for my contributions to my team, validation for my hard work, and a clear overview of what my continued progression in my company could look like. I celebrated by taking the afternoon off to nap and read in bed with my husband. I painted some swatches in the space that will soon be my library in the basement of our new home. I talked to my publisher about the process of turning my 3 published books into audio books. And now I'm in the living room, writing and watching my dog attempt to entice pedestrians on the sidewalk to pet him over the front yard fence.

Next month it'll be two years since I left academia.

It was the hardest and the best thing I ever did.

Three years ago, I was having an existential crisis about my career. I was working 60+ hours a week for embarrassingly little pay as lecturer. I loved my job, but I knew that continuing to work in academia wasn't a sustainable option for me. The thought of buying a house some day was laughable. I'd sworn off relationships. I looked at my writing and I thought there was no chance I'd ever publish anything. I was nearly thirty and I felt like I'd wasted the last decade of my life and I was fighting hard against the sunk cost fallacy that whispered I should just stay. Continue as I was. Let no one know I was drowning in the life I'd always said I wanted.

See, people like to say "it gets better" when people are feeling lost or hopeless. But what they don't tell you is that in order for things to get better you often have to do big scary shit that sometimes feels like walking backward. Sometimes you have to tear things down to the studs before you can rebuild. Sometimes the path to "better" looks a lot like "worse" at first.

I was lucky that my family and friends supported my "worse" phase while I was trying to figure out what the hell I wanted to do with my life, interviewing for tech companies and taking fire fighting exams and querying agents/publishers and basically just saying "fuck it, I'll give it a try" to every available opportunity, including dating the guy who is now the love of my life. But "it gets better" requires hard work and bravery and putting yourself out there and bitter disappointment and rallying and leaning on that support system, and trying again.

So, I'm not sure where I'm going with this other than to say, for anyone else who was where I was 3 years back, anyone who feels stuck or hopeless or like they've wasted years of their life on a career or relationship that doesn't love them back: it gets better, but you have to fucking fight for it. So rally your troops. Get your support system in place. Give sunk cost fallacy the finger. And go figure out what will serve you better.

I'm so happy, now. My life is amazing. But it might have been amazing even faster if I'd dropped out of grad school after my first year when I realized that maybe it wasn't what I wanted after all. I wish I'd been brave then. Be brave now.

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all the episodes from merlin finding out morgana's evil to everyone else finding out are the funniest things ever because morgana hates everyone. morgana hates merlin the most. merlin hates morgana right back. gwen and arthur are completely oblivious and love everyone. merlin and morgana have to keep up the pretence of actually liking eachother. merlin bc he's got like no proof and morgana bc he's her dumbass brother's boyfriend so she can't do anything. imagine them trying to kill eachother and arthur walks in and they're have to pretend they love eachother like in a sitcom. it's just so funny especially in the ep when they're going to save elyon because it's just the four of them and every interaction they have is loaded with absolute hate

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One Dark Window Moodboard

Elspeth Spindle

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The banter between Elspeth, Ravyn and the king was just 10/10 in Two Twisted Crowns xD One of the few books I've read recently that I can classify as rereadable.

I enjoyed this book soooo much...definitely a fave for the year c:

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ᴏɴᴇ ᴅᴀʀᴋ ᴡɪɴᴅᴏᴡ | be wary, be clever, be good.

elspeth spindle from the one dark window duology by rachel gillig ! highly recommend this dark, gothic fantasy if you're in the market for a new read.

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